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tobiasdrake · 3 months

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Time to digest some of the things I've learned and make my way to Mesa Island.

I. Think? I might not be the most important person on this ship right now.

It's pretty hard to believe, I know. But it might be true. I'm not saying I'm going to drop to my knees and worship the guy or anything but. Yeah. Okay. I get it. I get what's so important about this man.

I still want my fucking Captain's Quarters back. He has thousands of other timelines with other ships with other Captain's Quarters that he can use. We only have the one! And I want it! Grumble grumble.

Anyways. Mesa Island. Come on, TIA; Let's go put your hand on the scale.

Reversing the flow of time in order to temporally resurrect the island giant. Yeah, Aephorul won't notice that. We mortals do shit like this all the time.

Wait, "Master"? Did you create the stone giants? Are you the person I have to punch in the nose for the catastrophe of safety violations that is Yeet Ball transit?

Does my every grievance with our world ultimately roll up to you? Because I am willing to throw down after all of this is over. I have it on good authority that my magic's better than yours.

Bold words from a guy who's been dead for 150 years.

Yeah, I got that impression from all those sunken ruins of things that clearly weren't underwater at some point in time.

How did the sea levels rise? Global warming?

Oh, okay. I'll just make a note of that here: "Ask Teaks about rising sea levels later." Got it.

Huh. Mesa Island isn't connected to the seafloor. Khukharr holds it up like Atlas holds the sky.

Y'know, I was thinking about that. We've got your manager here and all, so he could give you his approval if we wanted to violate your job duties, right?

How about, instead of removing the barrier, you flip this whole-ass island upside-down and then slam it into the seafloor as hard as you possibly can. After that, you can go back to hoisting it on your shoulders while we pick through whatever's left of the castle to find the Dweller.

I mean, if we're going to cheat, why do it halfway?

Resh'an has the best method of escaping an awkward conversation I've ever seen. I now regret not trying to swindle him and keep the vial for myself.

...wait, it would still go back to him even after I broke it. *sigh* Maybe I can trick him into gambling it away or....

Wait, even if I won it off him in gambling, it would still go back to him when I tried to use it. That fucking prick. He's planning on cheating me out of my winnings! >.<

Oh, shit, I was thinking about important leadership things. What's going on now?

That's terrifying. Are you going to yeet our ship? How does yeeting our ship help!?

THERE WE GO. Thank you. Fuck, that was like pulling teeth. Stone giant teeth. I don't know why he had to be so obstinate about this when we were "friends".

At least it's done now. I'm ready to go get brutally murdered by the Dweller of Strife if you guys are.

Except you, Resh'an. You've reserved the right to peace out and run for your life as soon as we approach the thing. Honestly, you can probably go home now. This is a suicide mission after all.

Oh, this is pretty. Mesa Island's high enough to have weather. We knew that from Glacial Peak but it's still neat to see. Big change from most of our tropical sea-level locales.

How did you even get inside the barrier?

Are there people in here, besides the council of sycophants? Because if so, then that complicates my plan to upend and smash the whole island.

Not that we're doing the plan. We wouldn't be here if we were. But still.

Ohhhh, yeah. That definitely looks like a big, evil castle. Then again, it appears to be situated in the middle of the Mushroom Kingdom so we should prepare for the possibility that our Dweller is in another castle.

Okay, team. Against all odds, we've made it to Mesa Island. We have no reinforcements, no plan, and we're about to go wing it against a Dweller that killed dozens of our peers - And we have been explicitly told that the future holds no possibility of success.

HOWEVER

Those were useless futures foretold by a terrible seer who couldn't find his past with both hands. We have something he never anticipated! We have Resh'an!

Who will not be participating in this battle.

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So I don't want to hear any hopeless talk out of any of you! They say that if you try to thwart a prophecy, your actions to escape from it will ultimately bring it about. You know what that means? That means that if you want to thwart prophecy, you gotta rush in and meet it head on! Let's go meet our destiny and spit in its face before it bowls us over!

#sea of stars #drake plays sea of stars

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lowkeyclueless5137 · 11 months

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More crappy memes

Unpublished au flavored tho :v

I decided to just introduce these obscure aus by just yeeting a summary and a meme :'3

Honestly it sounds like a dumb idea, but I really enjoyed myself doing these as a breather so :v

Ok, we have 8 aus to see :3

Smol note: why is Idia so memeable?!

More under ✨️le cut✨️

Magical girl Idia au:

This au is crack, mostly since Idia is just hit with all the tropes of your usual magical girl story. His only motivation is born from the fact that the main antagonist(which is literally named 'evil overlord') cursed ortho to be a smol pocket kitty. The plot armour is so ridiculous and obvious that Idia himself goes to LENGTHS to just get rid of it(spoiler: he fails). Add to it the fact that NRC collectively thinks a pretty girl in a sparkly skirt and high heels saves them, cue Idia just trying his darn best to survive this school year.

Surveillance duty(horror au):

This one was in the drafts for SOOO much... like I didn't know if I should make just 1 oneshot or a full lil series... but the premise is that Riddle, a teacher at a high-school, offers to vouce one night of camera duty for the guard. From there a series of shenanigans and actual horrors make Riddle to realize that there is more to the school than the eye lets on. Also that the elderich monster is kinda hot

Ps: my fave part is the unholy abomination of energy drinks and coffee Riddle brews. Yes, this is the au that started that bandwagon

Addams Deuce au:

As the title says... Deuce's an Addams, which in twst actually has them be vampires. :v It's mostly a rom-com type of crack, Deuce trying to adapt to nrc and also nrc trying to adapt to Deuce. Doesn't help that he has a venomous snake as a pet.

Matt Hatter au:

I also like this one :v. Basically, the grandfather on the father's side of the zibvolt family leaves as inheritance a cinema. Sevek discovers the truth about the movies the zibvolt family once made along with the parallel world they created. So Sebek has to embark on an adventure to restore and maintain peace in the movie world, while also attending his guard and student duties.

Monster high au:

You had to expect it from me. This one, surprisingly, has a pretty interesting plot, following a timeline made out of the mh movies, starting with Why do ghouls fall in love, ending with an eah movie: way to wonderland.(It's my way of making parallels). You have everything in there! From ghosts and a shy boogieman, to forest monsters and Demons who accidentally blow up things. Most of them actually have pretty angsty stoties, so it's not all that happy. :v

Wild magic au:

In which wild magic is like in s7 of winx. The source of that dark magic is guarded by the nrc Dormheads and some students. Rsa is a school for fairies, which tries to defeat the 'misterious wild magic mages'. The teachers at nrc, nor the Rsa or anyone else knows that some of the nrc students actually got wild magic and they would rather keep it like that. They are petty, they don't like to share :v

Shazam! Au

In which poor, sweet, innocent Ortho is thunderstruck with God powers and now has to juggle school life and 'superhero' life all while he and Idia try to fit in with their new adoptive family. Ace clearly hypes him up, Sebek's the voice of ration and the rest? Well the rest shouldn't really know for now. Apparently since the supposed to be mentor dipped, the heir of Hades's powers, which so happens to be idia, is now tutoring Ortho.

Over the garden wall au(another horror au):

In which Idia and ortho venture into the forest, but only ortho gets out. Being cursed to take place of a monster that ruled that place, idia lurks through there and tries to control his new powers and not led madness consume him. Also he has some fear-hate relationship with butterflies :v.

And those are all :3

For now >:3

Yep, those are chaotic and I couldn't focus one bit on them without having someone to egg me on or ask me about it.

Ironically, they are all(minus addams deuce and Matt hatter aus) fully fleshed out with a lot of details. They can get wild at times, but hey! That's the charm :D

So go on... theorise or ask on why do I think these memes are hilarious /hj

Because really, there is sum insane mental gymnastics there.

Hope you enjoyed another silly round of crappy memes!

Until next time! Buh bye!

#twisted wonderland #crappy memes galore!#mh au #over the garden wall au #surveillance duty au #shazam! au #matt hatter au #addams au #magical girl Idia au #wild magic au #damn that's a lot of aus #but they have crack at the base so :v

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greyeyedmonster-18 · 2 years

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(thank you for the tag @fonkeloog and to @msalexwp for the idea for this little tag/ask game?)

1. Which fic are you most proud of and why?

i love all my children, so much. and i think i could answer this question with all of them and state the reasons why im most proud. but...as a little cop out, im going to say, my most recent babe: postcard from paris

its moonchaser. its moonchaser. and they have such a different dynamic than wolfstar, and its different kind of love story than I've written so far and im proud of myself for 1) conjuring a random one shot idea and then turning it into a little fic??? i know i don't world build, and i really don't, but i had to come up with a timeline where sirius is getting married and moonchaser hooking up and why they didn't work out and bla bla bla bla bla. so much stuff and it had to exist in a magical world, and harry is there! so i'm proud of myself for not being like "too much work, tapping out" and 2) being brave and putting it on ao3 ((because this is always a debate for me)). i also was like...fairly worried that the reception wouldn't be well, or that people wouldn't be able to get the love? and i am proud of myself for doing it anyway.

2. Which fic did you have the most fun writing and why?

okay, another moonchaser, even though it took me ages to write this one: 1% inspiration, 99% perspiration was so fucking fun to write.

like yes, bad dirty talk james. yes yes yes. i could have him say whatever i wanted and it was hysterical. and Remus was just so fucking pathetic the whole time (and also writing the three of them in moonchaser world hits different.

but also. Carry Me Away was really fun for me as well. Just like young and stupid and careless love. Drunk and boozing and summer, the entire fic? This has some of my favorite wolfstar banter/flirting in it, and also some of my favorite lily and remus dialogue in it. Just like, nothing mattered? One second Remus is doing a body shot off Sirius, and the next they're in bed giggling about the merits of authors and it was a blast.

3. Which fic left you emotionally tapped and why?

so i don't...tend to get caught up in the emotions of my own work. there's a few ask games that have questions like "which fic of yours did you cry while writing?" and the answer is none! around the time Fault Lines was released, a bunch of asks were like "how...do you do this?? it must impact you!" and like yeah, but like...i'm not sitting here sobbing over my keyboard. i just write it and then im like "neat" and get up and go about my day, no harm, no foul.

but. I overthought No Matter the Wreckage significantly and that was exhausting. not the actual writing in it, not the content of it, but the aftermath of putting it on AO3 had me in a stall for months and eventually i just stopped fucking thinking and yeeted it out because i couldn't sit on it anymore.

tagging bestie @femme--de--lettres

#tag game #ask game #fic asks

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alannahaisling · 3 years

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The day I slipped into a Panic and anxiety attack.

This, this is going to be long winded.

I'm just going to come out and say it. No, I don't want sympathy. This is just me using this particular blog for what it was meant for. A space for me to vent, to be my authentic self. To reflect, to just let things spill out from my mind through my fingers and onto the screen on which you may be reading this.

First things first. The Icons I'll be using here are not rp muns, they are simply my emotions on display. My IRL self as displayed by characters I adore from the Teen Titans fandom.

Ooookay lets get down it.

I help moderate a stream, have been doing it for a while. I became fast friends with the streamer and pull long hours. Roughly 4-5 hours per stream, unless I have class the next day.

To my knowledge, nobody ever had an issue with me. Save the odd person here or there, that may have disagreed with me, but at least they would tell me to my face, and I would shrug it off and move on. It was as simple as that.

My friend, who I love to death, has on more than one occasion had to reassure me that I was actually doing a good job. I lost count how many times I asked if I needed to improve, or if there were any rough areas that may need to change.

A good chunk of the time, they would just kinda raise their voice, and be like. "Damnit, you're good. You're fine." and then try to cheer me up with silly cat pictures. My ultimate kryptonite.

This friend of mine has worked with me for a few years now, talking about deep heavy personal stuff. They know I am medically diagnosed with ptsd, social anxiety, and have been dealing with depression for years. So they're not a stranger to my triggers and I love them for respecting when I need to just be alone, or only want some quality time one on one for a few hours. You hear that you knucklehead? Yeah you, I know you at least read this shit.

Moving on.

On friday, we had a.. bad night of it. Not even an hour in, after happily gathering folks who wanted to play the chosen game with us that night, someone. Who I will call 2P, dumped a huge paragraph, attacking my character and personality as a mod, in my friends private discord DMS.

2P for months, had been telling me to my face, that they saw me as a best friend, that anything I ever said and or did would be safe to do. You know the whole, you can trust me bit. I blindly trusted, and hind sight maybe I shouldn't have.

Meanwhile the entire time, I apparently had been talked about behind my back, negatively for a while? I don't know.

So we paused the stream, and go into another server that's locked down to a limited set of people and discuss it. Friend is, PISSED, but is trying to not yell, and asks me what we should do about it.

In my head I'm just reeling. I'm asking my friend, if I'm a bad mod, if I've fucked up somewhere, I'm totally confused. I can't concentrate, and there's this choking hurt in my chest. One I know all too well.

The feeling of dread. The feeling that I messed up, that I'm useless, and a fraud.

My friend is trying hard to make sure I'm okay, by this point they know, this has fucked with my head. In a huge way. 17- going on 18 years of therapy suddenly going down the drain, spiralling out of control.

They Cut the stream short.

I'm exhausted, tired, feeling beaten. I just say a few things to 2P and leave their discord server, kick them from my private one, and from the one I made for my streamer friend for the game we play with other people. In addition, also a possible person who may cause me issues, because 2P's probably been shit talking me for a few months now.

Friend is arguing on my behalf, another mutual and their friend, instantly demands to get in call. We'll call them... Uh.. Fuck, Tataru , and Estinien for sake of ease. Tataru is having none of it, they are witnessing my typed anxieties. They are hearing our mutual friend, trying very hard to not just *yell*.

2P is dropping the nasty paragraph in other dms now, belonging to other regulars. It's escalating pretty fast. I am now a villain, and a victim in one role, and 2P is also playing the role of victim because my dearest friend just told 2P Off.

"2P, isn't getting it!" My friend is saying with a calm anger. "2P is just constantly going on and on about how (my name) is bad for the stream." Or something to that effect. "They don't even fucking realize how fucking hurtful they are being."

"You need to stop responding." Tataru is saying. "Just, tell the mother fucker, NO and block 2P on everything."

I guess 2P is quickly realizing that they are losing the fight, so they come into my dms. Shit forgot to block them there. I think in my head, and I see them trying to bring the argument to me. They tell me, that I'm handling the situation all wrong.

I don't even respond. I'm tired. I'm just done. I'm mentally slipping back to the days I was mentally and emotionally abused, and gaslit.

GASLIT.

GASLIT!

I block 2P. For my mental health.

Estinien with their calming voice, is outlining streamer etiquette rules. 2P is definitely out of line, as a viewer. If we want, Estinien can pretty much hit up a wider streamer network, and have the name of 2P blacklisted from other communities.

By this point, another regular is talking to my friend asking what is going on. Then another. Slowly, I read through logs my friend has dumped into the 4 person private call.

Then I see it.

"I'll just lie through my teeth to her about why I'm leaving or something. Just don't tell (My name) I said any of this. " In regards to the in game guild My friend and I Co Run.

Silently mutter to myself. Not that the others can hear me, my headsets broken. "Ah, the other shoe has dropped. 2P's been lying to me the whole time. I've been gaslit all over again. No wonder I feel like I do."

Estinien and Tataru get sleepy and go to bed. My friend stays up as long as they can as I sort my head out, trying to timeline events. I'm given logs, screen shots. 2P's been blocked. I lock down my twitter for a day. I lose 20 hours sleep.

I spent those 20 hours of no sleep, asking and apologizing to regulars if 2P has ever talked to them about me. Most of them say NO, and reassure me I'm a good mod, that I make the stream warm, fun, welcoming and comfortable for all kinds of people.

A good friend of mine, who I will ironically call Angellica, because we call each other sis, and I view myself as Eliza from Hamilton. Once had told me to be careful with 2P from the start, because they had a bad vibe about them, is PISSED off, and yeets them out of an in game group chat. "Fuck em, 2P's a troll."

I realize, that Angellica literally stood by and chose my happiness. Cause yeah, I thought 2P was someone I could trust. After what happened though, I realized that I had been mistaken and apologized, To Angellica.

Now 2P is going around seeing who still will consider them friends, or are neutral parties. I was made aware of this because one of them, a mature friend actually asked me what 2P was going on about. So I gave them the run down. They were disgusted with 2P's behavior.

Now a days, 2P takes screen shots of anybody on twitter, that has blocked them and smears their names.

2P still doesn't get it.

But I'm moving on from it.

I have screenshots and logs. But I don't ever plan on releasing them publicly.

So yeah, 2P if you ever come across this, and figure out I'm talking about you, I severed ties with you, because friends don't lie to each other, Friends don't talk behind each others backs, they don't force other good close friends to sit on the *truth* of how you feel. Friends can disagree, and can have different opinions.

But You burned your bridges yourself.

I've always had a three strike ruleset.

One: You lied to my face multiple times.

Two: You pretended to be my friend.

Three: You actively gaslit me, and my friend.

Sooo THAT'S why I cut ties with you. Your behavior after that was just you playing the victim, and none of us 30 plus year olds were just going to sit by and let you have your 20 something year old tantrum.

I bare you no ill will, and I doubt any of us are going to even blast you in an open space like twitter releasing the logs or screen shots. I'm just noping out of this parasocial relationship because that's all it was. I refuse to be used, as a way for people to get close to and use my friend as they work on their passions and goals.

Adieu 2P , nothing was lost the day I walked away, except all the work my friend did to get me out of my isolated shell. But you know what? They'll just pull me back out, and support me 100% You'll never break us up.

#Mental health #STORY TIME

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