We had walkies and it was good

also also sorta offtopic but: what other games do ya play?? GO FULL OUT IN RAMBLING

ik you've seen me ramble abt twewy all the time but I also love pokémon, kirby, legend of zelda, detroit become human and golden sun !!! my brother has also been playing Hades lately and tho the playstyle isn't my thing bc I get stressed easily IT'S AN AMAZING GAME AND I LOVE IT

someday I will be able to properly try playing final fantasy and fire emblem HAHA if I have the time to play I'll let you know !!! I really want to try those games TT

HEHEHE AHJBHGDBJGH omg if you say so ,, under the cut bcs idk how much i might. ramble GSGBHB <3 <3 <3 warning. just in advance. sorry annie but you've just enabled me HGSBDHJG

( ok i finished writing. uh. i think i legitimately spent more than an hour what. BUT UHM warning it might be really long but idk HSBDHJG but disclaimer yes no need to read it all!! and tysm once again!! and sorry for. so much rambling HSDJHBG )

( edit again bcs i've woken up HOLY SHIT I DIDNT REALIZE I DIDNT POST THIS. I JUST SAVED DRAFT AND THEN POOFED HELP )

OKAY WAIT FIRST. ik you want more twewy moots yes AND THO i do consider myself to like twewy i still am sadly not into it that much yet despite i rmbr uhh neo demo, wanting to watch the animation, and then once it was on sale. i was hyperfixated on it WHFBJH and then moved on to . triangle strategy HJDSBJG which i still don't have but i cld maybe ask a friend who i convinced to buy it bcs he was curious and i was like ROLAND ROLAND ROLAND and i was rlly excited bcs it ws just around release but they haven't even touched it at all so i'll one day force him to lend me it (and i'll never return it JKJKJK HLEP) BUT YEAH. i feel like i wrote that latter bit w no breath breaks

!!! i rmbr you talking abt pokemon once (IN DMS ?? >O< & ff7!!) and ofc ik you love loz HEHE i was goin thru pics some time ago and. came across the link stuff again GDSGB ^^ I DON'T THINK I KNEW YOU LIKED KIRBY AND DBH THO ... kirby is ADORABLE but i've only ever played like. 5 minutes worth of one of the old games HGBSJHD and loz botw which i haven't finished yet bcs i am not enthusiastic to do the bananas and i had to give back the card to my tita TwT DHB okay funny story we had to make smth for school once and i used a somewhat triggering photo and thankfully it wasn’t anything too bad and no one got yeah. also i was rlly young. but DAMN i’m better now thnkfully ALSO i rly wnt to play sometime >< <3

HADES OH MY GOD I LOVE THAT GAME (than and zag. oh god) !!! i'm only a few hours in uhh around 16?? >< i shld def play more ,, can understand it not being your type in playstyle AHBAHFBJ but fr it's amazing and so loveable <3 tbh i kind of get stressed a bit easily like. i could MAYBE be that kinda "toxic" gamer but i'm too nice and don't want to be mean Out Loud so that's good THGBJ i like the stress . somehow. I HOPE YOU CONTINUE ENJOYING!!!!!

okay uhh so we have a lot of games here. kinda?? my game library in my Head is huge but in my actual reality kind of but not really T__T so ofc there's final fantasy!! i like all 15 (and the upcoming 16th) and the spin offs but i definitely haven't played em all yet HSBDJHG 7, 10, 14, 15 i've played! we have 8, 9, 12, and 13 (kinda, doesn't work anymore T_T) >< also type 0 i think but idk </3 i blame/thank my dad's side esp for me w games/anime/ff HGBJSDH!! 14 is kind of obviously my fave game hehe <33

fire emblem!!! 3H is the one i've only played but i LOVE awakening and fates >_< and shadows of valentia!! i know that even less but i love the credits song which i've alrdy accidentally spoiled myself on and the characters i know!

OK SO UHM. there's a lot we have that i haven't actually played so i won't go too much into depth q-q but god of war, xcom, last of us, uhhhhh wait okay

from ones i've played a bit!! or tried to play a bit!! or know outside of actually playing >< drakenier (3, automata, replicant! 3 is. kinda uh sus but i rlly like it and wna know more in the future. we have automata but i haven't played... i LOVE it sm tho and it's just so good,, & the raids in ffxiv i love SDHGJHA and the small spoilers ik </3 replicant same feelings as automata but we don't have it </3) + ghost of tsushima (i played a bit and it's a beautiful game!!) + uh. AH YES soulsborne (okay these kind of games make me scared. i tried to play bloodborne thrice and chickened and i don't actually have or want the guts to not Chicken BUT. I WANT TO HEAR THE MUSIC. and be challenged by the hard gameplay so sometime,, also we have ds3!! i want elden ring/sekiro rlly badly tho ><) + uhh what else. help OAAAAHH THE WITCHER!! okay we have 3 i. meant to start it a bit ago but then ffxiv took my time again SBDGHJH but i love the series!! just close my eyes at times!! i love the witcher man. and there's horizon zero dawn which i've played for quite a while but i'm def not TOO far into it,, it seems like open world isn't rlly my type T___T

i forgot the others. help. SAHGBJH okay from the ones i've finished or play/ed a lot!! persona <3 i like 3 and 4 but dk well yet :(( i love 5 tho!! such a good game, esp w royal <3 anddd then uh. uhm. HJHBF HELP i've barely finished games tbh T___T but <33 UHHH i like cod too! mario! OH MY GOD SUPER MARIO ODYSSEY!!! and other games oh man T~T

I FORGOT FALLOUT EXISTS HELP okay i’m like. really There in fallout shelter but i don’t play anymore </3 fallout 4 and las vegas we have!! i’m scared to play 4!! but yes!! i also feel terrible for forgetting skyrim holy shit i mostly just watched my dad/sis play until i actually started playing myself. i’m a coward and i admit that but that game is my CHILDHOOD... cuphead is also rlly cool i have just played REALLY little myself but <33 animal crossing is rlly cute!! i love new horizons!! also assassins creed!! we have odyssey which i played a bit but it makes me scared to play too ngl!! devil may cry and metal gear rlly interest me but no games or experience playing :(( love the music and memes tho <3

uh. minecraft was my childhood FOR REAL. i played a bit of mass effect then stopped but i’ll cont when i have time. somehow. HSDBGJH ik it’s rlly good !! LEGO GAMES WERE MY CHILDHOOD TOO... my only 100%. man. i fought so much w my twin over those games it’s absolutely hilarious. dragon age is cool i love inquisition soundtrack but i played a bit of origins and then stopped bcs i got stuck and it’s so ANNOYING... red dead redemption 2 i havent played but <333 resident evil is cool but horror. goodbye. GSHGBFBSD AND OH GOD I FORGOT I ONCE PLAYED A BIT OF GTA5. i stopped bcs it rlly was too much even for me who doesn’t mind swearing. i stole cars and did a bit of story and thn stopped i will never forget the man who opened my car door in the road and i drove off HABJGH ... i forgot what other games i’ve played or have or am interested in this is so much oh god . OH GOD WAIT I FORGOT KINGDOM HEARTS EXISTED HELP that series is so weird but means so much to me weirdly. i rmbr so clearly playing literally the first bit of the game. by first bit i mean literally probably just the first hour or less. and i never got past that bcs i never got to a save but then had to stop playing over and over again but wld always go back and play it AAA kh1!!! and thn kh3 i borrowed and man... <3 i love that game and somehow understood and enjoyed even if it’s literally the ending of a saga i think and i never played the rest HELP

i once again lost track of time it’s almost 5 am oh my god i have to get up before 10. BDHGBD i’LL PROBABLY STOP HERE THEN....... i hope you don’t feel like you have to read everything i’m just rlly Yay you asked and uhm enabled me WHEEZE i love rambling but also i do it a lot but also not that much T___T i genuinely do hope this isn’t annoying though! ^^ not in a like Oh i’m annoying way but in a like. this might actually seriously be A Lot JHGSDJHG

i actually barely know anything about golden sun!! but i searched it up rq and rmbrd i’m interested in dragon quest + diablo + castlevania too !! super mario galaxy was my childhood even tho me and my twin barely did anything bcs we were cowards. HELP. we fought too bcs i shaked the controller and then the stars went everywhere and escaped so she got angry at me. why did i even do that what. ANWAYS UHM IDK WHAT i’M EVEN TALKING ABT ANYMORE HELP gran turismo also interests me!! bcs of my dad >< OH MY GOD I FORGOT i also finished littlebigplanet 3!! it was so annoying w my twin /pos!!! we fought also. man. i love twins they suck (affectionate)

i feel like there’s still more i’m forgetting hm but idk. not gna say stuff about ffxiv bcs that’ll be a lot more rambling I’M SO SORRY. also no mobile games orrr free games uhhh there’d be a lot too. help. BUT UHM YES if you do ever someday properly play ff and fe i’d be really happy but pls /nf !!! and i hope you do enjoy if ever!! <3 tbh i’m a bit >:( when it comes to some stuff abt specifically uhh 7 13 15 and 3h but generally i still love them lots <3 personally i’d def rec xiv even if you aren’t a fan of mmorpgs bcs it’s def an rpg first >< also imo the best final fantasy overall!! even best mmo and def one of the best stories i’ve ever seen ,, BJSDHBG but from the single players, it’s a bit depending on your taste but safe best for sure is 9! overall i’d say the best, from what i’ve heard :O below 7 is not 3d yet but i’m biased to 3 bcs of 14, for reasons, and 4 is <3! and 6 def has prolly the best story from what i’ve heard if not for 14!! 8 is heavily romance based ?? but i personally love the themes sm >< 7 is rlly famous and probably the biggest franchise in the ff franchise :O if you ignore ffxiv HJBHDG! i’d def rec it too <3 10 is my first and rlly special to me and i’d def rec it too for sure!! 12 is more political but personally i love it. havent playe dbut uhm yes. tactics i’ve heard is incredibly good ^^ i barely know it. barely being a bit of an understatement uhhh ik some of the story!! yes!! okay squints that’s all i can talk abt rn help it just turned 5 JBGDHJGB ALSO I’M INTERESTED IN OMORI I ALMOST FORGOT!! horror scares me but ik omori is rlly good <3 i’m just watching bcs i might waste money on not playing if i buy it myself <//3 ^^

GN ANNIE!! or good morning. help. HBGSHDBGJ THANK YOU SO MUCH AGAIN BTW AND SORRY HELP rambling tho helped clear my head more so aaaa <33 ^^

BUT B4 I STOP FOR REAL i just want to advertise rq BUT NO FORCED /nf /nf /nf SERIOSULY it just makes me happy to do this WHEEZE but ffxiv has a rlly good free trial!! lowkey want to send u stuff no spoilers tho and see what wld convince u to play but do be truthful abt it all uhh yes yes gn >< WHEEZEHBGSHJ it’s available on all platforms basically! not like. switch or mobile tho aaaaa T___T </3 but playstation, mac, steam, pc... ^^ it’s pretty time consuming but it’s an experience i’d definitely recommend!! also no time restrictions for free trial :O so yeah >;D

A little late again with my year in review weeeee

globally 2016 was awful, but it was a good year overall for me. Last year was better as a whole but this year was really fun too and I got to cross some things off of The List

Highlights:

Getting lost in the countryside back home with my dad. It sounds stupid, but it was so much fun. I’m not even sure how we got so painfully lost but it wasn’t expected, so we had to use an old PHYSICAL map from the 90s. It was fantastic seeing so much of the countryside TwT

I started the year in Busan w/Laura and lived out a small dream of seeing the sunrise at Haedundae beach <3 Easily the most fun new year I’ve had since like 2000. 

I went to a looooot of concerts. Lots of SHINee, including their first stop for their JAT tour last year. Kyuhyun solo con (and I’m going to his next one in 2 weeks!) and Yesung solo con where he actually freaking came up to me and shook my hand and talked to me aksjdnsakj, DreamCon ft. Taemin&Vixx who were the faves that night. Vixx hi-touch in Fukuoka wasn’t a concert but!! YAH!! <3 (and Jamong open fansign) And Summer Sonic! PANIC!! Going to a not-kpop concert was so freaking refreshing haha, I like being able to understand the singers 100% xD And not to forgot KINGDOM HEEEAAAARTS concert too! I cried omg. So beautiful, I can’t wait to see it again in March, bigger and better <3 

I got my hair cut short for REAL this time! I love it, but it’s so cold right now that I think I’m gonna grow it out for a while xD I got a fringe for the first time since I was a kid too and I adore it, that’s definitely staying.

My mom visited meeee!! 

I had a lot of fun with friends. A LOT. I got to go to concerts with them, esp some I don’t get to see often (which tbh is most of my friends). I got to meet some for the first time in a while and in countries we probably didn’t think we’d ever manage to see each other in (I love that this keeps happening)

Had a night out in Fukuoka w/the girls from Yamaguchi and it was actually fun the whole night. That’s a real accomplishment, it was really really fun! They’re a good group.

POKÉMON GO and just Pokémon in general. the 20th anniversary made the whole year exciting, especially when going to the Pokémon Centers *u* And Coco having the Pokémon collab was amazing hahahaaa. My favorite things.

Taemin’s solos get their own bullet point. Press It era was amazing and beautiful. I don’t think I’d ever had so much fun with a comeback before, and...stress haha. I wanted to invest myself in it as much as possible. I HATE streaming music shows but my screencaps were a good time xD And then his Japanese solo was an unexpected beauty. The GO to get me to the showcase (successfully) was a lot of fun and a really great experience as well as the showcase itself of course T__T I will follow Taemin’s progress as a soloist as much and as closely as I can TvT

HAD A PROPER COSPLAY PHOTOSHOOT FOR THE FIRST TIME IN YEARS anjasjaksjaidj not that I’ve edited the photos yet...but it was so much fun! I’m lacking in posing tho since it’s been so long womp. Still, I loved it and I have more planned this year so I’m excited!!

I watched anime again properly for the first time since moving here. It was really fun, and I hope more series catch my eye! It’s great practice too =w=

I stuck with hiphop class all year. It was really difficult in the beginning because I messed up loads and felt like I was holding everyone back. My confidence went down the drain...but I kept going because I wanted it for too long. And it’s paid off. I’ve been told I’ve improved, I’m having fun with it still, and it put me on stage three times! T___T <3 +I danced with my friend/coworker and my students at our school festival. I woke up early and everything to get to practice a lot haha oTL The determination is proof of my love. I’ve also been learning dances on my own a little recently again too. I really love dancing, I hope I can keep it up after I move.

Last because it is certainly not least....Singapore trip. It was amazing. I’m still so blown away by how much so. It was like being in another world sometimes, I’ve never been anywhere like it. I’ll refrain from writing a love letter to the Marina Bay Sands but omg it was so beautiful, never have I been in such awe over a structure in my life. Truly a masterpiece, and I gorgeous one. One day, I’ll stay there hahaha! Aah it was seriously an amazing trip. Not sure my friends really realize how much better they made it for me too. I never thought that something like going to concerts would give me such solid friends who I can really depend on. It’s truly amazing.

That’s that for highlights. I’m glad I had a good year \o/ Naturally it wasn’t perfect though, it had a lot of rough patches but they were all overcome for the most part and that’s all I can ask of myself. 

So goals for this year?

Do a lot better on the N3 exam in July and pass it in December, but STUDY TO PASS IT IN JULY.

make the most out of my new placement. As in, don’t become a total hermit. Please make friends with people nearby, find somewhere to dance, keep studying, make a damn effort.

Take better care of my skin and my health. I started caring for my skin better near the end of 2016 but I need to keep it up.

Keep in touch with my friends. They’re very good at keeping in touch with me and I need to be the first to get in touch with them more often.

Actually start running this year LOL just try it out pretty please @ self

Save money but spend money, you know?

Keep staying conscious of what I’m eating and especially drinking. More water!

Don’t compare myself to others in terms of things I want to be or improve. Not in detrimental ways nor congratulatory ways.

Love and embrace my interests without shame. Be the 100% nerd I was born to be. If my reasons for big things lie in interests that seem shallow, I shouldn’t care, because I know they’re not. That’s what got me to Japan in the first place, after all.

so that is that yo. Now it’s time for bed.