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hi lovely humans. this is a long post. but i need to talk about this. yes, i'm ranting, but i'm genuinely tired of this and i can no longer be the "i'll just deal with it" type. i read every person i look at interacting withs' rules. it's common sense in this community and not doing it at this point is kinda disrespectful in my opinion.
TLDR: (although you should read if we interact unless it's been for a long time, i know y'all understand my rules very well) READ MY RULES!
a reminder for anyone who wants to interact with me, my rules are important and it's obvious when people haven't read them especially the "female vs male muses".
one, i have a ratio rule of 1:1 male:female (i don't have nb/genderfluid muses rn so that's the ratio rn), if you are someone who doesn't care about ratios that is fine, i am happy to give more females if you'd like but my males come with rules. i prefer playing my femmes and being used for my males has irked me to no end over my many years in the rp community. now, to help myself stay on top of this there is a time limit for if you've posted a reply to my males and not my females, i've been giving leeway with it given my own health and the holiday season BUT next year, after my bday i will be enforcing the time limit again (of two weeks). as usual, if muse level is an issue, that is more than okay, i am happy to hold onto your reply to my male until you get around to having enough muse to reply to my female but otherwise, i will drop the thread after two weeks and it'll be a strike against me interacting with you. (note: i, whether queuing or directly posting, will post my male and female replies together/one after the other, this helps me so i keep the ratio especially if someone i'm rping with also finds it important, you can always not reply to my male and wait til your muse replying to my female is musey again. hold it in your drafts, that's fine, i am happy to wait. it's far better than feeling used. i do sometimes give slack with a couple of replies but over the past year it's been harder to do that given how disheartening it is (especially with my rsd).) also, if you reply to male muses starter, reply to a females too OR reach out to interact with one, not doing so makes it awkward for me because i then have to follow up on something that should be a no-brainer given my rules, which you should've read. i've legit been told once that they figured my rules didn't kick in until we interacted a little bit, that's not how it works.
two, sadly, f/f threads are still rough, there are a few muses/people i interact with willing to do them platonic and not but they are minimal rn. so most threads are m/f rn. m/m is still open but lower muse too. i get this isn't for everyone and that's totally okay. sometimes i will reach out and ask for f/f and you can do the same but it's not guaranteed. this also connects to three...
so, three, i don't rp with all female blogs. i understand some people don't like playing males at all and that is totally okay but this is my preference, especially when i don't have much muse for f/f threads having all female blogs like my posts to interact with me is.... bothersome. like, the f/f thing is on my pinned post and my rules, so you can't miss it if you're looking at my blog. which means you've liked something or reached out without giving my blog a real look at all or you've ignored/haven't read my rules or expect me to just to m/f threads with solely my males with you. that's isn't going to happen. i'm not kidding when i say there have been at least 20 all-female blogs in the past month that have liked interaction posts or reached out to rp. sorry, but it's my preference right now and will not happen.
#ooc.#this rant was needed - too much of this has been happening the last few months - especially this month and i can't
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Blog #20
01/01/24
Officially been at Taco Bell for 2 weeks and I feel like each day I work there I get better. Everyone is nice and the jobs not too too hard. There are some days that are harder then others, like on the 28th are was a song apparently by a country dude about getting drunk and getting tacos from taco bell, so it was so busy aaaaall day. Last night was a friend and it was busy til 1:30 am bro, shit you not. I wanted to die.
Everyday before work I have a meltdown because everyday I wake up, some days drive all the way out to Pocahontas to drop Caleb off at Peco where he works, then all the way back to Paragould, work til 3am, then go back to Pocahontas to pick Caleb up, get home at around 4:30am, clean the litter box, do dishes, go to bed, wake up and do the same thing over again at 2pm. All week until the weekends. I get that that's having a job for you and this is my first time doing full time and I'm not used to it yet, I want to be so badly though, but honestly it's not the fact that I have to work so much that bothers me. It's because these past weekends were always doing something and I haven't been able to do anything myself. Like someone will have a bday party or a baby shower, or we have to get our taxes done which we still haven't done.
Our anniversary is on Monday, it'll be 5 years. And Greene County is making do jury duty. At least it's only in the morning at 8:30. I asked off for that day and they didn't give it to me at first and I panicked really bad but it's all good now thankfully. Today me and Caleb are buying anniversary gifts for each other. He's going to Grateful Headz rn, he tried to be secretive about it but it didn't work. When he gets back I'm going to Grateful Headz and then Special Moments to get something special, idk what yet. I'm thinking lingerie but I don't know yet. Then after that we're gonna go to Spencer's!! I'm gonna get a beanie there and a gauge kit because I've been thinking since I got my septum last year to gauge my ears and now I finally want to really do it. I've seen so many people in the drive thru having gauges of every style and I want some now. I also been wanting to get my nails done but still debating on it. If I have money left over which I doubt I will, I'll get them done with Zoey. But I doubt I'll have money since nails are like $50.
- 2:56 on a fuckin Saturday mate
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So last week lots of jiara writers were posting their wips and we never got to see yours so what are your current wips if you have any?
Yeah see I got tagged but none of mine have titles til right before I publish them so I didnt think I had anything cool to share. I'm honored u thought of me tho!!
Rn I only have four I'm *actively* working on cause I try and keep my workload ~somewhat~ manageable lol
Current title: ana's birthday fic
@rcsales sorry babe this is gonna be like... two months late now. Probly more whoopsie. Basically I promised ana club smut and then I accidentally gave it a storyline and now it's at 21.8k and I still have three more porn scenes to write AND all the respective connective tissue, so. That's where I've been focusing efforts and I know its gonna take me a while to finish yet, but it is the filthiest, most sinful thing I've ever fucking written and I'm not even done with the first smut scene yet, so prepare thyselves
Current title: 'katie's bday fic'
Ditto on the apology to @aarchiess for the tardiness of said gift. This one is much shorter and deadass half way done but I hit a block and am trying to get ana's done first so hopefully I can slam it out in like 2/3 days once I'm done with the epic currently in progress. It's literally just van sex.
Title: 'home (where your heart is set in stone)
This is my roommate fic I have like 8 anons clamoring for and I SWEAR TO GOD GUYS ITS NOT ABANDONED!! I have the entire outline finished and I am still really excited to get working on it again, but I have the previous two fics to finish first.
Title: caught between (the devil and the deep blue sea)
Another multichap that looks forsaken but is not. @aarchiess and I brainstorm for this monster daily and it lives rent free in my head. We r still outlining and chap two is started, with a ton of other scenes half-written and conceptualized, as well. I want to finish the "oneshots" first n then slam out at least two chaps of home before I fully body this fic, but Katie works on it a lot in small pieces and we r both excited to share it with y'all
Floating ideas:
Engineering school au collab with @yellowlaboratory
5/6 n 1 abt ~sinful things~ collab with @hvitstark
A band au with rockstar!JJ and reporter!Kie that will probs be my next multichap after home and caught between are done
And about a million others that float around in my brain that I keep ~meaning to get to~
Anyway, thanks SO much for asking, and hopefully this is an answer to the anons that keep asking abt the multichaps... I'm sorry for ignoring y'all I get ~anxious~ lol. I swear I'm writing!! I just also started my first Big Kid 9-5 so I dont have as much time to spend on fic, and I've been trying to do less screens for mental health reasons, so even if the writing is going at a snail's pace, I promise the idea factory is churning at all waking hours.
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surveys 047.
What was the last thing to upset you?
just kile changing. it shouldnt upset me, it’s obvious we are changing and growing apart. it just bothers me, nonetheless.
How’s the weather been today?
It’s going to be a high of 76 today
What was the first tattoo you got or what would be the first tattoo you’ll get?
when I was younger I wanted those white tattoos. I don’t want anything now. I’m good with au-natural skin lol. I do wonder if Kile will ever get one.
What was the last store you went into and did you buy anything?
I can’t recall what store I last went to
Have you ever been late for school or work?
never for school. Work I was one time because of an accident ahead of me but that was nbd.
Do you prefer to shower in the morning or at night?
morning typically if I want my hair to be decent.
Do you dip your pretzels in anything?
gosh I miss pretzels.
What is your favourite kind of fruit cobbler?
uhhhhhh no real preference
Is there a basement in your house? If so, what is it used for?
yep yep. its got a spare bedroom, a laundry area, a bathroom, and a storage closet. It also leads out to the garage.
When was the last time you were intoxicated?
my birthday
Have you been swimming today?
No. I really would give just bout anything to swim.
Is your phone fully charged at the moment?
No, it’s at 81 percent
Have you driven a car today?
yes
When was the last time you felt extremely nervous?
tonight when waiting for responses from kile regarding questions.
When was the last time you cried?
Tonight. I hard sobbed, which I thought maybeeee, maybe just maybe I was past this stage with Kile but I’m so not. He maybe?? thought or realized I was genuine about leaving, given the fact I am more and more and more withdrawn. So he asked about us talking, since that’s the big thing we could tackle instead of just harshly cutting ties. He has avoided talking about this since I found out about everything.. I think it gives him a lot of anxiety to unpack just how much hurt he’s caused. I can empathize with that. But I can’t just gloss over this huge trauma like it meant nothing. So we talked a little bit and he assumed I was judging (which is one of my absolute least favorite things he accuses me of) and then when I explained I wasnt, he said he was just being sensitive and he was sorry. for whatever reason, I just.. i feel like a balloon that’s been popped. my heart just desires him so badly but he has these barriers and now I have a million of my own barriers and I hate having barriers with him. ive worked so hard for so long to break those down and now theres more than I can count and I just.. i want to understand. I want to stop the feelings that I’m not worth the truth. Like i’ve been kept in the dark for 6+ years and now that I’m told some things, I’m still kept in the dark. I just can’t win. there’s nothing left for me and it just wrecked me. I sobbed, I couldn’t breathe. my heart hurtssssssssss. i just want him to be here and fix it and he can’t. what do you do when the one person who could stop the hurt, causes it?
Do you have a small, medium or large bedroom?
My room is extremely small. I have hardly any room on either side of the bed.
Where was your first job and how old were you?
nannying at 15
Have you eaten soup this week?
no
Have you ever made your own survey?
years ago
Do you know your birthstone and if so, do you have any jewellery containing it?
ruby. I have no ruby jewelry sadly.
What colour is your hairbrush?
uhhh black and blue
Do you hear any other people talking right now?
max just proposed to lorelai in gilmore girls.
Are you a fan of The Office?
yes. I just have no desire to watch it rn cus I am not in a humor mood and I think it would ruin it for me.
When was the last time you started a new medication?
years.
What is your favourite type of nut?
pistachios
Where did you eat the best pizza you’ve ever eaten in your life?
aurelios in homewood
Do you know what year your parents married?
if I stopped and did the math.
Did you ever watch The Rugrats when you were a kid?
only when I was at someone elses house. we didnt have cable til i was 17
Would you ever shave your head to raise money for cancer?
maybe
Did you watch Breaking Bad as it aired or did you catch up later on?
never watched
Is there anything you’re looking forward to at the moment?
i would give just about anything to repair things with kile but that looks like its over.
Do you know anyone who doesn’t have a middle name?
Yup. my brother, nephew, dad, and his late dad all have the same name and it contains no middle name.
What is your fast food place of choice?
buona
How close is the nearest Starbucks from your house?
like 5-6 mins
Have you ever played in the snow?
errrr year
Do you know anyone who was adopted?
mhmm
Do you write shopping lists on paper or just remember it in your head?
paper. I would never get all the items for all three of us without visuals
Have you put your phone on silent today?
yeah. so this is embarrassing but hey, it is what it is. I changed kiles notification tone to something loud and noticeable so I would be alerted that it wasn’t just another blah text. but then I would be devastated to not hear it. so now for my own sanity it’s on silent. just as well, i’m not hearing anything from him.
Can you name all 50 US state capital cities?
MANY of them. if not all.
Have you been to the mall today?
I don’t think i’ve been to the mall since maybeeeee.. 2016?
Have you ever watched Scrubs? If so, did you like it?
no
Do you prefer loose leaf tea or teabags?
Teabags.
How often do you check your emails?
like every day or every other day.
Do you read John Green novels?
I’ve read a few of his books.
What was the last thing you purchased at a supermarket?
diabetic socks lol
Have you ever used a lawnmower?
yes
Have you ever played QuizUp on iOS?
I don’t have apple.
Have you ever consumed so much alcohol that you vomited?
once. it was worth it tho
Have you ever been to Thailand?
No.
Have you ever been to Universal Studios?
Yes.
Have you had a bath this week?
no, our bathtub is broken.
Do you like pumpkin pie?
very much so.
Do you know anyone who smokes in their car?
Yeahhhhhhh. blegh.
Have you ever seen a shooting star?
I have
Can you tie balloons?
I can. I can do it quite fast, which is convenient. every year we blow up these enormous balloon arches for the kids bdays, its about 200+ balloons and i hand tie every single one. my fingers ache for days, but hey.
What is your favourite place to get Chinese food?
number 1 chop suey or pf changs
When was the last time you were at a pet store?
its been a minute. i would give my left lung to get a golden retriever puppy.
Do you do a big weekly shop or just shop for groceries as you need them?
it usually is weekly.. ish?
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Ultimate Get to Know Me tag
So i was tagged by @stormof497swords to do this tag a hundred years ago lol but here i am posting it now
BASICS
Name: Alexandra
Bday: 12.06.96
Gender: Female
Color: Green
Time rn: 12:00pm EST
Lucky #: 9
Last thing I googled: Heart Emoji
Fictional Character: Spider-Man
Relationship Status: Single
Zodiac: Sagittarius
Siblings: 1 younger sister .. The Brat™
Pets: 2 pups, Daisy and JJ
Wake up time: 8:20am EST
Dream trip: Spain.
Hair: Short and weird gray-ish/green/blonde?? I need to re-dye it
Last song I listened to: Dream Catcher - Chase Me (stan these girls ppllssss)
Glasses/Contacts: Glasses lol I tried contacts freshman yr and it was okay lol..i ended up just sticking to glasses
THIS OR THAT?
Love or lust: Love
Lemonade or Tea: Tea
Coke or Pepsi: Pepsi
Day or Night: Night
Smile or eyes: Eyes
Small or Tall: Tall
Lip balm or lipstick: balm
City or Country: City
MOST RECENT
Drink: Water
Call: Mom
Text: King
Song: CLC - Hobgoblin (which is a fucking jam guys, listen to it..omfg)
Time I cried: uh last week i think..yeah
HAVE YOU EVER
Met a celebrity: I’ve been to Rachel Ray and saw Billie Joel Armstrong but I’ve never personally met a celebrity
Dated someone twice: Lol i’ve barely dated someone once, bye.
Been cheated on: Probably..jerk..
Kissed someone and regretted it: HAHAHA yes.
Lost someone special: Yes
Been Depressed: Lol..you betcha
Been drunk and thrown up: Nope
IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU
Made a new friend: Yes
Fallen Out Of Love: Yes
Laughed til You Cried: Yep
Met someone who changed you: Yup
Found out who your True friends are: YUP
Kissed anyone on you FB list: YUPPERS
EXTRA
How many people from ur FB do you know irl: Practically all of them unfortunately lol
Do you want to change your name: I used to but not really anymore
What were you doing at midnight last night: Actually sleeping which is rare lmao
Name something you cant wait for: TO GO HOME AND SET UP MY NEW PHONE and BTS COMMMEEBACKKKKKKKKK AAHH!
Last time you saw your mother: last night lol
One thing you want to change about your life: Just one thing? Lol
Have you ever talked to someone named Tom: Definitely, I work at a call center lol
What’s getting on your nerves rn: This damn Project I'm working on for work… ppl are dumb..
Blood type: A+
Nickname: Alex
Pronouns: She/Her
TV Shows: uh.. Supernatural, TeenWolf, Goblin, WFKBJ, Hwarang, Project Runway
long/short hair: Short
Height: 5’4”
Crush: lol..you thought
What do you like about yourself: My hands are pretty, and i learn things quickly.
Rightie vs Leftie: LEFTIE!!
1st Surgery: Never had one
1st BFF: Ashley Greene
1st Sport: soccer..duh lmao
1st Vacation: Spain ~ fancy ~ lol
RIGHT NOW
Eating: Pizza (free pizza day at work..yay me!)
Drinking: Water
I’m about to: Take a call
Listening: BTS - No More Dream lmao Throwback lmao
WANT
Kids: Adopted but not biological..nope
Get Married: Maybe...
Career: Lol at this point idek...smh
WHICH IS BETTER
Lips/Eyes: Eyes
Hugs/Kisses: Hugs are nice but i like Kisses toooo..sweet soft kisses
Taller/Shorter: taller
Older/Younger: Older
Romantic/Spontaneous: See, i strongly believe these 2 are not mutually exclusive.
Sensitive/Loud: Sensitive
Hookup/Relationship: relationship
Troublemaker/Hesitant: troublemakers
HAVE YOU EVER
Kissed a stranger: Uhm..no
Had sex on the 1st date: LOOL no.
Broken someone’s heart: Yep
Turned someone down: Also yep
Cried when someone died: Yes.
Fallen for a friend: Usually how it happens tbh
DO YOU BELIEVE IN
Yourself: when i can lmao
Miracles: For sure
Love at 1st sight: eh..
Tagging: @sheeter-solei @justnams @kimyoujinis186cmofpuregoodness @timon-wiffu @kimtaehansung @pikamelly @hyunas-gf @nerdyzelo @got-seoul7 @irl-parkkyung @napyo @internetyen @settleddownmp3 @aestheticsnort @jungkooks-princess @cucumbyeoll @wontaec @la-reina-giselle @ultrakdramamama
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1: Could you go the rest of your life without smoking a cigarette? Yup.
2: Are you single/taken/heartbroken/confused? Taken.
3: What if I told you that you were pretty? Then I’d tell you, you lying.
4: Ever been told “it’s not you, it’s me”? I dont think so.
5: Are you interested in anyone right now? Yes
6: What are you looking forward to in the next week? Seeing my baby!
7: Do you want to be single? No
8: Did you go out or stay in last night? I worked.
9: How late did you stay up last night? til 10am lol
10: Can you recall the last time you realized you liked someone a lot? Yes rn.
11: Last three things you had to drink? Sierra mist, and hots of crown apple
12: Have you pretended to like someone? no
13: Have you ever told somebody you loved them and not actually meant it? Once.
14: Honestly, has anyone seen you in your underwear in the past 3 months? No.
15: Is it hard for you to get over someone? Eh.
16: Think back five months ago, were you single? No.
17: What were you doing at 12:30 this afternoon? Sleeping.
18: Hold hands with anyone this week? No.
19: Could you go for the rest of your life without drinking alcohol? Yes
20: What would you name your future daughter? Sophia.
21: Do you miss anyone? Yes
22: Have you kissed three or more people in one night? No
23: Did your last kiss take place in/on a bed? No
24: Are you good at hiding your feelings? Yes
25: Have you ever cried from being so mad? Yes all the time.
26: Who did you last see in person? My parents.
27: Are you listening to music right now? Yes
28: What is something you currently want right now? My baby.
29: What is the last thing you said out lot? “yes”
30: How is your heart lately? Its good.
31: Do you wear the hood on your hoodie? No
32: Are you wearing socks? Yes
33: What do people call you? Mel
34: Will you talk to the person you like tonight? I am rn.
35: Are there any stressful situations in your life? Yes, very.
36: Who did you last share a bed with? My baby.
37: Did you do something bad today? Yes im a badass.
38: When was the last time a member of the opposite sex hugged you? On my bday.
39: Do you get stressed out easily? yes
40: Will you sing today? yes
41: Have you ever wanted to tell someone something but didn’t? yes
42: Who do you go to when you need to talk to someone? Brooke.
43: Have you ever been taken to the emergency room in an ambulance? No
44: What are you listening to right now? Best Part - Daniel Ceasar
45: What is wrong with you right now? A lot haha
46: What is on your wrists right now? Hair tie on my left wrist and a bracelet on my right.
47: Where did you get the shirt/sweatshirt you’re wearing? Arbys lol
48: What do you like better: hot chocolate or hot apple cider? hot chocolate
49: Do you make wishes at 11:11? no
50: Are you a good artist? no
51: Love really is a beautiful thing huh? yup.
52: Do you miss the way things were six months ago? no
53: Ever been on a golf cart? Yes
54: Do you have trust issues? no
55: Ever stayed up all night on the phone, with who? yes, my baby
56: Do you own something from Hot Topic? yes.
57: Do you use chap stick? sometimes
58: Have you ever slapped someone in the face? yes
59: Do you have a little sister? no
60: Have you ever been to New York? yes
61: Think of the last person who said I love you, do you think they meant it? Yes.
62: Have you hugged someone within the last week? Yes
63: What were you doing at midnight last night? Working
64: Have you ever regretted kissing someone? Yes
65: Is there one person in your life that can always make you smile? Yes
66: Were your last three kisses from the same person? Yes.
67: Have you kissed anyone in the last five days? yes
68: Would you rather sleep with someone else or alone? id rather sleep with my baby
69: Will next Friday be a good one? prob not.
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