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shiningwonderland · 4 months

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Ren Jinguji (Repeat)

Translator: Mimi (twitter: _mimisaurora)

August - A Midsummer Tango

I think only of Jinguji-san.

My thoughts are utterly consumed by him.

His voice was what first attracted me to him.

It has an overwhelming presence and a natural charisma.

Not to mention, his musical talent.

I was shaken to my core when I first heard the sound of his saxophone back in April.

I feel he is taking "music" seriously....

At least that's my impression.

The air he usually has about him when he interacts with his typical girls feels synthetic...

The lonely look he sometimes displays leaves me with a strong impression.

He is kind and treats everyone equally.

He will gently caution those who want to be special and keep them away.

He is passionate when it comes to competition, but is willing and ready to drop out to help someone going through a tough time.

He flees when you chase him, and will make sure you look at him when you turn away.

He is a mysterious, dangerous, and fascinating person.

... I still can't figure him out even after thinking about it like this….

Haruka: It’s… already 8.

I’ll go home for today and try again tomorrow.

And with that, I left the recording room.

Haruka: Sigh... I failed to do well again today. I wonder what I should do….

Writing a song that Jinguji-san wants to sing… is super difficult. But I have to make it happen.

Otherwise, Jinguji-san wouldn't be willing to do it.

I gazed up at the starry sky, which was so beautiful that it nearly brought me to tears.

Cat: Meow…

I suddenly hear the meow of a cat.

And in the next moment.

A whoosh.

A strong gust of wind shook the trees and blew away the clouds hanging over the moon.

A stranger abruptly appeared in front of me.

Dark skin.

A chiseled face.

Clear eyes.

There was something foreign about this mysterious man.

???: You have lost your way. The "music" within you is stagnant.

Haruka: Huh…? Who are you…?

Cecil: Please call me Cecil, my princess.

Haruka: U-Um….

Cecil: You are a child of music. Daughter of the Muses…. I do not wish to see you stop your journey.

Your music is yours, but not only yours…. Please do not suffer alone….

The answer resides in both of your hearts. This song will show you the way. Please speak with the one you believe in…

A whoosh.

The wind picks up again, and when I glance away for a second, Cecil is gone.

Haruka: What just happened…?

The following morning.

I woke up at sunrise and pondered to myself as I sat in front of the keyboard in my room.

I tried to play a variety of melodies, but none of them sounded right.

I would have talked to someone for advice, but my roommate Tomo-chan left for her parents' house yesterday, and Jinguji-san was probably busy on a date….

Haruka: One more time, from the top.

Ren: Are you in, Lady?

Haruka: Ah, y-yes!

Huh? Jinguji-san’s here?

W-What for?

I-I didn't know how to prepare myself....

B-But since he's here….

Select the phrase!

Well, um… (+10 Love)

Ren: Did I startle you by turning up out of the blue?

Haruka: Ah, i-it’s fine. I was just thinking of seeing you.

Ren: Really? That's nice to hear. Who knows, maybe your wish found its way into my heart.

Haruka: C-Come in.

Ah, my voice is cracking.

I need to calm down.

Hang in there.

Ren: Did you mind me dropping in unannounced?

Haruka: N-No, seriously! I-I said it’s fine!!

Ugh… I’m stuttering….

It was then that Jinguji-san laughed at me again.

Ren: I have no idea what you're so uptight about... Relax a little more. I thought this was your room.

Haruka: I’m sorry….

Ren: You really don’t have to apologize. But anyway. I was sure you'd be in the recording room, but you were in your room instead today.

I was looking everywhere for you.

Haruka: Ah, s-sorry about that.

Ren: What a timid princess; like I said, there’s no need to be sorry... Well... Let's go, then.

Haruka: Uh, g-go where?

Ren: On a date.

Haruka: A date!?

Select the phrase!

B-But this is so sudden…. (+10 Love)

Ren: Did you have something else planned?

Haruka: T-That’s not it…. I figured you were already on one.

Ren: That was the plan. However, the girl I was supposed to go out with had an emergency come up.

It would be absurd to spend a beautiful day like this alone.

Haruka: So you came here…

Surely Jinguji-san has plenty of other wonderful people in his life.

Ren: Yep, I thought that spending time with your partner every once in a while isn't a bad idea. Outside of practice, of course.

Haruka: Thank you so much.

Oh dear, I feel a little like crying.

The fact Jinguji-san remembers me is an incredible step in the right direction!

I would be happiest if we could practice together, but I am also delighted to be able to hang out with him apart from that.

Having Jinguji-san's precious time is such a luxury.

Oh, I'm so thrilled!

Ren: Now, I'll be waiting outside, so get ready and come join me. If possible, it’d be great if you could put on your finest dress.

Haruka: A-Alright.

I was then brought along by Jinguji-san.

The place was as gorgeous as a castle.

Red carpets.

Marble pillars.

And chandeliers.

Haruka: Ah. I-I think I’m out of place….

I came all dressed up....

But I have a feeling this is not the kind of place you can enter in such ordinary attire.

Ren: Don’t worry about that. I use this place often and know the people here, so when I book a reservation, they give me a private room.

Forgive me for putting you on edge, but it'll be just the two of us.

Don't worry about where we are. For starters, this is also the venue used for the Christmas dance party that students can attend.

It’s not a place they can normally go to. Plus, you’re looking positively adorable today, lady. Keep your chin up.

Select the phrase!

T-Thank you. (+20 love)

Ren: I should be the one thanking you. I now have such a pretty girl all to myself. You can forget all about the music and think only of me today.

Haruka: This all feels like a dream. Bringing me to a place like this….

Ren: We won't be seen by other girls here. You can indulge yourself as much as you like, since I don't normally give you much attention.

Haruka: …Is it because all the girls are looking at you that you act so indifferent in class?

Ren: Yeah. It’s why I can't afford to give you special treatment. I don't want to see the girls fighting each other, and I don't want to get you involved in that kind of thing either.

Haruka: Oh…. I’m sorry I never realized. And um…. Thank you!

Ren: Sigh. You really don't need to thank me for that.

Haruka: But it makes me happy to know…. Ah, if Tomo-chan were here at a time like this, I would have reported it to her immediately.

Ren: Reporting sounds a bit much. Tomo-chan is the girl you’re roomed with… what? Is she not there now?

Haruka: Well, she went back to her parents' house for summer vacation. I debated whether I should go home, too, but... I wanted to devote my time to composing….

That reminds me, aren't you going home for the summer too?

Ren: I… wouldn't want to go back to that place even if they begged me to.

Jinguji-san spits out coldly.

...The mood changes into something different from usual.

Haruka: Um… Did you have a fight with someone at home?

Ren: There wasn't a fight, and there never would have been in the first place. I don’t matter to them.

I am merely a puppet to be handled. I never wanted to come to Saotome Academy.

They brought me here against my will for the sole purpose of turning me into a poster child for the family.

I remember that Jinguji-san once mentioned he came here for his family's sake.

And that's why he doesn't want to be an idol.

Ren: I got into a school I didn't want to go to, and sing songs I don't want to sing.

And after graduation, I'll be appearing in a lot of Jinguji-affiliated corporate commercials as an idol.

I guess the sudden surge in TV and magazine appearances prior to admission was part of the scheme.

Everyone here came with a dream.

I imagine it must be lonely not to be able to share in those dreams.

If it wasn't his own decision, but rather for the benefit of his family, I can see why he wouldn't be that committed to becoming an idol.

But…

Jinguji-san was so radiant when he played the saxophone or sang.

I didn't believe he'd shine like that if he truly hated this.

Perhaps it was just a selfish assumption on my part to think so.

Haruka: …You don't like to sing?...

It would be so sad if that were the case.

I would be forcing Jinguji-san to do something he doesn't want to do, if he doesn't like to sing.

I don't want to do that.

I want him to sing from his heart.

The song will never be good if he’s unwilling to do so.

Ren: …I don’t hate the singing itself…. I simply don’t want to comply with my family’s bidding and be forced into singing.

Jinguji-san….

Haruka: If you really don’t want to… then don’t.

Ren: Huh…?

Haruka: If not that, then sing a song that is just for you. One your family has nothing to do with.

Ren: One my family… has nothing to do with?

Haruka: Yes, because you are you.

Ren: You’re the second person to have told me that, lady.

Though, I never meant to share these things with anyone. I dragged you here with the intention to work some magic on you.

Was I the one who was bewitched? Every time I'm with you, lady, I tend to reveal the things I've been hiding deep inside of me.

Haruka: Magic…?

Ren: Well, the magic talk is a figurative expression, but you do possess an air of mystery about you.

Haruka: Well, you said I was the second person. Is the other person someone who leaves that kind of impression as well?

Ren: Hm? No, that's not what I meant. The situation back then was different than it is now. The first person was… Masato Hijirikawa… you see.

Haruka: Hijirikawa-sama?

Ren: …That was a long time ago.

With a huff, a nostalgic expression appears on Jinguji-san's face.

Haruka: May I ask you more about it?

Ren: Are you really that interested in the guy?

Haruka: No, this is about you.

You’re super friendly and kind to everyone, but when it comes to Hijirikawa-sama… you get a little defensive.

I wanted to know why…. I've always been curious about what happened.

I worried a little about whether it was appropriate to ask such a question....

But I decided that it was now or never if I was going to.

Ren: I mean, it's nothing that serious, but... Yeah, it sure does get on my nerves to see the guy.

All right. Let's take a quick trip down memory lane.

It was around the time when our families started to be at odds with each other, and since I was close in age, I was constantly being compared.

It drove me crazy as a kid. I was being compared to someone younger than me, someone I'd never met, and they'd get mad at me, they'd scold me.

My father was a scary man. I never once saw him smile. He was always angry.

“Defeat Hijirikawa. It's the least you can do as the third son.”

“I will not have anyone in this house who can be beaten by the Hijirikawa son.”

“We only need a second son, the third is an extra.”

“I wish you'd never been born at all.”

I was despised and criticized for being the third son. In contrast, he is the heir to the family and respected within the Hijirikawa family. Why is there such a difference?

I spent my days feeling like nothing will ever be good enough.

Then one day, I met him at a party. I immediately went over to him and began to complain.

You know why? Because if it weren't for him, I wouldn't be getting so much grief.

Haruka: I see….

Ren: But he turned to me and said, “It doesn’t matter where you come from. You are you.”

He even said the feud between our families was of "no interest" to him. That was quite a shocker.

In those days, all I cared about was being useful to my family and being accepted by my father.

As I recall, you said something similar at first. How you’re not interested in anything but music.

Haruka: Oh, E-Excuse me. I didn’t mean to…

Ren: You're fine, it was quite remarkable.

Haruka: I’m sorry.

Ren: Don't be sorry. I was rather glad.

Anyway, enough about that for now.... After that, we kinda started talking. We were… friends.

In hindsight, I suppose we had what you might call a good friendship.

Haruka: You're not friends now? You’re roommates.

Ren: Us? No way. He's not my friend. He and I are very different.

We are no longer children capable of abandoning our family ties and getting involved with each other. We can never go back to those honest days.

Haruka: But you're both on the road to becoming an idol.

Ren: …Sure. But he’s the eldest Hijirikawa son and I’m irrelevant. That's a huge difference.

He was the one who sat at the table during conferences between the conglomerates, where I was told not to come. He was younger than me.

I couldn’t forgive him. I couldn’t get a place at the table no matter how hard I tried, and he got a seat without doing a thing.

In spite of how well I excelled in academics and sports, my father only ever loved my older brother.

It didn't matter what I could do, I would never be the eldest son. The only thing I truly desired was fated to be beyond my reach from the moment I was born.

Jinguji-san clenches his fist tightly.

Ren: But not him. He was born with everything. A family, a fortune, and the love of his parents.

His tone grew heated, and it gradually became more impassioned.

Ren: And yet, he left it all behind and came to the academy. I felt it was "fate" that reunited us here.

This is my chance. I may be in a different position and grade, but it's the perfect opportunity for me to beat him.

I want to defeat him. I want to win and prove that I'm worthy too….

I can support the business. That I’m part of a respectable family.

He’s on fire.

It was a passion that knows no bounds.

I had no idea he could look like this.

Haruka: Then let’s win.

Ren: Huh…?

Haruka: I will write a song that will make you shine brighter than anyone else. And then, we'll prove just how amazing you are.

We'll show you off at the graduation audition.

I am dedicating myself to achieving this goal. I will now write a song just for you, and no one else.

A song not for you as a member of the Jinguji family, but for you, Ren Jinguji, as an individual.

Now, if you like what you hear... Will you sing for me?

Ren: A song just for me….

Haruka: Yes. Everything that’s happened up to this point has nothing to do with it.

Ren: I get it. Our efforts going forward will be put to the test, and we'll only be as good as what we're currently capable of.

That sounds like fun. Alright. I'll sing it for you if I like the song enough.

Select the phrase!

R-Really? (+20 love, +10 music)

Haruka: That’d make me really happy. Thank you!

Ren: Heh. You surely exaggerate.

Haruka: …?

Ren: Oh, it's nothing. I was just thinking how you must really like music.

Haruka: I do! I love it!

Ren: … You… love it?

Haruka: Yes! I'll finish the song as soon as I can.

A few days later.

I finish composing a song just for Jinguji-san.

Haruka: Do you… like it…?

I hope it will be ok this time…

But you never can be 100% sure.

Ren: I see…. So this is the song you made for me….

Select the phrase!

Yes. (+20 love, +5 music)

Ren: Hm. Alright… So this… is it.

Oh my god, is it still no good…?

My heart is about to burst out of my chest.

Ren: Well, alright, you pass.

Haruka: Huh…?

Ren: What I’m saying is that I’ll sing it for you, lady.

Haruka: A-Are you serious!!

Ren: Very. I think I can beat the guy with this.

Haruka: T-Thank you!

I’m over the moon.

Ah, I’m so glad it all worked out!

Ren: Can I have the file for this song? It won't hurt to practice once in a while.

Haruka: O-Of course. I burned it on a CD.

That’s right! If you’re going to be singing my song, that means I won the bet!

Ren: That’s also true. I guess you've cleared the first stage, huh?

Haruka: I cleared the first stage…. Ah, I’m so happy.… Now we can also practice together!

Ren: You're such a... I can't figure out how you keep letting yourself inside of my head so easily.

Jinguji-san takes my hand and gazes intently at my fingers.

Ren: Without so much as a knock, you enter, and before I even realize, you're already sitting there. Curiously, though, I don't hate it.

You're generally a quiet, inconspicuous, ordinary girl, but from time to time you can be very daring… I guess, in this case, selflessness prevails?

A-Ah, I’m sorry….

I do sometimes overstep my boundaries....

Forgive me.

Ren: However, the real battle is yet to come. If we don't pass the graduation audition, none of this will mean anything.

Haruka: Yes! Ah… Which leads me to wonder, what would have happened if I had lost the bet?

Ren: You really want to know?

Haruka: Yes, I’m a little curious.

Ren: Then my lips are sealed. I’ll let you know only if you can pass the graduation audition. If you really want to find out, you'll have to work even harder than you are now.

Haruka: Deal!

Ren: Now… I've only just arrived but... I'll be leaving soon enough for today.

Haruka: Huh…?

Jinguji-san kisses the back of my hand.

Ren: If I stick around here any longer, I might turn into a wolf. I'll listen to this song in my room.

That being said, Jinguji-san heads back to his dorm room.

Haruka: Ah! W-What’s with him today? He’s always…

My heart was racing.

He's always so cool, but also more than that....

Besides, he said he would sing my song…

Ah, finally! The day has finally come!

But as Jinguji-san said, the battle is yet to come.

This song is not in its final form.

I will put all of my heart and soul into it, so that we can pass the graduation audition for sure!

Mini Game

Ryuya: Today we will be trying for a more advanced level of performance. I will teach you firsthand the techniques for playing a real instrument.

Learn as much as you can from me!

Although the melody remains the same, depending on the method, the quality of the music will improve. Stay on your toes and do your best!

Okay, let's get started!

Let the music begin!

S RANK

Ren: You are a wonder. Your performance is so sincere that it touches my heart. I've never heard music like this before. I wish I could listen to it all the time.

Haruka: Ah… Thank you. But… I am always happy to play for you. Please don't hesitate to ask….

It would be a great pleasure to have Jinguji-san sing along to my performance.

Jinguji-san’s singing….

I wish I could listen to it all the time.

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shiningwonderland · 4 months

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Ren Jinguji (Repeat)

Translator: Mimi (twitter: _mimisaurora)

December - A Fickle Score

It's now December, and I still haven't been able to talk much with Jinguji-san.

To study abroad....

It's without a doubt an amazing opportunity, but....

It's such a significant decision to make.

Besides....

I catch a glimpse of Jinguji-san.

He looks to be having a fun chat with the girls about the dance party.

Haruka: It’s already that time of year, huh….

A dance party will be held on Christmas Day at the academy's party hall.

The party hall.... The place Jinguji-san took me to during summer break.

I would like to go to the dance with him too....

Should I try asking him...?

Select the phrase!

Talk to him (+20 Love +0 Music)

Haruka: U-Um… Jinguji-san.

I muster up my courage and try to approach him, but he just stares at me silently.

I can tell without him having to tell me.

His gaze clearly shows that he did not want me getting any closer or speaking to him.

Haruka: Nevermind….

I give up and back away.

I will try to talk to him another time.

I couldn't bring myself to talk to him at another point during the day, and now, it was after school.

Haruka: Sigh… Looks like there’s no one I can talk to about this….

Ryuya: Hey, Nanami. You’re here at the right time. I thought someone might still be sticking around, and you're the right person for the job.

Do you have any plans after this? If not, I'd like you to help me... Can you transcribe this song onto some sheet music?

Select the phrase!

Leave it to me! (+0 Love +15 Music)

Ryuya: Great. I can count on you then.

And so, while listening to the song he'd given me, I transcribe it onto sheet music.

Haruka: Let's see... This part is…

Ryuya: By the way, Nanami. Have you gotten the chance to talk to Jinguji about you studying abroad?

At the abrupt question, I pause for a moment.

Select the phrase!

It’s been difficult talking to him about it (+20 Love +0 Music)

Ryuya: If you’re struggling to talk about it, does that mean you’re seriously considering the offer?

Haruka: …No, I’m still undecided…. I just don’t know how to bring it up to him….

I came to this academy because I want to become a composer.

I’ve been working hard to write songs for idols.

All I had to say is, "I'm going to study abroad."

Those words are the golden ticket for my dream come true.

It will come true, but....

Why does my heart hurt so much?

Ryuya: Are you having second thoughts?

Haruka: Yes. I think it’s a wonderful opportunity. I honestly am undeserving of it.

I'm also well aware that it would be rude to turn it down. But….

Ryuya: It’s Jinguji, isn’t it? You’re worried about him. Well, he is your partner, so it’s only natural to be concerned.

Haruka: …You’re right. I am helplessly captivated by Jinguji's voice and his very presence.

I can't allow this to end with that voice, that incredible presence, that brilliant aura… going to waste.

I want to write him a song that is second to none. It’s what I’ve been working so hard toward this entire time.

My dream is no longer merely just about becoming a composer. I want to debut with Jinguji-san.

Ryuya: I see. It sounds like you're pretty devoted to Jinguji.... In that case, it would be all the more reason to go now and decline the offer to study abroad. Why are you hesitating?

Haruka: ...It's exactly because I'm so obsessive over Jinguji-san that I'm having second thoughts. I wonder if he really needs me.

I guess you could say our enthusiasm towards all this is so vastly different. Jinguji-san is not as interested in singing or being an idol as I thought he was.

I'm the only one devoted to this debut, and it's pushing me to get desperate. I see how I might actually be more of a nuisance than anything else.

Ryuya: Well, that may be true. But it’s useless mulling it over without confirming the details without confirming with the guy himself.

Haruka: I know….

What he’s saying is right.

It’d be faster to just ask, than worry about it.

But….

Ryuya: What? Are you scared?

Haruka: ….

I suppose… I am afraid.

If he were to tell me he didn’t need me….

“I have no desire to have you by my side.”

Those words he said to me last month. Every time I remember them, it feels like my heart is being torn to pieces.

Ryuya: Looks like I’m right. Well, supposing he does say he doesn't need you as a partner, I'm sure that would sting like hell….

But you've known for a long while that he couldn't care less about being an Idol, haven't you? And yet, you've been working hard all this time.

Am I wrong?

Haruka: ….

He's absolutely right.

Despite Jinguji-san not showing up for practice or even letting me hear his voice, I still pushed on.

But now....

If Jinguji-san were to say he doesn't need me, I might break.

Ryuya: So why are you losing that drive now?

Haruka: ….

I think it is because I am in love with Jinguji-san.

A one-sided romance is not a violation of school rules. So it doesn't necessarily mean that I have to give up my feelings for him.

But I can't imagine I'll be able to stop loving him now, and even if we can't be together, at the very least, I don't want him to hate me.

Ryuya: Well, you’re probably going through all this trouble because you don’t understand it yourself. Sorry about that. I’m not criticizing you or anything. Don’t take it to heart.

After that, he gently pats my head.

Haruka: Sensei….

He’s worried about me….

Oh, I’m eternally grateful!

Ryuya: Anyway, no matter how scared you are, you shouldn't avoid him. Just talk to him straight.

Haruka: I will!

I’ve made up my mind that I can’t make a decision on this without telling Jinguji-san first.

I need to face him properly sooner rather than later!

I’m ready.

The next day, I sent Jinguji-san a message.

I didn’t want anyone else to know about my studying abroad, and I figured no one would hear about it if I told him here....

But honestly, whether he would come or not was a gamble.

He still hadn't been talking to me much lately, which made it all the more uncertain....

Ren: Hey, Lady. Inviting me to a place like this is rather intense.

Jinguji-san glances around, amused.

Haruka: Jinguji-san!! I’m… glad you’re here!

Ren: It's something important, right? Ah, I also want to apologize about the other day. I took it a little too far, saying you were unneeded. I'm really sorry about that.

Haruka: No, you’re fine…. I’m the one who overstepped your boundaries….

Ren: …You kind of scared me a little. You were suddenly so straightforward and earnest….

His eyes, unlike last time, look at me kindly.

But his gaze is a bit sad.

Haruka: Jinguji-san…?

I didn't sense any of his usual enthusiasm.

Instead, he sighs and looks down.

Ren: I was just glad to hear how you felt. I appreciate your kindness. So, what can I do for you?

I wanted to talk to him about studying abroad….

But….

Haruka: Um, before that, can I ask you something?

I want to find out if he needs me as a composer, if what I'm doing is helping him.

Ren: Go ahead.

Haruka: Jinguji-san… What am I to you… Is my music….

…wanted? I can’t bring myself to say that word.

Haruka: …. …Would you miss me a little if I were to be gone?

I realized exactly what I was muttering.

Ah... Wait.

Why did I ask that? I didn't mean to….

Ren: No, not at all. We don’t have that kind of relationship.

He averts his gaze and mutters back under his breath.

Whenever I try to bridge the distance, I am confronted with merciless rejection....

He will never allow me to be by his side.

How much does he need me?

What can I do?

Haruka: I see… I guess you’re right.

Ren: …Please don’t… make that face. It troubles me when you do… You look best with a smile….

His hand, which rose for a brief moment, fell back down effortlessly, and Jinguji-san looks down again.

Select the phrase!

Jinguji-san… (+20 Love +0 Music)

I grab onto a corner of his clothes without thinking.

Ren: Lady? What’s wrong?

Haruka: Ah, I-I’m so sorry. Uh! Everything’s alright. I’m fine!

I tried my best to manage a smile, not wanting him to worry, and Jinguji-san looked a bit worried.

He then gently brings me into a hug and softly pats me twice on the back.

Ren Jinguji: It's nice to see you smile, but not when you have to force it.

He whispers in my ear and lets go of his embrace.

A fleeting touch.

But that tenderness hurt, and it almost brought me to tears.

Haruka: It’s… about me studying abroad….

I somehow manage to get the words out.

Haruka: ...I've been recommended to study abroad in America….

"It was on your brother's recommendation."

I kept that part to myself.

I feared that if I said that, it would only serve to cause Jinguji-san even more grief.

Haruka: After studying in America, I'll be able to debut as a composer….

Jinguji-san brows shoot up slightly and he brushes his hair out of his face.

Ren: Oh, that’s great to hear. I assume it's the result of your abilities being duly judged.

Jinguji-san replies with a coy smile on his face without batting an eye.

I should be happy to hear his praise, but...

It fills my heart with loneliness.

Haruka: …I am very grateful for the opportunity to debut, but I....

I want to work hard with Jinguji-san….

Is what I was about to say….

Ren: Go wherever you want to go, even if it’s the States. I have no right to stop you.

He interrupts me and I'm left speechless.

What Jinguji-san said is valid.

I have to make the decision because it is my life.

It's wrong to leave that choice to someone else.

But....

There's something that still bothers me.

Select the phrase!

I want to do debut with Jinguji-san… (+20 Love)

Haruka: If I’m to debut, I want to… I’d like to do it together with you.

Ren: Of course, as your partner, I'm delighted you feel that way. But your debut is not guaranteed if you try with me.

Now, if you study abroad, your debut will be practically confirmed at that point. Did I get it right?

Haruka: …Yes.

Ren: Say, Lady. What's your dream?

He places a hand on my shoulder and whispers in my ear.

Haruka: My dream is… to become a composer.

My voice shakes as I answer.

Then, grabbing both of my shoulders, he looks into my eyes with a serious expression.

Ren: Exactly, you’re here to become a composer. And now, they’re rolling out the red carpet for you. So why are you hesitating?

I’ve told you before, haven’t I? You’re destined for this. You should think about that.

With those words, he lets go of his grip.

Ren: Is that all you wanted to talk about? Then I’ll get going now. I have somewhere I need to be after this.

Haruka: Yes… Thank you.

So… that was it?

My absence didn't seem like a big deal to him.

Ren: Well, I’ll see you around.

Flashing his usual smile, he raises a hand and walks away.

I wish Jinguji-san would have stopped me.

It was a thought I had entertained somewhere in the back of my mind.

I was naive enough to think that I would give up the idea of studying abroad if he did so.

I had hoped Jinguji-san would make the decision for me, even though it was only for me to make.

This is my life after all.

I've relied far too much on Jinguji-san just because he was my partner.

Let's rethink this.

What is best for me and for Jinguji-san?

And above all.

What do I want to do?

It’s been a few days since I last went over everything with Jinguji-san.

I still couldn’t decide on an answer.

I definitely think that studying abroad would be better for me in the long run.

But I don't want to leave Jinguji-san's talent untapped.

By coming to this academy and meeting him, I have found a new dream.

I want him to sing with his heart.

And I want to share that song with the world.

But...

It's nothing more than my own selfish dream.

I'm just forcing him to become someone he's made clear he doesn't want to be....

Tokiya: So, I heard the news, Nanami-kun. It sounds like you’re going to study abroad.

In the classroom, Ichinose-san approaches while I’m lost in my thoughts.

Haruka: Ah… Yeah. I was invited to study abroad and pursue a more advanced study of music.

The truth is, I haven't formally replied yet, but for some reason, the proposal is continuing to move forward, and it's hard to say no....

But then again...

I wonder how he possibly could have heard about it, I've been trying to keep this a secret for as long as possible....

I guess I can't keep it to myself forever.

Syo: Seriously?! How come I didn’t know about this? And Ren…? What do you think?

Ren: It doesn’t matter to me… It’s her life. It's up to her what she wants to do, right? Who am I to interfere with that?

His cold words stung a bit.

Syo: Oh, come on. You’re so mean! You should be trying to stop her!

Syo-kun retorts, looking annoyed.

Tokiya: Syo…. They are entitled to think what they want. It's not something for others to meddle in.

Ichinose-san calmly reminds him.

Syo: Yeah, I guess I see your point… It’s just kind of sad. Let’s all at least throw her a huge going away party!

Haruka: Thank you.

It made me happy to know he’d miss me.

But... seeing as the offer has gone ahead and my classmates are even aware of it...

There is no turning back now.

If they took my silence for confirmation, I can't refuse them at this point.

I will soon have to part ways with Jinguji-san....

Then I have to at least finish the song before that.

This is my unrequited love.

My final selfish act.

I'll write a song for the graduation audition, hand it to Jinguji-san, and then wish him farewell with a smile.

Then, in a matter of what seemed like seconds, things moved quickly, and it was decided I would leave the day after Christmas.

So that I could leave with no regrets.

I poured my everything into this.

All of the love I carry... every single bit of it, I put it all into this song.

I weave a melody straight from the heart.

And then, I carefully arrange the melodies one by one.

And finally....

Haruka: …It’s done.

On the day before the dance party, I finally managed to end up with something I was happy with.

I leave the day after tomorrow....

It came down to the wire, but....

Even so, I'm thankful it's done.

Haruka: I hope he listens to it….

Preferably, I want him to listen to it right now, in front of me.

He's a busy guy, so it's unlikely he'll show up on such short notice.

Still....

I really wanted him to listen, so I sent him a message.

“The song is ready. Please give it a listen. I'll be waiting for you in the recording studio.”

Haruka: …I wonder… if he’s coming….

An hour has passed since I sent the message.

I just sat in the recording studio looking out over the booth, unable to motivate myself to do anything.

Ren: Hey, Lady. I heard you finished the song?

Haruka: I did!

He really came….

What should I do? I'm over the moon.

Haruka: Um… Thank you so much!

Ren: You’re… thanking me? That should be my line. This is the song for the graduation audition, right?

Jinguji-san gives a genuine smile, looking really happy.

Up until July, he never really showed any interest in music or singing.

If anything, it almost seemed more like a chore to him than anything.

But during summer break, little by little, he started to look more interested.

Whenever I composed a new song, he would enjoy listening to it, and even sometimes share some advice on how I could improve it.

Before the school festival, he was having a lot of fun with it, and I wish we could have kept writing music together like that.

But those fun times came to an end with the school festival.

I hurt him by going too far.

I believed he hated me already.

But my songs....

He didn’t hate it.

I could tell just by looking at his eyes.

Jinguji-san still loves music even now!

Ren: You've probably been swamped preparing to study abroad. Do you mind if I take a listen?

Haruka: O-Of course! I’ll play it now!

And so, I played the newly completed song.

I wonder what he thinks....

From the start until the end, Jinguji-san listens to the song intently.

I hope he likes it.

After the song ends, he parts his lips to speak.

Ren: … I see. Not bad.

Haruka: So… d-does that mean you’ll sing it at the graduation audition?

Ren: Naturally…. I am the only person in this world who can perfectly handle performing this song.

He replies with a wink.

Haruka: Thank you!!!

He likes it….

I’m so glad….

But, in the next moment, his face clouds over.

Ren: …You’re leaving the day after tomorrow, right?

Haruka: …Yes.

We'll have to part ways in two days' time.

Thinking about it makes my heart ache.

We won't... be able to see each other anymore....

I will no longer be able to have him smile at me like this or listen to my songs.

Ren: You don’t look too excited….

Jinguji-san walks up next to me and brushes my bangs aside.

Ren: You were having doubts about studying abroad a little while ago, right? Is it because you were worried about not knowing the language? Or maybe you lack confidence in your own talent? Or perhaps....

He trails off, biting his bottom lip.

Ren: No… Nevermind. Anyway, this is a huge opportunity for you. Do your best out there. I have high hopes for you.

Using the hand that had brushed back my bangs, he lightly caresses my cheek and flashes a kind smile.

Haruka: …I will.

Jinguji-san is sincerely cheering me on.

I want to meet his expectations….

Ren: Ah, right. The dance party is tomorrow, may I escort you to the dance?

Haruka: Oh! Are… Are you sure?! I-I’m really glad… but…. Are you sure you want to go with me?

Ren: Of course, tomorrow is the end….

The end….

Those words pierce my heart.

Ringo: Ah, there you are…. Phew, I'm glad you're still here. Hurry back, everyone is waiting.

Ren: Waiting…? Didn't we already wrap up the interview a while ago? I made sure to check with the director.

Ringo: It seems there was one thing they missed, so it should only take a second.

Ren: I see, if that’s the case, then fine. Well then, Lady, I’ll be seeing you tomorrow.

With a wink, Jinguji-san leaves the recording studio.

Ringo: Thank goodness… What a relief. Looks like everything will work out in the end. I got so worried about what I was going to do when my cell wasn't getting through.

Haruka: U-Um… About Jinguji-san’s interview….

Ringo: Oh, it's for the Jinguji conglomerate. It happens from time to time. That kid is really liked among the bigwigs because of his good looks and great way with words.

He's often sent out whenever there's a special feature on the wealthy. He's usually really good about standing by for a while after the interview is over....

This time, though, he wanted to finish early for some reason.... He didn't even wait for them to check over the footage, he just asked the director if it was okay to go....

Haruka: Oh… I see….

Jinguji-san.

Despite being so busy, he made sure to come….

Ringo: But I’m glad to still see your face around campus. Well, I have to go now too. I’ll catch you later, Haru-chan.

Haruka: Of course. Thank you.

What am I going to do with myself…? I'm so happy.

He came in spite of his busy schedule....

He didn't even look annoyed at me for sending a message on such short notice....

He hurried as soon as he was done to listen to my song....

Tomorrow will be the end.

I poured all of my feelings into this song.

And even now, I feel my love for him about to overflow.

I didn't want to leave, my heart felt like it was going to weep.

And then, the next day.

Tomochika: Alright! You’re perfect. I think I did pretty good if I do say so myself.

Tomo-chan helped me dress and apply my makeup before the dance party.

Haruka: T-Thank you. I’m sorry for leaving you with all the work. You’re still not even ready.

Tomochika: Oh, I don't mind at all, I can get myself ready in 10 minutes. And besides, I actually enjoy doing makeup for others.

It's fun to be able to see things objectively and, with my own hands, watch it all come together to form something pretty.

It's practically a hobby, and I like doing it, so don't worry about it.

Haruka: …Thank you.

Tomochika: Anyway, I’m glad to hear you’re going to be studying abroad.

Haruka: …Yeah. It’s a great opportunity….

Tomochika: You don’t look too happy about it…. Well, you can do whatever you want with your life but... If it gets tough, you know I'm always here for you.

Just make sure you have no regrets!

We're friends no matter where you go. You can talk to me anytime. And... I'll make sure to keep your space here ready for you if you ever decide to come back.

Speaking, she gestures to my bed.

Haruka: …Thank you.

Ren: Lady, are you in?

Haruka: Ah, yes.

Tomochika: Looks like your partner’s here…. Perfect timing. I’ll be leaving soon too, so you go on ahead.

Haruka: …T-Thank you.

Ren: You look absolutely beautiful in that dress. The lace stands out perfectly against your fair skin. You look like a princess straight out of a fairy tale.

Haruka: Uh… I… I don’t…. T-Thank you.

Ren: I'll be with you for the entire evening.

Haruka: Huh... With me? But, the other girls….

I thought he'd at least be dancing with the girls....

But Jinguji-san just grins and without another word, we start walking.

Huh…?

Isn’t the party hall over there?

Haruka: W-Wait… The party hall….

Ren: We’ll be here tonight.

Haruka: ???

And then, we arrive….

Ballroom music plays in an empty auditorium.

Haruka: There’s… no one here. I knew the party hall was in the other direction….

Ren: No, this is the right place. I don't want anyone disturbing us, at least this one last time. Come on, let's dance.

Jinguji-san takes my hand and we start dancing.

Haruka: Um, y-you know, I’m not really… good at dancing….

Ren: Then allow me just one song. Don’t worry, I’ll lead you along well.

He winks and begins to take steps forward.

He skillfully moves his arms and hips to lead the dance, not minding my clumsy gait.

Jinguji-san was so good at leading that although I was hardly moving on my own, I almost believed I was dancing magnificently.

...This is it.

This is the final night I can call myself Jinguji-san's partner.

With a heavy heart, I still found myself able to be happy dancing together with him.

When the dance ends, Jinguji-san holds my hand and escorts me to the center of the stage.

A small table and two chairs were placed there with food, cake, and wine glasses arranged on the table.

Ren: It's not much, but I prepared a cake and some drinks. No champagne, of course.

He speaks up with a soft smile.

Ren: I thought about reserving a restaurant… or something like that… but I figured you wouldn’t be too happy with that…. So….

I put it all together myself. I didn't rely on using my family's wealth, but instead, I did everything from scratch.

Haruka: Um….

Ren: It’s not really something I’m used to doing. The cake turned out looking a bit funny.

Haruka: You made all of this yourself!? That’s amazing… I don’t know what to say, that makes me so happy to hear….

What should I do?

I feel like I'm going to cry….

Everything is handmade…. I’m so overjoyed that Jinguji-san went through such lengths for me that I didn't know what to do with myself.

Ren: I had watched the chef make it and thought it would be easy for me to do myself. Well, I ended up making a mess with the whipped cream flying all over the room.

I ended up just leaving it as it was, and I'm sure Hijirikawa will complain about it later. But, like I care.

Finishing that thought, he suddenly smiles.

Ren: Now, the taste may not wow you… but since I followed the recipe, it should still be pretty good, don’t you think?

Haruka: I don't even know how I can possibly repay you for treating me so kindly. Ah, I should have also prepared something for you.

Ren: Lady, you don't have to worry about a thing. We're celebrating you studying abroad tonight. Please, go on, have a seat.

He smoothly pulls out a chair and, with a practiced hand, helps me sit.

Haruka: Ah, s-sorry.

Ren: There’s no need to be so nervous, I want you to relax.

Haruka: Ah, a-alright. I’ll do my best!

Re Jinguji: Come on, relax, relax.

He lighty pats me on the shoulder and smiles.

As he gazes at me tenderly, I naturally begin to break out into a smile.

Ren: Yes, there we go. That smile. I hope it remains that way always. Tonight's a special occasion, after all.

A glass of a richly hued grape juice is poured and a plate of cake and chicken is served.

Haruka: I-It’s alright, I can serve myself.

Feeling grateful, every time I try to do something....

Ren: Not today… Allow me to do this for you.

Jinguji-san kindly assures me, and I end up leaving everything in his capable hands.

This is the first time in my life I've experienced something like this….

I've never had someone handle everything for me this way before.

I wonder if… this is really okay?

It feels like a scene straight out of a drama, and my heart begins to race.

Ren: Here’s to your new beginning… Cheers.

The sound of our clinking glasses resonates throughout the spacious hall.

Haruka: Thank you very much.

Ren: Now, go ahead and eat….

Haruka: Alright.

Jinguji-san watches me with a smile on his face as I bring the food to my mouth.

Haruka: Ah… It’s delicious….

Ren: That’s good to hear. I hardly ever cook, so I was a little worried how it’d turn out.

Haruka: No way, it's super tasty! I'm very grateful that you made this for me….

Ren: It's worth all the hard work to hear you say that. It's very rewarding to know when someone is happy as a result of something you created yourself. Oh, and by the way....

Jinguji-san stands and comes up behind me.

Ren: Stay still for a moment….

He brushes my hair aside, brings his hands around my neck and places something on it.

Is this… a necklace…?

Ren: There, that’s better. You look lovely, my Lady.

He kisses the pendant at the end of the necklace and smiles.

Ren: I actually also handmade this myself. I was looking through some jewelry during the school festival and thought maybe I could do it myself instead of buying something that already existed.

I gave it a try and it turned out to be surprisingly easy. That is the first piece I ever made... Do you like it?

Haruka: I-I do. I’ve never seen anything so wonderful!

Ren: Then, will you cherish it forever?

Haruka: Uh… W-Well….

Ren: It’s already yours. There’s no one better suited for it than you.

Haruka: Thank you so much!

Ren: You’re very welcome… Ah, look, you’ve stopped eating. Go on, your food will get cold.

Haruka: R-Right.

Every time Jinguji-san flashes me a kind smile, tears threaten to well up in my eyes.

But if I cried now, surely I….

I don't want to leave, I want to stay by your side.

I love you.

...Is what I'd like to say....

But I knew I couldn't do that.

So, I held back my tears.

Ren: …Oh, it’s gotten quite late…. There’s actually one more gift I have for you.

Haruka: Please, I’ve already received plenty. This is too much. I already don’t know what to do….

Just celebrating with you like this fills me with so much joy! I can't imagine anything better….

Ren: My lady…. Don’t hold back. Today, I want you to leave everything to me.

Haruka: Ah… Is that….

Ren: Yes, this is your final gift!

Jinguji-san swiftly pulls out his saxophone from under the table, hiding behind the tablecloth.

He’s going to play… for me.

…I’m so happy!

Ren: I knew it.... You love music better than any costly item. You look absolutely delighted right now.

Then, with the saxophone in his hands, Jinguji-san wears the most serene and tender smile I've ever seen.

Haruka: Ah… Yes. I love your saxophone playing, Jinguji-san, so I'm honored I get to be able to listen to it.

I really don’t know what to say. This will become a very treasured memory. Thank you so much.

Ren: Good. I dedicate this music to you!

With a determined look on his face, he breathes in, grins, and begins to play on his saxophone.

He was just as incredible the last time I heard him perform, but....

His technical skills are in a completely different league.

I always considered Jinguji-san to have a superb ear for music, and his ability to draw people in was remarkable.

While gazing at him, transfixed, our eyes suddenly locked.

Then, Jinguji-san smiles and winks at me.

Ah!

He's so cool!

He now plays with an even greater range of expression, making his performance on par with that of professionals.

If music were to be compared to writing, technique would be language.

If someone with a natural talent for writing learns many words, the number of ways in which they can express themselves will increase dramatically.

Even if they want to convey something as universal as "love", the more words available to them, the more impactful their message will be....

His performance is splendidly majestic.

It is passionate, yet delicate in its delivery.

Just listening to it, my heart trembles, and tears well up in my eyes.

I was so absorbed in applauding that I forgot to wipe away the tears that were falling down my face.

As I continue to clap, Jinguji-san gives a wry smile, sets down his saxophone, and approaches me.

Ren: Was it good enough to make you cry?

He gently wipes away my tears with his fingers.

Haruka: Yes… It was… very touching…. I’m so happy….

My tears continue despite his best efforts to wipe them away.

Ren: I didn’t mean to make you cry, but if they’re tears of joy, I can live with it….

I guess all that practice paid off a little. Oh, and I also wrote some lyrics for your song, even though it's not quite finished yet.

Jinguji-san opens a notebook and hands it over to me.

The moment I see the words written on the page of the notebook, the melody of the song I composed comes to mind and Jinguji's voice plays in my head.

It's only an imagining, of course.... But, it's so cool, and I want to hear the song as soon as possible.

Haruka: Um… Could I… listen to you singing this?

Ren: I'm afraid I can't do that. The lyrics aren't even complete yet. I would like to work on it some more.

Besides, I need more practice. I can't let you hear it when it's still incomplete.

Saying that, he takes the notebook from my hand.

Right....

Of course. I also wouldn't want to show off a song that was unpolished….

But it’s really a shame….

Ren: You really wanted to listen, huh?

Haruka: Yes… but I’ll deal with it. Oh… the graduation audition!

I will make sure to return on the day of the graduation audition. So… please let me hear it then. Um… I’ll be looking forward to it….

I want to listen to it soon so badly.

I want to create a song with him.

But we are unable to stay together.

If I were to cancel my plans to study abroad now, it would only cause trouble for Jinguji-san's brother....

I never did end up telling him that his brother is the one who made this study abroad possible but....

Inconveniencing his brother would ultimately be the same as inconveniencing Jinguji-san....

I want to stay here.

I want to remain by his side forever.

Biting back the words that nearly slipped from my mouth, I tightly clench my fists.

Haruka: I will continue to support you no matter how far away we are from each other.

I truly believe that you will become a wonderful idol.... I'm sorry I couldn't be with you until the end.

But with your talent, you'll be able to debut even without me around.... Ah, but wait, that's right....

You... don't even want to become an idol.... You never need me to begin with….

Huh? That’s strange….

I didn’t mean to say any of that….

What should I do….

I can’t control myself….

If I let myself continue like this, I might end up saying things I shouldn't….

Haruka: Uh… so that’s why… I’m sorry. I’ll be going now.

I find myself starting to run away.

But....

His hand quickly shoots out and grabs onto my arm.

Ren: Don’t go!

Haruka: What…?

Before I can react, he pulls me into an embrace.

Jinguji-san's fingers bury themselves in my hair as he hugs me, so tightly that it hurts.

Haruka: U-Um… I….

Ren: Today is not over yet!

Jinguji-san raises his voice. As I tremble under the fierceness in his voice, he loosens his hold and gently strokes my hair.

Ren: I give up. I wanted to see you off smoothly... but you... the look that you have on your face….

His voice quivers, hugging me tightly again.

Ren: I don’t want to let you go….

Jinguji-san mutters in a voice so small I thought I’d imagine it.

Haruka: I… don’t want to go. I want to stay by your side forever. But I'll be causing problems if I don't leave, so…

Ren: That’s not true. I need your song…. Is that selfish of me?

Haruka: That… I'm so happy to hear you say that. But….

Now that the offer has gotten this far, I feel it would be rather disruptive to turn it down now.

Besides... Jinguji-san's brother is the one who recommended that I study abroad....

Haruka: ...Your brother recommended that I study abroad. To refuse now would be…

Jinguji-san's shapely eyebrows twitch.

Ren: It was my brother…? If I had known that, I would have never supported this in the first place....

He must be trying to use you for something absolutely idiotic. That man wouldn't have suggested you study abroad otherwise....

He tightly bites his bottom lip.

Haruka: But… studying abroad… Jinguji-san… You said it was fine.

Ren Jinguji: I won’t let you go!

He tightens his hold on me.

Ren: This is your future we're talking about. I don't care if my brother is involved, as long as it's really for your benefit. But there's no way to be sure. Besides....

Haruka: Jinguji-san….

I murmur softly and glance up at his face.

He then places a kiss on my forehead before letting go of his embrace.

Ren: Sorry… This isn't like me. It seems I got caught up in the spirit of Christmas Eve and got a little emotional....

But... I still don't want to let you go. At first, I genuinely believed it would be better for you if you studied abroad.

I thought it would help you release the music I was so captivated by out into the world as quickly as possible.... But it seems I was wrong.

It was a new chapter in your life, but you were on the verge of tears the entire time. I can't allow a woman with such a look on her face to leave.

You have something more important on your mind than making your debut. Tell me, what is your real dream....

My real dream….

Haruka: …I want to…. I want to make a song with you. I want to….

I want to properly get through the graduation audition. I want us to work hard together. I want to… aim for our victory….

Holding back tears, I finally confess my honest feelings.

Ren: Alright lady, I'll make sure that dream of yours comes true. I swear on this night, I will.

Haruka: T-Thank you….

Ren: I won't let you cry alone. If you're going to, do it in my arms.... Okay?

Gently, he pulls me closer to him and guides my face to rest on his chest.

Haruka: …Okay.

And so, Jinguji-san gently caresses my back until I stop crying.

He told me not to go.

He needed me.

And that made me happy….

The very thought of ever leaving him completely vanishes.

The next day.

Haruka: Please accept my most sincere apology!!

I stand in the principal's office and bow my head.

Despite the fact I had never given them a formal reply, they had already started making arrangements for me to study abroad.

And they canceled it on the day of my departure.

I can't think of anything more tremendously inconvenient than that.

Haruka: It was very last-minute…. I caused trouble for so many people….

Ryuya: To be fair, they had already made their moves before you even had a chance to give them a proper response….

When it comes down to it, it’s better than getting on that plane only for you to have to come back later.

Shining Saotome: Hahaha!! Well, we somehow managed to salvage the situation! Shining’s political power is invincible!

Haruka: T-Thank you very much!

Sensei….

Shining Saotome: In return, give it your all and do your best!

Haruka: Absolutely! I will try my hardest!

Ryuya: Oh, and I'll let them know, so you don't have to worry about it.

Harukai: Hyuga-sensei… Thank you so much!!!

And so, I canceled my study abroad.

I caused trouble in many different ways, but even so, I decided to take a stand and give it my all.

Haruka: Ah, Jinguji-san. Did you wait for me?

Ren: Well, yeah. It seems like things went well from the looks of it. Now then, shall we go? I've reserved a recording studio for us.

Haruka: Thank you!

Starting today, I’ll work hard together with Jinguji-san!

And together, we will win the graduation audition.

Without fail….

Mini Game

Ryuya: Hey, Nanami. Sorry for calling you out here. But, here's the thing. I'd like to ask for your opinion as a composer.

There's an unfinished set of lyrics that a student of mine wrote, and he’s still struggling with a few parts.

When you think about putting a melody to it, as a composer, which phrases would you choose? I'd like you to choose from among these options.

Just think of it the same way you did the previous lyric test. But since the lyrics are not yet set in stone, it's not like there is a clear-cut right answer.

If I had to say, it would be about how well it might resonate with him… or something like that. You know what, nevermind.

Are you ready? We’re about to start.

The next day, I show Jinguji-san the lyrics I had written.

Ren: I knew I could create this with you. My own personal music. I'm sorry for stopping you. But I have no regrets. Let's debut together.

Haruka: Yes! I have no doubt in my mind that we will definitely debut!

I won’t be sparing any effort.

I will do whatever it takes.

Chapter End

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