holy crap closeted bisexual Grayson?? never before have I been so intrigued by a hc PLEASE tell me more
oh my god absolutely. tbh i said bisexual instead of gay so people wouldnt cancel me
all of the hawthornes i hc are queer in some way (bi jamie, pansexual xander, idfk what nash is doing) but out of all of them gray opposes the idea the most, since it breaks his idea of his “perfect” self or who he was supposed to grow up to be or whatever because its not “normal”. so he accidentally internalized homophobia over it and in an ideal world he would get a chance to explore his identity more and undo his anxiety about stepping out of line with the standards his grandfather set for him. i really hc hes actually gay because he just does not seem to get along with women outside of the obvious eve and emily. IDK MAN, IT WORKS IN MY ILLNESS RIDDEN MIND
off topic thoughts ;
all we have seen of him is moody potential romantic interest (imo. most of his struggles and stuff surround romance) and i think there is so much more to his identity than just likes women and is stoic
what i really want out of the next book is grayson genuinely taking a step back and reflecting on who he is outside of emily eve and avery, and i think that introducing another love interest is NOT the way to go but thats off topic
I want gray learning to accept himself outside of romance and accept that he isnt perfect snd will never fit standards and thats ok
TW: SA, Mustard, colorful language, a little bit of racism???
It is so hard to be a good person. I try so hard and so far I am a decent human being, but every once in a while (every waking moment of my existence) god decides to throw another one of his bitch-ass creations (may I dare say human) at me full speed. For example I was in the cafeteria today and some random ass man with a thick jersey accent came up to me and started talking about the mustard shortage he legit said "you can only get get yellow 'round here, I just want some dijon to spice up my meal" BITCH FIRST OF ALL I DON'T KNOW YOU, SECOND OF ALL YOUR MEAL??? YOU MEAN YOUR HAM SANDWICH??? also we have this stupid class about 'mindful learning' its like how to use your planner and how to study but i swear the teacher is just spewing sonnets like he is just saying things to be said. He was talking about a word and he was like "you know..like to be ravished..like you're extremely hungry.." BRO YOU MEAN RAVENOUS???? Also I had a dream last night where I met Tokio Hotel and Bill, Gustav, and Georg and they were very nice but when I took a picture with Tom he groped me (this was just a dream I know he isn't like this in real life JUST A DREAM). Anyways I AM SO MAD THAT I MISSED TOM'S LIVE YESTERDAY! Did y'all see Bill's penis Slippers? Thats like actually so cunt of him. Also I was in art class and my bbg pookie dookie (my bestieeee) wasn't there so I had to group with these 3 boys and boy 1 was drawing and showed it to boy 2 and 3 and boy 2 was like "you're drawing is decently bad" and boy 1 responded with "you know whats decently bad? your mom's vagina." I almost pissed myself because like I couldn't laugh because i didn't want them to know i was eavesdropping. also boy 1 told boy 3 that "If it was the 1800's I would buy you and set you free' (boy 3 is black) is all happened while me and those boys had to draw that fucking red lumpy blood clot from yo gabba gabba (IDK WHY OUR TEACHER MADE US DRAW HIM). ALSOO my jeans are too big so everyone and their mama can see my undiesssss and i have to staple them up to they dont draggg. anyways it been a rough week and its only Wednesday but its okay because i have 3 things coming from TEMU 🤩 i am currently writing this in the corner of my school library during study hall. also im new to tubulr and the FANFIC ON HERE...anyways here is a cute photo i found...