HI SO. I ACCIDENTALLY WROTE GAMZEE AS NOT 100% BEING MENTALLY READY FOR A RELATIONSHIP BUT STILL LOVING EQUIUS WHAT DO I DO

CONTINUE ON!!! theyre still not 'relationship' in the fic, just having kissed and now Gam is like "fucj yeah kiss" while equius is shortcircuiting over what nanosecond is utmost perfect for his first 'i love you'. even then, i encourage you to get fucky with whats canon or not

i really hope we get to see how polin first met. of course i would prefer it if it was like how they met in the books but i also just want a timeline for how long they've known each other.

in the books they meet when pen is 16 and in the show in the first season she's 17, and she tells marina in the show "he is my friend marina, i've known him forever" like WHAT does that mean??? what's "forever" cuz personally i wouldn't say that about someone i've known a year. or even 2 years.

also bc in the book pen was in love w colin for 10+ years before he fell in love with her, i feel like in the show they must have known each-other for at least more than 2 years. like i feel like that was lowkey important to their story.

i'm so curious as to how they're gonna handle that if they do a flashback. cuz i feel like their meeting is so important to them.

you ever just think about. “You are diseased, albeit a disease of our own making. No more.” you ever just. oh, they made him and they discarded him. it’s never going to be quiet again for him, and that’s just collateral. they let the sound rot through his whole life, his whole timeline. because that’s the kind of easy sacrifice you can make when you want to save yourself above everything else, one that doesn’t ask anything of you. you dig open a child’s mind and you bury your survival inside him and when he follows the noise back home, when he does exactly what you groomed him for, you call him ruined for it. that’s. you ever just think about that.

yeah this is my art piece it's called "oh my god it sucks so bad" enjoy

I wish there was a politer way it saying "hey I absolutely adore you but you only have one volume that is very loud and don't seem to be able to read the room"

Absolutely love the irl but Jesus fuck they're very bad at realizing that not everyone shares the same ideas

like most Christian movies risen is cheesy and biblically dubious at times and gets loads of cultural stuff wrong for the sake of being recognizable to a primarily American audience but I'll readily admit the poor roman tribune's absolute bafflement at these religious weirdos who keep talking about love and stuff has me cackling unhingedly

Like, is it sound biblical doctrine and is it historical believable? No? Is it hilarious and do I enjoy seeing this random shmuck lose his mind going through what's essentially a very disturbing psychological thriller from his pov while the disciples are overflowing with joy? You bet??

The guy is dealing with horrifyingly decomposed dead bodies trying to find the right cadaver and previously sane soldiers going crazy and dead men being spotted alive and strange supernatural phenomena and angry gods and unexplained madness and religious fanatism spreading like a contagion, and meanwhile the disciples (and Jesus) are all like HELLO BROTHER WOULD YOU LIKE TO HEAR ABOUT THE BEST NEWS EVER :D :D :D

1. it’s my 24th birthday today, so my goal of being published by the time i’m 25 is now a one year looming monster, but i never specified what kind of published and am currently looking in various literary magazines that are recommended for writers who have yet to be published, so i’m surprisingly confident that i can make it work? and tbh even if whatever i write isn’t officially published before my 25th birthday, if i have someone in the process of being published then i’ll be happy!! no matter what though, i’m gonna try to be proud of myself for at least giving it my best shot!!

2. i honestly love that my birthday is on the ides of march because the ides of march meme shitposting is only a thing on tumblr but it also being my birthday makes it easier to like. be excited about the ides of march outside of tumblr. like even in person i can be like “it’s my birthday! i’m an ides of march babe (:” and if someone is like oh what’s that? or if they say something along the lines of oh like julius caesar? i can be like yep!! and even if it’s a small thing outside of tumblr it brings me immense enjoyment and amusement being able to bring it up off of tumblr

3. transportation situation has been very rough since june 2023 when i totalled my car, my gap insurance are being assholes and i ended up putting my foot down on the phone with them yesterday which i’m pretty proud of because i am NOT a confrontational person (something i’ve been working on this past year, so seeing some improvement with my ability to hold my ground and not be a pushover yesterday was very cool!!) i was told i’d get a response from them by friday next week no matter what, and if i don’t then friday of next week i will continue to wreak havoc upon them. but my moms car which i’ve been using since my accident broke down yesterday, hopefully it’s fixable but my parents were saying it might be done for, so trying to think of how i’m gonna get to work next week is kind of stressing me out lmao, but for now i’m just gonna focus on enjoying my birthday the best i can because i don’t want to start off being 24 with an overwhelming anxiety for something that won’t be a potential issue until monday. plus i already messaged my boss today to let her know that i’m going to do everything i can to make it work out but just so she’s in the loop and knows of the potential of me not being able to make my morning shifts (one of my coworkers said she’s more than happy to give me a ride for our afternoon shifts which does help relieve some of the stress!) and i told her i’d let her know for sure sunday so that if necessary she can have time to figure out someone to fill in for me in the mornings!

overall: life is weird and i ended being 23 yesterday with a shitty situation but a positive outlook and i am going to enjoy my first day of being 24 no matter what because honestly i fucking earned it. happy friday everyone, i hope it’s a good day for you and me both!

locking in a final design for publius (I’ve redesigned him. like, five times now) because I have a comic I want to draw and publius has to be in it

(the comic is antony becoming increasingly haunted by cassius, publius, and crassus during antony's parthian war until it's a full blow horror nightmare sequence)

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One thing I am going to keep about this atla live action is more iroh and zuko scenes but it's sad that's probably the only thing I will keep

WHICH RAGE LANGUAGE ARE YOU?

STEP BACK.

usually, you're able to bottle up your emotions and ignore the frustrations. but, after weeks of shoving everything down, your body needs a release, and i pity the poor person who managed to piss you off. it's screaming crying, shouting, kicking lockers, whatever you can do to get it out of your system. it's a whole jean grey moment, fire and fury blasting out of you.

tagged; @zajevre & @colzhia tagging: @daohuai, @astrcls (your choice!), @ddazzlingblds, @tragedicn (aren!), @batoushoujo

one day when i am not busy dying on the inside and out i will write an honest-to-god essay about how people are, for the lack of a better descriptor but simultaneously for the lack of a more perfect one, too edgy about five.

the thing about me is that i will be obsessed with characters who revolve around each other and will forever and ever even if they don’t know it and who tear each other apart but also are the only reason each other exist

every day i think about the lucky penny