Try stuff that smells like lavender it might help

Ooooooo, yeh!

Heard that can help, maybe I'll get candles?

Although my room is not level so it may not be safe, thats fine because I'm sure there are alternatives, like maybe a lavender tea, I might have something for that too.

I got a whole tea collection <3

Dharmik chudai part (2)

Rukmini: mera devta tum na apna Lun Ka hairs kiyo clean ni Kiya?

Krishna: tumhara liya rukmini. Tum Ka Mera hairs bohat passand ha na MERI Randi maata

Rukmini:aaaaaaa chodoooo Mera muh ko apna Lun Ka Amrit SA Bhar do aaaaaahhhh

Krishna: kiyo ni MERI sanskari Randi ooooooo mazzzzzzaaaa

Yeh sab Kuch Dekh Kar bhagwan ram Ka Lun hard ho Gaya or wo muth marna laga.wo Soch Raha tha Ka yeh kitni gandi chudai kerta ha.

Krishna: rukmini tumhari chut Ka Amrit Sara duniya Ka Hindu ki pyass bhaja Sakta ha.

Ab Krishna rukmini ki chut chatna lag gay

Krishna:oooooo Kiya swadish ha yehhhhhhhhh

Rukmini: pee lo Mera bhagwan.app bohattttt achaaaaa ha

Wait for part(3)

Ooooooo saw that anon thing... welp here it goes:

1. You’re super awesome cool and I do admit I look up to you

2. THE ART ENVY IS UNREAL your art is amazing

3. If I ever meet you in person I swear I will hug you and we can watch CPUS YouTube videos together

4. Stay groovy awesome and don’t stop bein such a god damn bad ass prommy? :)

I HOLD YOU SO AGRESSIVELY GENTLE

The idea that people look up to me is very jarring still

ALSO be careful when watching funni cpus with me, I might hit you accidentally while stimming so yeh

Ooooooo, Moss is great then, right Nina?

yeh!!! moss nice hehe - 🦄👼

“so i got this request the other day that was talking about Arthur getting distant with the reader and she doesn’t notice until it’s too late... and i really want to end it with Arthur stabbing the reader in some big twist but I just feel like you guys would not take that well” Ooooooo could this be tied to Harley Quinn somehow 😗 I am an absolute slut for angst sooooooooo LMFAOOOO

Yes totally... I am actually doing another request about the reader being at the Murray show when Arthur kills him and her getting trampled while people run out in fear and he decides to take her with him as a Harley Quinn origin *basically* so yeh totally.

I FOUND A THING

sooo I found this thing and i LOVE filling these thigns out for some reason??? anyway, here ya go! something you peeps didn’t ask for! ~crush~ pffttt, my boyfriend XD

~middle name~ jevon, Josephine. Yes..I got 2

~eye color~ Very dark brown it's basically black

~last time I cried~ er...well fuck..can't remember honestly

.~biggest fear~ spiders ;-; though if If i have to pick something other than that...being stranded in the ocean...fuck the ocean.

~last song I listened to~ Two feet - Feel like i'm drownng..ironically..though since i had to go back in my playlist..Panic room by Au/Ra

~last person I txted~ meh bitch pan.duh, XD

~favorite sports team~ err...I don't like sports? but in football I always go for the giants..cause..New York

~favorite color~ I have alot but honestly its Teal and Blu

e~best friend~ well...I used to have best friends but idk anymore..they kinda just ignore me now. So um..pan.duh, cause they have yet to ignore me to

.~favorite celeb~ EDEN. I mean, techincally he isn't a celebrity..YET! OwO, nah but his music is amazing

!~have any scars?~ er..yeah alot tbh. Mainly cause I used to have 5 cats so well. I mean..cats and flesh? ya gonna get a scar at some point XD

~kissed anyone~ Nope! No one OwO..not in a romantic way atleast.

~someone I hate~ Er...my first ever boyfriend? AND TRUMP! FUCK TRUMP!

~Ever done drugs~ well. yeah tbh. but nothign bad had an edible once..they fuckin suck. don't eat them, tastes like chemicals. And i've drank a bit. I really like vodka, preferably vanilla vodka

~height~ last time I check? which was like a year ago? I was 5'9" but um. im pretty sure i'm about 6' now. I'm a tall bitch -3- XD

~are you currently happy?~ well uh..kinda? It really depends. Im making jokes to make up for feeling pretty shitty..so..idk tbh

~do you drink~

well, yes and no. It depends. If its a special accation and i'm not like.. not allowed?? I'll drink some, but never enough to get drunk.

~the last think I bought/ate~ Homemade from scratch..er...shortbread cookies!..though they tasted like sugar cookies, also last thing I bought? food..like a week or 2 ago?..or 3? can't remember.

~day or night~ day, I hate the dark like...its ok sometimes...when its really pretty..but...generally i start to get hella paranoid at night

~favorite lyric~ oh gosh imma have to go with EDEN song and hmm..."'Cause all I needed was some words to say That all these feelings don't mean shit to me 'Cause it's all just chemicals anyway, anyway, yeah"

Its uh..there's more lines..i love this chunk of the song though XD

~do you give second chances?~ yes actually I do, 2 chances 3 strikes.

~pet peeve~ ooohhh..fuck..um..EMOJI'S! I FUCKING HATE EMOJI'S! start off a conversation with an emoji and i automatically hate you...depends on the emoji tho, there are a select few I actually..don't hate

~random fact~ uuuhh fuck uuum..idk...give me a min. Everything is a taco ...let it sink in

~current mood~ uhhh..derpy? confused? yeah i'm confused. generally with life

~last book I read~ FUCK. I don't reaadd anymoreee..does it have to be like...a book book? oh.oh holy shit..ok so a manga is  abook? but it was online? and it was like...a fucked up one? i'm not gonna say the name cause well i forget but it was a reference steven universe made with the fuckin..like..kindergarded. thats all imma say cause that show CREEPS ME OUT AT THAT ONE EPISODE

~jealous type~ nop-.....ok yeah, i'm not really..jealous? but i can be possesive?? in a way? but i don't be like. "OH YOU CAN'T BE WITH THEM!" i just kinda keep it to myself and let ya do you. though im gettign better at it!!

~birthday~ December 27, 1998

~obsession~ ooooooo....uh...COFFEE. i kinda got out of that obsession but now its come back..tho..i got to stop it again..its fuckin up my stomach....so..BROCCLI! i fuckin love Broccli

~favorite song~ theres...theres alot so lemme think of a song i can't get tired of...ok its between Drugs by EDEN or Ready as i'll ever be...by the show tangled...yeh

~worst mistake~ ooh..um...uh?...idk?...i don- MY FIRST BOYFRIEND. FUCK HIM. He's a dick. thats all i can think of that wont make me start contemplating life.

~someone I trust~ pan.duh. i mean, yeah i trust my boyfriend to..but...panduh.

~do you believe in love?~ erm...idk??..like..i believe that yes you can fall in love but i believe it doesn't last long...i mean..hopefully it does! but..idk..its a bit of a like..i don't believe the person you are with will ALWAYS love you no matter what..adn thats a sad thought but i mean...eh. its confusing.

~are you okay?~ uh...yeah? kinda? not really but i try to be! thats what counts right?

----------- Blank ~crush~

~middle name~

~eye color~

~last time I cried~

~biggest fear~

~last song I listened to~

~last person I txted~

~favorite sports team~

~favorite color~

~best friend~

~favorite celeb~

~have any scars?~

~kissed anyone~

~someone I hate~

~Ever done drugs~

~height~

~are you currently happy?~

~do you drink~

~the last think I bought/ate~

~day or night~

~favorite lyric~

~do you give second chances?~

~pet peeve~

~random fact~

~current mood~

~last book I read~

~jealous type~

~birthday~

~obsession~

~favorite song~

~worst mistake~

~someone I trust~

~do you believe in love?~

~are you okay?~

Some new stuff is coming this weekend apparently (blame Tom if it doesn't happen) and I love that everyone just sees all the chaos that I somehow end up creating/in the middle of😂

ooooooo can't waitttt! (and yes dw I shall blame TB ahaha) and yeh the confusion was real for a good while but then I realised what was going on ahaha! but tbh those edits are so good and if Tom doesn't use them as promo then everyone shall boycott ahahaha

Bigg Boss 13 winner Sidharth Shukla: ‘I am very happy that Shehnaaz Gill is going to get married’ - tv

Throughout Bigg Boss 13, fans were rooting for contestants Sidharth Shukla and Shehnaaz Gill to end up together, and even lovingly gave the couple the moniker of ‘SidNaaz’. However, even as fans are hoping that their romance continues outside Bigg Boss 13, Shehnaaz will be a part of a new reality show titled Mujhse Shaadi Karoge in which she will find a groom for herself. The show is set to go on air on Monday (February 17) night. In an interview with Peeping Moon, Sidharth opened up about Shehnaaz’s new show and said, “I am very happy that she is going to get married and I hope she has a great life from here on.”   Meanwhile, a video has emerged in which Sidharth is heard seemingly referring to Shehnaaz’s father as ‘daddy’, and it is taking social media by storm. In the clip, shared by a fan account of ‘SidNaaz’ on Twitter, Sidharth is seen walking down from the Bigg Boss 13 stage to his vanity van. Shehnaaz’s father Santokh Singh Sukh greets him, and he seems to respond, “Haan, daddy,” before immediately correcting himself and saying “uncle”. Also read: Bigg Boss 13 contestant Sidharth Shukla dated Shilpa Shinde, she claims he was ‘very abusive and aggressive’ Fans could not keep calm. “Ooooooo ooh my gawd. Itni Khushi dedi tumne aaj mujhe... Mera Sunday sawar diya!!!! Yeh itni minute cheezein pakdte kahan se hain???” one Twitter user wrote. “Sid ne fst Daddy kaha thn jab sab hanshey toh uncle keh dia... hayeee rishta pakkaaa,” another wrote. However, a few Twitter users seemed to think differently. “He said, ‘Haan ready, hold on.’ uncle ji was waiting for him to take a pic and the people were calling him, So he said hold on. #ShehnaazGill,” one person wrote.   Mummyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy Sidharth calling Sana's Father Dady😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 "Haa dady"😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 The way he held Sana's fathers hand😭😭 Mar jao sareee.. Rishta pakka hei🤝 pic.twitter.com/p3aB8pGc61 — SidNaaz (@SidNaazFever) February 16, 2020 Sidharth, who shared a close bond with Shehnaaz in the Bigg Boss 13 house, was declared the winner of the popular reality show on Saturday (February 15) night. He defeated Asim Riaz to win the top honour and took home a cheque of Rs 40 lakh.   Shehnaaz, who was the second runner-up of Bigg Boss 13, congratulated Sidharth on his win. She shared a picture of him with the trophy on her Instagram account and wrote, “CONGRATULATIONS @realsidharthshukla GOD BLESS U ALWAYS,” followed by a heart emoji. Follow @htshowbiz for more Read the full article

you: reblogggging a lot of art refs // me: ooooooo is he gonna do art?? i want to see his art -🌱

yeh i am!! it's a ghost hunters au with my Talentverse ocs! i frgot my stylus for a couple days so it isn't finished yet but will br soon!

Tag thing

Rules: Complete the survey and say who tagged you in the beginning. When you finished tag 5 people to do this survey. Have fun and enjoy!!

i was tagged by @they-make-me-scream-your-screams (thanks hon); i really need to do tag more often

1: Are you named after someone? nope

2: When was the last time you cried? yesterday, just take a guess as to why (dig dooooooown)

3: Do you like your handwriting? oooooo nope. its so bad and its always been bad. my kindergarten teacher failed me in handwriting cause it was so bad

4: What is your favourite lunch meat? turkey? a turkey sandwich is my safe meal but i dont really like it too much

5: Do you have kids? nope, i have too many to take care of with my job

6: If you were another person, would you be friends with you? ooooooo hell no, i dont know how people can stand me

7: Do you use sarcasm? usually 

8: Do you still have your tonsils? i think?

9: Would you bungee jump? oh hell yeh, im a sucker for dangerous shit like that

10: What is your favourite kind of cereal? all cereal, its my favorite thing to eat

11: Do you untie your shoes when you take them off? no

12: Do you think you’re a strong person? mentally or physically? cause both no

13: What is your favourite ice cream flavour? i havent had ice cream in a while but i think its cookies and cream? or pistachio 

14: What is the first thing you notice about people? their smile and their eyes and how they laugh

15: Red or pink? maroon

16: What is your least favourite physical thing about yourself? all

17: What colour pants and shoes are you wearing now? grey sweatpants and no shoes

18: What was the last thing you ate? popcorn and apple sauce

19: What are you listening to right now? Law and order svu, but the last song was Dig Down

20: If you were a crayon, what colour would you be? dark purple or blue

21: Favourite smell? vanilla, my parents smell, new books, freshly washed hair

22: Who was the last person you spoke to on the phone? someone for work

23: Favourite sport to watch? nope. okay well maybe figure skating. that shit is awesome

24: Hair colour? yellow with brown roots. it was blonde but i havent dyed it for so long that its turned yellow

25: Eye colour? same as @they-make-me-scream-your-screams : a weird mix of grey blue and green

26: Do you wear contacts? nope

27: Favourite food to eat? cereal

28: Scary movies or comedy? both, but not at the same time

29: Last movie you watched? i dont remember, i dont watch many movies

30: What colour of shirt are you wearing? purple and white tie dye

31: Summer or winter? winter please

32: Hugs or kisses? both are amazing and i love both so much 

33: What book are you currently reading? 1984, ive been stuck reading it for a while

34: Who do you miss right now? Muse always

35: What is on your mouse pad? i dont even have one, try again

36: What is the last TV program you watched? law and order svu righ noooow

37: What is the best sound? anything muse makes or sings or says or breaths

38: Rolling Stones or The Beatles? Muse (i agree with @they-make-me-scream-your-screams)

39: What is the furthest you have ever traveled? italy, so beautiful

40: Do you have a special talent? ooo nope, but i can tell what muse song is playing by the first 5 seconds of it

41: Where were you born? from my mother i hope

i shall tag the first people who come to my head: @tagtra, @pizzazzer, @potholes-and-revelations, @guiding-lightning-strike, @we-were-kissing-gods, and @assasins

Ooooooo

Y E P OvO She's usually been there in tough times for my child and is has helped him They're also smoking buddies :0c And well ya know he is a flirt and she also flirts back SOO yeh

Do Bol OST :- Latest pakistani drama song in the Singer of Nabeel Shaukat & Aima Baig. Composer of this Naveed Naushadsong given by ARY Digital this song Lyrics Naveed Naushad & Imran Raza of this song directed by Syed Wajahat Hussain. This song is Producer by Humayun Saeed and Shahzad Nasib, Samina Humayun Saeed, Sana Shahnawaz.

Song Title OST - Do Bol Lyrics

Singer - Nabeel Shaukat & Aima Baig

Producers - Humayun Saeed and Shahzad Nasib, Samina Humayun Saeed, Sana Shahnawaz

Composer - Naveed Naushad

Director - Syed Wajahat Hussain

Label - ARY Digital

Do Bol Title Song Lyrics

Ja Tujhe Maaf Kiya

Ja Tujhe Maaf Kiya.

Ooooooo…..!

Pyar Ki Raah Mein Mujhko Yu Chorne Wale

Pyar Ki Raah Mein Mujhko Yu Chorne Wale.

Ja Tujhy Maaf Kiya…

Ja Tujhy Maaf Kiya…

Dil Ko Turne Wale

Sitam Hai Khudiya, Kyu Pyar Banniya.

Jo Luty Dil Ka Jahan, Dil Itna Rolaya.

Hain Ghum Muskaraya

Ye Apny Hai Anjan……….!

Toot Kar Pyar Kary Dil Jo, Bekhaar Jata Hai………!

Toot Kar Pyar Kary Dil Jo, Bekhaar Jata Hai………!

Ishq Tu Samne Ankhon Kay

Mukar Jata Hai.

Bhoj Hai Dil Pay Muhbat Ka Utaro Kasy.

Bhoj Hai Dil Pay Muhbat Ka Utaro Kasy.

Kahky Do Bol Yeh Ek Umer

Guzaro Kasy…..!

Rakh Day Pemanny Pay Apno

Tolny Waly…..!

Ja Tujhy Maaf Kiya, Ja Tujhy Maaf Kiya.

Dil Ko Turne Wale.

Sitam Hai Khudiya, Kyu Pyar Banniya.

Jo Luty Dil Ka Jahan, Dil Itna Rolayia.

Hain Ghum Muskaraya

Yeh Apny Hai Anjan………!

Do Bol Drama Video Song

hiiii it’s me colly!

Hii it’s been a long while since I wrote out my thoughts on here.  I just wanted to recollect and self reflect on some feelings i’ve been feeling lately. SO it all started in march when I noticed I was beginning to feel more of myself again. Like I just felt more of me. Like the sadness is yeah its still there and the betrayal i felt from craig is always going to be there i think. And the trauma and the anger I have for him of what he did to me and put me through will always be there. But I found myself finally feeling like ready? Ready to take a leap of faith and get myself back out there into the dating pool/pond.  AND LET ME TELL YOU!!! It is so fucking exhausting. I hate the swiping. And I hate feeling writing my bio to the point where I feel like i’m selling a pitch to shark tank. LIKE SEELLLING MYSELF AND MY QUALITIES of what makes ME special or what someone will get out of when they date me. LOL idk it’s so hard. I think that’s another thing I need to work on. Loving myself. And taking ownership on yes I am weird, yes I am shy. But yes I am awesome and I am beautiful. It just takes time to see that. Anyway I was losing hope on these datin g apps when i would get bomboarded with dudes asking me questions on if I live at home, or if i live alone. And it made me self conscious like. Is it bad that I live at home with my mom? It’s so expensive to move out. Like I cant even afford living in the bay area if i did try and move out and find a roomie. LOL. I guess i feel ashamed, because of that. And whenever I would match with someone they would either unmatch themselves right away after i message them. or they just never replied. So it was kinda frustrating i guess. Like whats the point?  Anyway my school friend and my brother suggested me to try out the dating app of Meetme. And LOL i was skeptical because of the amount of messages I would receive the first time I downloaded it. And So i tried it again. And I just got sooooooo many messages from dudes. And the ages just ranged from 18-21; 40-60 year olds. And It just made my stomach sink. I just I cant see myself dating someone that’s 40 and me being 27. Idk I just I cant. ESPECIALLY IF THEY ARE MESSAGING ME ASKING IF I WOULD LIKE TO TRY OUT LIMP DICK LMFAO?! HELLO? WHAT LOL or if i would like to be their substitution to viagra. creeper bye. And so it just made me really freaked out. And then at this time Steven messaged me and I was just cautious. But he made me laugh and he was the only one that was close to my age. So I felt like that was fine. But the overwhelming messages from 40-60 year olds creeping on my profile and asking me if i wanted to lick them or if i was interested in finding a daddy. Just I couldnt. So I decided to just delete my photos because ya girl just was creeped out at that point. And steven then messaged and asked me if I was quitting because he noticed I was removing my photos and i just explained to him and he was just really shocked. And i asked him if he ever experienced that on his end and he just said no. So I was just like LUCKY DUCK.  Anyway, we talked more on the app of meetme messages. He made me laugh. I thought he was pretty charming and cute as well. He has a list of interests that is sooooo different from me which made me feel very insecure or uneasy. I’m not active and I have had bad experiences of camping and outdoors but I am always willing to try new things. And I feel like I just couldnt do long distance anymore. especially after the abuse I went through with craig and phillip. I just I can’t do that anymore. I need someone here for me physically. And steven is literally a few miles away so i was glad. SO we do have a shared interest which is anime c: and cute animals and food and books and gaming. And he asked me out on a date to go to Dave n Busters. 

SO GUESS WHAT ya girl went to dave n busters. that was the first date. met him upstairs. I awkwardly walked over and gave him a hug while I shivered and we played a lot of games together. Then we had cheeese BURGERSS. There he let me have some of his beer which I took a few sips didnt enjoy it though. LOL and He just laughed. Then he mentioned about how there’s sea glass on the beach and how he wanted to show it to me. And  I was just like uh i guess? I just have to be back at this time to get picked up. And he’s just like oh we will have time dont worry. SO I WENT IN HIS CAR (and my friend has shamed me for it lol saying how stupid i was to go in his car lol on the first date and how lucky i am to be alive and not killed and stuff) And I dont know It just didnt register in my head until I got to the beach so i did send my location to my best friend. so she knew where I was. even tho my girl is in texas and im in california LOl. so when we got to the beach we actually picked up sea glass and it just it felt like a movie. or something I read in books. It was soft and slow and I just felt safe. And we just huddled together as the wind pushed us together. And I asked to hold his hand and he just laughed exasperated and was like “OHMYGOD U DONT HAVE TO ASK just hold my hand its fine” and yeah so i got to hold his hand.  After the date we talked on the phone and it just nice.  Second date: Steven took me to the science museum playground for kids. It was so much fun we saw cute animals and interacted with the science experiments. There was a lot of sequin textures sensorys and it just was so nice. LOL he drew a lit hand sign while i tried to make an xD face, but failed. Then we were hungry so he took me to have poke (IT WAS MY FIRST TIME LOL) and it was delicious but i was kinda hungry still. After he took me to this   old bookstore and we roamed the aisle looking at different books. Then he took me to his place where we shared our first kiss. I was really shy and scared but we took things slow and sat on his bed and cuddled. He was really upset when he found out that I never cuddled before. I didn't understand why he was upset but he just told me he felt sad that I never had that intimate connection. And at first I was bored but towards the last hour I felt really cozy and it just felt nice, the way his hands wrapped around my waist. I did get aroused which kinda freaked me out because I never really felt that sensation before. LOL so it made me really anxious. LIKE CALM DOWN COLLEENY. Third date: We did some shopping at TarzHay (target) lolol and daiso together. it felt nice. Then we went back to his place to have dinner. He shared his dinner with me and it was really good and after we cuddled and kissed and watched youtube videos together. And it just was really romantic.  Fourth date: Went to a movie on a work night. we saw The saga of tanya the evil. And it was fun watching anime with him. And I was just soo shy i didnt hold his hand I just we just focused watching the movie together and enjoying each others company.  Fifth date:  went to fanime (anime convention) for the FIRST TIMEEE  last saturday ( may  25, 2019) i met up with him there! I cosplayed as kiki from kiki’s delivery service. it was fun! So he was playing ddr well competing in the tournament. for a lil 3 hours ish. After we went to get something to drink so he bought me a drink...it was sweet but somewhat bitter but i did enjoy the sugar that was decorated coated around the  rim of the glass. And  i got hyper ish LOL And steven just laughed. But i let him finish it for me because I couldnt. Then we went to go walk to get food. in line there was a guy talking to him. And the guy asked us what we were and if we been here bfore. and steven said it was his first time not being alone. and i said it was my first time. and then I just stuttered and got shy because we havent discussed what we were to each other. Like we just only talked about us liking each other a lot. And how we both enjoyed each others company. So I replied with “we dd-d-d--dateing? We on a d ate. we dating. date. uh yeh uh” and then steven wrapped his arm around my waist and pulled me in close to him and added “ yeah we are going steady.” AND OOOOOOO I BLUSHED SO HARDDDDDDDD. aaaa still blushing LOL  Anyway lol food was delcious. i had a bento curry chicken box. Then we sat down and rested our feet in the hall and he took a nap on my thigh lol. it was cute and i just scratched his forehead bc i was too scare to scratch his head LOL. and then we watched the season 3 of attack on titan together and he held my hand and my arm and it just felt nice.  I curled up against him and we just enjoyed watching 5 episodes together.  Sixth date:  today saturday june 1, 2019 is gonna be the sixth date. sooooo ILL JUST KEEP U  POSTED On what we are gonna do. loool time for bed  

making short films

so you know how you hear film makers say: ah yes, I was always making films with my friends as a kid. 

yeh that would have been me if i had friends. oOOOooo burn

but yah. I'm starting uni. i just need a decent little camera. and start making films with people there.

I have always loved cinema. like to me, its magic