OKAY! Chatot rant in tags below! Read at your own discretion.

I’ve made a billion fucking drafts and can’t find the words to talk about cellbit and bagi from today. how the fuck do you explain the intricacies between a brother who has lived a life that has sharpened him to cut what he touches, and a sister who had to live with his absence? a man who has to see the childhood he never got to have whenever he looks at the woman he now knows is his twin? said twin who cannot understand why her brother would be anything but glad they are reunited? how do you get across that tangled mess of emotions cellbit had to get him to burn his old pet worm? the paradox of longing for what could have been while desperate to get rid of any reminder, with a healthy dose of paranoia that anything could be a federation bug. or the pure devotion bagi has to decide to stick with her brother even though he is not close to the same as he was when he went missing? the unfairness of it all, of cellbit being taken and made into a killer before he turned 14, of bagi looking for him at the detriment of her own safety and self, of ripped up childhoods and everything that could have been? the fact that the first thing cellbit asks is what he could have done to deserve it? the disgust he holds for himself for what he’s done, and the anger he has for the federation that’s taken everything from him, and the resentment he has towards bagi no matter how unfair it is because she never had to go through what he did? how after bagi swore to help him burn the federation down, cellbit went to bad instead, because bad was there and fought alongside him, and he trusts bad because he’s seen him at his worst, and all he feels like doing is his worst right now? the two of them so similar still because they’re consumed by their need for revenge, while bagi just wants to leave the island? how the fuck can you summarize all this and the emotions that accompany it?

obsessed with the thought of august saving pav when you don't ((im .so fucking normal dear god pl))

+ extra 🤨

girlhood

See I saw a creepy ass post from a popular blog and blocked them, it’s not the end of the world.

sometimes I wonder what bioware actually wanted to achieve when they wrote the whole anders arc and then decided how they should treat it in DA:I. like they created a guy who was helping people in need for years risking his freedom and sometimes even life and then they said you know what this guy is BAD and WRONG. actually much worse than organization that ultimately fails at its main goal which is maintaining peace and balance. oh that poor chantry lady who didn't even try to keep her favourite templar and her mass murder tendencies in check

Just wanna remind everyone that it's NEVER okay to tell someone to die.

You don't know how hard they're fighting to stay alive every day. Or if they don't even want to fight for that any more.

god i need more long mp100 fics i'm too used to literally devouring like over 100k fics and now i can't read one shots anymore because it'll take me like. 10 mins.

strong winds make me so irritable i feel pissed off and annoyed

im gonna start screaming in 3...2....1....

I am so fucking sick of living with my roommate and his fuck ass boyfriend. Also watching my roommate burn every single one of his (already rather minimal, I might add) bridges for this guy is also kind of painful but also his relationship with me is one of said bridges so I'm almost past the point of even feeling bad for him lmao

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i know ppl got social anxiety and i get it but also i have very very bad hearing + audio processing disorders and you need to speak up or im going to ask you what huh about 4 times in a row

i hate being that friend who always has the decent job compared to everyone else in our age range. i’ve always been several steps ahead (not that i think im better than anyone else) but i always end up paying for everything bc my friends will grovel about not having any money. i got too used to it and now i just dropped over 3k moving NOT TO MENTION another 7ish working on getting all assets in my name and other necessities and stuff SHARED with my roommate i swear if she doesn’t pull her weight i am going to go insane

the funny thing is if i had time traveled back to the day i wrote that review in the first place and been like hey beautiful woman. so in like five years from now an eighteen year old is gonna copy paste this onto a completely different website with ur face and first name attached and like hundreds of thousands of people are going to armchair diagnose you and call you ugly and say the most out of pocket shit to you about yourself and your parent for the next three years on and off and also it will ruin your relationship to a beautiful movie that you love and saved your life i probably would have just done the thing i was going to do instead of write that review: kill myself

Been watching some dbs related videos and I'm sosoo glad I gave up on that anime because oh my god the story gets worse with every arc. Wtf are they even doing anymore