keep seething over the possibility of losing child porn freak

Ah yes, fictional young characters being put in situations that are not real... the horror! Tell me, have you walked into a library or a bookstore in the past decade? Because I haven't seen y'all making a fuss over Stephen King.

Now go on, show us the thousands of ACTUAL human children being harmed on AO3. We'll wait :)

Oh omg i was about to go open my game to make sure😆 what mods if you may 👀

its called astarion re-vamped! i also pair it with the mole mod like this pic! i'm not very into vampires honestly but i Really like lestat so this to me is like. lets make asty just a wittle bit more lestaty.. ^_^

iwtv chapter 5 thoughts like WAH !!!

Louis' nursing on Rashid at the beginning of the episode, Rashid talking for Louis, Rashid & Daniel's weird blood taste stand-off ! WAH !

Daniel basically being here to chronicle Louis' last words (acc. to Rashid) ! WAH !!!

Claudia, wahhh :,0 she's just so so so good. i was pleasantly surprised that they didn't have her just go the mad vampire route. she was for a bit (& i supported her!), & then getting out of the stifling hotbed of resentment of rue royale & exploring the world allowed her to grow up & clear her mind (not talking about *that* bruce/killer scene to be clear).

i think one of the reasons people do the iwtv/hannibal comparison is that they have the same kind of absolutely grim, hilarious humour at times. like drunk claudia having to get rid of the evidence even as the police is going through the house, and her little no no noes as she picks up the thumb in her jewellery box, the toe on her bedside table, suddenly remembers the *peeled off breast* in her drawer? and then the entire, still-breathing man in her closet !!!!?

though i had spoilers blacklisted a few text posts got through, mostly critic about critic of the episode so i had a general idea of the quote unquote unsavoury stuff, and my own grain of salt is that the fact lestat's actions don't seem un-lestaty to me (i'm leery of referring to canon-compliance as the benchmark of quality in an adaptation but book lestat does go into a dissociative state get up himself & commit atrocities, that is a thing he does). It did hurt very much to see the state of Louis. it's also interesting that daniel has been calling out the relationship as unbalanced and toxic in a way that seemed confrontational/didn't fit with louis' vision of it, and then we get to this part and like. it seems like louis wanted to tell the story as he saw it, not as informed by what happened later, and daniel could see the seeds already. which makes it look in turn as if it as louis blinding himself vs the relationship taking a sudden sour turn.

the part where louis called to claudia, telling her everything was alright and to stay where she was -- i imagine he was talking to her in her mind, trying to keep her away from danger...? the louis & claudia relation breaks my whole heart every time :,o him calling to her so loud & for so long that he draws other vampires to their territory...!

ALSO one thing i really love in the 1994 movie is when it shifts into the horror genre--when lestat comes back after they buried him in the bayou, with jumpscares & all. & in the show when he floats back down slowly in the background as claudia is crying over louis. when he stands like a gargoyle with his black black eyes. same vibes. shifting narration, shifting genres...

I've been thinking that it's a bit difficult to know what exactly Louis said in the first interview, bc the basic blocks of this version have changed so much. I don't think we're supposed to believe Louis passed himself as an 18th century plantation/slave owner, invented the character of Lestat's old father whole-cloth, or made Claudia out to be younger than she was, etc. but we must understand that he did lie about Claudia's psychology, & her leaving the house for years ? or did he talk about it without going into the details or why or how long, etc.

Happy Valentine's Day from Lestaty

Louis as an unexpected optimist

So I'm back on my Louis meta and I think something that is really integral to understanding Louis as a character is realizing that he's actually an optimist at heart. He's obviously very depressed, he's grieving, he's overall A Mess but when you examine his actions and the way he interacts with the world, it's from a place of hope.

When Lestat finds him, Louis is suicidal and actively engaging in self-destructive behaviors he's hoping will allow him to end his life passively BUT the moment Lestat offers him another chance, a clear path forward, he takes it without hesitation. Louis wants to believe in something. He's looking for a reason to do so.

When he's at the lowest point of his life with Lestat, he immediately makes a 180 when Claudia comes into the picture. In spite of his sadness and anger, he immediately latches onto hope in the form of fatherhood, onto everything a child symbolizes. Again, a path forward and a reason to go on are offered and he takes it without hesitation.

It's only when his family is gone and there's no obvious better life to work towards that he becomes completely adrift and lost in a way he wasn't before, even after Paul. He was still FEELING then, and where there's emotion there's the capacity for happiness. It's the empty, apathetic hopelessness that actually represents rock bottom for Louis.

Once again though, when the path opens up for a reunion with Lestat, he casts aside everything from the past in order to start fresh with the man he loves. As much anger as he obviously was holding when Daniel interviewed him, he doesn't hesitate to release it in to give them the best chance.

(If you want to consider mid to late canon, this trend continues in his openness to Lestat after pretty terrible 90s/00s Lestatiness, but the characterization of everyone is so bad that I'm not using it as real evidence.)

Basically, no matter how bad things get or how awful his mental health is, Louis retains his belief in better things. He continues to read, to look at art, to admire the beauty of the rain and the flowers and the candle flames. Even at his lowest point, he describes the world with such reverence and appreciation. Louis at rock bottom is still a Louis who stops to share the loveliness of the cypress trees at night and all the wonderful things about his daughter with a stranger, even when it wasn't necessary for the story.

The same Louis who told Daniel "that's it, there's nothing else", also describes seeing the world through his eyes as being "like love". And you can see that in how he recounts what is otherwise a terrible time in his life:

"The moon was large over the cypresses, and the candlelight poured from the open doors. The thick plastered pillars and walls of the house had been freshly whitewashed, the floorboards freshly swept, and a summer rain had left the night clean and sparkling with drops of water. I leaned against the end pillar of the gallery, my head touching the soft tendrils of a jasmine which grew there in constant battle with a wisteria, and I thought of what lay before me throughout the world and throughout time, and resolved to go about it delicately and reverently, learning that from each thing which would take me best to another."

The only part of late canon I think is really wonderful for Louis' character is the Prince Lestat epilogue. In spite of absolutely everything that's happened, Louis calls becoming a vampire and all it's brought with it "the greatest adventure of his life". On the surface level, it's a strange comment for him to make when he seems to have been so unhappy for literally all of it, but that's only partly true.

In reality, he never lost that spark, it's always been there even if was subtle or less obvious than his sadness and he's always searching for better things. Louis is a true optimist because no set of bad circumstances ever sways him entirely from hope. Real optimism is finding hope 'in spite of', not simply enjoying life when it's easy and happy.

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I feel like he would talk to a baby the same way he would talk to anyone else. Plus talk about his problems with them like they understand, like “I just don’t know what to do anymore…”

Okay as much as I like the idea of him baby-talking, this is also SO GOOD. I can just imagine him holding a grown conversation with little baby Max.

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I think i would rather go back in time when I was like 10 and the only thing I had to worry about was helping my mom in the garden </3

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