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Hey!! I really lhcde all of your posts especially bodyguard reader x sub aven series, it made me go feral and scream like a monkey. Makes me think to stuffed him full until he carry our child
May I request a hc of pregnant aventurine if you don't mind, he will be the type of people that 24/7 needy
Let’s get into this FUCKKK
tw,cw: mpreg!!, afab! Aven, amab! gn! bodyguard! reader, self indulgent, FLUFFY domestic and married life, reader is described as muscular, NOT PROOFREAD, Aven's real name mentions! may not be accurate lol, lmk if i missed anything!
He's shocked. Staring at the test, he doesn't know how to feel, should he be upset? Happy? Oh Aeons, what's he going to say to you?
Of course, he loved you, he really, really did, but you were his bodyguard, surely you didn't want the burden of raising a child... right?
haha, wrong, he's stunned as he watches you as you practically, squealed, squealed, in pure joy as you dash over, picking him up and spinning him like a princess
Watching someone that was so muscular, cuddling him so tenderly and rubbing his belly, kissing his nape and soft skin, he was on the verge of tears.
For the next months, he didn't think he could, but damn it, he fell in love with you all over again. You did everything around the house for him, and treated him so gently.
Every morning, when he had his morning nausea, it was horrible, but you were always by his side, rubbing his back with your warm hands, and then cuddling and kissing him all over the place.
Whenever he had weird cravings, somehow, you'd be able to make it at home, and playfully feed it to him because he was too tired and drained. Not that he couldn't, of course, but still.
You did all the household chores, cleaning the dishes, cooking for both of you, making sure the house was in its best state, hell, you even dedicated the spare guest bedroom and converted it into a beautiful nursery.
You dealt with him even when he had horrid mood swings, from sobbing, to getting irritated with the smallest of things, you were there, taking his insults and comforting him when he was crying in your arms.
He finds himself much more needy and wanting your attention, more so than the first few years of your relationship, constantly burying his head in your back, chest, neck, anytime of the day, when your cooking, doing chores or filling in boring paperwork.
Every night, you would always hug him, kiss him, and take care of him, and rub his belly, whispering how you two would be such wonderful parents he thinks he won't be, and how your new child would be such a beautiful addition to your lives.
In the last few months during his pregnancy, you took extra care of him, getting a few more part time jobs so that you two would have enough savings to take care of the new life you would be taking care of in about a few month's time. (he insists that his money can handle everything and more, but you simply shushed him)
You always accompanied him everywhere, (not that you didn't before he got pregnant lol) to his doctor's appointments, when he had to attend urgent IPC meetings, and he swears that you were probably more emotional than him, you would get in a full blown fight with anyone who looked at him the wrong way.
Outside, you would hold his hand constantly, intertwining your ringed fingers, proudly showing everyone that he was your darling husband, and you always made it a point to kiss him when he least expected it, always getting a laugh when he squeaked and blushed.
His water broke suddenly, which sent both of you into a massive panic, luckily, the two of you were nearby a hospital, so you ended by driving him there yourself.
The delivery was difficult and painful, as it ended up with him having to give birth to twins, you were holding his hand as he squeezed it so hard it was almost painful, and he was sobbing throughout the process.
But seeing the two newborn babies, one girl and one boy, in his arms, Aeons, he couldn't help but cry as well. You were crying, and even the doctors were tearing up from how absolutely overjoyed you two were to have two children.
Now that he thought about it, he's pretty sure you cried more than him even though he's the one that gave birth
Anyways
You kissed them, held them, and gently cooed at the twins adorable expression, and held their tiny fingers with such love that he swears he'll fall in love with you again for the third time.
The girl had his dirty blond hair, but had your eye's beautiful shade, and the boy was vice versa. They looked like adorable angels.
Speaking of which, his heart melted while his next few hours were spent in the hospital, recovering in the soft pillows of the hospital bed.
You'd been fussing hard over him, being the one to feed him, take care of him, and being the one to rock your babies to sleep, while he himself fell asleep as well.
He wasn't expecting it, but he was shocked and touched that Ratio, Topaz and even the Trailblazer decided to visit, all of them congratulating you and him, and it was certainly one of the best times Kakavasha ever had in his life.
Topaz absolutely adored the twins, she was giggling and playing peekaboo with them, while ratio spent his session reading a children's book to their sleeping forms, and you had to refuse Trailblazer's thoughtful but rather unsanitary gift of trashcan salvaged items.
For the next months, it was bliss. Of course, it was tiring, having to take care of two new children, but honestly? Having a happy family with you and his beloved children, always by his side, he was sure the world seemed brighter than before.
A/n: Not my usual stuff as i rarely want to post actual writing of headcannons, but lmk how i did :))
#dom male reader#dom reader#sub character#dom gn reader#sub honkai star rail#sub hsr#hsr x reader#hsr aventurine#aventurine x reader#aventurine#aventurine x you#aventurine honkai star rail#sub aventurine#star rail aventurine#aventurine hsr#aventurine my love
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cannot believe they reduced rey’s character to fit the narrative of the villain’s redemption cannot believe they sidelined finn poe and rose so bad cannot believe every member of the OG trio died cannot believe they brought palpatine back cannot believe we got no rational explanation abt snoke or the resistance or the first order cannot believe they didn’t plan out three movies AHEAD OF TIME
#if i was in charge of the sequel trilogy….#screaming and crying over this constantly#i love all these characters so much#they had the opportunity to make movies w a lil mix of lots of politics like the prequels and lots of rebellion action like the OG#anyways anyways anyways#the sequel trilogy that lives in my head<333 my beloved<3#em.txt#tros#anti tros#sw negativity
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The romance is so good, it makes me want to believe in love again.
#cw:#amidst a snowstorm of love#Im constantly screaming while watching this show#The stares will make me combust#the little gestures!!!!#SO CUTE#im crying#cdrama#this drama is taking over my life for now
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I can guarantee you that arkham knight Jason is also yearning & pining & perishing <3 I live for your comments dude lololol
IM SCREAMING IM UNWELL I AM ON THE FLOOR OTL OTL OTL
I haven't actually finished the Arkham Knight game, but I did start it Purely Because Jason is in it TuT I stare at him sometimes and a single tear rolls down my cheek thinking about him trapped in this somehow even grimmer and darker version of Gotham. And Tim is bald and married so he doesn't even get to have a twink boyfriend about it akdmxnsk
GET HIM OUTTA THERE. HE NEEDS ENRICHMENT. HE NEEDS SEX WITH HAS-HAIR BISEXUAL TIM IN DRAG AND TO CRY IN HIS LAP WHILE HIS HAIR IS PLAYED WITH STAT
#aknxkdks#IM SO HAPPY#believe me i will continue to scream and cry at you forever#also i was genuinely aghast with what they did to Tim in the arkham games dkxncjdk#he looks like a paramilitary wannabe#they aged him up and married him to babs iirc which is utterly insane to me smxncndk#im not too excited about tim or jasons designs in gotham knights either but they are miles better than tims design in arkham skxndjdk#like their gk designs grew on me over time. but i do shove tim into the classic comics robin skin constantly lmao bangs or bust#but anyway amsnfksk I NEED MORE ARKHAM JASON FIC NOW. I DIDN'T KNOW I WANTED IT UNTIL NOW BUT BOY OH BOY#n1ghtw1ng#asked and answered#jaytim#i crave this mineral...
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you wanna know what??
I am
TIRED
of overmasculinized werewolves!!!!
I WANNA SEE A
WEREWOLF
WALKING AROUND IN A CVNTY LITTLE OUTFIT!!! WALKING THE STREETS!!!! DISEMBOWELING CREATURES!!!!
I WANNA SEE WEREWOLVES COVERED IN BLOOD AND GORE WHILE WEARING A SHORT SKIRT AND CROPTOP WITH HELLO KITTY ON IT!!!!
I WANNA SEE A WEREWOLF WALKING AROUND IN COTTAGE AND FAIRY AND PRINCESS CORE OUTFITS!!!!!! WITH A DEAD MANGLED RABBIT IN ITS MOUTH!!!!
AND MAKE THE WEREWOLF
D I S G U S T I N G ! ! !
#i am TIRED of seeing all these manly man werewolves that are all copy and paste white boys#I am TIRED of seeing all these woman werewolves being butch and masculine(also mostly white) or submissive!!!#I WANNA SEE SOME PLUS-SIZE WEREWOLVES I WANNA SEE SOME BLACK ASIAN LATINO MIDDLE EASTERN NON WHITE WEREWOLVES!!!!! THAT ARNT F3TIZIED!!!!!#I WANNA SEE A G I R L WEREWOLF THATS INTO “G I R L Y” THINGS!!!!! LET THE WEREWOLF BE A SLVT!!!!!#LET THE WEREWOLF BE IN THE TRADITIONAL CLOTHING OF ITS CULTURE!!!!#AND RIP AND TEAR AND MAUL AND CRY IN THE MORNING AFTER DOING ALL OF IT!!!! RAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#no but fr can we werewolf fans like. actually sit down and reflect on the inherent misogyny of werewolves??? ESPECIALLY IN MEDIA#like. almost EVERY. SINGLE. WEREWOLF. in movies and shows and stuff are always a buff white man with anger and trust issues#and on the rare occasion that there *is* a woman werewolf shes always either over masculine or “weaker” than the “stronger alpha male” were#olf and only seen as a mate. AND shes always “calmer” and “maternal” and “calms the alpha male down🥺🥺”.AND she never has an actually good#werewolf form its always either wolf tail and ears or full wolf. or if it *is* actually a decent werewolf her transformation is offscreen.#like whyyyyyyyyyyyyy are people so scared to make women go ape shit?????? werewolves are NOT pretty creatures!!!! STOP MAKING THEM PRETTY!!#(lmao jk we know why they're so scared hashtag male gaze)#like yes. werewolves ARE pretty but not in the “dog show 30k$ poodle” kind of way i see some people making them(not that that's bad tho)#AND ALSO LIKE. ARE WE JUST GOING TO PRETEND WEREWOLVES LITERALLY WEREN'T MADE FOR WOMEN AND MINORITIES???#like. once a month someone turns into a raging bloodthirsty unstoppable beast driven by the moon and instincts with an insatiable hunger an#need to hide away from people due to them wanting to kill you or fearing you simply because you're a werewolf. they don't know you. they ju#t see you as a creature that might hurt them. constantly being hunted down to be killed simply for existing.#WHAT PART OF THAT SCREAMS: “ah yes. White man.”#IK theres going be people(men and pick mes) that see this post and think “this bitch is overreacting” and tbh idc.the girls who get it get#the girls who dont dont.#anyways shout out to Ginger Snaps trick or treat and every other piece of media or fan piece with disgusting non-f3tiszied woman/poc werewo#i love yall#*smooch smooch*#Werewolves#Werewolf#Lycanthrope#Lycanthropy#Werewolf AU#Yeah. Im tagging that too. I see yall.
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call each sorrow by name [ao3]
gale/m!tav | rated: T | contains spoilers for act 3
“Gale.” Galatine pulls his hand from him. “I have to return it to him.”
“Are you so certain?” Gale can feel his future sifting through his fingers like sand – Mystra’s words warning him that he would do nothing but repeat the mistakes of those that came before him; the sweet promise of proving her wrong when he found his new home among the stars; godhood improved upon by his own two hands.
The same hands now gesture to emphasize his incredulity. He scoffs. “I mean – it was stolen from his domain once before, where it was doing nothing but collecting dust. You know what we can do with that power, my love. What we plan to do with it–”
“–What you plan to do with it, Gale.”
Silence. Like puzzle pieces, meaning falls into place.
“…You promised you would help me see it through.”
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Following the revelation of the potential within the Crown of Karsus and Gale's plan, the Wizard of Waterdeep is informed of the price of his ambition.
#bg3#baldur's gate 3#tav/gale#galatine calesvol#baldur's gate spoilers#further context for anyone that wants it: galatine was asked by mephisto to return the crown to him or break their pact and despite#the fact that galatine supports wyll w being free of his own pact - he still believes he needs his own pact for protection sake because#there are a lot of people in the city and outside of it that want him dead#he has a family to look after and a bounty on his head and he doesn't want to be found lacking when karma comes calling#and him and gale have. conflicts. over this#especially bc galatine constantly calls gale out for his esteem issues and his ambition and gale doesn't really. hear him. when he does thi#so this is that tension and that conflict coming to a sharpened point#i have a LOT of thoughts in my brain for once#anyway throwing up crying screaming shaking trembling at posting this
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mkay not to be like. a little insane or anything. but god i've been going crazy over religion (catholicism) and blood lately. did anyone else drink blood as worship every week since they were seven. was anyone else inundated with images of open wounds as holy. is anyone else consumed by the thought of holding onto a crucifix tightly enough for the edges of it to draw blood. i turned in a poem about drowning in communion wine in an empty church while bleeding from crucifix-inflicted hand wounds and trying to talk to god and my creative writing professor gave me extremely normal critiques i feel like i'm losing my mind
#is ANYONE ELSE here.#also i made my poetry insta and i was gonna backpost but i think i might just sit and stare at it until april sfkghsd#it's me and my few hundred tumblr followers on my poetry acc. and the five thousand pornbots on this one ig#life is so. like.#i CONSTANTLY think that being raised catholic didn't do that much to me but obviously it did SOMETHING#you know what. yeah. cause i didn't end up with guilt over being queer but i did end up having my whole world view torn away from me#cause when god is the fundamental building block to everything...#my parents were extremely reasonable about things all things considered#but losing trust and faith in god is like having the bottom block pulled out of your little tower#and since i was fifteen i feel like i've been trying to either get it out fully without letting it all crumble#or trying to push it back without causing more damage#and the tower's never gonna be the same no matter what. you know.#i suck at self reflection so i never actually think about this stuff but dear god does it consume me#like no i did not end up with catholic guilt really. however being asked to examine yourself as a sinner at 7 will do things to you#HATE myself why am i still awake. so fucking upset i need to be up so early tomorrow skdjfgh#screaming and crying. anyway anyone else up thinking about catholicism and blood???#valentine notes#catholic tag
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#screaming crying throwing up#HES SO PRETTY ITS SO UNFAIR#he’s constantly on the mind I’m so obsessed with him#dgs#dgs spoilers#trying to find good reference photos and keep losing my mind over this dumbass
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I beg the Gods for mercy and am given greater suffering instead. My faith does not waver. I know I am seen. My pain would not be so unbearable if They ignored me. I beg Them to just take me away already so this body stops aching and I no longer feel anything. They leave me here for a lifetime of pain and agony that only worsens with each day. I can do nothing. My silence to the Gods would be better, but I feel like swearing to the Nine Realms and their inhabitants until someone, anyone, comes to help. But I doubt with every passing day that I will ever receive any...
#i lost my insurance and am having the absolute worse lupus flare in my entire life and i cant see a doctor about it#i have never hurt so bad in all my entire life and i am screaming and crying literally like im dying#mun is a viking#not vikings#the insurance company btw doesnt give a fuck that my mother calls them several times daily for weeks on end#they dont care she is on the phone for hours every time and that she sends in paperwork emails faxes etc constantly#its never the right person who receives these things and there is no fucking right person its just that nobody fucking wants to do shit#id go to the hospital but the last thing my family needs is more hospital bills#we already have to pay for my mothers bills for being in and out over the last 3 months straight#plus the likely uninsured helicopter ride that saved her life and will cost more than the 40 days of stay she spent there#i cant take this i hate this i hate being alive like this why do i have to feel so much agony
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truly brings me such joy seeing you go fully feral over a movie i’ve never heard of alshjd. ily
PLEEEAAAAASE GO WATCH BETTER DAYS 😭😭 it is my favourite movie of all time omfg literally like sobbing throwing up over the characters. the book is even more spectacular like it’s truly insane how such a straight forward plot can punch me in the gut again and again and again. i think about bei ye and chen nian every 3-10 business days. i get the urge to rewatch the movie and reread the web novel it’s based off of every 2 months. i have read the book 3 times in the last year. when i say i go insane i meant i literally go insane like wdym these are two children thrust into an unforgiving world that scrapes them bloody and raw and they find each other in the gutter (!! 😭) and slowly and tenderly they mold each other into their very being!!!!! the movie is so brief on it yet it’s so !!!! powerful !!!!!!!
#it’s the most niche thing ever but it’s MY niche thing#screaming crying throwing up over them CONSTANTLY#and i have NO ONE TO TALK ABOUT IT WITH!!!! IMAGINE MY HYSTERIA!!!!!#answered asks#jess tag
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I miss my butch so so so much
#whining screaming crying i miss him#we've been together constantly for over a month cause of summer from uni#so I'm having separation anxiety and feel like a puppy#rants n rambles
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hyper bc I had a latte and gay club music playing so I cleaned the kitchen and living room in a record time of 42 minutes
#i emptied the dishwasher+ filled it up w dirty dishes + cleaned all the counter tops + wiped down the kitchen table + sweeped the floors#and put away miscellaneous objects that were in the wrong places#now im going to fold my baba and mamas laundry bc i still have energy amd because i feel immensely guilty for the argument we had yesterday#i am literally such a bad person this is the least i can do#i feel like im 17 all over again#like i used to fight with them so much and then spend hours every weekend cleaning the whole house to prove#that i wasn't a bad daughter#the only difference is now im 20 and i get drained way faster so i only do the whole cleaning thing when we have a particularly nasty fight#i guess. that means we dont fight as often . a good thing#but idk i feel so gross and immature and awful my parents r in their 50s i have to get a grip#like yes im allowed to be upset when they say annoying things to me constantly but i shouldnt be so reactionary#like time and place bro -> me to myself#i get so excessively upset 😭 like something worthy of a few tense words ends up being a crying and screaming affair when im irritable#and yes we made up but i feel like i should've never been born i hope the clean house makes me seem like less of a mistake haha. i want to#die about it#z.post
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it is saturday and I am but a simple highschooler and I am so so tired and it is literally 12:15pm and I want to just sit here and eat my banana pudding
#failing to control those emotions I mentioned earlier I am so angry and sick and frustrated#fuck the world why is fandom so complicated#I keep thinking abt shit I've heard and shit I've somewhat experience and I want to scream into a pillow for four hours#engaging in interests always makes me half regret it bc of all the shit I have to hear abt because of fandom.#I don't regret joining any of the fandoms because of the INCREDIBLE and AWESOME people and friends I get to meet because of it#but stuff also is bad and annoying sometimes#I am starting to understand why most people refuse to engage and interact with other people in fandoms. its because#you slowly learn of all the drama and then you end up feeling like you're being pulled on by either end#it feels like I'm constantly the rope in a game of tug of war when it comes to most fandom spaces. like this experience happens too often#because ohhh you have this one side who believes this and another who believes that#AND SOMETIMES I MAKE STUPID POSTS OR COMMENTS THAT I GET REMINDED OF A BUNCH AND I WANT TO CRY.#I'm literally a fucking kid dammit I am not trying to change the world or anyhthing I just have opinions and I say them and sometimes#I speak before I think and sometimes I'm wrong and that is something that happens. not all of my opionions are solid locked in constantly#and SOMETIMES people who I think are cool turn out to be LESS COOL and SOMETIMES I feel like I say or do things that ruin my friends'-#-fandom experience and I fear they secretly hate me#okay that's it rant's over now
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capitalism really has brainwashed y'all into thinking filler episodes are bad huh
#filler episodes are good actually???#they give time for the audience to really know the characters#they give the writers a chance to pace properly and give the story a sense of timing#they also are a good opportunity for worldbuilding#like do you honestly think shows like spn or twd would've stuck around as long as they did#and mad such a lasting impression on our cultural consciousness if each one was 6-8 episodes?#nope. they'd be as in one ear and out the other as literally any d+ show#but companies have figured out that they can give y'all 1/2-1/4 of the content they did before#but you'll scream cry and throw up over it all the same#and i'm sure someone's gonna say that i'm no better because i thought moon knight was okay or whatever#but i haven't thought about mk or anything like that since it came out#meanwhile carl grimes and the characters from shows like soul eater are permanent fixtures in my brain#and i'm constantly wanting to write about those worlds#is this aggressive? probably yeah. but i'm sick of hearing people say that things are obviously bad#because they have more than 10 episodes or whatever#critically think about what you consume for 2 seconds and you'll be all the better for it
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MAAAANNN RP-ING IS SUCH A FUN HOBBY THO???? me just having a blast here writing hakuno (i simp for her + she is so fun to write i luv her sm) and reading replies (i simp for all my mutuals' writing + i go a liddol a gaga everytime i receive sth for my hakuno in particular hehe 🤩) HMMMRGH YEAH idk what i'm going with this post but <3 idk i just think it is so neat....... I JUST THINK U ALL R SO NEATTT i am simply blowing a kiss to all my talented show stopping wonderful mutuals tbh
#&&. out of#i am a simple simp and honestly this just so perf for my simp heart? FSKFGSKFHDJF#my blog rlly is just me simping over h.akuno and everyone she interacts with 🥰🥰 /HJ#IM JUST SCREAMING AND CRYING CONSTANTLY TBH#but 🥺 yes i enjoy being here sm and idk why i'm just feeling a lil cheesy!!!!!#not 2 mention all the amazing ppl i've met from here..... ue ue ue#I CARE U ALL SM I HOPE U KNOW THAT
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#it's fine i'm just having another meltdown about surgical menopause#this is hell this is hell this is hell this is evil hell i cannot over state how this without informed consent makes me wanna die#i would never have agreed to this if there was informed consent and the doctor even put he didn't know about surgical menopause in the chart#when i grilled him after and told him i never would have agreed with i formed consent and he REALLY SAID THAT INFO DIDNT EXIST#my voice is stuck like this my teeth are going bad my bones are degenerating and so is my brain i just want to lay down and cry#there's nothing i can do about this and this is what im stuck with as my life now#i would give an arm and a leg to extend colorados medical malpractice statutes of limitations theyre so short#i seriously would pursue legal action against this doctor#nothing would make up for this though i constantly feel like screaming and being absolutely violent because i don't know what to do with#how upset i am maybe i should go to a wreck it room or something lmao i simply do not know i'm just trying#trying not to take it out on myself even though i want to#if i start i won't stop and that's a deep hole i don't think i could get out of if i do#which is why im avoiding it as much as possible#it's called ptsd sweaty
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