I received my end of service award the other day and I had plenty of words to give and plenty of thanks but when the time came I was speechless There are so many names to be thankful for in my army career who have helped me move forward and who have given me the strength when I didn't want to go on or when I wanted to quit. They know who they are cause i thank them everyday and show them im thankful. Not only are they there for me but im also there for them. Its extremely bittersweet how my army life is coming to a slow end. I Spent the evening with My army family whom love me no matter where i come from and where I’ve been and vice versa i alway knoe that We all have problems, we all have issues, we all have things that make us whole, but in the end we will love and support each other no matter what!! Guarantee!! I have loved this life and will always cherish it and the ppl. Thank you Aviation Army for this life and family. I can honestly say if i lose contact with someone and i ask for help out of the blue i will be helped no questions asked. Its a life worth knowing and an adventure worth taking. #bittersweet #army #aviation #family #mushycrap #yeahyeah #maybedrunk (at U.S. Army) https://www.instagram.com/p/B0peR-3B0pE/?igshid=1xgbo0zm0ut0x

It’s mushy season, guys. All the mushy cards, all the time. Well...that one on the right is not so mushy. It’s more...”I’m really sorry, and I know I’m the worst, can we be mushy again now please?” 💛🧡❤️💜💙💚 #valentine #valentinesday #greetingcards #greetingcard #lovecard #seaandlake #etsy #etsycanada #etsyCA #stationery #stationeryaddict #etsyseller #mushycrap #valentines2018 #valentinesday2018

So blessed...

To have found the most amazingly cute, out of their mind, crazy in bed, stoopid loyal, best fucking thing that's happened to me, Grade A snuggler, and drop dead gorgeous girl of my dreams. Can't believe I thought I had found that before. I couldn't compare anyone I've ever been with to her. And that ass.. 🙀 sodenomai3

Something like that..

Her beauty is endless. 

..like the sunset. But that metaphor only extends so far because the sunset eventually ends when it disappears behind the horizon.  But what I mean is, its beauty does not lessen the longer you look at it.  Imagine looking at a beautiful painting. It can be incredibly beautiful, but the longer you look at it, the more it becomes not all that beautiful. You become desensitized. Or like when you have your first bite of a meal. The first bit is always the best, and each successive bite loses taste.  The sun, on the contrary, sustains your awe the whole time its there. Its a beauty that you cannot become desensitized to.  You have to rip yourself away from it because its not gonna become any less beautiful no matter how long you stare. 

Her beauty is like that. 

Who wants to be my Valentine?! ;)

Just some thoughts (it's my tumblr/I'll ramble if I want to)

So... I don't like complaining or being negative and overall I am peaceful and happy. That is my disclaimer. However, it would be lying to oneself (and others) if I didn't express how sometimes I feel so incredibly alone in my life and endeavors. I don't like to drink that much, I am raw vegan while all my friends (and I quote) "don't give a fuck", I have struggled with disordered tendencies revolving food and OCD, and all this feels enough to set me completely apart from others my age (I'm 21). To top it all off I have never been in a true and meaningful relationship. I attribute this to not having loved myself - how can someone love you if you don't love yourself? But I just want to say on my tumblr/(online diary of sorts) that its not sadness that aches in my heart on these dark rainy days but instead a certain sense of melancholy. At this point all I can do is love myself and do things that heal my soul and only then will I cross paths with someone willing to take my hand and walk this journey with me. I won't be sad for myself or feel pity because if I think about how far I have come and what I have OVERcome - on my own, having lost friends who gave up on me, parents who took a long time to understand, etc. - then I'm truly amazed and honestly feel worthy enough to someday find that someone. I just sometimes get scared and think it will never happen but I am keeping hope alive. Xx