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phlavours · 2 months

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Sorry I haven’t posted in a while…I feel like this is a really long creative slump.

The need to create just hasn’t hit me for agessss which I find upsetting as I love making things! I just cannot gather the motivation. Even just playing games is hard

Sometimes it feels like I’m mourning my love of old hobbies but I don’t want to move on from them 😢

#sighhhhh I need a holiday #and/or a new job #just want to love making and drawing again but adult life happens and I feel so tired #so much of my life rn is going great and I love it but I wish I’d fall back in love with creating #shut up lou

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hajihiko · 2 years

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every time I come across Content that isnt my own I get the thoughts and thinks. Too tired to do anything about it except this ig

#Coming to terms with the fact that I can share shitty dumb doodles and tag them even and it's not a crime #I'm not quite Ants In My Brain levels but the brains are scattered rn.#Anyway I love a relationship that is unlabeled and unknowable but gosh damn it is sincere and devoted #I was thinking of that 19 days bit. 'you're the strongest most badass little mo' or sth #ANYWAY! Not confident enough to tag this w my art tag so #Fuyuhiko kuzuryu #Hajime hinata #Kuzuhina #Attempting to go full ramble in the tags after the actual posting bc I just got shit to say I guess #Not valuable shit but shit nonetheless #They're good for each other they build each other up. Fuyuhiko was putting so much faith in Hajime from the get-go #Hajime is like dont give me too much credit no I dont wanna think about my talents. And Hiko is like nah man you're great (in his own way)#And Hajime encourages so much growth in Hiko which is WHY I think Hiko is so passionate in his loyalty #Hajime makes Fuyuhiko smile and laugh and reflect on his behaviour and talk about his experiences #They laugh TOGETHER in the middle of the killing game which is v sweet #Fuyuhiko is DESPERATE to prove that he's changed and that he wants to do good now and Hajime is just like 'okay you got it'#Like thassit. And then when they find out Hajime wasnt a talent student Fuyuhiko is like 'oh ok'#They accept each other very readily and they trust each other so much and idk maybe my brain is broken but #I FEEL like I feel a sincerity in their friendship #Like it's for life man they're already making plans for the future when they're friends (hiko especially)#Yeah I guess I'll save these tags. Idk I'm a little Ill of the Brain rn

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carnivalcarriondiscarded · 5 months

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im devastated. i got a microwaveable curry from costco and. its not good. Why

#I JUST WANT FLAVOR. PLEASE. THE LACK OF SPICES IN MY LIFE RN-#i didnt see that the label said 'mango'#and its unexpectedly peppery #two flavors i Do Not Like!#which is deeply unfortunate bc i can taste how good it is Under those two prevailing flavors!#i wasted rice on this....#i thought i was about to have a decadent as fuck breakfast...#now im just sad! i miss having access to so many different places for the occasional takeout...#no thai... no indian... no chinese... no korean... no japanese... no mexican...#im Suffering out here. i can go get subway or mediocre burgers. thats pretty much it #cmonnnn american cuisine tends to be so fucking bland.... i want Flavor... where is the Flavor....#my taste buds are crying. they're sobbing. they are Wailing #absolutely unprompted #ive started to daydream about all my favorite restaurants ive been to #brazilian barbeque... shabu shabu... my beloved chinese takeout location... korean bbq... roadside tamale stand...#farmers market bao vendor... french bakery... the place with Banger pad see ew... the sushi restaurant with awesome bento & veggie rolls...#the boba store with delicious dragonfruit bowls... mall mongolian bbq... hibachi.... tea houses... many many more...#MAN IM MAKING MYSELF SO HUNGRY #nothing in this house or in this town will satisfy me #one of my great loves in life has been taken away! Flavor! delicious food! Where Is She!

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oatbugs · 1 year

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i feel conflicted abt my relationship...need advice etc . in tags . pls i need input sm

#i love my gf a lot and i think our relationship is doing rly good rn . i miss her a lot bc im in a diff country to her but ill see her #in a few weeks etc. anyway things are good....HOWERVER. i am worried abt . our future #like u are supposed to live in the moment and have fun and be young etc etc but this is like..the fact that its going well #is making me consider how our life paths would go tgth and if it would be fair to stay in a relationship u know wont work forever. like #this was one of the reasons why i felt hesitant at first etc. basically i swore to myself i would only date an academic or at least someone #who like. has. A Thing. that they are working towards that they are rly rly passionate abt. bc i thought it just wouldnt work out otherwise #and it seemed after a while of talking that she IS like that...shes applying for a graphic design degree and she seems to genuinely #love art etc so much and also she is amazing at it. HOWRVER...she hasnt drawn in a while #and is working a min wage job despite meaning to quit for ages...and as far as im aware #she still hasnt made a portfolio...etc etc. but im so confused bc like...shes great and ik she can do it i just dont #understand why she wont. she could also get an internship etc in the relevant field but i still dont get it...and its not my place to be #pushy abt it. like i already suggested these things and asked abt them but i dont want to ask any more bc like. its her choice #what she does w her life etc. but anyway its like...am i being pessimistic/impatient and everything is gonna #go well for her or do i hold genuine concerns. and if the latter/both potentially...is it unfair to be like #hey babe ik things are amazing rn but we have to reevaluate bc idk if in 10 yrs i would be happy w where we are #my friend was like. Break Up W Her from the beginning bc he thinks u shouldn't get into a relationship w smn whom you think will not also #elevate u in some way..and ur life paths dont align etc...but he is genuinely married to his academics like hes sworn off #love so i didnt rly listen bc hes rly extreme w his. love gets in the way of academics. etc #but also his point was valid i think? that you want the person u spend ur life w to elevate you. u want them to challenge you and make you #want to work harder and be better and achieve more and more...and i do want that and i have been trying to be that for them #but A) i can only be that to a reasonable extent for them before it starts being like nagging/being pushy and #B) i feel like if they end up going the way they are rn they can never be that for me. is that bad #like am i a horrible person for thinking this way. obviously i am not casting a moral judgement on her or anyone #for whatever path in life they choose to go down but also is it like...Silly to give up on a perfectly good #relationship bc ur like. as it stands i do not see you walking alongside me in 10 yrs etc #like im lich rally 20 . but what if it DOES end up going rly well and it DOES end up being thr case that we end up staying together #and then im like. feeling discouraged bc my partner in life is just not the kind of person i imagined being w when i was 19 or 20...#like in terms of careers etc. more importantly is this a discussion i should have w her . bc i literally do not know how to raise this #without sounding like a dick but is that bc i...am being a dick? is this a bad thing ?? is this thought not that of a good person ?#it sounds so WEIRD to be like hey babe either u have to start being more ambitious and insane abt ur art or i might break up w you. like :/

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hikeyzz · 4 months

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#anyway um happy thursday i hope y'all are havin a great day thx for following me and dealing with my antics i rlly appreciate you all so mu #esp all my beloved moots y'all are so so precious to me #anyway don't keep reading unless you wanna know what goes on in my dumb idiot brain all the time #i would simply love to not be in pain and suffering anymore #i feel like i'm never going to feel well again #and idk how much longer i can keep going like this #like this life is not so great that it balances out the absolute suffering i endure #so .#why am i doing it??#i never expected to live this long to begin with which is cool whatever like i chose to keep living #but i also expect to have a short life because of my health and my genes #and there's been some comfort in that where i feel a sense of ease knowing i'm not trapped in this life and there is an end #but so far my life has been that i am in poor enough health is seriously disrupts my life but only mildly disables me and does not actually #pose a risk to my ability to stay alive #like none of my health issues are fatal or life threatening in any way #they just seriously make it HARD to live and thrive and bc of that i'm like in disability limbo #and i don't wanna do it anymore #and trust me when i say i have thought soooooo much on it and am TRYING to make it worth it i am TRYING to make this life livable #i just can't keep living like this and my options rn are very limited #i want to ... so bad yet i keep trying and it just really really isn't worth it in my eyes #i don't know much longer i can hold on. i don't think i want to much longer #hikey #talks from ur local sexy psycho <3 #disabled lyfe

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non-un-topo · 1 year

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Considering taking a week off to try and get some energy back

#but i'm not sure if a break will make me worse. hmm..#i have so many projects i want to work on but my brain is just... congested and dull. no inspiration and no new ideas come out #i've been out of school for a few weeks now and i don't think i've relaxed at all. like i'm so exhausted i can barely get up the stairs #not sure exactly what's going on but i'm also dealing with other people's stressors in life rn and it's very overwhelming #i really just want to draw and write now that i have the time but i can't create anything...#hoping that after tonight i'll start to feel better. the build-up waiting for the stressful event is always the worst.#i just wish Things would stop happening? it's relentless and utterly exhausting at this point. i can't even begin to recap.....#being p much the sole supporter of a friend who is going through tragedy after tragedy while i had my own family tragedy and school #at the same time has really been....... not fucking great. in fact i'm very close to getting her bf's number so i can yell at him #to get his ass back over to canada to fucking help his girlfriend during possibly the worst time of her life. he should be here. period.#so i'm going to dinner. i'm going to help her and listen to her unload for the day because i love her. and then i'm going to sleep #for 12 hours

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farmersliga · 8 months

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never realized how much my everyday life could benefit from earplugs until now

#so i got these fancy ones for when i went to the ts concert #and it was super great cause like i didnt go deaf from the crowd lmao #but today i was just at home and there were a lot of people #and i got overstimulated #but the earplugs helped!#and rn im hanging with my niece #whom i love very much and all #but shes super loud and i find it hard to be around her voice sometimes #so with the earplugs i can still hear but its not too sharp and i love it #the life and times of liz

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daydadahlias · 1 year

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How are you doing?

#pigeon #anon #doin good two thumbs up. u didnt ask for a play by play of my day but ur sure gonna get it now #went mother's day shopping w/ my best friend today so i wasnt online much #i got my mom a super cute little bracelet !! so im v excited to give it to her #then we into this clothes store that was way too expensive but i loveeee looking at clothes so that was fun #a fun fact abt irl jess is that i have a clothes addiction i love fashion sm aaa <3 #and then it rained and i love the rain and i walked my dog <33 #and my best friend stayed over for a bit #and we watched Ant Man and that was fun #and then i got upset abt smthn but what's a blip of irritation in an otherwise great day!#then i made chocolate chip cookies to celebrate something personal #oh oh and i went to olive garden today for lunch w/ my best friend (living large ik) and the waiter was SO nice to us!#he gave me a free sweet tea to go and also a WHOLE CUP of those little chocolates!!!!!!!!!!!#thank u kevin shoutout to kevin #now im editing a chapter of my fic and i loveee editing so that's super fun #and yeah !! life is beautiful life is a blessing i couldnt be happier to be alive!! woo!!#i have White Collar on the TV rn and it's making me so happy <3 love this show <3 #just writin' my lil fics resting easy #thanks for asking!!

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b0mblover · 7 days

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Hate, in Every Sense of the Word.

By: J

major tws for; suicide mention, domestic abuse, abuse, sexual assult mention, murder mention, (really just alot of violence tbh) self harm mention

uh, sorry? that theres so many tws, ig also minor tw for mention of sex too.

uh haha i uh, can you tell what happened tonight? it wasnt even the worst one, just, im tired of it.

talk abt living out of spite bc mannnn, thats all i been going off of for a good while now!

i uh, i really wanna make a certain food bc um. (LOOK I WANNA MAKW A LESS OILY FUCKER OKAY) but my father is awake meaning my mother will be too soon but im scared to even go out of my room bc theyre prob gonna fighttt.

hhhrbd okok ill shut up for now, go ahead and read the angry jirou bullshit ig 😭

(oh yea, if it wasn’t obvious. im talking about my mother in this.)

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yknow,

you havent been a great person

or a good one even.

yet you still question as to why i dont love you

or like you,

maybe you have an idea of how much i hate you.

maybe not

i dont really care about your feelings.

at all.

not now.

i put up with this for fucking 14 years.

my entire fucking life.

ive put up with your shit.

but now?

now im done.

you have no idea how badly you fucked up.

when he said that “im sorry im a fuck up”

yknow.

he mightve not been right for what he did.

but,

it was just a mistake.

it was a goddamn mistake.

you have any idea how many times ive uttered those words too?

how many times ive repeated them?

how many times i fucking meant it?

just because you “had it bad” doesnt mean shit to me.

you have no goddamn right to treat others the same way.

dont give me that “i dont know how else to act!”

bullshit.

bullshit you dont.

you treated your damn boyfriend just fine!

you had a goddamn kid

you had two goddamn children.

with this man that you fucking DESPISE.

you knew it back then too.

you told me you did.

you fucking told me.

almost nothing can compare to the anger i feel to you right now.

nothing.

you have no right to act like that.

no.

you have no goddamn right to hit another fucking living being.

for such a simple mistake.

i dont care if he talked about it since friday.

i dont give a fuck if he talked about it for months.

you.

you as a goddamn human.

have no right.

none.

in the slighest.

to hit another living being.

for talking about something in your eyes “too much”

or making a mistake.

youre a hypocrite.

need i remind you?

you said that after you broke up with the man you were having an affair with.

that youd be a better person.

stop the fights.

stop the beatings.

stop all of it.

and everything would be okay!

.

i didn’t believe you for a goddamn millisecond.

youre a liar.

just how you said i was.

you didnt quit.

you didnt stop.

hell two months after you hit him again!

you threatened to kill him and yourself!

cmon.

dont you get it yet?

i fucking despise you.

maybe to a degree i feel shocked.

but.

i really dont think thats it.

youre the root of my problems.

every single last fucking one.

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need i remind you as how i had to learn to cook, because you were too busy with your damn boyfriend to help me?

.

need i remind you how when i tried to show you that i was fucking cutting myself when i was 9 you only talked about how it looked ugly?

.

need i remind you about how many times you said that you didnt care if i hurt myself as long as no one can see it?

.

need i remind you about how you ignored the rope burn on my neck god knows how many times?

.

need i remind you how you denied fucking multiple peoples sexual assault because “it couldntve been like that”?

.

need i remind you of how many times i almost had to be hospitalized because of your neglect?

.

need i remind you of how many nights i spent alone, in the cold, in the dead of winter, just because you wanted to fuck your boyfriend?

.

need i remind you of what you yelled at me so many times?

.

need i remind you of what i seen?

.

need i remind you of how many times you blamed your abusive behaviors on medication?

.

need i fucking remind you of my entire purpose?

.

i dont care about your feelings anymore.

i gave up years ago.

but now.

i dont feel just numb for you.

i hate you.

in every sense of the word.

.

i dont care of what you or anyone else thinks of me.

.

i dont care about what you think of my appearance.

.

i dont care if you think im too thin or fat or whatever word youll use next.

.

i dont care about what you think because you’ll hate me no matter what.

.

you thought id stop being xxxx when you broke up with him.

you yelled at me.

no.

you fucking screamed at me for weeks.

im tired of even putting in the slighest effort of acting as if i fucking care.

i dont give a fuck about you.

and yknow?

if.

no.

if it would work.

if it was possible.

id fucking kill you.

id stab you.

right here.

right now.

to end my suffering.

to end his suffering.

all of it.

id end it all.

i dont care if its wrong.

because i know no one else knows about whats going on.

yknow.

only one person around here knows what youve done to him and me.

and i havent even met her in person.

yknow.

the people i used to be close with from school.

only just learned you had an affair.

i know that.

the police are do-less.

since you know them.

and hes a man.

not a woman.

it wouldnt be taken seriously.

that he should just fight back.

yknow.

youve ruined what life he has left.

his parents beat him.

his ex wife beat him, and cheated on him.

and here.

youve done the exact same thing.

yknow.

he’ll never get to see how love truely is.

because of you.

because of what youve done.

i cant say i really like him either.

but.

that doesnt give you the right to ruin his life.

.

yknow whats worse?

how i know the only reason that so far youve never dared to lay a finger on me.

is because ive proved that i won’t hesitate to beat the fuck out of you right back.

i know i joke about that night.

but.

really.

hitting you for doing that was the best decision i couldve made.

its kept me safer than i wouldve been for years.

and even now.

if you were to as so much to touch me.

while in a fight.

id do it all over again.

you maybe 100 pounds heavier than me.

but you dont know how to fight against someone who wont just sit there and take it.

i wont forgive you for what youve done.

even if he will.

.

i want nothing to do with you.

get out of my life for good.

#j writes badly #woohoo i just love living in a very fucked up house its soo great /sarcasm #ughnf whats worse is that if it werent for my parents rn my life would be quiet literally perfect.#holy shit the being pissed at my mother instead of destroying my arm thing is actually working irl holy shit #(actually shoked abt that tbh)#unironically i wanna make a less oily fuck rn. like so badly. bc my parents went to the store and got eggs so i can #oh yea for the new gen folk that dont know all of the j lore (this has been bothering me bc its coming up on the anniversary)#i know how to break someones fingers and make it look like an accident!#turns out theres a specific way thats more common in abuse versus accidents!#dont ask why i know this 🙂 (or do- it reallt doesnt bother me) (also not that i would- /gen)#this is basically me catching everyone up through j lore im not even kidding tbh #and yes. i have hit my mother before bc she wouldnt stop “playing” as i had hot ramen in my hands!#(look. it wasnt the best move at the time but uh. really saved me in the long run unironically!)#THERES FUCKING GEESE FLYING OVER MY HOUSE RN HOLY SHIT #sorry. uh. i cant help it tho. i heard them and it was cute #oh yea even MORE j lore; i have a mildly unhealthy obsession with “being stronger” because im consitently (and rightfully)#paranoid that my mother is gonna try and hit me!#when the whole 2020 chrismas thing (when i hit her) happened i had just got done wih archery so i was still pretty strong #but then eating disorder happened and i quit archery. muscle atrophy etc etc #so like. its a big ass thing i think abt every day now!#yea theres a real reason why i consider my friends as “safe” 💀#heheheheeeeee when no where else is safe thats just life ig!#oh god i need to brush my teeth fuck.#hhvtbd but my mother is awake :(#HHGBHGBSNS i need to start doing that at an ealier time bc it keeps getting in the way of things #again. how the fuck does smth so simple as brushing my teeth make so much feel better 😭😭 its weird #sighh well! time to go back to trying to find drawing inspo!#(i unironically cannot use my own trauma as a drawing point bc it makes me actually suicidal. thats why i write it! /srs)#CHOKEKSSSJ ok ill hush now!

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lover-official · 22 days

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I'm gonna ruin this because I don't know how to be normal about having a crush unless I'm high apparently

#carmina posting #lover posting #i want to text her so bad right now and i KNOW what a bad idea that is #bc im gonna look clingy #and apparently one of my friends briefly dated her and like shes skittish about affection and like #idk i feel like our bantery dynamic is really great and straddles the line between affection and just annoying each other well #but like what if she feels differently #her life is falling apart a bit and i dont wanna add stress #but i actually legitimately really like her and like #honestly im definitely spiraling a bit rn and i know that #but idk when I'll see her again #and im like... having this awful sinking feeling that thats bc im not going to #bc she's not actually into me and like she is just annoyed by me #so all i wanna do rn is text her and invite her over for tomorrow night but like.#i am forcing myself not to text until she texts first #and BEFORE we did shit she was often texting first so i have to hope she will again #but i feel very scared and broken and alone rn #and i also am afraid of driving away ny friends by bothering them too much #so like im just alone about this #im crying in the dark in my room listening to music and it occurs to me that i should probably only be listening to music #that already is crying music for me tbh #so i dont ruin something else i love for myself #what the fuck is wrong with me

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keeps-ache · 23 days

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i should learn to make hash browns

#just me hi #the diner style is my favorite :>#that and sonic tots. i love those sm #oh and there's a gas station that makes these little fried potatoes with cheese in the middle! 15/5 would recommend !!#potatoes...#also i wanna learn to make alfredo pasta #love it v much but the restaurant i liked it from filed for bankruptcy and thus exploded hfbsh ;w;#that and chicken pot pie #the frozen ones you can just pop in a toaster oven are GREAT #but i don't want to company to explode one day and i be left chicken pot pieless. it would be utterly devastating hfhs #and in that vein - menudo as well. best food on the planet nothing else to say nothing else to compare #i always put So much lemon in though hfsh - one day i'll just be eating lemon juice with some seasonings thrown in lmao :)#anyway can you tell i'm hungry. i'm hungry hfbvshf #//but in other news oh my lllllllaaananndndnsnssssjhdhbshf #fighting for my life against my lack of motivation for anything rn #poking my brain with a stick. with another stick. and another stick. and another. and another #maybe if i use more sticks it'll start to do somethin i dunno lol #i COULD be drawing. or writing. but.. i'm not. ? ?????#why? that's the big mystery baby !!! :D [<- slowly dissolving into a goop (not the epic kind)]#i'm not feeeeeeeeeeeelin it and i think that's. it's. it's SILLYYY #it's just ridiculousssssssssssssssssssssssssss #preposteroussssss wwahauhauha #and my head feels a tad weird. is that a symptom or a cause? i will investigate further and gather more clues [<- will wait for it to go #away and then not think about it again] :3 #really though i hate how i get halfway through something and then Stop #like ?? hey ?? i was still using that ?? what's up ??#and my software will go 'oh this :) no yea i see that :) but it breathed around me funny dude :) no yea yea it's going into the #fridge (it won't return) :) yea nice chat dude see ya :)'#criminal. absolutely criminal. it should be the deaths sentence for this ! who's with me !!!#/lol but yyyea

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maraczeks · 8 months

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bcs s6 thread pt 6

#sept 21 2023 #it's so freakin g full circle too the way he ends up in nebraska omaha beach where she came frim like #jerry from parks?😭#it is literally so terrible for me out here like first brad whitfield but only as josh lyman and then it got worse w will mcavoy but kind of #as a joke but not really but now this like this is the worst bc it's so recent so it's literally jimmy now ohhhh my god i can't help it that #still can't get over it ?????? the things they've gone through and then she LEFT?#like she had to but no nooooooboonobono the way they built them up like they are so forever #but it's okay i have so much bob rhea content and then so many fics <3 #also it's so interesting that they chose to do the post brba scenes in b&w when that's usually signifying the past #the close up on heels i immediately assumed it was kim girl get a grip #i've never had a non endgame ship real breakup like i can't cope this is the greatest love story there's no way it ended #and they legally still married tho oh my godddddddddd ohh i have no wife i just whimpered so loud #wait i'm i don't think i can finish tn and i'm going to cv tmw oh no #i just wanna watch mcwexler edits and bob and rhea interviewssss #i think in a week i'll watch that scene again but i'm also just like. worm in my brain wants to watch the whole show again it was so insane #creasing over how excited jimmy is that kim asked about him as if he wasn't the great and only love of her life😭😭😭😭😭 im so miserable rn #yeah this is my first actual real non endgame tragic ship and they were so perfect OH MY GOD HES CALLING HER #AND KNOWS HER NIMBER !??????? WNDHHFBFNNSNDNBFBFJDNFJDJFHJ M SHAKINGGGGGGGGGG IH JDNFNDN #i cant believe he went to nebraska i cant believe he called her i can't believe she kept her name dude dudeeee what is going on i need to kn #staring into the distance dot gif simply cannot comprehend a workd where jimmy and kim are not attached at the hip #no okay there's the b&w gif of kim on the phone and them sharing a cigarette?#still using viktor😭😭 i'm so in shambles clinging and grasping it's slipping away #two episodes left we power through #oh now what the frick i burst into tears im sobbing #the divorce paperwork hit me out of nowhere i literally can't stop crying #crying so hard like ud think my parents died or smth i literally cannot #KIM #THAT UGLY BROWN IG PLEASD AINT NO Whhyy she's living with another man NOPE THIS ID NOT #AINT NO WAY BROTHER DHE SOULD NOG #THE SONF?babdbbdvfbdbdndjxbdbfnsndncncj u hate everything KIM NO OFNDBBABYYYSYDYDHFHFJSJCI CNANDJDJSNDJDJDJDJ EVERHTHINF HURTS AND I SCEAM N

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spideysatan · 10 months

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i hate how much *'s actions are still impacting me

#i dont love you anymore but the pain is still there #and now im insecure with someone that hasnt given me any reason to be #AND im acting insane bc my brain is insane and dumb #i hate everything so much rn #i cant stop crying #why why why #people will just fuck you up and then go on to have a great life #knowing full well what theyve done was wrong and NOT EVER APOLOGIZINH #FUCK EVERYTHING #i dont wanna fuck this up but i also need my space but i also miss them and i also need to feel whatever im feeling #or maybe i just need a distraction #or food #havent eaten today yet

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upgradebitch · 10 months

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#i’ve never hated being a broke bitch more than now i just got an offer for this gawjus place w this cool person and its over my budget i wa #want to bang my head against a wall sigh #literally why do i search for love like this #this could’ve been great really great i cannot i was this close to signing something else aswell WHY #to be close to ppl my age w my interests and have a relationship that lasts is that asking too much what if i never see them again #am i being delusional i think so but idc my heart hurts things never work out the way i plan ugh #but atleast i will be leaving the shithole i’m in rn #it could’ve been great #i can get more great things although not now and it feels like a fresh wound rn i’m just starved for love ok i need a hug i’m so serious #it was in the PERFECT AREA TOO #it’s okay it’s okay atleast it’s still london and not a town in essex where u cannot get a taxi unless u want to wait 3 hours #count your blessings girl call down #shit i’m sad i’m so childish fuck #literally i just want a solid circle of companions and maybe that wouldn’t guarantee it and maybe where i’m going can be the path to my happ #happiness but i’ve been miserable for too long idk if i can even be loved because i will just fee like i’m tainting them #everyone in my life is held at a safe distance and i don’t want that anymore i want someone CLOSE who doesn’t get repulsed or bored ha #this interaction has sent me plummeting into the depths of hell i feel ridiculous #my chest hurts so much

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portgasdwrld · 6 months

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★ Hickeys

ೃ⁀➷do they suck (lol) at hickeys, giver or receiver?, how? all answered down below by your beloved Tomie✨

ೃ⁀➷Psss this is a head-canon, take it lightly~

ೃ⁀➷ Suggestive, implied f!reader, NSFW language

ೃ⁀➷ monster trio + Law+ Ace

: ̗̀➛ Luffy

He’s the type to receive them more than to give

When he realizes he has hickeys, he’s just gonna wonder how it’s even possible and if smth hit his neck during a fight💀

Probably gonna bug Chopper about it, until he brushes him off mentioning it’s nothing

Then when you’re making out and you linger on his neck, it clicks into his mind. He yells a « ooohh, It was you! » after realizing that, it surprises you and you almost bit his skin-

He’s down to try it when you explain that you want them on you too

« You want me to suck your skin a little until it bruises? A bit like when you bruise after a fight? »

« Ugh… not the same but you got the spirit? »

He’s dense, but he tried and he didn’t do as bad as you thought

: ̗̀➛ Law

LMAO?? Wouldn’t he be the type to lowkey hit you with a scientific facts that hickeys can kill you if done wrong🤓😭

Ik he would. Im so sorry😮‍💨

On another note, tbh I feel like he’s just sooo into it, when his mind is fogged by lust. He will be making out with you and damn, he’s now leaving wet kisses all over your neck. That itself, just awaken some type of possessive strike and you’re left with hickeys a bit everywhere.

Will quietly eye them when y’all are cuddling after sex. He won’t comment on it beside if you point them out.

“They look great.”

It would be the most reaction you will get out of him. He’s so hot though- intrusive thoughts but they are real 😔

He doesn’t mind at all if you leave some on him fr. Like if it’s done within the right vibe and y’all are just kicking it and you’re riding him or y’all in lotus position, he might even groan and moan a little louder and curse under his breath.

: ̗̀➛ Sanji

Oh his mouth is ALLL OVERR your body. He’s kissing, praising, leaving hickeys all over your body. On you chest, between your thighs, on you collarbone.

He’s almost in a trance while he loves your body and mark it. He’s gotta to enjoy his pretty lover and you bet he’s gonna make it known that you are his and he’s the lucky man who has you!!

He’s so sweet about it, with sweet compliments, but it’s a bit messy too. Wet patches, mumbles from his muffled lips.

He’s SOOOOO down if you wanna do it on him. He gets very excited and can’t stop smiling and touching your body.

“Yes of course I’m down! Wanna try it rn? We got time yk..”

Best boy 🤧

ೃ⁀➷ Zoro

His neck always has some hickeys from you. He thought he hated it, but he quickly got over it and finds it hot now.

He doesn’t care too much if someone stare at them, but he will throw a curse out with a deadpan expression, if someone made a snarky comment.

He also has this possessive strike, so you bet you’re gonna have some type of bruises-hickeys on your body after y’all are done. Because he doesn’t go easy on you, he will be thrusting deep into you, while silencing you with his fingers deep in your mouth. Along with that, his mouth is nibbling on you neck and all your sensitive spots.

It’s an overstimulating mess.

He smirks satisfied when he sees you marked up, moaning his name and completely lost into his touch.

ೃ⁀➷ Ace

Oh, this man here has the biggest possessive strike out of all the men here.

I touched on the subject a little on my NSFW head canon, but he definitely love giving them. He whines when you do, because he’s apparently allergic to shirts and get slightly annoyed when each of his friends on the ship makes some jokes.

He loves that everyone knows you’re his. Because he gets to have one person for him, that actually feels love toward him and someone he can trust??! That’s the life prize!

Every time he fucks you, he makes sure that hickeys are created everywhere on your body.

He will shower you with attention and cocky comments as he sucks on to your skin.

It’s his specialty😮‍💨

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don’t you ever grow up | l. norris (4)

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