Agito + Plant Body Horror

high on your love (m)

pairing: wong yukhei + reader genre: smut with a little plot word count: 2,1k warnings: recreational drug use a/n: i can’t believe a 2,1k self indulgent smut about yukhei... oh my god

summary: the smell of weed is already strong when you open the door to yukhei’s room only to find him in his bed, in only sweatpants and your promised blunt between his lips. there’s a song playing that you sure it’s from his sex playlist. corny as ever.

Friday nights were not made for writing stupid assignments on political tensions, you think as you angry smash your keyboards, writing another paragraph of bullshit. You had decided to take a weekend to yourself, to finally try and finish all the due tomorrow things you had, but it was proving to be a very hard task with you phone buzzing every single minute.

mina:

you should come to the NKT party

it’s litty!!

seulgi:

giirl where r u

xuxi:

hey babe

cum over

You roll your eyes extra hard at the last one. You and Wong Yukhei had met at one of his frat parties last year and you immediately felt attracted to his goofy personality. You were, as the kids would say, a moronsexual, attracted to dumbasses exclusively. And he proved to be a big one the more you got to know him. 

You two had hooked up that night and when his mouth proved to be good at things other than talking nonsense, you made the decision to go back to his bed for another time, and then another. Your little arrangement had been going on for a while now and it worked great for both of you. 

That is, except when he texted you when you specifically told him you had to focus on your essay.

xuxi:

r u really goin to ignore me like that

:/

y/n:

what do u want

arent u busy with the party

xuxi:

nah the partys boring

got horny and came up to beat my meat

but remembered u could do that for me instead ;)

y/n:

oH MY GOD

SHUT THE FUCK UP U R DISGUSTING

xuxi:

u love it :pp

so r u cumming over or not

y/n:

u are so gross

and no

i told you i have an essay to write

xuxi:

u can write it tomorrow

come oonnnn babe

i’ll save u a blunt

He got you there. You really needed something to get your mind off things, writing two paragraphs of your essay had really put you on edge. Besides that plus the prospect of getting fucked tonight sounded like a very good idea. There was nothing much to think about, you threw on some shorts and a sweatshirt before going out the door and sending him a text to let you know you were on your way.

y/n:

i’m omw

xuxi:

thats my girl

Another thing you forgot to mention was that in the middle of all the hooking up you had managed to develop very stupid feelings for him. Feelings that only aggravated when he called you his girl. 

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When you get to the NKT house the party is going at full force. There’s people passed out in the garden and getting throw into the pool. A typical frat party. You make your way into the house waving at Mina and Seulgi when you spot them but not bothering to go and actually talk, knowing full well they would tease you about only coming out of the house for a certain thing. That doesn’t stop them from whistling at you when they see that you are going upstairs and you just flip them off. The smell of weed is already strong when you open the door to Yukhei’s room, only to find him in his bed, in only sweatpants and your promised blunt between his lips. There’s a song playing that you sure it’s from his sex playlist. Corny as ever. “I can’t believe you are already smoking it” You whine, moving to his bed to settle in on his lap and taking the blunt from him “You said it was mine.” He laughs at how cute you are pouting and trying to sound angry at him. “You were taking too long.” He says, like that was reason enough and starts rubbing circles on your waist. “I was going to wait till after we fucked.” You say, taking a hit anyway. “You get sloppy and come faster when you’re high.” The offended look he gives you makes you laugh with your whole body and he pushes you down for a kiss to shut you up. You put the blunt aside, getting both or your hands free so you can put them on his shoulders and his lips move against yours. He must’ve started smoking before he texted you, because his movements are slow, a stark contrast to his usual eagerness and rushed kisses but you appreciate it nonetheless. His lips are soft against yours, his tongue licking at your lips asking for entrance and you can’t help but moan quietly at the way his hands are gripping your thighs.

“Your thighs are so soft.” He says, barely a whisper when you start kissing down his neck “My favorite thighs in the whole world.”

You laugh softly at his nonsense, moving to kiss him on the sensitive spot just below his ear making him let out a groan. He moves his hands to your hips to push you down on his lap making you feel his hard on pressing against the inside of your thigh. He always gets excited surprisingly fast after smoking but you flatter yourself with the thought that this is all because of you.

“You are already so hard, baby.” You whisper against his lips and he wastes no time connecting your mouths again. The kiss is messy and he’s rolling his hips against yours trying to get a least a little bit of friction. You indulge him with soft moans and whimpers and he can’t help but stare at the way you are moving in his lap with hooded eyes.  

“Want your mouth on my dick so bad.” He mumbles against your lips making you clench around nothing “Will you do that for me, huh?”

You ran your hands down his torso only stopping when they are at his hip bone, drawing little circles making him whine softly, always the spoiled brat. He’s looking at you like he wants to eat you raw and at the same time there’s the small trace of desperation in his eyes so you decided to not tease him for long, pushing his boxers and sweatpants in one go.

Ge shivers when the cold air hits his dick and your mouth waters when you see how red the tip is, shiny from the pre-come already dripping of his tip. His dick is not the biggest you have ever seen but the length of it compensates for the thickness and you love it. The moan he lets out when your tongue makes contact with his hardness for the first time makes you ten times wetter than you already are and you desperately want to have him inside of you already. But since he asked so nicely for a blowjob you kiss the tip sweetly before sliding your mouth down his dick, swirling your tongue around a few times making him buck his hips upwards.

You know he likes taking control, fucking your mouth raw until you are almost choking but tonight you want to take control so you press his hips down, running your hands on his thighs to help him calm down before you start bobbing your head up and down moaning around his length when he starts talking about all the things he wants to do to you.

You only stop sucking him off when he pushes you back on his lap. “You were about to make me come.” He says with his forehead pressed to yours and then he kisses you, tasting himself on your lips and groaning deeply.

You move off him a little to take off your shorts and sweatshirt, going back to sit on his lap in only your baby blue lacy panties that he seems to like a lot. His hands immediately go to your boobs, holding them softly with his big hands and pinching your nipples lightly making you let out a whine. “Fuck, you are so hot. I love your tits,” He says and moves one of his hands to slap one of your ass cheeks, gripping it tightly right after. “And your ass.”

“What else?” You ask, fishing for compliments.

“I love you sweet mouth and the way it feels around my cock.” He whispers and his words make your whole body feel on fire and you’re clenching around nothing again, ready to have him inside of you. “And i love your pretty little pussy, how tight it is for me.”

You moan just because of his words and he presses his hand on your damp panties, feeling how wet you are for him and it would embarrass you if he didn’t already know the effect he had on you. He taps your thighs a little to signal for you to remove your panties and you do that, throwing them around somewhere in the room.

He drags his fingers from your entrance to your clit, spreading your wetness around and making you let out a loud moan. “Please, xuxi” you grind down on his hand unshameful “Fuck me already.”

“Can’t fuck my girl without prepping her, huh?” He says but the moment he enters a finger inside of you he knows you won’t be needing much preparation tonight. he looks at you with a confused look on his face and you can’t help but blush. “I… I got bored while doing the essay and ended up fucking myself with my vibrator.” You explain making him grip your waist tighter and groan a low fuck.

That makes him choke on air. “You’re unreal, you know that?” He smiles at you, his hands fishing for a condom on his drawer. The look he gives you while he rolls it down his cock makes your stomach flutter and you get the urge to kiss him. So you do just that.

He kisses you softly, with his hands holding you neck, only stopping to mutter a few curses when you finally lower yourself on his dick. It feels amazing to finally feel you around him and he immediately starts moving his hips upwards making yourself bounce on top of him. He adjusts himself so his back is against the bed’s headboard and takes one of your nipples in his mouth, leaving tiny bites on it. You are a mess on top of him, whimpering about how good he makes you feel and how much you love how he fucks you and it only makes him fuck you faster, his hands pushing his hips down at the same time he fucks you from below.

You come after a few rubs of his fingers on your clit and screaming his name so loudly that if the music wasn’t so loud you are sure people would’ve hear it downstairs. He comes a few moments later, his thrusts getting sloppier and his head hiding on your neck, moaning quietly.

“Mhhm, that was nice.” He says, pressing a kiss on your forehead and removing yourself off of him, hissing when his dick is out. You get up from the bed, putting your sweatshirt on and looking for your panties “Where are you going? I wanna cuddle.” He whines.

“Stop being a baby. I gotta pee and clean myself up.” You tell him finally finding your panties and putting them on.

“Why do you always gotta pee right after?” He asks “Sometimes all a guy wants is some cuddles right after a good fuck.”

You roll your eyes from the toilet. “I read somewhere on the internet that it’s important.” You explain and you hear him mumble a quiet bullshit “Shut up, xuxi. It’s not bullshit.”

When you come back to the room he has already put on his sweatpants back on and greets you with his arms wide open and childish cheer that makes you laugh. There’s a frank ocean song playing softly on the background and you almost don’t hear the noise coming from downstairs.

You kiss lazily to frank ocean’s voice. He’s talking something about summer love and you feel warm, the butterflies in your stomach going crazy at the feelings you have always hidden deep down.

“____. I don’t wanna do this anymore.” Yukhei murmurs against your lips., making your heart hurt, but he’s quick to explain himself. “I mean that i don’t wanna just fuck you and don’t mean anything by it.”

Your heart is racing and you don’t believe the worst that are coming out of his mouth. you don’t believe that all this time he has felt the same way. “I… Fuck. I wanna take you on dates and hold your while we walk on campus. I wanna… make love to you or something like that.” He finishes and you don’t give him time to say anything else because you are kissing him, muttering that you want this too, have wanted it for a while and he smiles so big that you can’t help but smile too.

The next day he takes you on a breakfast date and holds your hand while you two walk down campus. Later you two finally get to finish that blunt. After you are done with that essay of course.

in which gabe tries to be a pal and misha is an unmovable object and also in which both of them are just kind of at their peak stupid 

Yesterday at 5:44 PM

golazano misha cant you just be happy about something without caring about what people think about it??????? Yesterday at 8:18 PM

gyeolsim hi to you too

golazano :/

gyeolsim don't twist your mouth like that you'll get stuck

golazano i dont care!!!! ill eat food sideways

gyeolsim how do you eat food sideways

golazano you just turn it like to the side

gyeolsim but then it'll fall off

golazano not if you go really fast

gyeolsim holy shit that should be a sport

golazano eating fast is a sport i think

gyeolsim where do i sign up

golazano i dont think we have a team

golazano but!!!!!!!!!!!! moire and i were talking about a competitive ice cream eating team!!!1

gyeolsim holy shit i could do that i don't get brain freeze

golazano why not???????????/ everyone gets brain freeze!!!

gyeolsim i don't

golazano WHY

gyeolsim i'm russian

golazano so what, you have ice in your brain???

gyeolsim yeah it's hard in the summer

golazano thats so fucked up but i guess it explains why you were acting like a DINGUS

gyeolsim when have i ever

golazano TODAY!!!

gyeolsim when

golazano today this day the 13th

gyeolsim oh thanks i was about to write the date on this essay

golazano yeah np anyway stop being a DINGUS

gyeolsim why am i being a """""""""dingus""""""""""

golazano you punched a guy

gyeolsim well yeah he was hopping on my dick

golazano thats why you punched him

gyeolsim yes

golazano because he was hopping on your dick about what misha

gyeolsim me n moire but it's fine whatever other than that my day isn't so bad hey how about we eat ice cream as fast as we can but hear me out while sliding down a slide in a playground

golazano interesting idea misha but hear me out DONT BE A DINGUS

gyeolsim what if some asshat is gonna be out there saying lewd shit about me and moire i'm gonna hand their ass back to them

golazano misha how about you just be happy about you n moire instead of brooding about some asshat!!!

gyeolsim i'm not brooding !

golazano ooooooookaaaaaay buuuuuuuuuut i think if you were happy it wouldnt bother you so much

gyeolsim gabe we've known each other for how long like seven year s?

golazano yeah?

gyeolsim you have to have heard what people say about it me my home life sucks

gyeolsim i'm a junkie i sucked the entire football's team dick i like to whore myself out to fat men in business suits late at night in blackedge you gonna tell me i should just keep walking

golazano yes! i am!!!! because i think you've done enough punching and you should let other people watch out for you! not moire though, she needs to keep walking too!

golazano do you think if you told this to val she wouldn't do anything?????  i even got my brother to mess with someone over it!

gyeolsim no don't tell val she's just gonna fuzz over him and make a big deal and make it public with like

gyeolsim an anti bullying campaign or some shit i can handle it it's fine

golazano oookay buuuuut it's been years sooooooo like take a back seat for once okay??

gyeolsim i don't need no one to fight my battles for me

golazano ok stoic action hero we all know you're sooo strong!!!!

gyeolsim ok now you're just being a dick

golazano so what :P

golazano misha take a fuckin vacation!!! for like a week!!!! ill handle it for you okay???

gyeolsim why

golazano so you can just take a week and chill with moire ok????  i weigh more than both of you put together so im pretty sure i can handle both of your fights!!

gyeolsim did moire tell you anything

golazano just assume i know everything about everything ok???????

gyeolsim wait um

gyeolsim okay uhh okay

golazano just take a fucking vacation reznikov!!!!!!!!!!!!!1

gyeolsim and what snitch if someone catcalls me that's stupid

golazano yes you are going to text me the name, misha!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

gyeolsim they're gonna think i'm a fuckin coward

golazano that's not your problem and it'll be an even bigger surprise for them when they try again and you punch them yourself after this week is up!!!!!

gyeolsim then you'll get detention

golazano so be it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

gyeolsim that's not fair

golazano yes it is!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! let someone else help you you absolute dump truck!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

gyeolsim why are you being so insistent

golazano BECAUSE YOU ARE BEING STUBBORN AND STUPID WHEN I AM TRYING TO HELP YOU

gyeolsim chill

golazano im going to stick your head in the toilet and FLUSH IT AND YOUR HAIR WONT LOOK ANY DIFFERENT

gyeolsim go ahead

gyeolsim try it you coward

golazano COME ON WHERE ARE YOU

gyeolsim the locker rooms

golazano ew im not going in there

gyeolsim what are you scared

golazano i have a super powered nose dumbass!!!!!!!! only thing  im scared of is your SOCKS

gyeolsim that's low even for you lozano

golazano you know what it smells like in there

golazano am i WRONG?

gyeolsim no no you're not i'm coming out then we can fight it's only fair

golazano fine!!!!!!! come out of your stinky safe house reznikov!!!!

gyeolsim fine you better be ready for this

golazano ready for what??? you tryin to bite my ankles???

Episode #7: “david smokes WEED. thats his personality in a nutshell.” - Scott

this merge is TEA!!! like honestly i have no idea what i'm gonna do because i actually have so many things i can do in this merge... like i have the choice of realigning with my old tribe or jumping on the other side with some of the others like.... this is exciting!!

MERGE, MOTHEREFFERSSSS. Man, what a time to be alive. Not only did Danielle and Michael survive their tribal, but the original Mercia has now come into the merge with numbers. Beneficial at first, but eventually they all gotta go, haha.

Right now, I'm sitting pretty with two major alliances, both of them have Felix in them as well. The one with Danielle and Michael and the one with Ahrre. Combining these two alliances will be beneficial to me, as well as continuing my social connections with Mo and Tobi. Tobi is a target for me, cuz I know how well liked he can be, so I have to get him before he gets me.

As far as this first immunity challenge, I wanna win to make a statement. I wanna show everyone that I am a fierce competitor in all aspects of the game. And as far as the vote goes, I'm hoping we can get an original Sweyn out. Don't know who yet, but we will have to see based on these challenge results.

Merged? This early WHAT. (Malik was fukin robbed)

Lowkey am nervous, while I dont want to play tribal lines as I think thats boring. I dont want to assume it wont happen. Im in the minority tribe so its something I have to be cautious of. I have to try to branch out to new people and start something soon to put myself into a powerful positon.

Ryan, Jones and Tobi are all good with me from my old tribe. So is Scott from the first tribe. I think this could easily work aswell, as I think Scott is close to ryan and tobi, and maybe if im not mistaken Jones aswell. So this is an easy platform to start from.

However if im honest. I dont think im anyones 1st choice in that allaince. Malik was the only person I knew they had my back. So im going to try to play the line of being inbetween for the first couple of rounds so i can get a solid footing.

WOOO, I MADE THE MERGE. This is the best thing bc now i have options now and im not limited. It seems that it will devolve into a tribal game which i dont want to happen but ill just go with the flow.

okay so hi we MERGED! WHICH WAS MY BIGGEST FUCKING WORRY BC its 7-5 mercia-sweyn now.. and missus david already trying to get mercia to stick together on og lines 24 hrs in.. LMAOOO. like when has that ever fucking worked out saying that dumbass.

like the tea is.. nobody on sweyn is close to wes so its basically 8-4. but i have tobi + michael to make it 6-6.. and im working on mo/ahrre rn just so that they wouldn't personally vote me bc i need to limit the targets so if we need to use ryans idol we can lol.

i still dk how to feel ab dani tho. i feel as if she could play both sides really effectively and thats scary af.. it's just tellin people what they wanna hear to prove im with them and getting them to keep quiet hehe LAMFJNHFBFG

david/wes are the primary targets to go first for me tho. and hopefully i win immunity so my ass aint grass lol

Ayee it's mergeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

So malik is dead and I'm back with all the lads from my og tribe, and I've been getting to know the guys from the other tribe. So scott flipped on Malik last week because it seems that Michael is close to him. Michael already told me David is all about keeping things Mercia strong and he's not feeling it that much, as for me I have no reason to target anyone so I'm gonna lay back and keep my options open.

Unfortunately the I couldn't find the Mercia idol so someone else probably has it I think. However my alliance with Felix and David is still pretty useful because now we're working on getting the merge idol, hopefully we'll get there before anyone else.

As far as the challenge goes the wikipedia search is always fun but I won't try superhard, it might be risky but I would rather be vulnerable these first couple votes instead of making myself a challenge threat.

Oh also the name of the tribe is Kirby, the best smash brothers character, so that's nice

david smokes WEED. thats his personality in a nutshell. cant wait 4 him to leave.

we merged <3__<3 i'm happy. i'm not playing a good game at the moment but i'm here bitch. i'm seemingly in a minority 7 to 5 based on og tribes but i'm not sure if that's strict or not. Scott told me Michael told him that David said he wants og Mercia to stick together... but why would Michael say this to Scott lol idk. I think there are cracks but I'm not going out of my way to find them right now....

also right when we merged, Scott mentioned to me that Jones told him the idol was found... which is funny lol she ran right to him at merge, and has never mentioned idol searching to me. Not surprised or suspicious at all, but noteworthy

omfg you know what's weird.... right after i sent the last confessional i get a pm from Jones and she just brought up how she knows the idol is gonefkadhfasd is she psychic

Hiiii, okay so didn't come close to winning immunity, LOL. But honestly that's actually okay with me. People will probably start to see me less as a physical threat.

Right now, Michael and I are working towards getting Wes out, and then Mo next. Tribe lines are still very much there at least from my perspective, which is better for me cuz I'll always have many options on who to take out.

I have a lot to talk about so I'm just gonna write a whole ass ESSAY IN THIS BITCH (something minor but cute) I CAME UP WITH THE TRIBE NAME!! It's perfect since the color scheme is pink, it's "Kirby Muxloe Castle", AND Kirby is just a pleasant video game character?? I loved it, the tribe loved it, and even if they didn't, AJ picked it anyway! SOOOOO,, life is swell in this chilis tonight,, RN everyone on the merge tribe seems p chill! I've talked with mostly all of them, so I feel like I can give my opinions? I adore Mo and Michael since they're my irl friends obviously,, but I'd love to actually work with them in game more yk? I've only said hi to Felix, but he seems nice. David is a comp threat and apparently he's already thinking about staying Mercia strong like,,,ok bud. Dani seems like a mess btw - A FUN MESS, but we told her twice that the immunity challenge was out and she was still like ????? oh wow???? she seems neat though. ALSO I LOST IMMUNITY. BY A FUCKING LOT. seriously how the fuck does someone get 3 for each wiki link like ???? I'm convinced Rhys is a wizard. Thank god one of my allies is a wizard. Scooty tried making me feel better by telling me I did better than the abstainers like :^) thanks king! um but yeah, it seems like right now the name everyone's throwing out is Wes and I'm totally fine with that - wes hasn't talked to me since we got back together and has proven that he's a challenge threat yk? so yeah, that's my life rn, I'll probably spam the hosts with more confessionals in a few minutes so you're welcome <3

Ok so I just got off a call with Felix and it seems that everyone is voting for Wes which I’m fine with because it isn’t me. BUT. David was the one who threw Wes’s name out to begin with and as we’ve known previously David dropped my name first the round Jose was eliminated and David also immediately threw my name out to Felix during the puzzle round like “If we go home because of Mo we’re voting him out” meanwhile we were on a team with Wes, him being the only person from another tribe on the second Mercia so we know he’s not loyal. So my concern is that next round unless I’m immune, my name will be the first name he drops. I don’t want that and neither does Felix. So Felix is going to talk to some people about voting David out next round and I’m going to talk to Jones about it. I’m close friends with Jones and I know she won’t talk about our conversation to anyone. So if the plan backfires and someone tells David that we’re trying to backdoor him. They’ll tell him that it was Felix who dropped his name thus he’ll probably want him gone over me. I know that’s shady of me but I’m still allied with him and I wouldn’t betray him but it’s more of a last resort plan ahead of time if that makes sense.

i've been quiet for the first few days of merge and just letting people come to my pm's and chatting with them and i think it;s working out rly well for me, i'm laying low and don't think i'm a target... apparently Wes is the prominent plan going around and i haven't heard anything else. Felix messaged me for the first time and we talked for a lil and then he realized who I really was and that was funny fsdjkf. Then he brought up how he thinks David is arrogant and a threat, and how he's preaching to keep Mercia strong.. and he wants to blindside him next round after Wes leaves. wig? i'm down sis lmfao. He was like "I have Mo, who you got?" and i mean idk why my 3 other ppl from Sweyn wouldn't go for that as well, so bam.

but i'm not gonna run to everyone and start initiating that shit bc it aint necessary. i did mention it to Jones on the sly though just bc we were chatting anyway and idk it doesn't hurt to share some tea sometimes lol.

so tribal is Looming. uhm. as far as i know wes is the target by like EVERYONE lmaoo i thought mercia 2.0 was gunna keep him around but nope.. little do they know OG sweyn dont give a shit ab him

and then missus felix goin around saying david is next after wes? bold move cotton lets see if it pays off lol liek we aint even done with this tribal.. and his ass is def gunna overplay doin it WATCH

luckily for me i have michael tellin me everythn.. i have jones who trusts me and we are gunna work with mo.. ryan rhys and tobi all love me. thats at least 6 ppl who have my back so thats 7 votes on my side so.. im kinda untouchable atm and if anyone tried to come for me id know LANDKDNG

ig my hitlist rn is wes > david > dani > felix tbh but thats just tea

These birches. They tried to beat me. But this bitch outsold. I won immunity. Lowkey only tried to win it cause I thought there was a reward and there wasn’t whoops. I also probably only won because I knew what to look for in the challenge cause I’m English.

Anyway this tribal is kinda boring. Like I woke up to the plan being solid and set, on Wes. Which worries me, if this is reoccurring that the plan is sorted when I’m asleep I’m gonna be a goat. This can’t happen.

So I’m told Wes is this vote and next vote is David. Which I’m happy about. As Wes is a goat it seems due to his terrible social game. Which if he stays he would be used as a space which makes it harder for me to stay and set up a winning game. David is someone who probably wouldn’t work with me, so that benefits me him being gone. However i need to make sure I’m 100% safe this next round and the one after. So I need to work on my connections outside people I knew before merge and make an alliance.

Im VERY nervous about this vote i havent been as active as Id like this round so I could be in HUgE trouble let me talk to people and figure out how screwed I am

Working together is for sure the smartest option just to get that damned idol two heads are after all better than one so me and Scott are gonna have that idol. To me the vote is pretty clearly on Wes I’ve heard no opposition and I can’t see anything changing in 3 hours but I’m gonna keep an eye out because who know what will happen.

uhm so. mercia stayin silent in my dms. gr8. :)

im always nerv that im gunna be blindsided but its impossible rn i think ? bc ryan/rhys/jones dont vote me.. tobi wouldnt.. and michael wouldnt.. so itd be 6-6 at best if it was to come down to it. and i feel as if id hear it by now LAMFHNBG

idk i just hate these mercia ppl.. theyre so dry n awful. can og sweyn - wes just be the f4 pls?

Ok so I MERGED and i was so shook because it happened all so fast. This game is flying by for me. I had to abstain from the challenge because I was still on vacation. I’m trying the best I can to stay active and shit but I’m finally home. Wes is gonna be an easy vote this week since everyone says he isnt active and shit LMFAO  

Wes is voted out 10-1-1.

Imma write you an essay So go and tell me how you grade it I’m a valedictorian a+ with my time if I take it Ooh don’t you realize this appetite So insatiable When youre the one who creates it You push me to the ends of my patience So outta line at my worst And I do the most at my lamest You know that isn’t who I am so I hope you understand when I say shit Trust I realize second chances aren’t the only thing we’re made with The thought of you with someone else has my mind fucking racing Panic then I lose it Only lies I ever tell you are my words filled with hatred Those words I wish I could erase them Let’s face it It wouldn’t be love unless it’s part crazy Lately Been extra out my mind Breaking Cause idk where to find complacence The right thing to do idk and I’m blanking The right choice to make I’m so unsure and I’m spacing This path we travel may bend and twist With rocky patches and broken pavement But every time we’re together it’s like you’re lost and found So If ever I see your heart I hesitate and never know if I could take it I only want it if you give it to me The most sacred of all I’d never break it That’s why every time I see you whatever the cost I’m down Whatever the price I’ll always pay it I can’t turn around on you without turning back like hold up Hang on Still waiting Same fucking thing Never fucking changing You kill me in the best and the worse ways Why you gotta be so dangerous Treat you like an object? The fuck is that statement? My attracted to you means less like stand in line Take a number Well where’s my fuckin place then? You lump me in with everyone else Well I’ll run your little rat race with a devilish smile and see you at the winners circle first place Bet Pull my number then Any chance well I’ll take it Call you out on the shit and follow you into the basement See I’m basement down for you It’s too real to ever fake this Got my heart in my hands holding it up for you to take it You have no idea the perfection we would make if... Ughhhjhkhdhajahbsbsbsj Like I’m outta fucking words Its so crazy For me that’s saying something Yeah so crazy what you make me These are my feelings in the rawest form Every feeling you extract from the madness in my head To the proof in my heart Feels torn like perfection into breaking Like caught between every decision I try and make see Which is normal for my process but with you It’s always different in every way I search for the middle ground But with you there’s only middle ground with no balance I can’t calm my ass down Anything about you I get rowdy Extra handsy I’m so sorry not sorry So goddamn me Every time I trip over words Yeah you love that attention If I can’t handle myself That without fail gets you smitten Over there smirk and smile “oh Johnny won’t you listen” Idk what the fuck you do to me That’s my baseline Everything good, bad, and in between you get from me like it’s a given You listen Idk fuck you I hate you I need you I can’t stand you I don’t know what to fucking do I gotta have you I wanna keep you Wish I could forget you I don’t need it Always fall apart without you Then repeat it So run my smart mouth like a dumbass I hate my bullshit wear a dunce cap Put my life up on that booty Watch you run that Make it bounce back Cart pusher grocery shopper with an appetite snack-time and price check ahhhhah yes if only you knew what it’s like daaaaaaaamn I doubt you’d ever fight back Fight that feeling I argue with you cause it’s the ones before me That broke all your believing I’m a different breed I know you fuckin see me I love you hate you need you so dearly And when it becomes this same fucking mess Please just use your selective hearing And that’s when I’ll start calling Only written texts will be poems and my words stalling Prolonging before I lose it I wish the times you were falling was for me Instead of losing yourself when I’m foolish Why is it my words can drag you down And pull your troubled thoughts to the surface When you’re drowning When life won’t won’t let you breathe How come I can still bring you peace That’s like me when I’m panicked When imagining you with another person I can’t fucking stand it That’s when I feel fucking worthless The worst fucking pain I’ve ever felt in my whole life like kill my purpose I never knew anything could ever hurt like this Thats why I’m drowning over you daily And even though it kills me I’ll die for you every day you’re still worth it Even if that never ever changed I can’t ever let you go I know I hurt you It’s never your fault you don’t deserve it I’m fucking sorry How I make you sometimes feel that’s what I deserve then I won’t ever let you drown Even though sometimes I’m a fucking mess hurting over what never happens Always drowning Embarrassed Falling down So toxic, sick and twisted I wouldn’t call it love if it was any different Fucked up and destructive the only way I know love and how to give it Break it down and build it up just to break it and try and fix it I’m not too stable and you’re so fucking different You can ride all my emotions As I suffer through your indecision No matter how you try and see it Me and you always balance dispositions I hate you I need you I don’t fucking understand myself But I always fucking get you If you’re an object Then I’m a tool Stop thinking and let your heart guide you too Those are the only words I don’t want inside you And no matter what they are I’ll hear them And hold them And accept them Or try to For you I can only ever try to Idk what the fuck you did to me Yet I still like you You fuck me up I’m sorry if I do I don’t wanna fuck you up But only if you’d like to Maybe just a little bit? I think you’d want it all I’m always right too Oooooh imma stop there I can’t lie I could never stop there unless you try to Know I still try to I’ll always try to You get all of me I can’t help that though I try to I just want all of you Because I promise I’d love you I do already Or at least I try to Complicate the fuck I’m passed complicated I’m at impossible to fucking make sense of this shit You know I always try to And even though you kill me some nights Other nights you bring me back to life too Subtle vibes and perfect green eyes You may be crazy But I’m the one losing their mind like a fool It’s just so hard to be chill When you’re so fucking hot Damn that’s a fucking shitty line to end this with Just know it never ends in my mind when it’s about you Mollsie and skateboard ‘til I die bro You both fuckin wreck me But you always break my rules anyway so it’s gucci it’s chill The fuck you gotta be so fucking lame And so fucking cool Foreal I hate you And love everything about you Goddamn it wtf did I do Letting you into my life Even though you don’t fuck me I’m still fucking screwed The fuck dude I hate you I love you too You’re my favorite Always Forever Never ever fucking know what to do You