I stayed up until 6 am because my brain can't stop thinking but here are some ponies I drew 🙃

Two things I can't stop thinking about 😂

1) some people have sensitive stomachs. How can so many people watch Dom cook something so in depth and ask "where's the spice?" He's talked about having a sensitive stomach before. Garlic, onion, salt, and pepper are spices. I can't have anything more either. His comment section is insane- can he ever do anything right? That's one of my new favorite videos, he's so precious 🥹

2) The absolute trouble someone went to just to spell my name wrong and piss me off. Your phone wouldn't even autocorrect to Jenk or whatever so you did that shit on purpose. You wanted to disrespect me for no reason when that should have been a respectful conversation. It just makes me even more flustered. It had to have been a MF fan because I hope EST don't push each other's buttons that way 🙄

I know I don't rant very often anymore, I try to keep my page light and happy because a large part of my life is bullshit these days and I want to spread love and hopefully a little happy. I think sometimes it just helps to vent. Hopefully it lets people know they're not the only ones stressed about little things sometimes. I just get so fucking tired of disrespect whether its to me or the boys or my friends on here.

Kells gets hate for everything to the point that's all he can see and I'm so scared for him lately. Dom does something huge for basically nothing (I could go to Bludfest if I wanted on my disability check if I felt I'd be healthy enough, and that means it's affordable AF) and yet people say it's still corporate and overpriced until he's not sleeping and trying to explain himself as politely as possible. Cause god forbid he have anger to anything, he'd be cancelled. I watch my friends get hate on here just for speaking their mind (normally something plenty of us agree on) and I can't help but defend them. I'm still so fed up by the added disrespect of spelling my name like an asshole. Jinx- it's not that hard. Spell it right or keep it out of your mind. Or better yet, be brave enough to tag me. So you think I don't get enough disrespect every day of my life? Getting deadnamed constantly and misgendered. You don't have to fuck up the only safe space too.

Sorry if my ranting was too much, I just needed to get a little off my chest. Especially after the song release today I'm scared for Kells and I've been scared for Dom for a while. I hope you're all doing amazing and having a lovely night. Spread love so people don't have to be hurt 🖤 you never know what small act will stick with someone, let it be kindness. I love you all so much 🩷

I have to agree with the last Anon. Something is off with Niko and it worries me. I mean he is more introverted than the others, but gets extroverted when he needs too. I see a lot of myself in him. I love going out with friends and organizing stuff or represent my group, but after it I need sometime for myself to recharge my batteries. And I need time at home to unwind and process everything. I am just worried that everything is just to much for him. Maybe he puts on a brave face, does his job and represents the band but takes every break he can get to recharge his batteries. I mean the tour wasn't planed. The boys them self said that the summer was stress enough and they need a break. I hope this tour will be the last for this year!

(Sorry for the unorganized rant/vent. This had been bugging me for days and I needed this to get off my chest. Here, have a cookie as a thank you for listening to me 🍪)

Just gonna hide my answer behind a read-more, because it's just my irrelevant interpretation and I feel exposed all of a sudden 😂

As I said in the reply to that anon ask, I'm gonna have to just 🤷‍♀️ with this one because I haven't noticed much, apart from the lack of social media presence in Niko's part. He seemed alright the day before they left to the States when he was on live national TV with Joel tasting spicy bell peppers, but who's to say he hadn't just put on a brave face for that too? We just can't know

I do think the fact that The HU support gig came as a bit of a surprise (at least that's what I gathered from Aleksi's streams) is something to be taken into consideration here; I really hope they've kept to that principle of 'only doing something if every single guy in the band agrees to it' Joel talked about in that podcast just a while ago. Which I have no reason to doubt; I mean, it would be pretty awful if they left on tour when some of the guys would've rather stayed at home because x-y-z, but I don't think they'd do that to each other. Then again, someone might feel hesitant saying 'no' if all the others want to accept the offer, and pressurred by disappointing the others they'd say 'yes' even if they're not 100% into the idea 🤷���♀️ Touring is part of their job, and I'm certain each and every one of them is committed to their goals of world domination, but at the same time I wouldn't blame them if some of them wanted to just chill for a little while, because supposedly they're gonna play lots of shows next year as well, and although they may have had less shows this year in comparison to 2022, the travelling they've done especially during the past summer must have been tiring, so I do sympathize if flying across the Atlantic to spend another four weeks far away from home seems a little less tempting this time around (and what a hassle that flight was too 💀)

I also hope there was no clash of opinions regarding whether or not this tour would advance their goals the way they'd hope or anything of that sort, but again, if that was the case, I want to believe they would've talked it through. These guys have known each other for ages (especially the original five), so I like to think they all can and will open their mouth and say something if something's not alright with them, or that the others would notice if someone's not acting themselves

Of course, on a personal level, they all might behave differently in such situations. I must say Niko's still a bit of a mystery to me regarding his personality, so I'm hesitant to say what kind of behaviour would be in-/off-character for him 🤔 However, I want to believe he makes sure he gets his time to recharge on and off tour, and the same goes for all of them really. Remember that time Niko did a morning TV interview alone when Joel had suffered from insomnia the night before? They're a band of brothers, so I'm sure they'll support each other and step in when needed so that no one has to "put on a brave face" and overwork themselves into exhaustion ❤️ (obviously no one could replace Niko during a show etc. but you know what I mean 😂)

Hi Adira! I'm in a really poopy mood for whatever reason (I think it's because I'm tired but wide awake at the same time and it's 3:49 am and it's DUMB) .... so it's time for another read-through of my favorite massage therapist and his sexcapades. Thank you for bringing him to life for us. Tell PatS I love him very much next time you talk to him (open the doc). <3

I was just chatting with a couple of folks about Pats the other day and I really miss him too. I keep looking forward in my schedule and thinking that I should be able to get another session in with him... I don't know why, but GTTT series is actually one of those that are really easy for me to write and flows so readily once I sit down and start. While it takes me 3 or 4 writing sits for most stories, Pats is efficient and likes to get his done in one! 😂 So I'm like, surely there's an evening I can just sit and pound one out.... But there's always a meeting or emails to answer or an SO having a birfday or a friend I haven't seen for a bit coming to town or a show that's closing that I promised to see....

I'm sorry for all the excuses, I know you weren't asking for them. I just wanted to say that I LOVE HIM SO MUCH AND I MISS HIM AND I MISS WRITING TIME AND I'M FRUSTRATED AND IT'S HAAAAAAARRRRRDDDDD

Thank you for letting me vent.

And thank you for loving him so much. I am just happy and proud and blushing that I've written something that someone enjoys so much or that brings joy or comfort or any kind of emotion at all. That makes me smile and makes me feel better about this break I'm forced to take. You have made me happy and given me a little bit more gas to get through this day. I'm sorry that you found yourself in a poopy mood, but if Pats couldn't help it, I hope that my wanting to hug you soundly for loving him might help some. <3

Hiii🥰🥰🥰🥰 how're you? I finally remembered to send you that hyper-specific Arthur ask😭💀 I swear, if my head wasn't already attached to my body, I'd lose it😂😂😂

Okay, so!

Most afternoons when I come home from work, I've got my bag and Arthur's hoodie still on (🥹😍🙏), my shoes are on, and I'm stood in the middle of my bedroom staring vacantly into space. I gotta take my shoes and coat off, I gotta make dinner and eat it and do the dishes, I gotta shower and take my hair down and brush it and rebraid it for bed, I gotta study and holy shit Erika there's too much to do and no time and I can't breathe and -

Just Arthur walking in and seeing me frozen in place but my mind is racing and I'm so stressed I don't know what to do? I need him so much but I feel like, with 9 weeks of uni work to do in a month, he'd be so disappointed and that fact breaks my heart every damn day. If I'm never enough for me then how can I ever be enough for him?💔

This turned venty and I apologise for that! I just thought some context would help with the question😭🫂🫂🫂💕💕💕

Hiiii Erika🥺🫂💜💜 I totally understand that and I'm sorry you're always this tired and exhausted. You don't deserve that. Please try to be as gentle with yourself as you can. I love you and I'm proud of you. And please know that you can always vent or talk to me about anything and everything. Asks or DMs. Long or short messages. I'm here for you as best as I can. Well, I'm still not sure if my answer is helpful or not, but I tried. Feel free to tell me if you want to have a better response💜

Yes, Arthur walking in and seeing you. His dark brows are furrowed with concern, but there's also a little smile on his lips when he notices you wearing his hoodie. He clears his throat to make his presence known and not startle you. He knows you, you're his fawn. His sweet thing. His love. You can feel his hands on your shoulders, squeezing them gently, and hear his soft voice. Arthur will tell you that it's okay, that you are not alone. He knows how exhausted you are and that your brain feels foggy. He understands. You both know that he's been there too, mentally and physically exhausted. So he will help you, slowly, your hand in his. One step at a time. If you want and need, Arthur will help you change clothes, something soft and comfy. And you can keep his hoodie, it makes his heart melt and beat faster to see you like this. You want to be together with him and have him close to you. Arthur will bring you some snacks, a cup of coffee and a glass of water. Yes, he will eat and drink and rest with you since you're just as worried about him as he is about you. And he will help you with your hair if you're too tired and frustrated to do it yourself. He doesn't want to see tears in those pretty eyes of yours. No scissors, only gentle touches and words of comfort. He knows how much your baby means to you. And as soon as all this is taken care of, you two can curl up together in bed, holding each other. You both need some rest. You need it.

Why would he be disappointed in you? Not when he sees you working so very hard, every single day. Not when he knows the reason for all your hard work. He is proud of you. So very proud. And Arthur wishes you wouldn't be so hard on yourself and that you could see yourself the way he sees you. You're doing your best. Even though there are moments when it feels like the whole world is weighing on you. And this is more than enough. It is okay to struggle, to feel feelings and to need help sometimes. It doesn't change anything about your worth. You are deserving of love, care and happiness. You are enough for yourself. You are enough for Arthur. You always are. No matter what. And he will tell you and show you and try to make you understand over and over again. He is by your side. On good days and bad. You both take care of yourself and keep each other safe. Because you love each other. You want Arthur for Arthur. And he wants Erika for Erika. You're always enough for him. Always and forever.

im sorry you got such graphic asks about a character you like :(!! people are fine to think whatever they want but sending that to you is just completely unnecessary ;; i hope you have a nice day though :’) - sweet anon (i hope u got my last king candy ask btw! takw ur time respond but sometimes tumblr eats stuff TT)

aww sweet anon thank you so much!! yes, i absolutely did receive your lovely ask - i was planning on saving it for after therapy, to have something to look forward to 🥰💖 thanks so much for checking though Tumblr eats asks all the time and i never want anyone to think i'm just ignoring them - sometimes i'm just tired and need time to reply!!

but yes, you're absolutely right. it's okay, i was exaggerating a little - it wasn't like they sent graphic murder descriptions or anything like that. but i've noticed a trend in some social media spaces, specifically with younger people, where it's considered the norm to just start venting your hate or dislike out at people you don't know. and i find it indescribably weird. by all means, have a case for why Warren isn't a likable guy and why he should be thrown off the Empire State Building... but why say it to me, Known Warren Simp? 😂 it doesn't do much but leave me baffled!

i don't want anyone to dogpile the anon or make them feel bad, as i'm quite sure it was meant in that jovial, 'lmao i hate this dude what's wrong with you' sense that's popular in Western fandom now. and i say Western, bc i've seen people trying to say stuff like this to international fans and the translation has gone horribly - you know, things like 'THIS ART MAKES ME WANT TO KILL MYSELF FJDKDKFJ' making artists delete their art. joke hate is usually reserved for friends who are in on the joke, right? i'm no beacon of social interaction (see: autism), but i wouldn't do it myself... and i tend to block or mute on sight if i see any of that kind of behaviour.

anyway, thanks so much for being so kind, and i can't wait to reply to your King Candy ask later today 🥰🥰 i hope you have a wonderful day yourself 🔥

Wow! You're actually a lot like me. I too don't really want to be comforted in such ways. Though, yes, I told people that I'm a 'words of affirmation' type of person, but when I'm overwhelmed, I would like to be left alone to reboot myself.

Those are the times that my mind is the harshest to myself. And I'll be looking at everything in a negative glass. So if people offer comfort to me, I'd probably push them away and hurt their feelings. So for everyone's peace of mind, it's better if I'm left alone for a few hours :')

I'm sorry to hear that you're having a rough time, but if I can't offer you any advice, then I'm just going to say that it's fine to feel such ways some times. Take your time to feel okay again ♥️ And don't blame yourself for it.

It's definitely hot at my place right now, but I'm already used to it so it's fine 😂 Hope it's not too hot over there too!

Yeah idk what it is... But I hope it's somehow also helpful for people to know that they can just leave us to our own devices and we'll come out mostly okay? hsdjkhdfg

But it's not like we don't appreciate the nice words! On the internet it's kind of all people can offer so I'll gladly take it--plus it's not like irl where my brain is instantly put on the spot to think of a good response. Online we can at least walk away after our spiral-fueled vent post then come back to take our time to respond.

Super feel you on not wanting to accidentally lash out or hurt anyone. Already overwhelmed, please don't accidentally set me off >.< Even worse is that when I'm in an awful mood, my main emotions are frustration and anger and genuinely part of me is looking for a fight. Which isn't good shfjksdhfg there's a reason why I love and relate to Satan so so so much >.> I've had to work on my anger issues all my life too and I've made a lot of progress, but some days I still feel like combusting

And thank you for the words! True enough it does pass after a while (or after I distract myself). Though I am getting so tired of being so upset all the time but here's hoping that things calm down with acads I become generally okay again!!

It's unfortunately generally hot here but thankfully it's dry! My hometown thankfully doesn't have the insane humidity that the farmtown does (and in terms of dry heat, I can take way more thanks to being in Manila for so long)

One thing I always love about jikook content is that I never get tired of rewatching it, well,l I never get tired of watching any bts related content actually. so I found myself rewatching jk's graduation in the car moment bangtan bomb on YT and I always like to read the comments because I assumed for the most part that they were positive. so the moment when Jimin hands jk the flowers in the car tkkrs (the toxic ones I should say)are commenting their frustration at jm that it should have been tae to give jk the flowers not jm because: well boyfriend's🙄🙄 but I know tae said him and jm both got the flowers for jk so it really wouldn't have mattered who gave it to jk right? Although I confess because I'm a jk/km supporter that I am biased and it made more sense to me that jm would be the one to give jk the flowers and I'm not saying I'm right or anything, but at least I acknowledge that tae said he and jm bought it for jk not just jm or just tae. idk I just wish that sweet moments like these aren't turned into shipping wars in the comment section 😶😶 sorry for my vent/rant. love your blog love all your detailed info/content 💜💜

Hello! That whole graduation in the car video is hard to watch the the intense amount of flirting being done, BUT the flower moment is not a jikook moment or a taekook one. I would says it's a BTS one, the flowers were from all of them. JK left first and BTS grabbed flowers from the supermarket. They just don't all fit into one car so the flowers were given in the car that JK was in, the VminKook car. Lol and honestly, Jimin was not super sweet with his delivery. He literally smacked him with the flowers 🤣

Tae trying to play it off as some grand giant thing they worked so hard on, JK once again calling him out on the exaggerating. Lol why are they always messing around? 😂 Jimin being done with them "ANYWAY" he says, moving that conversation right along. Love them.

Maknae line are individuals. Not EVERYTHING has to do with a ship. They are their own people first and foremost. Lol sometimes an interaction is simply that, an interaction. It made more sense for Jimin to hand him the flowers for the simple reason that the flowers were in the front seats, not the back. It didn't look like he had them with him, just grabbed them from wherever they had been stored. If they were closer to Tae, he would have handed them over, etc. Sometimes we can simply enjoy them to just enjoy them and that's okay too 💜

And yes, shipping wars have no place in the comments under official videos or posts. It's weird as heck when that happens.

HELLO!!

HI HOW ARE YOU? I DIDN'T SEND AN ASK IN SO LONG

Sorry I was sick and then a bit tired because I had my exams so I could not text.

How was your break?

Also did you know wrecking choas in family whatsapp group is sooo satisfying?

I did that like day before yesterday and let me tell you it was like I went to therapy and now my skin has cleared my crops are watered and I'm a 100k in my bank account kind of happy will see how long it lasts but it's good

i wanna clear tho that I don't always argue...and I really want to respect everybodys opinion but some peoples opinions are just so terrible and make zero sense.

The tired part also included that I had limited screen time because of the incident because "cupcake is always so well behaved this kind of behaviour is not appropriate for girls and then I was like you are older aren't you supposed to be mature? Okay mb I did say tad bit too much but I said what I said

Okay I'm halfway done with my rant now it's your turn to rant/vent about something

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So. I had my Moots today. So I needed to prepare the memo, which is a ginormous task. It's just pain. You read the moot problem a couple of times. Identify a couple of issues. Then you start researching. Boy, there is so much research to be done. You read the books you have. then there is the common google, to find cases to site. If you find cases then you go to Manupatra, and find cases decided preferably in the HC or SC. So do that. If you cannot find enough cases then you have to just type in key words and find cases which deal with the issues you are going to use. Once you have enough, you start formatting. Which is again, fucking pain.

All that so that you can fuck it up in your speech. I fucking botched it. The judges asked me a couple of questions. I panicked the fuck out of it. Ate up half of my speech. And finished pretty much in 7 minutes when I had around 13 minutes. But I did better in the rebuttals. Like much better. Okay maybe not better, better but still. I rambled a little bit, I should have been more focused and should have asked pointed questions. But the judges were nice and they gave good feedback.

It was scary and my hands were shaking like crazy. That happens a lot, it's why I can never take a good photo😂😂.

But it was good kind of scary. I had fun, sure they could have made my life more miserable. But they didn't, so that didn't happen and I am grateful.

I hope you were not too sick. Was it the 'mausam badal raha hai' sick thing? Also exams now. Pre Boards? Or boards? How did they go?

I completely agree. Everyone has a right to have their own opinion, but, why do you have such a shitty opinion bro?

What did you do, exactly in the group?

My sister and I do not participate in the group other than the occasional birthday wishes. There is way too much RSS crap in the group.