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tiredlilguy · 8 months

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Take My Hands

a/n: i got sad, also there's like two lines of comfort in this, so im even more sad :( but enjoy regardless

pairing: Jouno Saigiku X GN!Reader cw: a little angsty, not proofread desc: he tries to stop you from crying by holding your hands in his. it works surprisingly well.

It was… hard to keep your heartbeat in check when it came to Jouno. He would always be able to know what your heart was saying, and it didn’t seem to matter what emotion was on your mind: he would know. He always seemed to know. Your emotions were rather loud, and sometimes you almost felt as though if you breathed incorrectly, he’d get upset. After all, he was a rather impatient and ruthless man when it came to his work. However, with you, he was willing to be patient: despite how loud your breathing or feelings could be, if it was you, he would leave room for you to be loud.

Unfortunately for you, you had a tendency to be an anxious person. Not only were the jobs he had making you anxious, but the nature of his job as a Hunting Dog seemed rather dangerous. You understood that surgery had to be done every month, but you couldn’t help but wonder what would happen if he simply… missed a month. He’d always tell you to stop worrying: confident in the fact that he’d be ok, and that all you had to do was just take care of yourself ‘till he got home.

However, tonight was once again another night where you’d have been anxious once again.

…

Opening the door to your shared home, he’d already noticed something. You weren’t there to greet him as you usually had. He took off his coat, hat, and boots and walked further into the room: his ears already searching for your beating heart.

Soon enough, the thumping of you heart became present in his mind, but it was uneven and fast: almost as if you were crying… and to his predictions, he heard faint sobbing coming from the bathroom. Without having to think about the layout of his home, he trailed a hand along the walls to head towards the bathroom. He knew of the layout of your shared house, but it was often a habit for him to trace the walls whenever he was walking: just in case he happened to trip over something that wasn’t there before. His hands eventually met the divot where the closed door was, his heightened senses feeling heat: you were most likely taking a bath.

Usually, you often took baths and showers on your own, as Jouno preferred to have his a certain way as the stimulation of a normal hot bath or shower was a bit much for his senses. However, in this instance, he didn’t care, not even bothering the knock on the door. Instead he just announced his arrival:

“ (Y/N), I’m coming in.”

As he opened the door, your sobs only seemed to get louder. You hid your face in your arms, feeling rather embarrassed and upset at your current state.

“ Why’re you here, Jouno…,” you mumbled, wiping your tears away despite them still falling down.

He walked over to the bathtub, kneeling down nearby you,” You’re heartbeat is awfully erratic, my dear. Besides, you were crying, of course I can to come and make sure you were ok.”

You frowned, noticing that he’d just gotten home: still in his uniform.

“… but it’s hot in here,” you mumbled, sinking a little bit further into the water.

“ Hm… You did that because you didn’t want me to go in, didn’t you,” Jouno teased. You continued to frown, not saying a word as you stared up at the shower head on the wall. He already knew that was the truth, so you had no reason to affirm his comment.

“ You always do things like this, my love,” he sighed, breaking the silence,” Don’t think I don’t know.”

You raised a brow, humming for him to go on. At this point, your tears slightly subsided, but your heart was still beating quite fast.

“ You never want me to be with you when you’re not upset. I know you’re an anxious person, so trying to cover that up won’t help your case. I know you run off into the kitchen whenever you cry at night, or you’ll clear your throat whenever you’re about to cry… I know what you’re trying to do, (Y/N).”

“ I only do that because…,” you felt something rising in your chest again, and it felt horrible. Without stopping it, you choked out a small sob.

Jouno felt something in himself break as he heard you sob. You couldn’t help but shield your eyes once more as the tears started to fall rapidly down your cheeks.

“ (Y/N),” Jouno’s hand reached out to find your chin, making you face him. You gasped, arms falling back down into the bathtub as you turned to him. He let go of your chin, taking off his white gloves one by one. He opened his hands out, palms facing towards you.

“ Take my hands,” you did so, placing yours into his. It was rare for you to feel his bare hands, as he was often wearing his uniform. It was nice for once: the skin to skin contact.

“ Now…,” his voice became gentler as his thumbs gently brushed over yours,” Since I’ve been doing most of the talking: tell me what’s on your mind. What’s making you upset?”

You sucked in a breathe, gripping onto his hands to get rid of the feeling of wanting to break down right here. He let you, reciprocating your own grip with his own. It was comforting in a way. Letting out that breathe, you answered,” I was just worrying… again. I’m sorry.”

“ Don’t apologize,” Jouno frowned, still urging you to continue.

Taking another deep breathe, you continued,” I as just worrying… about you. You know, that calendar that we have next to the apartment door? I was looking up at it after work today, and I saw that your surgery is in a couple of days. I know we’ve been together for a while, but… I just can’t help but be irritated by that day. The procedures, everything after that… I know it’s not much other than work to you, but to me. I just… don’t like seeing you in pain.”

Jouno didn’t answer for a while, only caressing your hands still when you finished. There wasn’t much that he could say, and his mind was racing trying to find words to comfort you. However, it was true: there was nothing that you could do. If anything, skipping a month would kill him more than not taking that monthly surgery.

On the bright side at least, you weren’t crying anymore. “ Feel better?,” he mumbled, loud enough for you to hear. You hummed in response. Standing up from the bath and reaching for a towel that was on a hook on one of the walls. Jouno stepped aside as you dried yourself off, eventually wrapping yourself with the towel. You were about to reach over for one of the lotion bottles, but you felt a hand tug you into a warm embrace. You blinked, realizing you were in Jouno’s arms: you head resting on his chest.

“ Sorry, I’m bad at comforting with words.”

You felt yourself smile softly at his gesture, closing your eyes,” I know.”

You wrapped your arms around his frame too. This time, you could hear his heartbeat for once: it was going a little fast, as you pulled yourself further into him. However, despite his heartbeat, one of his hands moved up to your hair, gently massaging your scalp, as you let out a soft hum.

“ Your hair is still wet.”

“… and your heart is beating really fast right now, Sai.”

“ Shut it.”

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blckbrdlove · 3 years

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about me & rules

me:

hi! my name is abbie and I am in my twenties! i'm so happy you're here!

I started this blog so I could have a place to share my work, I intend to continue to do so! I also hope to make some friends!

I write for a female reader. I do try to keep physical qualities/descriptions to a minimum, I notice a lot of my readers do tend to take after myself, I am working on not doing that as much, but I can't promise it will not happen.

I do not take requests, however, thirsts, prompts, and little blurbs are always welcome!

please, please, please be aware that this blog will contain NSFW and dark content and please be safe and don’t read anything that could cause you harm or trigger you.

all dark/triggering content will be tagged as the following:

noncon/dubcon▾tw: noncon and tw: dubcon

dacryphilia▾tw: dacryphillia

daddy kink▾tw: daddy kink

ddlg▾tw: ddlg

degradation▾tw: degradation

dumbificiton▾tw: dumbification

yandere▾yandere

somnophilia▾tw: somnophilia

toxic relationships▾tw: toxic relationships

hard drugs/intoxication▾tw: drugs and tw: intoxication

gore, murder, blood, body mutilation▾tw: gore and tw: murder and tw: blood and tw: body mutilation

pseudo-incest▾tw: pseudo-incest

pregnancy▾tw:pregnancy

children/parenthood▾tw:children tw:parenthood

eating disorder▾tw:eating disorder

PLEASE ALSO NOTE- not everything i post on my blog will be considered dark content. that being said, i will still block minors from following or interacting with this account. just because some of my content may be just regular angst or fluff, that does not outweigh the fact that this blog will contain dark content. this blog is strictly 18+, minors are not welcome and will be blocked.

I will not write, I just have no interest in these topics/they aren’t my type of kinks:

femdom

mommy kink

who I write for (bolded are my favorites!):

bungo stray dogs:

dazai osamu, nakahara chuuya, akutagawa ruynosuke, nikolai gogol, fyodor dostoevsky, tecchou suehiro, saigiku jouno

tokyo revengers (bonten timeline ONLY aside from shinichiro):

sano manjiro, sanzu haruchiyo, haitani ran, haitani rindou, kokonoi hajime, hitto kakuchou, sano shinichiro

jujutsu kaisen:

gojo satoru, zen’in naoya, fushiguro toji, ryomen sukuna, kamo choso

mha:

todoroki touya|dabi, shigaraki tomura, todoroki natsuo, chisaki kai|overhaul

haikyuu!! (all post timeskip):

oikawa tooru, miya atsumu, kita shinsuke, suna rintarou, sakusa kiyoomi, miya osamu

attack on titan:

eren jeager, armin arlert, jean kirstein, levi ackerman

inspo for rule page: sweet sweet @inkykeiji. clari’s layout was too cute and i absolutely love it🥺

#about abbie #abbie's rules #will be revised in the future #probably #things abbie won’t write #trigger warnings #abbie’s first post!#revised as of 1/28 #revised and updated 06/01

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