alexa show me the most effective ways to kill my jealousy and then myself please

matty please give me a chance please please please

[230123] PLAY! “as soon as the clock struck midnight from december 31st to january 1st, the staff came up to me and bowed and gave a new year’s greeting. so i took out my wallet right away and gave money to the staff. if by chance you happen to come across me and make a new year’s bow, i will give you money also!”

i kinda wish i could un-know everything i know about pop culture and go back to listening to songs and going "oh! that's neat!" or "hmm not my fave" and having no idea at all about the person singing

I grew up on educational library DVDs, so I just wanna say thank you to Trevor Romain, Bill Nye, everybody on Blues Clues (especially Steve Burns), and everybody on Popular Mechanics for Kids, among others for being there for me. While I know you never knew me, I knew you. When I felt alone, scared, tired, sick, I knew I could pop in a DVD into the player and watch reruns of you and I felt better. I felt safer, I felt like I was with somebody who cared. You didn’t just teach me how to do my homework, or about the cardiovascular system, or how to plan a birthday party, or where silk comes from, you made me happy when everything else felt scary.

I don’t watch DVDs anymore, but I miss you. I love you.

Trey the Explainer cameo at minute 3:46:00 of Quinton Review's (dad's) video on The Beverly Hillbillies

rewatching my recording of tzuyu's done for me stage and i hear the most horrendous sound coming from my mouth that video is never seeing the light of day

i hate being easily addicted to things

y’all are gonna hate me saying this but…

been a long time since i sent an ask!! how are you doing, any interesting things happen lately?

-🌻

HAI IM GOOD ! semester is coming to an end and i have finals coming up and im a little worried about that tbh i can feel the stress setting in lmao but yeah im good i've just been chilling :)

i keep getting recommended OPLA cast videos on youtube (bc i keep watching the behind the scenes videos) and it’s so funny to me to look at the comments section of any video where Taz is speaking spanish bc there’s a bunch of comments in english like “omg he knows spanish??”. bestie the man is spanish.

man y’all the loving hyunjin hours are so intense rn i feel like i have s omuch to say but i don’t even know where to BEGIN i just feel like i’m gonna explode or something </3

Never show me videos of real/famous people i don't know and expect me to act excited or like it's funny

happy birthday to the actor that turned my bubbly socially inept idiot into a theatre kid dork: shotaro mamiyasan !!!!

[parasocial bestie] GOOD MORNIGNG BESTIEE I HOPE U HAD A NICE REST AND SLEEBP if not i kick the exhaustion away beats it to the ground in a pulp yuou will nawt. tire my bestie ever again ANYWAY i hope youll have a nice day too 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺 i was writing sumn but the thought was like a week old amd im just clenching my fist shaking unable to get back to that lil cathartic moment so i can Have That Feel i was jusgt THINKGING just cryign for xiao and zl right now yes that was the thoght i coulda flood u the them then i flood u the lumine i wusz thinking again about her and functional pants. god the makeover idea is such a game changer to me like YKNOWWWWW <- writhing screaming on the floor cannot sort out their thoughts well rm but still wanna greet the bestie euutjahehfikshfhehfh

ABOUT UR BIG FIC PROGRESS ITS OK ASF youre still going great YOU REACHED THE 45K MILESTONE and stretching it more which is shtill ok!!! with me and work things do trail outta ur mind a lot on things u Want to think about yknow cus priorities :((( like i wanna stay there and just dream abt my blorbos and have the same scene looping in my head on repeat 738374 times a day..... thinking like 30 mins straight of the same idea and going ehe what does bestie think abt this its so messy i shud get it well constructed so i can write more walls of text for them HEHE and i MISS THATTTT MY BRAIN IS SO NON FUNCTIONAL RN THE ASK I WANNA WRITE TO U IS SITTIN THERE UNFINISHED. LIKE I WANNA LAY A WHOLE TUB OF WATER OF FAMILIAL XIAO ZHOGNLI TO U SO BAD RN and a side of pants lmi agenda flushed emoji flushed emoji like yknow............

U CAUGHT ME AS IM WORKING ON THE FIC >:))))))) i was soooooo skull emoji last night and now i am awake and SO DETERMINED !!!!!!! to at least get these last couple of scenes figured out im so srs i am GOING to have every scene at least partially written by the end of the day today i can feel it. 8 hour shift is nothing but a tiny interruption it is like childs play to me just another obstacle in the way of my beautiful beautiful xiaolumi.

I DID SLEEP WELL THANK UUUUUUUUUUUUUUU and i am also still tired so i very much appreciate the exhaustion being beaten to death ily so bad that made me giggle sm I HOPE UR DAY TODAY WAS WONDERFUL AND I HOPE UR ABLE TO GET SOME GOOD SLEEP SOON <3333333333333333333

100% understand the feeling of having like that Moment that Specific Feeling And Emotion while writing smth and sometimes pausing or needing to come back to it and then the emotion isnt rly as there and its so hard to capture again i LOVE when inspiration strikes at those moments but i hate having to finish it later :sob:

U CAN ALWAYS FLOOD ME W/ ANYTHING AT ALL EVER eyes and ears so wide open all the time always and YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS THE MAKEOVER the fact that there's just ENDLESS potential for her style and what she would or wouldnt like and then fighty stuff vs comfort stuff vs casual stuff smnfmfngmnfbmnb dies. dies. lumi <33333333333

I ABSO9LUTELY GETR THAT TOO us when our brains are so good at being nonfunctional its okay it will return in due time and then.... then i will get the whole tub of water then i will get the side of pants lumi agenda and it will be so wonderful and glorious i have no doubt whatsoever