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saint-patrice · 5 years

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Tbh I would like to have the 34 *other* Bergy pics on your shortlist, complete with commentary lolol. And then (if you’re still waiting that is) any other Marchy pics with commentary? xD xD

oh my godddd you are my favourite person anon - ask and ye shall receive 😎 i should maybe warn that while this doesn’t have actual nsfw content you probably wouldn’t want to read this to your kids as a bedtime story. anyway, here we go:

this was very close to making the original list. i like the soft lighting and the kind of floofy hair, yet he still looks like he could absolutely fuck me up (both like in a fight and various other ways). this photo gets me thinking some thoughts ™ if i am being honest

a literal saint and god amongst men right here. his brown eyes are so soft and his little smile puts me at ease. this is a man who would treat me right (fact). this photo is also from quite deep into the playoffs so the beard is going a little wild, and whilst i’m glad it isn’t like this all of the time, i very much appreciate it when it’s around.

O CAP’N MY CAP’N (sorry zee). nah for real this exudes some real sexy alternate energy. if i were on the opposing team and i saw this formidable man just skating around looking like that i think i’d just go back down the tunnel and hide in the locker room. this man will fucking kneecap you for the sake of a goal if that’s what it takes. and then i remember that it’s patrice and he’s the nicest man alive and he would literally never, but that’s still the energy this image has. and i ain’t saying i don’t like it.

okay this is just cute. they look like 2 dads who aren’t entirely sure how to take a selfie but are willing to try. the outfits lend this a slightly chaotic energy - i can’t commend zee’s colour combo if i’m honest, and when juxtaposed with the plaid shirt it kind of hurts my head. but it adds to the dad energy so i still love it. also this is from chara’s ig and the caption is super sweet.

DADS WITH THEIR KIDS ALWAYS GETS ME. i don’t even want kids, nor do i particularly like them, but seeing a man with his child is the cutest thing in the world and this, predictably, is no exception. patrice’s son 100% has his eyes which is really cute. speaking of patrice’s eyes, he may be smiling here but if you look into his eyes all you will see is fear - that child does not appear too bothered about remaining upright on the ice, and i suspect thay bergy is concerned about this. it would be criminal for me to not comment on the jeans. bergy has some exceptional thighs as these jeans do an excellent job of highlighting that.

this is Hot, and i’m not accepting criticism on that opinion. the crisp white shirt w no jacket or tie, and the top buttons undone???? i need a lie down. the hands are also making a nice appearance which i can always appreciate. basically what i’m saying is that i’m jealous of that snake this is an excellent photo and i owe the bruins instagram person a drink for posting it.

do you remember when i said bergy had marvellous thighs? well take a fucking sip babes - they’re like tree trunks carved out of carrara marble. if i have to die i want it to be because they crushed my skull. this is also one of the clearest photos i’ve seen of his tattoo, so it has that going for it too ( sidenote if anyone has an image with literally a pixel of his tattoo pls send it my way, i’m getting desperate at this point). i also think men in jewellery is a good look so i’m digging his beaded bracelets and silver chain. fantastic picture all round.

yeah okay there’s no escaping that the main reason this one made the list is 🍑. it’s exquisite. those pants also do a great job on the thighs too. the hair, socked feet (no i dont have a fetish i just think ppl in their socks with no shoes is kind of funny), and hands get an honourable mention

is this the only picture that has ever mattered? i’d believe it. patrice just lovingly gazing down at his son giving his hockey husband a handshake? you just can’t beat it. i have also been emotionally ruined by that tiny #37 jersey oh my

in the interest of being polite, i will describe this look as rugged. he has probably objectively looked better but i just like this photo and awful lot.

i don’t think i can give any commentary on this without saying something genuinely not suitable for public eyes. the 2 things i will say are: the only thing keeping me going completely feral horny looking at this is those pants,, if they were black or navy i’d be dead; and patrice i am begging you to do up a few more buttons on your shirt or remove it completely or i’m not going to live much longer.

oh man i just love this??? i can’t even explain why. the lack of much beard and the expression in his eyes just makes him look massively soft - i would give him a kiss on the nose and a cuddle in this photo

(gif via @gaudreau) i am slightly loathe to admit this bc it sounds weird but cuts and bruises can sometimes be a real look so this checks that box for me. his smile when he talks truly is one of the finer things in life too. also the lil shrug. i love you mr pikachu

a** fantastic **angle. this is just prime beautiful bergy. excellent level of beard imo, the lighting shows off his v nice bone structure, and the nose is looking fab as always. weird observation of the day is that his neck looks nice in this

i mean obviously this had to go in - lord knows it’s fucking iconic. i have so many questions about how this situation came to be (aside from the fact that alcohol was involved. did brad initiate it? or patrice? why are they spinning? what the fuck? how the fuck? why was i not invited?) but anyway, this photo increased my thirst for a shirtless bergy photo at least two-hundredfold. at this point it’s a need not a want. i don’t think i can continue to comment on this without straying into nsfw territory so we’ll leave it at that. oh the things i would do

classic humble patrice making an appearance here, reminding us that he is not only the most handsome bastard to ever walk planet earth, but he’s a great guy too. just can’t hate him. and boy is he handsome in this gif. excellent stubble (im really invested in his facial hair if you hadn’t noticed), and the smile that could melt even my cold heart on display here. also bonus points for the previously mentioned thing about cuts/bruises. (sorry). i love this one

in contrast to some of the prior ones, this picture is so cute that i can make nothing but pg comments about it. this is exactly the same face we all make when someone points a camera at us and says “cheese!” and i love that. the man looks good in white. good, wholesome content right here.

(gif via @weekendatbergysblog) okay the baby is cute but the fucking headband is what gets me in this. i’m able to make no further comment because this short circuits my brain.

(gif via @davidpastrnut)when i first saw this gif i had to go find the source video because i didn’t believe he actually said that but i’m here to tell you: he did. i love these hockey husbands so much. also i saw this tagged as “# hot waiter” one time and i still haven’t got over how accurate that is. someone more talented than me, i’m begging you for that fucking au

(gif via @gaudreau) can patrice please stop looking up ??? it’s unfair that someone can look so good just looking in a direction what the fucK. he’s so stunning.

i love this one. brad pulling his hoodie down like that looks like he’s... soliciting and honestly who could blame him. bergy looks very cute, if a bit edgy in the all black. the hand is a treat in this one hooooooooooooooooo yes

this one show’s off patrice’s dark features very well. it’s amazing how he has such dark hair, dark eyes, big dark eyebrows, and dark facial hair, yet it doesn’t overcrowd or shadow his face ( except occasionally in awful lighting) ??? does anyone actually know how that works?? he’s looking very pensive here, and that hoodie looks oh-so-cosy. absolutely would cuddle.

**how cute is this y’all. **in case you thought you were just missing something, no, patrice is not sitting on a chair. he’s just maintaining that deep squat like a champ. maybe that’s the secret to his sublime thighs... the navy/deep red is an excellent look on him, and we get a rare glimpse of bergy with his wedding ring, which i find to be oddly cute. bonus points for him being beside a very cute kid too :)

(gif via @jakedebrask) this, i, ummmmm. i- uhh. just. um. yeah. so like. uhhhh... swiftly moving on

(gif via @davidpastrnut) this motherfucker and his handsome fucking face even looks good in that god-awful wooly patriots hat. honestly it looks like he’s about to go out and have a snowball fight (presumably with brad). decidedly rather domestic and i love it

(gif via @davidpastrnut) intense media patrice is intense. this is such a classic bergy face though, i love it. every time some media person asks him some big long question he puts on this exact very-invested-and-slightly-concerned face, its iconic. looking cosy in a hoodie once again. stop it.

nice polo, dude

(gif via @davidpastrnut) that tshirt looks like its fighting for its life to contain those biceps. a dark, brooding patrice that has some sort of slow burn au stirring deep in my mind. from other angles in this interview the tattoo is fairly visible also.

this has such a strong energy it almost knocked me off my feet. again, i can see this being some sort of business or maybe criminal masterminds au. but fuck me, does that man looking something beautiful in a suit. the one hand in the pocket is quite frankly BDE too. i’m glad i’m not into dadkes or esle i think this whole picture would be too much for me.

he is literally the kind of man you’d want to bring home to your parents. i’m glad he seems to have cashed in on the navy/deep red combo because it really does suit him. he looks so fucking dapper here i may be very much in love

another excellent on-ice shot of him, albeit his slightly concerned expression. the beard is looking fucking crisp here hello sir. not much else to say on this, just a handsome, handsome boy.

(gif via @jeffsamardzija) another one that gives me Thoughts. he’s literally so beautiful. hair is cut a little shorter than usual on the sides and on anyone else it would scream fuckboy but i’m kind of digging it on bergy, at least on this one occasion. if i say anything else we’ll go down the rabbit hole

oof this is_ intense. _bergy aside, this is just an incredible shot tbh. rare that we get to see mr perfect not completely level-headed and playing it cool so it feels like a treat when we do. lowkey hot ngl

last but very certainly not least, mr patrice bergeron, four-time bergeron award winner, holding the award itself. this photo honestly just makes my heart swell a little with pride - it’s what he deserves!!!! just absolutely dapper in a beautiful suit as always, and a smile that could topple a nation to round it all off.

thank you so much for this anon!!! it was rather self-indulgent but i hope you like it :) also i will absolutely do another one with marchy, although my nails have been dry for about 2 hours now so i’ll probably do it tomorrow or friday, but it’s on its way :)

#i will credit gifs in a minute #im on desktop so i need to look them up #i'm sorry this turned into a literal essay holy mother of fuck #its literally 2k words #answered #bruins #Anonymous #bruins photos compilations #bergeron

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across-the-music · 5 years

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Long post about my ED, recovery, and self love

A number of things have happened these past few days that call out for a reflection.

I have an eating disorder. I've lived my life with this partner for around six years, since I was only twelve years old. With ups and downs I've been on a journey for recovery. This is path is a constant struggle, that requires a lot of effort, and it never truly ends.

I'm not overweight. I do have a body that doesn't exactly fit into society's model look. I'm short, I have big hips, a large back, thick legs and huge butt. And I have done terrible things to this body of mine, because it doesn't fit into society's ideal.

And in the past few years, even though I don't starve myself anymore, even though I've stopped puking and even though I gravitated into a "healthy" lifestyle (exercise, good meals) there's always a voice in the back of my head saying I'm fat and guilty for it. As if I was guilty of living.

So I still exercise and count calories. Or I did. Things changed a bit this year. And I couldn't be happier.

I have two friends who don't have a diagnosed ED. They haven't been checked out by doctors, they haven't had their brains poked by psychologists and psychiatrists. But they struggle with their "not pretty for society" bodies. They struggle with food. With self esteem. With living.

One of them tells me they cry in front of a mirror when they have to go out clubbing because they can't find anything that, according to her mom, looks good on her. She's beautiful. And this is not me talking, this is every guy she has eating from the palm of her hand. And everybody mocks her because she is allegedly fat. When she's not even chubby. So she struggles with that constant reminder that she doesn't fit into society.

I keep more in touch with the other friend because we're closer, and we have conversations about this topic pretty often. Because pretty often she reminds herself she hates her body. She talks to me about it because I understand her, because I know how it feels, and I find myself reliving moments of my life through her.

Yesterday, she told me she was not going to a party because there was a pool and she can't wear bikinis nor see other girls with bikinis, because she knows she doesn't look like them.

The first 3 years of my recovery I invented excuses to my friends in order to avoid going out with them. I said I couldn't stand fast food so I wouldn't have to eat at McDonald's or Burger King. Because I couldn't eat that many calories. My brain wouldn't let me. Now I feel I skipped years of my life because of that.

I didn't eat at quinceañera's parties, I didn't eat at parties in general. And I have developed digestive problems because I kept myself away of certain foods. I'm lactose intolerant and I now I'll never be able to share pizza with friends (tho I also hate it bc melted cheese is gross, but that's besides the point) because I swear it makes me feel terrible abdominal pain.

I hated guys because I constantly felt they were thinking how ugly I really look and that has deprived me from enjoying things like sex, nights out, and even relationship attempts. Because it felt like drowning having to eat in front of a guy. I constantly felt boys were judging me.

ED's affect your health but they also affect your social life and that has an emotional impact that is hard to explain. I felt guilty when doing all of those things: going out with friends, eating at McDonald's, undressing in front of someone else, wearing shorts, tanktops and bikinis, taking pictures of myself (did I mention I only started taking photos and uploading them on instagram on my second year of recovery?), dating, eating the entire plate of a meal even if it was so delicious I wanted more. I felt guilty for living. For living a normal teenage life.

This year I have made amazing progress, of course taking into consideration the advances I made in past years of recovery. I've enjoyed myself, I've done things I had never done like eating full meals and eating fast food more than once a year. Because I felt comfortable. Because people made me feel comfortable.

And I have to mention that these past few months have been very important, because I have never felt more in peace with my own body. I'd like to clarify that I still have that voice in the back of my head but I can ignore it like a champ. And it all has to do with the people that surround me.

The second friends has recently found a boyfriend. And she told me yesterday that she doesn't want him to see her because she's disgusting. They don't have intimacy.

I have also recently started dating someone (actually it's been a couple of months). I realised something changed thanks to his constant reminders that I am beautiful.

I was on a trip this year that students completing high school traditionally do here, and it consists of going out clubbing every night. Night outfits were a nightmare for me, because of my body type.

I sent pics of my outfits every night of this trip to my partner and oh my god he made feel like the prettiest, sexiest girl on the planet. And so I didn't mind if the tanktop I bought didn't look like it did on the mannequin when I wore it.

We went out eating. And I could it with freedom, because even if he mocks me and calls me gordita (which is "fatty" but has a different connotation here, it's a like a loving pet name), he tells how obsessed he is with my legs, my ass and my body in general. He tells me how my fat cheeks are so puffy he loves to squeeze them because he feels happy and how he thinks they're the prettiest things he's ever seen. Because even when I feel disgusting he tells me I look gorgeous.

And so my friend hasn't had sex with his boyfriends because she can't overcome this imposition of society to have a certain body. And I can safely say I have never felt more comfortable undressing in front of someone than with this guy.

So much so that yesterday I wore a bikini in front of everyone and I felt confident about myself. He has given me confidence.

And I've never gone out so much to bars and restaurants, I have never wore so many different outfits, I have never felt so much love for this body. And it's because of this new environment. Because of my friend's telling me I look pretty. Because of my boyfriend making me feel safe. And because of feminism. It has given me the tools to accept that the normative that society has made us praise IS WRONG, is unreal. It has given me the ability to perform art with my body in front of everyone and not be afraid to do it. Because there's not reason to be afraid of living.

And now I eat. I eat everything. I enjoy snacks with friends, I enjoy beer, and I enjoy dinner dates. I don't feel guilty anymore.

I feel like I'm getting back all the years and experiences anorexia took away from me. And I won't stop untill my friends can feel the same way.

#tw: ed behaviors #ed #eating disorders #anorexia #bulimia #recovery #self love #self esteem #feminism

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