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#it sounds like im like ermmm there r wayyy worse kids who shouldve been the ones to go to the zoo π but like ykwim. why does
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btw controversial but fuckk ptsd dude yohre telling me judt bc my parents shouldnt ever have been parents now i have to be fucked up for the rest of my life .
#i know like..coping mechanisms and ris8ng above and learning to live with it but like its fucking stupid and unfair bc im never gonna stop
#having ptsd yk. my episodes might get less frequent i might build happier memories but jm always gonna have these memory blocks and trigger
#s and nightmares like. forever. im never gonna get to have had a normal childhood thats the most fuckedbup thing ever
#like ik this is whiny but like. why. why me what did i do to deserve that childhood. not that any kid deserves abusive childhoods obviously
#it sounds like im like ermmm there r wayyy worse kids who shouldve been the ones to go to the zoo π but like ykwim. why does
#thus have to happen to so many ppl i hate it i hate it. i wish i could just Actually forget everything instead of just like. not rly
#remembering it but Knowing it..yk. i know everything that happened to me even if its all blocked out
#and i still feel like. the effects of it even the stuff thats jncredibly hazy to me. and jm never not gojng to feel that. my personality hs
#literally been fucking shaped by the childhood i have and like. yes you can 'change' your personality a bit and your choices blah blah blah
#but like. even with that. im still always gonna be like. my first impulse will always be distrust and doubt and fear. even if i train
#myself not to Act on those emotions i still will always feel them. im always going to expect people to leave even if they dont even if i
#dont let myself push them away its something im always going to be terrified of in the back of my mind. im never gojng to have
#proper social skills bc i fully missed out on that stage of development im never going to be like. at the same level as my peers bc i
#missed out on those skills. sigh. ik ik ik feeljng inhuman and feeljng different from everybody else is a jniversal thing but i truly think
#im like. im missing something that everybody else seems to have and i dont even know what it is but i know i dont have it and everyone
#can tell j dont have it and it fucking. sucks . basically
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