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okay i’ve loved s&c since i started reading it but my god…chapter 8 was seriously one of the best things i’ve read and has made me just insanely connected to this story. so pls excuse me if this ask is obnoxiously long i’ve got a lot to say 😭🤚🏼

first off lol i just need to get this off my chest but the SMUT IN THIS CHAPTER…IMMACULATE. I GOT TINGLES im so immune to smut since i’ve read sm of it but oh my godd when he said “fuck i cant hold back any longer. let me fuck you already or i’ll cum in my pants” I HAD BUTTERFLIES IN TWO DIFF PLACES FROM THAT🧍🏻‍♀️…also i like how realistic the sex feels,, like it genuinely reads like two adults in this sort of complicated relationship still desiring one another, mature & sexy yet classy at the same time? bravo seriously (also reader getting the lingerie hehehehrhrh)

the way you built the tension throughout the entire chapter regarding satoru’s super mysterious phone calls and his reluctance to share anything w reader. so wonderfully laced into all of the scenes, there was this sense of dread throughout that simmered even during the fluffy scenes and oof it was a wonderful but torturous feeling haha

speaking of fluff- when he keeps mentioning “love” and now marriage!! pls 😭 it came out of nowhere but i feel like his brazenness to say it so soon makes me believe that he really means it if that makes sense?? :”) one of my fave lines from the chapter was

“he was stating it as a fact, something that was a done deal…he’s simply been waiting for you to catch up.”

that has to be one of the most romantic things i’ve EVER read in my life. a chill legit ran through me haha like if that isn’t love!! 🥲 he knew since the beginning </3

thank you for clarifying the thought process behind reader’s doubts in herself. when she said something about how she wonders if she’s cut out for it…oof i felt that. imposter syndrome is SO damn real, especially in medicine, and my fave moment in the whole chapter is when satoru really steps up in that moment as a mentor and says “taking a break isn’t giving up” <3 i totally understand her push back though, it’s hard to shake insecurities built over years

and my god. satoru’s character. i know that he is so troubled and has made mistakes but my heart legitimately ached for him during that conversation with geto. this was the moment where i was like omg this story is something so special bc you tackle the sensitivity of topics such as drug abuse so fucking well.

i used to work at an emergency department and so often we would get patients rolling in w chief complaints of withdrawal, a LOT of the time young patients in their twenties, and it’s really heartbreaking to see because you can never ever fully understand the pain behind someone’s story or change the past, all you can do is try to help them and make them feel better in the present.

i feel so bad for satoru, seriously fuck sukuna for taking advantage of him like that omg give me two mins in a room w that mf and your story is gonna be missing one of its characters 😅

“walls up before anyone gets close, pushing people away because he’s convinced that deep down, he’s broken.”

siggghhh as someone with an avoidant attachment style i so relate to him. i really hope reader can show him the brighter things in life (i mean she’s definitely someone that makes him want to be a better man which is lovely), i look forward to seeing how he opens up more emotionally in the chapters to come.

im so sorry this is getting so fkn long but i simply cannot pass speaking up ab geto?? what an insanely emotionally intelligent character. the way he acts is so consistent, i looove how he’s recognized that maybe satoru’s relationship w reader, despite the forbidden aspects, is something more than just lust and is something deeper than that :”)

“there is no point, neither in life nor death. but you can either cry about the whole meaningless of the world or try to find meaning to it. to do something that gives meaning to life.”

talk about words that no longer feel like part of a story, but literally jump out of the page (err my phone screen? lol) and have you feel them in the reality of your own life. stunning, your writing is just amazing miss lostfractures

also curious if he got sued cuz he punched that student lol 🤔 or maybe it’s related to malpractice

ugh i’m so sorry this was so fucking long but it’s midnight for me rn and i just had so many thoughts while reading the chap i had to share 😭🤞🏼 thank you sm for this story, it goes without saying that i’m SO excited for more 💕💕💕

okay i have no idea where to start but first THANK YOU SO SO MUCH! i feel insanely grateful for you to take the time to write this message, really!!

i'm smiling and giggling like an idiot rn at work omg.

so so glad you like the SMUT, this is always the worst part to write, so i'm relieved it didn't read cringey and made you feel something (i laughed at your comment about the butterflies in TWO SPOTS omg).

can relate. ngl.

and yes the whole marriage part did came out of nowhere but i guess that's just so him, like he's so clumsy with feelings and don't know what to do with them so he's just really messy but also so adorable with it, idk!!! ahhhh

your reactions to the chapter make me SO SO happy, like really, that's all us writers want to achieve, right? to make the reader feel something. so glad i could stir something within you!! <333

& yes you never know what a person might have experienced in his past to it really comes down to being patient and understanding with people, but yeah satoru surely has an avoidant attachment, like SO SO BAD. and that can be so FRUSTRATING.

his past even gets worse in the next chapter, because apparently i can not NOT make him even more miserable.

haha the whole philosophical part at the end was mostly because i read a lot of camus and kafka lately lol. couldn't hold myself back, but i guess that mirrors satoru's existential crisis he goes through, that will be more highlighted in the next chapter.

but like at the same time, he needs someone to put him in his place and the reader is gladly accepting that and is like, I'M SO DONE WITH YOU, GET YOUR SHIT TOGETHER MAN.

thank you so so much from the bottom of my heart for spending your precious time to read and write this message!! i really don't know how to phrase it how happy this makes me, just imagine myself smiling and crying like an idiot <33

#symptoms and causes #inbox

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hellreads · 5 years

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Chapters: 7/7 Fandom: 방탄소년단 | Bangtan Boys | BTS Rating: Mature Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings Relationships: Min Yoongi | Suga/Reader Characters: Min Yoongi | Suga Additional Tags: Angst, Romance, Fluff, Smut, Drama, Noona Romance

Summary:

Working for the UN, you are tasked to handle the poverty reduction campaign of a certain boy band. A certain rapper from the group, however, decides to mix business with pleasure.

sighhhh tbh reading this was a breeze with a bit of shock why? because I’m not used to the version of Min Yoongi in here but if we look closely I think he’s really this soft and loving in real life, and to immerse into being a Noona he’s totally whipped for ngl I fell for him hard and fast.

so this is what it feels like to be a Noona and have someone like Yoongi fall head over heels in love with you, this story brings you to the realization that dating (not only celebrities but especially celebrities I mean) require a lot of sacrifices, understanding, compromise, courage, strength and unconditional love to keep going, to keep holding on, to keep fighting for something you want even if you clearly have the short end of the stick, because time and circumstance are not your friends but you have to try to at least make it work because you know it’s all worth it, worth all the sacrifice, the devastating moments and all the pain and suffering you have to endure because love needs to undergo all sorts of beautiful pain for it to grow stronger and eventually become impenetrable.

if I had Carpe Diem Min Yoongi in my life I would never let him go, but I would also die every minute, every hour, every day if staying with him means having to constantly worry, fear and be cautious even with the littlest things, the world they live in is so small and suffocating given the situation that Yoongi is famous and belongs to BTS but despite the fact that they have to walk on eggshells to protect one another, they learned a lot especially when it comes to cherishing every single moment they spend with each other, every millisecond, second, minute, hours, all of those moments count, even if they get to spend more time they have learned to value that borrowed time and not have regrets later on. I enjoyed all their soft fluffy moments and how straight forward Yoongi was, at first it felt overwhelming with how things escalated quickly but you know all that feeling went away because to me he was perfect, they were perfect and it hurts to watch them go through so much in a short period of time, there were pros and cons of staying together, and you know what sometimes love is not enough, I commend Yoongi for trying despite his crazy busy schedule, for being strong for them, for being true to himself, to his feelings, for keeping his promise, for loving her without regrets, and Noona for allowing herself to love again after her own tragic love story made it seem impossible for her to recover, for not being selfish, for giving everything she can, for loving as if she’s never been hurt, for loving him without regrets.

I enjoyed all the moments they spent together, it was all too real, some parts too domestic it made my heart feel so full, to have a love like theirs (minus the lows, I know it comes with it but let me bask in a happy loving domestic life with Yoongi lol) I would give everything, I live for their love-making moments, it may have been consummated right away but I feel like it was just right given how whipped Yoongi was and how much limited time they got in their hands at that moment, their future plans, especially his plans (he’s the sweetest, most thoughtful, most husband material in my eyes after reading this, totally flipped suga/agust d image and gave me a super soft, loving and sweet Mr. Min) the dates they had especially the overseas one siggghhh I got carried away and was a fluffy whet mess through and through, but just like Noona I have been worrying the whole time while reading I had so many what-if’s and then the angst started consuming me.. then it was time to face the bitter pill, it was bound to happen anyway.

ofc all couples go through a rough patch, and as I was anticipating that moment I got antsy and uncomfortable with how dragging the situation was, the events stated also made everything feel so real, and real means it’ll hurt a lot, but tbh I was sad but never felt devastated okay I lied, I was devastated because they had to hold back thinking it was the best decision, but it wasn’t she was lingering so much in the past, she clearly loves him but she had to let go for Yoongi to soar higher, because true love isn’t selfish, okay she had been selfish for letting him go without talking things over with him but it had to be done, she can’t carry the burden if she keeps him with her, looking back I was also shattered by the fact that she named her unborn children after the TROS kids T_T, the future they would be sharing with each other, but all of my frustration was replaced with hope because I trust that things will be better, that things will fall into place, they were two halves of a whole waiting for the right time to happen and it did, as much as I wanted to know more of what happened after that fateful night, the way this ended made me believe that if you’re meant to be together, fate will bring you back together, years and years may have passed but it was clear as the beautiful night sky Yoongi was hers, and Noona was his, as always op you did amazing, thank you! | 🍒🍒🍒🍒🍒

#a:fringesofsanity #t:carpe diem #m:myg #g:angst #g:smut #g:fluff #g:drama #g:romance #au:idol #au:lovers #series #ao3 #🍒🍒🍒🍒🍒#k:ad #k:noona #i may have missed on so many details but i love every bit of this #the characters especially jun-ho being a kim jong kook fanboy lol #i'm a running man and the return of superman avid fan so reading KJK and TROS kids mentioned made me so warm and happy #i hope Yoongi and Noona get pregnant with triplets #a happy ever after is what they deserve <3 #also the last bits of this made my heart feel so full and warm just like their first ramyeon meeting their first indirect kiss sigh #ahhh now that i'm typing the tags the memories of their moments come rushing back sighhhh #somebody give me carpe diem min yoongi i'll take the good the bad and the ugly #the ring removal part haunts me sighhhhh yoongi whipped me

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