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insulationsun · 9 months

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What if Anne, Steven, and Kris met?

that would be absolutely nuts i should draw that.

in all seriousness theyre such a strange combo, i think anne and steven would become pretty fast friends. at least, depending on what age they meet. im gona set kris aside for now since theres no timeskip for them currently.

but like, 13 year old anne is a very different person- she's kind of flippant? doesnt take things very seriously, and hates responsibility. but she's also very social, and quickly connects with people even if she doesnt realize it. i do think they would get along, at least superficially. (her and 13 year old steven)

but steven is sort of the opposite- at least in that he feels he is responsible for a lot of things he really shouldn't be. in the beginning of the show he's sorta like anne in not taking things seriously- but he leans into that responbility a bit too much; meanwhile, anne sort of lets it fall to the wayside until she can't ignore it anymore. he's also a lot more open about his feelings, which 13 year old anne pushes down to a fault. i think that friendship would be good for the both of them, as steven would probably be very obviously hurt by something she's done, and also be very emotionally vulnerable in a way that surprises her. probably makes her want to be able to do the same thing.

i also think he'd help her like, learn how to be a good friend? steven has really good ideas about companionship in the beginning of su, sworn to the sword is a good episode to point to. there's emphasis in being a team, and doing things together. making each other happy. think there's value in that. and in turn, i think anne could help steven sort of understand being human more? since she attends school, and talks to a lot of people. anne knows a thing or two about interacting with others which would be a great help.

kris wouldnt really fit into this dynamic as well, considering theyre like in high school? (i know some people hc kris as being 14- i am not one of them, they seem a bit more mature than that but thats just me!) but being a sort of weird sibling to them both would be fun. i really don't think kris knows how to take care of other people, especially ones younger than them. they're sort of like an awkward silent buffer inbetween them, occasionally breaking up spats or silly arguments? anne would probably be annoyed or amused at how weird they are, while steven would kind of think they're cool and stoic? that's all i got on that though.

ok here is where we get crazy. under the cut because i've talked too long. warning for tangents.

ok so. timeskip versions. sort of. im not doing adult anne here, but i'm being a bit speculative of her high school years. this would probably put kris as the youngest, depending on how you headcanon them. (personally i hc them as 16, so same age as steven- so i'll just be using that age.)

so kris is not very good with people. good thing steven isn't either! or even anne a bit! (though, i think anne is the best at social interaction out of these three.) but each of them have gone through some sort of experience that sort of shaped them? in this way, it is difficult to sort of jump back into normalcy when you've traumatized or affected in such a big way. and though deltarune isn't finished, there are circumstances which are going to change or shape kris in new ways.

i think there would be hesitance in their interactions, nervousness which doesn't fully make sense to them. though it is something kris has sorta dealt with even before the events of deltarune, so i think they're more than used to having one-sided, awkward interactions with others. i actually think the other two would sort of follow their lead here- despite them being selectively mute. kris would initiate topics of conversation simply by being curious, or off-putting. (for example, maybe they stare a little too long, prompting someone like steven if they are okay.)

just little things like that. it would be painfully awkward.

especially as i think anne and steven are both characters that don't particularly like dealing with silence, or stilted conversation. and they would latch onto anything to talk about, no matter how trivial. so it's sort of like that! and kris can be content with sitting by and letting the conversation play out.

but i also think kris is sometimes not content with that- i think their dark world form is sort of a manifestation of kris wants for themself. i think they enjoy playing the hero, being out of the shadows for once. having the spotlight on them. it's something steven doesn't particularly enjoy, especially for how traumatizing his experience was to become savior of the galaxy. it's a title he finds uncomfortable. not that he would take back anything he's done-- it's all good things. but- the attention, and especially the treatment he gets (being put on a pedestal) is not very fun.

i want to touch on this briefly since we're here as well. i do think the biggest contribution to steven's issues is that it's rare that he faces true consequences for his actions. i think because of this title, as well as some of his powers makes it so that he can undo most of his bad actions. this is especially apparent when he shatters jasper. she harbors no ill will towards him- she submits to him, even.

and because everyone he's wronged has also, arguably done things just as bad as him, it's not something held against him. at least on a larger scale (of course characters like aquamarine and eyeball are exceptions). but his loved ones just want what's best for him, which makes sense. he's not doing okay in future, and there isn't much time for everyone to worry about his bad actions at that very moment.

though i do think after the events of i am my monster, they have a discussion about it. it sucks that it was cut short because the ramifications of steven shattering someone when pink diamond didn't even do that is crazy. he's probably done the worst damage out of the three here and i'm sure it does his ptsd no favors.

this is really long winded but the point im trying to make is that i think steven wants a bit of a break from taking the reigns- on anything. i think he's at a point where he doesn't really trust himself with others very much yet, let alone in emotions. and especially for other humans. so i think if he's able to get over the sort of awkwardness present here he would be able to enjoy just sitting in silence with kris.

as for anne- i do think she's well adjusted. i think she has a newfound confidence in herself that wasn't there before amphibia, and overall she sees her experience in amphibia quite differently than steven's journey or kris's current predicament. that said- i do think she would be going through a bit of a post-amphibia depression. losing her frog found family still occasionally feels like a punch to the gut, and being 16 i think it would come up rather often. maybe she would be in moods that make her very mopey and demotivated. she would bounce back, but its still somewhat of a fresh wound. but i think she turns some of her sadness into motivation sometimes. she would be motivated to study amphibians, to learn more about the species she holds so dear.

this kinda neatly matches with my previous ramble, in that anne actually understands what college is. which intrigues /both/ steven and kris. i'm sure they would love to learn all about that, especially since asriel and connie are doing basically the same thing. thought that was fun. she talks about college apps, asks them both about frogs. of course, steven and kris both love amphibians, reptiles, etc. they're very into that. steven still cares a lot about wildlife and kris enjoys animals that are not looked upon favorably. there's a kinship in it.

eventually when everyone is comfortable with each other anne sort of seems the best fit to lead all of their conversations. it's not all one-sided, but steven enjoys not having to speak sometimes, and it's not something kris really does. but anne and steven sorta learn to read their body language and other actions they perform to express their thoughts. kris is also expressive with their facial expressions. i think they would both respect kris enough to allow them ample room to express themself, without putting words or feelings into their mouth. (which i assume many monsters in hometown do.)

out of the trio, i don't think many would be forthcoming with their circumstances or experiences. they all seem to be characters sort of moving past those huge events in their life, bar kris since at this moment in time they're still dealing with their issues regarding the soul. which i'm sure would be insane to anne and steven, as they sorta gotta jump back into roles they thought were long gone by now.

i wonder if kris's possession would be sort of a relapse for steven? as in, he slots back into this helper role, assuming way too much responsibility for something that isn't even his fault? or perhaps he would be more mellow about it, there to support kris and do his best to help, without trying to do so much on his own.

and anne would be able to offer support in her own ways as well, a little rusty from her last adventure but she knows how to wield a sword. i don't think she would want kris to get hurt. it would haunt her.

imagine the three of them going to a dark world together ahsfksdfks. they would look awesome.

and since i like to believe the dark world reflects what you want to be/appear as, thinking about how they would look is really fun...

steven sort of being in that healer passive role would be neat. would give him a much needed break. and anne as a sort of tank, taking a loot of hits before she goes down. she has a lot of confidence in her own abilities now. and of course kris; still the leader, the knight directing everyone. something like that. that was on the fly.

the experience would be invigorating to anne, but probably super stressful for steven? until they get more comfortable that is.

and- i don't want to discount trauma anne has from amphibia. because she definitely does, and there's a lot of little things that would set her off the same way it would steven. i just think she has a bit of a better view of her time in amphibia than steven does with his whole thing. her last memories are bittersweet, while steven's last memory is like....i am my monster. ashdfksdg. i think his own actions haunt him more than hers. though i'm sure she still has regrets over what happened to sasha and marcy, like blaming herself for so many things that aren't really her fault. she probably falls back into old thinking patterns, back when she knew she didn't love herself.

and these are all characters that actively deal with self-deprecating thoughts about themself. not that it's like that all the time but yknow what i mean. it's a process, some days are worse than others. you get it. they help each other in the only ways they know how.

er..though i'm not sure how much of kris would reach them.

thats a depressing thought to end on.

#asks #sorry this is. insane.#there are probably repeats of certain ideas/concepts #sorry about that. i answered this in a stream of consciousness #so i didn't really go back and re-read what i wrote #must make it clear that i love all three of these characters. very much.#i'm a bit rusty on anne; its been a while since ive talked about her. forgive me for that

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starjane312 · 1 year

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Kit Tanthalos x OC

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Chapter 25

J: Hi I’m Jane. Nice to meet you. And even though I acted like the greatest Idiot cause you almost Married my wife, I'd like to be your friend.

He shakes my hand.

G: Hi, I’m Graydon. My Father forced me to do so and I’d also like to be your friend.

We both laugh.

J: You know once I get to know you I will notice you’re not so bad.

He nudges my shoulder.

G: And you know once I get to know you I will notice that you only wanted to kill me because you were jealous.

J: And insecure.

I see Green and Blue sparkles flying around. I start reading.

J: Hey that’s good.

I notice Kit getting up.

J: What are you doing ?

K: She’s not the only one that needs to Train.

Jade looks at me. I nod.

J: Be careful. … Don’t let her Win.

I smile. The next few weeks Jade and I take turns in training Kit. I also help Graydon with his book and we both take care of Kenneth. The days get longer and the Nights shorter the farer we go. At one point Graydon and Elora fight together. I smile at that.

K: Come on.

I smile and lift my Sword. By the looks of my stab wounds and Kit’s belly it’s been a Month since we’ve been out here. She's in her Seventh month and I’m getting nervous. She's getting closer and closer to giving birth. But I’m also proud, Kit is getting better and better.

K: Stop going easy on me.

J: I’m not !

K: You are.

J: I don’t want to hurt either of you.

K: I know you won’t. But maybe you are not going easy on me. Maybe you’re just weak.

Ja,G: Oooh Burned.

I squint my eyes at her.

J: You want me to go hard. I will.

I lift my Sword and give it a good swing at Kit. But she fights back.

J: I know what you’re doing.

K: What’s that ?

J: Mineta’s ploy.

I keep fighting her.

J: Your opponent thinks that they know you, thinks they can anticipate your next move. But you keep frustrating those expectations.

And again our swords Dance with each other.

K: Sounds pretty Frustrating.

With the next Hit I almost fall but regain my posture and go to attack her.

J: Yeah, it can be frustrating. Especially if you’ve been, like, aching to fight them for a while now, but the circumstances keep denying them the opportunity.

Our swords clash.

K: Maybe forces them to make a mistake.

She comes closer.

K: Or leaves the vulnerable to something unexpected,

She circles around me. Our swords meet each other again.

J: That’s the strategy.

Unexpectedly she pulls me close to her by the waist.

K: I love you.

J: Huh ?

The next thing I know is laying on my Back with her holding my arms to the ground and leaning over me. I take deep breaths.

J: You, my Wife, fight dirty.

She chuckles.

J: ‘Bout time.

We smile at each other

K: I really love you.

J: I love you too.

She kisses me. I lay my hands on her waist. As we part I smile. Then she winches. We both sit up. She holds her side.

J: What ?

She takes my hand. I feel a hard push against it.

J: Ok, it seems like they're getting stronger too.

K: Yeah but that Hurts.

J: What did you expect it to feel like ? Butterflies ?

K: Ha ha.

She goes to rest and I sit down next to Graydon.

G: What's wrong ?

J: I’m worried.

G: About Kit ? She’s tough.

J: Not about that.

G: Since we’ve been in Nockmaar you’ve been on edge. What happened there ?

I take a deep breath and look at the resting Kit.

J: We had a fight. Again. At the end of it I said that I didn’t know if I could do this anymore and left her alone while she was crying. Well I wandered through the Castle, with no real destiny. After a while I sat down. Few minutes later I heard her scream my Name. Of course I ran as fast as I could and Arrived at a Closed door which wouldn’t open. She was calling for Help. I smashed the door with my Axe and when it was finally open …

I take a deep breath and wipe the tears away. He lays a hand on my Shoulder.

J: She was laying there Bloody with wide open, dead eyes just staring at me. She was holding the Baby. It was also Dead. She died giving birth. Alone thinking I didn’t love her anymore. That’s why I’m so …

More Tears run down my Face.

G: That’s why you’re so protective and never let her leave your side.

J: She’s my Everything. I have nothing but her. No Family. No one that truly understands me and knows everything about me, all my problems and Ticks. Boorman was carrying me because I tried jumping out of a Window.

He hugs me.

G: Does she know that ?

I scoff.

J: No only you and Jade.

G: If she knew maybe she would understand.

J: No, she'd only tell me not to Worry about her.

Out of nowhere there is a loud Crash and willow falls to the floor.

E: Willow !

We all jump up and walk to him. He’s still laying on the Floor not responding. Elora turns him around. He groans and opens his eyes. After that shocking experience we all go to sleep.

#kit tanthalos #kit tanthalos x reader #kit tanthalos x oc #willow #jade claymore #aryk tanthalos #elora danan #thraxus boorman #graydon hastur

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worldwithoutbirds · 6 years

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No one uses the word triggered anymore. It was spun into a character of an oversensitive, alarm sounding funsponge. But what do we use then to describe when we are mentally and physically having reactions based inside pain or past trauma? We try to create language centered around our experience and it is no sooner turned against us.

Language itself is the whole point here. I've felt like every time I've been with someone new, it was like landing a plane without a pilots' knowlede. We take on relationships with new people with no idea how all the different buttons and levers work.

A huge part of adult relationships is becoming comfortable with conflict and carrying the empathy and other tools to be able to resolve discomforts and arguments.

So I wish that people could be more open to recognizing when a boundary has been crossed in a relationship in any fashion.

I want to hear more people owning that they crossed someone's boundary, rather than implying that the other person is being "oversensitive".

Before telling someone they're being too sensitive, consider that their experience could have been so vastly different from yours. We have a staggering amount of experiences in our lives, all of which add up and contribute to our current way of being.if it's a chore to be able to pause and ask yourself how you might be insensitive in their world , without inviting yourself into this question. Seriously leave yourself out and try to imagine the experience in the eyes of this other person. It will be impossible to know their experience and their memories and current sensations. And by that fact alone you should always reflexively reframe "they're being too sensitive" into "maybe I'm being insensitive".

The point in any friendship or relationship is respecting the other persons' sense of comfort and safety. No matter how "sensitive" that person is, it's our responsibility to get to know what they are and aren't ok with and where their boundaries exist in their own world.

This isn't to say that the person with less power in this situation, the "sensitive" one, should never examine their own sensitivities and triggers. Everyone is absolutely responsible for finding a grounded place within themselves and also being open to constructive discourse when a conflict arises.

We all move through each other sometimes gracefully, sometimes stumbling and ugly. We are a choose your own adventure nightmare.

I wish that more people could put more thought into their own presence in any of their relationships.. to be able to own when they've hurt someone, and understanding the concept that you don't necessarily have to do anything wrong to hurt someone. Hurt happens mostly on accident. The average person does not wake up every day with the intent to hurt people. Hurt happens when we are vulnerable, when we have uncommunicated boundaries, and complex pasts, or a past trauma, or mental illness, or even a fleeting feeling of not being safe; misunderstandings, mistakes. Feeling safe with anyone begins and ends with being curious, open and respectful to the other persons' way of experience; their expressions and their boundaries.

#mine

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