i figured out i was autistic last autumn and ive been trying to partake in more like. autism positivity stuff for myself but ive found that i feel. really disconnected from a lot of it. so much of the stuff ive seen still feels infantilizing. i dont identify with the bright colored stim toys or bright patterned graphics or anything like that. it feels less like im being respected as an autistic adult and more like someone is jingling keys in front of me to make me pay attention