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#ouch everthing hurts. oh wait why am i crying? why am i so angry? why am i hitting myself???
pizzapizzadickz
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Hahaha I thought I'd be fine to get out and eat. How wrong I was.
#i can only deal with making 2 things or eating prepackaged shit
#haha fuck you ill only eat fruits and water
#ouch everthing hurts. oh wait why am i crying? why am i so angry? why am i hitting myself???
#diary
#personal
#ive recovered again. but by god its been a stressful 48 with it mostly plauged with me shutdown or melting down.
#like. for better or worse i can prevent most of a melt down. but like. instead its just agony internally.
#ive been playing games for the last god knows how long. it rly does help keep me from getting too bored and melting down further...
#honestly tho im like. not very verbal or sociable rn. like. i could. but if its not over text you have to keep it very basic
#the reason i started melting down or whatever is bc my dad kept asking me questions when i really couldnt answer *sigh*
#and the final straw was when he didnt make up the burger the way i wanted it. and then eating it was jist as bad
#idk man. its illogical and no fault to him. but like. i wouldve rather just not eaten today instead :/
#disordered eating
#like. *sigh* if i have to fucking deal with this shit twice in a 24h period id rather be high as a fucking kite
#drugs tw
#too bad i cant bc i need to do a resume and maybe have an interview this week
#but as soon as i have that done im getting so fucking high.
#tomorrow is my dads birthday and like. were supposed to have burgers but im not sure if ill want one bc the one i had today hurts
#so like. i wanna vomit bc its just... my stomach feels bad bc of it. ill try taking an acid reducer maybe? idk
#im not sure how the hell im going to eat anything the next few days. idk if i will. i always love fruit tho so maybe just that?
#like. at first it was
#now that my stomach is upset its like idk it just feels like that.
#i may just be too full and itll wear off tomorrow
#idk i rly feel like this is over the top. just everything is. and like. my emotions r so out of control its hard not to feel like ur faking
#like. who gets progressivly more upset over very small things like being asked questions
#trick question its me. also sounds n noises n everything else hurts.
#when im exceedingly distressed (aka one step further than this like how i was last night) i cant even do anything.
#honestly im barely functioning rn... but im trying ig. bc i have stuff to do and games help distract me from this hellscape that is my life
#idk. hopefullu ill calm down by tomorrow? like. id like to not have a third meldown so soon...
#im glad i could text my mom to ask her to just text me what i should edit my resume to.
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