Made it to the beach a bit. This one was sandy and so nice. Not like the rocky beach where I ripped me toenail off. Now I have to get a fake toenail when I go back to Vegas. Big toe nails take forever to grow back.

Saturday is my niece's first bday party. And while I'm looking forward to it because she's my niece, I am also dreading it. Why? Because it's just going to be a reminder that I wasn't chosen or even in consideration to be her godparent. Instead both of my sister-in-law's siblings were chosen with a friend of my brothers. It's been over 8 months since her dedication and my heart being broken over these choices and I still haven't gotten any sort of apology from my brother or sister-in-law. I know in the end it was their choice but it still hurts my heart now to not have any sort of explanation or apology from them. And if that wasn't bad enough with her family around it's just going to be rubbed in my face even more that I'm not exactly wanted. Her sister gets to babysit every week. I've asked multiple times while I've been on vacation to be able to watch her for just one day and I've always been ignored. Her family gets to see her while I've only seen her MAYBE once every 6 weeks or so. I just want to know what I've done so wrong that I deserve to be treat like I have been by them for the last year.

Okay this has to be said.

So, recently I keep getting likes and followers from very inappropriate accounts, it stopped for a while before and now it started it again🙄, it does bother me a little bit but I try to ignore it and block those people. Now what crossed the line is that some username(I will later show a picture of it) send me in a ask box a inappropriate video where is s*xual stuff happening. And the fact that they send it to a minor is seriously disgusting. I may be 17, but I'm still underage and if I was 18 or above the 18 I wouldn't be happy to see that. Now I'll show the picture of the username so please report it so we don't have these kind of people on this platform.

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Pedro started as an Instagram friend and has now become a true friend. @notwelcome

Discover the surprising charm of our 'Conditional Welcome Mat.' This unique and playful accent invites your beloved guests in while respectfully discouraging sales pitches, preaching of faiths, and political debates at your doorstep. A perfect blend of hospitality and boundaries, it's time to redefine home decor. See more at http://jac3d.store. #welcome #notwelcome #mat #nosoliciting #election #noreligion #etsy

I did not invite you into my bed

I did not invite this corpse to own me

This must be their FIRST EVER WISE MOVE! #Megxit #megxiteers #harryandmeghan #notwelcome #cancelharryandmeghan #stripharryandmeghanoftheirtitles https://www.instagram.com/p/CF4aV_vnYCw/?igshid=1kcd0m51srq1u

Always beware the sting in the tail .

 A swarm of giant European hornets arrived last year on the farm opposite us . We caught this one dozing by the back door in a jar and released it away from the house .

Hmm. New generation of welcome mat or a comment on what’s wrong with today’s society? #notwelcome #Welcome #Society #Unwelcome #Rude #decor #door https://www.instagram.com/p/CZS49wvJcPi/?utm_medium=tumblr

“NOTICE: Don’t knock. Not Welcome: DEMs. PPD, UPP, Solutions, APP. [ BEES ONLY] Don’t even step off the road!” I’m telling you everyday it’s comedy leading up to the January 19th General elections!! Bajans have zero chill!! #thechasefiles #10daysuntilelections #notwelcome #dontevenstepofftheroad #upp #dlp #dems #upp #app https://www.instagram.com/p/CYheM5BpEjw/?utm_medium=tumblr

Trump protest in George Square yesterday #trump #protest #notwelcome #scotland #georgesquare #glasgow #protesters #signs (at George Square)

#smudgethecat #smudgecat#smudgememe #womanyellingatcat #womanyellingatcatmemes #womanyellingatacat #notwelcome #goaway #funnymemes😂 #funnymemes #funnycats #hilariousmemes #goodone https://www.instagram.com/p/CTNe5-bp0zz/?utm_medium=tumblr

#thankseasterbunny #makingcandyfun🍭 $$$ 🤎🤎🤎 #chocolate 🔗❤️🧡💛💚💙🤍🖤💜🤎💔 #freeadvertising #notpaid #yourewelcome #notwelcome 🍀🔫🧑🏻‍🎤🦠 #rudecutomershere #always #miamilife #myhallandalebeach @hallandaleymca ##chocolatecoveredstrawberries (at Hallandale Beach, Florida) https://www.instagram.com/p/CMiQxcEhjmq/?igshid=1ctjxgr9b8pu8

#Gobackmodi #Notwelcome #BD #terrorist https://www.instagram.com/p/CMWxMzRjtLI1bYs8S-87IaGhUt3-WtJHyywRaE0/?igshid=2s45ppbzlg26

This was from the time #trump visited #London. I like we showed him how unwelcome he was from the offset #tshirtsdesign #tshirt #streetwear #fashion #counterculture #orange #uk #orangeisthenewblack #notwelcome #deathbeforebrand (at London, United Kingdom) https://www.instagram.com/p/CKUK6W0hiaN/?igshid=qoujv8qnc76f

Just came back from dog walk. Whilst picking up litter left by selfish kunz .... (multiple swear words here).... started inventing an app that tracks/trace litter louts and dumps a skip full of rubbish at their home. . . If you're not gonna just leave footprints you're not welcome, grow up! ☠☠☠ . #beach #thebeach #eastwittering #westwittering #brackleshambay #rubbish #litterlout #litter #uneducated #selfish #notwelcome #protectourplanet #app #littering #litterpicking #litteringsucks #litterpick #litterbug #growup #selfishpeople https://www.instagram.com/p/CFes62vlmRr/?igshid=nufuttdbfij