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Thinking about how pre-regression Han Yoojin canonically has a hobby of listening to spam callers.

Probably because the one person he cared about - Han Yoohyun - stopped calling him, and avoided talking to him, and the spam callers are people who not only call him but also want to talk to him, and judging by Yoojin's thoughts, have relatively complex spiels about it. Yeah, they're trying to scam him, but they're also trying to engage him. Plus, it's distracting from -gestures at his life-

It probably helps to have someone try to butter you up and make you feel important when the world - including your own mental health and self-hatred - is bent on trying to beat you down into the literal dirt.

Thinking about how it's free entertainment - outside a phone bill, which probably wasn't racking up high - and he sometimes falls asleep to it and how he had no money and probably didn't have a lot to afford entertainment outside watching television and getting drunk on occasion.

Thinking about how he was scammed by the brokers into abysmal levels of debt and yeah, the phone scammers are scammers too, but at least he recognizes these before committing. He has control over how much he interacts with them, and how much or little money he gives them. They're on the other end of a phoneline, he's not trapped in a dungeon with them. He's safe. It's a lesson in controlled exposure and taking back your power.

He also doesn't have to go anywhere or get anything else to aid the experience. Which, for a dude who has to use crutches to walk around an ableist society, full of people who try to attack him, is saying a lot.

Thinking about how he actually admires their ability to act, treating it like a full on performance you'd see on a stage or something. How he really gives anyone a chance (unless they hurt people he cares about, or their name is Han Yoojin, because Yoojin believes he is a useless leech), and he believes that even people doing bad shit could do good shit if they tried.

Thinking about how he listens because they're not reporters - whom he hates - or other people harassing him for any number of reason. They just want him to give them money for some bullshit scheme. On the scale of things, that's better. And how sad that is.

#내가 키운 S급들 #s classes that i raised #this is a novel thing not a manhwa thing #at least yet anyway #might bring it up somewhere else #han yoojin #trauma #this is in the early chapters #relatively speaking for a novel with over 900 chapters #angst #han yoojin angst #the pain #like maybe he had this even before yoohyun left #but I like to think he got it after #fallfthoughts #sctir

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