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#rose empathizing bc she has felt like that too
loartacc · 1 year
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Just a random? Thing? But i think its interesting how life changes your perspective on the media you consume.
As a kid i loved the hunger games. Because I was a kid with a wild imagination and it was one of my favorite worlds to daydream about. I obviously empathized with the characters in that at time, but I was like maybe 9 at the time? So I never really was able to get their emotions. I just thought Katniss was cool tm. I adored Haymitch and Effie and honestly at the time Haymitch was my favorite.
And then as a preteen (11-14 was this phase tbh) I was obsessed with the books. Going through my own abuse they kept me afloat. I hated the mockingjay book. It felt like such a slap in the face to see Katniss break down and just give up in some ways. I hated Haymitch at the time for not protecting Peeta and Katniss enough. He reminded me of the person who made the choices that put me in my situation and good god i hated him for it.
Now? As an adult who has some pretty bad ptsd, i wholeheartedly get why the characters act like that. I understand why Katniss falls apart at roses dropped on thirteen. I feel for her when she goes through her depression. I hid with the books the way she hides in the 13. I understand that Haymitch tried. He did his best in a lot of ways. I think, in a lot of ways the roses and the way katniss reacts to them is my most obvious connection to her now. I reacted similarly to how she did, shutting down and collapsing into my own mind for safety. (Extra context thats probably only funny for me: the reason the roses is extra similar is because my breakdown happened bc my abuser sent me a succulent in the mail. It was ugly and smelled gross too.)
The hunger games have been integral to my life and my growing up, and i just think its interesting on how my viewpoint on the books have changed and grown throughout. The books have been around most my life and its kind of an easy way to look back and see how i've changed.
Definitely not my normal post since all my original content is usually art but whatever tm! Ignore my typos please! I just had thoughts and they needed to be put somewhere!
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mayybirds · 3 years
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honestly the more I think about mia the more interesting and morally fucked up she becomes. like it's just never really brought up how she was a high enough rank in re's latest Evil Company, the connections, that she was directly involved in the handling of eveline and the fact that eveline was designed to imprint on her handlers implies mia was there from the start, at the very very least must have watched eveline's growth from a baby to a child. the fact that she's so removed from empathizing with eveline despite playing a mother role is messed up but fascinating since she doesn't seem like a cruel person. i just watched a walkthrough of when the bakers found eveline and zoe finds mia's note like mia was just going to write them a note saying "don't save the little girl, it's probably too late for you, peace out" and leave in the night? the whole eveline project was irresponsible, even without the knowledge that eveline was literally designed as a weapon, just thinking of the way the connections, including mia, endangered civilians on a cargo ship and then again with the bakers. like they didn't save mia but would mia have saved someone else in her shoes if she was on the other side of the glass? it makes me think mia has a "for the greater good" mindset, where she might see the science and her brain as more valuable in the long run than innocent masses. it's a mindset that differs drastically from ethan's in your fic, esp since he's been on the sharp end of that mindset! even in canon it seemed like they weren't really a good fit with mia continuing to keep secrets and them constantly fighting. SORRY this got so long i'm just so interested in the facets of the characters re never explored but hinted at. in a way, mia was the actual downfall for the baker family. and yet it's still pretty fucked up what happened to her and YET isn't that what she designed/groomed eveline to do?
aaaaaa anon I'm so sorry it took so long to answer this one bc I need my computer for the big asks but I love everything you're throwing down and agree with it all 100%.
I 100% subscribe to the belief Mia was either involved in Eveline's creation or brought onto the team almost immediately after she was born. Especially given we have this image from the RE7 opening--
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Which is almost certainly Mia with a baby Eveline.
Mia has been involved in some truly fucked shit and while I don't begrudge Capcom their decision to keep her alive or a 'protagonist', I do wish her dark background was capitalized on more, and hope RE9 will make use of it at least. Rose is kind of the perfect, and last, person who can confront Mia about the person beneath the persona, and that no matter how much she loved Ethan or Rose, that didn't excuse the horrible things she participated in in the other parts of her life.
I do read Mia as having a 'for the greater good' mindset, where she thinks about human development and the future over immediate casualties--probably because it's the kindest reading I can give her. Otherwise, if it's assumed she was with the Connections for the money or just genuinely felt nothing at all about what she was doing, she becomes an even darker character.
I love contrasting that with Ethan, who canonically is so family and immediate-good oriented (look at Elena in RE8! He has no reason to help her and her life or death doesn't actually matter to his goals, but he's driven to help her and upset when she dies), and of course, I push that even further in my fic with Ethan's backstory. Ethan is all about protecting victims and the innocent, and the recognition that there is no such thing as "acceptable losses" or "collateral damage" when it comes to human lives. It's very different from Mia, who definitely sees some lives as worth more than others.
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jcronimo · 5 years
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( cismale ) haven’t seen JEROME FRANCIS PAGE-PEREZ around in a while. the REECE KING lookalike has been known to be (+) ROMANTIC & (+) EMPATHIC, but HE can also be (-) FLIGHTY & (-) PETTY. The 22-year-old is a SENIOR majoring in PRE-MED. I believe they’re living in PEREGRINS but I popped by earlier and no one answered the door.
sup y’all this is ral with a new dumbass here’s his pinterest, here are his wanted conntections. like this is if you wanna plot with this thot
for those who don’t wanna read the whole thing, here’s a tl;dr
adopted by his 2 rich moms but is pretty low key about the rich thing
loves books and poetry, such a literary nerd
big romantic: falls in and out of love constantly
sleeps around a lot looking for love (bi as heck) so kind of an accidental fuckboi
complains all the time, hella dramatic and petty
more details under the cut!
FAMILY
born and raised in chicago by his two moms. he was adopted when he was born, his moms never hid that from him. he met his biological mom once but she died 4 years ago from a drug overdose. his biological dad doesn’t know he exists lol
jerome francis is named after two writers: jd salinger and scott f fitzegerald bc his moms are both literary nerds but wanted to be lowkey about it
his mom, claudia, is cuban and a medical lawyer; his maman, odille, is french and a very successful writer in france, so he’s not poor (at all)
claudia and her family didn’t have much money growing up so she did her best not to let jerome grow up to be a pretentious rich kid. he’s lowkey about his money, like he can cook his own meals and likes worn tees and sweatpants (issa look). mostly he uses his money to buy flowers for his dates and take out when he’s lazy
STUDIES N HOBBIES
jerome is a big ol’ book nerd, loves reading novels and poetry (pablo neruda is his fave bc im predictable) but has no interest in writing professionally so no creative writing degree
didn’t want to study english lit either because he hates reading because someone tells him too so he chose pre-med. his mom works for a specialised hospital so that inspired him to try and become a doctor
is relatively chill during the year, an absolute mess during finals (his moms don’t pressure him but he doesn’t want to fail them since they’re both really smart and succesful)
loves to swim (not competitively), the beach is his happy place
PERSONALITY
tiny bit pretentious, tiny bit of a fuck boy
jerome loves talking to people, he thrives on attention, a true extrovert (he’s one of those people who’s like ‘i just want to have deep conversations with people :/ )
a true casanova: he flirts a lot, and he’s good at it, which results in the occasional more like frequent hook up or one-night stand because sex is nice and fun and he enjoys it
that doesn’t mean he doesn’t believe in relationships/love. he falls hard and fast, then falls out of love just as quickly, so he’s had a lot of girlfriends and boyfriends throughout the years. honestly he has a new crush every other week so he has a lot of okay and really bad breakups
big ol’ hopeless romantic, he wants love so!! bad!! he’ll buy you roses and go stargazing with you then fuck you in the backseat of the car and drop you because a pretty girl complimented his choice of reading material
doesn’t get mad easily, but complains a lot, is very dramatic and a bit petty
toxic masulinity who? fucks with pink, loves a good face mask at the end of the day, has no time for your sexist bullshit
has no problems talking about his feelings, he’ll comfort you when you’re sad you need a rebound fuck? jerome has got your back
always down for a good blunt, some netflix n chill and a nice nap (not necessarily at the same time or in that order)
TATIANA
they dated for  a couple of months but tatiana then dumped him and brOKE HIS HEART (it was just a matter of timing, otherwise he would have broken hers) and moved on quickly
he’s resented her ever since (no he doesn’t see the irony)
was shocked when she was found dead tho, cried about it a day because he felt hella guilty
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hopefired-a · 6 years
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BIG ASS THOUGHTS POST UNDER THE CUT MAJOR SPOILERS FOR TLJ YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED
first of fucking all. poe dameron has my whole ass heart. give it to him on a silver platter it’s his now. hotheaded but for all the right reasons?? just wants to do so right by the resistance and what he thinks is right?? and even though he fucks up you can tell it’s from a good place at heart
on that note, i LOVE the political nuance. the study of the different ideologies was my favorite part of the pt and now they’ve really fleshed it out for this movie. you can tell that everyone had a point, that they all had their backs against the wall and were just trying to make the best decision. it was really seen with poe-amilyn-leia and i Loved It (and i don’t understand the criticism that it turns either poe or amilyn into someone “unlikable”??? the whole point was that they both have the right idea in some way)
THE SHOT WHEN AMILYN JUMPS OUT OF LIGHTSPEED WAS THE MOST BEAUTIFUL THING I’VE EVER SEEN AND I’M GONNA WATCH IT AGAIN AND AGAIN. everyone in the theater was holding their breath and there was applause when the explosion happened. it was beautiful.
sPEAKING OF BEAUTIFUL. ROSE TICO. ROSE TICO IS MY TINY ANGEL AND I WILL PROTECT HER WITH EVERYTHING. she was so spunky and cute and really believed in what she was doing and i want to know everything about her?? i think people missed that her and finn’s story wasn’t so much about plot (like poe’s or even rey’s/ben’s) but about character. there were so many amazing moments (finn looking awestruck bc he’s never seen so much luxury but also empathizing with rose when she shows him the ugliness underneath; rose’s cute little grins at finn--”i saved your life, dummy”; finn’s demanding “GIVE THAT BACK” to benicio del toro’s character when he takes her necklace. honestly i ship them HARD)
more great political commentary: i can see how some people might not be down with all the canto blight stuff but HONESTLY SHOWING HOW WAR PROFITEERING JUST LEADS TO MORE AND MORE SUFFERING. SHOWING HOW THOSE PEOPLE DON’T CARE ABOUT WHICH SIDE, JUST ABOUT MAKING A PROFIT. benicio’s character showing how you can get jaded about that and just not think either side is doing anything but going out for themselves.
there was so much humor in this movie i was honestly surprised, considering how dark the tone was. even the fuckin porgs were funny. luke was a dramatic sassy shit at all times and i love him for it.
SPEAKING OF FUCKING. LUKE SKYWALKER. i know people hold him up as this Paragon of Goodliness but you really saw how guilt can cripple a person. he cut himself off from everything because, like yoda said, he didn’t also teach his failure as well as his success. his and rey’s scenes were perfect--mark and daisy have such great scene chemistry. the forehead kiss with leia fucked me right up i was crying. and THE ENTIRE FUCKING FIRST ORDER FIRING ON HIM AND HE JUST BRUSHES THAT LITTLE SCRAP OF DIRT AWAY LIKE THE SHIT HE IS.
the other dramatic skywalker twin was also perfect. AND FORCE FLOATED HER FUCKING SELF OUT OF THE CRUSHING RECESS OF SPACE. i honestly teared up in every carrie scene so i really need to rewatch just for those but god she was amazing.
every time hux got thrown around, 10 years were added to my lifespan. (”hux? kinda pasty?” same poe.)
ok now the Boi. the Man. my One and Only ben solo. adam put everything he had into that character and it fucking shows. he goes from so empathetic and vulnerable to unhinged on a dime and it’s perfect. you wanted him so badly to turn to the light but also so badly to rule everything and crush it underneath him as well. it made you just as conflicted as he was. there was a cheer in the theater when he ignited his saber to help rey fight the guards it was glorious.
ON SNOKE: BYE MOTHERFUCKER. i’m still unsure about his death (damn it was a little anticlimactic) but i kinda like it better than a Full Out Fight would’ve been? that fucker doesn’t deserve a dramatic death. and it kinda harkens back to the ot when palp didn’t really die that dignified of a death either. the focus of sw has never been the Big Bads, but the surrounding emotional stories (vader and luke, anakin and padme and obi wan, rey and ben in these movies). so i felt like it was a fitting death in that way.
also he was so creepy and when he touched rey’s face i actually wanted to run him through with that lightsaber too
sPEAKING OF REY I LOVE HER SO MUCH. she had so much fight in her this movie; after seeing her just conflicted with whether or not to go back to jakku throughout all of tfa, it was really nice to see her with such purpose. she was honestly fucking terrifying and i love how they did that. (see: her shooting ben no questions when he first appears. her going straight for the dark forbidden force hole. not stopping trying to run at snoke with the damn lightsabers. FIGHTING LUKE!! FIGHTING THE PRAETORIAN GUARDS!! BLOWING UP THE FUCKING SHIP!!)
“i don’t think [the guardians of the jedi temple] like me very much”
SHE WANTED SO MUCH TO SEE HER FAMILY AGAIN AND TO JUST BE WANTED. when she said “you had a father who gave a damn” to ben i was honestly heartbroken. she was so angry about han’s death not just because he was a friend, but also because someone knowingly severed a kind of connection she’s been searching for all her life.
on the theme of ~connections~. i’m never gonna be over the force bond stuff. how soft they are with each other. that hand touching scene that looked straight out of p&p. them saying each other’s names in such quiet tones. “i’d really rather not do this right now.” “yeah me too”-- bringing out the humor in each other. but also bringing out the pain because they’re like open wounds; they can’t hide with each other. 
ben becoming so unhinged after rey left KILLED ME. you know he’s struggled with abandonment all his life. then he finally finds someone who he thinks understands--and who really, really does--but she still doesn’t stay. he gets so unbalanced and it’s only in that final scene with rey closing the door on him that he really sees what that will cost him. what his choice means. what he has left to lose, when he thought there wasn’t any kind of weakness left in him. if there was ever going to be a best actor nom in star wars, adam deserves it for portraying all that emotion with relatively few lines.
the only things i can criticize are a few pacing issues (but that’s almost unavoidable in this long of a movie) and honestly the last scene with the little kid was a little too campy. but it did make for a hopeful ending. which i think we as viewers and this series as a whole needs to keep.
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irregodless · 7 years
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okay readmore time
feel free to contact me to discuss theories or general plot
so this is gonna be hella segmented but just deal okay
my thoughts are never very organized so im just gonna talk about some disappointments and other stuff
why does homeworld have a court session for rose quartz i mean i get theyre bureaucrats suddenly but like. um? kinda feels silly. why would they give her a chance to defend herself? also have they advanced like humans? bc blue diamond sure af didnt give garnet a chance to plead a case when she fused ON ACCIDENT
that being said what happened to all the stuff about like moon goddesses and stuff. i wasnt really counting on the diamonds being like. actual goddess figures but i was kinda hoping for more than ceo bosses in pantsuits
where he hell is white diamond and why wasnt she present. was she out conquering new planets? the symbol represents her so she appears to still be around. so where is she? i honestly think its suspicious that shes not present. i figure given her color and gem placement she is a cold calculating unfeeling machine who is only concerned with purity, structure and justice. so like the anithesis of what steven fights for: feeling for each other, empathizing etc
kinda disappointed there were so few off-colors but maybe well find some more later
also kinda disappointed steven and lars didnt fuse but i mean maybe later. also there wasnt really a need to so far nor was it implied they would
why did everyone run away from rutile when they emerged? the fact they were not INSTANTLY captured and shattered for breaking the mold suggests that all the kindergartners ran too. now they might have been around MUCH LONGER AGO but to me that would mean imperfect gems were MORE COMMON to find. the gems dont seem to be too put off by strange appearances. im just saying its weird that they would all run from a defect gem. im not crying plot hole, im actually saying i think something ELSE happened to make them run away. not a mutated rutile.
i was kind of hoping to find a secret society of garnets of other rubies and sapphires who followed our garnets example lol. they couldve helped steven feel more at home or something
im kind of sad it wasnt set up more like a movie, but again it wasnt SUPPOSED to be. understand i can identify things i was expecting incorrectly and things im genuinely upset by. this was just my expectations being in the wrong place.
im also sad there isnt more of a prospect of there being like. a season of being stranded on homeworld. but now it feels like in the two years itll take for season 6 to show up till just be a bunch of “””filler””” where lars is just stranded on homeworld and not spoken about until a stevenbomb halfway through. id much rather learn about homeworld!!
we also got no new information about the war or homeworld, really!!!! :( not even a flashback
yellow diamond is guilty af. she didnt want to hold the trial and she was ESPECIALLY outraged by the “crazy theory” that she did it. also, im just sayin, eyeball ruby (the only known witness we know of atm) also couldnt tell that the jasper she had ALSO SEEN WITH HER ONE EYE AND LVOED SO MUCH was really amethyst. like she didnt even notice her chest gem OR her coloration. so i mean. the rose quartz that shattered pink COULD HAVE BEEN yellow or COULD HAVE BEEN a shapeshifted gem. esp since her sword isnt supposed to shatter. so someones murder mystery unravels by getting a core detail wrong. i still kind of like the theory of like. pink transferring her consciousness a la lars and steven to a rose and shattering herself so she wouldnt have to conquer and destroy. so our rose is actually pink diamond but in the body of a rose quartz (making steven still a rose quartz but not a pink diamond like his mom... ‘s personality. which is what matters over physical form. esp with gems. itd also make the rose is pink diamond theories hilarious true but also false lmao)
kind of disappointed in lions new origin story too! i think the pink pearl theories were interesting if not always positively RIDDLED with holes. (some people thought he was a gem monster but um we would have seen pearls gem on his tummy. and steven has pet his tummy MANY A TIME)
I KIND OF DONT LIKE THAT THE HAPPY ENDING WAS JUST STEVEN REUNITING WITH HIS FAMILY BUT LARS GETTIN FUCKED OFF LEFT ON HOMEWORLD LOL. i mean i know he told him to go and tell everone and stuff but its like. look everythings back to normal and theyre back together!! oh except lars who isnt alive and will live forever as an organic lich servant to steven but dont worry l m a o o o. i jsut didnt like that whole lars thing a lot in general... nor do i feel like turning pink instantly redeems him. not that i hated him. but i dont think turnign pink was the character development we needed.
WHERES TOPAZ IS SHE OKAY DID AQUAMARINE RAT HER OUT
DO ZIRCONS GET SHATTERED IF THEY LOSE A CASE
WOULD BLUE ZIRCON HAVE BEEN A PARIAH FOR DEFENDING ROSE QUARTZ DESPITE *HAVING TO*
YO BLUE DIAMOND EY WHAT UP LIKE LITERALLY WHATS GOING ON BLUE PLZ TELL ME IN THE DARK A LIL
plz tell me well get more homeworld adventures and lars will smuggle gems in his hair
are they going to send pumpkin to homeworld as rose or something and sacriice him lol (i actually just wanted to ask why he was relevant at all but then i imagined just like. replacing him with lars)
are the crystal gems gonna go to homeworld and start shit princess marco style teach those gems about rock and roll pearl!! liberate them form the oppressive THE MAN, AMETHYST
can i mention that while it was funny but also irrelevant to this special, i kinda didnt like the like. garnet just drawing herself “i like me” bit. like it was funny but also like. almost too off-focus and too self-absorbed for her character. i could imagine sardonyx doing that but not garnet. idk it was just a single silly gag but i didnt like it
are the zircons okay tho
but like seriously whats homeworld even like like whats going on. especially since they dont seem to have an actual culture (if gems dont know what jokes are i really cant imagine them having a purpsoe outside of militial. how does a civilization survive on being NOTHING but war machines?)
i kinda feel like were coming to the tip of excitement here i feel like theres very little more that can be done in the show. idk. like what happens next anyways
do i have any MORE questions or musings to ask/muse????? yes. but i cant think of any rn. so later. 
EDIT: so i was thinking and i wanted to ammend the lars things. he DEF had character development and it was DEF even before he turned pink. i think i felt that the only thing being addressed or taken away was that he was pink now? and i kinda dont like character development thats done like completely suddenly as a heelturn and is heretofore ooc. lars however was written WELL. he developed REALLY WELL AND I LOVE IT. there was just something at the time that made it seem like it was all about him turning pink that almost made me forget he literally saved everyone? and i realize him being left out of the happy ending was of his own accord and sacrifice it just kinda rubbed me the wrong way. just a personal thing i guess.
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dyketectivecomics · 6 years
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Kiss request fic! I don't remember the number but a Kiss in Grief with roserae thank much ye
i wanted to post that next chap of AE, but this has been sitting in drafts and just needed a quick tune up.so have this after midnight bc I’m a Disaster. i hope ya like it rem!
She wasn’t one for tears. Not unless something was absolutely wrong.
Morbid jokes, though? She’d lost track of how many times she’d made the ’I’ll have to cut out my other eye’ one.
That was often easier than dealing with the actual feelings she’d have. It’d taken her too damn long to own up to those thoughts and feelings. To start to recognize when she was acting on them, almost against her better judgement or better will. And especially to start reigning those thoughts and feelings in.
Which is probably why she’d gotten on Raven’s nerves to start with.
’The absolute lack of self-control or emotional intelligence is simply staggering,’ the empath had told her more than once.
Which Ravager had taken minor offense to.
She prided herself at being able to read people and situations well enough to manipulate them, after all.
But when it came to her own battles? Her inner demons? She preferred to keep those safely shoved away to be dealt with later.
Unpack, reconvene, figure out just what the hell she was actually thinking and feeling outside of the heat of a moment. It wasn’t something that came easy. But she’d been learning for the better part of the past year.
It was something that the Titans seemed to have a special talent for helping with.
But there came a point in light of recent events, however, where she’d had enough. And Raven had found her, almost magnetically, in the Tower’s weight room.
Making a victim out of yet another punching bag. Sand pouring directly onto the floor. A mess to match the anger and hurt she kept trying to push out through her fists.
The empath took a silent watch from the other side of the bag, lingering by the doorway, waiting patiently for Rose to finish.
And with each punch, each quick exhale and release, Rose only felt her anger swelling.
It wasn’t like he’d been around much anyways.
Bam.
It wasn’t like he’d spent every second that he could in some twisted game of sudden interest, sudden need to get to know her.
Bang.
It wasn’t like he’d ever shown that he loved and cared for her so damn much.
Bump.
It wasn’t like she missed him like hell even before he-
Thud.
The chain broke. Bag and sand landing on the mat, kicking up the mess underneath and coating Rose as well as the equipment around her.
She felt small stings as the sand and salt crept into open wounds. And felt slender arms wrap around her waist as she began undoing the wraps on her hands.
“Despite the hell he put me and our team through,” Raven said gently, her smokey voice low in Rose’s ear as she rested her chin on the Ravager’s shoulder, “Despite all that he’d done. You’re dad was actually… a pretty decent man.”
“Decent men don’t raise broken daughters,” Rose bit back as she tore Raven’s arms from her sides.
She spun in place, facing her girlfriend even as she felt tears beginning to prick in her eye.
“He’s never been that reckless. He’s never been that self-sacrificing. Raven, he’s-”
No! She wasn’t doing this! She wasn’t going to break down into tears and start a damn pity party over that asshole!
But those salty tears were already falling, she could feel a headache already forming between eye and eye socket. And she already felt that insatiable need to start a verbal vomit of her thoughts as amethyst eyes watched her face oh-so-carefully.
The crease of her eyebrows, that full lower lip being bit gently in worry. God, Raven was beautiful when she let her guard down. When she tried to show how much she cared.
And Rose knew she needed to shut herself up before she said something she’d regret.
So she took Raven’s face in her hands and pulled her girlfriend close for a kiss. Her lips hot against the empaths, taking in the taste of black coffee and sugar. The hints of a sickly sweet breakfast that Rose had skipped when she’d gotten the news that morning.
Morning.
A morning of mourning.
What an odd thing to think about.
And all for a man that she’d been so distant from and then so close to in such a short amount of time.
She’d forget about that for now, as Raven parted her lips and invited Rose to taste more of that wonderfully sweet breakfast that she’d missed. And she gladly complied.
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