#its not the first and it wont be the last time that i have the urge to just fuckign kill myself but.
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if they woke you up, somebody better be dying
warnings: none!
pairing(s): seth jarvis x fem! reader
inspired by the interview he just did for spittin chiclets where he talks about how he usually wont fall asleep until 3am (and the title is from one of my favorite phoebe bridgers songs, halloween)
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the clock on the bedside table blinks “1:00” as you slowly open your eyes. the only light in the room is coming from the moon shining between the blinds, casting a cool glow on the noticeably empty bed next to where you were lying.
seth wasnt in bed; same as last night, and almost every night before.
you can hear the faint sounds of a seinfeld episode coming from the living room, letting you know immediately where your boyfriend was. sitting on the couch in front of the tv instead of in bed next to you. so you begrudgingly pulled on the first sweatshirt you could find, trying to beat the cold winter chill that had invaded the apartment, and tiptoed out of your bedroom.
“seth” you grumbled. “its one in the morning”
“i know, i just” he replied, pressing pause on the tv and turning to face you. “i couldnt sleep and i didnt want to bother you.”
“you should also know that if you cant fall asleep i want to help. you arent being a bother, im your girlfriend. this is the shit im supposed to be able to help you with” you said as you sat down at the far end of the couch. pulling one of the spare blankets you had all over the apartment over your lap.
“im sorry” seth returned, scooting closer to you and interlacing your hands with his. “can i get a do-over?”
“i guess” you giggled, amused by the sight of seth doing his sad puppy eyes in front of you.
“i cant sleep, can you help me?”
“of course i can, give me five minutes.” you said as you rose from the couch, gliding over to the kitchen and pulling out two coffee mugs. running your fingers over the design adorning the box holding the tea bags, you turned your attention back towards seth. “the sleepytime bear reminds me of petya.”
“the what?”
“you know, the bear on the boxes for all those non-caffinated teas. with the red hat and the nightgown.”
seth slipped into the kitchen behind you, pulling out his phone and snapping a quick picture of the bear before sending it off to the group chat and spinning you around so your back was pushing against the counter.
“thank you” he said before pressing a long kiss to the top of your head.
“you dont need to thank me.” you replied, snaking your hands under his shirt and hugging his waist.
“i know, i just wanted too.”
“youre so sappy.” you mumbled into his shirt, letting the sweet, woody, smell engulf you.
“yeah but you love it.” he mumbled back before pulling the kettle off the stove and pouring its contents into the mugs you set out.
you released each other from the hug and grabbed your respective mugs before hobbling back into your bedroom. you pulled up the episode of seinfeld seth had paused before sliding in bed.
making tea might have been a waste of time, seeing as seth was more interested in holding you than holding the mug. as soon as you got under the covers he’d wrapped his arms around you.
“youre wearing my hoodie.” he whispered as he traced circles along your thighs, letting the callouses on his palms graze the goosebumps on your skin.
“am i?” you murmured. “i just picked it up off the floor, it was the first one i found”
“my old blue bombers one.” he replied. “it looks good on you”
“you say that about everything i wear.”
“i wouldnt say it if it wasnt true.” he says before turning your chin towards him and pulling you into a kiss.
the stubble growing in as a result of his budding playoff beard scratched at your face as you pulled him in deeper, and as you turned your attention back towards the sitcom on the tv you felt your eyes grow heavier.
you fell asleep with the moonlight glazing over you and seth, and seinfeld playing on the tv. on a cool carolina night, with no care in the world.
seth wasn’t far behind, wrapping his body around you before finally succumbing to his fatigue.
maybe it was having his girlfriend care for him that slowed his brain down enough to let him finally catch a semi-decent night of rest, maybe it was the reminder of unconditional love that put him at ease. regardless of the cause, you woke up to sunlight streaming through the windows, and a clingy, but well rested, boyfriend attached to your hip.
#seth jarvis#carolina hurricanes#seth jarvis x reader#nhl x reader#seth jarvis imagine#nhl imagine#nhl fic#nhl fanfiction#carolina hurricanes imagine
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The Miscellaneous questions for River and his man/child, i mean husband.
i actually loled haha!! thank you for asking, love.
MISCELLANEOUS:
Is money a problem?
River: its not. i think we're lucky that blake got drafted and makes a good amount of money playing football. we literally got married while we were still in high school and a good majority of kids that do that are NOT in the same position we're in right now.
How many cars do they own?
Blake: we own two. one for riv to take the kids around when im not home and one for me to take to practice/games all that stuff.
Do they own their home or do they rent?
Blake: DUDEEEE if my apartment couldve magically grown with every kid we had ..then i would still be renting. good memories in that place
River: better memories in a place where we actually have room for kids..and me.
Do they live near the coast or deep in the countryside?
Blake: we're balls deep in suburbia right now. his parents live out in the country and FUCK I WANT IT SO BAD.
Do they live in the city or in the country?
River: suburbs ..for now.
Do they enjoy their surroundings?
River: i was fucking DYING in that apartment. i think having the house kinda gives me space so i dont really necessarily feel like im suffocating.
Blake: you feel like your suffocating?
River: in your man cave apartment i did yeah.
What’s their song?
Blake: i gotta do it' so high school'-taylor swift
What do they do when they’re away from each other?
River: we dont constantly text eachother but little pics through the day i think. gives us time to be you know separate people and lets us enjoy whatever we're doing at the moment without being glued to our phone all the time.
Blake: i demand sexy riv pics every night im away [smirks]
River: demands a strong word.
Blake: you know what i mean. i APPRECIATE sexy riv pics every night.
River: dude. looking like a douchebag.
Where did they first meet?
Blake: we went to school together [smirks] friends first.
How did they first meet?
Blake: we were in the same gym class and he fucking PELTED me with a dodgeball man. love at first sight. for me.
Who spends the most money when out shopping?
Blake : *points to riv*
River: treats.
Who’s more likely to flash their assets?
River: oh my god blake. he does it during games. FINED ALL OF THE TIME.
Blake: worth it [smirks]
Who finds it amusing when the other trips over?
River: me. hes not coordinated at all. youd think he would be but....
Any mental issues?
Blake: oh god yeah. i mean...
River: i have depression. the past years been kinda.. i dont know. but i am doing better. im getting better
Blake: my boy.
Who’s terrified of bugs?
River: i think both of us? fuck that shit.
Who kills the spiders around the house?
Blake: Nellie
River: definitely Nellie.
Their favourite place?
Blake: [smirks] theres this little ranch up in chestnut ridge. i love taking him there. just me him. no kids.
River:thats a good place [smirks]
Who pays the bills?
Blake [raises hand] and proud of that shit
Do they have any fears for their future?
River: i think that...we went through a lot of rough stuff in our separation and i just..do not want to go through that again. i think we're on a good path right now and i want to stay on that path
Blake: i think what riv said yeah. the last thing we both wanted when we were having problems was a divorce. and its something i do not want. i guess thats my fear for my future. i just wanna be good for him. i know i wasnt in the past.im trying to be now.
Who’s more likely to surprise the other with a fancy dinner?
Blake: me for SURE.
Who uses up all of the hot water?
Blake: again me for SURE. but he can crash the shower whenever
River: me time,babe.
Who’s the tallest?
Blake: me. rivers a short shit.
Who’s more likely to just randomly hop into the shower with the other?
River:thats definitely blake. i LOVE showering alone but hey.
Blake: wont turn down that DICK.
River: gross.
Who wanders around in their underwear?
River: [points to blake] he hasnt learned.
Who sings the loudest when singing along to the radio?
Blake: River for sure.he has a pretty voice though. love to hear that shit.
What do they tease each other about?
River: i like to tease him over how much of a pussy he was for me back in our first starting dating days
Blake: i cried after we fucked for the first time. for real. and id do it again.
Who is more likely to cringe at the other’s fashion sense at times?
River: me. blakes taste is .....
Do they have mutual friends?
River: not anymore.
Who crushed first?
Blake: oh me for sure. unless riv is about to say something i didnt know
River: i never really considered that AT ALL until you kissed me that one day. you werent on my radar at all i was so into my girlfriend at the time
Blake:until ....
Any alcohol or substance related problems?
River: no we both quit that stuff when teddie came along.
Who is more likely to stumble home, drunk, at 3am?
Blake: we are good boys [smirks]
Who swears the most?
River: i think me and its purely because of my dads influence i swear to god.
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Justice trio I never knew I wanted until now
#caluuart#genshin impact#genshin#art#neuvillette#wriothesley#clorinde#this is kind of slightly implied wrio/neuvi but honestly the dynamic between the 3 of them can be interpreted anyway you want idc#but yeah the trio is unexpected but welcome#anw i have been having lots of fun in fontaine!! i just got neuvi recently and it is a blast (quite literally too)#also i definitely butchered clorinde (and wrio) a but bc its my first time drawing the#so yeah#but it probs wont be the last#anyways I'll have dinner now. cya#edit: i forgot to mention that i was originally interested in fontaine for the yuripeans but then yaoui happened as well and welp.#im now in the yuripeans AND yaoui rabbithole. amazing.
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man
#maybe im being pessimistic abt this. im not saying u should wear a mask every waking moment of your life god knows i cant#but also. hell no i dont trust u if anything i distrust u ppl even more after how things played out for the past 3 years#like there are situations where it might be inevitable catching covid. most of my family members are nurses and in constant contact#but there are also a ton of ways to make that risk low as possible like masking and wearing a face shield and having sanitizer#for me its not enough to just say oh we're in a small group and we're all vaccinated#motherfucker your kid is sick from preschool EVERY TIME WE VISIT. of course ill be wearing a mask she gave me covid last year#also no the fuck it isnt seasonal the cases go up because lack of caution makes the virus spread and mutate especially around times when#ppl gather. add that with virus transmission in cold weather and its a matter of different factors increasing the risk of spread#im also tired of ppl not understanding that i wont be their responsibility if i do get sick. maybe they can help me recover#but at the end of the day the risk of death and long term health is all on me. i cant change that#the govt barely gives me accommodations what makes u think theyll do anything for every individual case of long covid or worse#im so tired. im so tired#i dont even know if its possible to want this to be over anymore i just wish we didnt have to deal with this in the first place#ALSO COUGH INTO YOUR SLEEVE SERIOUSLY HOW IS THIS SO HARD TO REMEMBER#oh its just a cold/dry throat its not like i have covid or anything. no!! its basic hygiene!!! how is this so hard to understand!!!!!!!!!!#and no this isnt abt whether people have the means to protect themselves this is me bitching abt my relatives not taking me seriously#vent#my art#myart#doodles#covid 19
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sending love to everyone else who finds the holidays through to the end of year period hard to get through, i wish we were the ones having a big warm dinner together ♡
#how weirdly uniting it is to know how many others have felt this before. i am not the first and sadly wont be the last#but we all survive it anyway and what for! i stay loving this time of year for the idea of spending it w my boyfriend and friends one day#i hold onto that even when its the opposite situation now#mine
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day 263
tween hyperfixation X teen-adult special interest combo
#day 263#year 3#aradia megido#homestuck#corpse bride#look im not the first person and i wont be the last to think about aradia corpse bride au#HOWEVER. i HAVE been rotating it in my brain since i was 14#and im 25 now so i figured it was time to do art about it#especially for the spooky season#obvious other casting is sollux victor and feferi victoria i think thats what i see the most often#and def what popped into my head first#idk who lord barkis would- Nevermind i think vriska would be funniest#she is going around marrying rich people for their money and killing them. the trope is literally The Black Widow#she kills aradia but also aradia gets to threaten her with a sword and then she is ultimately destroyed by her own hubris#its vriska all the way down babey
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simone kessell as belle james in pine gap (2018) - episode 2 (2/2)
#simone kessell#simonekesselledit#pine gap#WAIT. for the first time in months its letting me post gifs over 5mb? nice#her sad brown eyes......... i'm going to do sth drastic#THE SHEEN OF SWEAT IN THE LAST ONE MAAM I HAVE A TONGUE IF YOU WANT THAT CLEANED UP#also the lip bite. same as lottie primal feelings fake therapy scene so i am normal (lie)#also dont ask me why i'm making pink gifs tonight it was the first colour i landed on and i liked it#the way that i singlehandedly decided its my purpose to gif simones whole (recent) filmography djfhsfs#i say recent bc. the eyebrows. sorry but that was a crime i wont put that on my blog even if its her#my post#*m.gif
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earlier when I said I was normal now while playing isat that was a lie I'm miserable trying to fall asleep. wtf. I'm on some type of shit. in this moment you are loved. friendship is magic and solves anything type of thoughts I have here
#i need to experience that scene again :(((#the last snacks spot before you beat the king hsving tbe friendship quests done for the first time#im so so so sooo normal#usually i mean that in a hell fucking. wow. ighdjfjdkce i hate these guys#but this time im actually so so sad i KNOW it doesnt get better and itll FEEL so DIFFERENT if i do it again in this save#even if nothing changes it wont feel like.... right. ykwim#its not the first time. you(and siffrin) have seen this before#but also it adds a new layer#if i were to go do it again and the game DIDNT change any dialogue(which i doubt) then theres an extra something if both the player and sif#know this isnt going to work its not gonna break the loop#but also#it doesnt matter#because youll do it anyway. because. In This Moment. You Are Loved#it doesnt matter how many times you do it#arrrgh. i need a diagnos8s#isat spoilers#(in the tags but theyre still there)
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????? ok fuck me ig this year is crazy
#so first my moms husband dies. then turns out my grandpa has cancer too and wont see the end of this year. my grandma's also dying.#NOW MY MOST BELOVED PIANIST LEAVES TILL THE END OF THE YEAR???????????? health issues. bruh. ill get health issues if you leave me.#im obsessed with him he restored my love for singing i would have quit if not for him </3#my voice teacher is leaving for the rest of the month cause she's singing in latvia. good for her i love her so much it hurts so its ok#but still :((#and like. god. im fucking up left and right and it feels like everything is literally crumbling to dust around me#cant catch a break can i#ughhhhhhhhhh#also i literally took the 'ah non lasciarmi no' concert aria to her last time we saw each other asking if i can do it#and now what? both her AND MISTAH [redacted] ARE LEAVING ME.#di vita mancherei nel dirti addio fr ah no non lasciarmi ah no </3
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So. I have a BURNING question.
Are Mac and Winn your ocs? I know theyre in the Canon Lore, but did you make them and put them there?? Is this a dumb question? You're like, the Mac and Winn Authority. It just always made sense to me that they'd be YOUR toons, but now that I think about it, I've never seen anything implicitly stating that you made them...
So, did you?? Make them?
(No matter if you made them or not, i LOVE the comics you make about these guys. Youve really endeared them to me.)
very sorry to disappoint, but they're not! I didn't have anything to do with their creation or writing, they're canonical ttcc toons! I'm just a big fan of them, although I have captured them in a giant net like this
net-capturing aside, im very happy to hear I've endeared you more towards them! I like them a lot . looks at you with giant sparkly eyes
#clemask#the designer/creator of mac actually has a tumblr! but i'm not sure if they'd be okay with me just dropping their user here#as for winn. im not sure who specifically created them#but yeah! mac and winn are not my ocs but i am very honored people think they are . being titled the mac and winn authority made me giggle#all of my stuff i create of them is purely fanmade i should also note. they only really appear in blogposts and official ttcc comics/posts#(and the time macs speech bubbles appeared at the end of maypril toons)#so a majority of my stuff is more hc based even if not entirely intentional#winn has like 4 (ok in technicality like 10) lines of dialogue. i have to work with what i have#but i am very joyful more people are beginning to like them! theyre my favorites#if its not obvious#not a dumb question at all btw! youre not the first to ask and judging by that- im sure you wont be the last to think that either
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weh :(
#certified wally post#vent post#<- the walk of shame LMAO#anyway. bleeeegh#why does it always feel like the blood is on my hands#why does it have to feel like the end of the world when a situation is beyond my control#or like its my fault for a situation existing in the first place#why is it that whenever i cant help im so convinced the person will either drop me or end up dead#<- ask to tag#this isnt the first time ive talked about this and certainly wont be the last!#but its been upped by like 1000% over the last week or so#im so on edge at the smallest of things. i feel like im gonna explode#i dont want any of my friends to be hurt. i dont want to lose anyone#how fucked is it that this has been a recurring thought process ive had since i was 12?#ok thats all LOL im done now#back to thinking about my silly little guys
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there's a certain quality the harmonies of like... early to mid 2000s alt rock has. which i am obsessed with... like i wanna do that. i NEED to figure out how to write harmonies that sound like that
#ari opinion hour#i sort of understand it but not necessarily well enough to do it on command#i think i sort of achieved the sound of it with my blaseball winter exchange song i did for snow but specifically only in the very last bit#like only with the 'im not alive anymore' part#(which sidenote i wish id had the second half faster + w more drive but its not like that was like a full recording which i could do)#i think i just need my music to have more teeth in general cause it scratches an itch that i think i must have developed due to some aspect#of music school. its probably my dissatisfaction with the attitudes in the classical world#<- which understand i say that in the same way that like my jazz prof does. the classical world doesnt have enough teeth nor enough#understanding of the way in which music is like. another art. and art needs to be able to have teeth and use elements normally regarded as#''undesirable'' on purpose because art is there to make you feel emotions and not just the positive ones and not just sadness or anger in#terms of the negative ones#art is there to make u feel ALL extant emotions and that includes boredom disgust fear jealousy pity cowardice apathy overwhelmedness etc#also the classical world i find often forgets what the word ''play'' means#i am of the opinion that perfection is a waste of time if i wanted perfect i'd ask a computer to do it for me. i want real#anyway. i forgot what this post was even about lol point is i need to figure out how to write harmonies that have that soaring quality that#like. you can hear it in like helena by mcr and wake me up by evanescence and stuff. and frankly most of the songs on three cheers for swee#revenge which i am listening to now for the first time. i need to learn more about this stuff maybe ill listen to the evanescence album tha#song is from next.#or something i should really be working on my essay but theres no way i wont have it done in time which is good i think i just mostly have#to worry about sources and stuff but even that should be relatively easy i think
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I started writing this in the replies of a different post but quickly reached the word limit so I'm putting it here instead. These are my thoughts on across the spiderverse and they contain heavy spoilers. Please only read if you have seen the movie because it's the kind of movie that gets absolutely ruined by being spoiled.
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So the antagonists in both ITSV and ATSV have a lot in common.
Miguel and kingpin have the same motivation in each of their respective films. They both wanted to live a life that didn't fuck them over and they crossed through dimensions to try and make it happen.
They both fail to achieve their goal: kingpin's attempts to bring his family back are thwarted by the spiders, and the world Miguel enters literally falls apart around him.
Their actions have ramifications that further the conflict of the series. By creating his collider, kingpin gave the spot his powers, allowing the spot to wreck havoc through dimensions. Miguel's new dimension unraveling led him to believe in specific canon events that must happen to every spider person, and that any anomalies to his formula would cause the multiverse to unravel.
There's a pattern to be seen here, and while the next movie is likely going to focus somewhat on the conflict against the spider society, I think it would be cool if the conflict between miles 1610 and miles 42 followed a similar pattern.
Miles 42 lost his father, and 1610 showing up has proven to him there are other dimensions out there, including one where his dad is still alive, which would provide a motivation in line with the previous ones. Miles 42 is framed pretty clearly as an antagonist, meaning Miles 1610 as the protagonist will likely find a way to stop 42 somehow, meaning all that's left to see is the ramifications. I honestly don't know how it all will play out. Beyond the spiderverse could take this story in so many different directions and most of them would be satisfying enough for me.
The ultimate coolest move in my book would be to create a meta narrative of sorts where each movie has the same key elements that make up the story, but handle the conflict in three different ways; what if each spiderverse movie was an alternate version of the same movie? ITSV would be a man vs man conflict (kingpin pulled the spiders out of their own universes and miles has to defeat him to repair the damage done). ATSV would be a man vs society conflict, as miles is up against a society of other spider people who believe he's an anomaly who needs to be contained, destroyed, or forced into conforming to the spiderman formula. I predict that BTSV (at least miles' main arc) will be a man vs self conflict, showing miles a version of himself who behaves the same way as the villains he's faced so far, and having him reconcile with that.
The villains this series has given us have all been victims of circumstance, people who are trying to do what they can to get themselves out of a difficult or painful situation. What makes them villains is the choices they make in trying to get out. Kingpin, Miguel, and the Spot (and presumably Miles 42 but it's a bit too early to say) will stop at nothing to get what they want, and they don't care about the people they hurt along the way.
Destiny and canon want to put Miles through the ringer like every other spiderman, but Miles rejects these very concepts in the climax of ATSV. Miles chooses to reject these ideas, trying to find an alternate path much like the antagonists. But Miles has a different motivation: in addition to making a better world for himself, he's fighting to make a better multiverse for all of the spider people.
I'm not a super active writer, but a writing adage I've picked up over the years is that protagonists ask questions and antagonists give answers to those questions. Its up to the protagonist whether to believe if those answers are true. In BTSV Miles' question would be "Am I a villain too?" Miles 42 answers yes by showing our Miles that at the very least, he is capable of becoming a villain. If Miles rejects that answer, he will no doubt do so by remembering that unlike the villains he's faced, he's fighting for something greater than himself.
#'im just going to write a few sentences about a cool littke pattern i noticed' i said like a liar#across the spiderverse#spiderverse 2#atsv spoilers#im so normal about watching movies lmao#i think this is one of those cases where homestuck metatextual brain poisoning has come in handy#if for no reason other than priming me to recognize other metatextual stories in which characters are fighting the narrative#when they said the word 'canon' in the movie for the first time my immediate thought was 'they better not do some homestuck shit'#and they almost did but they DIDNT AT THE LAST SECOND AND DID SOMETHING WAY BETTER INSTEAD#that better thing being the same homestuck shit if it wasnt actively hostile to its audience and took itself seriously#jake waxes philosophical#jake doesn't have a writing tag#autism mode activated#homestuck#< because we're more than 5 tags in so it wont show up there and i name dropped it in previous tags#come to think of it i think regular show also did some metanarrative stuff with fate and choice in the series finale#regular show also had one character and a shadow version of that character whos Them but Evil and they fight each other#which is one of my favorite narrative devices btw#especially if the Evil one isnt a 'real' person but rather a representation of a character's self doubt or loathing#i fucking love man vs self conflicts
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It's dead af at work. We got through our four reservations and have had no walk ins, and my manager won't cut me because he hates doing my job (and we're friends and he knows I need the money) and tbh I don't want to be cut (can't really afford to be) but I'm actually going insane from sitting on my stool, going through Tumblr, Insta, Kindle, then standing up and going through those apps again, then sitting down and going through those apps again, etc. it's nice to get paid to do nothing, because tbh if I was cut then I'd just be doing this but in my bed, but I'm getting so fucking restless.
#truly im unneeded rn#my other manager gave me the option to be cut before my shift even started but again. I'm broke af#so i came in. and im getting paid $15 an hour to scroll through all of my apps#and im trying to be mildly productive#trying to do some resding because i didnt resd as much as i wanted this month#to make up for it i finished three books in the last two days and im going for a fourth#one of them i had already started. one was pretty short. and one was so good that i tore through it fast#this is a more difficult story. about a school shooting. not super fun but a good story nonetheless#you ever read a book and then want to forget it so you can read it for the first time again?#i just read jumper by Melanie Crowder and it was so good. although apparently the diabetes information isnt accurate#but the story was very very good and kept me interested the whole way#the problem with this school shooting story is that its good. it draws my attention. but its understandably very hard to read#fourteen ish minutes until my paycheck goes through and then i find out if i can pay rent this month#that's part of why im restless too. nervous about paying rent. my job hours are unpredictable and so are the paychecks#i think ill be okay but as always im terrified that it wont#anyway im in a bit of a reading rut. if you hsve any book recs (not a big fan of fantasy. generally like realistic fiction. ya. lgbt)#that type of stuff. like jumper. the Miseducation of Cameron Post. message not found. stuff like that#open to recommendations#love yall. i hope you all have more thsn enough money to pay rent
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i miss this game already
#took me. over 220 hours to finally get through the ending of the game#i kept quitting right before the end and starting a new playthrough#something about act 3 as a whole.#the start of the game is just. so damn fun......#i love creating my character and meeting the companions for the first time. getting to the grove and saving the tieflings#over and over again#im not sure how i feel about the ending. i think my brain is just soup so maybe I'll have thoughts on it later#it was. confusing? fun. unsatisfying? cathartic#i have to stop myself from. going back and trying to change the ending i got.#for the last 3 hours i was just agonising over all these small choices that really. just robbed me from the whole experience#its um. almost 6 am. lol#one thing i can say for sure.#completely unforgettable game. through all its flaws i can definitely name after 220 hours. i still thoroughly enjoyed it#forever altered my brain chemistry#i should. sigh. probably take a break from this game.#at least move on to a different game good lord. bg3 has completely consumed the last month and a half for me#i wont stay away for too long probably. i want to start my dark urge run finally#oh god its 6 am i have not slept at all#ok. goodnight dear followers. so so so tired.#chris noises#bg3
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Super curious about Thomas and Avalon's retirement 👀: do they still plan on filmmaking like say, short films and productions to put up in their own theatre or do they want to leave that life behind them?
this is actually going to come up in my RCD rewrite, It Won't Get Better (But It Won't Get Worse) !! so i'm not going to get too into detail bc if i talk about things i wanna write about too much then i. am less likely to write about them <- already doesnt write anything
basically they both decide to retire early due to issues they have with the film industry, specifically all the bs that tends to go on behind the scenes in Hollywood that tends to go hand in hand w that amount of fame and money
they both still love making movies, but a big theme of IWGB will be learning to let go of something you love but is ultimately hurting you. i think they'll occasionally make movies, but defo not on the scale from the height of their careers in hollywood. just when passion and inspiration strikes
& they make sure to support local filmmakers as much as they can of course!!! they want people to be able to make the art theyre passionate about without having to experience the same Horrors that they themselves have
mostly its financial support, but i like to think at some point they both get cast in a horror movie with a plot similar to this song by Bug Hunter
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they play the old man who's being haunted (Hunt) and his dead spouse (Avalon)
#this wont be the last time i say it but my RCD rewrite is gonna be. Painful. emotionally.#ill give some proper content warnings when i have enough written to start posting#but listen. bc pb decided to dip its toes in portraying the dark side of hollywood in bk 2 i am going to dive in head first to these topics#it won't be for everyone and i totally understand if some people would prefer to stick w my lighter hwu rewrite#(not that there wont be some fucked shit in the hwu rewrite bc its still hollywood but. its got gonna be the focus the way it will be w rcd)
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