Ancient Analogues.

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How are you today? I’m doing okay. My classmates in my least favorite class, Newspaper Layout and Design, have been a big pain in my ass and I’ve been carrying the entire class on my back because no one has the initiative to start giving a fuck about the requirements (I’d want to not give a fuck either, but someone has to and I’m probably the most grade-conscious person in that class) – but it’s a Friday and I’m having amazing coffee right now so it balances out. Do you have mean comments that replay in your head and haunt you? Not really. Some days I’ll remember the one hate comment I got on my ask.fm which led me to delete my account altogether, but it doesn’t bother me because I kinda proved that person wrong eventually.

For context, they told me I should stop wishing to be in UP so bad and to actually pass the entrance exam first before I’m allowed to talk about how much the university means to me. Joke’s on them – I passed the UPCAT not long after. Doesn’t mean I’d forgot the demotivating message, though.

^If so, do you know why that is? I always want to please people and thrive on compliments, so I’m bound to remember every single bad thing anyone tells me. What are you currently worried about, if anything? I’m worried about my deadlines for my Layout class. The requirements are a group effort, and so long as my classmates don’t start moving, I can’t really pass my parts anyway because I have to wait on them. UGH Did you go Black Friday shopping this past Black Friday? Pls stop asking me first-world references

^If so, what was the best deal you got? Have you ever been Black Friday shopping? What is your favorite Thanksgiving food? Do you wear a watch every day? No. Wearing them always makes me feel like there is something on my wrist, and that bugs me haha.

Pineapple or pepperoni? I don’t like either. All-cheese pizzas are my favorite. What food makes you feel nauseous? Not to say that it makes me feel like vomiting or dizzy, but I was never really a big fan of blue cheese. I can handle it on my pizza and sometimes its flavor jibes well with the other cheeses, but the taste always sticks out so I’m not particularly obsessed with it. Have you ever seen a spirit? No. When you have your own house someday, what color Christmas tree do you want and how will you decorate it? I want it traditional, so I’m going with green. It’s gonna have all sorts of decor like baubles, snowflakes, tinsel, leaves, etc. My family has always made an effort to make our trees look super nice and detailed and I wanna pass that on when I have my own place and maybe even kids down the road. Name 3 youtube channels you've been loving lately. HiHo Kids, Mankalor, and Moon Jeongwon’s vlogging channel. Do you have a youtube channel? I do but it’s only so that YouTube can tailor my homepage to what I’m into at the moment, and so that I can like/dislike videos haha. I don’t post my own content. ^If so, does your family approve? ...I don’t think they should have an opinion about me owning a YouTube account. But in any case, they don’t really mind. What do you think about the new "for kids" or "not for kids" rules? Like, parental control? I guess it’s a good thing. Kids have always had very makulit hands and end up seeing stuff they’re not supposed to. Makulit is a Filipino word that defies translation, but I guess the closest thing to it is either mischievous or restless.

Case in point: Back when I was in high school, I was working at one of the library computers when these Grade 1 kids sat at the computer beside me. They were searching images of the movie Frozen and it was all normal for a bit, but they scrolled too far down and eventually they landed at this very questionable manip of Elsa and Anna doing some stuff that kids that age definitely shouldn’t be seeing. ^ Do they affect you? No. I’m neither a kid nor a parent. What is the most disgusting thing you have ever eaten? [slight trigger warning for the vegans!!! Sorry, Filipino cuisine can sometimes be a lot to take for non-Filipinos]  I’m super adventurous when it comes to food so I haven’t found anything I’ve tried disgusting. I don’t particularly like the flavor of bopis (pork/beef lungs and heart) and pinapaitan (goat and ox innards meat flavored with bile, tamarind and chillies), but I don’t find them disgusting, and I’d still eat them if that was served at a family party.

What food is so disgusting you could absolutely never eat it? Dog/cat meat. Do you like sushi? Love sushi. What color was the last sweater you wore? Gray. Name 3 material items on your wish list right now. Nintendo Switch, a new pair of shoes (wow I really am a grown-up), and cash. Are you planning on doing Vlogmas (for youtube) this year? No. Zoella’s the only person I know who still does lmao Have you ever done Vlogmas before? No. Have you ever made money off of youtube? Omg no Are you happy that the year is coming to an end? SO HAPPY. 2019 felt like it was three fucking years long. Have you ever bought a designer purse? I haven’t bought any with my own money. Do people tell you that you look sick when you wear a certain color? No? ^If yes, what color? Do you consider yourself creative? Not at all. ....outgoing? Kinda. It depends on the situation. If I’m meant to be doing something I like or hang out with people I know, I can be very outgoing; but if it’s an unfamiliar situation, I tend to be more shy and let other people lead the way. ....free-spirited? I don’t think I’d call myself that. ....shy? Yep, at first. ....socially awkward? It’s a hit or miss. Sometimes I’m great with socializing; other times I just miss the mark. Do you often feel alone? Mostly during the Christmas season. Otherwise it’s an on-off thing for me, but the loneliness is for the most part turned off. What could be the theme song to your life? I never know what to answer in questions like this. My life has had a lot of phases and it’s hard to sum it all up into a single song. List three new songs you've discovered this year that you like a lot. I Saw You In A Dream by The Japanese House, the Summer section of Vivaldi’s The Four Seasons (thanks, Portrait of a Lady on Fire), and Joji’s Dancing in the Dark. If you could win a shopping spree in any store, what would it be? Fully Booked. Do you wear jewelry often? Very seldom. List 10 of your favorite girl names. I list them on surveys all the tiiiiiimeeeeeeeee. Uhh Olivia, Mia, Arden, Harper, Juliana/Julia, Isabella, Elizabeth, Charlotte, Lily, Emilia. I’m feeling the name Eloise tonight too, so let’s throw that one in as a runner-up. List 10 of your favorite boy names. Miguel, Joaquin, Javier, Jacob, Mason, Noah, Liam, Seth, Leon, Luis. Andres is also good, so I’m putting that in even though it’s name 11. List 10 girl names (or up to 10) that you don't really care for. That’s so many and possibly offensive :((((( I’ll just go with boomer names like Sally, Linda, Agnes (sorry to my Lola, who’s named Agnes), Karen, Pamela, Susan, Brenda...and maybe more common ones like Angela, Marie, Sam. List up to 10 boy names that you don't really care for. Not a big fan of boy names in general, but ones I don’t particularly like nor dislike are names like John, George, William (lmao just naming all the royals now I see LOL), Benedict, Jeffrey, Donald, Michael, Daniel, Drew, Mark. How old were you when you found out Santa wasn't real? Five. I didn’t find out; I just put the clues together. Do you own a Polaroid camera? Nope. I want one though. ^If so, what color is it? List one past regret. The one dumb thing I did in one of my classes where I forgot to submit something on time, and I had to make do with a late submission, which would already have deductions. Do you own Converse, and if so, what color? i used to; they were red. I stopped wearing them after a bit though so my mom threw them out. We have white Chucks now – my sister brings them with her in her dorm but when she’s home, I’d borrow it sometimes. What color was your senior prom dress? Let’s plz avoid talking about the stuff we purposely want to forget Are you colorblind? No. Name the people you know who are colorblind. Nobody, other than the colorblind folk on Twitter/Tiktok who make wholesome videos separating different colors of Skittles or M&Ms heh. What's one pet peeve of yours? People who DRIVE IN THE MIDDLE OF TWO LANES YO WHAT’S UP WITH Y’ALL Would you ever consider a career in writing? Sure, I’m kinda headed that way anyway. What was the first thing you wanted to be when you grew up? Astronaut. What was your first favorite color? Purple. What is your favorite color now? Pink or black. Do you know a lot of people with the same middle name as you? Yeah, Isabelle is very common. But where I live it’s usually spelled Isabel or Ysabel. Do you like the name Brynn? Not really. It sounds very 2010ish, wherein people would give their kids double-N’s like Kaitlynn, Rylinn, Brooklynn, Ashlynn and I was never a big fan of that trend (except for Finn, Flynn, and Quinn, which I find cute). List five names you hate the spelling of. Literally those 4 names I just mentioned. Oh and in the Philippines, there’s this trend of putting H’s on otherwise normal names, e.g. Jhulia, Mhae, Ghabriella, Mhark...it’s common in the lower classes so I don’t judge, but like it’s just not really not my taste lmao. Do you watch Niki and Gabi on youtube? No. Do you watch Brooklyn and Bailey? No. ....Bethany Mota? No. But I did see her once when YouTube held a FanFest here in Manila and she was part of the lineup. ......Gillian Bower? ....LaurDIY? .....Family Fizz? ....Chronically Jaquie? No to literally all of those. Have you ever purchased a youtuber's merch? No they are always way too expensive lol ^If so, what did you buy?

So I saw comet and dear Evan Hansen.

I bought a hat from DEH, a shirt from comet and a Polaroid camera with the rest of my money because what can I say I want instantly printed pictures of New York. I liked comet better then dear Evan Hansen but I did really like how Ben Platt portrayed Evan and was honestly scared he was having a panic attack on stage. Also I was 3 rows away from the stage, so I could see all his sweat and wooo boy that poor guy must be tearing himself aPART. OKAY BUT NOW THAT IVE TALKED ABOUT DEH I CAN INFO DUMP ON COMET YES? Okay. So I went into comet without my parent and my sister because they wanted to eat so they had to wait outside with their food, plus we had an extra ticket we were trying to give away. The hallways leading to the theatre ( where you can buy drinks, merch and tickets) had a really cool Cold War Russia vibe. I believe I saw something empowering with the word pussy on it and that made me happy. Anyway, so I stopped by the merch stand and the guy was so sweet! I had to ask if he was open because there was hardly anyone there and he showed me his favorite shirt which I ended up buying ( the one with the portraits and prologue lyrics!). I was wearing a ' so broke I can't pay attention' shirt because it's soft and I love it and my usher read it and said she wanted one! She also saw my DEH hat and asked if I liked it and I was like " oh my gosh yeah it was amazing but like... everyone in line kept making a big deal out of its nine tony noms and I'm like, comet has 12??" She laughed and it was 👌👌GOOD! Anyway so before the show started someone from ensemble ( I'm so terrible at names, she has red hair and is lovely??) came and talked to us and asked who in our section had read war and peace and I was the only one which made me feel cool sksksks. also I was hungry because I'd chosen comet over food and they threw a pierogi at me so I was like... yes... amazing... the comet truly cares about my wellbeing. THINGS ABOUT THE ACTUAL SHOW/ ACTING ( spoilers??) - Lucas Steele!! He held off a bunch of notes just for giggles and it was so much fun. Once during the abduction a few people near me tried to start the song back up with their shakers and he just was like " no" and we all waited. Amazing - I liked how the characters kinda conducted a little bit. - JOSH GROBAN's LIL WADDLE. -JOSH GROBAN IN DUST AND ASHES. -just josh GROBAN tbh. - Denée Benton being in only a corset and underwear ( I'm sure there was more under that but shhh) on stage made my little gay heart flutter. She's so tiny and gorgeous and amazing. - I saw Lulu as Helene but!!! Charming was still good. - when Nat throws her hands up and says " so it must be alright!!!" I cry - MMMMM THE MAKE OUT SESSION AT THE ACT BREAK?? V nice. The symbolism with the door? Positively ripped my heart out. - Andrey in letters?? Making me wanna die like a true friend. - pierre plz put the drinks away that's not a healthy coping mechanism let's go get you some therapy son - /mARYA/ -wHAT???? - you beat that bad Anatole man. Beat him. Also Anatole flipping his shit when Pierre tells him how bad this thing is?? Amazing. -Helene getting up to defend herself? So amazing. I love her. - ANDREY PLEASE DONT HIT PIERRE HE LOVES YOU HE JUST WANTS YOU TO BE HAPPY AND NOT SABOTAGE YOURSELF BECAUSE YOU THINK NO ONE WILL EVER TRULY LOVE YOU AND THOSE WHO DID ARE DEAD - NATASHA IN THE END OH SHES SO SMALL? Denee is so adorable. -"*broken I noise" *natasha stops and looks at Pierre* "huh oh that wasn't me must've been the wind" -IF IF I WERE NIT MYSELF BUT THE BRIGHTEST HANDSOMEST BEST MAN AND IF I WERE FREE,,, I WOULD GET DO W N ON MY KNEES THIS ISNTANT,,, AND ASK YOU FOR YOUR HAND? AND FOR YOUR LOVE?? -"unable to find the sleeves" god help him - that comet tho!!! - STAGE DOOR! A lot of ensemble members signed for me? I haven't double checked but I think Andrey did too. And solokhov. Josh GROBAN did!! He's so lovely. He's got such a kind face, he can do no wrong. - seriously. The man could hit me with a car and I would apologize for hitting his car.

WISHLIST 2017

ITS SUPER LONG SO U GUYS DONT HAVE TO WORRY TOO MUCH ABOUT LOOKING FOR SPECIFIC ITEMS jk its long cus im greedy. but like for real no pressure. Its long cus theres a lot of people coming. 

Sesame street stuff (I like the whole gang. But my faves are abby, elmo, cookie monster and oscar)

Slime LOL (im jk ing. plz get me other stuff)

Heely ( those shoes with a wheel at the back. No specific colour. Im chill with anything not too ugly. I trust u. Im a size 36-37. Reason for wanting this: unfulfilled childhood) (I dont mind second hand) (idk if u can even find these in adult size) (it would be a miracle)  

The most useful HL bio notes/textbook/study guide you can find.

3DS games. ANy cute games. Shit like nintendogs or cooking mama is great. (I dont mind second hand)

Buy yourself something nice while shopping for my gift. you deserve it.

Gorilla pod. my current tripod is so fucking huge.  Medium sized?? I dont need the biggest one but big enough for a small- medium sized camera. This would be useful. 

Come for Take: 1 film screening 2nd august 2017.

Big Barrel Hair Curler (looser/big barrel) (1 half inch - 1 three quarter inch)

A hot angmor man (bring him along to the party) (he is automatically invited) (rly just bring him) (we have enough food)

David dobrik’s merch  (I will literally cry) (I LOVE THE CLICKBAIT SWEATER/SHIRT) (or like any of Alex Ernst’s merch) 

David Dobrik himself 

Have a celebrity wish me happy birthday on social media. I will print it and frame it up. Even better if its David Dobrik.

Organise a blind date for me. Open to any gender. Make sure they are willing pls. 

Sephora gift card 

cute onesie

high quality fidget spinner (i want those that spin rly fast) (im not kidding. I need to know how fast they can spin)

One of those iphone cases where the the water moves within the case and stuff flows around. (i have an iphone SE/5s)

Learn the lines of Despacito and sing it at the party 

Draw a picture of me that best describes me. 

In the middle of the party, stand up and shout “Amber, if you were a vegetable you'd be a cute-cumber.” do it when everyone least expects it.

Then have a friend stand up and shout “Did u mean cute-amber?”

Im guessing only raj and sudhee would wanna do that bit.  

Raj: “Am I in your wishlist”

Yes. I want Raj wrapped up in gift wrapper. 

Victoria secret perfume fragrance thing (something sweet smelling. like a vanilla or candy scent)

STRAWS THAT HAVE THOSE FLAVOUR BEADS IN THEM. (I WANT VANILLA OR CHOCO FLAVOUR) 

any clothing item that is cute