Kendall + comforting his siblings || SUCCESSION 4x03

i love you, really, i love you but i cannot fucking stomach you

Strangest thing this season has done for me is making me cool with nate

They said they didn't want "the little princess" taking over. Were they being derogatory to Ken (although he is indeed the little princess)? Or are they "flushing" a newer piece of paper with Shiv’s name on it?

Shiv hates Mencken and ATN. The old guard must have heard she was the driving force behind putting the brakes on the Gojo deal. Yeah, I can see why they would be squeamish at the idea of her taking over. Logan probably wasn't the only one who flinched when Shiv said she wanted a dinosaur cull.

And now Shiv is slowly getting pushed out and forgotten. Her "lack of experience" and all. Is she even able to make a clean break from Tom now that she's carrying his baby? Everything is falling apart for her when she may actually be the winner and never know it.

I'm rooting for you, Shivy. Stay strong, girl.

Petals (Roy!Sibling x Connor Roy)

Character/s: Connor, Shiv, Roman, Logan, Willa, Marcia

Word Count: 1,315

Requested: hello! is it okay if i request more roy baby sibling and connor? i’d like to see them asking connor to dance at shiv’s wedding (or maybe even at his wedding?)! thank you :) - anon

Requested: your younger roy sibling hcs have been rotting my brain recently and now im imagining 8 year old them making a drawing for connor's birthday that is them holding hands with big hearts and "wish you were my daddy" written in big kid letters (probably with spelling mistakes) and connor just like. sobbing when he reads it. i feel like hed be such a big father role to a significantly younger sibling (i personally imagine them and roman having a around 10 year gap, so thats probably like ~35 years of different between them and connor). and we all know what a shitty dad logan is/was, so i can see younger sibling calling connor after some big fight with logan and crying while begging him to pick them up and let them live with him and it breaks his heart cause logan would never let it happen and he tried but couldnt protect ken and shiv and rome and he just wishes he could at least protect his baby sib but he just cant and it kills him. anyway happy thursday thought haha roy family brainrot - @fromirkwood

Inspired By: Petals on the Moon by Wasia Project

Tag: @locke-writes

A/N: I know the second one wasn't exactly a request, but I couldn't get it out of my head!!! Big Bro Connor is my absolute favorite!! I hope this doesn't rot in your brain too long my love lol. I just couldn't get it out of my head, especially when it was combined with the other request!! Feedback is always appreciated 💜💜💜

Time is a thief, at least that’s what he thinks when he looks at you, spinning with your sister on the dance floor. Your smile is so bright, so wide, your cheeks flushed. You drank too much, no doubt it was Roman refilling your glass without your notice. The song picks up speed, picks up in joy, and you break out into laughter, you and Shivy. It’s as if you’re in your own world and only she’s in it. You spin and jump and sing along, your niece and nephew beside you and the bride. He hasn’t seen you this electric, this alive, so much like your old self, in weeks. Connor considered himself lucky to be able to watch, to bear witness. Just moments ago you were a baby, doodling with your thick crayons, mistakenly calling him Dad instead of Logan. Only recently had he learned that's who he was in your phone, Dad, that Logan was simply Logan. Years pass, but so little changes. He still had all your fathers day cards stashed away, hidden before your real father caught what you were doing. Stick figures, one tall, one small, hand in hand surrounded by flowers and butterflies and other bugs. Happy Fathers Day Connor. Your uppercase letters always slanted, crooked, his name spelled with one N instead of two. It wasn’t long until his figure started sprouting gray hair, graying far earlier than anyone else in the family, and yours grew taller every year. Connor feared you might have forgotten about him, that you were getting too old to need your eldest brother like your siblings had, but you proved him wrong after that night. 

You hadn’t even wanted to go to the wedding. It was so bad. Whatever was said and done remained a mystery. You wouldn’t tell him, tell anyone, just that it was bad. He’d gone with Willa to pick something out for you, knowing you left the house with nothing. You refused to try it on, to come out of the spare bedroom. It wasn’t until the day before when they were getting ready to leave, accepting that there was no way you were going, did you come out with your outfit packed. You weren’t going to miss Shiv's big day because of him, you declared, and it was settled. He couldn’t contain his excitement, grinning from ear to ear. Letting her down, letting him down, just because of your old man, it seemed like a cruel punishment. You sat beside him in the plane, his hand on your knee, trying to disregard the dread in your chest. They’d all heard about your big blow out, they all wanted to know, going to Connor first instead of you. You were the closest, you told him everything. When he had nothing to say, when all he could offer was a warning, it said something, something more than he was expecting: whatever happened got to you. It genuinely hurt you. They imagined the worst, unsure of what to do. He was at a loss, too. Your father could say and do as he pleased, you’d always been the best at ignoring him, especially when he was in one of his moods, but this time? This time was different. It stung more than all of the other fights you’d had with him, and there were some memorable ones. Never had you yelled back like that, never had you stormed out in a fury, never had you sobbed to your brother like that on the phone. This wasn’t the kind of thing that would go away on its own. It wouldn’t heal with time. 

He could almost forget the crack in your voice as he watched you now. That sad, crying child looked so different from the young adult on the dance floor. Eventually you came over to him, asking him to dance. As if on cue, a slower song came on. This was far different than the last time you danced together. You stood on his shoes, swaying, giggling that high pitched giggle, the one that made his heart melt. You were so little then, so tiny, he was scared to let go. Now you swayed on your own, your arms around him as if you’re scared he’ll flee, your face buried into his chest. Thank you for letting me stay with you. It came out mumbled, muffled, but he understood. Anytime, kiddo. You’re a pleasure to have. Your eyes were big when you looked up at him, as if trying to decipher if he was telling the truth or not. His smile, so reassuring, told you he meant it. I’m sorry about Pops. you shook your head, not wanting to hear his name, not wanting your brother to carry the guilt for him. If he was going to apologize you were going to hear it from him. Not anyone else. Connor spent the entire night putting distance between the two of you, becoming your human shield. Logan, it seemed, had completely forgotten about the whole ordeal, kissing Shiv, saying hello to your brothers, like nothing was amiss. They each shared a glance, all looking to Connor for help, for guidance, just like they had when they were little. He knew what he had to do. How bad was it, kiddo? He asks. Bad. It’s all you can say without upsetting yourself all over again. 

He called you his greatest failure. Spineless. A mistake. You don’t remember how it started, only that you were bleeding out on the floor before him and he refused to put the knife down. A plague to the Roy name, a curse, a bad seed. You never should have been born. A loser. Incompetent. He’s not sure where you came from, but you are certainly not his. You should be smarter, work harder, but instead you are nothing, you are nobody. No one has ever or will ever love you. It hits you so hard, so forcefully, it knocks the wind out of you. He means it, he means every word, but especially that. That’s what kills you, that’s what makes the tears slip down your cheeks. That’s not true, you try to spit back, but he’s not listening and you’re crying, and you’re proving him right. He keeps talking. You can’t hear it, though. You’re gone. You’ve retreated into yourself, so far back he cannot possibly get you. You stand there, unmoving, as he gets in your face. No one has or will ever love you. No one has or will ever love you. It plays on loop, again and again until you cannot breathe. Finally you back away, you run from him, slamming each door behind you. Marcia calls out to you, hearing what went down, but nothing can stop you. Through the busy sidewalks, sobbing uncontrollably, you call him. You can’t repeat what he said, you still can’t. You know that would make him furious, all of them, and it is not their burden to carry. A quiet fear has settled in the back of your mind: what if he’s right? 

If he knew, if Connor knew, he would have killed his father. No one said that to his baby, no one ever dared talk to you that way. But he doesn’t, and he never will. You have vowed to yourself that neither him nor your other siblings will know, for fear that they might agree with him. That they’ll show you he’s right. Instead they watch you carefully, ready to intervene should that be necessary. You hold on to him tight long after the song ends, not wanting to let go, to be alone with Logan's words. Connor doesn’t mind at all. He’s his happiest when his siblings need him, when you need him. He’ll always be there to rescue you. Always. It’s his job, you’re his greatest love. You all are.

help i think the last time shiv heard ken call her “shivy” was seconds befor he told her logan was dying

Kendall. Ken. Kenny.

Romulus. Roman. Rome.

Siobhan. Shiv. Shivy.

Yeah sure let’s go there, when was the first time Ken and Shiv kissed do you think?

This ask is about a million years old! Sorry!

All three of them played house as kids, with Kendall and Shiv as mommy and daddy (Roman was the dog, or their baby) they pecked each other on the lips like the couples on tv, but that wasn’t quite real.

The first time they kissed, and meant it, was on a long weekend getaway to somewhere warmer during the drab part of spring. Kendall just finished his second year at Harvard, Roman is still trapped at St. Andrews, and 16 year old Shivy is skipping school to be trapped on an island with Ken, Logan, and Sally Anne (insert image of Gerri making that face here).

Logan and Sally Anne are occupied, Ken and Shiv have the whole weekend together. They just wander around talking for hours and hours. Something is different now, Shiv is older, Kendall is seeing her in a new way. Some barrier is gone and they’re suddenly indescribably close. It just happens. It feels right. They’re drunk on the beach and Shiv is wearing Ken’s linen button down and in that moment they’re the only real people alive. They don’t really think about it after, it was nothing, just something they did. The memory only resurfaces later, when things start getting weird between them again (you can decide when that is bc there are so many possibilities that I love equally)

How do you go from “Shivy, honey” to “sure as shit not Shiv” ????? Also there’s no way Ken stays on top for the rest of the six episodes. Anxiously awaiting his downfall and Shiv’s rise.

I dont wanna think about the shiv of it all. like the ep was so so so brutal. the boys club closing rank. AGAIN. she's the only daughter!!!!!! the Woman she doesn't have the experience she's soft she's hysterical it wouldn't look sharp and clean SHES PREGNANT. she fell down the stairs she squeezed out unnoticed while they proclaimed her brothers kings. she should be allowed to petrol bomb the penthouse :)

everyone else heard ken say shivy honey when he went and got her right

lowkey roman’s little speech where he’s like “ken lies, shivy cries, and roman the showman lights up the sky” slayed tremendously. he was in his writer/poet bag for that. he wrote that as if he had rent to pay

when ken said "shivy, honey"

KENS “SHIVY HONEY” IM GOING TO DIE RIGHT NOW EVERYTHING HURTS

when ken called her 'shivy honey' my god i nearly started crying just from that

Who said “shivy honey” was it Ken, Connor or Tom cause I keep seeing it floating around but I didn’t catch it and I’ve watched twice.