he's listening to kaanapali beach by tom braxton on his jailbroken radioport

i think cherie has a weird psychological fixation on alec. btw. for reasons such as

cheries Deal is about being powerful and scary and manipulative so she can be the one who hurts others instead of the one who gets hurt due to shes fundamentally alienated from connection w/ herself and others and has no other way to cope with existing without feeling like dirt

also her powers are abt being stuck in this miserable cramped home w a bunch of other miserable violent people and having to learn how to emotionally read everyone so she can cater to the abuser to keep herself safe + understand how to manipulate the other victims (to make life easier for herself, to hurt them to satiate her abuser & feel like she's regained some control, etc)

alec was one of the siblings slightly closer 2 her in age + one of the siblings she tormented, someone she knew exceedingly well as a result of her power. theres a connection there. its a bad connection but theres a connection. forced him to do horrible shit alongside heartbreaker + WoG implies she contributed 2 the sexual abuse by fostering the hypersexual behavior. basically i bet she thinks she has him read for filth

he was a sad little sopping wet crybaby 4 most of the time she knew him absolutely the type that would make younger cherie be like "tch...hes not cut out for anything." and tell him to stop being a whiny baby (<- she thinks this counts as helpful life advice). i think she would tell him this even if he wasn't actually crying. like he would go ":(" in his head and she would be like Stop being a whiny baby. just unprompted. also on the one occasion she tried to cheer him up she did so by letting him watch liveleak videos of people exploding on her phone.

anyway my point is. sad sopping wet crybaby jean-paul grows up, toughens up, runs away successfully (first heartbroken to do so), and THEN becomes a threat of stabilizing his own power 2 the point where he could eventually become more successful/well-known than her while the cult back home is slowly dwindling in power. what if the sopping wet crybaby younger sibling you tortured as a coping mechanism was at risk of getting cooler than you would that be fucked up or what.

furthermore i think cherie is like. conscious about the fact that she sucks and the heartbroken home sucks and thinks she's being Honest about it + brave in the face of the inherent misery that the world wreaks upon her for sucking. and she also thinks that alec is, like, not just lying and obscuring the fact that he sucks from the undersiders, but successfully being treated like he Doesn't suck as a result. which pisses her off and is, aside from thinking it's funny when he's miserable, why she tries to ~reveal the truth~ about him 2 the undersiders over the phone. this is funny because alec also thinks he's being honest about the fact that he sucks and in fact considers it one of his strong points.

but anyway yeah i think shes fixated with being able to like. drag him back down to what she perceives as their shared level + reestablish control over him bc him being free and successful while genuinely improving himself as a person puts fundamental cracks in her worldview.

all of which is to say in the beautiful hypothetical world where she gets drudged up from the ocean and riley and amy awkwardly put her back together she finds out alec died doing smth good 4 aisha and she doesn't fucking like it. because he's beyond her reach in two ways forever now. first of all he's dead. second of all he died doing something uncomplicatedly caring and self-sacrificing for a friend which means the undersiders permanently remember him as a fucked up kid they knew back when they were all fucked up kids who ultimately Tried and went out being the best person he could be. which means she can't drag him back down to her level and reassert her worldview by making him miserable Or by changing ppls opinions of him. even insinuates that what She thought about him might have been wrong. and aisha laborn, the person he died for, who is now taking care of all of the heartbroken, who still remembers alec deeply fondly, is naturally where her Weird Psychological Fixation transfers next. also worth noting that THE FUCKING WORLD ENDED while she was down there and the s9 is Over so cherie is just. utterly irrelevant everybody forgor about her. she doesn't even get to feed off ppls hatred, no "negative attention is still attention" for her, she just gets drudged up and is expected 2 move on with her life. which is to say she immediately clings onto the one remnant of the world she knew, the one place where she can still claw for relevancy w/ ppl who would know her, and starts emailing aisha "can't make a banaisha split without a cherie on top" 200 times in a single evening. and aisha doesnt care at all cherie is going fucking nuts over this whole thing and aisha is just over there mentally writing this weeks grocery list in her head

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(Cyberpunk 2077) Gig: A Chance

V takes on a unique transport job from Rogue.

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“I got an important job for you, V.”

V is sitting in her apartment when she gets the call from Rogue. The famous fixer doesn’t give her many jobs, so of course the merc sits up, immediately intrigued.

“I need you transport someone out of the city- I can’t say more. This is an extremely delicate matter,” Rogue explains, “the details are better not explained over the holo. Come see me at the No Tell Motel and I’ll explain everything.”

“The No Tell Motel?” V questions, “not The Afterlife?”

“As I said, this is very delicate,” she reiterates, “we need to keep away from prying eyes.” “Alright. I’ll be right there.”

“Good. I’m waiting in room 110. And bring a car.”

The call ends as V stands up to get ready. She throws on her Samurai leather coat and grabs her katana and Malorian pistol.

Johnny, who is lounging on the couch, takes a drag of his cigarette as he watches her. “Rogue sounded stressed.”

“When isn’t she stressed,” V remarks. His digital construct disappears as she gives Nibbles a quick pat on the head before going out the door.

She takes the elevator down to the parking garage where her Porsche is parked. After getting into the driver’s seat, she turns on Body Heat radio and drives off to the No Tell Motel.

The motel is mostly empty, except for a couple druggies hanging about. V goes up to the second floor, to room 110, and knocks three times.

Rogue quickly answers and ushers V inside. “Good, you’re here.”

“So what’s so special about this gig?” V asks as she walks into the bedroom. “It’s gotta be pretty important for you to be handling it personally-.”

She stops as she sees someone sitting on the bed. It’s a young Asian boy, can’t be any older than 12. His black hair is neatly cut and his shoes and pants look expensive, but he’s wearing an oversized coat that doesn’t suit him at all. He stares at V with a suspicious glare.

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Myv is doing hard labor, no not that kind. shes still months away from THAT kind of labor.

Having to push her huge baby belly across the floor has got her thinking that she could use a forklift or a crane.

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