one of my favorite underrated scenes in not me is the one where sean goes to see namo after getting beaten up by black & he starts doing some graffiti with insults bc obviously he's heartbroken, and namo takes another spray can and adds smileys & flowers to it, like... such a beautiful understated scene that makes namo my fave bl girlie ever, and also a beautiful testament to sean & namo's friendship despite it all <3

happy One Year Of Not Me favorite rarepair day!! 

Sean/Namo or Sean&Namo idk you tell me. 

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summary: Sean doesn't kiss Namo on the mouth, and he doesn't ask her to be his girlfriend, and it's the best he can do.

aka I started writing precanon grieving-Sean meta and then it turned into SeanNamo fic

Saw someone call Black’s gang a "gay gang" which is some bullshit bisexual erasure given that at least 3/5 of them(4/6 if you include White) are bi but you know what else is new, and more importantly it made me bask in the fact that Not Me is the bisexual rep I've always known I needed.

I love this fucking show.

Hold up! I'm going to need you to come back and explain this to me!

What does it mean??

Today’s thoughts:

I can forgive the SeanNamo storyline because SeanWhite was endgame, but GramEugene is something I can never forgive.

I’m not even a GramBlacker but I’m still hung up on this lol

Very shallow possible reason but in a way I think all the unsure-how-to-read scenes with the gang friends and a girl were in Part there just to imply the guys might be bi (though they can be read as just gay, except for White and his twin Black who had actual girlfriends so seem to be established as clearly bi on purpose)

Like. I don't think Namo and Sean like each other romantically at all. But Yok wondering if they Could like each other is just a scene that sort of implies Sean's friends think he can have attraction to women, and then of course his openness with White shows he clearly is into men

Gram and Yoks scene talking together (and Grams love confession note to Black) show these friends like men and are aware their other friend might. I don't remember the language used but I think in the convo they said person not gender specified, which is also something I as a bi person tend to do when discussing my future love or crushes "whoever they are/some person I might meet." Then gram kissing Eugene? I think obviously on a plot level its about gramblack and grams friendship with euguene, and then on a shallow level I think it just is there to imply he might kiss a girl. While I'd argue I don't think he likes euguene and that scene is more about the complex situation he has with Black, I think it exists in part just to imply gram could be bi. Also Gram having Nuch as an ex implying he's into women (assuming they did date and it's not just an inside joke that they're close and treat each other like bf/gf)

Which leaves us with black, white, sean, and gram implied as bi to a degree as far as scenes used. Yok potentially implied bi depending on if he said person or used gender specific language in the gramyok scene (idk if it was different in Thai versus the translation). It doesnt ultimately matter if sean or yok etc are interpreted as bi since like... white and black are the only ones the show is making a point about being bi specifically rather than lgbt generally. But at the same time I do like the fact that because of the writing approach it feels like a group of a lot of bi friends and that's relatable to me. Broader of course, it's a group of lgbt friends who are all self aware and it's fucking refreshing to see and I'm so glad we get this.

mark my words, off's role in the jungle will be his hottest one yet 😌

no cause I LOVED the seannamo scene in ep 10, the way she paints over sean’s angry words with happy things like flowers & smileys. it truly shows the narrative use of namo as a safe place for sean, & someone who actively cares for him and want to make his life better. I fucking love this woman!!!

hello!!! sorry to scream in ur ask box but i saw ur essay abt sean while going thru the tags and saw that u also loved namo!! i was wondering if u had any more thoughts on namo and sean bc i actually rlly love their relationship/friendship, i think he's so sweet to her and she in turn is very honest and open with him!

hi!!! never apologize for screaming about shows in my ask box anon! so even though we haven't seen sean & namo in a little while, I fucking love them together! before white she is the only person sean seems to be fully himself & open to discussions with, and I really enjoy their dynamic!!!

so namo appears in ep 2 for the first time, after the boys have burned down tawi's house, and we see her doing some street art. in most of her appearances she's always doing art bc it is the main component of her character, & it's very clear that p'nuchie wants to include as much art & artistic expression in not me through namo, dan, eugene, that rapper, etc. and up until that moment, sean has appeared as an incredibly rough & closed-off character, and frankly that scene was a turning point for me starting to take real interest in him bc it's the first time we see sean outside of the gang & smiling. that scene might not be the most important of the series, but it establishes many things: first sean is very layered & actually a soft boi, second namo exists & she's an artist, and third & most importantly, namo's opinion matters A LOT to sean.

this whole scene is sean asking namo what she thinks of his actions, and it's really fascinating to see sean asking someone for their opinion about what he's done bc that's something he really doesn't do with any other character, appearing crazy for revenge to the rest of the gang. (until white of course!)

in their second scene together in ep 3, once again we see them hang out completely detached from the gang, and once again sean is helping namo with her art, showing how close they are to each other. and I love that scene not only because of how hot off is playing the bass (though it’s of course part of it lol), but also because we start seeing how much namo can see right through sean & how much she cares about him.

we see her immediately notice that sean has something on his mind, and he doesn’t hesitate to confide in her about the black situation, which once again is one of the only moments of vulnerability sean has up until that point. and namo not only listens attentively, but actually pushes sean to communicate with black, which is something that is obviously very hard for sean to do bc his social skills become shit around black/white lol. so while the first scene established how much sean cares about namo, scene 2 establishes that on top of that, namo is a really good influence in sean’s life & cares about him all the same. in that same scene, we see her interact with yok who asks her about unar. I really enjoyed that because this scene and the other one with yok in episode 5 where sean isn’t even there shows that namo isn’t only there to be the “vague love interest who will get her heart broken”, but she is actually impactful to two different storylines, on top of being her own strong person through all of her art that is showcased on the show.

and then, in ep 4, the plot thickens. sean & namo have been established to be very close, to trust each other, which would mean in most media around the world that they’re dating bc two people of the opposite gender can never be friends apparently lol. but then yok asks sean if namo has ever drawn him, and he says no. that comparison is striking when you see that danyok, the secondary ship, have both drawn each other before they’ve even had a proper conversation lmao. that parallel cannot be ignored and seems to show a flaw in sean & namo’s relationship. yok is surprised by that, saying “she’s your girlfriend but she’s never asked to draw you?” and that’s when sean replies that he’s never asked namo to be his girlfriend. so either namo is just his best friend who likely likes him & will get heartbroken by seanwhite according to the trailer, or they’re just casual & never really agreed to anything but still kinda dating. which in any case makes me pull up the 👀 emoji.

then in ep 5, the plot thickens AGAIN when white walks in on sean & namo sleeping on the bed together. I think we have to take into context that in 99% of thai dramas, a man & a woman just sleeping next to each other is seen as incredibly intimate so this is quite a big deal, even when they still have their clothes on & nothing seems to have happened. that scene is very removed from sean & namo though, and rather shows white’s jealousy of them two, even though he refuses to admit it. after sean had his first nightmare in ep 4 & cuddled with white, he is now in another vulnerable position (sleeping) with namo, and obviously white doesn’t like it. namo is perceptive as hell as always & immediately knows she gotta go bc “black” is uncomfortable with her presence. and the following scene is really interesting for her & sean.

when sean wants to drive her back, she calls a cab because she knows he needs to talk to black. she’s been aware of the problem with this new “black” since ep 3 & once again pushes sean towards actually expressing his feelings instead of pushing them down. once again they have a calm discussion about the issue with black, and namo really truly acts like sean conscience. she’s like a little angel on his shoulder always pushing him in the right direction of communication rather than just letting things bubble up. it is also important to note that once again like in every scene with her, sean is incredibly soft & does kinda act like a boyfriend (or at least what has been presented as boyfriend behavior by once again, the media) by walking her back to the car, telling her that she can always come by if she has a problem, and asking her to call him when she gets home (a favorite romantic trope of thai dramas.) like I’m sorry I don’t make the rules but these two are cute as hell lol.

we also learn another side of namo which is that her family doesn’t get the art that she does, and that she likely had a fight with them which is why she was sleeping over in the first place. once again, that small detail can feel insignificant, but it does help make namo more than a background character. we can imagine what her whole life is like even though she’s literally been in only 5 scenes. she’s not just a throw-away character, she matters.

and so far, that’s all we’ve seen of namo! I don’t know if she’ll be in ep 8 but I hope she comes back soon because I miss her! (even though let’s be honest her presence might announce some complications for seanwhite...) I also can’t help but compare sean & namo’s relationship as a softer version of teh & tarn in I told sunset about you. in itsay, teh is in his talking stage with tarn before they start dating at the end of high school, but before that he rekindles his friendship with oh-aew & starts falling for him instead, slowly pulling away from tarn who’s obviously heartbroken. here, even though sean & namo’s relationship isn’t very clear, I do think it crosses friendship & they’re likely to be in their talking stage as well, though it might be blurry since they seem to have been friends for a while. but here too, sean is starting to open up to white in a way he previously only did with namo, and with ep 8 we know he’ll probably open up more to white than he’s ever done with anyone else, including her. slowly, namo is getting side-lined :( I do hope they don’t go full “sad girl rejected by the mlm’s” trope, but I do trust p’nuchie to not mess this up. I also do hope we still get to see namo with sean because I do love them as friends & it’s very rare to see mixed friendships actually portrayed well on screen. hope you enjoyed this small essay anon <3

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I didn’t quite get the relationship between Namo and Sean. The way she phrased it it sounds like maybe they were more than friends but not quite a couple. Do you think maybe they had a physical relationship? Because she did say you never asked me to be your gf and Sean looked a little guilty. I’m a little sad cause I was hoping they were queer besties and now namo is sad :(

yeah, for me it's clear that they were more than friends tbh. especially on sean's side, he would always look at her so softly & definitely treated her like a girlfriend, except that they never made it official. I don't think they had a physical relationship though, I just think they were in the talking stage, except that sean never communicated clearly with her so namo thought they were more than that. sean definitely feels super bad about this, and I do think we'll see more of namo bc her character arc can't be over that easily. I would've loved them to be queer besties but hey, it's not too late ;)))

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I felt bad for Namo but I also liked the way they portrayed their relationship. At first I hoped they'd be only friends and nothing romantic going on with them which would be a good representation of m/f friendships but after thinking about it I really liked how they portrayed it and even more after what creators said. It was very real. Because yes, there was smtg going on but it was never explicitly said and they didn't make it official either. It's that kind of stage when you're meeting with that person and you feel good with them, they're good friends and you think that you could date them in future but for some reason you're not pursuing it further - I think many of us had that kind of thing w people and either it did end up in a relationship or not.

But anyway, they - or specifically Sean didn't pursue it for some reason. And then came White who basically knocked him up to the ground and made him feel much stronger feelings that Sean could ever feel with Namo. It made him want to bear his soul to White, tell him his deepest secrets, stuff he's never told to anyone, something he's never felt with Namo or any other person. But obviously he wasn't sure about who White/Black is or whether his feeling would be reciprocated so he waited and he obviously fully intended to make it clear that day when they went to "spy". His feeling were so strong it gave him no other choice, he wanted it to happen. The outcome tho would be White's choice in the end and White obviously reciprocated his feelings.

yup, yup & YUP! exactly my feelings, once again I keep comparing sean & namo to teh & tarn in I told sunset about you, but for me their stories are very similar bc both sean & teh liked namo & tarn but felt a much stronger & rapid love for white & oh-aew. namo said it herself: "it's okay, people's feelings change all the time." and they really do. and what I appreciate in the case of sean & namo, is that you have sean, clearly not the most open & communicative guy (though he's always been pretty close & open with namo, and obviously even more with white in the recent episodes), actually immediately admitting it. like yes it does make sense with the very earnest side of sean that we've discovered in the past few eps, especially when it comes to love, but I find it really beautiful to have such a closed-off character immediately admitting to his relationship with white. it truly shows how much this whole night on the roof and the free day they spent together meant to him, that for him there's no running away. white said it himself that he feels a connection to sean as deep as he did to his twin brother, which means that white was who sean was waiting for all along & he doesn't want to play games with him either. gosh I can't wait to see seanwhite make their grand entrance with the gang, they'll all be so shook to see sean be so soft hahaha :')))

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We don't talk enough abt Namo and how the girl will probably have to go through one of the weirdest convos with Sean at some point

I always talk about namo bc I love her & her friendship with sean!!! but what kind of weird convo?? did I miss something??

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