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memesandmylife · 7 months

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it really is insane to me how in the mid 2010s netflix had a reputation of making cool, inclusive series as well as saving tv shows after their networks cancelled them, and now here we are today with every halfway decent netflix original show getting cancelled after 1-2 seasons and a bajillion episodes of bigmouth

#netflix #shadow and bone #six of crows #inside job #the get down #(the get down was a long ass time ago but that cancellation ripped my fucking heart out and i never trusted netflix again)#winsome’s wailings

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avotuli · 8 months

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this isnt about nightmares or fear, this is about love

#the terror amc #the terror #come closer i am a normal tv series #i wont rip your heart out in chunks and make a home inside #james fitzjames #jfj #fitzjames haha more like fitzgender #i have never read p&p is it any good #my art

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graciereadshannigram · 2 months

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hey fam, welcome to the March roundup of the best hannigram fics i've read this past month! i read close to 60 fics total, and these were the cream of the crop.

as a reminder: the ingredients for a five star rating typically (but not always!!) include some combination of a.) believable characterizations of both Hannibal and Will, b.) compelling plot and/or character arcs, and c.) high quality smut.

that being said, my judgment of the aforementioned ingredients is powered almost exclusively by vibes and as such, is incredibly subjective.

and if you have any recs of your own for me, PLEASE SHARE.

(Inaugural roundup can be found here)

anyway, in no particular order, let's go!

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Title: Bones of My Bones (& Flesh of My Flesh) by everyday_forever Word Count: 15,759 Summary: When Will & Hannibal reunite in Italy at last, Will doesn't fear becoming Hannibal. He knows he already is Hannibal. However, Will feels as if he's a derivative of Hannibal, made in Hannibal's image, from Hannibal's own raw material. He doesn't feel like he's Hannibal's natural equal. Will thinks the only way he can forgive Hannibal is by claiming a piece of Hannibal in return, and choosing to make it a part of himself. He has to eat him. And Hannibal is all to happy to let him.

As far as I'm concerned, this IS canon. Truly some of the best canon-compliant characterizations of them that I've read. This is absolutely what would have happened if Will hadn't tried to kill Hannibal after leaving the Uffizi Gallery. It was perfect. And so them. And obviously, mutual cannibalism. *chefs kiss*

Title: Do you feel the hunger, does it howl inside? by merrythoughts and ReallyMissCoffee Word Count: 261,929 Summary: It's been weeks since the Fall. Since Will had leaned against him, the wild scent of blood thick and cloying on the air, and had taken them from the top of the cliffs. And for every second of every day since, Hannibal has been calmly dealing with the fallout of his decision that night: Life over death. Will had intended them to die, had allowed himself a moment of weakness, of desperation. Perhaps the last act of an exhausted soul. Yet Hannibal had denied him.

I am being dead serious when I say that this fic changed my brain chemistry and managed to do something that several years of therapy had not. I wanted this to go on forever (there IS a sequel!) and did my very best to savor it instead of plowing through the entire thing in a single day. Check the author notes if you're unfamiliar with these two writers–the format took me a couple chapters to get used to, but clearly it wasn't a big deal for me.

Title: Sensational by bigfootghostdick Word Count: 39,607 Summary: Franklyn’s obsession with Hannibal Lecter truly knows no bounds. His obsession only grows worse after being fired as Dr.Lecter’s patient. Feeling slighted by Hannibal's rejection, Franklyn follows him home one evening only to stumble upon something that he never expected to see. Who’s that dark-haired man locking lips with Hannibal right outside his front door? Overcome with jealousy, Franklyn decides to seek revenge on his tenth psychiatrist. How? By selling the photos he took of them to Freddie Lounds.

Listen. I love a good jealous!Franklyn, especially when Hanni and Will firmly put him in his place. Sue me.

Title: The Stress-Sex Connection by shotgun_sinner Word Count: 48,090 Summary: When Will gets out of the BSHCI, he resumes therapy with Hannibal Lecter. His stress levels are through the roof, and Hannibal makes an offer that Will doesn't turn down. Hannibal assumes he's going to take Will to bed and make love to a fragile man, shy and delicate. Will enjoys taking Hannibal to bed, and proving him wrong. OR the story where Hannibal is shocked to find out that Will is a profiler in the streets, but a demon in the sheets.

I was sold on the last line of the summary, "Will is a profiler in the streets, but a demon in the sheets" because it actually got a good cackle out of me, and then who would have guessed! Essentially porn with feelings, but I loved.

Title: hold me, kiss me, rip out my tongue by multifandom_fanfic_writer Word Count: 18,005 Summary: Will notices things. He notices a lot of things, can’t turn it off. Some of these things are about Doctor Hannibal Lecter. He watches Hannibal watching him eat. He watches the touch on his elbow lingering, possessive. He watches Hannibal's eyes darken when Will pulls his hair and fucks his throat hard.

Okay, so I'm realizing that a lot of my five star fics this month were pretty smutty, but I make no apologies. That being said, I did find the characterizations of both Will and Hannibal to be very compelling, and it had the added bonus of Will getting to rub it in Alana's face that Hannibal chose him not her.

Title: Ligare by InfiniteCrisis Word Count: 8,280 Summary: Will's never gone down on a man before and is feeling nervous about it. His solution: tie Hannibal up first. Hannibal has no complaints.

Initially shied away from this one because Will essentially drugs Hannibal to knock him out and fuck him for the first time, but I PROMISE Hannibal knew exactly what Will was doing and allowed it. However, if that isn't your thing, this won't be for you.

THAT BEING SAID, my honest reaction after this was, "fuck fuck fuck, dom!Will might be my new favorite." Bonus points for it being the first in a series, and the rest is equally good!

Title: Oboedire, Implorare, Vovere by InfiniteCrisis Word Count: 18,715 Summary: At the end of Ligare, Hannibal said Will should "test" his willingness to submit to him. Will takes him up on that, and the results are more than either of them expected.

As I said, the rest of the series was SO GOOD. This was basically off the charts hot.

Title: To the Devil His Due (His Due is You) by everyday_forever Word Count: 26,3319 Summary: Will Graham is in the Baltimore State Hospital for the Criminally Insane, courtesy of one Hannibal Lecter. And Will wants payback. He threatens Hannibal with a reckoning. And then Will has a terrible and wonderful idea- he opts to get back at Hannibal and make him jealous by pursuing a sexual relationship with Dr. Frederick Chilton. Feeling emboldened, Chilton sends the audio recordings of him and Will together to Hannibal to boast of the new development in Will's 'therapy.' Hannibal knows at once Will is the mastermind behind it all. Hannibal is most displeased with his manipulative albeit cunning boy. Chaos ensues. Will continues to manipulate both Chilton and Hannibal in order to make Hannibal jealous. Will has entered into a dance with the Devil after poking Hannibal's beast and Hannibal is eager to teach Will a lesson and remind him who he belongs to...

HEAR ME OUT. Prior to this fic, I had never considered Will/Chilton. Ever. Let alone reading a fic where most of the on paper smut is ChilWill. And yet here we are. Hannibal was just so present through it all, given that Will was only screwing Chilton to get at Hannibal (although, I liked that there was some genuine affection between Chilton and Will, it wasn't completely callous), and it just all combined to be an excellent fic. Sue me.

Title: Trope: Fake Date (Hannigram AU) by TigerPrawn Word Count: 4,207 Summary: Will's possible promotion is relying on his superiors thinking better of him. One way to do that is to take his omega to the upcoming cocktail party. Only problem is, he doesn't have one, having to rely on one sent by an agency. He wasn't quite expecting Doctor Hannibal Lecter.

Fluffy first meeting AU, nothing more nothing less. I just love seeing them happy!! (sometimes, lmao)

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And that's a wrap on this month! See ya next time!!!

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frunbuns · 9 months

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RWRB + stuff

#rip june fly high angle #we miss out on some of Alex's emotions in the movie #just bc he's not as outwardly emotional as henry #and some of his struggles are brushed to the side a bit or just not included #But i know it's there happening inside his head #except being a kid of divorce apparently lol #also apparently Bea is younger than Henry in the movie????#not my older sister rep </3 /j #red white and royal blue #red white and royal blue movie #red white and blue #red white & royal blue #rwrb #rwrb film #rwrb movie #rwrbedit #rwrb book #casey mcquiston #mine

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r7inyz · 1 month

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FORCE MY THOUGHTS THROUGH HELL AND BACK

OR LEAVE ME ALONE TONIGHTTTTT BREAK BREAK BREAK MY HEART BREAK ME TILL I FALL APARTT

coughs without background

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koukaaa-descent · 3 months

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Both of us are going to die here. I just hadn't thought you'd be first.

#lethal company #lethal company bracken #lethal company employee #oc monsoon #oc indigo #koukart #the lore for these 2 is actually driving me crazy #i drew this ripping my heart out #this is . kind of a visualization to when monsoon dies #carrying a star...#i couldnt get the imagery out of my head #brackens = plant = Flammable #and then i thought about how trees burnt from the inside out when they got struck by lightning #and then. monsoon #carrying a star for a purpose it could not possibly understand #dying in indigo's arms #where its life began #i hopebthis conveys the desolate sort of sadness i feel when i think about these 2 #this is platonic Just in case i needto clarify #indigo is not wearing gloves here btw . i havent decided his skin color yet so we're stickin with monochrome colors #something somrthing about holding a heart in your hands and watching it cease

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robinsteves · 1 month

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nancy wheeler against god

#the way. Nancy is kinda my muse #shes just perfect for so many songs I Think like out of all my autistic connections to music with st characters #nancy is definitely the most Accuracte every time #HER BIG SAD EYES #anyway this is. Her.#its like we’re looking at her insides I Fear and she would hate this but whatever thats why its good.#‘its good’ its alright in execution but in theory in idea its FLAWLESS ny best idea ever #probably has been done millions of times and understandably.#rip nancy wheeler you’d love the two big Fs #(florence and the machine and fiona apple)#ALSO CAN WE TALK ABOUT HOW THE LAST CLIP THEY BOTH LOOK TO HER LIKE YES WITH US BUT MAINLY WITH NANCY BITCH!!!!!#nancywheeleredit #nancy wheeler #strangerthingsedit #stranger things

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boxbunny63 · 7 months

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man why do you think Pim gets so jealous about Charlie falling for Mip? haha thats so weird I wonder why he got so upset about that. Wouldnt it be like crazy if the creators themselves said it was because he wants Charlie to love HIM instead? man that'd be wild lmao.

(IM STILL GOING RABID OVER THIS THERES NO FUCKING WAY THEY'RE NOT FUCKING GAY DUDE WHAT)

#IM GONNA RIP MY INSIDES OUT #HOLY SHIT IM NOT OVER THAT FUCKING PODCAST THAT WAS CRAZY #ZACH AND MICHEAL SOUNDED SO HESITANT TO KEEP TALKING LIKE THEY'RE KEEPING SOMETHING FROM US #fuck you zach and micheal stop feeding my delusions now im gonna look too deep into shit that doesnt mean anything #these mfs FRUITY bro #smiling friends #charpim #charlie x pim #pim x charlie #charlie dompler #charlie smiling friends #pim pimling #pim smiling friends

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angelplayzgames · 2 months

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AAAAA!! I LOVE @sleepykittties CLERICAL ERROR AU!!!

GAHHHH!!!

Cannot stop thinking about em.

Here it is for you to read

(You have no other choice)

#clerical error #sleepykittties #hazbin vox #vox #hazbin hotel vox #hazbin hotel vox fanart #vox fanart #hazbin hotel #vox hazbin hotel #Vox au #hazbin au #hazbin hotel au #vox doing tv things #i love vox #he is my everything #I want to gut him #rip out his insides #and then hug him saying he is my bestest friend

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dilutedbeanibeans · 2 years

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zamn 😳😳😳😳

#gurl I would let u rip out my insides happily #why’d they make her so FINE #SHE WASNT THIS HOT IN THE LAST GAME #like still hot but HOT DAYUM SHE WENT ALL OUT #girlie you don’t gotta change ur beautiful the way u are #alice angel #batdr #bendy and the dark revival #batdr spoilers #bendy and the ink machine #batdr alice angel #beans shut up

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soulzerofever · 5 months

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this redraw brought me more pain than you'll ever understand

#good omens #ineffable husbands #azicrow #anthony j crowley #aziraphale #crowley #szfworks #this actually destroyed me #like i needed to rip my insides out #PAINFUL I SAY PAINFUL #good omens art #I JUST WANT THEM T #TO BE HAPPY UUUUGHJGHGH #FUUUUUUUCK

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misty-missdee · 8 months

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#rip king #vincent #vinesauce #had this on #a commercials stream #and its been stuck inside my mind #i cant get it out #so here

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cryptiddeer · 1 year

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In case anyone was wondering how much I love her, i made a wallpaper.

#honkai star rail #honkai star rail trailblazer #cryptid screaming #i actually make a bunch of wallpapers but i don't always share them‚ they're for me for funsies #but i love her so much i have to share #LOOK AT HER!!!!!!!!!#SHE HAS A BOMB INSIDE HER AND NO MEMORIES!!!!! I LOVE HER!!!!!!#her weapon is a bat. she is going to beat the shit out of you #feel free to use this i just slapped it together in Canva on my phone bc i don't have any editing software rip #i also removed the original background myself

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maddymoreau · 2 months

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I'm enjoying Fallout 3 a little more but there’s one thing that’s extremely bothering me.

How come, in the dialogue options, I can NEVER can mention, I was FORCED to leave the vault?

I didn’t have a choice but to leave. Jonas Palmer was beaten to death in attempts to get info about my father James. The Overseer was going to have the same done to me if not WORSE.

The Lone Wanderer: "So they killed Jonas, and I'm next, is that it?"

Amata: "Yeah. It's lucky I got here ahead of them. But we can't stand here talking! You're got to get out of here!"

I understand my father didn't know this would happen. That he simply thought I wouldn't be able to leave the vault after he escaped.

But the fact I can never explain what happened when reunited with him is just so ODD!?!?!!?

I COULDN’T STAY!!!!!!!

I FEEL LIKE THIS IS IMPORTANT INFORMATION YOU SHOULD WANT TO KNOW DAD!!!!!

WHY ARE THESE MY ONLY OPTIONS?!?!?!?!!!!!

Why give me that entire section where I had to escape the vault to avoid MURDER!!?? If they were going to back me in a corner (dialogue wise) that I would've gone after my father no matter what.

It would've made the dialogue option, "Why would you throw away the life we had?" WAY MORE INTENSE AND INTERESTING IF I COULD TELL HIM HIS ACTIONS UNINTENTIONALLY AFFECTED ME!!!

It could've been followed by a cute bonding moment where he apologizes and says while this life was never what he wanted for me he'll now help me adjust however he can.

#WHICH COULD'VE LEAD TO EVEN MORE UNIQUE DIALOGUE!!!#Accepting his offer + Being Neutral and saying you need to do this on your own + CRUELY REJECTING HIM!!!#At least Vault 112 was REALLY COOL!!!!#I had fun doing everything Stanislaus Braun wanted before reloading to an older save.#FIGURING OUT THAT MUSIC PUZZLE WAS VERY VERY FUN!!!!!#Fallout 3 #Fallout 3 Spoiler #The frustrating part is I'M ROLEPLAYING AS A CHARACTER WHO WOULD'VE GONE AFTER HER FATHER NO MATTER WHAT!!!!#But is also grieving the loss of the potential life she could've had inside the vault and her lack of choice.#How she HAD to leave because of her Fathers actions and is now feeling lost in this new world he never prepared her for.#MAJOR SPOILER ->#My only guess is it's because dad dies later on RIP I knew he died but I thought it was dependent on your karma.#SO IMAGINE MY SURPRISE!!! I really thought he was going to live in my route.#Writing my The Lone Wanderer the biggest revenge arc!!#Where she has to not betray herself and her morals in the process of getting revenge.#Long Text #Long Post #MaddyPlaysFallout3

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sistersofsilver · 22 hours

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hello fellow shades. hades 2 nation. free icarus reminder for the night: not only did he burn, he drowned after. maybe it's just my experience with dying via drowning¹ but i think we should play in that particular space more.

melis not the sun, and she's never going to be. she's not the moon beat for beat either. shes the beautiful distorted reflection of the moon on churning powerful waves, shifting, a bright spot in an almost perfect void. and when you fall (and you will fall) its going to hurt, that impact, the water filling your lungs, the weightlessness disorienting, but you look for it, that reflection, that fixed point...

cough. anyway, how we feelin' tonight. we good?

#hades 2 #hades 2 spoilers #icarus #waxwitch #¹clearly that death didn't stick. word to the wise: respect the ocean or she'll Make You #anyway im normal. so normal. dont look at my drafts. im the most normal person that's ever lived actually #the problem of course with the moon is that she's harder to see. she's so dim in comparison but you look anyway #brightness doesnt make one less beautiful. and the moon reflected in the waves that she herself tugs on. her influence her pull-#its about swallowing btw. to be so full of it that the sensation burns. to burn inside and out. to be entirely overwhelmed.#its about being unable to stop yourself from breathing it in. if you care. that painful gasp when you hit the water full force #if you hit water hard enough itll feel like concrete. do you ever wonder if the water hurt more than the wax #the wax left its mark sure. twisted and burned. scars left upon flesh #but do you remember how to breathe after the airs been ripped out from the fall and replaced with choking saltwater #the merciless glittering sea. salty. the sound of it once a comfort now lost to you as you flail in it #normal normal normal normal normal-

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anervousmirrorball · 19 days

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i wish I was a business major who didn't give a fuck. but I'm an artist and a feeler and an empath and now I have to bear the pain of being human

#god it's so terrible being me #i always wanted to not care so much and not take things too personally #not be affected by my environment and the people #i just want to stop being so sensitive. to the world to my emotions to everything that affects me so fucking much and holds me back #constantly making me feel worse inside my body someplace I can't take the feeling out with my nails #i want to rip open my chest and ask someone to fix it for me #it hurts so much it feels awful #and i don't even want to talk about the guilt. the guilt of everything. of existing #Of not caring enough of not doing enough!#apparently the way to avoid feeling so horrible isn't to tell yourself you just don't care when you do care and it hurts so bad #but if I care all the time then I'm stuck in this mud unable to get out because it holds me back and affects me too much #at one point in my life I stopped caring about things and I wish for that vee to come back again because I'm struggling #but then! hear me! not caring about anything at all means there will not be a purpose in your life. nothing that motivates you #and Im struggling with that too. one on hand i just want to stop caring and stop giving a fuck. but at the same time I care so much

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