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astolfofo · 14 days

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Aventurine + only one bed trope

(No you both have to sleep on the bed- don't try "I'll/He will sleep on the floor or anything of the sort)

That's it

Let is infest in your brain and stays there rent free

Written as me????? I guess???????. Realistically. I’d probably just take the blanket from him and use it like a sleeping bag. Or I’d just lay there. Unable to sleep at all. Because no way am I trusting him to be that close to me. Even while fully conscious. Probably couldn’t even move a centimetre because it’s gonna wake him up.

Okay note; UM SO I GOT CARRIED AWAY WITH THIS BRO IM. NAH IM GONNA REGRET THIS IN THW MORNING. 😭😭😭😭😭 if you open keep reading it’s raw dialogue with no editing just a fyi. It’s 4am. Cut me some slack 💀 also this is some really disjointed writing and prob ooc

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It had been a while since you had been forced to stay in a hotel. Sure, you liked staying away from home. But not under this kind of circumstance.

You just didn’t know what to expect. Aventurine had to practically drag you away from the platform (much against your own will. You had already boarded the train, ready to get the hell out of here) into an expensive-looking hotel. You assumed he had some kind of connection with this certain one because he didn’t even glance at the check-in counter. Just pulled you by the arm into one of the suites on the highest floor. You guess he chose the highest floor, specifically so you couldn’t get away that easily again.

the door clicks when you insert the card in, and you slowly push it open. The door seems to close very quickly, and you barely manage to hold it open.

It’s heavy.

You push the door open again, and and walk in. The door almost immediately slams shut this time, followed by two clicks.

one, was the door lock.

the second was a lock typically stored where a door chain was. It required a code to open. One that you didn’t know.

You then see the single bed in the middle of the room, and the colour instantly drains from your face. You were locked inside a room, stuck with none other than a suspicious man. A suspicious man that you were trying to get away from no less than two full hours ago.

you feel a gloved hand slink over your shoulder.. immidieately, you want to recoil. Sink into the floor. Run away. Slap the hand off. But you don’t. You stand there. Still.

“You didn’t expect me to let you off that easily did you?”

You don’t need to turn your head around to know who it is. You don’t want to hear his voice. Pretend he’s not there.

“You’re going to sharing the same room with me tonight,” he continues, leaning closer into you, “You’re okay with that, right?”

You didn’t respond. It wasn’t like you had a choice. You really should’ve brought that lock cutter along with you.

Aventurine doesn’t seem to mind though. You don’t ever recall seeing someone so giddly about anything. Ever.

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You stare at the single bed in the room. “Aventurine, there’s only one bed…”

He says nothing in return but you really do not want to see his facial expression right now either.

“Um… I guess… I’ll just sleep on the floor then. You can have the bed.”

“You’re not really suggesting you’re going to sleep on that cold, hard, floor without anything are you?”

“I’m not going to be sleeping anyways. It makes no difference whether I sleep on the floor or on the bed.”

“Seriously? You’d rather not sleep at all before even considering sharing a bed with me? Do you really hate me that much?”

“It’s not the first time I haven’t been able to sleep because of you,” You snapped. “plus, it’s not even the first night I didn’t sleep at all.” You added, ”I wouldn’t be able to sleep anyways if I had to share a bed with you.”

“Then why don’t I make you fall asleep, hm? Would you… prefer that instead?”

“Hell no! You’re the last person I’d let-“

“But your face is turning bright red, is it not?’

“Yeah well that’s because your embarrassing me!”

“It’s nothing to be embarrassed about you know…”

“Whatever. You’re not doing that. I won’t hesitate to saw that sorry thing off you if you even try it.”

“Oh that’s such a scary threat,” He replies, sarcastically. “But I promise you… that when we do it… you won’t want me to stop.”

He leans closer. “You’ll be begging me not to stop. I’m going to make a mess out of you. I’m going to fuck you until this cute little personality of yours melts away. Until you can’t even remember your own na-“

You throw a pillow and hit him square in the face. “You…. You…”

He laughs and pulls the pillow off his face. “You’re interested now, aren’t you?”

“I am NOT. Interested. Disgusted would be a better term to suit what I just heard.”

“Suit yourself.” He shrugs, “It’s going to happen one day though, don’t say I didn’t warn you.”

“Last thing you could make me do is enjoy… that.”

“You can say that all you want, darling.”

You glare at him hard enough that he puts his hands up as a sign of peace.

”So anyways, do you want the left side of the bed or the right side of the bed?”

#Yandere aventurine #yandere aventurine x reader #Aventurine x reader #Yandere hsr #honkai star rail x reader #You’re gonna need to wheedle me to write smut after I’m fucking done with the quest I felt geninue post nut clarity from just that #Bit of dialogue

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movedtone0mile · 1 year

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sleepless

bf!mark x reader

warnings: smut, unprotected sex, pwp really + prob bad English

AN: a quick thing I thought abt the other night, pending the other things I’m working on and for my exams to pass or for me to pass my exams 🤞

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you can’t sleep so you require your sleepy boyfriend’s help

Your phone on the nightstand showed 2 AM, but you were unable to fall asleep tonight. So many things were in your head. The train of your thoughts was running and showed no sign of stopping anytime soon.

You turned for the umpteenth time to face your boyfriend, fast asleep on his side of the bed. His breathing was calm and steady, and his chest rose and fell rhythmically. Every once in a while, soft snores escaped his nostrils, and you thought it was cute. Almost cute enough for you not to wake him up. Almost.

“Mark.” You whispered in his ear, shaking him up a little. He budged slightly. “Please baby, wake up.”

He let out a groan, a sign that he was starting to emerge. You began to pepper kisses all over his neck and jaw, making him stir. Feeling his arms stretch around you, you looked up at him, and his eyes fluttered open. “What is it babe?” he asked, rubbing his eyes.

“I can’t sleep…” you said, snuggling close to his body, “I just can’t stop thinking!”

“Well, think of nothing.” he spoke in a raspy voice that was oddly attractive to you. “Easier said than done. I can’t just turn off my brain!” you went on complaining. Mark sighed, “I can so why can’t you?”

“I just… need a little help you know?” you made your voice softer, and unconsciously started to rub your thighs together in anticipation.

He looked down at you with narrowed eyes and frowned eyebrows. “You mean…?” With a nod of your head, you reached for his bulge and squeezed it, as a way to make your statement clearer. Your thigh straddled his and you whined, “Please I really need this, I tried everything else!” Turning around his head, Mark leaned into your kiss, but you could tell he didn’t have much energy. “Ok, turn around.” he asked with his voice still groggy. You happily obliged and got onto your stomach.

When he found within himself the courage to move, Mark climbed on top of you and lazily pushed down your underwear and his. You were thankful for his sleep that had already made him hard, and a breathy moan escaped you when his length slid between your thighs and against your slit. He was basically crushing you with his weight since he was too sleepy to support himself with his arms. You didn’t mind though, the proximity was everything you needed at the moment.

Mark moved like this between your thighs for a moment, getting you impatient. You were already wet enough, you had been thinking about it way before you brought yourself to wake him. Tapping his thigh, you brought him back to reality. “Oh yes, wait, lift your hips.” you did what he asked and he placed a pillow under you so the angle would be better.

Then, slowly and with a deep groan, he thrusted into you. Your walls stretched around him and were sucking him in as if they never wanted to let him go. Mark let out a deep sigh in your ear and grabbed your hips for dear life. “Wait a min’, don’t move.” You whined at that, “Please, Mark.”

“No, no, don’t move yet. If you do,” another groan. “I won’t be able to last long.”

A smile drew on your face, and you stayed like this for a moment, still. You could feel Mark’s cock throbbing inside of you, and his hot breath on your neck. At some point, you decided to push yourself back onto him, you asked for sex not cockwarming.

Mark whined at your actions and lazily moved his hips, meanwhile holding yours steady. “You couldn’t wait til’ the morning, huh?” You gripped the sheets as he was thrusting deep into you. He grumbled something about you being so needy before laying wet kisses all over your neck and shoulders. “What were you thinking about so much that you couldn’t sleep baby?” he asked in between moans. Your eyes had begun to roll to the back of your head with how good Mark was fucking you against the mattress.

“You,” you whined, out of breath. “All I think about is you, Mark.” His breathing, as well as his hips, were speeding up, and you had to bite onto the pillow not to scream out loud so late at night. Mark sat up on his knees, his hold still strong on your hips. The new angle felt even better than before and the pillow actually did little to muffle your moans. “Say my name again.” you heard him demand. Of course, you had to oblige, it was the only thing left on your mind at the moment anyway, so you repeated it, over and over again.

Mark’s thighs tensed up against yours and he was thrusting even deeper than before, clearly chasing his own high. He was cussing uncontrollably, his movements became sharper and at last, he came inside with a deep groan. Supporting himself with his right hand on your back, he was grinding against your ass, slowly coming down from his high. “Oh, fuck. Sorry, I know this was supposed to be about you babe.” He said with his voice more acute than before.

“´s okay” you sighed, still on edge. You were so close before Mark slowed down his movements, you knew this would not take long. Grinding back onto him, you relished in the high-pitched moans that were coming from him because of overstimulation.

“Don’t worry baby, I got you, ok?” With that, he resumed his thrusting, and as you had predicted, it didn’t take long for the coil in your tummy to tighten again. The sounds of skin-slapping and whimpers were filling the room and your vision was blurring. It took only a few more for the coil to snap with a scream of ecstasy that Mark had to cover with his hand for the neighbours not to charge you for night disturbance.

With your eyes closed, you embraced the wave that washed over you. Your whole body tensed up, and you had to bite on the pillow again, because Mark was still moving, besides his own sensitivity to get you there.

When the feeling vanished and you had to catch your breaths, you and Mark laid one on top of the other, for a moment, relaxing in the heat that was radiating from each other’s body.

Peppering kisses on your neck and whispering sweet nothings to your ear, Mark stroked every part of your body he could reach in this position. “Hold on, let me get you cleaned up.”

You wanted to thank Mark for helping you out tonight, but before you could form a sentence, your eyes closed.

#nct 127 x reader #nct dream x reader #nct x reader #mark x reader #nct dream smut #nct 127 smut #nct smut #mark smut

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cornus27florida · 1 year

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Whitney had initiated ! But at what cost? Episode 148 BBQ (Barbeque, theme of slumber party) part 2 reactions (which is the last one's [episode reactions] from me - the next time I'll focusing on wiki ><)

As Maria maleficent-kiss feels kinda will affect her dream scape even thou not awakes her + the last book that Maria closes is suspiciously like Dogyssey... + CANCEL LELAND

Pastel Palace → Maria and Beckett

Maria closes the ‘final book’ that suspiciously looks like Dogyssey (the book that Frederick lent to Gwen, as an attempt to invite her to the gala first time) and saying that it seems to be the all the reading she could do tonight because it’s almost bedtime for her. She reassures sleeping Gwen that their father (king Jack) will be home soon and they are gonna wake Gwen up in no time. Despite getting scratched by the thorny ‘rings of protections’ surrounding Gwen, Maria attempting to kiss (pecking) Gwen in attempt for Maleficent-style of “true love’s kiss” could prevail - but it’s not work and leaves Maria in sadness. Gwen is not bulging or moving for now (which imho is good thing because imagine waking up without proper awareness but you found you got surrounded by the ring of protections that could scratch you easily).

Maria decides to walk down stairs and finds miss Agatha grumbling that the children out of control; Jamie sneaking out again (to getting Frederick in Plaid Palace) - and she’s threatening to snapping his pixie sticks in front of him (well Jamie is fine with get grounded for million years, prob this one he’ll be fine? but well no one want to get punished..) + Lorena is working too recklessly for her Defense Project → She and the Pastel maids bring a huge cannon ball to make a project presentation for tomorrow. Lorena asks Miss Agatha if she’s fine to wait for the presentation visual to be done - with the reply that Miss Agatha is fine due to having things to entertain her (she literally is so bold by having smut books about butlers on the table).

Maria decides to go upstairs in the balcony, commenting that the air feels a little chilly yet smells a bit smokey - like there’s a barbecue (party) somewhere - which she wishes someone could invite her. At the same time she becomes melancholic, Beckett greeting her - he already sent off Horace Fais to the ‘bathroom’ all the way down at the barracks at the bottom of the hill as ‘direct order from him being the superior’.

Back to the CPC - which is Whitney’s initiation party !

Starting the reaction commentaties with these images that shown up in LambCat’s patreon FP ep of 148:

The giant tent to starts the slumber party; the members chatting each other; Monika offering Laverne a pink wine; Whitney playing twister with CPC members, Abbi is playing ping pong and assuring Saffron that the last time incident (the ball entering Jolie's eye socket) won't happen again

^ I am so jealous to the folks that could buy physical copy of CPC Book NGL T^T Feels like these panels is from the book

I thought Whitney gonna be piled together with Frederick as ‘self-defense exercise for confronting the construction crew’ - but turns out the left side that I thought will be Frederick is actually Whitney. He instructing the CPC members to playing twister but instead the normal ones is the ‘monochrome version’ where one of the circle color is ‘pewter’ or “oxford gray” [https://www.colorxs.com/color/oxford-gray-2128-40 ]

^ The oxford grey seems to be the second row on the left btw

Abbi playing ping pong with the princess that has curse ‘to make men in vicinity crying in anguish’. Abbi asked Saffron to play the next match (and also assuring him that ‘incident’ of the ball entering Jolie’s eye sock won’t happen again, as Jolie now upside on a tree to becomes ‘the party light’), but he declined as he still dejected by the epic fail of his first date (reference to episode 147). The princess wearing the blue dress (and have OP curse make men crying) commenting about how hard it is to date anyone with a curse, and giving an idea for Saffron to date someone in the club.

SyRon/SaffRah

Abbi replies that ‘being Saffron’ makes no one see him in a fanciful gaze, and gives an example that even Syrah that is supposed to hit on ‘literally anything’ - not interested in Saffron - which we learn later that this statement actually is not true. This from Jolie remembering the memory from the early days of the club (yay interesting CPC origin story!!), when Prez introduces Saffron as a new member where there’s just Jolie, Nell (also important: Jolie flirting with Nell adorably with an eye mask that has heart image) and Syrah.

Damn both CPC's Polygon folks are ultimate cockblocker; Curtis to WhitPelnia while Prez to SyRon - I really agreed that Saffron [tbh, he truly looks like a fine swole hunk that just kinda timid in ep 148] and Syrah [the ultimate cure for her pinocchio curse actually living in honesty - and with her interactions so far with Saffron, she got nothing to hides+lies and her personality compliments with Saffron. But to be fair for Prez part, she establish Syrah to giving ‘pass’ to Saffron

NelLie is love at first sight! Also the flashback is something that IDK I need : the order of CPC members initiation, which the first is shown long before to be Nell, then Jolie and Syrah - thus Saffron the one member that initiated later on - and it seems the early days of CPC, the CPC lectures already happened (that theme is "Mutual funds for Princesses") but the slumber parties tradition are made much later on.

I want to point out one scene that webtoon commenter notices when Syrah said "I rather marry hotdog if I can" - her long elongates = she lying about it-she seems not moved on from Saffron, and I hope Prez could lift up that 'ban' as Syrah could chills her out when together with Saffron after the problems with the Plaid troop resolved. I really want SyRon ship to happen there, as with Saffron ‘blunt’ honesties and his sincerities surely could compliments Syrah’s pinocchio curse, while Syrah experiences and exorbitant personality of being a cursed princess that not shackled with it terms will fits Saffron + it seems Saffron’s cursed hand also shipping Saffron with Syrah! One can’t forgot how thirsty Syrah when he sees Saffron for the first time (NGL Saffron really looks like a timid adorable hunk there in ep 148).

Plaid crashing the Whitney’s slumber party with their metallic footsteps

Jolie admires Syrah that keeping her word ‘to never give pass to Saffron’ till this day and thoughts that Syrah seems to have moved on. Both Nell and Syrah are sitting at the table and already too full eating foods that were served in Whitney’s BBQ party - while Frederick too dizzy has already ‘flipped more than a stack of pancakes’ when he just wants to talk to Prez that he thought will hear him seriously. Prez announced the CPC members would gather around so they could give a toast to their newest member which is Whitney. Prez prepares a bottle of champagne for the toast and gives him the PANDA keychain, while Thermidora makes him ‘the most monochrome dessert’ that she could find which she refers to as ‘vile invention’ - which is the dirt cake.

^ here screenshoots of silliness of CPC members based on this paragraph only lmao (and even excluding Monika fall)

Frederick attempt to warns everyone keep getting failed

F.E.A.R.S=Frederick Emotional Army of Rebel Support T^T

https://www.delish.com/holiday-recipes/halloween/a28637592/dirt-cake-recipe/

The Dirt Cake, the dessert that Thermidora made to Whitney - despite the name it actually easy to make and very delish!

When Frederick thought it gonna be his chance to talking with Prez, Abbi accidentally throw a ping pong ball to Prez’ eye, resulting to the cork of the champagne bottle incident *flying to everywhere* - starts to nearly hit Frederick (nice duck over there, tiniest prince), distressing Renee and Bernadette, rushing to Saffron (nice plate shield!), making Monika back to being a crow and almost hitting Laverne until Curtis catches it with cooking gloves. The rescue act makes Laverne grow a crush on Curtis, knocking him out of commission=also making everything fly, the food as hotdog entering Nell’s mouth while the onion rings stacked on Syrah’s elongated nose + Monika as crow fell directly in the middle of the ‘dirt cake’.

All of the chain of reactions due to a simple cork making everyone laughs, especially Whitney that seeing the whole thing >w< Saffron commenting that the night really turns out to be great for sure, while Syrah commenting that one thing that lacks is beverage (the incident making all drinks crashing down) - and want to run into the town to get some refills. Saffron is surprised about that and suggests Syrah to have common sense and take Curtis to accompany her - but as Curtis is still knocked out by Laverne, Saffron takes himself to be Syrah’s chaperon and suggests to her that there’s a better selection if headed west. Unfortunately Monika fell face first upon the cake there haha. I also want to make remarks that Whitney's laughs is so precious and infectious, but seems what LambCat said in the patreon is true...

{warning! this wholesome goofiness of CPC won’t last.. Heard from the Patreon that LambCat said it will be the last time we could see everyone at CPC in silliness..} T^T

This will be the last episode with the comedy antics of all CPC members as a wholemaking goofiness of themself .. as things will turns out to be darker with the metals and footsteps of Leland's private army there that lining up from the deep of the forest track to the Pastel palace

+ This also the last CPC episode that I gotta give reactions, kudos to Mono that keeps doing this - thanks a lot!!!

Frederick finally could talk with Prez without any distractions, he starts with Gwen (Prez asked how the two have been) that he actually never seen once since the gala. Prez weirded about it and wondered what she has been up to all these time between gala and now. Frederick telling that it’s exactly what he want to know (he can meet Gwen directly at the Pastel palace, and Gwen never visits CPC again) - but he also have some huge emergency regarding his (likely refers to his dad and brothers) - that interrupted by the lil’ guy alerting about the incoming intruders. Little guy totally shaking in fear while warning everyone in the CPC to get away from the edge of the forest because ‘the intruders’ are really close right now. Prez attempting to calms the lil guy because she thought CPC could handle the intruders, as there’s dozen of princesses eager to show off their new self-defense moves - but lil guy telling that the intruders aren’t construction workers and (like Frederick said to the Pastel guards) it won’t possible to stop them.

At the same time, lots of metal clanking and heavy footsteps incoming at the edge of the forest → it come from Leland’s private army - they’re walking to make a really long stands heading to the Pastel palace (seems creepy with all-over body protective gear, accompany with metal weapon that looks like a waxax but being holds by a long metal stick.

Prez trying to diffuse the situation by making a joke to Frederick doesn’t need a whole army to picking him up from a sleepover - but Frederick explain that the army is his father’s and the goal is the Pastel Princesses.

#cursed princess club #spoiler #newest free pass episode

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hello-this-is-ned-schneebly · 1 year

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noone reads this and i feel like ranting so yolo

i have slowly realised that my roommate is fucking crazy lol.

some of it’s kind of minor and petty - like she literally asked me and the other roommate not to make tea in the morning because the kettle interferes with her sleep (girl, 7:30 is not that early, it’s not my fault you lie in till 8:40 then sprint to work) she also insists we keep all the takeaway containers and jars which would be fine if we actually used them, but we don’t. unless we make like 50 meals worth of meal prep that ain’t happening. so i gradually bin them when she’s not looking lol.

but she clearly has a vindictive side, like the other day she talked about how when she’s pissed she takes her dads amex and then buys a heap of shit and then blocks his phone number. she was laughing as she said it, but i do not want to get on her bad side wowwww

mostly it’s just hilarious minor shit tho so i don’t care. like our front door is broken, the latch is clearly stuffed - we’ve literally removed the handle and the door still won’t budge when we twist the latch mechanism, and she’s just super insistent that all we need to do is tighten the hinges lol - because her bf said so?? a few days ago?? before the door was actually broken?? lol

she probs just doesn’t want to pay for the door handle to be replaced - but like slightly angling the door isn’t going to un-break the latch.

the girl who i replaced when i moved in had a big falling out with her tho. i don’t think it’ll ever get to that point between us, but it sounded like it went very foul very quickly. i’m still mindful tho, bc the other girl warned me. she used the words ‘fucking crazy’ and ‘manipulative’

in fact now that i think about it, tonight she was a little manipulative, in that, she said stuff like “you guys are so much better than my previous roommates because you’re being so chill about this” - well, i’m not that chill that i’m locked into my own house, lol. i’m just being nice about it.

and she also played dumb a little bit about whose responsibility it is to fix the door - obviously the landlord - who is her family friend, who she probably knows is dodgy and might not pay for the door.

anyway rant over, lol

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brckensocietyarch · 9 months

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Probs won’t be on tonight, maybe not tomorrow either. I have a prom night drag event tomorrow so need some good sleep before it.

I may be on after the event but I may be pumped after who knows.

#ooc.#mobile post bb

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cunninghamchrissie · 10 months

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i found a wasp in the hallway so i sprayed it w bug spray and ran away and it disappeared and that’s v bad bc there’s no window or door or anything so it’s not like it escaped outside so i’m prob stuck w a wasp and i won’t be able to sleep properly tonight even if i cover myself completely bc last time i got stung it was through my jeans so it’s not like wasps give a shit if you’re covered or not

#text #i hate bugs!!!!!!!!!#enough bugs in my life!!!!!!!!

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olishifts · 1 year

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Alright my plan for tonight. Gonna finish reading the revenge of the Sith novelization by Matthew Stover CAUSE THIS SHIT IS PURE GOLD. Like if I could fuck a book, it would be this one hands down. It’s so prettily written if that makes sense.

Then it’ll prob be like super early in the morning when I finish just cause I still have like 300 pages left. And hopefully by that point I’ll be tired enough to actually try to shift and sleep not shortly after. I’ve always had that issue with falling asleep when doing my method, that I’ll legit lay in bed for about 4-5 hours and won’t be able to sleep at all. Fingers crossed.

And if you’re reading this, GO SHIFT NOW / TONIGHT YOU FUCKING GOT THIS 🖤

#reality shifting #shifting #desired reality #shifttok #quantum jumping

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royalmokwamonster · 4 months

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23/12/2023 @10:55pmmy

Therapist was right how life is dynamically shifting to the new chapter. It just sucks how my Christmas break feels sluggishly long

Waiting / hoping the door will ring

Hearing random stomps

Food disappearing really quick in the fridge

Loud bass sounds coming from the basement

What am I waiting for? What am I expecting? Why is it so boring?

Why am I so bored? I’ve done shopping. I’ve been at the mall. I’ve gone to the bakery. I’ve done a tiny grocery hall.

It’s like, if I go out, (hopefully) when I get back Kuya will be there.

But he isn’t.

I’m just a puppy waiting for their owner to advice so I could annoy the shit out of them.

Call doesn’t feel the same. I think that’s where my quality time of love language kicks in.

Last night I watch my baby confirmation CD, just to have that presence i guess of Kuya around.

I cried in my room. I couldn’t sleep. I cant sleep. He prob can’t either lol what’s new

It’s 11 and I’m just waiting out of nowhere the random car pull into the driveway. The keys unlocking the door. 🐶 comes barking out of nowhere.

But none of that will happen tonight. It didn’t happen last night. And it for sure won’t happen tmr on Christmas.

It’s our first Christmas separated.

Separation was something we (unfortunately) got used to /reinforced.

First from Mtl. Then this compilated family dynamic.

This is new though.

Now it’s being separated from what was keeping u company after moving here (feeling isolated from other family).

Awesome.

It’s more teary eye “I’m glad he’s far, but man did he had to be THIS far”

Now what am I going to watch? I don’t usually plan what’s next…. I just sit and comment

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sirensav · 7 months

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It’s been two weeks and I have only lost 3lbs. I’m actually not mad at that tho bc it makes me feel like it’s actually fat im losing and not just muscle or water weight. I think soon I’ll start exercising to speed up the process but im happy with the progress being made. I don’t think it helped this week eating right before going to sleep but this week was busy. Monday was quiz night so I got home late. I ended up eating a hot dog when I woke up from falling asleep. Tuesday I was with Christia so I think I had something I can’t remember. Wednesday Tristan came over and I think I had an egg sandwich. Thursday I KOed super early but woke up and ate and tonight I had two sushi rolls but basic ones but I still have time to digest before going right to bed. It will be interesting to see if that helps or if I just stayed at the same weight or lose anything or even gain.

It’s nice bc I feel like I am learning what works and doesn’t. I know meat really doesn’t help me lose at all right before bed. What I might do is get some rice cakes, hummus and mushrooms.

I can try and find the keto bread and make cucumber sandwiches. The protein shakes don’t work just yet but maybe further down the road. It’s the beginning of this journey so I don’t wanna mess it up too quickly by going too hard too fast. I know I need food to go to sleep and ironically that developed through this ED when I was at my lowest which was 95lbs. I miss it there I feel I could of gotten further but I won’t go too deep into that. We are just gonna focus on getting there. Next week is promising. I can go to the store tomorrow and get the stuff. I’m excited for next weeks progress. I feel like it will be better than this weeks.

CW: 130

GW1: 125

Total lbs lost: 6

Total lbs to go: 5

Maybe tomorrow I will work on the house that will burn calories. Maybe go for a walk. We will see. Maybe lounge around for a while. Either way I will try not to smoke during the day so I don’t eat anything. I think last weekend killed progress too so I gotta make sure the weekends don’t push me back. This will be the third weekend so we will be strong. Remember how good it will feel seeing the number on the scale go down. Maybe I’ll do a cycle tonight to burn calories. Probs not bc exhausted but MAYBE

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