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avionvadion · 4 months

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I read the newest chapter and I was glad you handled the separation scene a bit better than the game (because I'm not gonna lie, but the reason for running off in game felt really stupid), but at the same time I was going "IRENE, NO. Don't. Just stay and talk out your feelings and concerns, DAMMIT." I was taught assuming you know what others think about you is so unhealthy and that it's okay to ask, so when I see people have my old bad mental habits, I go "That's BAD. STOP THAT. JUST TALK."

Kaname/Michiru: “UwU I’m such a horrible person I don’t deserve to be awound them anymore! How could I feel jeawous of their friendship or have FEEWINGS for someone who clearly likes someone else? I mustn’t come between them! I MUST run away!”

Irene: “I have an extreme fear of abandonment that’s been mentioned in various chapters, particularly the most latest ones, and is strongly part of why it’s so hard to choose between eras, and the friends I trusted and cared about didn’t realize Anastasia had taken my place until it was too late. Worst fear feels like it’s being realized. Yeah no I can’t do this. I’m out!“

I love Secret of the Cursed Mask but I always laugh at the running away bit. It’s so silly. But the Kururugi kid in the game is also like 15 so… I dunno. Teenage drama?

Irene is just stressed. She knows she’s probably overreacting, but after Mahoro tried to mess with her using her feelings for Sesshomaru and was then pretty much ordered to just stand back and let Sango/Inuyasha handle the demon, told she’s not allowed to help, and made to feel utterly useless/like a burden, it was really just the cherry on top of all the bad things she was already feeling.

She needs some alone time to sort things out. 🤣 But it’ll only take about one or two chapters. Most likely one??? Unless it gets too big of a chapter, in which case two. It’ll go by pretty quick.

But hey! We get some Kikyo screen time! :3

#inuyasha #inuyasha oc #secret of the cursed mask #inuyasha fanfiction #forest deep #sesshomaru x oc #Avion answers

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honeybeekao · 2 years

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Top 10 enstars relationships (doesn't have to be romantic!)

im so glad i can draft ask responses because i cannot do this all in one go, im not that insane

1. madarei - who would've guessed! i know ive sorta defined myself with them, which wasnt intentional but i'm very very fond of characters who help eachother feel more human, and worthy of life. putting self sacrificial little gay people together is my favorite thing! they care too much about others it makes me lose it. i feel like the way madara can't not hate certain people contrasting with how rei can't not love certain people is interesting. i think the way they both retreat from connection because of how they view themselves as evil monsters is heartbreaking. they were both driven overseas at age 17 and grew up in weird situations. i think they deserve a break, both need more sleep and love, and they should also kiss probably

2. oh god here we go with the kaoru relationships chiakao - theyre so gay and stupid and oblivious are you Kidding me. chiaki's head over heels actually and kaoru has no idea. he also will not acknowledge how much he cares about this sunshine boy or why he feels the need to call him a sunshine boy and i feel like every pairing w kaoru is just trying to win kaoru over. get him to realize he also has a heart that beats a little too fast when in the same room as certain people. date plan is my favorite story is it obvious have i said this before idk i love kaoru so many people love kaoru Hey kaoru. there's a fic i really love where kaoru takes care of chiaki's wounds during 2nd year and it's so good. it establishes that chiaki is on his radar, but he wont acknowledge it and chiaki's just like 0_0 the entire time. i feel like kaoru's proud of him for how far he's come and that's probably a mutual feeling since they both changed a lot.

3. the oddballs - they make me sad catch me sobbing over the oddballs bot on twitter, their entire story is so aighdfgddgkxdg Flails hands in the air! kanata feels like the center to me despite rei's existence just because of how important the student council taking control of the fish cult is. taking lonely characters with extreme talent and skill n isolating them more is so evil and kanata specifically just???? adhhhghhghgghughh definitely appreciates and loves the others as dear friends, the beginning to him and shu's relationship is interesting to me of Course shu doesn't like him originally. but they have similarities in that they grew up with no friends, just one was praised and worshipped while the other was bullied. big difference there. also good lord my memory on everything with wataru is failing me right now just know i really like the oddballs. REI AND WATARU IN AQUARIUM MADE ME SO UNBELIEVABLY HAPPY.

4. reikao - are they popular and basic to some people? yeah. do i care? absolutely fucking not i love them, platonic or romantic it doesnt matter i really like them and i have a kaoru polycule rotating in my brain. i think the way rei gave kaoru the chances he needed to establish his identity as an idol is amazing and rei is soooo fond of him. so unbelievably fond of him <3 kaoru being able to get past his fear of commitment because his need to be helpful is stronger means everything to me, him helping rei out with leading undead. jzjfdjgkg loses my mind

5. crazy:b in general - theyre so dysfunctional i cant believe they manage to make it work. but at the same time i'm just incredibly fond of them. the way himeru sees kohaku as similar to kaname makes mecgkdhfhfh OUHGHHFFHHGG and the way kohaku does in a way reciprocate that brotherly affection. specifically loved when he was like "hey guys! listen t'himeru!!" rinne and niki are a disaster theres something so horribly silly about niki being at the center of madness constantly. poor guy. and it's not even that himeru and kohaku are necessarily disasters, it's just that rinne likes him most so he ends up the center of chaos. also he's the one working a normal job DGJDFJFDJ i think they all think too much and should voice their thoughts more, that'd solve many problems. im looking at rinne directly.

6. chiakana - ohhhh themmmmm the beloveds the angels i wanna cradle them in my arms. married couple but the happy married couple. i said this before but chiaki absolutely gets hurt constantly performing tricks, and kanata scolds him for not being careful and i think theyre best friends for life!!! i Love that chiaki teaches kanata so much and i love that like. chiaki meets this weird lonely guy and cares about him . chiaki has a big heart chiaki would risk drowning a million times to save kanata. THE LINE WHERE KANATA BECOMES RYUSEI BLUE MELTED MY HEART oigh ryuseitai OUHFJDHH also them hugging. that's all.

7. reikei - i try not to let them make me sad but if it happens it cant be helped... divorced </3 the way that rei still thought of keito as a childhood friend while keito was just overcome with jealousy Man keito has made a lot of mistakes in his life tjdjfjgjg my eloquence on this is so gone i think everything with deadmanz is a fucking nightmare rei im so sorry. i do think they can reconcile, like u say the enstars characters are really young and have an entire life ahead of them. i think about your reikei drabble when i think about them because it's cute and i love how you write keito

8. izukao - my friend got me into them Really fast, but then dance on ice ruined my life and now i need to see kaoru talk to izumi more. they constantly wanna impress eachother and kaoru is so casual with him it makes me lose it. the fact that izumi says kao's only redeeming quality is his looks? i dont believe you. you Gotta at least commend him for his dedication to u. i think kaoru's in love with him he just doesnt know it also i love their nicknames for eachother ALSO ADDING IN CHIAKI 3A trio my beloveds!!!! theyre disasters Ough. i love kaoru this entire post is just a lovepost to ksoru. he deserves so much love all these bitches love kaoru

9. narumika - Sidenote why is narumika the popular name and not aramika? is it because of the name naruchan and the fact she prefers that? it feels like a tododeku situation w inconsistent ship names but anyway awwwawwawaw theyre ride or die friends for life mika is arashi's poor little meow meow i forgot who said this to me but theyre So right. mika could do anything and arashi would not bat an eye, she'll support him til the end! the way she worries for mika's wellbeing is really sweet, and i think it's so good she's there for him. i'll admit i havent gotten too far as far as seeing/reading canon moments but know i will one day because im fond of them

10. rei and a forehead kiss goodnight

#enstars #once again not proofreading but i think.im good #clockwork 🕷#enstars tag

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umilily · 1 year

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hello! I recently found your himeru works on Ao3 and I absolutely love them!! Keep up with the great stuff <33 🫶 To carry on with that, I have a small question- why do you like Himeru? How did he catch your interests? And do you like any more characters?

anon, listen, i hope you know that i had to lie down for a sec when I read your message 😭 thank you so much for your kind words, i honestly never expected anyone would bother reading my fics, let alone take time out of their day to send such a sweet message! you really made my day ❤️

as for your questions: honestly it took me a little by surprise that i ended up liking himeru as much as i do 😂 when i first got into enstars, he didn’t really stick out to me, my thoughts were more like “ah well, random mysterious guy, what else is new.” but i always enjoyed crazy:b’s dynamic as a group and after reading more of their stories he just really grew on me ❤️ i think ultimately it’s the combination of how serious he acts, like he’s got everything figured out and all, but ultimately he’s just some guy lol i mean he’s obviously smart, but lacking common sense, so he ends up doing so much silly and stupid shit, i just think the discrepancy is hilarious and endearing. also, his relationship with Kaname (i swear i’m so normal about them, haha) meru surely means well, but god is that fucked up 😂 maybe i enjoy drama a little too much, but i’m so excited to see how that plays out. i mean, it just has to end in disaster, right?

If i had to choose a top three of characters i like, the other two would be rinne and madara. i just think they’re neat and i’m always rotating at least one of the three in my mind. honestly tho, i was pleasantly surprised when i realised that i don’t actively dislike any of the characters. at this point it’s just a matter of me finding enough time to read more about the ones i don’t know as much about.

i feel like i've rambled for quite a bit, sorry that this ended up so long 🙈 hope that answers your questions :) my inbox is always open if there’s anything else on your mind and thank you again for your message! i'll try my best to post something new on ao3 again soon.

have a nice day/night! ❤️

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seasaltmemories · 4 years

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Puella Magi Madoka Magica Review/Analysis

So in 2020, if you know anything about magical girl shows, Puella Magi Madoka Magica is a juggernaut of a franchise, casting a long shadow over the genre for nearly a decade now. While it was beloved when it first came out, over the last few years I’ve noticed growing backlash surrounding it, claiming that it was never really as revolutionary as people claimed to be. Since despite watching it soon after it came out but not really having strong feelings about it, I decided a rewatch was needed, so this review will function more as a retrospective, spoilers abound

Madoka Kaname and Sayaka Miki are regular middle school girls with regular lives, but all that changes when they encounter Kyuubey, a cat-like magical familiar, and Homura Akemi, the new transfer student. Kyuubey offers them a proposition: he will grant any one of their wishes and in exchange, they will each become a magical girl, gaining enough power to fulfill their dreams. However, Homura Akemi, a magical girl herself, urges them not to accept the offer, stating that everything is not what it seems. A story of hope, despair, and friendship, Mahou Shoujo Madoka★Magica deals with the difficulties of being a magical girl and the price one has to pay to make a dream come true.

I included the summary because at this point it’s tradition, but it almost feels silly to do so for this show when practically everyone knows it is the “dark, grim magical girl show” still the fact I rewatched this with my roommate who I warned that it did get dark but knew none of the details about, I think it gave me a new appreciation for the show, spoiler alert, I think it holds up pretty well

PMMM is all about taking the familiar iconography of the magical girl genre and twisting it into something darker. And it’s very good about explaining its world and divvying out new information at a easy to understand pace to accomplish it. Everything from Walpurgis Night, Homura’s true nature, and even Madoka eventual ascent into godhood is foreshadowed and set up several episodes in advance. And while in hindsight some revelations can look silly like “Soul gems are actually the girl’s soul,” watching it with a blind viewer, most every one of them hit effectively (even when she just randomly guessed the big magical girls = witches off-hand)

It is very obvious why it got big so fast as a complex story told in about as digestible way as possible, to me it feels like PMMM always wanted to be mainstream, and while I think that is a value neutral trait, I also believe that influences some of the culture or surrounding fanbase, PMMM very much got the reputation of being an “actually good” magical girl show by dudebros just want to put down traditionally feminine media, and of course many series since then have also tried to tap into PMMM’s market by copying it, but I don’t think the show itself should be held culpable.

For one, a show has no control over its reception. But second of all like the ultimate ending of the show makes it hard for me to believe the claims that “actually this show is all about showing how stupid it is for girls to believe this fantasy,” because Madoka stands up for wishes and dreams, rewriting the laws of reality and even saving herself from damnation. I think to call the show itself feminist would be a bit too generous, but feminist readings are not impossible to make. While she can’t change every aspect of the system, the world of PMMM post-Madoka is much closer to more traditional magical girl shows with only a bit of an edge. If you want pure torture porn just look at Uta~Kata

I guess people more emotionally attached to the iconography of magical girl shows would still be offended by the systematic tearing down of the imagery, but tbh frank I’m a bit of a fake magical fan in that most of my favorite entries tend to distance themselves from the exact formula. Even aside from my personal preference though, like let’s not kid ourselves that elements of the genre only exist for later toy merchandising opportunities. I love me a good toy commercial from time to time, but that doesn’t make it too sacred to be fiddled with later on.

However while I think this is a well-made show, my feelings about it overall still remain pretty neutral. The narrative is very plot driven and focused on its systems first and foremost. The characters aren’t entirely ignored, but most of their stories are little bite-sized fables at their core as opposed to fleshed out story-lines. Also while there is justification for some of the writing choices, like Madoka’s lack of agency up until the end or how no real friendship or support systems exist, those factors still impacted my overall enjoyment from episode to episode. Also the dark elements aren’t quite as revolutionary as its reputation would suggest. Again its a PG-13 sort of horror, character death, creepy imagery, and unfortunate implications, but nothing about the series itself is very transgressive or boundary-pushing.

This is all just personal taste though. I don’t think most of these are genuine flaws, but after a decade of that reputation of being to only good or only dark magical girl show, I can see these criticism starting to grow more and more overblown to match the exaggerated reputation it got as this singular exception. I hope as more time continues to past that we can get rid of the dichotomy others have put on it and rather than treat it like the ultimate good or evil, acknowledge the history that created it and appreciate its unique little niche it has rightly earned for itself.

#my reviews #pmmm #puella magi madoka magica #madoka magica #this might be less about the show and more about the surrounding discourse #but there is something fun about going back to the source to answer common arguments

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zukadiary · 7 years

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Bakumatsu Taiyouden / Dramatic “S”! ~ Snow Troupe 2017

nngg…

I always feel this weird sort of out-of-body sense of detachment in the Tokyo theater. It’s not home, I’m not grounded… you leave and it’s just Tokyo, no bowl of homemade oyakodon and sympathetic conversation waiting for you with open, friendly arms. I wound up watching Sou’s taidan here too, also in blistering heat. I so wish I’d seen this in Takarazuka, more times, and without such a vast sea of heads in front of me (although having the opportunity to read the July GRAPH talks first added some lovely nuanced depth to the pain).

I did not expect to be this invested in Chigi when my much-loved Sou left. The evolution of my interest in Chigi went from “I wish Kaname was still here” to “eh, I guess” to shattering my personal record for in-theater crying (and I’ve cried in *a lot* of theaters). She lasted longer than I expected, and no one leaving with her is a huge shock, but this taidan is gutting me. I love this Yukigumi so much. I’ve loved a lot of Yukigumis, but this one has its hooks in me real deep. And it feels like its soul is being torn out.

At my first viewing my friend flawlessly described Bakumatsu Taiyouden as “distilled essence of Chigi ft. Miyu’s beautiful voice.” It’s a perfect, lovingly crafted tribute to the Chigi-est parts of Chigi, which also means it’s an amazing troupe show.

::insert 7 minute crying break::

Koyanagi-sensei transformed what I thought was a really mediocre movie (that had me particularly worried Miyu would get shafted) into such a playful, fun, well-orchestrated musical. There are so many opportunities for ad-libs I think I could have gone every day of the run and not gotten tired of it. Even though I’d seen the movie, it was a bit difficult to follow at first; Chigi uses a silly voice and a lot of slang, and it’s kind of a slice of life story with a lot of random happenings going on as opposed to one continuous plot line… but it gets easier once you have a general picture of the character relationships. EVERY CHARACTER’s personality comes across so clearly even with no background (which was soooo refreshing after three viewings of Yamataikoku no Kaze), and I adore Koyanagi-sensei for how well she executed that.

Chigi’s character, Saheji, has contracted tuberculosis and has come to this inn/brothel by the sea to live out the rest of his life (I thought tuberculosis was highly contagious, but *SHRUG*). He winds up meddling, mostly hilariously, in all of the brothel’s drama. The best parts should be seen fresh so I won’t spoil them, but in general, this was so on-brand for Chigi’s comedic abilities, and it looked like she was having a TON of fun. Saheji and Osome (Miyu’s character) aren’t romantically involved, but they play off each other so well and there are so many opportunities for primarily MIYU TO TEASE CHIGI that it’s just beautiful.

Miyu is so heartbreakingly good in this show. Her growth over her tenure with Chigi has been incredible, and her Osome is overflowing with sass and confidence. She’s also dancing the best I’ve seen her dance and singing like an absolute angel; the last time I saw her live was in Kenshin when her voice was broken, so I was beyond happy to hear this. I’m so glad she’s going out on such an amazing performance, but also IT HURTS SO BAD. Lord I hope she continues a career on stage, because she is really blossoming right now… and depriving the world of the full bloom would be such a travesty.

The other taidansha: Anri landed the role of a lifetime with Koharu, Osome’s rival (and almost equal in terms of importance), and she slayed. Dai and Gaori don’t have a ton of stage time, but they each have their own very funny and memorable scenes, so charming that they don’t feel slighted. MomoHina and Miki are primarily dancers, but they get their time up front.

Daimon is the calm and collected leader of a team of hot-headed isolationist samurai comprised of Kiraha Reo, Tachibana Kou, Kanou Yuuri, Hinata Haruki, Suwa Saki, and Manomiya Rui (interestingly, Kari may have had more stage time than anyone other than Chigi and Miyu). And Shou I guess?? She seems to be part of their team but not 100% on board with their plans, which are to blow up the foreign traders’ living quarters. It’s definitely an amusing group; Daimon’s character is all SERIOUS BUSINESS, but between the ridiculousness of their plot and the buffoonery of her comrades it’s just as silly as everything else going on.

I was fawning over Saki after my jet lagged, unfed live viewing of Takarazuka senshuuraku. Unless she was particularly on fire that day, I’m not sure exactly what hit me quite so hard then… BUT, I DO really like this character for her. She’s the spoiled, kinda flamboyant, completely useless son of the two kumichou innkeepers, and she wore that really well. Since Kenshin was the first place I saw her start to level up, it was nice to see her do such a good job with something that could not be more different.

HIME was used properly, which is REALLY IMPORTANT TO ME.

My heart’s not really in summary and analysis… I just want to gush. Spoilers ahead.

Dramatic S is a roaring river of tears.

It doesn’t have a flashy theme; it reminds me of My Dream Takarazuka in that way, all soul-crushing lyrics and simple but sharp, passionate dance numbers. I find myself referencing most of the scenes by the color of the suit, versus “the pirate number” or “the gigolo number” or, you know, “the passion of the christ number,” etc. There isn’t a scene I don’t love, and all the music is beautiful; I’m excited to cry my eyes out at work while listening to the CD.

The part choreographed by Bryant Baldwin, in particular, was a spectacle. It wasn’t a flashing lights and glitter spectacle, but the dance was cool, aggressive, and visibly challenging, and it was full of little Chigi things—a Lupin heel click, a kizuna fist pump…

My kangeki schedule last year included HOT EYES!! and The Entertainer, both of which featured breathtaking special top star numbers: Maakun’s barefoot dance to Chopin under blue starlight, and Micchan ascending from the floor singing while playing a glass piano. I’ve had my fingers crossed since leaving The Entertainer that Chigi would get hers. At first I thought she didn’t, but she completely did. You’ve probably at least seen the mint green outfits in pictures floating around if you haven’t seen the show; they’re from this cruel, devastating Kizuna number. Everyone is in it, everyone is gushing Yukigumi pride… everyone lines up and Chigi looks at them one by one. Chigi’s masterpiece is this close-knit family she built, and they showed it off absolutely spectacularly. I have no idea how they’re going to be able to do it the last time without breaking down.

The kuroenbi is also devastating. Every otokoyaku (except for the newly assigned 103rds) is in it, because that’s what Chigi wanted. I lost it every time they knelt down on the stairs in her direction.

It’s hard to decide whether the Kizuna number or the duet dance is the most awful part. The dance is so stupid and tender and terrible, I need them to stop touching foreheads and looking at each other like that on loop in my memory so I can stop crying and see my damn screen.

……….

But as if that’s not bad enough, the song is so incredibly beautiful… Chigi starts singing it up on the stairs, and when she meets Miyu to dance Daimon’s voice takes over from the kage box. I was hoping that would happen… in her personal book’s Special Talk, Tomu mentions how much she loved dancing to Daimon’s voice, because it created a whole world she could get lost in. It did, and it was a lot… arguably too much. Honey and silk and love and admiration and maddeningly soft at times…

On a personal note, whoever thought of giving first Miyu and then Daimon to Chigi is an absolute genius. Not only did they support her in the exact way she needed to be supported, but she took these two insanely talented but somewhat shy/awkward ladies and nurtured them until they bloomed into something so BEYOND… And I seriously can’t think of a top 3 whose collective chemistry I love more.

And on an even more personal note, as a Daimon fan, I watched Fancy Guy in my despair on Tuesday night and was struck anew by how awkward Daimon was when she came here, and how despite my JOY at my FAVORITE coming to MY TROUPE of all places I couldn’t help but think “Oh honey, I’m so sorry…” And now I get choked up looking at this bit of a photo…

…because look at how fully entrenched she is in our warm beautiful family, I’m so overflowing I genuinely can’t stand it.

I remember Lupin shonichi too clearly for it to have been 2.5 years ago, even though I wasn’t there. It was New Year’s Day and snowing. How fucking perfect is that?

Chigi, I really can’t thank you enough for this ride.

#takarazuka #reviews #bakumatsu taiyouden #Dramatic S(ummer 17)

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kazeshinigami · 7 years

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ANGEL. @zetsumei-shuuto thank you, thank you, thank you for sending this. i honestly feel considerably better hearing your perspective on these aspects of Shuu’s personality. Since it was long i put it under a cut, but i’m def keeping this to remind myself if i get down again. (i guess i am like shuu in the regard of struggling with the self-esteem™ thing, even if only to a much milder extent.)

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For some fukkin reason mobile isn’t letting my reply to your post so Here you can punch me in the face later if u like

Any realistic character is multi-faceted. There is no one that is totally one thing or another, & any quality character reflects that. I’m not an expert on Shuuhei, I can’t recall EVERY SINGLE ONE of his interactions in canon or filler (or in WDkALY/CFYOW since I’m a Bad Fan & haven’t read it yet *weeps*), but most of Shuuhei’s silly parts that Kubo has done have with characters I assume Shuuhei is comfortable letting down his guard– Izuru and Renji if I remember correctly. However, Shuuhei can be very stoic & unemotive. I understand you headcanon him as suffering various– & rather extreme– forms of abuse & neglect. His unemotiveness is not uncommon among individuals whom have undergone that treatment. It gives them a sense of control & safety & oftentimes it’s totally subconscious. However, just because he’s buried his feelings doesn’t mean he’s erased his quirks. It may take awhile for him to feel comfortable or worthy enough to show those traits (again, this may not be totally conscious either) but it does make sense. This would still apply to Shuuhei’s relationship with Kaname. Personally, I’m not Kaname’s biggest fan, but it’s undeniable that Kaname was incredibly important to Shuuhei, possibly validating Shuuhei’s meaning & existence. It makes sense Shuuhei would be more emotive around Kaname. If you’re worried about your portrayal, it is cohesive & I don’t think you’d have to sacrifice any part of it in order for it to make sense.

I can’t say anything informative about Shuuhei & Kazeshini’s relationships just because I’m unfamiliar with it. Sorry :((

I apologize if I’m stepping on toes, but your portrayal of Shuuhei’s sexual activity strongly reminds me of hypersexuality as a symptom of Shuuhei’s aforementioned lifelong victimization & for Damn Good Reason because it pretty much mirrors my own hypersexual experience (not… that I’ve gone through everything you’ve put Shuu through). What I’m trying to get at is I think I can testify a little for Shuuhei’s nose-bleed behavior towards Rangiku. Sexual activity doesn’t necessarily equal satisfaction. As a hypersexual, it is extremely hard for me to be sexually satisfied. Like, literally, I can go at it a couple times a day & it still not be enough. Just because Shuuhei has sexual outlets doesn’t necessarily mean he is satisfied, ergo there being little difference between no outlet & no satisfaction. But as you said, those moments are mostly filler & I would take them with a grain of salt. I don’t think you have to make any major changes to your version of Shuuhei’s backstory, & especially not to anything less Problematique™. I could go on about how stupid Tunglabrs’ attitudes towards “”””problematic”””” behavior is buuut I oughtn’t because I’ll never shut up.

I understand your concern :// I do think some level of consistency is necessary in roleplay, however portrayals naturally evolve. Even if someone recognizes their personality in other characters & therefore is familiar with the hows & whys, it still takes a lot of analysis & time to develop that character into a full, complex human being. Fanfiction is very rewarding & explorative & that makes it less stressful than roleplay especially if you’re Super Anxious about writing with other people, don’t get me wrong. Roleplay has helped me develop A LOT of Karin’s personality, & I’ve come to incorporate a lot of new things in the time I’ve roleplayed her but I think I like writing fanfiction a little more because of how much more I can do with it, so I understand where you’re coming from. I understand it’s hard to experiment esp with partners you’re not familiar with, but you can write personal character studies or I’m sure you have roleplay partners who would be fine if you wrote this experimental thread with them. I know I wouldn’t have any qualms, so I assume others won’t. But I have to say to put your mental health beforehand. As much as I love roleplaying with your Shuuhei, if all you experience is debilitating stress when you log on, then for your own wellbeing you should cut back or stop if you feel the need. I’d hate to see you go since I’m Attached to your Shuuhei, but again, your health is more important.

Your portrayal is wonderful, Angel. I apologize if I sound patronizing but you don’t have any reason to worry. You’re doing just fine

#angelmun stuff #九: praise #[[ literally the only reason i have this tag is to help me buck up when i get down like this. thank you v much for taking the time #to write all of this kogi. wow. it means a lot. thank you for the encouragement ;M; ]]#[[ i guess sometimes the pressure of this sense of performance™ that can come with rp gets to me. but i'll be okay ]]#submission

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