bbc ghosts, 5x05

rewatching episode 6 is so hard because it kills me to see Louis' heavenly beautiful face wrought with pain as he tries to extend loving gestures to someone who is completely undeserving. his attempts to repair what they had and salvage their family are so sincere. meanwhile Lestat continues to lie and fuck about, making no real effort to be a better husband, while Louis is giving as much as he can despite still walking around nursing mortal wounds with some scotch tape he found in a desk drawer.

and upon finding out that essentially nothing had changed, Louis' immediate response was to dissociate. the fact that it was only after resolving to kill his abusive husband that he was able to 1) break out of that dissociative state and 2) allow himself to fully inhabit all of his feelings for Lestat, is agonizing. he's like, with everything that you've done to me. i can only love you with all of myself if i know that one or both of us will be dead.

You’re Connor Roy and the whole world sees you as a joke. You’re Connor Roy and you’ve always known how little your father cared about you- he never even liked you. You’re Connor Roy and you spent your entire childhood to young adult life trying to make sure your younger siblings knew they were loved, only for them to turn out exactly like their dad and forget you existed for days at a time. You’re Connor Roy and you’re getting married to the love of your life, who you don’t even know, just to have some shallow form of intimacy. You’re Connor Roy and the cake at your wedding only reminds you of your mother who was locked up in the loony bin when you were a kid. You’re Connor Roy and the joke is everyone was right about you. You’re Connor Roy and your dad is dead and you feel old.

I found this old thing…. Cyrodiil and two riders escaping imperial guards. Maybe I'll finish it someday. But it's not for sure.young Lachance was sent after him first mage recruit, who had accidentally finished off her colleague at Arcane University. * Hand to face* (╯°益°)╯ But he had no idea what a surprise awaited him, in the form of his childhood friend, oops

And I'm still sorting out the trades, hehe. It's all in the works. Two more trades, and raffle prizes on FA. WHEN IS THIS GOING TO END?

it should be illegal to have freak brain abt multiple teen shows at once why am i sitting here thinking about which degrassi characters would like glee and which glee characters would understand riverdale and which riverdale characters would watch all 14 seasons of degrassi i have finals to work on

going back to work tomorrow 👍🏻 gonna die

trying to do a literature review before writing my next paper and i am currently at 62 pages of notes with NO end in sight.

do you think he found peace in knowing that he would fall back into the last place bosacius was

I honestly don't know if im gonna make it out of the next two weeks alive (I think I have about 15 or so exams)

today is my 2 hour english paper wish me luck!!

ok so the dick thing wasnt enough, nO, yet again they cant keep away from each other...or zeze cant

Well well well… if it isn’t the consequences of my own actions!

crying throwing up

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Edit: how could I forget this adorable comment.

Translation: What I liked the most was seeing Coche so happy ❤

i love not realizing i have the timeline of a fic all wrong until im over 16000 words in. awesome.

I WILL NEVER BE AS PRETTY AS THEM!!

everyone thinks the pandemic is over, mom let an antivaxxer into the house, cos she didnt even think to ask