my brain is melting 3 more events tonight and then I’m done but I think they all went 5 rounds I need to kill myself slash SERIOUS!

Shooting for the stars and trying to leave your mark on the world is fine, but this world will try to sell you the idea that you're just unfulfilled potential like living a modest life and just taking care of your friends and loved ones isn't a life to be proud of.

And when those ambitions fall short, and you have zero backup plan for your grandiose vision, you will learn the tough lesson that it wasn't wr ong to dream big, but that part of that crushing bitterness is a refusal to accept that something less than fame and glamour is still a life worth living even if you can't understand that yet.

In this life, we don't know how things will pan out even if we have a pretty good idea of where we're headed, it's not the worst thing in the world to just be able to pay off our expenses and fund our hobbies. That's a good a goal as any, especially with these crummy economic conditions (rising interest rates, looming recession & stagnating wages).

You're not unfulfilled potential if you don't want to literally be known by every human on earth. If I can affect only one person in the world and that person is me, I still lived a life worth living, even if nobody ever knows it.

an entirely too long essay on the irony of people idolizing patrick bateman

//american psycho, mentions of white teenage boys, murder, misogyny, racism, homophobia, toxic masculinity, mention of nazis, the term “sigma male”

these boys who don’t even own a driver’s license are missing the entire point of their favorite movie. they have seen this film repeatedly and still do not understand the point that is directly in front of them. this is one of the most hilarious societal phenomenons i have ever witnessed.

christian bale, the actor, is idolized for this role by these teenagers, despite him expressing sheer disdain for patrick himself. he has also played a role in velvet goldmine, and a quick google search can easily tell you why this movie was brought up.

the entire film, especially patrick himself, is satire and made entirely to poke fun of what people would consider “sigma males”. he reeks of masculinity, he’s rich, he gets major bitches. he also is a serial killer and certified joke.

the author of the book hand-wrote him letter by letter as a well-crafted joke, the entire movie was scripted, casted, directed, edited, created to keep that joke going; to make fun of the exact type of man those little white boys aspire to be.

this is because the man they aspire to be is a fucking piece of shit. he’s a known racist, a misogynist, a sexual predator, and so homophobic that the creators made fun of him for it. also, he has fucking murdered people, in case you couldn’t tell. these little boys look up to this sack of putrid vomit because it’s them (racist, among other things) but this time he’s rich and has an inhuman amount of sex scenes.

these scrawny young boys do not recognize or even have a clue of what masculinity is. they see patrick, the epitome of what they are told masculinity is, and due to the societal pressure of being a “real man”, they seek to become him to avoid this trouble. even though he is a joke.

they then resort to being the most vile cunts known to man (literal nazis) in order to appear tough, then it gets internalized. this has them look up to patrick even more, because fuck women and fuck gay people, right?

the director of the movie is a woman, and the writer of the book is gay.

it doesn’t even take a google search to know that it’s directed by a woman. the credits are right there.

given this information, why would they put so much effort into patrick bateman and his silly adventures?

because he’s a fucking joke and nothing more.

he’s not to be taken seriously. i can envision Bret Easton Ellis and Mary Harron in fur coats, clinking a glass together and laughing as they watch those “sigma male patrick bateman” tiktoks on a curved tv screen.

even if a swarm of white boys who can’t even lift a chair idolizing patrick wasn’t at all the intended results, my god is it hilarious to watch. it proves their entire point on how toxic masculinity effects young boys and how it spreads like moldy butter. of course, we can’t all just sit back and giggle (we have to actually do something about it, isn’t that crazy?) but good lord, that’s the funniest shit i’ve ever seen.

tl:dr if you idolize patrick bateman i will actually laugh at you

Guy who does consistently does all of eir assignments but does half of them the morning of

i haven’t been normal in seven years.

what pisses me off the most about the grindset no pain no gain type of content creator is that these boys don't even fucking work hard. all these videos are just conventionally attractive men showering, going to the gym for four hours and editing videos in a spacious apartment. that's not a grindset that's daycare for nepo babies. how is it that these men are convinced that hard work equals success when they don't even work hard it's ridiculous. no pain no gain? girl please. talk to a construction worker. humble yourself

I wish that the people men listen to when they're feeling desperate and unwanted actually thought that they were worth anything.

You hear manosphere types talk about how the value of women is inherent and the value of men is something that has to be earned, and...in a weird way, it breaks my heart. Because I know that somewhere in the world there is some lonely desperate man who really just needs someone to give a shit about him, and he's finding shit like Jordan Peterson clips and Andrew Tate misogynist 101 advice. And, like...they're desperate. So they believe them. And they're just going to make them more bitter and lonely and sad and it's not going to end in some "billionaire sigma male grindset" it's going to end in a false resolve to achieve it, and then an overwhelming rush of despair and depression that, in all likelihood, they'll drown out by playing some video games, masturbating, and going to bed.

They're not going to feel a sense of purpose, they're just going to feel justified about how isolated and depressed they feel, and that's simply because listening to some old man who doesn't like women that much tell you that women have it all and you have nothing and that you have to work for the right to be considered "valuable" is just not the solution to their problems. The solution is social integration, and that is hard to achieve in this shitty capitalist society where everyone is at each others' throats.

But that message doesn't get through to men. They never see it. They only see Jordan Peterson and Andrew Tate, telling them that they need to muster up some inherent urge to work and become valuable that these boys don't really feel so much as hope that they'll start feeling.

And y'know...I just wish someone could get to them before the manosphere did, and tell them that they are valuable inherently, and that they don't have to work or fuck or lead to contribute to society. That we as human beings contribute to our society by thinking, by talking, by doing things that humans do passively in their existence. That men and women alike contribute by being alive. And that you don't have to earn the right to do so.

I got a few people saying they wouldn't mind seeing a run down of my unfinished work and sketches! So this is gunna be just a big ol post of that and just explaining what the doodles would have ended up being!

First off is just some sketches of Alastor, Husk, a really uncanny Blitzo, and an unfinished voxhusk sketch

Left Husk was reffed off a pose that i've since lost, and right was going to be a little comic of Husk bugging Vox and then Vox bugging Husk in return. :( I don't remember what dialogue I was going to use.

Next is just some unfinished couple sketches! Some Chaggie and Angel/Sir Pentious that I might still use at some point. TuT I think Angel and Pentious could make such a hilarious couple and it kills me that I can't find almost anything for it

and this husk was just going to be a redraw of this

but with Al, Vox, Angel, and Lucifer petting him

next is one I did already post but this one here; left was going to be a short comic where Lilith comes back and is enamored with Husk while also vaguely threatening to Alastor as she is. Right is the only doodle I have so far for a comic about Husk and Charlie getting caught hiding out from the rain, and Husk trying to talk to her about her making a deal with Alastor. Ugh. I need to even just thumbnail out that comic. Its been in my mental queue for literal months!

Next up is a bunch of sketches of my own Hazbin OC, Shiv! I've never posted anything about him alone before, but he's featured in a lot of the backgrounds of my pieces! He was a carnie in voxhusk fake dating, and then a waiter in the diner piece, and ticket booth attendant in the movie theater one!

I always love putting him in just whatever job the art calls for because he is a '1980's cocaine and bourbon grindset hustlepilled business fuck'. I don't know if I will ever expand his story in artwork, but if I did I would draw something about him trying to get a Soul-Based Multilevel marketing scheme going. Shiv is short for 'Shiver' because he froze to death after drunk wandering naked into the woods while on a skiing trip. He's in hell because he made his money doing shitty business practices like scamming old people out of their money with phone scams. If he saw Mad Men he'd think it would be about him, but he'd fit better in Its Always Sunny

Lastly, I have some sketches from a comic I am literally fighting myself not to make, where Husk ends up kidnapped by a ring of criminals that smuggle sinners to other Rings of Hell. Husk would be captured to be an exotic pet for a Ostrich theme'd Goetia, but would quickly escape. The main plot would be him running into and then helping out Blitzo in return for help getting back to the Pride ring!

I would have also got to include my other OC, the little Egg lamb, Sunnysides!

Literally would have just been a huge excuse for me to draw Husk going through Situations and hanging out with the Helluva Boss cast and my OCs.

im so tired of having to defend myself on both sides

like. ok. i'm queer right. bi, demigender, aro, etc. also you know a girl, demi or not. all the time i have to defend myself from american christians who via mistranslations and misinterpretations spread by horrible leaders for generations have been led into a cult-like hierarchy that tells them to hate me when hate for us isn't in their book or supposed to be in their ways.

i'm also "christian". i hesitate to use the full term because of how bad american christianity has gotten. but i believe in the same god nontheless. every day i feel i have to defend myself from queer people as well

like. i so get it. as i have just established american and european christianity has gotten so fucked up and literally off-script that i'm shocked we haven't gotten another 95 thesis and a completely new branch. it's awful horrible and people who believe in such ideas should not be in power. to the point where calling myself a christian feels wrong. at least in america.

i need ya'll to have some nuance.

firstly the understanding that those who hate queer people, non-white people in any form, women, whatever else. isn't even in the text they follow. people have misused it since it was written. preaching just the verse saying wives should care for their husbands and not the one right after saying husbands should love their wives. taking out verses referring to god's "womb." about adam might not even being a man, as in, more likely nonbinary, the verse about david getting an errection when hugging johnathan. changing verses about cleanliness into women and men not wearing the same cloths. changing verses about cultural codes and allowing a world where people have to resort to prositution into verses condemning homosexuality. [X]

like. you know the matrix. was written as a trans metaphor. then a bunch of alpha sigma grindset rich white boys took it and appropriated it, misinterpreted it, used it to boost themselves and hurt women. it's like that. those people don't make the matrix a bad movie, they just don't know it's a trans metaphor. and trans people who enjoy the matrix are like. normal and cool.

as you can see i am passionate about this. i have all this stuff memorized not only to defend my queerness but my christianity as im doing now.

there are queer christians. there are certainly poc christians as right now, south america and south africa have the highest christian populations, to the point where they're sending missionaries to america.

again i'm asking for some nuance. when i see posts basically saying "the christian god is dumb" or "satan was right actually" and blantent misinformation about what the bible says. like those kind of posts hurt my heart. my god made me queer and loves me for it, i believe in a kind god, most good christians do. i feel like other religions don't get this treatment and it's just to spiritually piss off your catholic parents.

speaking of, in doing so you seem to forget about other abrahamic religions.

i once saw a post criticizing something directly from the old testament, out of context of course. saying god was cruel and the belives were flawed and all this due to one verse. people tend to forget, or not know, that the "old testament" is the tenoch. slightly different book order, same writings.

christians, muslims, jewish people, worship the same god. different names for god, some god, same base. if you make jokes about christianty willy-nilly, you're going to accidentally hit someone else. and even if you don't, you may hurt someone still.

it doesn't hurt because i think it's "sacrilegious" or i think you're going to hell. it hurts because my community doesn't care. my community doesn't see the nuance in people and decided a specific religion is the enemy. a specific group of people is the enemy. ive been marked as the enemy

it's casual jokes to you, to me it's making fun of my god

listen, by all means make fun of the assholes. i make fun of them every day. millionaires who use privet jets than preach and love to overlook the many verses condemning the rich and saying rich people don't go to heaven. people saying that as a woman of god you shouldn't enjoy sex. weirdos online and irl that seem to think patorizing random people will get them to church. dumb white people. it's great. fuckn. mormons and jehovah's witness leaders who are straight up running a cult based on a thread of the original intention. and it's funny because they're the assholes.

but don't attack the base religion itself. understand that the religion isn't inherently harmful, certain branches, beliefs, misinterpretations, and leaders certainly are. but please be kind to the people who are normal

before you make a post saying you're gonna. i dont know 'kill the uncaring god' that you're hurting people like me, any abrahamic religion, anyone who believes in a god possibly. also that's basically my parent, it's like you're insulting my awesome mom to my face bc my older sibling sucks. like thats just mean to her for no reason.

i'm just. tired. im stuck in the middle and i hate that i have to make this post because like. this is my home and my people and im tired of seeing this shit from my peers and family. just. have nuance. care about people. don't just say shit about a religion if you don't know its true.

im tired.

I was very disappointed in the lack of quality Mine playlists so I made my own 🤞

Listen here

you COULD listen to it in your own free time OR you could listen to it alongside my mentally insane directors commentary 😌

(under the cut)

for the sake of this post not getting too long I am grouping all the important songs into different categories pertaining to the different eras of mine tm

Pre-Daigo Misery (Nobody - The Other Woman)

This section is mostly abt Mine being a lonely little weirdo (characterised mostly by the smiths unsurprisingly) and because this era lacks a lot of actual content my notes are less specific between songs

There are actually so many male manipulator songs that fit too perfectly with Mine in this part of his life that I couldn't resist like I'm sorry but creep by radiohead is LITERALLY about him i don't make the rules

Okay but I do find 'Heaven Knowns Im Miserable Now' so funny in this context because I'm sure Mine was forcing himself into the yakuza expecting it to be so much easier to have close connections with these other men compared to his previous 9-5, only to find its almost exactly like his 9-5 just with more crime

'Salvatore' and 'Therefore I Am' are specifically the songs I attach to his bateman-esque grindset and his bubbling hatred for most of the people he works with dsfgf

okay but THE OTHER WOMAN ASWELL. It's literally mine you wouldn't understand. He dedicates so much time to taking care of himself and setting himself up to be an actual catch of a man and yet,, no one gives a shit about him despite all the effort he puts into his lifestyle to appeal to the ppl around him

LIKE??? Kicking and screaming he's so lana del ray coded

Just the sheer depression of this era i feel so bad for him

Yandere-mode activated (Can't Get You Out of My Head - The Killing Moon)

Self explanatory however actually finding songs that pertain to his specific brand of obsession was surprisingly difficult sfdsf

Although I will say that I cope and seethe at the fact that I had to sift through Killing Stalking playlists to settle on most of these songs gfdgsf

Theres such a delicate balance between the right amount of fluff and insanity that very few songs capture without being about literal stalking

like no in this case the stalker fucking won

that and vibes of idolizing Daigo like a god, I think 'Out of Touch' and 'Stolen Dance' do this the best

And freak because I can only imagine in all of Mine's relationships it's always been purely transactional and no ones ever put in the effort to actually talk and get to know Mine in any intimate form.

my poor touch starved blorbo

FEELINGS TM (Romantic Homicide - How to Dissapear)

THIS SECTION I FEEL GREATLY ABOUT

These songs to me are all about how Mine copes with Daigo's hospitalisation and when he wakes up. His whole internal battle surrounding his premature grief and his loss of connection with Daigo because could no longer see him as a truly living thing anymore

'Change' specifically hits when you think about it in this context. Because it's not so much about any real change in Daigo himself it's all about Mine's mental image of him now (because let's be real, Mine was way more in love with the idealised version he had of Daigo more than anything tangible about him)

IFHY is a little more of any iffy choice but I think it still convey's a lot about how conflicted Mine likely felt as well as just continuing his Yandere behaviour just in a much more sinister flavour

Okay but here's where my favourite song of the entire list is

WHITE FLAG BABY

admittedly it's completely self indulgent and ties into the mine-lives theory. But just the guilt and shame Mine felt when he see's that Daigo was indeed alive and that he was going to have to explain the past few weeks to him

yeah i would've thrown myself off that roof as well

also the lyric "I will go down with this ship" paralleling his "everyone abandons ship eventually" line just tickles my brain in the best way

'Door' and 'I Guess' are also just Mine guilt tm as well

'I guess' even more specifically because he's literally attached himself to daigo like a parasite and now he's thinking daigo's gonna break up with him I just AUGH

He KNOWS he's completely fucked up but I don't think he realises how much of a pushover Daigo is just yet and that he would have forgiven him eventually gjfdg

I'll probably update this with more notes as I remember them but for now I hope y'all enjoy the playlist!

I knew you’d like Mukuro. And everyone else tbh.

Though, thoughts on Takeshi? I find he’s a really polarizing character, similar with Ryhoei.

Takeshi (and other characters but he’s the most obvious example) makes me wonder how much of the obliviousness is legit and how much he is pretending that it is so he can be underestimated. Like it’s incredibly easy to clock Gokudera as a thread because of his whole him-ness but Takeshi is the surprise because he’s so seemingly “head empty”.

Ryhoei I would probably like less if it wasn’t clear how much he cares about his sister. If it wasn’t clear he did care about being a good brother his high school athlete grindset personality would be so much ore annoying.

Lambo is annoying and he should be. Wish there was someone other than children raising this child tbh. They very much leaned I toy he whole “he’s five” thing and he is honestly a pretty good depiction of a child of you ignore the whole time travel bazooka thing.

Haru deserves so much more than being the “token obsessed girl”. Like she was fully willing to beat the shit out of Tsuna on their like second meeting and where is that energy going forward? Give the girl a bat and a target and let her go full feral.

Kyoko is unfortunately just kind of… there. Like it’s fine it have a cute oblivious character but she is really just a cardboard standee of a person who deserves more.

I-Pin is probably the best written female character I’ve seen so far and that’s kid of sad? Like don’t get me wrong I love her and her whole child assassin who gets it wrong because she’s five vibe and her crush on Hibari is cute and actually goes miles to make him more of a palatable character (to people that don’t immediately adopt the first hyper violent Garchomp ass character they see) in just a few small moments but she’s still not written great? And the other girls are written far below her. Also someone needs to parent her too where are all these kids parents?

Reborn was unsurprisingly an immediate love for me. I lvoe me a fucked up little guy of a teacher and his commitment to every bit no matter how ridiculous is amazing. And tbh whil e other teacher character is would dislike for his methods his… make sense? Like man is in the mafia his methods are going to be a bit fucked up.

But outside of the core gang? Dino. I fucking love Dino. I love his badass air immediately crumbling when his men are gone and I love that his men care about him just as much as he cares about them.

Best characters by far however are Enzio and Leon. 12/10 no notes.

gearsberg is soooooo fucking funny to me given that i fully draw iceberg as like. incelberg talks to pickup artist friends, calls himself a sigma male and will be fucking obnoxious to coworkers. like please realize he doesnt get invited to parties and people actively avoid him its a fucking miracle gears hasnt snapped yet. these men do NOT have anything in common! and gears is just like. trying his best out here given that his assistant actively scares people away like a stupid guard dog. they go in public together and hes the worst! iceberg will ask him what he needs to continue his alpha grindset! i know it! i know it!!!!!!!!! gears doesn't willingly listen to him talk about pickup artist tips he just zones out and lets him talk for several hours and comprehends NONE of it!

obsessed with this smut manhwa i've found today. its name is "The Men in My Bed". there is this girl & her 3 weed smorking fuckbuddies. one of them is an insta model, other one is the son of the senior executive of the company she works at, and one of them is a 50 shades of grey coded CEO. she just fucks them with NO strings attached on her part. she just hits it & goes on with her life. one day she coincidentally meets her first love again & all of her side dicks start to act up. she is living the literal sigma female grindset

My friend @armoreddragon is in the habit of grabbing random books of wizard stuff at used bookstores and leaving them in my mailbox. This cover looks pretty goofy in a charming way, let's check it out and see what kind of kooky fun New Age occultism is inside!

HELLO??

If straight men never have sex they get on that sigma male grindset, if women and "certain types of homosexual" never have sex they fucking shrivel up and die, I guess.

You ever read something where the author believes they’ve had some sort of profound revelation, but clearly they just have hella un-examined kinks? Like 30% of this book is about how the Lady of the Lake is a milf oh my god

(Long ask incoming oops)

Okay so ORIGINALLY I was just gonna casually write down a list of song recs for you because I realize sending them in one at a time gets too cluttered so it’d be better to just send them all at once after CASUALLY adding to the list over the course of like,,, a week or so,,,

Anyways I decided to do that 2 hours ago and the list was already so long that I’m deciding to send it now instead of letting it accumulate to like 50 songs GDGDFDF so YEAH ANYWAYS:

Walk by Foo Fighters

- Masato/aoki GET IT BECAUSE WALKING- but no fr like this makes me think of that final scene between him and ichi and the vibes that could’ve been if he didn’t die and actually tried not being a piece of shit <3

Uptown Funk by Bruno Mars

- ew a radio hit gross, but I have such a strong vision of an edit or amv with Kiryu and Ichi jamming to this song (definitely not purely because of the ‘make a dragon wanna retire’ like nope definitely not because of that)

Please, Please, Please Let me get what I want by The Dream Academy

- honestly this could literally be the rgg anthem LETS BE SO REAL but I attach it to Kiryu especially </3

Let Me Be Sad by I Prevail

- you already know daigo had this on repeat on his iPod shuffle especially during y4 I mean come on ‘I put up walls so if I burn any bridges just know I’m doing everything I can to try and fix it’?? HES JUST DOING HIS BEST WHILE LITERALLY IN MOURNING KIRYU PLEASE (+ I saw this band live the other day and couldn’t help but imagine Daigo screaming along like the little emo he is lm a o)

Let Down by Radiohead

- okay I was SO CERTAIN I already saw this recommended to you but I can’t find the ask so I’ll just pretend I’m super smart and original 🤞 anyways Y2 daigo OBVS (can you tell I… think about him a lot…)

Brutus by The Buttress

- //shamefully sliding it in// it’s nishiki’s song and I know you couldn’t give less of a shit but it’s quite literally so on the nose that I have to include it just for my own sanity

Nun I’d Change by Reverb King

- I’m sorry but this is 100% the song I think of when I think of mine on that sigma grindset (plus haha the chorus is literally just ‘fly’ repeated a million times)

(,,,Okay there are way too many Minedai songs I have that either require very little explanation or are just purely based on vibes so here’s them all in their own neat little section)

- Little Talks by Of Monsters and Men (YUCK another radio hit this is so sad)

- Show Me How by Men I Trust

- Door by IDKHBTFM

- White Flag by Dido

- Agora Hills by Doja Cat (LISTEN- I have very strong thoughts abt Minedai office PDA and I think this encapsulates that about as well as a generic pop song could </3 plus she mentions tattoos so yeah it’s canon)

- Under You by Foo Fighters (Daigo thinking about Mine </3 also the lyrics ‘there are days I can’t remember, there are days that last forever’ make me think about how from his pov one moment he’s in his office being shot and then the next he’s watching his boyfriend jump of a ruff whoops…. I’m sure that moment plays in his head all too often…)

- A thousand years by Christina Perri (OKAY THIS ONE IS A BIT OF A MEME but can you imagine a fucking 2010 Minedai edit to this like JSGDGDGDGDGG)

- Vanilla Twilight by Owl City (listen I had an owl city phase don’t even look at me)

I try to pick songs that don’t expose me for the chronically online iPad-kid that I am but </3 I know a few ‘tiktok songs’ made it in there sowwy 😔

SONG LIST PALOOZA OH MY STARS god bless....... thank you so much champ....

gonna complain again even tho i already spent time on it yesterday immediately after having to hang out with this person (oh my god i ranted for so long this is going under a keep reading)

so i hung out with my fun cool stoner friend and our one roommate from when we were in la last night and i mostly put up w her for the sake of my other friends but she’s sooooo annoying in that she’s someone that’s impossible to hang out with as a dyke im sory but there are the other issues too. like ok for instance her idea of being bisexual!! and having her gay AND straight media taste!!! (first of all huh) is like heartstopper and the summer i turned pretty. girl in neither of those situations are there women and especially lesbians at the forefront i mean yes ik heartstopper but like thats for two seconds. and im annoying and brought up my lesbian media to resounding silence shockingly whatever. and then. this part burned me and insulted me to my core. bc you know how kit connors kind of like a baby butch to me and im so serious sorry like he contains multitudes. and i kinda made a little comment abt that affectionately and she shows me this prettyboy from like whatever fucking show and tried to be like ‘abby just imagine him as a butch’ and i flat out was like im sorry he is Not giving. like that is just an annoying toxic skater niceguy blonde. whatever. like do not ever ever ever disrespect butches like that in front of me ever again. and then shes also just sooooo hyper consumerist and like. she brought up the low committment long distance etc joke from barbie and didnt even know it was from barbie and was like haha need me one of those i guess. i was like girl why would you want someone that disrespects u and ur time and uses u like purposefully. that was meant to poke at how toxic men get away with being to girls in modern dating. want better for yourself!!!!! and then i was sooo fucking stoned from a bong rip having the time of my life doing a little bit with the other friend and our buddy on facetime and she just kept going on about this person shes going on a date with except the other friend was like oh! they use they/them pronouns. and she was like right sorry i keep screwing that up!!!!! and then continued to use he/him. so im mostly non verbal cause shes like exhausting just going on and on and im high but i keep trying to be like. yeah they seem cool. hope it goes well with them. like. i felt like i was being microaggressed not necessarily in that instance just as a lesbian. shes bi but very much not past her internalized misogyny and homophobia. clearly. it’s exhausting!!!! im sorry i cant talk about men for that long and then i try to be excited about my attraction too and u get all funky............. like. ok. or making weird comments alluding to me just being wildly sexual abt women. like. yeah ok sure. for sure thats normal. like. this is also the girl whos a marketing major and uses ai all the time and pisses me off with her hella hyper consumerism grindset mentality bc it’s like she always wants us to comment on how productive she is and if i try to nicely be like You should give yourself a break sometimes too! she’ll be like Yeah haha guess im being a bit self destructive. girl it’s not sillyquirky like!!!! we all have our struggles but you gotta work on getting better abt it... and she also just gives ‘haha what drugs were they on thats so crazy’ about like everything i say or like or whatever and its like babe its really not even that crazy like. u are just so boring and you speak solely through references to memes. but you wont even just bring it up and joke about it in the present moment with your friends like. she spent a while finding a screenshot of a tumblr post that i was like haha yeah i saw that! it’s totally - u know whatever. and was not satisfied until she could prove she like saw it idk u get what i mean like. i understand i literally reblogged the post. its a silly little joke yes i relate. say something true and beautiful. idk. thanks if u read this ig i couldnt tell if my one friend was prompting me today to see if i was annoyed last night bc i thought she might also be too (bc it got so awkward silent with her going on and on abt the date and that fucking show and we were all like yeah. mhm. no for sure yeah. like how do u not get self aware idk) but we’ve all spoken abt this girl like shes some saint and ive just kinda been like haha sure... but i dont want her near my work and art and etc cause shes so shallow and has social media brain disease. she freaked out about twitter being weird now and how she prefers threads perhaps. like u have threads??? ok... it was so hard for me to be nice guys