I think anybody who thinks autism is more "accepted" nowadays is either in denial or can't see outside themselves. What we actually did is just popularize a really weird infantilized perception of autism that focuses on the symptoms that can be repackaged as "cute" or "quirky," and are continuing to treat people with inconvenient or even upsetting symptoms like garbage. And no I'm not talking about bigots who pull the "I'm literally neurodivergent" bs I'm talking about supposed allies telling me I'm acting like a child for getting too emotional when I literally have "Can't Regulate My Emotions" disorder, or that I'm moving weird, or that my voice never has the right tone to it. Sorry my autism doesn't stop and end at hand flapping and dinosaurs lmao I can gaurantee I'm not enjoying my meltdown any more than you are, buddy! In fact, I'd say I'm having a far worse time than you! I do not make a choice to be emotionally volatile nor do I feel good when I get upset. It's not my fault that emoting "properly" is a performance that takes energy and I really can't do it 100% of the time. Like idk it honestly feels like I still have to mask in supposedly progressive spaces just in a different way.

And of course this doesn't even start to get into people with higher support needs than me who are rarely acknowledged unless they themselves are doing it. It's one of the reasons those posts that are like "Do you think neurodivergence is just autism/adhd, and not (heavily stigmatized other disorder)?" rub me the wrong way. They always seem to be addressing the most sanitized version of autism possible which strikes me as counter intuitive to the point being made. And don't get me wrong, as a system I understand why it's being said but it just really frustrates me because the people these posts are about don't actually think severe cases of autism or adhd are neurodivergence either! They treat higher support needs people with the same disorders like shit!

No I do not think anyone who's ever made a post like that is a bad person nor do I expect every post to have a disclaimer containing every possible nuance but I do think a lot of them are not written with the existence of high support needs or "weird" autism symptoms in mind, which inadvertently feeds into this "palatable autism" thing people keep doing

hai :3 what actually is the deal with amegaotaku i feel like i missed a bunch of lore here

haiiiii

to be quite frank im also missing most of the lore but

to give you a rundown of what i DO know:

at some point a few years ago amegaotaku (fandom blogger?) got into beef with some people younger than them and got pretty severely clowned on for it, one of those people being user nonbinaryjew (who seems pretty chill honestly). no idea what this og drama is or was.

after this, amegaotaku picked up the habit of sending people asks saying that nonbinaryjew (and anyone else who talked about her) were just trying to smear her and were ableist, ageist, and biphobic, because she happens to be autistic, in her thirties, and bisexual. this also would lead to asks that clearly showed she didnt even really check who she was sending these asks to other than that they were vaguely associated in circles near her nemesis because shed send things like "make sure you have in your bio info on whether or not youre in your 30s, bisexual, or disabled" to people like me, who make that stuff pretty apparent

the asks vary in nature but almost all of them are copy-pasted and sent en masse. i thought she was botting honestly but tonight she was responding to peoples responses so it seems she may just do this???

a lot of times she'll throw out really bizarre accusations. tonight she accused @mdq of being a biphobic ableist and they havent even...interacted

these asks arent really constant-- instead of being the occasional message to a blog over time, a lot of blogs (usually people who are mutuals with each other) will get them all within a few days or a week of each other, and then things will go silent on the amegaotaku front. she just sorta pops back up, and i think she may name search for when people talk about it? honestly i dont even know what the original drama was it had to have been a few years ago she just has continued this weird little cycle. if you see her send one to a mutual of yours she'll probably end up sending one to you OR it becomes really easy to bait her into sending one just by joking about it with her name mentioned (see: a mutual saying her name 3 times with candle emojis as a play on bloody mary and her responding) or interacting with the og post. this has not helped her lolcow-esque status

she also appears to make throwaway blogs to message/rb from people or at the very least did so tonight and then immediately deactivates them? which is a little strange given everyone knows who it is. maybe its just more convenient

anyway if you get an ask that has any of the characteristics of the above you shouldnt take it personally because its probably just a copypasta being sent without real regard for who its being sent to lol, which means most people just think of the whole thing as kinda a joke

Elf, spirit, poltergeist, Queen, Castle, Fairy and Unicorn

Elf: What are you proud of?

Hm. That’s a hard question to answer. I suppose I am proud of my writing - I like to think I have something of a way with words.

Spirit: Have you ever been in love?

I don’t know. There are people I have loved, certainly, and people I have had romantic feelings for. I’m not sure I’d say I’ve been in love, though.

I mean, I feel like being in love requires a deeper connection than just having romantic interest in someone, and I find it rather difficult to disentangle romantic feelings from strong platonic ones. So - point is, there are two people I might say I was actually in love with.

And I was really quite young, 8-10, when I knew the first one, so to say I was in love with her feels odd, but it was about as close as one gets at that age, I suppose. I mean, I considered trying to re-establish contact after our friendship ended by sending her a Taylor Swift breakup song (If This Was A Movie, if anyone’s curious) and comparing us to various romantic relationships in media. And I STILL thought “yes, this romantic song and these romantic pairings perfectly describe how I feel about her, but she’s just my Good Platonic Friend” lmfao. Even after I figured out I liked girls, it took me a while to figure out I’d liked that particular girl, lol.

The second one… you know how that turned out. I’ll just say that we were, um, definitely very close. I had very powerful feelings for her but I can’t say, even now, that I know what they were. Coming to grips with what her true intentions were hasn’t helped matters. :/

I’ve never been in a proper romantic relationship though.

Poltergeist: Favourite song lyric?

I have a lot. Just a few of them:

“But don’t you think that I’m a runner / I’ll be coming with my guns up, shootin’ at the moon to bring the sun up” - Nonsense, Madeon

“I know I’m not the center of the universe / but you keep spinning ‘round me just the same” - Heavy, Linkin Park

“I drive fast and I rumble the hardest / I don’t feel alive if I ain’t in the fight” - Hurricane (Johnnie’s Theme), Lord Huron

“I’ve been a teacher and a student of hurt / I’ve kept my word, for whatever that’s worth / never been last, but I’ve never been first / oh, I may not be the best, but I’m far from the worst” - Trouble, Avicii

“I feel like I’m falling, but I’m trying to fly / where does all the good go?” - Miracle, CHVRCHES

Queen: Age?

*points at bio* 16.

Castle: What is something that not a lot of people know about you?

I don’t know that there is much, lol, I like to pretend I’m Deep and Mysterious but I’m actually a massive oversharer.

Oh wait, hang on! I can speak French at about an A2 level. I don’t think many people know that one.

Fairy: What is something that you get excited about?

People showing me basic human kindness.

Also: Good autistic rep, music, space - or cool science stuff in general really, analysing media through a queer lens, and of course soap operas (when they’re actually good).

Unicorn: Who do you look up to?

Greta Thunberg - I really admire her. Seeing an autistic person my age be such a successful activist helping to make real change, and not letting her detractors and their ableist harassment get her down… it’s very inspiring, much as I generally hate to use that word in regard to disabled people.

Tim Bergling (better known as Avicii) - He was an incredibly talented musician with an incredibly generous heart. He gave a lot of his money to charity, and when he got the opportunity to direct one of his own music videos, he used it to raise awareness of human trafficking victims. And despite getting so famous, he never let it get to his head. He just seemed like a really lovely person and I admire him a lot.

Pete Wentz - Honestly, I look up to him because he gives me hope. Because he’s really struggled with mental illness in the past, even attempted suicide once, so much of his life has been so messy and difficult. But… he’s persisted. He’s made it to 40, he’s a famous musician running a record label. And he’s been very open about his mental illness, even the less ‘pretty’ symptoms, and so many of his songs are proudly dedicated to ‘lost kids’, people who experience the world more intensely than others, and it makes me feel like maybe I’m okay, maybe the way I am is okay and maybe I can get through things and just - god I love him so much.

Laura Jane Grace - She’s a badass anarchist and awesome musician who’s proudly trans, what’s not to like? Also it’s just really nice to see an older trans person… out there… existing. Because there are so few role models out there for young trans people to look up to, and that combined with the suicide rates being so high can make it feel really hopeless. So yeah, seeing a trans adult out there achieving things means a lot to me.

Are you autistic?

i seriously considered just ignoring this but i figured there’s a chance anon here genuinely doesn’t mean any harm so instead i’m gonna explain why this really isn’t an okay thing to do. obligatory disclaimer: i’m one person, everyone’s experience is different, but here’s why this ask was rough for me to receive (and why i imagine it would be for at least some other people).first, and most importantly, i have only ever been asked this question unprompted (that is to say, without me mentioning being on the spectrum which yes, i am) as an insult and usually a particularly cruel one at that. like no one has ever unprompted said to me “are you autistic?” as anything other than an attempt to cut me down, point out that i’m weird, or doing something bizarre, or just generally as an effort to bully or shame me. it’s often followed by even more mockery and unkindness. even if that wasn’t your intent, asking someone “are you autistic?” without any qualifying info, on anon, when they haven’t even made a recent post about autism, is gonna trip alarm bells for a lot of people. it sure as hell did for me. secondly, that’s personal info that i’ve clearly chosen not to share in my bio. i don’t mind telling people i’m autistic, generally, but i prefer to have it be my choice based on the person (hence why i almost didn’t answer you but decided this was likely enough to get lost in my blog that it was worth it for the teaching moment) because, as demonstrated by the above, some people make really shitty, ableist assumptions about it. i, for instance, would never want my boss or potential boss to know. so this really isn’t an okay thing to ask someone you don’t know and definitely not an okay thing to ask someone you don’t know and who you haven’t even given the courtesy of answering you privately or knowing who you are. additionally, i can’t imagine any reason why an internet stranger would want this info that is good. tbf, there may be one i’m not thinking of, but given that this ask has zero context i’m only left with anxiety. if you really want to know if someone is autistic, particularly if you have a reason beyond mere curiosity, i’d suggest messaging them off anon so they have the choice to answer privately or at least sending an ask with more context about why you want to know. anon, i really hope you weren’t trying to be mean to me. i hope that you were just trying to sate your curiosity about me as a person (and maybe, specifically, why i have traits you tend to associate with people on the spectrum). if that’s the case, i’m not angry with you or trying to shame you. i just felt that it was better for me to explain why this question stressed me out and made me not want to answer it than it was to just ignore it. maybe you had another reason for asking. if you did, i wish you would’ve included it and maybe you’ll follow up with me, if this hasn’t scared you off. which i hope it hasn’t, as i’m genuinely not mad (again, assuming you weren’t trying to be a dick. if you were then fuck you get off my blog). sorry i wrote a novel, i just have a lot of thoughts/feelings about this question due to past experiences. nonny, i hope we can still be friends.second disclaimer: i also have pretty severe anxiety and a LOT of pretty bad experience with bullying so it’s totally possible that i’m completely overreacting here and 99% of other autistic people would be totally cool with this ask in which case my bad. except not cause my blog my boundaries.