music, my therapy. 595959

$b have been a huge part of my life since 2014. when I found them, I was heavy in addiction. I was 24, on my way to ft.worth to make some very stupid decisions. was listening to three 6 mafia radio on pandora & heard a song that sounded like them but wasn't. looked at my phone and saw "$uicideboy$", chuckled & said wtf is this. obsessed ever since. related to them as people (same age) their lyrics & overall lifestyle & music influences. also got sober (7yrs now) *around* the same time as them - unknowingly. (in prison at the time) one of my biggest regrets: wish I woulda saw them when they first started out. unfortunately, I was already stuck in a continuous loop of destruction. I was busy just trying to stay alive/out of trouble, to be honest. ptsd from prison & anxiety has limited me from going these past couple years, bc "I didnt wanna go alone" but I allowed it to. I'm finally overcoming my fears & doing what makes me happy!

we're all in our 30s now & clean, after overcoming so much shit- makes me feel like we "grew up" in our mid-20s together. lame as that sounds. funny how your own thoughts can also be another person's lyrics. thank god for ruby & scrim, they've been helping ppl who struggle with addiction/depression/mental health issues all over the world through their music for a decade & I'm so proud of their evolution & sobriety. 8.14.24 will be LEGENDARY✨️🩶

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