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INTRO :: LONG JOURNEY
——— like butterfly wings
the end of the trimester marks a new point in hwang minjun’s life. through the many twists and turns, he’s gradually shaping himself and spreading his wings.
minjun isn’t my first muse of the year, but he is the one i’ve grown incredibly attached to, with connections i never imagined he’d have. i missed the halfway point of the year, i meant to post this on his birthday, july 10th, but better late than never, right? this also serves as a thank you to everyone who plotted with minjun—he continues to develop as a character because of you all, both he and i can’t thank you enough !
PERSONALITY
not a lot has changed in terms of his personality, he continues to be a person eager to please, an overachiever at times, to the point where he’d push himself a little too far. he’s learning to overcome this flaw, to let others take care of him, listen when he’s being told that he’s working too hard. to give himself a break when he needs it. he’s opening his arms to different types of people, more than happy to accommodate all types of personalities if it meant building friendships. at the end of the day, he still has a lot of love to give.
CAREER
the beginning of it all—the valentines event drew out minjun’s infamous aegyo, which went viral within the blink of an eye. it may not be as significant as what follows, but it’s still an event that brings a smile to his face.
fear accompanied him when he auditioned for project origin, but the experience made him realise something important—what matters is that he stayed true to himself as he performs, gives it very best with every little stomp and twist, pour all he can with each move. and eventually, he’ll be rewarded.
type zero chipped away at his confidence, the pressures of being a replacement were heavy on his shoulders. gradually, he learns that he doesn’t have to deal with it on his own—after all, type zero is a group first and foremost, lifting one another up. it’s fine to be himself, he doesn’t need to pretend to be someone else.
being a part of project origin and legacy boys gave him opportunities he wouldn’t dare imagine even in his wildest dreams. the tour opened his eyes to new heights, brought him out of his shell, introduced him to a greater stage, one he had the privilege to perform on, including a solo performance. boarding a plane hadn’t been easy, minjun never ventured so far before. it’s a terrifying experience, but one he wouldn’t erase.
RELATIONSHIPS
a recap of minjun’s connections thus far, from his point of view.
minjun finds himself facing pages of the past when he reunites with ( @lgcinsoo ), a fellow dancer from his old days that he used to admire. to his surprise, the reunion was far from awkward, ending with a promise to hang out whenever they find the time. though they’re walking different paths now, minjun will always be rooting for insoo. he hopes the time they hang out again will come soon.
( @lgcjiho ) had been another plushie collector, and was the person who managed to draw out minjun’s aegyo, causing him to go viral. in a way, minjun owes jiho his thanks, even more so for always seeming so eager to join him in his little tea parties. he believes project origin drew the two even closer, what with their shared fear for airplanes. they comforted one another like friends would, minjun won’t forget that day.
not all has been smooth sailing, he hit stormy waves when he went overboard with ( @lgchunji ). he’s not sure what he had done wrong specifically, but he knows it had to do with his desire to extend his hand even though he had been warned against it. minjun wants to fix things, tape back the string of friendship that he had broken. however, that isn’t his decision to make. either way, he can only hope hunji is thriving with whatever it is he’s doing. hunji helped him realise that there is merit to sticking to his own lane, to not shove himself into situations that doesn’t concern him.
he tried again to help someone else, ( @lgceunji ) this time. seeing her in a seemingly bad state after the prank worried him, and he did what he can do. offer a silent comfort and company, then gifting her one of his prized possessions, a small bear plushie. he intends to check up on her every now and then, even if he’s busy with the tour. he thinks of her as a little sister he wants to protect.
although it took a few days to adjust, he found friends among the type zero members. his worries were eased after his conversation with ( @lgcxking ), and minjun isn’t shy to admit that he admires the other for his determination and strong will. king’s bravery shown throughout the tour, like when king invited him to bungee jump, but also when king challenged himself to take part in babysitting services. he has a lot of respect for king.
among the project origin members, he finds himself adoring ( @lgcharu ), someone he can’t help but feel like he wants to take care of. discussing their characters aided minjun in figuring out how to ease himself into musical acting, something he had never done before. he had a lot of fun with haru throughout the tour as well, spending a part of their chuseok holidays together.
his encounter with ( @lgcemil ) had been one he hadn’t expected, meeting the other in the practice room when he intended to practice into the late night. he can’t hide his concern for emil, and although he doesn’t want to overstep his boundaries, he wants to become a friend that emil can count on whenever he’s feeling a little down.
there are a few special mentions. ( @lgceunho ) bonded with him when they were locked in a practice room, and although minjun would rather not get himself in such a situation ever again, he’s glad he had been stuck with eunho, who is a fun person to be around. panicking with ( @lgcxminseok ) over the april fools prank and playing with the animals in the shelter was a delightful time. during the project origin tour, he had a blast with king, ( @lgcyonghwa ) and ( @lgcmax ). yonghwa seems like a reliable older brother that minjun can count on. max’s bursts of energy draws out his own, there’s never a boring time with max. he didn’t know ( @lgcjueun ) before babysitting services, but as it turns out, taking care of kids together is another good way to bond.
YOON SHINHA
——— forever you are my star
( @lgcshinha ) appeared to him like a storm, wrecking his world in the best way possible. he encountered the enigma that is yoon shinha when he reached out towards the same cat plushie that the other did. it’s an out of the blue suggestion when he said they should share the plushie instead, but he wouldn’t have it any other day. that was the beginning of something beautiful—an encounter with an impact that will last a lifetime.
it’s a little funny when it turns out they ended up as roommates, but that makes it easier for them to take care of their little family. looking back, minjun isn’t sure when exactly things started to change between the two of them, where they drew the line between friendship and something else. it’s hard for minjun not to fall for shinha though, not when shinha took care of him like no one else ever had. the illusion of having a family with the other felt more real as days go by, to the point where minjun is afraid that he’d eventually do what he does best: overstep and ruin everything.
he had never, for the life of him, thought that shinha would feel the same way. and yet, after a long night of rigorous practice and a shared night in their dorm with no one else around, they laid their feelings out on the table. it all happened too fast, but it still felt like it was yesterday. minjun recalled the beating of his heart picking up pace, too quick for him to keep up. he remembers the tears that were in the corner of his eyes, ever the emotional person he was. but they left things up in the air, until...
july 10th, minjun’s birthday and the day the stars aligned. shinha keeps proving himself as someone minjun can’t help but think he doesn’t deserve sometimes. the gifts shinha bestowed upon him that day is enough to make his heart swell, he remembers feeling as if he’ll burst. a mix of emotions coursed through him that day, but overall he can say that he’s elated, he’s in love. that is further confirmed when shinha asked him out, and the tears he usually would try so hard to hide flowed almost endlessly. they became one that day, but minjun feels as if they were always one.
with project origin taking most of his time, he wasn’t granted enough time to spend with his beloved, but he can’t complain—not out loud, at the very least. the tour had been an experience minjun wouldn’t trade for the world, yet he finds himself thinking about shinha whenever he’s alone with his thoughts. texts and video calls weren’t nearly enough, he missed shinha’s presence by his side most of all. it was torture, but he believes in shinha, in their relationship, in them. minjun knows they can go through whatever hardships may come.
seeing shinha again during kcon backstage brought forth the longing he had been feeling the past month. but they’re strong, if they can survive a tour, then they’ll be able to handle worse.
a new trimester begins, and future dreams is knocking on their doors. minjun doesn’t wish for much, but if he could wish for one thing—he wants the both of them to debut, together.
THE ROAD AHEAD
above all, minjun intends to debut. he knows he’s meant to be on stage, and he wants to prove that he’s worth it. he doesn’t know what future dreams will bring, but he’s eager to show off what hwang minjun can do.
there are a lot of people he still wants to befriend, particularly those who will be participating in future dreams. there may be a competitive element, however friendly rivalry isn’t a bad thing.
he’s eager to brush up on his language skills, particularly japanese. with the workshop, that may be achievable. there seems to be a strong market in japan, so he wants to try it out.
despite the fun time he experienced in babysitting services, he’s eager to try out the other two variety shows. he isn’t the best at cooking, but masterchef legacy piqued his interests.
#{ journey. }#( checkpoint. )#( this is LONG overdue )#( sorry for the notifs @ everyone i mentioned!! )#( hope i didnt disturb u or anything... )#( thank you for plotting w me and minjun!!! )#( i really appreciate it more than i am capable of letting on... )#bc mentioned#lgcshinha#lgcjiho#lgchunji#lgceunji#lgcxking#lgcharu#lgcemil#lgceunho#lgcxminseok#lgcyonghwa#lgcmax#lgcjueun#( the shinha section....... sorry *gags* )
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i 𝗰𝗮𝗻'𝘁 see underwater
TW : mentions of blood, crying, negative thoughts, self-harm
‘I bet ya parents are proud of you huh? Went away to become an idol and can’t even become that’ the words stay in Emil’s mind, no matter how and what he tries the words stay, it’s like a little animal biting into him that he can’t get off. He tried punching a wall to get out the words and his anger, yet the only thing that came from it was bloody knuckles. Now he sits here, hands covered in blood and cheeks covered in tears. The words shouldn’t have hurt as much as they did, but they did, damn did they hurt. And there was one very good reason for why they hurt, because they were true. Emil had basically ran away from his parents in order to “become an idol” but even after three years it felt like he had gotten nowhere, he hasn’t improved in dancing, he can’t sing even if his life depended on it, the only thing he really can do it create lyrics and rap it. Oh why did he every day have to be reminded of of how he isn’t perfect, back in Denmark he could simply just believe he was the best because he could do everything, here? Here he was constantly reminded that this wasn’t the truth, and no matter how hard he tried to convince himself he was the best, there just always was that thought that he wasn’t.
Why was he even crying in an empty training studio? Was it because he was reminded of his parents? Because he was reminded of how he wasn’t the best? Because he realized he was a failure? There were so many reasons to cry yet not a single good reason to cry. He was just crying, perhaps it was just anger and sadness being filled up and now he finally let it out. He couldn’t go home because he didn’t want his roommates to see him, not like this. And then just as he was feeling most vulnerable, crying in the middle of the room, the door opened. Immediately Emil looked up, tried his best to be as quiet as possible, but to Emil’s mishap, it seemed like they had seen him.
for @lgcminjun
#( lgcemil x i can't see underwater )#( lgcemil x thread )#( lgcemil x lgcminjun )#lgcminjun#lgcemil
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unexpected.
@lgcemil
it was hard to anger her. it truly, really was. a feat almost deemed impossible when it came to the girl who appeared to have the patience of a saint. she didn’t recall to have ever gotten mad or upset at anyone during her time in legacy before -- until he appeared. he stepped into her life and got her emotions to run havoc. a weird feeling, that it was, to feel negativity towards someone she actually considered a friend; almost as if she wasn’t quite herself anymore. perhaps if he weren’t stupidly selfish and rude, she’d see past unnecessary remarks he tossed around so very carelessly.
unfortunately, he never stopped and ahri’s newly found annoyance didn’t, either.
“can you stop for one moment and think of those around you rather than just yourself? for once?” she asked almost hissed. arguments weren’t her forte and she preferred to keep a broad distance to any possiblities of possibly arguing, but she cared about him, still saw him as someone she treasured. it was hard to accept this particular side she didn’t tolerate, though. she had tried -- she really did. emil, sadly, always knew how to rile her up in the worst possible way. at times she thought he was doing it on purpose.
a frown reigned over her features and thin arms remained crossed over her chest. “your arrogance will not lead you to any good things, you know. it won’t hurt you to be a bit nicer.” despite her anger, she still meant every single word in good nature, never wishing for him to experience any malice in his life.
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@LGCENT JUST POSTED A PHOTO!
2020.08.12
happy 22nd birthday, løvehjerte emil!
#lgctrainees #lgcent #løvehjerteemil #lgcbirthday
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emil + trainee mission 04
july bootcamp, +8 rap points
august bootcamp, +8 rap points
september bootcamp,+8 rap points
performance, +6 rap points, +3 notoriety
✔︎ ACCEPTED
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THREAD SWEEPING !!! unfortunately because i am dying over university, i’m gonna have to drop a few threads. i’m always happy to start new threads or plot though! but for now, here’s what i’ll be dropping and keeping.
dropping
(threads that i haven’t received a reply to in a while, are long overdue event threads, or i lost muse for. if you’re interested, i’d love to thread out something new with you!)
pretty please w/ @lgcemil
front w/ @lgcahin
flat white w/ @lgcalec
white night w/ @lgcalec
lily-livered w/ @lgcxjieun
get cool w/ @lgcbenji
hands up w/ @lgcharu
untitled trainee mission thread w/ @lgcnathan
keeping
(not counting ongoing event threads! but feel free to drop these if you’re overwhelmed. just let me know!)
just another boy w/ @lgcyushin
same comfort w/ @lgcgitaek
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↬ HIATUS ENDS TODAY ( 25 OCTOBER 2020 )
( please make an ic post before next week’s activity check to be considered active ! )
choi jinyoung ( @lgcjin ) - october 25
kang jaemin ( @lgcjaemin ) - october 25
løvehjerte emil ( @lgcemil ) - october 25
seo geonwoo ( @lgcgeonwoo ) - october 25
tsai king ( @lgcxking ) - october 25
↬ CURRENTLY ON HIATUS
phunsawat kannika ( @lgcnika ) - october 26
hwang sori ( @lgcsori ) - november 1
nam yunho ( @lgcnam ) - november 1
oh gitaek ( @lgcgitaek ) - november 4
if you need a hiatus, please message the main by SUNDAY, NOVEMBER 1 at 4 PM EST with your date of return to facilitate tracking. you may contact an admin directly to make sure we received your request, but always make it official through the main. this would greatly help us. thank you !
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trainee mission performance
Does Emil feel ready? No. For the first time in forever the answer is no. Emil has always been a guy sprinting with confidence, he’s confident about everything, even when he had no reason for confidence he was confident. That’s just the kind of guy Emil is, but now? Now when Emil has a reason to be confident for some reason he just… is not that confident. He’s doing something he’s good at, which is rapping, but he just does not have much confidence in it. No confidence, yet he knows he has to have confidence, so he fakes it, he fakes it like he sometimes has to do. And nobody ever notices. Truly Emil didn't want to be solo, for once he didn’t want to do everything alone, but like usually he did everything alone again. No matter what, he was alone.
Emil walked up on the stage, a big smile sprung onto his face, he knew people loved it. It was his special talent, making people fall for him, by singely using his smile. “Hey everybody” the smile continued staying on as he winked to everybody. “Today I’ll be showing my rap, I’ll be showing it with a song I wrote myself” it’s the same as usual, another rap song he has written himself, it’s good, his songs always are, but he wonders, wonders if people aren’t tired of it yet. It’s always like this, every time he has to perform a song and he can choose himself, he raps one of his own songs, it’s so unoriginal at this point, but it’s the only thing he can do, so… hmmm.
Emil finishes with a smile, he holds his breath to not seem out of breath, he went around and hyped himself up while rapping, he was basically dancing, but not actually, because he can’t dance.
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september bootcamp
Emil stands still, he looks out into the ocean. A vision comes before him, he imagines himself standing up, starting to walk towards the sea, it’s walking at first and then it’s running, he runs towards the sea, barefoot, the cold sand hitting his feet. A wide smile starts growing on his face. And before he knows of it he has hit the water, normally he would stop, but he doesn't , he just keeps on running, letting the water hit his clothes, his body. It’s cold, but it feels nice, it’s like there’s no worries in him, no worries about being cold, about the water nor about getting sick. He just feels great, happy actually, something he rarely ever feels. He feels free, free like a fish, free like a bird. And then he jumps, jumps into the water with his whole body, and then he swims, swims forever, swims even when he can’t breathe no more, it’s like nothing matters, only the feeling of feeling free counts in the moment. And then he shakes his head, gets out of his imagination.
Emil sighs, his imagination was much nicer than this, sitting alone, at a beach, in the dark. He snuck out, like usually, the only thing he brought was himself, his clothes, his shoes and some paper, what paper? Some paper he was supposed to memorize, something for the September bootcamp, a script, yes of course, Emil had chosen the acting thing, what else was he supposed to choose? Hosting? Emil at least knew a little about acting, he knew nothing about hosting. He could’ve also chosen the variety thingie, but that also seemed so confusing. Everything honestly seemed so confusing, and Emil didn’t feel good about anything. These months with this trainee mission, these boot camps, nothing had felt good. Not besides when he rapped, because truly Emil knew it better than anyone else, he wasn’t good at anything but rapping, not here, at home he was perfect. Here he was far from it.
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august bootcamp
Emil? He’s good at almost everything, if not everything. Yes truly there are things he is not good at, but those things? He chooses to not think about them, to forgot they exist. That however is very hard when he’s a trainee in legacy, for example every day he gets reminded of how he isn’t the best dancer and how he has close to zero talent in singing. One good thing about Legacy tho? How he also often gets reminded of how good of a rapper he is, and this month? He has to focus singely on rapping, what’s better than a month of just every day getting reminded of how good you are at a thing?
Last month it was dancing, and every day was just a constant moment of getting scolded and failing, this month? It’s rapping (and singing technically) so Emil can just choose to be happy all month. Emil smiles, this month just boosted his confidence even more. Every day is a day of praising, every day is a day of doing well, every day is a day of compliments (more compliments than normally).
As they’re practicing how to rap a trainee forgets the words and loses his flow, the coach stops trainee and as it seems the trainee is about to get scolded something else happens, the coach looks at Emil “Emil, can you show us how it’s done?” Emil nods confidently and then begins. He raps it raw, reminds him of his introduction video, where he rapped every word hard and raw, back then every word was his, this time someone else had wrote the lyrics, yet it was easy for Emil. Finally he finishes and then coach smiles and nods “that’s how it’s done” the coach says happily as he claps once. Emil smiles.
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july bootcamp
Emil bites his lips as he stares at the coach. Emil is wonderful at acrobatics and flexibility, hence when he came to Korea to become an idol he always thought that dancing would be one of his strongest strengths, the moment he got casted into Legacy he fastly however realized that dancing wasn’t one of his strongest skills, long from actually. Sure he was flexible and smooth and that gave him some kind of advantage, but he was slow at learning the dances and he had no sense of rhythm. So the fact that they would for a whole months focus on dancing? That? That wasn’t to Emil’s advantage, actually he was rather sad about it, because this meant that for a whole month he would look like an idiot, and only if he was lucky there was a chance that his dancing skills would become better.
Emil swallows his spit as he’s ready to once again get scolded, and then he puts down his head as he listens to it. The why can’t you keep up, why is it always you who fails, why aren’t you like the others and much more, and it just keeps coming, the bad words and the scolding continues and continues. If it affects Emil it’s hard to tell, he pretends as if it doesnt, like it doesn’t matter, and everybody around him probably thinks he’s stone cold and isn’t affected, but truly? It hurts to know he isn’t the best at everything, because usually he’s the best. Finally the scolding stops and Emil looks up, the coach has a heavy breathing and turns around and storms out the room. “It’s always you, isnt it?” a voice says and Emil turns around “it’s always you who can’t keep up and has to get scolded while we other have to watch” the male continues. Emil shrugs “god gave me god looks instead of dancing skills… something he clearly didn’t do with you” he says, implying the other is ugly. “You son of a—“ right before they finish the coach comes back in and claps “alright let’s continue, shall we?”
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𝙘𝙧𝙮 like a baby
TW: blood
Emil hits the wall, not once, not twice, but three times. In the beginning just a scratch came from it, at the second and third hit slowly blood starting dripping down his knuckles. This was normal for Emil, whenever he was sad or angry he would hit the wall and blood would start dripping from his knuckles. At this point it was rather surprising that both the wall and his hand wasn’t broken yet, he had hit it so many times. This of course would bring many questions, such as, ‘whys you’re hand bloody’, ‘whys your hand looking like that’, ‘what sounds were coming from the bathroom? it sounded like you hit something’.. the questions Emil very much hated and he always tried to avoid.
Normally hitting the wall would help, it would get out the anger and sadness, the frustration, but today? It didn’t work, no matter how much he hit the wall, no matter how much he kicked it, no matter what tears were still going down his cheeks. In frustration he left the bathroom and went in a common direction, there was this training room that was always empty and that was where he was heading. As soon as he got there he closed the door and let out the sobbing, every now and then looked at himself in the mirror and how pathetic he looked.
And in the middle of his crying the door opened, immediately he held his breath to make it seem like he wasn’t crying, but it seemed like they had noticed.
@hanalgc
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1 year ago, what band/artist were you listening to the most?
Emil giggles, what a weird question, how should he answer this? What artists were he listening to… actually? Despite him “being interested in music” he doesnt know much about music, he doesnt listen much to it. Oh, how was he supposed to answer this question? Wouldn’t It be weird if he just said he doesnt listen to music that much? “Oh, I don’t remember” he says, gosh what a boring answer.
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If you could go back to Denmark sometime this next year would you, even if you missed out on a big event?
Emil lifts an eyebrow, anybody who knows Emil somewhat good knows he doesn't really talk about Denmark that much, and usually he doesn't get asked questions about the country. “Hmm” he mumbles something “do you want my honest answer?” he giggles “fine” he leans back in his chair “no I wouldn’t go back, Denmark is a great country but there’s nothing fun about Denmark, nobody there except my parents miss me” and his parents? Those he definitely don’t miss “I have no good reason to go back to Denmark”
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since one year ago has your bed time routine changed?
“Uh” Emil stares at the other, he lifts an eyebrow. Suddenly he understands why he’s such a little fan of humans (saying that like he isn’t human himself) , they’re weird, utter alone all just weird. “What a random question” why were everybody so random? What made people so random? “I still sleep pretty late and bad so I don’t think so”
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in terms of training, from the past 1 year, what are you most embarrassed of?
“Gosh” Emil face palms himself, he immediately knows the answer to the question. It’s a very simple question with a very simple answer to it “I think the most embarrassing thing is how my dancing hasn’t improved” he pauses to think. How has this come? That even though he practiced so much every day he was still terrible, it didn’t make sense and Emil hated thinking about it.
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