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#like lightheaded from sobbing unwell! happy almost father’s day everyone
wormsdyke
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11 months
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god people really will say the most fucked up stuff to people who are not palatable in their mental illness!
#i’m feeling really really bad tonight!
#like lightheaded from sobbing unwell! happy almost father’s day everyone
#they weren’t kidding when they said trauma therapy can make you feel worse before you feel better
#have been replaying a conversation in my head where someone i loved tore my guts to pieces and i apologized for being a problem at the end
#i keep going back to those text messages and seeing ruthless she was and how i said i was sorry for being this way and she accepted the apol
#apology
#was talking about my decade long series of complex trauma bc a trauma anniversary was coming up and i was struggling
#and she told me how i put the trauma before her and she was more important and i shouldn’t care that much about it
#i told her she was perfect and right and i was sorry i wasn’t being better and more grateful
#i was telling her how scared i was for my dad to inevitably die from alcoholism and am how i’ll carry that grief always
#and that was so selfish of me bc why does he even matter when she was there. he was dying and i was wrong to be upset about it.
#she also said some things after that that genuinely make me too nauseous to type out. and i agreed because i had to make it up to her
#and now we don’t speak and i just have to keep living with that. i just have to keep holding that sickening shit she said in my head
#it was the way she talked about me when she was mad that she wasn’t enough to fix all my problems
#mad that i still had trauma even though she existed
#and the way she talked about my dad and generally substance abuse disorders
#and i apologized to her for it. i want to throw up
#vent post
#j.
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