theres just something about dokja sympathizing with “beings cast out from the story who couldnt even participate as extras” thats so fundamentally tied with his own characterization, he might as well have been considered an outer god from the start

things that would fix me rn

- medication

- blanket fort

- permission to skip school for the rest of the week with zero consequences

- medication

- hug from my best friend

- watching inside out probably

- medication

I feel so sad this sucks i can't stop thinking about doing everything wrong with v I feel like im gonna cry I hate going to sleep early the day after I stay up it's just hours of laying down with stupid train of thoughts that come at night and I can't sleep I just want to sleep I don't want to feel so awful in the morning I don't want to feel awful right now I wish I could just get my thoughts in order get to the point and cry and be done with it. Nothing is going to change from yesterday to today to tomorrow I will just have been miserable and things won't change because of it I wish the world was kinder I wish the world wasn't so cruel I wish things were different I want to cry and now I can't even feel that anymore.

Asagiri reiterating multiple times that Sigma and Mushi are two of his favorite characters, and Mushi & Yokomizo his favorite dynamic/rivalry to write, is probably the best thing to come out of the panel... I truly won 🥹🥹🥹

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i have this excited anxiety in my chest, my brain just reminded me that, yes for real, alan wake 2 finally releases tomorrow

13 years. 13 years since the release of the original. which is one of my favorite games of all time. 13 years later we finally get a sequel and its coming out TOMORROW

im just so excited and happy yall

Moon *screams and sobs*

Accidentally watched, um. A lot more of the episode. I now have 3 hours left. I just couldn't stop during the battle!!!! And then there was all the stuff afterwards and then suddenly it was my definite bedtime when I MEANT to go to bed like 3 hours ago. Whoops

mars. mars i need you to hold my hand and imagine a world where ravage survives the dotl arc and is taken to sanctuary where soundwave and cosmos help nurse her back to health and she is reunited with the other cassettes. mars i need you to see the vision w/ me. mars 🖐

GRABS YOUR HAND HOLDS YOUR HAND SO TIGHTLY OOUHHH MY FUCKIBG GODDDDDD IM LISTENING. IM LISTENING

Soundwave brood is in chaos bc holy shit everyone thought she had DIED. like Soundwave felt it happen and everyone had mourned her death but then. They get a comm from the Lost Light saying she’s okay and Soundwave immediately demands her back with him. In a I will hunt you down myself if you don’t give her back to me NOW kinda way. And the lost light is like yes ma’am sorry ma’am (when they get to the Station Megatron tries to speak to Soundwave but for his own safety he is forced to stay far far away from everything. Soundwave can’t even look at him right now it’s too much too soon).

ANYWAYS. Ravage is still very critical and not great but she’s alive! Soundwave is naturally a huge overprotective mess and during the first few weeks (months? Idk) of Ravage’s recovery she stays unconscious and Soundwave will not leave her side. When ravage eventually wakes up, she’s in pain and frustrated but waking up to see Soundwave (her soundwave! She hadn’t seen him in so long she almost thought it wasn’t real) gave her so much relief she didn’t even realize she needed. The reunion is emotional and messy and there’s a lot that needs to be said but for now it’s okay to just be held and revel in the fact that Ravage is alive.

Cosmos comes in full clutch as the universe’s best nursing assistant and makes sure that Ravage is healing properly and getting the medical help she needs. No amount of snide comments and grumpy remarks from Ravage can stop him from monitoring her and making sure she has the medication she needs to heal.

Ravage gets around the clock care with the help of Soundwave and Cosmos. They become Ravage’s primary caregivers and they work together to make sure she heals properly and can get back to her old self.

She needs physical therapy to get her limbs all working again. She hates it. Soundwave and Cosmos are both endlessly patient with her, though, and it’s almost embarrassing.

The reunion with the rest of the cassettes is emotional and Rumble and Frenzy actually cry really loud. THATS embarrassing. The avians perch on her gently and preen her around her collar and midsection to make sure everything looks fine.

Ravage develops a deep appreciation for cosmos. Nothing Ravage could say or do could make Cosmos give up on taking care of her. It’s strange and gives Ravage an odd sense of comfort whenever he’s around.

UHHHH ANYWAYS. MY BRAIN. MY BRAIN IS INFECTED. HELP

wot are ur fav shounen romances? :o

i like a lot of the classics !! kaguya sama love is war, blue flag, horimiya so i will not mention them here.

some more (imo) underrated ones

taisho otome otogobanashi my BELOVED. takes place in the taisho era between a disabled young heir of a wealthy family and the young girl assigned to be his bride. soooo fucking wholesome. very boy but in a very sweet way. really a beloved one for me. 9/10

three days of happiness (manga) - oh my GOD this manga makes me fucking CRY. touching story about a twenty year old guy who's down on his luck and finds out about a service that allows you to sell years of your life in exchange for money. the catch? the mc finds out the worth of his life is abysmally low and decides to sell all of it, save for three months so he can spend the money he earns. he meets with our mc and without spoiling they get to know each other and fall in love. SOOOOOO goddamn sad and sooo good. broke my heart 12/10

OREGAIRU. this anime is Deeply Personal to me for specific reasons irl but i also enjoy it. typical loserboy romance but there's a femboy as well. i love it soooo fucking much and i have forever okay... its so dear to me. it's about our mc who's a cringefail dweeb and his commentary on the myth of "youth" and how unrealistic that is.

the catch is that hachiman our mc actually has a fair bit of emotional intelligence and the story itself always points out that his loserish habits mostly stem from himself and call him on it all the time. i.e. it's not a shounen romance that overlooks those qualities nor romanticizes them and tends to be pretty subversive in it's own way.

the storyline revolves around him, the class president and another girl who have a club where they volunteer and offer advice. in that, hachiman gets to experience 'youth' inadvertently. it makes more sense if u watch but i just. love it So Goddamn Much. it's like peak for the shounen romance subgenre. its honestly not super romance heavy? but it also is. complicated it's 7.7/10 for me if i rate objectively. but a 10/10 if i rate on a personal level.

the fragrant flower blooms with dignity - a story about an intimidating male student and a very adorable young lady who have an interesting first encounter. it's a classic getting together story and its hard to describe what happens w out spoiling but GODDDDDD its soooo fucking cute. so cute i love it soooooo much. its ongoing !! 8/10

yankee kun and the white cane girl - crying screaming throwing up puking about them. a story about a deliquent and a blind girl. the story covers the struggles of disability with SO much nuance and character and the supporting cast have SOOOOOOOO much depth and the love story is so unbearably sweet. its ongoing and one of my faves forever and ever and ever. i love them sooo much. 9/10

im definitely missing a LOT but these are my favorites as of right now!!! the last two i follow very actively!!

Ok so like. People love misinterpreting that and it pisses me off so bad because by simplifying Naruto to “sunshiny happy one” and Sasuke to “grumpy cold one” or whatever the fuck, they’re completely misunderstanding the dynamic and balance between the two. Naruto is actually very very angry about what the village did to him and he’s very emotional. He keeps himself positive in the hopes that no one will recognize his anger. He wears his heart on his sleeve for anything except for that and I think it’s because he doesn’t really want to admit that the village he’s put his all into protecting and loving is very conditional in its love for him. Sasuke on the other hand is so deeply caring and loving, so much so that it’s literally a clan trait. He forces himself to suppress it because he doesn’t know what else to do. I personally feel that he knows abt the uchiha connection to emotions and how they feel them very strongly and I wonder if he thinks that’s what happened to his brother. The emotion he felt was hate and because it was so strong, it overtook him and he killed everyone. I think that it led Sasuke to be scared of his own emotions, not knowing how powerful they could be.  

WVEN THEIR RESPECTIVE COLORS?????? Blue and orange being contrasting colors hrgechehhrgr. Naruto was literally the one person who Sasuke could not break his attachment with and it was so severe he felt the only solution was to kill him and there is not a soul alive that can convince me that if he succeeded he wouldn’t have killed himself afterwards. I genuinely think he would’ve because there’s no way he would’ve been able to handle it. And then Naruto being so attached to Sasuke to the point where it puts his teammates in danger because he is so dedicated to saving him he refuses to kill him despite being p much the only one who could. Which brings me to the final fight. I don’t think they were aiming to kill. Either of them. I know Naruto wasn’t but I can’t help but feel like Sasuke wasn’t either. He was trying his best to get himself to but I don’t think he was. 

God these two are like. So insanely tied together. They’re literally the only one who gets the other. I watched the two slow dancers amv and OUGEHRGR. They’re both dealt the worst hands and how do you even cope with that? AND TGE WHOLE SUN AND MOON PARALLEL???? GODDDDDD IM INSANE. Naruto literally stares at the moon at night thinking abt Sasuke I’m sick to my stomach these two r so gay it actually makes me mad.  

Anyways that’s not even everything but I have to take my dog out so.  Thank u for letting me be insane in ur inbox heart hands. OH MY GOD I JUST REMEMBERED GHE LAUGH AT THE END OF THE FIGHT WHEN THEYRE LAYINH NEXT TO EACH OTHER BLEEDING OUT AND SASUKE LAUGHS AND CRIES BECAUSE HES HAPPY IM DHFJBRKGRAHAGSHMGRAHMRVGARGRHAMR

Anyways have a nice day :33

Honestly I forgot that they have such a compelling narrattive, especially in the extremes as you mentioned and I liked reading your rant!!! Really brought back memories.

Thank you sm for distracting me <3

STAR TREK: DISCOVERY | S1E1 "The Vulcan Hello"

[I will react to each episode individually and in full, raw reception and then post as is unrevised here onto my tumblr for the full span of every and all NuTrek episodes and series that have been and will be released. If this falls under your field of interest - I welcome your company in joining me. Enjoy the ride.] -------

im sorry. but the fucking graphics took my breath away. not as if im not a 2023rd year modern dweller. BUT. listen. i have been adrift in the world of pre 2009 Star Trek for the better part of a year straight. I am NOT used to Trek looking this way in a series. This 13 year jump from Enterprise to Discovery REALLY shows. And how the advancements of technology have most certainly carried Trek along in its undertow. 13 years….. when at last Star Trek gets to return to its roots in episodic narration. To return home. And my, how gorgeous it looks. Bring it.

I am ready for you.

oh my god. is this. fucking. KLINGON?? i have seen this charcter on the cover of a trek comic before. had no context. IS THIS KLINGON FOR REAL - KAHLESS?? oh my god. they look so different? what has happened???? IS THIS THEIR MODERNISATION OF KLINGONS oh my god its fucking FULL 4K HD I AM NOT USED TO TREK LOOKING LIKE THIS AND IM A FUCKING MILLENIAL/GEN-Z SPLITTER. BUT OVER HERE TALKING LIKE A CAVEMAN OH MY GOD MY EYES

THE LACK OF VERTICAL BARS ON THE LATERAL ENDS OF MY HD MONITOR. THE 2 NEW HORIZONTAL BLACK BARS ABOVE AND BELOW THE IMAGE I CATCH AND SAY ALOUD - "IS THIS REALLY STAR TREK IM SEEING RIGHT NOW BEFORE MINE EYES???" HOLD THE PHONE MICHELLE YEOH IS IN THIS????? EXCUSE ME ??? OH MY GOD THIS IS THEEE MICHAEL BURNHAM?!?!?! oh man they are both so gorgeous oh my god this cgi is lovely oh my god the SATURATION OF HTE COLOURS THE CRYSTAL CLEAR RESOLU TION THE LACK OF GREEN SCREENAGE is this actually star trek that im seeing though no wait are you for real i cant believe this is trek oml that communicator the flip immpeccable oh man im just i feele such an emotion inside watching this the ALIEN DESIGNS this background their environment is so pretty their wardrobe deisngs those goggles the feeling ENTERPRISE THE MUSIC THE ;M;USIC THE U SIC THE HORNS OH MY GOD THE NX??? IS THAT THE NX?????? oh m;y god the transportation THE TENELEPOTATION EFFECTS THE PATTERN IN THE SAND AAAAAAAAAAAA NO FUCKING WAY NO FUCKING WAY THEY ARE STARTING HTE SCORE WITH THE SONOROUS THEME OF THE ORIGINAL OHHH WHAT AN INTERESTING UPGRADE INBETWEEN SHAPE OF HTE ENTERPRISE?!?!?!?! oh my god this intro sequence is so PRETTY OF MY GOD THE PHASER THE PHASER THE COMMUNICATOR OH MY GODDDDDD THE VULCAN SALUTE OH MY GOD THE INTRO SEQUENCE IS SO BEAUTIFUL OH MY GOD ITS SO DIFFERENT ITS SO NEW UGHHH THIS ENDING SEND OFF OF THE NOTES OF THE OP IM SORRY IM NOT SUED TO ANY OF THIS BEING TREK LOOOOOOK AT IT LOOOOOOK AT IT oh my god space looks so beautiful no fucking way this is trek look at these graphicssss i may be born at the terminus of the 20th century, but i sound much older THEIR UNIFORMS ARE SO FUCKING SNAZZZY THAE BRIDGE IS DARKKKK THE SOUND EFFECTS

OH MY GOD LOOK AT THE BRIDGEEEE SARUUUUUUU OH MY GOD I FINALLY I SEEEE SARUUUUUU i didnt know his name is pronounced like that dude i fucking love their uniforms so fucking sharp they look like the communicators oh my god i fucking love everything bout this all the blueee the colours saru is fucking tall i like his facce oh m;y god the chair look at the screens look at the monitors the viewscreen is massive look at the computer schematics and user interfaces also ASIAN WOMAN CAPTAIN HAHAHAHA IT TOOK THIS LONG????? oh my god… trek has never looked better…… something about saru's face reminds me of archer hahah his voice sounds exactly like what i think saru would sound like dude a telescope amazing im sorry i fucking love all this since 00:00 i am just mouth agape im in awe at what im seeing at the evolution of trek having reached this far dude the SUITS LOOK AT THEIR SUITSSSSSSSS THE SPACE SUITSSSSSSS THESE COLOURS my eyes are wet why i just barely contained myself after Enterprise's finale…. this is so gorgeous. this is one hell of a first episode. oh my god its just tooo pristine dude this is a SHOW AND NOT A FILM?? sorry ok im talking trek ok listen having so often beeen under the graphical shadow of things like its child star wars i feel something immense… immeasurable…. i feel… something rather similar to what had ravaged through me when I watched Star Trek: The Motion Picture. seeing the massive upgrades in everything from what came before…

its…. pride. utter, unadulterated pride. to see its imminence be crowned an ornamentation it is beyond deserving of. to don the clothes that match its lustre. at last. star trek desrves to look this good.

is that… a fucking bird of prey. ITS A BIRD OF PREY THOS ARE FUCKING WINGS THAT FUCKING ARMOUR OH MY FUCKING SHIT THAT ARMOUR THOSE DETAILS OH MY GOD FUCKIGN KILL ME AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA it just occurred to me the ranking designations in their uniforms through the metallic hue and striping - lovely KLINGON this redesign of the klingons…… wow these designs and shapes of their attire and architecture its so impressive its so beautiful what an intense elegance i cant believe this star trek. oh my god the klingon roar of death's passing whoaaaa medbay whos the doctor? VUL;CAN VULCANNNNNNNNN LEARNING PODSSSS THIS IS SO SIMILAR TO THE AOS FILM IS THIS TAKING INSPIRATION FROM THE FILM???? UGHHHH VUHLKANSU LOOKS BEAUTIFUL AS EVER oh my god vulcan who are the vulcans we meet in this SAREK??? i have never seen Nutrek Sarek ever before… WAIT HUMAN HEART WHY DID BURNHAM DREAM THAT WHY DID SHE DREAM THAT unless it wasnt her dream but also that child. human heart. sarek this is a while ago uh uhhhh uhhhhhhh no i know its not him. it cant be. oh i like the badges

OH MY GOD THE DECLOAKING SOUND EFFECT LOOK AT THAT THINGGGGG LOOK AT ITTTTTTTT also saru has feathery tendrils?? i didnt know im at the edge of my seat LOOK AT THE KLINGON VESSEL LOOK AT IT OH M;Y GODDDDDD its floors look so nice even its interesting to hear klingon this way almost soft this makes me want to learn klingon more than ever. pale klingon? UGHH IS THAT A BAT'LETH?? GOD EVERYTHIGN LOOKS SO DIFFERENT im sorry wait these new klingon designs look so nice though hold up they have such pleasant shapes saru is so tall i like his proportions big stickman haha saru's eyes are so pretty god these beautiful graphics… i love the love and care that went into this even visually as much deserved as always i want that uniform give it to me

i like how its like the dark blue of Enterprise's uniform carried over to the uniforms in Discovery at least. im so SOO into this right now. im SOOOO into this right now. WHOAAAAAAAA THE BIRD OF PREY(?) SPREADING ITS WINGS LIKE THATTTTT WHOAOAAAAAAA LOOK AT THE LIVING QUARTERS THEY LOOK SO NICEEE I WANT MY ROOM LIKE THIS Sarek what is your relation with michael oml what what is happening oml more Sarek involvement thats so cool we get to see and learn and know more about Sarek??? oh man…. i love what hes wearing. i see that IDIC thing on her desk what is that behind her?? im so curious what burnham and sarek's relationship is how did they meet etc oh my god im sooo invested im SOOOO into this. IMMMM EATEN UP BY THIS. IM FUCKING EEATTING THE SHIIIT OUT OF THISSSSSSS AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRARARRAAAA interesting Vulcan Hello…. Burnham is so pretty oh my god Phillipa is a RULER on that captain's seat. i love these colorus. its so visually alive my eyes are so fucking emotional from whats entering them im eating all of this. these lens flares though EXCUSE ME EXCUSE ME DID SHE JUST DID SHE JUST DO THAT DID SHE DJUST MA'AM MAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAMMMMMMM MAAAAI09GHGHJGGG JDUSAITJHAHT SGFKJHSEL RTH HRT HRT THR DID SHE JUST NECK PINCH HER CAPTAIN?? WTFFFFFF IS HAPPPENNNNINGGGG?????????????? WHAT THE FUCUUCKCKKK???? HOLLLYYYYY FUCKKKKK!??!!??!?!?! I LOST ALL AIR WHEN I WITNESSED WHAT I JUST WITNESSED PHASER WTF IS HAPPENING THAT IS A GORGEOUS PHASER BTW oh my god im BLOWN. AWAY. OH MY GOD WARP OH MY GOD THE SHEER NUMBER OF SHIPS. OH MY GODDDDDDDDDDD i i i cant. i cant. i cannot. I CAN NOT.

I- Dear Discovery.

You have caught my attention.

i don’t enjoy angst but why lie I do enjoy a little fighting with Harry in the hotel before a show and he just storms out to go to the arena, so then you’re debating if you should even go to the show but maybe you know some of his friends and family will be there so you push aside all the emotions and go. When you get there you’re catching up with everyone and still haven’t seen him, then after a bit he walks in and starts saying hi to everyone and you’re just off to the side letting him have his time🤧 when he walks over to you he’s a bit surprised because he thought you wouldn’t even show up, and you’re both upset with the whole situation but you obviously aren’t going to make a scene in front of everyone…he gives you a kiss on the forehead and says with his lips still attached “I’m glad you’re here”🤧 the rest of the time you aren’t really engaging with each other but also not making it super obvious you’re fighting. So then after the shows over everyone’s staying back to hang out for a little after party and when he comes back from showering/getting dressed you tell him that you’re gonna head back to the hotel. That’s when he really starts to get ☹️ because even though you’re fighting he still always wants you around so he immediately cuts you off before you can even finish the sentence saying “What? No…stay” and you just shrug and say “Im just really tired. You stay and have fun and I’ll see you when you get back ok?” and that’s when he’s immediately trying to mend things saying “baby please stay. I’m sorry. I’m so sorry for everything, please just stay here with me”🤧🤧 and as much as you want to you hold your ground and say “Don’t, we’ll talk about it later…just go enjoy yourself I promise I’ll be ok” and he knows that when you make up your mind there’s no turning it, so he just has to accept you’re going back to the hotel🤧 he’s pulling you into his chest and whispering into the side of your head “I really am sorry. I love you more than anything” and you just lift up to look at him and say “I love you” ☹️☹️ he comes back to the hotel hardly an hour later because he can’t stand the thought of having fun knowing you’re back alone and upset, so you spend the rest of the night talking things through and hes apologizing ten times over and all is ok once again🫶

NOOOOOOOOOOOOO OH MY GODDDDDD IM SO SAD HE WOULD BE SO SOFT AND GENTLE AND 🥺🥺🥺 WITH YOU HE HATES FIGHTING AND JUST WANTS TO BE CLOSE WAAAAAA 🥺🥺🥺

@deicidefull tumblr wont let me answer your ask properly, im depressed. so i will have to do it in a fucked up way

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i was going to sleep but how many chances does one get to throw 875 songs&artists at unsuspecting mutuals?

"before you do anything you need to listen to this is love by air traffic controller and think of sakurai haruka. relatively easy. done? try listening to kodomo no shikumi by pinocchiop. okay, slowly, try thinking of momose amane. it doesn't have to make sense, this is for fun. keep your train of thought and start listening to milk crown on sonnetica now. take a break. listen to some nanawoakari and don't think of anyone in particular. this one's a bit difficult...listen to carnivorous plant. get up and walk around a bit. sit back down and listen to it again, but think of kusunoki muu this time. that was tiring, take another break. listen to some frederic. again, you don't need to think of anyone in particular. try thinking of sakurai haruka again. then, listen to kotoba no obake ga mado kara miteiru by frog69. watch the mv, too. this is important. if you still need more rest, listen to some flowerface. alternatively, if you can handle it, listen to i'd like to die at about 40 years old by aoya and think about kashiki yuno. you can keep listening to aoya even if you don't think about her. you can even listen to jan and think about sakurai haruka. it's your life. okay now you're finally ready... listen to killer spider by pinocchiop. think of kusunoki muu. do it again. do it again. do it again. do it again. do it again. do it aga (im so normal about spider muu im so normal) you're done!! for a treat, listen to some yorushika or yoasobi, whichever you have at home! remember you're the one who asked for song recs...okay...sorry...goodnight snork mimizzzz"

youre starting off soooo fucking gooooddddd GODDDDDD,, i love air traffic controller. and im gonna be honest it's hard not to think of hamnet from the underland chronicles,,, but hamnet is a haruka-type anyway so i got over it LMAO. YOUR MIND IS SO BEAUTIFUL FOR THIS ONE DO YOU MIND IF I THROW IT ON MY HARUKA PLAYLIST?

this is a very good amane song i like where youre going with this. lets check out the next song! .... "The innocent emotions, so much that I clean and dispose of them. For what grounds does "pure" and "impure" become the labels I brandish?" ... you would willingly hurt me like this

i ended up listening to this one. i think its cute & im definitely interested in hearing more!

im assuming you mean this one, in which case,, WOW,,, THIS IS A REALLY FUCKING GOOD SONG,, the "i hate you" being "i wish all you had was mine"???? SCREAMS INTO A PILLOW. ok. im normal

i ended up listening to oddloop and IM OBSESSED. THEIR SOUND IS SO FUN? i saved a few of their songs to my spotify likes to listen to later and im so excited. the lead singer has such a fun voice. AHHHH (also i know you said not to think of anyone, but oddloop is a shidou song to me now)

THIS SONG IS REALLY GOOD. and the mv is so simple, so effective. very haruka. at this point i am going to run off and take a shower (also, i have watched the mvs for all of these :3 very good stuff)

ok i am back i am fresh, im sparkling. kurari kurari. i ended up picking baby teeth to listen to, and im a fan, though very sad now. i might have to gather some similar songs i have in my spotify to send back to you sometime. hm. had a hard time finding the aoya song so heres a link to it for others. very sad, very yuno i agree. i also couldnt figure out where to find songs by jan, so i ended up listening to the diary of jane instead which is absolutely not what you told me to do (if you could send me some jan songs though, id love that)

VERY GOOD SONG. i can totally see it for muu. unfortunately, my brain immediately pushed it onto shidou (i dont think thats sinful,, theyre technically partner prisoners,, 0405,,) but to make up for this grievance ill share the lines that make me go "OH YEAH, MUU" .. "Because you're really no good, Because you can't do anything without me, I'll bite you softly, poison you a tiny bit, And teach you a lesson" "And put a leash on you. Is this him? Or is that him?" "While kissing the corpse, your instinct searches for the next prey."

ive heard yoasobi before, so ill give yorushika a try! ... only to realize that ive listened to this song once before! and then to go hm,, that artstyle ive seen once more in the past,, and i know this one too!

goodnight (or now i suppose, welcome to a new day ahahaha) thank you for sharing your music with me!

PLUV I have finally caught up with wha (at least I hope I have, I could only find up to chapter 70) and…many thoughts very many thoughts

I’ll start with Dean—I for some reason was not expecting him to have a wife and then she appeared and the way that man MELTED stop it stop it he loves her so much, they love each other so much it’s so sweet. But his little altercation with Beldaruit…..Jesus Christ he pissed Beldaruit off so bad but understandably so. That was such a brazen move to ask about exchanging information when Beldaruit was in a vulnerable position. You’re right, I can definitely the see the potential for him being an ultimate antagonist later on…him and his son

Oruggio of course looked so good doin his lil thing, I am still stuck on the scene where he was getting really defensive over how Qifrey should just leave Coco and Tartah alone and not to embarrass them like PLEASE I have to know who hurt this poor man when he had a puppy crush on someone as a boy

And QIFREY…..pluv get him away from me before I shake him senseless, smack him silly, dig my claws into him. That fucking panel of him laying facedown in the water……….so speechless. Literally stared at it like “no way. no way is he going to die by the thing he hates the most.” And while I am SO relieved that it was just a smoke illusion, that was such a brutal scene. Not to mention Coco injuring her eye, literally a mirror to Qifrey’s injury…….so cruel

As for the girls, their character arcs have come so far, Aggot’s especially, she holds a special place in my heart

Just. Mentally pulling at my hair and rocking back and forth in a corner, this manga keeps pulling my emotions in every which way I don’t even know what to do with myself

okay u need to send me where youve been reading bc i can only find up to chapter 68 (dw, u didn't spoil anything) BUT YEAHHHHHH

okay the WIFE THING AHHHHHH im genuinely wholeheartedly obsessed with her And his utter adoration for her. like when i first saw her i swooned ofc but then her lil scene later on where it's clear shes Also very smart and capable and not like. just a sweet/maternal figure which i kinda expected...... whew. until proven otherwise i am going to make up a zayamaia in my head who is a true partner in crime for all of dean's fucked up schemes 🫣

ORU'S LITTLE TALK HAD ME CRAZY TOO SDJFHBV when i first read that i went running to my friend like "hes having flashbacks to when he and i got caught together as teens </3" SHDFBSJDKHFB but also </////3 qifrey's response to that <//////////3 SHATTERED me truly

the parallels between coco/qifrey make me absolutely rabid foaming at the mouth putting him in a jar and shaking him like a little bug. watching coco steadily going down the same path as him while he's so blinded by his own desire for revenge......... oh qifrey i want to dissect u

the thing that truly made me weep that i kept talking about btw was the plotline with galga (specifically when, after his memories are wiped, he tries to help the girl who wiped them like OHHHHHHHHHH my god OH MY GODDDDDD he is A Magic Cop who got his personhood wiped away because of it thus removing his corruption as a magic cop and with that stripped away!!! he instinctively chooses to aide a little girl oh!!! my god!!!!! oh my fucking god!!!!!!!!) and also everything w custas and dagda my poor heart my poor poor heart............

HELLO SPARKS TIS I, HERE FOR THE SHOUTING BECAUSE I HAVE MUCH TO SHOUT ABOUT

oh my god Grian. I am BEGGING the three of them to work out their feelings GRIAN IS MAKING A NEST. COME ON. And then the BAKING TOGETHER the cooking and the baking. The fact that they only really get into cookking and baking together because Scar got bored and did something with a guaranteed failure [stacking a mug on top of a bag of powdered sugar come ON scar. And then the peppers and the entire process of both making the omelet and the bread and the banter and the fact that i can so clearly picture the veggie grumbot and jellie. It is so clear in my mind. Everything about that scene is so soft im,,,, emotional. Them. The fact that this is probably the first homemade meal theyve had recently that didn't suck ass tbh. GOD

THE BRACE SCENE IS MAKING ME INSANE BTW,,, I wont like. go into it in your ask box unless you want me to but I have this whole thing about how disability is inherently intimate and your relationships with your loved ones are inherently closer because you depend on them for help and DFLGKJHFSG THE BRAAAAAAAACE IT LEANS IN TO THE WORLDVIEW I HOLD SO NEAR AND DEAR TO MY CHEST!!!!! Mumbo wants to heeeeeeeelp. AND THEY'RE DANCING, AND SCAR IS ABLE TO SUPPORT HIS WEIGHT AND SLKDFGHASDFLKHSAKHLGH I am emotional about disabled scar. I am in my emotions. I'm. god i just want them to REALIZE THEIR EMOTIONS PLEASE AND THANK YOU OH MY GODDDDDDD. I AM RATTLING IN A CAGE LOOKING AT THIS LIKE. NO. IT DOESNT HAVE TO BE ROMANTIC. BUT GODDDDDD. GOOOOOOOOOOOOOD. Mumbo getting to use his engineering skills to make a mobility aid for this man that he loves all because he wants to help im QAQ I AM IN A GLASS CASE OF EMOTION

everyone is having complicated emotions about everyone else and im so hear for it but im also RATTLING ALL OF THEM TO JUST SIT DOWN AND TALK IT OUT I KNOW THATS NOT HOW HUMANS WORK AND THEYLL GET THERE BUT AAAAAAAAAAAAAH

oh my god and the brief little scene we get at the Tailors is so. I am so. I am feeling so normal about it. I know you're reading rift au rn so you've seen the tailor scene in that but i have Feelings about people buying custom clothes for their loved ones its so ENDEARING AUGH. bring back tailors.

Let 👏Bdubs👏Drive👏 hes a perfectly good driver they all made it there in one piece idk what anyone has to complain about 😤Its so in character for him to be a bad driver thats so funny tbh.

GOD AND THEN EVERYTHING ABOUT THIS SCENE. Like yeah Pearls there, her and grian get a reunion. JIMMYS THERE- THEY WANT TO HELP! The way Scott takes his job as a journalist so seriously is so endearing im YEEEES. The fact that he respects Mumbo's boundary that he doesnt want to talk to the press and then mumbo decides 'no actually i want to help my,,,,,friend'. THE RELENTLESS TEASING FROM PEARL. THE FACT THAT SHE ATTACKS SCAR WHEN HE COMES INTO THE ROOM. I LOVE PEARL SHES NEVER DONE ANYTHING WRONG IN HER LIFE. The health potion thing making a comeback. Can you tell my thoughts about this scene are very scrambled i am feeling MANY THINGS in regards to this im LFHKSDFHKL. LOOK AT THEM YOUR HONOR. JUST. WAVES HANDS I AM IN MY EMOTIONS. I am on the edge of my SEAT to see how the general public reacts to the message. I want them to take down the HA im on mumbo and scar's side here but GRIAN BEING EMOTIONAL ABOUT THINKING ABOUT KIDS LOOKING UP TO HIM IM. YEEEEEEEES. RATTLING HIM AROUND.

jimmy timmy jimmy timmy jimmy tim- i love them. I just always love their dynamic tbh. And Pearl and Grian preening each other - the fact that Mumbo doesnt actually know how importnat it is, the fact that pearl bullies it OUT of mumbo that he HAS preened Grian, the fact that pearl keeps teasing grian about his very evident crushes im. THIS CHAPTER IS SO GOOOOD

AUGH god. I love gihasm so much just look at all the character interaction it is So Good.

BELLE!!!!!! HI BELLE HI!!! i am so excited for this

ayy you captured my one sentence about him making a nest! hehehe i didn't want to emphasize it bc i think grian wouldn't want to think too hard on why he had to sleep between two pillows, but yep, he was basically building a little nest.

i made a post about this but honestly food needs to be a love language onto its own: its gift giving, its quality time, its acts of service, its love. slowly but surely grian is seeing a new side of scar :)

PLEASE GO ON ABOUT THAT DUDE!!! literally please go on. i probably wont go into it but scar in my au doesnt like his wheelchair, its why he goes on a crutch so often despite having both options. so he appreciates mumbo's help and warm hands ;) I had made a post thinking about them dancing and originally i was going to save it just for the party but i thought this would be sweeter, more intimate to just dance in your socks in your home with one of the two loves of your life, yknow?

yknow, i added "slowburn" a few months ago to gihasm. you cant blame me, i warned yall!!! <3 but yeah theyll get there :) i just gotta figure out what feels natural to them.

oh belle. you don't know what i have planned for next chapter with their clothes :)

i just. love the idea that scar is a literal criminal, but wont break traffic laws by driving without a license. he just lets bdubs drive and pays people off when he gets into an accident (couldn't he just get himself a license as mayor? he hasnt thought that far)

journalism is really important to me bc one of my undergrad degrees basically trained me as a background/ tech production person for news stations. Journalists have a very important job as the fourth estate, and i never want to play into bad stereotypes. investigative journalism gets people killed-- scott is putting himself in danger by taking on this mission, but he knows that its important that people have all the facts to have an informed opinion. anyways SUPPORT LOCAL JOURNALISM!!!!

timmy :) i made a whole post about how i see scott and jimmys relationship a while ago and its funny that i keep having to say this but him and jimmy arent dating either. but theyre emotionally very involved with each other. Theyre exactly like scar/grian/mumbo, except they know they like each other. i love writing complicated relationships. they have the best communication between all three main/side relationships though, considering theyve talked about dating but cant, given the circumstances my guide to writing pearl:

>bullies grian

>observant

>silly

anywayanywaysanyways, aaaa belle you always make me so happy with your long essays, a double TRIPLE thank you for reading the chapter before i published it and reassuring me. i love ya!!! <3 <3 <3