hate hate hate the feeling of turning in a part of an assignment and being hella embarrased abt how it is :3 like, feeling someone’s just gonna email me like ”hey?? what the fuck ??? what are u doing here this is garbage” like yeah dude i dont know what to tell you, things did not go well this week

i realize many fandoms have had protestant reformation level schisms over far less than our recent hxh news, so perhaps i am poking a bear with this, but i am finding this entire visual novel style multiple endings situation in which the only ending released is one that makes no sense & answers no questions about the series & is regardless supposed to be considered “canon” only in the event of no other ending being formally published to be the most convoluted & incomprehensible way of concluding (but also kind of not concluding) the series. truly an ending only yoshihiro togashi could deliver

A bunch of very clumzy doodles and Yavanna from Sansukh (oops, from the continuation of Sansukh).

A couple drawings this evening of Oliver. He's just a little guy and it's his first day.

Hello new followers, by the way! Got a pretty big influx from the last drawing I posted!

Because I keep questioning my own writing a lot; especially in terms of ending a short story... sometimes, it really is easier to just treat what you write like a movie or a TV show you're watching. Especially if it's a short fic that is basically just a single scene. Like... Would there be a scene change now and it'd feel complete? If yes, then it's an appropriate ending. If no, then either you write one more paragraph or let it rest for a bit, come back to it, and see how you feel. Or you find a spot a little earlier because sometimes scenes can drag on for too long and need to be cut shorter in order to be satisfying and make sense.

Got distracted and I ended up working on my drawing But then I realized a major mistake on it when I thought I was done with the star veil (yes, again. I changed up the stars at the tips of it, this veil is kicking my ass) and I was erasing stuff already so when I realized I'm like: FUCK-- undo undo undo undo und o un do u n d o. And now I gotta... move All those new lil designs at the tip, Again, so I'm like: Okay... alright... I'll do that Later. I'll write now cuz god Forbid I do anything in that design, it's all mistakes!

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just had the experience of succesfully sounding out แว่นกันแดด in my head, recognizing those sounds ("waen kan daet") as something i'd seen in transliterated script, confidently going "zonnebril!", and then seeing it translated as sunglasses and going wait?? that was wrong?? for a whole two seconds before remembering that no, those words actually do all fit into the same mold, i was just pouring a different language into it by accident

Love to go back to my desk once I've woken up and see whatever weird thing I was working on at like 5 am. This one I think is genuinely interesting but also would look so deranged to anyone else 😭 I was writing a color coded guide to how I group drivers in my head with examples with different grids(i.e. how the demographics change) and now I want to write one for all of the 2000-now grids. Completely normal behavior what are you talking about

i feel conflicted abt my relationship...need advice etc . in tags . pls i need input sm

I think I'm glad I survived but I don't know if that's true, all I know is that if I had to relive those years a second time, I wouldn't be able to make it. At least the first time, I never knew what was coming next, I never knew how much worse it would get.

Knowing all that would happen, I don't think I could have reasoned with myself that it was worth it. All I can do is thank my past selves for giving me the opportunity to have the wonderful life I have now.

call me stupid and a fake fan but i still can't wrap my head around the score vs jade making replicas which aren't in the score which assists in the destruction of the score

there is a LOT of stuff i need to revisit (please. please please port abyss to steam port abyss port abyss port abyss-) but if there was anything specifically about this i missed it

i have guesses but they feel like. putting bandaids on things rather than actually solving the problem. maybe replicas were intentionally left out of the score because yulia knew the score would eventually be destroyed and wanted that. maybe jade didn't give a single flying fuck about the score his entire life and just did what he wanted (this checks out tbh, but everyone around him??? just letting him do it??? if it wasn't in the score???? surely it must actually be in some way. unless the score is just so vague everyone Assumes). maybe im stupid but also everyone else in the abyss world is stupid and it's all in hindsight that you see everything was actually there

the score itself is....... a doozy of a thing lol. it hurts my head to think about it

You've heard of Jars of Eyeballs, now get ready for:

Vials of Eyelashes

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Me when I want to be wanted more than anything else

I have to give it to marvel, specifically the X-Men series.

Charles and Erik do be gay and in love

It's either a testiment to how I can only catch vibes when the vibes are from fictional characters, or the vibes were that strong that 7 year old me was seeing rainbows. Either way the vibes were stong because even as a kid I was bullheaded and didn't even have the word 'gay' in my vocab, but I for sure knew they were more than friends.