this will forever be one of the funniest sets of panels to me in the glass scientists idc

Heart Shaped like Sea Glass

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Part 5:  Slow Sort of Burn

Summary:  Quiet moments never sat too well with Jasper.  Perhaps that’s why he finds himself discussing the art of cooking with the siren.

im gonna be spacing these out so that i don’t spam the tags lmao sorry about that last week. there should be a new one every friday or so!  it’ll be incredible to see how long i can keep this up

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The shack is quiet.  It's been quiet since that day on the beach.  The siren barely makes a sound as he shuffles about the shack, slowly gutting a fish with his talons.

Jasper remains where he's curled up on the bed.  It's... odd.  Normally the blonde is huffing and grousing about Jasper's refusal to get up.  On better days, they even have a semblance of conversation.

But...

The siren stabs a stick through the fish and lays it to roast by the fire.  He grabs another and starts his work on the second fish.  And all the while, he remains silent.  

He's been like this since the last time he's sung.  Jasper remembers the vision clearly - David, smiling with arms held open for a hug, only to have the forest framing him from behind.

The same forest that killed and took David away from him.

It's strange, how comforting a siren's song can be.  Jasper could reach out and grab David, save him from the forest and hold him close until the delusion ends.  A dreamlike delusion that he wishes would never end.  That's why he hopes the siren will sing again, just so he can hold David in his arms and pretend that everything is okay.  That's why he hopes the siren will kill him before the delusion ends, before he's forced back into the reality where he failed his David.  

A reality in which the siren that's supposed to be preparing him to be a meal is... preparing him a meal.  

The warm breath against his neck that day was just a reminder of what could have been.  He was more than ready for the siren to bite in and bring his miserable existence to an end.

But.

He didn't.

Instead, he pulled back and borrowed David's voice to suggest that they go inside.  

Since then, the siren hasn't spoken much but a few words a day.  And now, they remain in silence as the fire's crackles fill the air.  

The silence is haunting.  It reminds Jasper too much of empty cottages and pitying glances.  He thought that maybe running to the ocean would fill his empty life up with constant noise.  But no.

Here he is again.

The fire crackles, and Jasper's joints creak as he pushes himself up.  The siren's wings shift a bit at the bed's creaks, but he doesn't turn to look at Jasper.  Instead, he wraps his arms tight around his legs and stares deeply into the fire.  Jasper settles down next to him and watches the fish roast.

The skin of the fish looks crispy as the siren reaches forward to pull it from the fire.  He offers it wordlessly to Jasper as the other one cooks.  Jasper takes the fish, his appetite nonexistent as he turns the stick between his fingers.  Even without the feeling of eyes on him, he knows that the siren is waiting for him to take his first bite.  Sort of like a reassurance, maybe, that Jasper is willing to ingest some food for the day.  There are days when he can't bring himself to eat a sliver of food, and the siren doesn't leave until the next afternoon, only to return at night with some other creature he believes is edible.  The blonde thought maybe roasted worms would do the trick, but all he did was burn the poor creatures.  The smell of roasting worms however convinced Jasper to at least take a small bite of his food to calm the siren.

It's what he does now, taking a nibble of the roasted fish and wondering what kind it is.  The siren used to tell him all sorts of names for the fish he takes back to Jasper.  Now, he sits in silence and stares into the flames.  Jasper sighs as he spins the fish between his fingers.  He thinks he knows why the siren won't speak to him.  It's how he refuses to look at Jasper, how his fingers twitch against his arms, how careful he is with his voice.

The quiet guilt reminds him of David, how the ginger would stare at his feet, shuffling nervously as he wrung his hands and bit his lip as he tried to find the right moment to say, "I'm sorry".  Jasper takes a steadying breath.

The siren isn't David.  No matter how much he resembles or reminds him of David.

And it's almost like instinct that Jasper knows what to say to get striking blue eyes to look at him.

"I'm not mad."  Shock colors the siren's face as he looks to Jasper.  "I'm really... not."  And he's telling the truth.  Because every time the siren sings, he gets one more moment with David.

One more chance to tell him sorry, to save him, to hold him in his arms.

For a handful of minutes, the siren lets Jasper live in a fantasy world where David is still here, still alive, and still so very vibrant.  Like the trees he loved to dance under in the spring, or the grass they used to tumble over as children.  Vibrant like the blooming flowers in the summer.  Vibrant like the singing songbirds that lived in the forest.

Vibrant.  Like red, silky hair and a smiling face dusted with freckles.  Vibrant.  Like the love they shared, turning every day into an endless summer of warmth and affection.

He takes a bite from his fish and notes the salty, wet taste.  And he smiles.

"I'm not mad."

The siren studies him, a mix of emotions swirling in eyes not green, before uncertainty settles on his face.

"You... are a strange human."

"Yeah."  Another bite.  "I guess so."

"...You should be mad."

"I can't be."  Jasper shakes his head, laughing hopelessly.  "Your songs are the only way I can see Davey again and I- I guess I just have to take my chances."

The siren's eyes narrow.  "Are you using me?"

"And aren't you?"  Jasper gestures at his fish.  "You're pretty much fattening me up.  One of these days, you're gonna kill me for food.  It's only fair that I take what I get."

"Which are my songs."

"Righto."  It's only fair.  If he has to die, he wants to do it in a fantasy where David holds him one last time.  It doesn't matter anymore.

Nothing matters anymore.

"So what, this is... permission?  To lure you out with my songs so that you can have your depraved little fantasy?"

"We already have a fucked situation, birdy."  He gestures between them.  "I'm your food.  You help me see Davey.  In the grand scheme of things, I think you still get to come out on top."

"Hmph."  Despite his words, the siren looks oddly... irked.  "That kind of talk will make you taste disgusting."

"...Excuse me?"

"What, you think feeding you fish is how I make your flesh taste better?  Please."  The siren rolls his eyes as he tugs a wing around him, talons running through his feathers carefully as he gets comfortable.  "There's more reason to luring humans with temptatious bait than just easily catching humans.  It's the emotions, the feelings that surge through you.  The way that you are right now, you'd taste no better than the sand collected in clams."

"Wow."  Jasper scoffs and tosses his fish at the blonde.  The blonde snaps it out of the air and growls at Jasper, no doubt annoyed that Jasper would try and waste the food.  "Tell me more about how nasty I'd taste, please.  It really does wonders for my sense of self."

"Think of it like this-"

"I didn't actually mean it-"

"-take, for instance, this fish."  He holds it up for Jasper to see.  "It's fine by itself, but the black nasty bits here," he points to the burnt skin, "are awful to taste.  Siren songs are like that fire," he points once more to the flames, "meant to add a little something more to the fish.  But all it's doing to you now is turning bits of you black and distasteful."  Nevertheless, the siren pulls the fish off and drops the entire thing into his maw, chomping down noisily before swallowing it quickly.  

"Can't you just, remove the burnt bits?"  Jasper watches as the siren takes out the remaining fish and shoves it into Jasper's hand.  He holds it, but doesn't eat.  "Then you wouldn't taste the bad parts."

"That's wasting food, and you know how I feel about that."  The siren looks at the food and to Jasper, huffing when he doesn't take a bite.  "And seeing how my songs are... turning you bad, I'd rather not sing anymore."

"Okay but, consider this."  He takes a bite to appease the siren and keep his attention.  "The fire also makes food good... if you're careful with it.  Maybe, if you're more careful with your songs, it could help me rather than hurt me."

The siren blinks.  Considers.  And frowns.

"And how would that work?"

"...What if I asked?"

"...Asked?"

"Yeah."  It's a long shot in the dark.  But, but.  He closes his eyes shut, and he can see David's face so, so clearly.  "It wouldn't be sudden, or surprising.  I'd expect it.  It wouldn't be as bad."  He opens his eyes and stares at the fire in front of them.  "The flames won't be so bad if we both watch them."

"I..."  The siren pauses, looking everywhere but at Jasper.  "I'll.. think about it."

"Alright."  It's not like he can force the siren.  It wouldn't sit right with Jasper.  But at least he gave it a shot.  "Just... it's fine.  To sing around me.  Like that.  If you want."

The fire crackles as they sit in silence.  Jasper manages two more bites before giving up.  The siren takes the fish and eats it slowly.  Finally, with the stick clean, he gets up, wings slowly curling around him.

"Get some rest."  The siren avoids looking at Jasper as he walks towards the door.  "I'll be back in the morning."

"...Okay."  The door closes with a bang, and Jasper is left alone in the shack.

The fire crackles as he sits in silence, and he hugs his knees to his chest.

Alone.

Again.

the 100 diaries S2 E4

quarantine diaries: may 27 2020

season 2 episode 4: “Many Happy Returns”

that umbrella is so ineffective there are literally holes. i bet its there purely for decoration. also rey from star wars is that you? a scavenger you are

they found anya and clarke soooo fast. i also love how anya keeps clarke on a leash. 

yeah finn i do think that you wanted to kill him. but also “youre not yourself right now”-bellamy. just give finn a snickers and all will be good.

side note: remember when they were worried about winter. look at where these kids are now

“that was rough landing” no shit murphy. you know what murphy you are the comic relief that no one asked for or needed. 

wow finn really don’t want to save this girl. finn embracing the darkness. this is not the spacewalker i used to know and kinda like. but this is just very different character pacing for finn. honestly what are the writers doing. he went from carefree/irresponsible fuckboi to pacifist killjoy to now an obsessive boyfriend ready to kill and do anything to get back to his girl. maybe there were some subtle hints towards this character progression but all this in such a short time makes it kinda seem out of no where.

is the electric fence to keep people out or to keep people in?? also it reminds me of Jurassic park

nice hipster clutches raven.

when that boy pulled a knife on jaha. i had flashbacks to charlotte and wells. I was scared. 

anya said “down” yeah these two were a furry couple in an au. and when anya really slapped clarke in the face with mud i couldnt help but laugh

that was some thin rope but i guess if thin rope can contain lincoln then ok. this kid clearly did not get an A in earth skills or not at least for tying knots...yeah we all saw that death a mile away. kinda stupid that no one was watching/holding the rope. i really thought someone was gonna grab that rope tho and try to save him before he fell to his death. he really just fell

but also how did the girl get there in the first place you can’t tell me that she landed like that? she also didn’t climb her way up the cliff just to get stuck on the ledge. soooo.....

“im not strong stubborn maybe”-mel (11:57) why am i this girl?

finn is pissed at how long this is taking. but even murphy is for on this? that is when you know your moral compass is wrong.

dead zone. city of lights. more world building. please tell me that we see this city of lights

eat that bug. bone apple tea

jaha’s reaction to zoran wasn’t that bad tho. also not to be political but she said “we’re used to the hatred” to a black man. i cannot help but see the irony.

jaha reconsidering all his life choices after hearing siennas story. especially thinking about wells. yikes. yeah ngl jaha you kinda fucked up there.

ooo a new love interest for raven?? i do like this banter between raven and wick

anya was so ready to kill clarke. straight up grabbed the rock closest to her and was ready to smash. but lucky for clarke and her conviently quick thinking. hard core anya

bellamy made me say cadet kelly who? **sorry could not find a better photo but i kinda like it adds to my cheesy and cheap aesthetic 

i cant’ believe theyre holding the rope this time but not for sterling. anything for bellamy tho. they cannot be out there risking prettyboy bellamys life. side note: sorry but what if finn was just like guys lets just let go of this rope and go find our friends bc you know finn doesn’t like this plan because its talking to long. finn was definitely thinking this and you cannot change my mind.

when murphy said “don’t you worry, bellamy. i wont drop you” (19:20) it kinda sounded like a threat but also like murphy was flirting with bellamy. do i ship? no absolutely no. murphy is the one person that i refuse to ship with bellamy. im still salty that he tried to hang prettyboy bellamy

oh yes they are pushing for raven and wick. i also have to mention: raven’s leg is straight up dragging. put on the damn brace. does anyone know how long after the surgery this takes place because damn raven you recover like jasper 

when the rope broke and when the arrows started coming. i fell out of my seat. i swear whenever murphy is around anything that could go wrong does go wrong. deadass i believe that murphy is a bad luck charm. hes just needs to leave.

it doesnt help that i reallllly don’t like murphys hair in this episode? what are those? twists?

aww bellamy and octavia are reunited. but tbh their separation wasnt that long 

i also have to mention that these kids have really white teeth. they may have grease hair but they have the whitest teeth in the world

raven and wick are really flirting. and i ship. shes needs to move on from finn. ngl i dont know this guy that well but i already like him a lot more than finn. 

jaha’s lips are crusty af. someone get him some chapstick

woah clarke. power move. did not think you had it in you. clarke said:

what was that look between bellamy and mel? another ship? 

‘what happened to your boyfriend’ is murphy movin in on octavia? another ship?

thats a cute map

Octavia is all of us (well at least me) when she said “really?” in response to bellamy giving murphy a gun. i still do not trust murphy.

girl fight. this was the most violent scene yet. was that last punch really necessary tho clarke? side note: anya when she said “you fought well” was like shang saying to mulan “you fight good” another ship?

byrne nooo!! you may be right but you are annoying me

wow they really turned on jaha.  but yes “to survive we do what we must” and you know what that means...wear a damn mask whenever youre in a public area. wash your hands. social distance yourself.

bounty on sky people? why?

sidenote: this desert father looks like a skinny DJ kahlid 

anya died too fast and too easily. somebody please say sike. SAY SIKE RIGHT NOW! no actually tho. they did not just kill off this badass warrior with a gun. i refuse. no she has to still be alive. this boss bitch did not just survive mount weather and being hunted just for her to die like this no. absolutely not. she is alive. she has to be. i refuse to believe this death.

SURPRISE & HAPPY BIRTHDAY JACE! 

who: charlotte hepburn & jace kingston ( @jace-m-kingston​ ) where: aspen. when: christmas eve. dec 24th. what: it’s jace’s birthday and charlotte gets the call that he can see all of their kids again. when she surprises him, it doesn’t go too well but soon jace sees their children for the first time in over a year all together.  tiggers: smoking and fighting. 

ps, im too lazy to edit it pls forgive me lmao. <3

heyitsvi12/11/2020 it was a snow filled day, it was christmas eve and charlotte spent most of the day out in the snow with the kids until it got too cold or the babies got ready for nap time but even then she sent them up with their nanny so she can stay down with darla. the two were out in town when charlotte's phone started to buzz in her purse. she excused herself from darla as she shopped once she noticed it was jace's officer. "hello? hi, yes, this is charlotte. is jace okay?" she asked out, getting worried as they never called her about anything unless it was serious. "oh - oh my god, really?" she gasped out, her heart started to race. "it's his birthday as well, he's gonna be so happy," gushed out charlotte. when the phone was over, she ran back to darla. "so miss darla love, c'mon we're going to surprise dad for his birthday because i got the call that he can officially see you all again - oh babe," she was quickly met with a weeping teen, wrapping her arms around her. she returned the gesture and kissed her forehead. "i know baby, i know how much you missed him. he missed you so much too, you have no idea." she cooed. once they composed themselves, charlotte had time to change the babies, herself and everyone into comfortable more clothes plus  her thumbs texted him that they were out with the nanny to get some chocolate and the babies were asleep so he could come over for to drop off the presents. ."okay, everyone ready? he should be here any minute." she whispered as she closed the door to the kid's bedroom. when she heard him at the door and went to go answer it. "why isn't my birthday boy? happy birthday baby, come in." she opened the door wider for him to walk in.

ashyytinns12/11/2020 Jace looked at his over packed car and sighed. He’d gotten far to much but he didn’t know that his own kids liked at this point. “What farther doesn’t know what their own kids like?” He rub the back of his head. “The kind who chose chasing a high over them that’s who. You blood prick.” He looked down at his dog next to him and is little sweater. “At least I won’t be alone for another holiday.” He pet his head before closing the trunk of her suv and looking at his phone getting the all clear to come over. “Alright buddy let’s get going.” He bucked Jasper in the front seat before driving off to the women’s house. Once there he grabbed what he could and headed to the door with his dog right at his feet. Her words caught him off guard when she open up. “Oh.....yeah. Guess that is today it’s it.” He shrugged forgetting his own birthday. Jace might be recovering but his self loathing was still very strong. “Thanks. I got a hell of a lot more so just keep the door open. I have to make like 8 trips loading up the car up.” He said setting the gifts down. “Oh!” Jace patted his pockets till he pulled out envelopes, each with a kids name on it. “This is for you. These are gift recipes for everything. I don’t know what they like...or wear, or sizes.....I don’t know anything besides their names and birthdates basically. So your probably gonna have to do a lot of returns so I, uhm....I tried to make things easier on you.” He said putting them in her hand and heading out the door to grab another arm full from the car.

heyitsvi12/11/2020 "yes, it is," mused charlotte, her smile was huge but that's how she always is. sometimes it was hard to tell when anything was up with her, she was always so happy and cheerful. arching her brow, she cocked her head to the side when he handed her the envelopes with the kid's names on it then back up when he said he had more. "babe, how much did you get them?" she asked out with a small giggle before she placed them down and reached out to take his hand. "wait, wait - before you go, i have something for you for your birthday. i promise you're going to love it," she promised and leaned up to kiss his lips gently. "trust me?" she smiled kindly at him. "close your eyes and sit down on the couch." she took his hand and lace them together. "this one present cannot wait," hummed out lottie.

ashyytinns12/11/2020 “Well the car is packed out and I got everything.” He rubbed the back of his head. “Like I said.....I don’t know what they like.” He hated saying that again. He just wanted to get this done with, quickly so he could go home. Although feeling her hard on his, he knew this wasn’t gonna be done with quickly. He kissed her back before letting out a sigh. “Just...just give it to me tomorrow, yeah? I’m gonna see you tomorrow night to exchange Christmas gifts anyway. I wanna get this done with before the kids come home. It can wait, I promise. 24 hours won’t kill you to keep it a surprise a little longer.” He kissed her forehead before slipping his hands out of her to get back to work. Shuffling in more wrapped presents.

heyitsvi12/11/2020 "you know, you could have asked me silly," hummed out lottie with a small smile on her lips. she knew it was hard on him but after tonight everything was slowly going to start to get more easier for him to get to know their children. she also knew how stubborn he was going to get but she knew the kids were going to get impatient. like how he could be sometimes. "jace," she pleaded gently before he slipped his hand out of hers. "your dad is something else," lottie looked at the dog that followed before shaking her head. why talk to the dog when the kids were in the room. "he's out helping santa's elves since he's so busy tonight so we're gonna surprise him right now," she opened the door and picked up one of the twins in her arms and had everyone standing there for him when he came back from bringing him the presents. "surprise!" everyone cheered and the babies just squealed since they couldn't say the word just yet but they clapped. she laughed and bounced felicitie on her hip. "happy birthday!" they cheered out once more.

ashyytinns12/11/2020 Jasper just titled his head at the women before following Jace again. Could he ask? Yeah he could have but what was the point in that? Either was he was showing lack of knowledge of his own kids. To him, either way was a fail. He grabbed arm full presents and walked back inside, but once inside he jumped and felt his heart freeze. Gently he placed the gifts down and turned back around to see all the kids. He looked at them for a moment before his eyes fell on Charlotte with the most painful expression. He didn’t say anything, just turned and left. Slamming the door so hard behind him it shook the wall. Jasper whimpered and scratched at the door as he was left behind

heyitsvi12/11/2020 the sight of his expression was enough for charlotte, her heart fell in her stomach and she knew quickly this might have been the wrong way to break the news but she didn't know this would be the outcome.  hearing the door slam shut, she flinched. "darla, take citie, turn on a movie, i'll be right back," she whispered and handed the smallest twin to her sister and wiped her hands on her pants before she looked back at their confused face. "i'll be right back," she promised them before opening the door and shutting behind her. "jace, please listen to me. i know you're mad with me but please let me explain this to you, don't leave," fretted charlotte while she walked towards him. "i promise, it's okay."

ashyytinns12/11/2020 “Mad?!” He snapped slamming the trunk closed on his truck. “Mad is the understatement of the fucking year. Jasper!!” He called for his dog and put him in the car. Slamming that door closed too. “Merry Christmas, happy birthday...” he mocked in her voice before continuing. “..here our your kids that YOU CANT FUCKING SEE!” Jace yell the last bit and yelled loud. He’s snapped and snapped hard. “I CANT FUCKING SEE THEM AND YOU JUST BRING THEM OUT BECAUSE!! WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH YOU, CHARLOTTE! I’ve called you dumb before but this is dumber then dumb. And you are completely clueless.” He walked over to his side of the car. “Happy birthday, here all the lives you’ve fucked up. Ya know what, Charlotte, I don’t give a flying fuck what your reasoning is for doing that to me but do me a favor and FUCK off.” Jace opened the door and got in. Slamming the door behind him. He light a cigarette as he patted his pockets for the keys that he forgot to look for in his rage

heyitsvi12/11/2020 the blonde followed him out in the aspen cold snow and didn't even bother to bring her jacket as she thought they weren't going to leave the warmth. the pit of her stomach turned and tossed in many directions as he yelled at her. he had no idea but she wasn't even a chance to explain why they were there in the first place. shaking her head, she hated to be yelled at, her eyes started to water slightly but she took a deep breath and went over to the side of the car and opened it. "jace michael kingston, if you would listen to me for five fucking seconds then you would know that i got a call from the office earlier when i was out with darla earlier. you were approved to see them, see every single one of them up there from now on. we don't have to sneak around anymore. you are free to see them any time that you want, they are there, right there for you to hold. i was trying to be nice, i was trying to surprise you with them. i never wanted you to feel this, this is the last thing i ever wanted you to feel ever. you know me. i might be other things but not those. yeah, i should have done this better and i am so sorry to make you feel like this. she let go of the door to wrap her arms over her body. "i promise you, it's okay to see them. this is something i will never fuck around with, not when it comes to our kids. now go see your kids, they've been waiting for you."

ashyytinns12/11/2020 Jace didn’t look over at her. Just stared at the steering wheel, finishing off the cigarette in one inhale before lighting another. “If that was the case the fucking smart thing to do is to fucking say that at the start. Like “Happy Birthday! We got the call for you to see them again. FUCKING ANYTHING! Anything. And how do you know if I was ready?  If I was personally okay to see them? Yeah I miss them and I want to be in their lives, but how on earth would you know if I was comfortable enough of where I am to see them?!” Smoke left his mouth as he spoke and started up the truck. “I’ll have Amelia drop off the rest of their gifts and yours tomorrow if she can. Go back inside...Tell the kids that their father is just another let down.” He was much calmer but there was still in a lot of pain in his words as he reached over to grab the door to pull it close

heyitsvi12/11/2020 "what on earth do you think i was trying to do when you first walked in? i was going to tell you then bring them out," charlotte objecteted while she pushed her hair out of the way. "the surprise i wanted to share was them, they're the most greatest christmas gift that i have in my world. you're right, this a talk that should have been brought up between the two of us and i am sorry. she pointed at a random window from the parking lot, she had no clue if was her hotel room. "jace, i am honestly so sorry about all of this but i'm not going to tell them that. i have never once talked down or bad about you to any of them. i will not start do that on a holiday or any other day," she shook her head before she reached out to stopped the door once more placing her other hand on his. "babe, you can buy all the gifts in the world to make up for lost time with them but nothing is more valuable than actually your presence. but i'm not going to force it, if you're not ready than okay but if you are ready than here." she reached into her back pocket to pull out her extra keycard.(edited) December 12, 2020

ashyytinns12/12/2020 “You should. Sure as shit they are gonna see it and hear it from their own father.” He said sticking the  cigarette in his mouth and sliding out of the car. Scooping Charlotte up in arms and put her in the warm car. He was dressed for the cold unlike her right now. Before closing the door he rolled the window down so they could talk though it. “I know the importance of time with someone. I can’t get back the lost time and there no making it up.” He said leaned back back against the car. Blowing his smoke out. “I can’t get back what I mess. The twins, you say they know me form videos and pictures but it’s different in real life...”

heyitsvi12/12/2020 “you know that i would never, i could never do that to you or them.” charlotte leaned her head against the door before he scooped her up and switched her spots. she was no longer in the freezing cold but now was in the warm car. “thanks,” she hummed out lightly. “you’re right, you can’t get back lost time and you can’t make up anything but now you got the freedom you’ve always wanted with them. they’re right there. this is what you wanted, you wanted them. it’s about them,” she smiled sweetly leaning her head on the side. “babe, i know it’s going to be hard and rough. sure some tears might shed from here and there but pictures and videos can’t compare to their daddy being there. their first words were dada, it’s all i heard. they would yell it back and fort at each other,” she laughed lightly at the memory. “when i pull up pictures, they go ‘daddy.’ once they know it’s really you then it’ll be okay. everything will be okay at the end of the day. jo is more shy one, citie will be all over you, she’s so friendly and loving.” she told him. “i know you’re worried but they’re your kids, they’re not that scary unless they’re having a meltdown over a toy.” she said with a small laugh. “whenever you’re ready, we’re not going anywhere,” she whispered out towards him, resting her head on the window looking over at him with her blue eyes.

ashyytinns12/12/2020 “That doesn’t make anything easier. It’s like I’m dead. And pictures are all they have of me.” Out of all the kids, the twins were the ones who hit the hardest. It was their first year of life and he wasn’t there for it at all. First words. First steps. First smile. He wasn’t there for any of. “They don’t scare me. Being a father never scared me or made me worry. It’s more of....They don’t deserve me to be their father. There are amazing kids! All of them. And I, for all of their lives.....just thought of getting high. Fucking Darla, she.....if she doesn’t end up messed up later on in life then it’s a fucking miracle.” He took in a drag from his cigarette. “I know. This is a broken record of a conversation that we’ve had a million times and we’ll have a million times still but I think every time we do you convince me a little more that I’m actually not a complete fuck up....” Jace let out his smoke and looked back at her. “They say recovery is mostly mental and I’m pretty damaged up here.” He put to fingers to his head before looking back at the ground. “When I slammed the door my first thought was to call Amelia and get high...I shouldn’t think that way. Not that she would let me, she’d talk some sense into me probably. Or smack me. Or both.”

heyitsvi12/12/2020 “but you’re not dead, you’re right here in the flesh. i’m looking right at you,” cooed our charlotte, staring at him through the rolled down window. the woman always thought about when this day would come and she always made sure that he wasn’t a stranger to them, she wanted to have his face be familiar to them. she knew how babies could get with stranger anxiety and she wanted to make sure it went as smoothly as possible. “they’re our amazing kids. they deserve you, they deserve to get to know the man who helped bring them into this crazy world. darla, miss darla love, she has such a good head on her shoulders. you know that more than anyone. she’s an amazing and smart thirteen year old i ever known.” the woman replied back to him, her eyes kept on him while he spoke out. she let out a small laugh, nodding her head. “i mean, you’re not wrong and i know this ain’t the last time we’re going to have this conversation ever but it’s just who we are. babe, look at me, i love you,” she reached over to touch him gently. “you’re not a fuck up, you never have been.” she reassured him. “it’s okay, i’m right here.” she told him, smiling gently. charlotte stood quiet before speaking out. “it’s second nature to you but you didn’t call her, you aren’t with her right now and i have a feeling that she probably would have done that. but hey, you didn’t, you’re right here and everything is going to be okay. i promise, it’s just one step at a time.” she told him.

ashyytinns12/12/2020 “She has a better head then most adults but  feel like that’s a bad sign. Means she had to grow up faster then she should have.” Jace looked back over at her and chuckled. “There’s one thing in this world that I can alway count on and that’s your love for me. It’s always gonna be there.” He took another drag from his cigarette before snubbing it out on the ground. “And you need to stop telling that I’m not a fuck up. Because thats a lie and your just to nice to tell me other wise.” Jace folded his arms in the windowsill and smiled softly at her. “Yes but she’ll still hear about all of this. Best friend and all, we have to hear about each other’s life problems 24/7.”

heyitsvi12/12/2020 "you both did, you raised each other since you had her at such a young age. she knows that, she knows you tried your best and you did what you had to do to give her the best life," charlotte told him truthfully while keeping her head leaning against the door. "i'll coming running when you call out my name and it'll always be this way," quoted charlotte from a song that was on cherry bomb's latest album but it was about their relationship. the woman nodded her head, he was right, she was too nice to tell him otherwise but she always saw him in a different light. the woman smiled back at him, moving some of his hair from his face. "oh yeah, ivy and amara are going to hear about this too," she scrunched up her nose at him. "that's what best friends are for, of course," smiled softly at him before pressing a kiss against his lips gently. "sorry for messing up your birthday, jace," she whispered.

ashyytinns12/12/2020 She’s probably the only one who understand.” He tipped his head to the side, chuckling. “Are we gonna start sign our songs to each other now?” Jace hummed softly before taking in a breath. “No, you don’t have to keep on being strong for me and you. Acting like you feel no pain, you know I know you do. And I can't get inside when you're lost in your pride, but you don't have a thing to prove.” He sung softly before kissing her again. Shaking his head. “S’alright. Forgot it was my birthday away.” He shrugged. “They’ve become less special as the years gone by.” He leaned through the window and grabbed the keys. Turning the car off.

heyitsvi12/12/2020 "she's a great kid, you should be so proud," hummed out before she let a few giggles escape her glossy lips. "i mean, i wouldn't mind living in a glee like world." her smile grew as he started to sing to her, she always looked at him like it was the first time and hearing his voice always took her away. "i love hearing you sing, it's so beautiful to hear." she told him truthfully. "well, now you're with me, each birthday is going to be extra special. i'll bake you a cake, cupcakes, let you unwrap your present at midnight, breakfast in bed, all the works" hummed out charlotte. "your birth is very special to celebrate, jace," she told him before watching him turn off the car. "what's the plan?" she questioned out, leaning back into the seat.

ashyytinns12/12/2020 His eyes rolled and he opened the door. “Yeah I know.....but life isn’t a musical. No matter how hard you try.” Jace smiled and nodded back to the house. “You need to get in back inside.  You’re gonna get sick even tho your in the car.”

heyitsvi12/12/2020 charlotte smiled lightly and shrugged her shoulders. "i know but at least we can sing," she winked at him playfully. she looked back to the hotel they were all at and back at him. "i didn't even think about coming out here in the cold," she wrapped her arms around herself before opening the car door to the truck. quickly the blonde made her way towards the front doors of the lobby. "jace, you know where to find us when you're ready. we've been ready. i promise you, the twins are going to love you so much." she hummed before opening the door, feeling the warmth hit her body.

ashyytinns12/12/2020 “Who said I wasn’t?” He asked simply looking over her with his hands in his pockets. Snow drifting around them. “I’m sorry for yelling at you. I think my temper is shorter now because there nothing in me numbing my feelings. For the good or the bad.” He said. “I’m completely defenseless from you, the world. I’ve never felt like that.” He looked up at the falling snow. “Guess I’m not exactly sure how to react whenever my feelings get to their limits. When they over take and drive every motion I have. I react pretty poorly, I can at least recognize that. So while the voice in my head it telling me to run because I’m not worthy...” he looked back at her. “But then there your voice echoing around. Louder the  anything telling me the opposite.”

heyitsvi12/12/2020 charlotte looked over at jace when he started to speak. she closed the doors to the lobby since she didn’t want to the employees anymore of a reason to stare at her and she wrapped her arms around herself. “i know and it’s okay, my love,” she told him truthfully. she did just spring this all on him at once, it could have been planned better but she was so excited for the kids to spend time with him again. “i may not know what’s going on up in your head but i understand, my love,” she hummed out softly. “is that so? well it’s because you’re so much worthy of love and happiness. you are doing everything right, you deserve so much more than you gives yourself credit for,” she grinned at him. charlotte knew this wasn’t possible the last time they were in aspen and she was pregnant with caden. he was a different person then and now. she could see the difference. charlotte held out her hand for him. “come on, i know you love the cold weather but there are some small blue eyes tribe waiting to meet you.” she smiled sweetly at him.

ashyytinns12/12/2020 He looked at her hand for a moment before looking back at his dog. “Jasper! You coming or are you just gonna sit in the cold.” He teased as the dog jumped out of the car and followed behind him as he slipped his hand into hers. “Oh I don’t think you’ve actually met Jasper yet. My therapist said suggested a friend so I adopted him from the shelter. Good emotional support animal since im alone a lot.”

heyitsvi12/12/2020 the blonde gazed over to the dog and smiled at him. “we met briefly and i ended up talking to him,” she giggled out before intertwining their fingers together and walking towards the lobby. before reaching out to let the dog sniff her hand and she gently patted his head, giving him small small scratches behind his ear. “he’s so cute, jace, what kind of breed is he? he seems like such a dog boy, right beside you all the time.” she grinned feeling the warmth of the lobby once she walked in. instantly she shivered and shook her head. “the cold is nice but i miss the summer.”

ashyytinns12/12/2020 “Oh ya? He’s a good listener that’s for sure.” The man pet behind his ear. “Australian Shepard mix is all the told me. He’s about 4. As of recent events, kinda one of the best things I’ve done. The house was really quiet before him.” Felling her shiver he pulled her in close. “Meh. I like the cold.”

heyitsvi12/12/2020 “he does seem like one, better than my dogs, the other two don’t care unless i have food in my hands,” she laughed lightly. “aw, i’m in love already. if he goes missing he’s at my house listening to me,” she joked while reaching the elevator door. she wrapped her arms around jace, looking up at him. “i know you do, i remember from the last time we were here. that felt like such a lifetime ago but hey aspen is when i fell in love with you,” she cooed out gently.

ashyytinns12/12/2020 “Yeah took me a while to find the right one. I think I met every dog in for shelters before him. I needed some who just....got me.” He said looking down at him happily. Jace’s eye moved back to her for a moment. “Yeah I still don’t know what the defining moment was but..” he shrugged and followed her lead back to the room

heyitsvi12/12/2020 charlotte listened while they talked back towards her hotel room. "dogs are the best little to have around. hatachi really helped me when i was down so i get it," she smiled up at him stepping into the elevator and pressed the floor she was on. "i looked back at you and it just all hit me all once and then i knew, i fell in love," she told him giving his small hand a small squeeze. once they reached the door, she took out her other keycard from her back pocket and looked back to him. "ready? it's about to get loud," she mused out putting the key and the door unlocked from the inside. stepping in, she grinned at the small faces, they were either on their tablets or playing with the toys on the floor. "hello babies!" she cheered out before walking in more and heard babbles of nonsense and asking what had happened from darla. "guess who i have with me? did someone order a daddy?" she giggled while stepping to the side to let jace in.

ashyytinns12/12/2020 “Yeah. Jasper is still in training but it was important to connect right off the bat. That connection needed to be there so he can be trained to help me when I need someone. Like before, when his training is complete he’ll know when to step in when my emotions get out of hand.” He said as they walked to the room he waited for her to open up and let them in. Although at her words he pinned the bridge of his nose. “Never....never ask another human being if they ordered a daddy. There’s so much wrong in that sentence.” Jace slid off his hat and shoved it in his pocket as knelt down. Arms open for Darla and Leo who were throwing themselves at him. For a long time, it was just the three of them and now they we’re together again.

heyitsvi12/12/2020 the blonde nodded her head, she actually never met a servce dog before and she could tell what a difference that jasper had on jace's life. "huh, it's kind of amazing what animals are capable of doing, huh? like i've seen them many times but i know they're doing their job and never go up to once unless they're at our meet and greets. then we're asked if we want too," she chuckled lightly. charlotte let out a laugh at his response to her question. she saluted him. "it's all and good fun," she giggled before making her way to swoop up johannah who instantly wanted to be picked up. felicitie on the other hand was just looking over and looking up at her mother. charlotte bent down to caden and took his hand in hers. "one at a time," lottie grinned down at the boy and kissed jo's cheek. "caden, look who it is, it's daddy," she smiled while the boy who was identical to jace and leo in his facial feautures. "you remember him, he looks just like you," she hummed out while the boy offered a shy wave as he made his way up to the three before him. the twins on the other hand were going to be a bit more different. December 14, 2020

ashyytinns12/14/2020 It wasn’t till his kids were wrapped up in his arms that his eyes started to tear up a bit. He missed them so much. So so much. It been a long time since he had them with him again.  Sniffing he looked up at his youngest son. “Hey buddy. You’ve gotten so big.” He hummed and reached out for him to come closer. Jace blinked back tears a bit and smiled happily. “Mum is right, you really do look like me huh?” He chuckled

heyitsvi12/14/2020 charlotte watched the scenes in front of her, she knew how much he missed the kids. he really did love them, she couldn't help but smile with tears stinging her eyes. it was so beautiful to see, all of their kids and jace reunited together for the first time in over a year. caden was pretty shy and gently - sometimes - but charlotte always made sure that he never forgot jace's face. she knew he had to remember it, he was little but wasn't too little like the twins when jace checked himself into rehab. leo and caden were just like jace, they had his facial features. charlotte walked over to take felicitie's hand in hers then readjust johannah in her arms. she looked at jace with a small smile, she wanted to take their time and not rush everything at once. when he was ready for the twins, she would move them in. for now, she watched as caden took jace's hand and moved in closer. December 22, 2020

ashyytinns12/22/2020 He smiled happily as his son make closer to him. “You’ve got to tell me everything that happened in the past year. All of you.” He hummed before gently pulling the three of them into a group hug. “Like you Miss. superstar! Who let you join a girl band, huh?” He said messing up Darla’s hair before standing under and looking that the twins. “They look just like you, love....”

heyitsvi12/22/2020 "i think we can make that over some hot coco, how does that sound?" hummed out the blonde while she looked over at the four on the floor. she loved the sight of caden remembering and taking to jace so well. charlotte let out a small laugh with darla. charlotte looked down at the one in her arm and the other hold her hand. "you think so? we think they look like you more," lottie said with a small smile before kissing jo's forehead. she moved in closer with the twins. "this is johannah right here," she let go of felicitie's hand and rubbed her sister's back. "say hi to daddy baby," cooed lottie while jo hid her face. "she is the more shy one. she'll come around soon," said charlotte with a small smile before bending down to the other twin and setting jo down but she stood close by. "citie, say hi to your dada, it's him, say hello," she took her hand once more and brought her closer and smiled when she pointed at him with a smile her gummy toothy smile. "give dada hugs?" lottie cooed while rubbing her back and laughed lightly when she just squealed out. "she's happy, i promise you," she chuckled out looking over to jace. "it's his birthday, citie!" she smiled when the toddler opened her mouth into an o. she had no idea what her mother saying but she was excited.

ashyytinns12/22/2020 “Mama let me, but let’s be real. Can you say no to me?” She smiled at her father before hugging his side. Jace’s eyes rolled with tears still in his eyes. Sniffling he looked at the twins. “No. Completely you. I got my mini’s, they are all you.” Shoving his hands in his pockets he watched them. The last thing he wanted was to scare them. They didn’t know him, despite what Lottie had showed or told them. He smiled sadly “Hello gorgeous littles....”

heyitsvi12/22/2020 charlotte couldn't help but giggle and wink at darla. "she knows i couldn't say no but we talked about being a girl group and i promised to help along the way." she nodded her head before looking up at jace's red eyes, her heart breaking at the sight since he missed so much of their lives that he was a stranger to them. it was a heartbreaking sight but now they were going to know him. "say hi, wave, let me see your hand," she hummed and took felicitie's hand and waved at him but she ended up doing it herself. the toddler ended up squealing out again and laughing. charlotte shook her head with a small laugh. "that's dada, see he was hugging sissy and your brothers. he's nice," she kissed citie's nose gently while jo came over on the other side and caused charlotte to smile. "i read up on this, they know that i'm calm and they'll be okay, i promise," she told jace looking up at him from her spot on the floor. "this one," she pointed to the felicitie on her right. "is ready to jump, look at her giving you those eyes," she giggled out while the one year old was smiling up at him. "it's okay baby, see, it's dada." lottie nodded at her. December 24, 2020

ashyytinns12/24/2020 He watched her with the twins, a weak smile on his face as she spoke about them. Giving a half hearted chuckle. “It’s.....it’s fine.” He said softly. “Don’t make them do something they don’t want to.” He said hating every moment of this actually. Because this is his fault. “I don’t want them to start crying or anything. I.....I can’t fix that and don’t want to be the cause of it either.” Jace took a step back from them.

heyitsvi12/24/2020 charlotte’s blue eyes looked up and saw his weak smile. she offered him a kind one and nodded her head. “they’ll do it on their time and when they do, it’s gonna be a wild show,” she assured him with a small giggle before standing up and playing with felicitie’s blonde locks that were up in pigtails. of course, her older sister did their hair. “it’s okay, one step at a time.” she hummed out. “this is a big step and plus it’s your birthday. it’s a big day for everyone in my opinion,” she hummed out, trying to lighten the mood. the blonde brit clapped her hands lightly. “i can go down and get us some cupcakes to celebrate. if you’re okay with that of course,” she looked at jace with a small smile mostly talking to him and her voice low so that the kids couldn’t hear too much. “i can take the girls so it’ll be easier. whatever you wanna do, it’s your day.” December 26, 2020

ashyytinns12/26/2020 “No no. Let’s no make a big deal out of it. I forgot it was my birthday anyway.” He chuckled. “Let’s just get the rest of the presents and maybe just hang out.” He said putting on his face smile. “Maybe hot cocoa and a movie?” Jace suggested rocking on his heels for a moment.

heyitsvi12/26/2020 "if you say soo," sang out lottie casing caden to laugh out. "but your birth is something worth celebrating," she told him, smiling sweetly at him. "i think that's a great idea. what do you guys think?" the woman asked the kids and got a mixture of babbles and "yeah!" her eyes looked back to jace and her smile grew. "it's settled then. hot coco and a movie. let me put on a jacket and i can help with the rest of the presents or i think miss darla will help." she giggled as she watched the teen get on her boots and jacket. "i'll stay here with the babies and get the hot coco going," she nodded her head before picked up johannah in her arms. "off to the kitchen," she sang out once more before playfully spinning around towards the kitchen.

Guns and Roses: 14

You lay on the couch and stare at the ceiling. There’s a fan at your feet making a soft click every time it oscillates, the noise is strangely soothing but yet you can’t get your mind to turn off. It’s been nearly two hours and god are you bored.

You can’t believe that Steve would think that you wouldn’t want to be with him. You thought you’d made it pretty clear that you were into him. Then again you’d pretty much told him to leave you alone when you first met. That you never wanted to be part of his lifestyle. Could he think that you needing space meant forever? You, quite happily, made out with him and cooked him breakfast only this morning. You don’t just make out with dudes on the regular, even after being with Jasper for as long as you were you’d never liked making out with him as much as you did Steve.

God, it’s so strange to be comparing the two men. They’re such polar opposites.

Steve is caring, kind, protective in the way that you actually want to be protected, he’s smart and god he’s so so handsome.

Jasper was such a prick. Possessive not protective, controlling and not compassionate. Honestly you don’t know what you ever saw in him. Maybe it was the fact that he hid behind a badge, something that had represented good to you when the mob had only been bad.

When you compare him to Steve you can’t believe how wrong you’d been.

You sit up with a heavy sigh and head into the kitchen, you’re not gonna get any sleep tonight so you might as well do something. You make a half pot of coffee and after loading it up with more than a little creamer and sugar you head out to the front porch.

“Hey doll.” Thank god Steve has good reflexes because he scares you so badly you throw the coffee mug at him. It shatters loudly in the silence of the woods and thank god he wasn’t standing in front of a window. “Shit, sorry. I’m so sorry it’s me.” He soothes as your heart races.

“Oh my god! Are you trying to get killed?” You hiss in an attempt to not wake Nat or Clint.

“No. I was trying not to scare you.”

“You weren’t successful.” Nat comes flying around the corner of the cabin her gun up.

“Show me your hands!” She snarls pressing the gun to the back of his head.

“Widow.”

“God damn it Cap!” She snarls, withdrawing the gun from his head. “You idiot,” She snaps heading back into the cabin. You hear her talking softly to Clint who must have followed her out of the bedroom.

“What are you doing here?” You ask gently, your arms wrapping around yourself.

“Needed to talk to you.”

“There’s a thing called a cell phone.” You quip and you can see his smile in the darkness.

“You’re too far north Doll.”

“Oh.” You mutter unintelligently.

“I was gonna wait, give you some time but I was going crazy Doll.” He says softly, his eyes not meeting yours in the darkness of the woods. You can’t see much of him but it’s enough to know he looks heartbroken.

“Come with me.” You take his hand as you walk past him, he trails behind you down to the water’s edge. Steve doesn’t say anything as you lead him out onto the dock where there’s a bench at the end to sit on. It’s not until you’re out there, your knees to your chest with Steve sitting next to you that you talk. “What’s on your mind Steve?”

“I just, I know this hasn’t been easy for you and I feel like I’m to blame for that. But Darlin, I’ll do just about anything to keep you by my side. There’s somethin’ about you that I just,” he pauses and takes a deep breath, “I just feel like I need to protect you.” He glances over at you with a small smile, “I know you probably hate that.”

“It’s not the worst thing I’ve ever heard. I’m not running Steve, I’m not backing out on our deal.” You tell him, eyes focused on a line of moonlight on the water. “I just needed some time away. Ya know? It’s been chaotic these last few days and you’re very distracting.”

“I’m distracting?” He sounds amused and you give a little huff.

“You’re too fucking handsome.” He laughs softly and you scowl up at him.

“If it makes you feel any better I think you’re gorgeous as hell.” You let out a breathy laugh of your own. You lean into him and he wraps an arm around your shoulders.

“I’m not running from you, I needed my family and Clint, Nat and the twins are still my closest family. For now.” You snuggle further into him and hum contently at his warmth. “I’m sorry if I made you think I didn’t care about you. I do, as annoying as you are.” Steve laughs again and you can’t hide the smile on your face.

“I care about you too Doll, I honestly was petrified I lost you for good.”

“It’s gonna take a lot more than that to get rid of me.” You tell him cheekily.

“Good.” He presses a soft kiss to the top of your head and you sigh happily. “I’m sorry I put you in that position, I should’ve protected you better.” He sounds so remorseful that it breaks your heart.

“Hey, I don’t blame you okay? I know you will but I don’t. I’m still here, I’m uninjured, you’re okay. Please, please don’t beat yourself up about it.”

“You’re sure?”

“One hundred percent.”

“Maybe you should assure me,” he smirks and you look up in confusion. He takes the opportunity to press a soft kiss to your lips.

“Tricky.” You laugh softly, before pulling his lips back to yours. He hums lowly and you can feel the rumble in your chest. Steve drags you into his lap, your lips still on his, and pulls your body flush against him. It’s strange kissing him from above him, you’re used to him being in control but this is nice too. So nice.

When you pull away to catch your breath, you rest your head down on Steve’s shoulder.

“Steve?”

“Hmm?”

“What did you do with Pierce?”

“I got rid of him.”

“Steve-“

“No, no Doll. I didn’t kill him. None of the Howlies did, I gave him away.”

“To the police?” You ask hopefully sitting up so you can look at his face.

“Uh, not exactly.”

“Steven.” You warn lowly.

“I gave him to Shield, I mean I traded him. They took him and agreed to give us a place in the South of France for vacations.”

“Peter and May ever show up?”

“They did after I left. Bucky is watching over them.”

“Thank you for not killing him yourself Steve.”

“I’m trying to do right by you Doll.” He says cupping your face in his hands, “I wanna keep you around.”

“Thank you. I’m not trying to change you, I really just don’t want to know what you have to do.” You tell him gripping his wrists, keeping him close to you.

“I can understand that, I promise I’ll do my best not to upset you.”

“And I promise to not get angry with you when you have to do those things.”

“I think we’ve made a lot of progress tonight Doll.” Steve says resting his hands down on your thighs as you card your fingers through his hair.

“Who knew communication could be so beneficial.” You tease and he laughs softly before you pull his lips back to yours.

A few minutes later he pulls his lips from yours and sighs softly, his breath sliding across your face.

“We should go to bed.”

“Where do you suggest we do that? There’s a reason I was on the couch.”

“My cabin is next door.”

“Next door? Are you talking about the mansion?”

“It’s a cabin!” He protests and you shake your head at him.

“Steve, that’s not a cabin.” You protest again, and he huffs.

“Okay fine, my lake house. Or, I guess if you’re still in, our lake house.”

“I’m still in.” You assure him and that sweet smile graces his lips again. He eases you off of his lap then stands and holds his hand out for yours. You give it without hesitation, honestly it’s not even a question in your mind to go with him. It’s just a couple minute walk along a wooded path before you come to the lake house. Steve unlocks the front door and disarms the security system before arming it again. He leads you upstairs and into another bedroom with another massive bed and now that your mind isn’t spinning a million miles an hour exhaustion sweeps over you.

“God you have the best beds.” You murmur causing Steve to laugh. You climb onto the bed with him beside you then after curling into him fall into a content sleep.

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Alive and Well. ( Bellamy Blake x Reader )

Request : 1 -Reader suppose to be on the Ring but she was with Clarke and they didn't make it to ship on time but they both survived. And Reader and Bellamy were couple so she's the one talking to him on the radio everyday. And he was completly broken after that and when they got back he's shocked and they share very emotional reunion (as they both changed very much). And she almost attacked them scared that they're people from this prisoner ship. Thanks! -ANON

2 - Hey there! Just another cute request with Bellamy Blake coming back on earth 7 years after praimfaya when the reader had to stay on earth (he thought she was dead with Clarke) Small detail: one day before goint back to the ark, the reader gave birth to their daughter and see her again 7 years after, when Bellamy had to raise her alone in the ark. NOTHA REQUEST WHICH ACTUALLY GOES WITH THE PREVIOUS ONE: could I please with sugar on top get an imagine when bellamy is raising his daughter alone on the ark with the reader being on earth (supposely dead) Like cute moments daughter/father, the skaikru team being protective and playing with the daughter 😎 Have a nice sundayyyy - @enoraturner

Pairing : Bellamy x FEM Reader

Word Count : 2,753

Warnings : like three curse words lol 

A/N : okay so lets just imagine that D/F/N was a ripped metal ass baby that can survive the vacuum of space bc going to space a day after ur born is kinda unrealistic LMAO the ending might be a little lackluster sorry!! just wanted to get this out there ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ also thank you so much for requesting!! please request some more !! i love writing for Bellamy !! im really scared on how this will do pls help me out here

D/F/N, D/M/N = daughter’s first name/middle name

FEEDBACK IS GREATLY APPRECIATED SO PLEASE FCK ME UP WIT IT<3

“ Here we go again. “ You huffed out quietly, a radio in one hand and a wrinkled map in the other. A stray breeze flowed gracefully through your hair and along the branches of nearby trees. You gazed longingly at the black CB radio in your palm, hoping a familiar voice would just speak out of nowhere. It nearly brought you to tears just imagining the thought of someone responding after six lonely years.

“ Bellamy, if you can hear me, you’re alive. It’s been 2,199 days since Praimfaya. I don’t know why I still do this every day. Maybe it’s my way of staying sane here with Clarke. Not forgetting who I am, who I was. It’s been safe for you to come down for over a year now. Why haven’t you? I miss you. “

“ D/F/N D/M/N Blake! Come out, come out, wherever you are! “ Bellamy playfully yelled out, his voice echoing throughout the metal halls of the Ark. His feet quickly tip toed along the corridors while his eyes briefly scanned each and every room in search of his little daughter. Just before leaving after peeking in the last bedroom of Hall C, a high giggle could be heard from under the floorboards.

“ Hm, if I was a seven year old, where would I hide? “ Bellamy questioned curiously out loud, attempting to lure D/F/N out of her hiding spot. The tiny child kept her fingers planted on her lips, refraining from making a peep of noise. Her father slowly kneeled down on the floor, silently lifting up a tile and revealing the surprised face of a little girl. “ I found you! Now, come on out, sweetheart. Monty’s making us try foods again. “

“ Ewww, do we have too? “ D/F/N groaned out, her nose crinkling in disgust as she crawled out of the tiny floorspace. Bellamy hummed out in affirmation, a small sigh following suit. During the six years in space, Monty has been experimenting to find sources of nutrients to sustain eight people, even if they tasted like bitter posion. “ Last one there has to drink two! “

“ Hey! No fair! “ Bellamy barked out, running after his daughter who already disappeared around the corner like a ghost. He groaned out as a hand ran through his ruffled hair, knowing full well he would never catch up to D/F/N. She was too smart for her own good, an obvious trait she inherited from her wonderful mother, and she never stopped asking about going back to Earth.

Bellamy saw so much of you in D/F/N: the H/C hair, the E/C eyes, the ability to think in such creative and unusual ways. She was practically a carbon copy of everything he missed so dearly. Bellamy would look down on the world from the Ark, watching it simmer in radiation and never letting himself forget how he didn’t try hard enough to get you to come along. As D/F/N grew, Bellamy became somewhat accustomed with your absence, it was like you left her as a souvenir for him!

“ Bottoms up, King. You got two to drink this time. “ Murphy teased, his chin planted in his palm as a smug grin curled on his lips. The rest cheered loudly as Bellamy took the seat next to D/F/N on the bench, eyeing the nutrients warily while his stomach did ten flips.

“ Chug! Chug! Chug! “ Skaikru chanted over and over, their fists pounding sonorously on the metal table, even D/F/N joined in! That little rat! Bellamy groaned out defeated, his hand lifted the bowl to his lips and his throat choked down both bowls of the sharp tasting sludge. Laughter and claps broke out when Bellamy slammed the bowl down on the table, sloppily wiping the residue from off his mouth.

“ Your turn, dear. “ Bellamy spoke deviously, nudging D/F/N and almost nearly gagging right after. It never got any easier to drink that sludge, ask anyone in the Ark. D/F/N sighed out, silently preparing herself as she pinched her nose and downed the nutrients without fail. Raven and Echo clapped happily, showering her with accolades for being such a big girl as Murphy gave her an eager fistbump. Monty slapped his hand with a smile on his face and D/F/N did just the same, taking Bellamy by surprise. When did he teach D/F/N him and Jasper’s signature quirk? “ Okay, that was pretty good, I won’t lie. “

“ You’re just mad because you had to drink two, dad. “ D/F/N boasted confidently, her nose stuck up and her arms crossed firmly over her chest. Bellamy’s right eyebrow cocked slightly at her, the rest pointing and laughing at him. The mischievous smile on Bellamy’s face hinted that karma was about to bite D/F/N in the ass.

“ Well, joke’s on you, sweetheart. You earned yourself an extra hour of studying. “ Bellamy stared bluntly, the jeering instantly shifted into boos as D/F/N pouted childishly. The resent showed plainly on her face as she stomped to the makeshift library down Hall D.

“ You make a great dad, you know that? Y/N would be insanely proud of you, really! “ Raven commended him, the others quickly agreeing as well. Bellamy smiled sheepishly in response, relived that he wasn’t doing such a bad job of being a father figure to his daughter. “ We’re all really proud of you too, Bell. Keep up the good work! “

“ I really appreciate all your guy’s help. I wouldn’t have been able to this on my own. “ Bellamy humbly thanked Skaikru, a small smile remaining on his tanned face. Everyone sat in a comfortable silence, looking back on what’s happened during the six years in space as well as the years down on Earth. Everyone missed you yet no one mentioned it, especially Bellamy. You always had a way of breaking the silence and distracting people in a way where they totally forgot that the world was a complete shithole. “ What do you guys think about returning to Earth? I think it’s about time. “

“ Can you please help me? “ D/F/N peeped out, a small book in her hand as her finger pointed out the name Hecuba. Bellamy put down the Iliad beside him to get a better look. “ What does that say? “

“ Hecuba. Say it for me? He-Cu-Ba? “ Bellamy enunciated the name of the woman whose cry of grief moved the Greek Gods in the heavens above, looking to his daughter after. D/F/N attempted to repeat the name but didn’t really succeed. It’s the thought that counts!

“ Hey, D/F/N. Want to do something not boring? “ Raven peeked in the crack of the doorway, moving the tendril of hair behind her ear. D/F/N gasped in response, her mood instantly lifting and her eyes sparkling as she dashed out the door with Raven. Bellamy sighed out, she was supposed to study! He roamed over to the bedroom window, a perfect view of the scorched Earth beneath him. A half full bottle of alcohol sat on the windowsill, Bellamy’s thoughts pondering if they should really go back.

He left you behind and he couldn’t seem to stop beating himself up for it. Bellamy brushed his hand over his beard out of sheer stress, what if you and Clarke were dead this whole time? The trip back would be all for naught and there was definitely no way of getting back. The rest of the group were also uneasy about the proposal of risking everything if there was just going to be another Praimfaya and no second option of surviving it. Bellamy and them decided to let the thought marinate a little before collectively making a final desicion.

Bellamy contemplated finishing off the rest of the blue potion, in hopes that everything would be okay and that you were still kicking it. He took it into his hand before shaking the thought off and setting it back on the window sill, he has better things to do. Bellamy forced himself up off the desk chair to find D/F/N and Raven somewhere in the Ark.

“ Oh my god, Raven! You are not taking her on a space walk! Are you fucking crazy! “ Bellamy scolded her as she froze in the middle of zipping up a child sized space suit for D/F/N. He nearly lost his shit at the scenario of D/F/N floating off into space like some thriller movie. Echo, Monty, and Murphy sat silently in guilt, they thought it would’ve been cool! How could not try it? “ When did you even make that! “

“ Echo and I totally did not sew this suit for D/F/N a few months ago and we totally have not been planning this space walk for a few months now. “ Raven lied through her teeth, her head hung low in shame. Anger rose in Bellamy’s chest, so much for thanking them for their help! They were going to kill his one and only!

“ And you guys just let this happen? “ Bellamy questioned Monty and Murphy, putting them on the spot just before berating them for being in on the scheme. He looked to D/F/N with furrowed eyebrows and kneeling before her, his hands planted on the sides of her tiny biceps. “ You should’ve told me, sweetheart. This is dangerous! You could die out there! “

“ I’m sorry.. If we were on Earth, stuff like this wouldn’t happen! I want to see my mom already! “ D/F/N murmured out an apology with a sniffle before bursting into tears and running out of the airlock room. Bellamy sighed out, if you were here, he wouldn’t have been dealing with this problem. Bellamy rose from his place on the cold floor and sent one last death look to everyone before retreating to find D/F/N.

“ D/F/N? Where are you? I’m sorry for yelling, sweetheart. I just didn’t want you to get hurt! “ Bellamy yelled down each hallway, his head peeking in every other before moving into the common room. He stopped dead in his tracks like a deer in the headlights. D/F/N stood frozen in utter fear as a rifle barrel was pointed just between her eyes.

“ Come with us or she dies. “ One of the strangers spoke up as the other retrieved D/F/N who let out a high yelp as the woman dragged her roughly down Hall B by the bicep. She tried so hard to rebel against the outsider by screaming and thrashing violently but the effort was rendered futile. They both disappeared around a corner but D/F/N could still be heard crying and shrieking out for her father. Bellamy’s raised hands gripped into tight fists out of fury. Where were they taking her?

“ Who are you? “ Bellamy barked loudly, his jaw clenching tightly as the rest of Skaikru joined behind him, their hands slowly rising to the ceiling. His instincts told him to attack while the end of an assault rifle forced him to seethe in rage.

“ We’re here to take you back to Earth. “

“ The bunker’s gone silent, too. We tried digging them out for a while, but there was too much rubble. I haven’t made contact with them, either. Anyway, I still have hope that I’ll get to see you. Tell Raven to aim for the one spot of green, and you’ll find me. The rest of the planet, from what I’ve seen, basically sucks, so- “ You spoke into the radio, eyes gazing at the dirt and leaves under your boots. A distant boom ripped your attention from the ground to the high clouds above.

A small, almost microscopic in the sea of blue zoomed across the sky, the sound of its rockets could be heard from a mile away. You rose to your feet, your chest rising with all kind of emotions like you were going to burst into a million pieces. Bellamy felt the same way, the possibility of seeing you again and showing you the product of his teachings made him want to scream out in joy for no reason at all. D/F/N tightened her clutch on Bellamy’s jacket, her nose sniffling as leftover tears stained her cheeks. He wrapped his arms around her thin body, his lips pressed against the top of her head in hopes to reassure D/F/N that everything would be fine. Bellamy couldn’t wait to tell you everything that happened up in space, holy shit.

“ Nevermind, I see you. “ You uttered, tears running down your cheeks as you rushed to wake Clarke up. You shook her awake, a giant smile plastered on your face. Clarke grumbled incoherently, her fingers rubbing the sleep out of her eyes. “ They’re here! I think they heard us, Clarke. “

Clarke instantly shot up from her resting spot, following suit behind you as you dashed to get a better look at the ship. It was strange as the ship inched closer and closer to the ground, it was a lot larger than you remembered. Bellamy was unsure of how close they were to landing, they were locked on the bottom of a floating prison transport ship while the fugitives piloted the vehicle on the top floor.

“ You said it was a small ship, right? “ You asked, slight fear consuming your chest cavity. Clarke confirmed with a silent nod as you looked down the sight of your nearby assault rifle. “ Oh God, get down and get the rover out. Load all of the guns too. “

Clarke hastily followed your orders and retreated into the driver’s seat of the jeep, backing it up behind the treeline. What the fuck is going on? You cocked the handle of your rifle and slowly made your way to the landing site of the prison transport.

The ship was dauntingly gigantic, much larger than the drop ship but smaller than Arkadia. You’ve never seen this kind of ship before, it looked much more advanced than any technology you’ve seen on the Ark before. You’ve never seen the corporation name either. Who was running the Eligius Corporation ship?

Your train of thought was quick to be derail when the sound of latches and locks started moving out of place, indicating that the entrance will be revealed and you were going to kill whoever came out on sight. The gun was pressed firmly to your shoulder, your finger itching to press the trigger.

You already knew who it was as soon as you saw the top of their head. The tears were already falling and all your muscles immediately untensed in complete and utter relief. Bellamy was alive and D/F/N was absolutely gorgeous. You dropped the gun on the grass, your heart raced at a hundred miles per hour, excited to hug the love of your life.

It was like all the oxygen in Bellamy’s lungs left as soon as his eyes adjusted to the light and eventually focused on you. Skaikru stood in blatant shock, you were alive and well after everyone thought you weren’t. You beat the impossible odds and here you were in your full glory, face to face with Bellamy after an eternity spent apart.

No words were spoken, just a long awaited hug to confirm that you both were real and it wasn’t just a simple dream. D/F/N hid behind Echo’s leg, her large eyes trained directly on you. You took in all of Bellamy: his hair, his clothes, his smell. Before opening your eyes and realizing that your seven year old daughter was watching you. You pulled away from Bellamy, acknowledging D/F/N was here on Earth with you. She rapidly averted her gaze and shrank even more behind her leg. Echo looked to D/F/N and patted her head comfortingly, letting her know that everything was completely okay.

You knelt on the ground and held out a hand to her, eyebrows furrowed in nervousness. What if your daughter rejects you? You wouldn’t know what to do with yourself. D/F/N peeked her eyes out to look at Bellamy who nodded for her to come out of her hiding spot. She steadily shuffled her way to you, uneasiness showing as plain as day on her face.

“ It’s nice to finally meet you. I’ve been waiting a really, really long time for this, D/F/N. I’m Y/N, your mother. “

Brought Back (Jasper Hale) (Part 2)

Pairing: Jasper Hale/ Reader Words: 950+ Warning(s): Mentions of Alcohol, Mentions of smoking, SMUT  A/N: Part two here~ I hope you all enjoy! I tried to throw in angst and fluff anndd some last minute smut??? lmao im sorry- I hope I got everyone on that asked on the tag list,, first time doing one. Request:  Hi.. could you write a jasper fic where she accidentally gets hurt badly and so he leaves for a while and while he’s gone she goes on a spiral downward and starts doing stupid shit to get her mind off him (ex: smoking/drinking/partying too much) and he asked Alice to keep an eye on her and she told jasper the readers spiral down and he comes back and kinda like scolds her and tries to get her to realise that these things she/he/they are doing are hurting and bad for the reader and he tries to help and can the reader like break down because they’re trying but it’s hard and jasper comforts them???? Does that make sense? I’m sorry I’m so shit at this Part one: Far Gone 

   Your head pounded as you started to stir. You let out a groan as you slowly open your bloodshot eyes. Your vision was blurred from your hang over, but you could tell you were not in your room- or in your house. You felt around, your hands grabbed the soft and familiar cover blanket. Your vision cleared up as you sat up, clutching your pounding head, you instantly recognized you were Jaspers room at the Cullen residence. You were going to just straight up leave, until Jasper fucking Hale walked through the door, holding water and aspirin.  

   "Good, you are awake." His voice sent shivers down your spine. Jasper sat down next to you and handed you the pills and water. You stared at him in disbelief, he was here acting casual like he didn't leave for that month. "Carlise help with the cuts from the broken glass."

   "Why are you back?" You ask, downing the pills and water. You glared at him, waiting for a response from him, but no words came out. "Are you just going to leave me in the dark again, Jasper?"

   "Why are you drinking and smoking, (Y/N)?" You were about to argue with him but he stopped you. "Alice told me what you have been doing. You've been partying with Roman and his friends, excessive drinking, and smoking. What you are doing is hurting you, (Y/N). You need stop this reckless behavior."

   "You don't think I didn't try to stop? Whenever I was sober I constantly thought of dropping the partying and the drinking... but I couldn't. I couldn't forget you, Jas and I needed to. The alcohol helped me forget you. You weren't there for me anymore." You didn't realize you had started crying until Jaspers cold hands cupped your face, the pads of his thumbs wiping away the tears. "I needed you Jasper and you left me."

   "I know, sugar. I'm sorry." He comforted, which made you sob. Jasper pulled you into his chest as he gently rubbed your back.

   "Why did you leave, Jasper?"

   "I was scared of myself. I smelt your blood and I could hardly control myself. I was worried I would hurt you... or possibly kill you. I thought it was best to leave to help control my thirst so I don't lash out and attack you. It turns out me leaving hurt you even more." He sighed and he gave your body a squeeze. "I'm so, so sorry darlin'."

   "Well..." You stayed silent for a few seconds, processing his words and forming your own. "I should be angry. I should be yelling your face or attempting to hit you, even though it would be impossible to do so without hurting myself." You both shared a brief chuckle. "I should just storm out of here and go back to drinking and trying to forget you... but I am not."

   "I forgive you, Jasper." You continue. "I am tired of feeling like complete shit, the happiest I've ever felt was with you and the rest of your family."

   "I will help you the best I can, sugar, we all are willing to help you."

   "Even after my outburst?"

   "Edward was mad, but he got over it."  

   "That’s good." You cracked a smile, pulling away from him, staring into his eyes.  "God I missed you, Jas."

   "I missed ya too, sugar." He leaned over, placing a gentle kiss to your lips. It was a familiar feeling that made your body tingle. He pulled away, but you craved his cool lips again.

   "Kiss me again."

   "Of course." He kissed you again, pushing you onto your back. Jasper crawled over you, his golden eyes boring into your (e/c) eyes. "If I get too... you know... just tell me to stop."

   "Mhm..." You breathed, pulling him back for a deep kiss. His tongue slipped into your mouth as one of his hands grazed down your side and under your shirt. You moaned softly when he left your lips and peppered kisses from the corner of your mouth down to your collar bone. Your hands found themselves in his blonde locks, gripping his hair as you felt his chilling hand on your breast.

   "I love you, (Y/N)." He exhaled, "I love you so much, I will never leave you again."

   "I love you too, Jasper. Please, let's get out clothes off." You smiled as you felt his lips smirk against your skin.

   "Will do ma'am." Your back arched as you felt a wave of lustful emotions course through you. "Sorry, darlin'." He stopped kissing and groping, pulling off his clothes while you did the same. You giggle, placing your hands on his pale chest. His hands found themselves on your hips as you stared into his eyes, admiring him. Jasper leaned down and kissed your swollen lips once more, before he entered you.  

   "Oh-!" You gasped, throwing your head back, your toes curling as he slowly thrusted. He kept this slow, antagonizing pace with a smirk on his face.

   "Say my name darlin' and I'll go faster."

   "Jasper please!"

--

   You laid next to Jasper naked, curled up against his side with your head on his chest. Your eyes widened as you jolted up, you looked to Japser in horror.

   "What’s the matter, (Y/N)?" He asked, sitting up while he took your hands in his.

   "Your... your family is still in the..."

   "No they all left the second we kissed." He laughed and collapsed backwards.  

   "Thank god." You sigh in relief. You go back to lying next to Jasper. His arms wrap around you as he kissed your temple. "Thanks for bringing me back, Jas. I was scared of what I was becoming."

   "Anything for you, darling."

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All for "This or That"

You are my favorite anon-chan

(Rose) - Pick one of them to drink your blood: Subaru or Kou.

I have go with Subaru for this one.

(Baby’s Breath) - Pick one of them to drink your blood: Reiji or Ruki.

Ruki (Carnation) - Pick one of them to drink your blood: Shuu or Yuma.

This is a tough one but I’ll go with Yuma.

(Amaryllis) - Pick one of them to drink your blood: Ayato or Laito.

Laito always (Dahlia) - Pick one of them to drink your blood: Kanato or Azusa.

why do I have to choose between the adorable cinnamon rolls D: can I choose both? I’ll go with kanato 

(Allium) - Which date do you go on: Wandering through the cemetery with Kanato or studying microbiology with Reiji?

Cemetery with kanato. anything but studying with salty pigeon mom

(Amaranth) - Which date do you go on: Intense concert practice with Kou or shelving books with Ruki? 

Both would be lovely but a concert with Kou sounds more fun ^_^

(Anemones) - Which date do you go on: Being Shuu’s unmoving body pillow for eight hours or shoveling soil with Yuma?

Shuu’s body pillow

(Anthurium) - Which date do you go on: Totally unfair basketball practice with Ayato or dangerous game of darts with Laito?

Dangerous game of darts sounds fun :D

(Astilbe) - Which boy’s bad side would you rather be on: Yuma or Reiji

oh god what did I do .-. um I guess lets go with yuma it might be a little safer Reiji scares me sometimes

(Astrantia) -  Which boy’s bad side would you rather be on: Ruki or Kanato

Ruki would much better. I’d prefer not to be stabbed. Cause I feel like cake won’t resolve being on Kanato’s bad side

(Calla Lilies) -  Which boy’s bad side would you rather be on: Laito or Kou

.-. neither Kou scares me more though so Laito. I just gotta stay away from places that would result in being pushed off. 

(Chrysanthemum) - Which boy would you save from death: Shuu or Azusa

ahh fuck no I choose bboth. okay I would go Azusa gotta protect the cinnamon rolls

(Clematis) - Which boy would you save from death: Subaru or Ayato

This is even harding than the first one .-. but I’ll choose Ayato.

(Craspedia) - Which boy would you save from death: Reiji or Ruki

Ruki. I just hope the sakamaki mansion will remain intact somehow

(Daffodil) - If you got permission to clonk one on the head without negative consequences, who would you pick: Yuma or Shuu

I don’t know. I woulnd’t feel the need to do this to either of them but I guess I’ll choose Shu.(Freesia) - If you got permission to clonk one on the head without negative consequences, who would you pick: Ayato or Kou

Kou it would be kinda funny. Can I do this in front of his fangirls?

(Hydrangea) - If you got permission to clonk one on the head without negative consequences, who would you pick: Laito or Ruki

Ruki because he keeps calling me livestock D:

(Iris) - You’re pregnant! Who’s the dad: Reiji or Kanato

Guess what Kanato? You’re now a father(Orchid) - You’re pregnant! Who’s the dad: Subaru or Ruki

Subaru. *if you listen closely you can he walls being destroyed in the distance*

(Peony) - You’re pregnant! Who’s the dad: Yuma or Kou

Yuma better work on bigger garden! We’ll have more mouths to feed.

(Veronica) - Who stole your virginity: Subaru or Azusa

Azusa is a father (Tulips) - Who stole your virginity: Shuu or Ayato

Ayato because Ore-sama will steal all your firsts

(Aster) - Who stole your virginity: Reiji or Laito

Laito

(Iron) - Who gets to dominate you to his liking: Kou or Subaru

Tsunbaru ^.^

(Steel) - Who gets to dominate you to his liking: Yuma or Ayato

Yuma ;3

(Gunmetal) - Who gets to dominate you to his liking: Ruki or Kanato

Kanato

(Silver) - Who gets to give you a haircut: Laito or Shuu

that’s a tough one considering I do my hair myself and I’m not a fan of letting others do things such as cutting or dying it( had a few bad experiences so I learned to do it myself) Tbh I wouldn’t trust either with this but I’ll go with Laito because he does seem to have some experience with dealing with hair *In more blood he does your hair

(Gold) - Who gets to give you a haircut: Ruki or Kou

Kou. He’s an Idol I feel like he would know what he’s doing 

(Rust) - Who gets to give you a haircut: Kanato or Azusa

Kanato. I feel like he would have better knowledge of hair cutting and is one of the 2 I’d trust with this

(Copper) - Pick a bad deed: burned Ruki’s favorite book or threw a spider at Laito.

Sorry Ruki but fuck your books I’ll by you new ones. Please don’t kill me lol. I hate spiders and refuse to touch one. I wouldn’t want someone throwing one on me so I wouldn’t do that to him. I understand the fear way too well.

(Bronze) - Pick a bad deed: stomped Yuma’s tomatoes or ruined Shuu’s MP3 player.

Sorry Yuma but you can grow more. Again I wouldn’t want someone doing that to my Mp3 player. I need my music. So I wouldn’t do that to Shuu

(Brass) - Pick a bad deed: knocked over Reiji’s alchemy ingredient shelf or got stains on Teddy.

Fuck your alchemy ingredient pigeon boy! I rather not die thank you very much.

(Nickel) - Pick a bad deed: threw away all of Azusa’s knives or hit Subaru with a Subaru and made a bad joke to his face.

Throw away Azusa knives. You don’t need be hurting yourself dear. If thats what it takes to make you stop.

(Zinc) - Whose heart did you break, u monster: Ruki or Kou

Kou Screw you Idol arse! jking .-. sorry Kou

(Titanium) - Whose heart did you break, u monster: Yuma or Reiji

Reiji. Sorry not sorry I refuse to be forced to your “ladylike” standards

(Aluminum) - Whose heart did you break, u monster: Shuu or Ayato

Sorry Shuu T_T

(Platinum) - Whose heart did you break, u monster: Kanato or Subaru

oh god why do I have choose between these 2 >.> sorry subaru but I can’t break the screaming cinnamon rolls heart I just can’t

(Tin) - You’ve been a bad girl, who gets to punish you: Laito or Ayato

Laito of course ;3. Totally wasn’t bad on purpose or anything ;P

(Lead) -  You’ve been a bad girl, who gets to punish you: Azusa or Kanato

umm.. well results are roughly the same here soo I guess I’ll choose the screaming cinnamon roll Kanato(Bismuth) -  You’ve been a bad girl, who gets to punish you: Subaru or Yuma

Subaru

(Cobalt) - Who gets to rip out your heart and devour it: Shuu or Reiji

Reiji. He need something on this list that isnt a bad choice

(Palladium) - Who gets to rip out your heart and devour it: Ruki or Ayato

Ayato can have it

(Rhodium) - Who gets to rip out your heart and devour it: Laito or Kou

Laito (Mercury) - Who gets to rip out your heart and devour it: Subaru or Kanato

Kanato doesn’t he like that sort of thing anyway?

(Iridium) - Who gets to rip out your heart and devour it: Yuma or Azusa

Azusa. How could I say no to such a cutie.

(Thallium) - Pick the more preferable scenario: becoming one of Kanato’s dolls or being forever locked in the dungeon as Laito’s toy.

I’d be cool  with both options but I’d like to be alive so Laito’s toy it is( let’s be honest here I was going to choose Laito regardless)

(Seaborgium) - Pick the more preferable scenario: slowly eaten alive by Ayato or slowly stabbed to death by Azusa.

ლ(ಠ_ಠლ) Jesus.. well im dead either Stab me bb

(Vanadium) - Pick the more preferable scenario: drowning to death with Shuu or strangled to death by Yuma.

Drowning with shuu. If I’m doing I’m dieing via water. It’s my favorite element

(Chromium) - Pick the more preferable scenario: violently eaten alive by Subaru or Reiji’s toy until inevitable death.

... Reiji’s toy it is. Being eaten alive just sounds terribly painful.

(Sapphire) - Who would you rather cook dinner with: Kou or Subaru

Subaru. Can kou even cook?

(Ruby) - Who would you rather cook dinner with: Reiji or Kanato

Reiji cause I know I’ll be yummy.

(Garnet) - Who would you rather cook dinner with: Yuma or Ayato

yuma

(Pearl) - Pick one to be on your zombie apocalypse team: Shuu or Kanato

Kanato. He can just burn their undead arses.

(Amethyst) - Pick one to be on your zombie apocalypse team: Ruki or Azusa

Ruki. Sorry azusa but I need someone would prefer not being eaten

(Diamond) - Pick one to be on your zombie apocalypse team: Reiji or Laito

Reiji. He would be better. much smarter for this kind of thing

(Jade) - Pick the more preferable activity: building a pillow fort with Shuu or playing house with Kanato.

both sound awesome but I gotta go with the pillow fort

(Jasper) - Pick the more preferable activity: helping Reiji with his alchemy or wandering the rose garden with Subaru.

Rose garden with Subaru

(Peridot) - Pick the more preferable activity: assisting Laito with his crossword puzzle or cooking with Ayato.

both sounds really fun but I think crossword puzzles would be more fun :)

(Opal) - Pick the more preferable activity: silently reading with Ruki or hardcore karaoke with Kou.

I am horrid at singing so absolutely not kou. Silently reading with ruki sounds much better 

(Sodalite) - Pick the more preferable activity: picking strawberries with Yuma or admiring scars with Azusa.

I actually like both of these cause I feel like I could have a really deep conversation with Azusa and I love deep Conversations. Seriously you ever want talk to someone about whatever I’ll listen ^.^ 

I also really like strawberries and strawberry picking sounds really fun. I’ve never got to do something like that before. I think I’ll choose strawberry picking ^.^

(Lapis Lazuli) - Last, but not least, if you got to live any of the endings from any game, which would it be?

Laito’s Vandead Carnival ending

sorry for the lack of art...

im just not feeling very confident lately. i had like five requests from this person who i wont mention and im too scared to tell them how i feel. keep reading if you wanna know what stupid stuff's been going on in my head for the past week. BUT IF YOURE GONNA KEEP READING READ THE WHOLE THING BEFORE YOU KILL SOMEONE so as some of you know, i recently did a live stream drawing the person (lets just call them jam) jams "gemsona." but the problem is, this wasn't their gemsona exactly. he literally just searched up fire opal in google and saw that he liked the design and just declared it his own gemsona. now, some people dont know that reposting art without the artist's permission is illegal, but i dont know the situation between google images and plagiarism so, im not sure if he was allowed to consider it his own. and if you watched my live stream, you could SEE him put into chat "you can make your own design." that just made me feel... furious. and a gemsona isnt a gemsona if its just something you saw on the internet and called it your own and THEN decided to make it a fan fusion. i cant remember if i actually sighed out loud, but if i did, it meant "ok you need to get the fuck out and get your own gemsona and guess what im not drawing that shit." but i try to keep my channel at least pg 13, and im a weak crybaby that is too scared to tell him how i feel. im too scared to tell anyone anything to their face or on the internet how i feel if it might make them have a bad opinion of me, and of course, i didnt want to cause arguments in the roleplay me and some other friends from the internet were in. and thats not all, jam has broken the same rule at least five times. rule number 2. no spamming. and before, there was also conflict with jam and some other guy who ill call draco. oh yea, forgot to mention that im the leader of this roleplay group. i literally had to kick out draco from the group and i made a biiiig mistake when i did that. draco came back and apologized. but that big mistake was, i shouldve kicked the both of them out. i feel bad for making draco feel like he was being personally attacked. so now that all of the group chat stuff is out of the way, its on to the main cause of the lack of confidence and art. so, like i said, jam has requested about five drawing from me, all at different times. he requested a point of the plagiarized fire opal design number one. he chose two pictures and he gave me the first one. so i made a point out of that and he used it for his pfp and gave me credit, yay, points dont take that long to do so it was cool. but there was more details to it. so, he first asked for a drawing of it and i said id make a point because it takes less time and im getting ready to pretend to go to sleep in a few hours. so i decided that i was done drawing on my pc for the night so i sketched a little fire opal point. so i send him a picture with the terrible colored pencil coloring and i said "well im done drawing on my computer for tonight but i can draw it tomorrow if you want" and jam said that he wanted the digital version, which i can see why. so in the morning, here is the average schedule for me : 11:00-12:00 - mom wakes me up 12:05 - we make lunch together and watch who wants to be a millionaire which plays for 30 minutes including commercials and it starts at 12:30, sometimes my dad comes home from work to get lunch, sometimes he doesnt. 1:05 - the chew starts and i either go take a shower and sit in my closet watching jse's the escapist series for about 30 minutes, or i do that without the shower part. 2:00 - im usually completely ready for the day and i have requests read (if any) and i think about what im going to draw since my mom doesnt want me staying up until 3am, she makes me put my phone and pc in her room during weekdays (sometimes she forgets and those days i take advantage) so i usually take my pc at around 2:15 pm sometimes we go shopping, sometimes we dont so when i go to sit in my closet watching yt, jam just messages me saying "hi" me thinking i was smart, i keep watching yt. jam says "can you see this?" and i keep the private dms unmuted incase if theres a problem in chat (the chats muted) for my rp acc they could just ask me personally. i go on instagram, and say "yea" and they legit say "can you make my point now?" i said "oh were going shopping i might be able to do it now bt i might have to do it later." we actually were going shopping and out of sheer panic, i finished changing and did the point. i did that, and then a few days later, he asks for the drawing so i did that on stream blah blah blah. but then he asks me for another point. my maximum for gemsonas are 1 rn. bt this wasnt a gemsona. it was jasper, but with splatoon hair. i dont play splatoon, but jam does. so i make the point AND HE DOESNT EVEN USE IT FOR ANYTHING. LIKE WTF. I COULDVE USED THAT HALF HOUR TO WATCH YOUTUBE. so, yea. then, the last thing. this was the last request and i already had like five at that point (hehe cuz they were points) so i decided to do it last because ya know, it was a full on picture, nothing much. so i dont start on it and he says "did you start on it yet" i said "no not yet im taking a break for tonight" and he knows i had a lot of requests that day. the next day, i sneak into my moms room and i see the notification that says "you dont have to do the drawing, if you dont want to" and i said "ok" just to be nice. and he said "but you can if you want" and i didnt reply. i almost said "oh well i ddint want to do it anyways" but i didnt. because im nice. he literally requested a drawing of himself wih splatoon hair. in the splatoon art style. like tf bro. thats the first time anyone asked for a drawing of them tho so i think im growing as an artist. BUT WAIT I FORGOT THERE WAS ONE MORE i cant remember what the drawing was, but i remember i was in a restaurant about to leav when hes like "so can you make it now" and i was like "no im in a restaurant but ill be home in like 20 minutes" and he said "okay well can you do it as soon as you get home?" and then he said "wait no im sorry i shouldnt have said that. i should have said enjoy your meal and take your time" so i cant remember what i said in return but i think i jsut replied with "okay" and when we got in he car i noticed that google maps said that it takes 30 minutes to get home and i told him and hes like oh geez and stuff. so i did the drawing for him and yea. thats basically it. oh yea, i didnt mention why i havent drawn lately. i havent been feeling good (no im not sick) and i have just been feeling... used for the past week. bt dont freak out or anything, im fine... well maybe not and the reason why i didnt want to put this on youtube is because he subbed to me and i dont want him to see this. well, not like anyones going to read this, in fact some people might unfollow me for this, so yea. you might not see art until next week

the 100 diaries S3 E1

quarantine diaries: june 20 2020

Season 3 episode 1: “Wanheda: Part 1″

chris? oof chris is dead

ok so this explains where the dead body went but where did these guys go??

murphy does not look good at all. he would do so poorly in quarantine. locked up murphy also reminds me of jess from breaking bad

what is going on. ummm 

too many people. thanos?? Dwight??

so they just did a time skip through john murphy?? they could have chose a more interesting character but also 86 days is nothing murphy. but i do i like how hes vlogging his experience tho. likes hes the shane dawson of the 100

oh my god! jaha is carrying murphy..lincoln and octavia who??? umm yes the ship is still strong even after the separation. 

what a way to start a season tho but like kinda in a bad way. murphy is not my favorite character so yeah this intro was not really for me.

ok so why was it closed in the first

looks like they’re sticking with the same intro :/

woah this is what i like to see! yes bellamy fight lincoln!!! reminds me of the sherlock home movie intro. 

ICE NATION?! are we going to meet Katara? 

look at kane with a beard talking about real peace lol ok kane with these writers i just know that this wont last

MONTY!! looking good in a uniform

jasper shaved his head?! awww maya

bellamy and this girl?? theyre just gonna throw in this ship with no build up?? bitch waht?? ok fine but im calling it rn i bet this girl dies just for bellamy’s character development cuz there’s literally no other point to having this girl. but i will admit it was cute that she gave him a book

i wonder how many takes the water bucket to the face jasper’s actor had to do

hey hey hey chill jasper dont do that to my boy monty

lol i love jaspers salute into slapping bellamy like was that in the script or did the actor just come up with that on his own either way it was good

on the contrary raven i think that prettyboy bellamy is too good for her/whatever her name is

woooooow jasper blames monty? come on bro it was mostly bellamy and clarke

really who gave octavia a horse? but also since when did she learn how to horse ride because she her as hell didnt learn that on the ark

arkadia?? because of the ark?? ok

look at jasper just being an emo boy with his earbuds in. but also is that an ipod shuffle??? is raven steve jobs now? or where the heck did jasper get it?

what was that look jasper had with raven? ....ship?

wait that arm touch while miller sings let me make love to you...monty and miller a ship? you know what i ship it! 

aww and look at bellamy with a smile kinda reminds me of this cat

this scene is just giving me all the feels!! i love it! 

i gotta say tho i still really dont like octavia. i hate her even more on a horse i just find it pretentious 

bellamy said screw protocol. love this chaotic energy. whatever the hell we want he said

but also bellamy said millers boyfriend?? waht?? so that like means that monty and miller might actually be come a thing tho right??? sorry not sorry that im literally shipping everyone with everyone

i dont like murphys hair now either. way too much gel

what a waste of an apple. that wasnt necessary at all murphy

we’re all kings said jaha. yes i like this attitude

stop it jaha. i dont think you can justice killing that many people

imo this is a very solid group even with octavia. like this is my favorite squad so far it has all my favorite characters bellamy, monty, miller, jasper, and raven (yeah thats right octavia is not my favorites list and neither is clarke)

the ice people with the white war paint remind me of that one racist movie that johnny depp was in 

woah there jasper pretty bold and reckless there

lmao bellamy yells hold your fire after shooting the first shot

umm okaY OCTAVIA. nice throw.

oo bellamy said monty youre with me. yes yes yes monty and bellamy are my dream duo

what a beautiful black panther...what the heck clarke. clarke really is a crazy bitch to hunt a black panther 

also i really hate her hair rn. like im getting such bad vibez but also clarke really became fluent in 3 months??? huh?? what is that about?

ooo the wristband. 

if raven couldnt get down from the horse how did she get up there in the first place??

clarke is wanheda the commander of death umm really this is what the grounders think of clarke

that is not a good picture of clarke its like flynn rider and his wanted posters

question: i thought only the warriors knew english so why does this merchant know english 

contraceptive implant removals??? calm down jackson that isnt a life or death procedure. but also damn these people really want to bring in new life into this crazy world?

side note where the hell is wick???

yeah abby fix yourself. preach raven

clarke and niylah... waht?? also the music choice for this scene was straight up weird. like watch the scene and tell me that it wasnt weird

octavia what is this?? octavia stop being salty bitch to lincoln. this is just such a weird dynamic. also octavia if youre gonna tell lincoln that “you can wear their jacket. but you’ll never be one of them” can you please fucking apply this about you really want to be a grounder. such a hypocrite

why does jaha need him? cuz it doesnt seem like murphy has an skill other than keeping himself alive

“pain hate envy those are the abcs of me”-murphy. who is this guy Eminem??

emori?? murphy is like i really dont want to go with jaha but i really into this girl shes the only person that doesnt hate me.

is that shaw mendes?? like is that really him because to be honest shawn mendes has a common face? i really dont know and i dont feel like looking it up. if it was a cameo then it was as weird as ed sheeran popping up in game of thrones

really octavia really. sleeping on the ground underneath the night sky?? bitch who do you think you are? you’ve been on the ground for less than a year and youre acting as if this grounder culture is all that you are. I also don’t like how she is trying to be more “grounder” than lincoln who literally grew up in that culture. idk guys i just get really weird vibes. 

oooo get’em jasper that music was annoying me too

side note: but also who the fuck taught these kids how to drive a car cuz its not like anyone on the ark knows how to?? i get that its easy to drive a car but honestly my real beef is that we dont see them learning how to drive cuz i think that it would be funny af...unless please tell me they have flashbacks to them learning how to drive. if not, we were robbed.

great job clarke way to get yourself caught

this is the weakest season opening for this show ever like i gotta say that i really dont like this direction of this season rn