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lightasthesun · 1 month

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if Filoni kills Cody and Obi-Wan lives 20 years in a desert thinking Cody betrayed him I will actually throw myself off a cliff

#'i still think of my second in command whom i called commander Cody *fondly*'#'we make our own decisions our own choices and we have to live with them too'#obi wan kenobi #codywan #commander cody #im just really miserable rn

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ofswordsandpens · 4 months

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the fact that the biggest smile we've seen on Percy's face so far is when he's petting that little lizard thing is just so

#the kid is pretty miserable the majority of the time so when he smiles it really stands out #watched that scene like oh that's what happiness looks like on him #actually don't quote me on biggest smile I just cannot remember that kid grinning bigger at a different point in time rn #im like 95% sure #pjo #percy jackson #pjo adaptation #mine

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opens-up-4-nobody · 6 months

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#its crazy how much easier it is to do things when youre not completely miserable lol #this past week has been weird bc ive felt really really good and like normal in a way thats kinds unfathomable #im hoping its the medication but my mood was already on an upward tilt and i was told it would take like 6 weeks for the meds to work #property but like ive been sleeping way more than usual. and by that i literally just mean 8hrs a night lol which is weird for me #like that never ever ever happens multiple days in a row. so idk. when i feel better it makes the 0cd way easier to manage as well #and im just generally not as anxious. on the more worrisome side i kinda just give less of a fuck so like i have an exam im not ready for #Tuesday and im just kinda like hm fuck that lol. ill go thru lil fluctuations of having a lot of energy too #like: i could run around in circles rn. i dont have to but i could. like yesterday i was out with friends and i was like bouncing up and #down while standing and rocking from side to side while sitting. which i kinda do anyway while in crowds but it was more to expend energy #last night i also got like 5hrs of sleep. so like maaaaybe ive been on the bleeding edge of mood elevation but for the most part it just #feels good and not destructive. like if i felt like this all the time that would b fantastic. its like oh so this is y ppl dont long to b #put out of their misery lol. depression? who? i dont kno her. sounds fake. but as soon as i fucking say that ill b fucking slapped back #down to earth. ugh. annoying. no emotional object permanence. i hope its the meds. if this is the person i am under layers of misery then #that is fucking so insane. we shall see. im curious to hear what the psychiatrist thinks of my brain when i follow up with her #i gave her my full dys1exia assessment which gives a pretty good picture of how my head functions. oh fuck i bet i would do waaaayyy better #on thise test if i took it in this state of mind. but anyway she has that on top of like 3 assessment sheets i filled out #dispite everything i still want someone to categorize me into a discreet box. tell me doc. am i really bip0lar? really really?#ur sure??? like 1000% sure bc my brain wont let me accept that unless its beyond a reasonable doubt. i just doesn't seem that serious.#i mean. it is but like ya kno. its not that bad. ay. this glob of mush behind my eyes runs me in circles #but for now thats ok bc i feel like i could run up a mountain or punch someone in the face lol #unrelated

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roachemoji · 4 months

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#bo posting #vent #i was gonna posy this with a picture of croutons but that felt wrong shxjdh #uh im. scared i wont be able to draw again consistently for a while #i think im really accepting just how burnt out i am #i dont like the fear. anxiety. and envy ive been bottling up about drawing lately #like its not doing me any good to avoid everything artistic just bc i cant draw rn #but im... afraid that this will last for a long time #the last time this happened i barely drew for 2 years straight #i dont think im conveying just how painful and stressful this actually is. im not okay and im struggling to accept this #and its fucking depressing too?? i feel miserable knowing i cant do shit for my ocs and cant contribute creatively w friends #i just... feel like im... like not fun to be around rn ig? like a killjoy? a haunting presence who cant offer anything new or fun #im really debating reaching out and offering refunds to people who commed me #at least if they dont want to keep waiting #because idk when ill be able to get them done and i feel incredibly guilty #🫠🫠🫠🫠🫠

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parasitic-saint · 4 months

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wasting a whole week by sleeping is making me want to cry

#the parasite talks #i'm still able to do my work in a hurry but my godddddddd #this is getting so sad #i know my friends love me but i feel like such a burden and such a bore when im always like this #please i just need my 30°C spring and horrible solar rays #i still cant wake up before 12pm on those days but i am awake more at night at least #rn i will have to force staying awake #maybe energy drinks might help idk anymore #coffee doesnt really help but maybe the caffeine in those might jumpstart me #i just need to get my horrible life in order again and stop thinking how easier it will be to just kill myself #i know spring might not fix me but at least it will be a big help not having these cold temperatures (which arent really cold anyways)#but i hate anything below 25°C #i feel like that scen where will graham is crying and shaking before hving the seizure that's me but i dont have a seizure and i dont...#...look pretty im just depressed #and i am the only one who has to take my sorry ass out of this #and i know the big amount of priviledge i have to just be depressed and sleeping for a whole week in my bed without a worry and just feelin #miserable for myself and i wont be a danger to myself do it's just a spoiled brat's shit

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tubbytarchia · 5 months

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I know it's the artist habit to apologise for being annoying, but your really not and it's always really nice to see when artists genuinely enjoy creating something, dont apologise for that ❤️

I'm super excited to see the finished animation!

(insert holding back tears emojis)

I know!! It's a bad habit to apologize but I cant help but always compare myself to other artists I idolize even as I try not to (in favor of more healthy thoughts and connections), so when I don't see something as the norm (in this case posting 3 previews of one animation...) I feel obligated to apologize. I'm sure a lot of people couldn't care less, but unfortunately I care a lot!! And I probably don't need to excuse posting art, I don't think anyone should so I don't know why I keep forcing it upon myself but I'm sure fellow artists understand lol. We don't need each other's forgiveness for partaking in the joy of creation... Ougg thank you for the kind ask. I'm trying my best to be less self critical and easily apologetic

#though I understand this it genuinely does just make me feel better sometimes to apologize however bad of a habit it may be #thank you again sm kind anon. You can DM me and I'll draw you a Scarian doodle as thanks. If you can confirm your identity I guess??#wahh life has just been really miserable this year so Im gonna go against my word #but forgive me for being like this rn because whenever I talk about this I feel like Im being a pity and attention hoe #I swear Im not Im really trying my best to be happy and thats why this support means the absolute world to me #blabber

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soggypotatoes · 7 months

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I see so many posts abt loving to be a hater but honestly!! I love to be a lover!! it's so fun!! I love loving songs that I don't think are particularly "good", songs that are unpopular in my circles that my friends make fun of me for liking.. I love enjoying the company of people others don't like, even if I know I wouldn't like them if I were rationally making a decision about it.. I think all people are interesting to talk to, and I love that! I love finding things to like in everything. idk man. people see this attitude as dumb or naive, but I'm fully aware of everything bad in the world. I just find life a lot easier to live if I love everything I can

#my parents were always so critical and complained about everything #it was quite miserable to feel i couldnt enjoy anything #im as critical of toxic positivity as anyone #but thats not what this is #i just want to love everythinggggg #like rn im exhausted #havent really rested in ages #having bad sleep nightmares scary things memories coming up #and im pushing myself to go to a musical rn for someone else - not for me - bc they want to go with someone #and it's hot!!! too hot #but im gonna sit here and love these things bc this is what existing is and isnt it beautiful?#sadness is just a way of experiencing the world and im here for it #ed mumbles #and i dont have the energy to be like. no this music is bad i dont like it #it's easy to listen to and fun and nice who cares #same with movies n shows n stuff #be silly forever

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mumpsetc · 1 year

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I Think the Era of ii Being the Second Biggest Object Show Is Kind of Over... It Does Just Feel Like Its Just Getting By on Name Recognition Now

#Like Cfmot 2 Came Out On the Same Day as iii 12 and Its Sitting At Around 800k Views Where As Id Be Surprised if iii Has Broken 275k Rn #The Viewership is so Low Theyre Resorting to Taking the Numbers Off the Thumbnails #And Beyond That Im Jusr Seeing So Many People Go 'This Show Doesnt Make Me Happy Anymore'#And Even If S2 Returned Its Been So Long And the Writing Sensibilities Have Changed So Much #That Its Not Gonna Be the Same #But Idk... We Have Plushies Now I Guess. Hurrah #I Know I Bitch and Bitch About ii But It Does Hurt Watching It Dig Itself Into a Big Miserable Hole #This Show Got Me Into Object Shows and Now I Cant Even Really Muster Up Enjoyment OR Anger for It #Just Detached Apathy #Im Gonna Be Watching Still Cuz I Have To But At This Point If ii is Nothing to You Just Stop #Dont Give Em Your Views Dont Give Em Your Money #Fucking Whatever Man #ii Negavitity #HARDCORE TOO DAMN This is Doomerish #dreamy.txt #Objective Criticism

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ef-1 · 11 months

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I'M BROKEN, BUT I'M TRYING | MAY'23

#im broken but im trying indeed ‼️#back by unpopular demand etc #ik i havent been as active but mommy is sick again 😍#so ive just been avoiding social media bc im fatigued and it brings me no joy when im unwell #its unhealthy but everytime i have an ms relapse it feels like grieving. like im mourning the life i could have had if i was healthy #and im v good at snapping out of it but still. it leave a bad taste in its wake lol #anyway i cant really see any colours rn and i was going to be miserable about it but im just going 2 keep taking photos #amd praying they look okay lmao #index: rows #1. relatable fridge/pumps #2. two different dates with two different friends. one who dragged me out of bed and one who fell into bed with me.#apparently friends dont let friends be miserable. i love them alot.#3. flower growing by cigarette / da sky #photography series #oh + this is only partially may and partially chronological

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pepprs · 7 months

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i wish i wasn’t depressed lol

#or whatever it is i am. it’s really making things hard. i feel like i suck except i don’t actually suck it’s just that i feel like i do and #feeling like i do actually makes me suck legitimately. so whatever #purrs #i don’t even know how to put it into words. im stuck in my life and if im not stuck im falling behind. i kinda got in trouble at work a #little bit for not staying on top of these 2 things and i feel so horrible abt it bc it was my idea to do it in the first place but i bit #off more than i can chew which is what i always seem to do. im falling behind or stuck in every possible aspect of my life rn it’s sooooo um #not great. and i feel insignificant and small constantly and anyway i have to worry about grad school LOL. pain #i don’t even know how to say it right like that’s how sad i am. i can’t even articulate it. im exhausted especially with myself.#i wish i could just snap my fingers and stop being miserable bc it makes everyone else around me miserable but i don’t know how to stop #like if you think about it i am kind of bad at my job. the worst possible thing for me to be. ermmmmmm 🤭

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katyobsesses · 6 days

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My mum has people over :( one I was expecting but the other two were sprung on me and I've had a shitty day and so I'm just in my room pretending I don't exist but it's getting to dinner time and I'm hungry and she said the two would be gone by now but they're still chatting up a storm like I knew they would be

#she knows i need ample warning about things like this #and im honestly so miserable rn and just want the pizza i was promissed for dinner #and not to have to see people i dont know #i hate this feeling god im an adult #but also my really still a child #it just feels so inconsiderate of her #to spring new people on me with like an hour of time to prepare #and i feel ao awkward just hining up here #eeding to pee and wanting to eat #:(((#i need my own place desperately #just a tiny little studio will do me please #katy liveblogs life

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opens-up-4-nobody · 7 months

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