GRAAH I LOVE ART NOUVEAU (punches thru drywall)

you guys have no idea the relationship i have with a character in a media i've yet to post about on here. if only y'all knew

people who type with proper grammar scare me so bad for literally no reason

(KICKS DOWN YOUR DOOR)

Peach for Soldier

Bubblegum for Osomatsu

Clementine for Snow Miser

and lastly, Crimson for Smollet

(EXITS THE ROOM AND FIXES YOUR DOOR ON THE WAY OUT)

Peach - Do you have any sentimental items you've received from each other?

He has given The Sailor a necklace of ears of course. he even got the time to fill his up with lots and lots of ears before gifting it! He doesn't accept any gifts himself though. A true soldier sticks to his helmet, the shovel and rocket launcher he wields and nothing else. when the sailor pointed out that this "no worldly posessions" concept is a bit hippie-ish, he got threatedned with a breakup

Bubblegum - What is the most memorable moment or thing they have said to you and vice versa?

"Did you know i can make water come out of my nipples?" "No fuckin way" "Yes fucking way let me show you"

Clementine - what is your f/o's favorite way to express themselves?

singing, definitely. it doesnt need to be a whole song but he will regularly sing his sentences, especially flirty ones. not everything is as much of a banger as THE snow miser song, but hes not trying to make it that so its fine <3

Crimson - How protective are you of one another? Do either of you get jealous in any way?

smollet is definitely protective in the literal physical sense, but when it comes to the actual romantic relationship theres very little jealousy. a military captain simply has bigger things to worry about. and as weve discussed before, i/kristopher would never get jealous either cause i haaaaate the concept of romantic jealousy. rip to monogamous people but im built different

i am sosososo normal except when i am experiencing the horrors

cleaning the dust off my old tapas account after at least 4 years bc im so so sofucking excited about kitty corner my god

currently in a mental battle with myself figuring out if i want to post this comic i drew about matthew or not.

Oopsy daisy.

how can you block a specific post 🤨

TERMITE I FOUND THE SCENE I WAS ON ABOUT LIKE A COUPLE MONTHS AGO WHERE HUTCH KISSES STARSKY'S CHEEK‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️

They love each other because I am gay and correct 🤗 /j!!

wait THIS is the scene???? THIS is from starsky and hutch?????? OH MY GOD HOW DID I NOT KNOW IVE RBED THIS GIF BEFORE DJFJKFGK--

GAY 🫵🫵🫵🫵🫵🫵🫵

various ramblings trying to type thoughts ive been having

sometimes i get the feeling that people think less of me or negatively about me due to my different brain issues like not processing and understanding things etc etc and i dont know if thats my anxiety/extremely low self esteem self worth/paranoia combined with a history of people mistreating me or if thats actually happening yknow i really dont want to assume that people dislike me ive been trying to break that pattern of thinking within myself which again comes from a life time of abuse and of people very openly disliking me so my brain goes well its always been the default that people dislike us and are angry with us. its like i know i have brain processing issues but i wish that wouldnt make people like me less or think less of me. instead of telling me that im not actually stupid id like for someone to tell me that even if i am stupid they still care about me and will have compassion for me and my mistakes. ive been thinking about something a mutual said i genuinely cant remember who said it memory issues flaring up so hi if it was you but it was like. online theres this phenomena where even peoples tiny little slip ups and in the bigger picture not that big of a deal mistakes can be documented and held against them for an eternity and that for a long time theres been a certain cultivation of behavior of like. idk what the word is i dont think hyper vigilance is the right term but the kind of mentality where if you make even one mistake you have that held over your head for years. and im realizing that i really grew up with that kind of mentality surrounding me online (and similar mentalities irl) and i think that really fed into and formed a lot of different issues i have. there was a post i rbed maybe earlier this week about not thinking that youre one slip up from your friends abandoning you and i really want to get myself to believe that but the problem is that thats genuinely happened before or thats been threatened to happen before with me and so again my brain goes well it could happen again everyone you know and love could suddenly cut you off out of nowhere with no warning or everyone you know and love is secretly talking about how awful you are. and i get scared that im somehow doing things wrong without knowing that im doing things wrong or hurting people without realizing im hurting them and lately i keep just being hit with the feeling that everything i do is wrong and that im making people angry or upset with me even when im literally not doing anything and it sucks and i wish i knew an easy way to get out of it. ive mentioned this before but when it comes to my issues like this one thing is like. i dont want people to think that im so fragile and scared that ill shatter if they come to me and talk to me saying hey rey this thing you did upset me/hurt me etc i dont want people to think that ill fall apart if im told about a mistake ive made or that ive done something wrong i want people to be able to come to me and talk with me and i always want to be able to grow and admit when im wrong and i dont want to hurt people. and then ive been thinking about how even though i have lovely friends who i cherish and appreciate and love so much i still feel so lonely and seperated from everyone who i know and love and i feel like im on the other side of a glass wall and that no one can reach me and i want to get closer to people but it always feels like i cant. but i dont want to doubt my friends love for me i dont want to doubt that i have a place in peoples lives. but its really hard. anyway its almost midnight i should sleep thanks if you read this

i dont wanna bug op but like

to the person who rbed from me specifically and posted these tags:

#this is hilarious because dricing the speed limit is not gonna get you hit..#you really think ppl will rear end you because Youre drivimg the speed limit?#do you understand that if you get rear ended it is quite literally always their fault unless they have PROOF#that you intentionally break checked them?#rear end is always the person in backs fault i havent ever heard it ruled another way and thats how my accident was ruled w no investigation#no one will read end you because they know it would ruin their life#theyd be out a car theyd get a ticket and possibly arrested you sue them and then they cant ever replace that car#literally they cant because the used car market is nuts#no one is going to hit you guys like cmon thats the worst excuse ive ever heard#you guys are really so impatient that travelling 20x the speed you could generate on your own is too much??#jesus christ...#this is why i dont make friends this behavior is ridiculous and if i get in a car w someone and their speeding all over#im getting out of the car and were not friends anymore like you dont invite someone in your vehicle and drive unsafe w them

you are correct that getting rear ended is almost always gonna have you ruled as Not At Fault. i actually recently got hit in the rear of my car. cops ruled me not at fault. i had to CHASE DOWN THIS WOMAN'S FUCKING INSURANCE TO GET THEM TO PAY FOR MY CAR. and do you know what they said? they said the car wasn't worth fucking fixing. they said it was totaled. it wasn't even that fucked up. but apparently repairs were FAR beyond what the car was worth despite buying a new vehicle costing WAY MORE THAN THAT. this debacle took literally MONTHS trying to resolve. eventually i had to get my dad involved, go to MY insurance, get the money up to what they determined my fucking car was worth, and then pay for the rest of the repairs out of fucking pocket.

i guess i could have chased this old woman down in small claims court for the fucking difference but 1. i dont think the court would have given a shit and decided its MY problem my vehicle is apparently worth only 1k dollars 2. she's an old woman that only hit me because she had fainted earlier, was trying to show her friend how to back up the car bc her breaks were fucked up, accidentally hit the gas too hard while disoriented, and hit my car. she was already at fault for her friend's medical bills. do you think i wanted to be the bad guy hounding some old woman for fucking money.

also like. it doesn't matter if they are at fault and we are going at the designated highway speed limit of 65-70 mph here. that is going to completely destroy the back of my car, potentially flip my vehicle or at the very least cause me to go off road, and i might actually die. "oh that won't happen grow up--" ive been in a near fatal car accident WITHOUT someone fucking read ending me on the highway. my wheel locked up when i was trying to make a pass and i ended up going off road and crashing into a tree. i was lucky it wasnt me going off road off a fucking mountainside bc those are common here and would have meant absolute certain death. sure they will go to jail for manslaughter but i dont want a pyrrhic fucking victory jackass i wanna live

i have driven the speed limit before. i had ppl up my fucking ass who then pass me and flip me off or deliberately made a point to drive close to the side of my vehicle in a passing lane to intimidate me. "but thats illegal they can't do that" astute observation shithead. do you think when i am worried about Not Dying as someone who has Nearly Died In A Car Accident Before because some jackass has decided killing both of us is a valid response to a mild inconvenience i wanna try and get their fucking license plate and call the cops who will tell me "we'll look into it" and do fucking nothing?

i would really genuinely love to not live in a shit place like this. our car centric infrastructure is also done in a way that de-incentivizes actually going the speed limit for most ppl (did you know ppl slow down if the streets are more narrow naturally? yeah they also speed the fuck up if there are like 7 fucking lanes on this road). people here drive like maniacs. i've also nearly been killed for even dumber reasons than someone deciding to ride my ass down the highway like coming to a complete fucking stop on the highway leading to me having to swerve into 2 other lanes. and i was GOING THE SPEED LIMIT DURING THIS INCIDENT.

tl;dr:

"someone might rear end you bc u live in a place with insane ass drivers? yeah right thats illegal, people can't do that!"

dude ik you rbed that stuff a day ago but im also happy to see some love for help! im a fish because i adored that movie as a kid!! i remember the first time ive ever seen it was during recess when someone brought in a cd and we watched it on the tv we had there. i couldnt stop thinking about it since… seeing this movie around isnt smthn you typically see and its so fun

I was introduced it by a friend! They said the fish reminded them of Rayman and I had to agree lol, It's an odd but great film, looks like there's a tiny fandom and a few fics?

^ Seconds before disaster

Someone asked pinkrelish if the reader in her series was white, cause she rbed a bunch of fan art from different artists that depict reader as white, and someone sent in an ask saying the first anon might have gotten the wrong idea due to the fanart

https://www.tumblr.com/pinkrelish/717773696352288768/miss-mouse-is-white?source=share

https://www.tumblr.com/pinkrelish/717776873301721088/most-of-if-not-all-the-artworkmoodboards-ive?source=share

https://www.tumblr.com/pinkrelish/717787746591244288/prev-anon-here-youve-done-a-great-job-in-keeping?source=share

But then a writer friend of theirs that had previously made a collage/moodboard type thing for them misinterpret the ask, thinking it was attacking the writer as well as the collage they made and kind of went on a rampage to “defend” their friend, made a post about how people need to get off anon and say something to have a conversation. When another poc user tried to reason with them in the comments of their post, saying the asks weren’t attacking anyone (I mean read them for yourself) they kept almost intentionally misinterpreting what they were saying, putting words into their mouth, told them that if they don’t like art/visuals that depict white readers, to simply block the people making them and it won’t be a problem, etc, then blocked them. Then they made a post about how they’re gonna stick up for their friends and “block bullshit” and kept reiterating that moodboards/fic headers/artworks are all usually self-inserts in a way and we can’t blame anyone for the fact that these things are so white washed. So yeah, that’s what happened 💀 the person who got the asks is quite a big writer so that’s prob why you got the asks too.

I almost wasn’t gonna respond to this, but that’s a bystander effect and I refuse to participate in that anymore lol.

Okay, so Pinkrelish is an incredibly talented writer, and I’ve been following along with her works before I even knew they had a tumblr! They have this gymnast!reader fic that I LOVE so much, which I came across on ao3 like last fall. I don’t know her personally, but I do know I have witnessed her reblog and support all the fanart she is sent and tagged in. We of course are aware that fanart is usually the artist self-inserting into the non-descriptive reader insert, which is 100% appropriate! That’s why we write, so whomever our audience is can see themselves in the works!

Obviously, POC have a lot harder of a time getting their art interacted with, but Alyson would support any form of fanart sent her way, it’s an honor as a writer to see people depicting themselves in what we write.

I’m not gonna touch too much on the other writer right now, because I don’t know a lot of the situation nor who it even was and I’m dyeing my hair rn so I can’t look around, but I hope they’ve been made aware this was not an attack and a counter attack was completely unnecessary. I do think it’s disparaging for POCs to voice things that concern them only to be shut down in a matter such as the one you described (because it looks like Pinkrelish responded positively, and in my opinion wonderfully, in terms of acknowledging the struggles of POCs on this hellsite so whatever aggression you said was on display from someone else was actually unneeded).

I will always encourage other people of color to speak up, because on anon or off anon (because I know that anon would have been clearly brutalized had they spoken from their account as implied, and so long as what is being said is mot hate), what you have to say matters. This is a place for conversation and we all need to be a little more open minded.

Alyson loves everyone though, so if you’re a POC and you’ve got some beautiful ass TYP fanart you’ve been afraid to post in this fandom for obvious reasons (and withholding from me), she’s the type of writer who would love to see it :)

(P.s., most writers would love fanart SO POST IT PLS)

thoughts on ME?

what would we do without our girlmutuals

the poetry you write and the poetry you reblog makes me feel things and is probably better than 90% of the stuff out there

you're a great bird mom. pluto and venus are SOOOO loved and they know it lol. and we need more bird owners in the witcher fandom B) it's like you, me, and erneste (sorry if i'm forgetting anyone or don't know someone)

oddly obsessed with cannibalism and living inside your partner but also not "oddly" because it makes perfect sense. come on. i thought i was the only person around here that thought about this before you posted about it.

i associate you with skulduggery pleasant and gideon the ninth and always try to piece together what these book series are about based upon your posts xo

but i was actually really captivated by your skulduggery video(s) and they not only educated but inspired meeee

GREAT use of reaction JPEGs like the little guys with red eyes rabidly biting things or spongebob in tears or going insane. if i need a good reaction image sometimes i go to your blog like "oh val's probably posted or rbed a post with one recently..."

your posts about your work are some of the most relatable ones i've encountered

hearing about your mom makes me grit my teeth. you... do not deserve that kind of treatment.

your themes/icons are always the most aesthetic nice stuff...

i was like actually stunned when i first saw a selfie/pic of you i was like WOW.......... oh my god my mutuals are pretty no one ever told me this. i literally at first thought for a second you were posting some pretty girl's pics as style inspo or something like they look like they'd be on pinterest as aesthetic

you've gotten gother since i've known you i think

i legit can't tell if you are either best friends with or dating eleanor but i'm happy for you guys some of your reblog posts with each other are the most unhinged things ive ever read but it's amazing every time

i wish my brain wasn't like 80% witcher so i could talk to you about more non-witcher things hehe

ask me my thoughts on anything