'shallow hearts for shallow minds that ache to be alive' the chokehold you have on me

It's so weird and funny to me when antis will be like "coping with taboo fiction is fine, but don't you understand you can't post it because people might get off to this!?!?"

Like what a stranger masturbates to is any of my business at all.

thinking about how akio sees his younger self in utena and wondering if there's any fondness there. doesn't change the horror of what he does to her obviously but i do wonder

3l!grian is frequently depicted as a tragic figure and sometimes i wonder if we even watched the same series

I don't know about other writers but the "Please update" comments makes me feel rushed and why I hate them.

Sometimes, I do have trouble continuing a story, life happens or get into other interests. But I rather take my time with a chapter so I can put put a good chapter than to just update a chapter being some reader wants a new chapter right away and put out a half-assed one.

Like, I write for free. It's a hobby. I actually don't mind it if someone loses interest in a story of mine because I'm not getting paid for it and it's just fanfiction.

But I do mind is getting rushed on a craft that I should be enjoying.

Thinks about Perry covered in the blood of his enemies and swoons

being physically unable to unplug from social media for AT least short periods of time is not something to akekeke laugh about

Second request!

If you're okay with crossover requests, what about Camillo (Encanto) trying to make Todd (Vargas/JTHM) laugh?

Day 21 - Complimentary

i love characters like shion, yasu and satoko whose stories are technically about love but the love is also a witch's illusion that they hide much deeper issues behind and is actually representative of more complex and emotionally charged things like abuse and trauma

[pericky; a look into ricky's head during their meeting.]

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"I'm glad you came, I wasn't sure you would." The wine pours, the sound of it drowning out the missing word in that sentence: back.

Of course, is the response, and the part of Ricky that's spent twenty years tearing itself apart to understand why vibrates with relief. It doesn't matter anymore. Of course, of course, he thinks giddily along with the words. He never needed to wonder why Pericles wasn't coming back in the first place; he was always going to.

I'm happy you invited me, and of course he thinks again. A lifetime of pretending he wasn't always going to either falls away. However harsh and lonely the world has been, all's right with it again; and the shy voice of the boy inside him that he's tried so hard to kill says, so quietly, I missed you.

seriously why did the gl movie have fucking parallax as its villain???? Why would you include Parallax in a Hal origin story and why is it a giant stormcloud

people will straight up acknowledge that yes, the kens occupy the place of women in society and the narrative, then in the very next breath say that ken's toxic masculinity and male entitlement to barbie is what drives his actions

"it shows how men also suffer under the patriarchy, having to compete with other men and needing relationships to validate their identity-" they aren't under a patriarchy brenda!!!!!!!!

Sky cotl fandom. I do not approve of people giving tgc money I will say that first and foremost. HOWEVER. I keep seeing fanartists underselling their art and it gets worse and worse and worse all the time. It seems like $25 for a full illustration (with background) is the standard.

SURELY you can see why this is bad. $25 for a full illustration isn't even close to enough. Depending on the medium they use and other factors, most artists would charge upwards of $40 for a full illustration and that's the lower end I've seen. And then you come to the sky:cotl fandom to people charging half that. I'm guilty of this!!! But that doesn't mean I don't think it's awful!!

I don't know how to explain this very well, I'm not good with words. But this is just such a horrid precedent to set for so many reasons. If it takes you what, 10 hours to make a full illustration? That you then sell for $25? Thats $2.50 an hour. That's not even minimum wage. And yet SO many people charge that amount because everyone else does it! And if you're offering less for the same iap well then you probably won't get commissioned! I get it! But this is such a huge problem and it's just awful because no one ever seems to talk about it. It's like no one realises it's an issue! And it probably can't be fixed because it would need a communal effort! This post was going somewhere but honestly I'm just sick of making these kinds of posts. People who commission sky artists how do you not feel terrible?? How do you not feel like you're ripping them off??? They are owed so much more money than they're getting

woke up thinking about the narrative use of astarion & how weird it is that his personal quest doesn't tie into the main narrative At All bc something is wrong with me, etc

ftr, i'm saying all of this as a bigtime astarion fan. love this guy. i keep romancing him and it's begun to feel like a cry for help. And Also, @ larian it's really fucking weird that you made a guy who doesn't tie into the plot at all

i'm putting the rest of this under a readmore. also i'm maintagging this mostly just for being able to find it later, if anybody wants to come @ me then pls know i basically never engage w/ tumblr and you'll probably be disappointed.

best i have for a real justification is that astarion exists in part for players who want to be Evil And Fucked Up. none of the other companions are fully down with using the tadpole powers or trying to take over the cult. and it is genuinely good to have a companion who gives you that option! if players who wanted to explore the fucked up options had complete disapproval from every companion, it would be kinda feelbad and make those options feel less like a real choice you're allowed to make.

why does that matter re: astarion being entirely detached from the main narrative? thank you for asking. it means that "guy who is down for being fucked up and taking over the cult" doesn't come across as secretly being in league with the bad guys the whole time. astarion having no link to ketheric, orin, or gortash means that his power play ideas don't make you suspicious that he's been lying to you and is just waiting to deliver you to the Chosen.

to be clear: still weird that he has no direct tie-in. but this is the best reason i could think of for why he'd be so completely not involved.

the other Point Of Him, i think, is for The Dark Urge. it's no secret that astarion is a killer parallel for durge. i'm not gonna go into that but goddamn, i love it.

and if we're looking at things from the durge perspective, i think it kinda works for astarion to be so detached. he then becomes Random Baldurian Affected By Durge's Actions and it adds more strength to him also functioning as a piece of nuance for the tadpoles. he's the only one who directly benefits from the tadpoles existing! and that on its own is a cool bit of narrative. i think the durge side of things makes astarion's narrative tie in just a bit more. we've now got Dude Who Was Saved By Player Character (Albeit Unintentionally). i think it adds more depth to the durge narrative, and if the dark urge was the only non-origin option and tav didn't exist, i think it makes astarion's lack of narrative relevance a bit less glaring.

tldr; useful for the guy who's down to be fucked up to not be involved with the villains At All so you don't get suspicious of him and the option to be fucked up feels like more of a real option

(also tasty durge & astarion narrative depth)

Accordingly, I told Agnes about my declaration of poverty, about the cookery book, the housekeeping accounts, and all the rest of it. "Oh, Trotwood!" she remonstrated, with a smile. "Just your old headlong way! You might have been in earnest in striving to get on in the world, without being so very sudden with a timid, loving, inexperienced girl. Poor Dora!" I never heard such sweet forbearing kindness expressed in a voice, as she expressed in making this reply. It was as if I had seen her admiringly and tenderly embracing Dora, and tacitly reproving me, by her considerate protection, for my hot haste in fluttering that little heart. It was as if I had seen Dora, in all her fascinating artlessness, caressing Agnes, and thanking her, and coaxingly appealing against me, and loving me with all her childish innocence. I felt so grateful to Agnes, and admired her so! I saw those two together, in a bright perspective, such well-associated friends, each adorning the other so much!

David Copperfield by Charles Dickens, Chapter 39: Wickfield and Heep

going over old fic notes and outlines and character talks with friends and it's always really funny when i get to the stuff i was developing early-mid 2019 where bill just literally kept kryptos around to rag on, and he genuinely just. did not like the man. like was just completely annoyed with his general existence. boy have things changed