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homielander · 2 years

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maeve hooking up with butcher right after his little diatribe about wanting to commit supe genocide and by extension, kill her, is... actually exactly the sort of unhinged, self-hating behaviour i expect from her

#no really im incredibly sad for her #ill send the writers my notes because there's sooo much more they could be doing with her this season #queen maeve #billy butcher #the boys #the boys spoilers #also upset because just like starlight & homelander i think this pairing could be interesting if looked at through certain angles #but they're literally just taking the most boring route with them. so why even bother

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opens-up-4-nobody · 2 months

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#i walked into a situation today where my mom was effectively already dead. effectively bc her body was and is still alive. still breathing #painful groaning purrs. but her mind was gone yesterday. my dad said he showed her a picture of the mountains i took that day and told her #i loved her and she smiled. thats what he said. maybe he was just being nice. or maybe thats the last time she thought of me. i dunno. but #the human body is an incredible thing. shes got a heart still powering a broken body. too full of tumors to function anymore. stomach #streched like a pregnant mother. it happed really fast and now its happening very slow #im somehow probably better off than the rest of them. i only got here for the aftermath of a downslide. my daily life will b least effected #i only really saw her twice a year living so far away and she didnt text much. didnt call often. so life wont change much ill just kno shes #not there. which is sad. but theres nothing to b done abt it. life goes on. it hasnt been all bad tho. its nice to talk to my family abt her #how incredible she was. bc she was. wish her mom wasnt here tho. she doesn't deserve to b here. my mom wouldnt want her here. she didnt want #her here. but anyway. i wish her body would just let her go now. so we can sleep. so this can be over. so she can rest #but even like this shes stubborn and resilient. they say it could go on for days but i hope not. may the universe let her rest shes gotta b #so tired after 10 years of this. but i have no regrets. she knew how i felt abt her. and i dont think she had regrets either. she did so #much up to the very end. went out on a high note without the burdon of knowing it was coming #i dunno. its just such a strange experience to watch the empty shell of your mother sleeping like a gurgling baby #unrelated

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catkin-morgs-kookaburralover · 7 months

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friendly reminder that self harm is lying to you

#the worst is when it promises you'll feel better and then you simply. do not. you feel worse and then you want to harm again bc surely that #will make you feel better right? THAT WOULD BE A NO. IT DOES NOT.#anyway today i went to spotlight cause i was sad cause i got the result for my 35% assignment i really struggled with. 32.5%. failure.#and at spotlight i made the foolish error of buying without knowing price. but like who makes a book a normal softcover crochet pattern boo #$55?! anyway it's a lovely book and am excited to try a few of teh patterns but the guilt is eating me alive #and also im super stressed about the assignment i have to turn in on thursday and haven't started #anyway i was literally four and a half hours away from being seven days clean #and i am just so sad right now #and i reopened one of the scars on my wrist too while on shift this morning so that's fun #not badly but it's just gonna mean it scars even more isn't it because of course #i was feeling incredibly awful for some reason i can't even remember and i kinda clawed up my arms. and no i don't count that as #breaking my streak bc it didn't cause much damage #i just. placement is so wonderful but life is so so hard #i don't know i want a hug and the assignment done and everything bad unmade #and the scars i have to look at every day on placement gone.#i want to talk to s but i haven't responded to her last message and i don't know how to respond but i need to respond to that #:((#honestly actually i think i want to talk to aunty. friend's mum. in person. and get a hug. i want a hug.#im just. So Sad. and i want my brother and Ransom and this is not helpinga nd i don't know what would if anything

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monstrumpuella · 2 years

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Hey, you busy?

#lore olympus #lo hades #lo hecate #lo thanatos #lo daphne #well well well #how incredibly awkward this must be for everyone #also must i say #im really happy thanatos is in a good relationship with Daphne #i was so sad when Daphne had transformed herself as a tree and Thanatos was so heartbroken to find her like that #im glad they're together again

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rhythmmortis · 5 months

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can u imagine: xion picking up lea's "got it memorized" phrase cuz she doesnt want to be forgotten again

lea get something new this one belongs to xion now. its hers. hers alone. i am vividly imagining the potential of either it being funny or very very painful. they come back from the shops and forget something xion asked for and she just goes 'oh its FINE it wouldnt be the first time ive been forgotten. its not like i wanted it or anything' and she continues until someone either goes back to get it or reimburses her for it and she gets what she wants every time. OR the painful alternative: someone does genuinely forget a small detail about her or just has some trouble remembering her. twilight town trio just having met her but still forgetting her name occasionally. how much do you think that would hurt? to finally be free, to finally have an identity to call your own, a name you've reclaimed, a painful past finally put behind you only to anchor you down and find out that maybe nothing's really changed, maybe you're still just a puppet attached to those strings, waiting to be forgotten. what if it was someone even closer to her just forgetting the smallest of things. i do not think they had HER memorised after all. i am going to sob and cry and scream xion i love you

#kh #i forgot i was halfway through answering this one on the train and left it for a bit fkhfkh apologies #but like. im a sucker for the comedic side but ALSO it could be incredibly sad #yet again i REALLY want even just a small arc exploring xion's newfound identity and how she feels about that #i really dont want her to be cast aside and just treated like nothing happened #because kh3 very much did happen!!! as did days!!! just because she came back doesnt mean her problems are automatically resolved!!#she is going to throw her sticks at people if they dont have it memorised dkfhfdkjh

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freak60000 · 7 months

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i CANT stop thinking about how heartbreaking simon and betty’s story really is like every time i think about it i’m so emotional because it’s so bittersweet and so beautiful and so tragic and such a perfect doomed lovers story i can’t take it i haaate them

#and it ended in Such a heartbreaking way i think but it is just so beautifully done and so wonderfully represented #it makes me So Sad #every time i think about episode ten i start getting Incredibly sad like tearing up crying sad #simon replaying that first moment in his head..trying to remedy what he finally realized was wrong all those years #and knowing it wasn’t how their story went..and…Oh god #and betty actually TALKING to him there. not through golb. as herself. TALKING to him #she was ACTUALLY TALKING TO HIM right there i hope you understand #and both of them just..letting go…..literally me typing this is making me tear up so bad #FUUUCK adventure time FUCKK fionna and cake #simon learning to let her go the way betty had (situationally)done all those years ago.so so so bittersweet but so beautiful #you could tell she wasn’t ready to let go at first either. but they both knew that’s not how it happened. that’s not how they had really #loved all those years. and they could’ve made better decisions but they didn’t have any regrets #they loved until they couldn’t and then they loved more IM RIPPING MY SKIN OFF

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gibbearish · 3 days

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am finally back home and can say without a doubt that i am just fundamentally not built for long distance travel however the train was much nicer than planes

#that being said. pressurized cabins drive me insane a little bit #and also it gives you pretty intense sea legs for a While #like. the ones from the first trip hadnt gone away by the return one. so. might be stuck with that for a few days #we shall see #also ajr live fucks severely #the albums were already incredible but that was a goddamn religious experience #like. idk the way i think abt it is theyre more djs than a regular band esp w their performance showing the making of way less sad #like their music is very electronic‚ theyre making mixes of their own sound effects more than singing in one go #so like. the vocals were a teeensy bit rough at times #notably times it has taken me Literally Hundreds Of Hours Practice to be able to consistently sing along with #and times ive found its literally physically impossible to like. no matter what #idc how big your lungs are‚ there is no human on earth who can do that final run of karma in one breath #much less to An Entire Stadium After An Hour Of Jumping And Dancing And Singing Loud As Fuck #so like i dont blame them for that‚ you dont go to live shows expecting it to be 100% perfect anyways jwbdjsbfksb #the trumpet however. well she was certainly playing sometimes. and was very enthusiastic about her flares.#however. in most of their songs they use midi trumpets to my ear at least #meaning she was likely an addition specifically for live performances and in my personal band kid opinion #prooobably was not in any of the like. higher tier bands? idk just. a lot of the mistakes she was making were hitting as stuff that got #taught out of us the instant we joined any band beyond regular concert #so i would guess she was probably just like. a friend who happened to play trumpet in high school or maybe even just middle school #and they knew that the trumpet parts in their pieces were big and distinct enough that like they /had/ to get a live player #and just kinda. didnt anticipate the audition -> performance gap #like. her tone was really fried the whole time like she was playing as hard as possible #which. she was mic'd. have the sound guy turn her up.#the way they did it made it sound like she was using a mute but not. like she only got the bad parts of a mute from it yknow #her tempo and timing were. bad. theres no nice way to put that one it just Was Bad‚ like the trumpet runs in ajr songs arent. complicated #like. quite literally if you handed me the sheet music right now i would have it down perfect in a week at absolute most #and better than that player on sightread. like. we did so many sightreading drills.#like ill share my band kid creds if anyone cares but i need to emphasize this isnt me being braggy like. they genuinely just arent hard #fuck im out of tags. w/e i think only like one of yall also listens to them anyways so i can leave it there

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wabblebees · 5 months

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thought id update to say; i survived opening night!!! and not only that, it went REALLY fucking well, and people seemed to REALLY REALLY like it omfg... god this is so crazy

#i was literally holding the script in a bigass binder for almost the entire show (sparing only the parts where i had to BULLFIGHT)#(bc i needed two hands -- one for the cape & one for the banderilla.)(yall i had to learn how to BULLFIGHT TANGO & SWORDFIGHT. in TWO DAYS)#but the audience said afterwards it was like i wasnt even on-book; they hardly noticed it was there??!!#yall this is my real life rn. im failing my classes but yknow what??#i can pull it together enough to emergency understudy in a highly physical show 2 days before opening even with a script ive never SEEN #and apparently we made people fucking CRY. HOLY SHIT!!! HOLY SHIT #this playwright is just. incredible. the script is INSANE. BEAUTIFUL & CLEVER & HILARIOUS & TERRIFYING & VILE & TENDER & TECHNICALLY PERFECT #and apparently our production is like. only the eighth time this show has EVER been produced. for real #but god EVERYONE should know about this playwright's work. fuck i actually think tumblr would really love her. holy shit.#maría irene fornés is her name -- she was a queer cuban-american playwright+director who made radical heartwrenching magical theatre #im so grateful to be doing this & SO fucking sad for the original performer im covering for... god. bc this is just such lifechanging work #this play is queer in EVERY sense. its off-putting loving repulsive peculiar passionate holy and GAY AS HELL. its real its farce its SO CAMP #((IRENE & SUSAN SONTAG DATED. SONTAG AS IN 'NOTES ON ''CAMP''' SONTAG. ITS FUCKING GORGEOUS.))#its gorgeous its gorey its glamourous its also literally the first part ive played that i think might truly fit my casting type exactly lmao #which is INSANE. bc the character is literally just described in the script as ''ISIDORE: an androgynous clown'' LMFAO #but honestly what could be more homoerotic than 2 ''men'' locked in a room together dancing tango+talking abt beetles+stabbing each other #hmm. maybe its the fact that after i stab the other guy i call him ''saint sebastian'' and then we LITERAL ACTUAL GAY KISS #which is crazy bc we only practiced that ONE TIME before opening #and youd think this shit cant get Any Gayer BUT. IT DOES. bc my scene partner+the director are gay+together irl... and uhh.#ive literally been their third. like. more than once.#ISNT THAT FUCKING INSANE. THIS IS MY REAL LIFE?? THIS IS MY REAL LIFE #ANYWAY #so now im headed back out to rehearse more before we perform it again tonight lmao #i hope it goes as well as it did last night #that audience was fucking incredible i really hope the next two like it as much as they did🤞🤞 knocking on wood #so. if u read this far. u should go find+read ''tango palace'' by maría irene fornés. mwah okay bye #bee speaks

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chilledmac · 1 year

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kind of sad that no one in the gang really has a relationship with dee anymore. like i know she's forever been the laughing stock of the group but at least by the end of an episode they would come together as a group (the end of s15 for example) but i just feel that overall dee's been divided? from the gang's dynamic

#feel free to tell me im wrong #but i just think that the guys in the gang really really hate her now #and not in a 'oh dees super annoying' but she's still involved in whatever scheme the guys have got going on #but more in a fuck this bitch 1!1!1! we dont need her #like even dennis seems so incredibly apathetic to her. and charlie just straight up despises her #and i know we've had moments that show the opposite: charlie and dee lockdown bubble #but the general trend seems to be excluding dee from the gang's antics #which makes me sad because then its not just the gang versus the world its the gang versus dee and the world #and idk the latest seasons with their heavy themes of anti feminism #doesnt read to me like satirizing misogyny but genuine women hate #i might be overreacting #and id like to hear other peoples opinions #i just wish dee shines a bit more in this season #or at the very least is included in the gang #iasip #dee reynolds

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aydascomprehendsubtext · 10 months

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I refuse to learn the lesson that i need to ask for help more because the consequences while bad are also very very funny

#greentext time in the tags. be me. busy day at work. someone texts asking members of my team to carry boxes #see text 3 min after its been sent and find one giant box and 0 relevant authorities. assume i am especially late and pick up the box #box in question is too heavy for this 7 min walk across campus but i proceed #fail to find shortcut and in process fall down like 5 stairs. also incredibly congested so my nose is running #local campus safety woman sees me on the floor shaking and sniffling. thinks i have really injured myseld #i reassure her and repack the box. proceed to fuck ton of stairs. panic and call only team member i have specific number for #tell her i might be late w the box. shes like. what box. im on the other side of campus #i say. well itll take too long for you to get here to help anyway. proceed. legs at this point screaming #drop box off at building. no one is there. go back. everyone is running around looking for the one single box #there was only one box. i say oh i got it. then i work my six hour shift. now. legs hurt #this sounds sad but genuinely it is so funny to me rn. like. dude what is your PROBLEM

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piplupod · 1 year

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Really sucks to see someone who was clever and kind as a teen turn to "divine feminine" and "law of attraction" and at first she insisted she was trans-inclusive but she's reblogging from open radfems now and I'm just... tired. I'm very tired. It is so exhausting and crushing to see a very clever kind person fall down that rabbit hole turned pipeline.

anyways y'all please stay away from new age spiritual shit. use your critical thinking please. spirituality and religion are good things, but the new age movement is not. I hate seeing people I've known for years fall into it and I can't bring them out of it because they get so strangely brainwashed by it :')

#divine feminine always always leads to radfem and terf ideology sorry #theres no way around it #and the law of attraction is ableist and rooted in white supremacy and colonisation lmao #and it almost always leads to falling into the alt-right #im just really fucking tired #she was so incredibly clever and thoughtful and kind but as soon as she started down that path i knew it'd end up here #i was just rly hoping she'd realise and stop before she got to that point #i havent followed her on any platform for over a year but i check up on her tumblr every few months bc i care abt her still #and i rly want to see her realise where she's going wrong but unfortunately i think there's no way she's going to now #shes cut herself off from like. so many people. but the thing that drives me nuts is that she has a large following who WORSHIPS her #and im just... i wish we'd been closer friends so that i could go to her now and try to point out the inherent hate she's partaking in #by engaging in the LOA and radfem rhetoric. im just really sad honestly #pippen needs 2nd breakfast

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upsidedowngrass · 1 year

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amelia suffers from "fandom designated Nice Girl"

#hfjone #said this in a server but i actually think i finally worded it well #this isnt me getting mad at anyone in particular!!! but. i have a lot of thiughts on this #look. shes really nice and kind. she is VERY sweet a lot. but that is not all she is :(#and the only times ppl even WRITE that is when they want to make her. 'Snap?' i guess? or be 'worried about the boys' or smth?#it makes me a little sad :(#because she can and would kick your ass if you deserved it without hesitation #but shes always framed with the others and i. man #idk. wears shirt that says ask me about amelia euler #cus liam is my favorite character. but amelia is VERY important to me and high up there #shes an incredibly written person but people often . mute her character so bad and im like :(#(if they DO make her nice but capable of kicking ass they often . exaggerate that too anyway #like early 2000s cartoon girl whos 'nice but doesnt take bullshit!!! and looks out for her boys >:(' if that makes any sense #idk idk if this is coherent! i just have so many thoughts on her #(also yes this was prompted cus my amelia bloodshed post is getting more notes qnd that makes me VERY happy!!!)#ADDITIONAL note: this wasnt prompted by any recent posts in the tag i promise. just a general thing!!!

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kingtankgirl · 1 year

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truly nothing much better than relaxing with my favorite coworker on the display chairs n chatting abt everything on earth

#last night we spent like four straight hrs here just having a heart to heart abt abusive relationships #it was an incredibly insightful conversation. i love our talks because she's like 25 years older than me #so she gives me the perspective of someone who has seen so much more of this world (esp cuz she only recently moved to america)#and i give her the perspective of someone whos much younger and like. idk #we are from such totally different worlds. but like. She Gets Me like we are extremely similar w the way we think n view the world #i love her heart and her mind so sincerely im like. really really sad our store is closing #but im excited that im going to have my own place soon because we will have somewhere we can hang out!!!!!!!!!

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