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accio-victuuri · 15 days
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here we go again with rumors of yibo’s next project 🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️
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bee-s-honey · 3 years
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This is for the f/os thoughts on you thing. Could you please do Hisoka?
I'm a girl, aLibra, and an INTP, though on some tests I've gotten INFP. I'm short, just shy of 5'3". I'm not very pretty, and I'm a little overweight. I have medium length dark brown hair that is curly and brown eyes. I like to dress in darker clothes most of the time, usually a t shirt, sweatpants, and a hoodie/jacket. Ngl i dress like shit, but if I had the clothes and body I wanted I believe I’d have a great fashion sense and look. And if I’m dressing up for something with what I do have, I don’t look that bad. I would dress nicer on the daily if I had the time and energy for it. I rarely ever wear makeup for the same reasons I don’t put effort into dressing, thus i don't know how to do it well. The most I can do is smudged eyeliner and stage makeup. I wish I was better at it tho.
I'm really like Anime, though i just got back into it after two years not watching. My favorite animes (out of the ones I've watched all the way through so far, I'm sure this list will be different when I watch more) are HxH, Death Note, Soul Eater and Black Butler. My favs from those last three were Ryuk, Crona/Stein and Grell. I’m currently watching Jojos, Revolutionary Girl Utena, FLCL, Hellsing, AOT and Inuyasha. Some of my favorite movies are Howls Moving Castle, Inglorious Bastards, The Perks of Being a Wallflower, The Sandlot, the Kill Bill movies, and Jojo Rabbit. I also like musicals, my favorites of those are Great Comet of 1812, Chicago, Cabaret, A Chorus Line, and Hadestown.
I really enjoy drawing, and i mostly draw fanart of whatever media franchise i like atm. My art isn't stellar, but it's not absolute crap either. I really want to get better, but it’s been hard. I’d lost the motivation to draw for like a full year but it’s coming back and I’m very excited because I have a lot of ideas! I'd also like to start animating one day. I can also play the guitar and piano.
I daydream a lot. It's made worse by the fact that i usually don't ever get enough sleep on the weekdays, im constantly zoning out. I’m up in my own head a lot of the time. I don't think too highly of myself, but i try not to self deprecating either. It flip flops all the time between intense confidence and intense self hatred. I don't talk to my friends a lot, and i don't hang out with them much either. I don't have a best friend. I'm pretty bad at speaking to people in general. I'm no good at making conversation and am usually awkward if i keep trying too. I talk to myself a lot, when I'm alone it's normal speaking but if I'm around other people sometimes I'll still mutter under my breath. I'm a quiet person. I don't put myself in the spotlight, however, I can usually handle being in it. I tend to procrastinate a lot and have a hard time with motivation, especially in school. I have big ideas for what I could do with my life and projects i wanna work on but it's so hard for me to just do it y'know. I really envy people with fierce determination, people with a defined goal in life and people who are sure of who they are. I don’t really know who I am and I can’t choose who I want to be and it kinda pisses me off.
Characters like Hisoka are usually my favorite. Loud or striking personality, makes themselves noticable/just is noticable, flamboyant, intelligent and skilled, the antagonist/morally grey leaning black, stuff like that. I like how unpredictable he is, everything he does in the series is so interesting the first time you watch it you're always wary of what he might do next. He's an extremely well written character. I like his style and his magician schtick too. Characters with an unorthodox way of thinking/doing things/motivations are usually the most interesting to me. Also uuuhhhh yeah he's hot.
Sorry if this is too long!
It's not too long, never could be! Thank you for the detail. I'll work on your second one that you sent in as well but it might post after this idk- ah god this one seems so mean because I don't have the 2 others to soften the worst blow 😭 oh well your next two will be better you just gotta wait a lil, it makes this one seem so targeted I'm sorry
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At first he would think you're kind of pathetic honestly- he doesn't go for people who don't have any flourishing, ever growing, determination for something; but I do think that he would find how in your own world and kind of out of spotlight you are to be interesting. Of course at the right time you might create some sort of hit and he would find you fun to play with to an extent, and the only possibility of it turning into a real romantic love is if you spent an overwhelming amount of time together, but It could happen in a sort of completely-unexpected and out of character way for you both.
He does like a challenge, and while there's certain things you lack, there's at least something that provides this open quest for breaking or solving: he would love to see who you can become! You mentioned that you can't choose and don't know who you are, so he would make it a game/challenge to change some part of that. Your sort of introverted personality might make it even more fun in certain aspects
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psychoticwillgraham · 7 years
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in the dark
Title: in the dark
Rating: idk?? its fairly gory tho
Words: idk?? its a lot tho
Pairing: Darkiplier/Antisepticeye
Warnings: gore, torture, general horror stuff, eye horror, vomiting
Author’s Note: this is for the lovely nonny who suggested ‘dark and anti meeting’. it was only supposed to be a quick drabble but i wanted to do a proper fic for it. hope you enjoy! also i just love writing gore. also sorry about the abrupt ending im awful at endings.
“Wake up darling. It’s time to play.”
Anti came to with a start as he felt a burning pain in his arm. He didn’t quite recognize the voice, but it seemed familiar in a way. It sounded like a friend of Jack’s, only smoother and much lower. All he could think about was the pain and the fact that he couldn’t move at all. He blearily opened his eyes and was greeted by the sight of someone familiar illuminated only by a single light bulb. The man looked like Mark, only paler with eyeliner and wearing a crisp, clean suit. Was this someone pretending to be him? He wasn’t sure, but all of a sudden there was another stabbing pain.
“Fuck!’ Anti cried out in surprise.
“Maybe you should learn to pay attention to me, hmm?” the strange man cooed.
“How about you tell me who the fuck you are and what the hell is going on,” Anti screamed.
“You should learn to respect your elders, you insolent brat,” the man sneered.
Anti had had enough by this point. He ignored the pain and tried to lunge at the man, but couldn’t due to his restraints.
“Feisty, aren’t you? I’m going to cut to the chase. Your friend, Mark, is no longer here. You see, I’m an ancient being of sorts who just happened to choose your little friend here as my earthly vessel. Now why am I here you ask? It’s simple. I’m here to find someone who’s capable of being on my level. A sort of partner in crime if you must ask. I’ve heard that there was a certain powerful demon in this area so I had to investigate. I didn’t think it’d be one Mark’s best friends, but here we are,” he said.
“So what do you call yourself?” Anti asked.
“Darkiplier. But you may call me Dark for short,” Dark grinned.
“So why the hell am I restrained? And why am I injured?” Anti questioned.
“For the fun of course!” Dark beamed.
“What the hell does that-,” Anti started.
But before he could finish his sentence, Dark stepped forward and brandished a knife, plunging it into Anti’s hand. He screamed in agony as blood welled from the wound and burned. But Dark didn’t stop. He twisted the knife around, making sure to scrape the bones in his hand to maximize the pain. It’s like he knew exactly where to move it. 
“This is going to be such a fun night. As long as you cooperate of course. Otherwise I’ll have to punish you,” Dark said giddily.
He then stepped back towards a tray of various surgical tools which Anti hadn’t known was there. Dark grinned as he pulled a surgical scalpel from the table and moved towards Anti’s uninjured hand.
“Now for this next part, I’ll need you to be very still. After all, we don’t want to make a mess now do we?” Dark said.
Anti wondered what that meant until he felt the an agonizing pain starting at his fingers. He saw Dark slowly skinning his fingers, being careful along the way. Anti tried to stay still, but the overwhelming pain made him jerk forward, causing the blade to slip further down his hand. It only sliced away more skin and all Anti could do was scream. He looked up at Dark’s face, seeing nothing but pure excitement and joy. Dark smiled at him as he dragged the blade across his hand, stripping away more bits of skin. 
“Now what did I say about being very still? You were very bad, so now I have to punish you,” Dark tsked.
“What, you’re not gonna give me any anesthesia for whatever you’re gonna do?” Anti said mockingly.
All Dark did was frown and grab the fingers on his skinned hand. All of a sudden, he pulled them back quickly and forced them to bend in an unnatural angle. Anti let out a piercing scream as his fingers were continuously pulled back further and further to the point of breaking. Then, his fingers broke, causing Anti to let out another cry of pain.
“Now have you learned your lesson?” Dark said as he finally released Anti’s fingers. 
“Nope. Give me all you’ve got. I can take it,” Anti said confidently.
“Fine. We’ll see how you like this next one,” Dark said, annoyed.
Anti knew he could take whatever this bastard threw at him, so he mentally prepared for the worst. He tried to take his mind off of the raw, skinned left hand, the broken fingers, and the two stab wounds he’d suffered. He could take the pain, but he knew Jack’s body couldn’t. Anti wondered just much Jack’s frail body could take. Before he could think of anything else, Dark was in front of him again, this time wielding a simple spoon.
“What are you gonna do with that, scoop my eye out?” Anti laughed.
Dark smiled and said nothing. He inched closer to Anti’s face, stopping just near his right eye. He slowly brought his hand up to Anti’s eye, and pried open his eyelid. All Anti could do was prepare himself and try to fight against the restraints. He tried to move his head backward, but Dark’s other hand immediately encircled his throat, and squeezed as hard as he could.
“Now stay the fuck still damn it!” Dark yelled.
Anti was struggling for breath as Dark brought the spoon closer to his eye. Then, Anti felt a strange sensation. It was like an enormous pressure in his eye socket that just continued to build. He could feel the spoon slipping under his eyeball, hitting the optical nerve. He could barely see anything out of the eye, only faint blurry shapes. Anti could hear Dark huffing and groaning as he tried to sever the nerve. He was sure that his eye was popped all of the way out of the socket by this point, but his suspicion was confirmed when Dark released his throat and walked back to the table. Using his good eye, he could see that there was something dangling on the side of his face. Before he could do anything else, he heard Dark walking back towards him and felt cold metal on his eye.
“Right there ought to do it,” Dark whispered.
That’s when Anti saw something pop into Dark’s other hand. He realized, through all the pain, that it was his own eye, free from the socket.
“There we go. Now open up darling,” Dark cooed once more.
As Dark’s hand grabbed opened his mouth, Anti decided to fight back by biting down hard on Dark’s hand. That was definitely a mistake, he quickly realized. Dark drew his hand back in shock, and grew angry.
“So now you’re deciding to be bold hmm? Well let’s see how you like this!” Dark snarled as he thrust the blade towards Anti’s face.
Anti reeled back and screamed from the resulting collision of the blade against his left cheek. He could feel warm blood oozing from the deep cut. Anti became angry and tried to lunge forward, only to be stopped by the restraints. In frustration, he raised his head and spit in Dark’s face. Dark grew even angrier and and dropped the blade, bringing both hands to Anti’s throat, squeezing mercilessly.
“How dare you do that to me? Someone who’s far more powerful and older than you? All I wanted was to play with you, gauge your strength, and put you through absolute hell to see if I could break you! And you just go and spit in my face? You deserve death for this, you insufferable brat!” Dark screamed angrily.
Anti was genuinely afraid now, gasping for breath as Dark’s hands tightened further around his neck. He quietly wondered if this was it. The last thing he saw was Dark’s scowling face as he passed out.
When he came to, Anti could feel something in his mouth. He bit down experimentally, and discovered that it was soft and round. With a lurch, he realized it was his own eye. Before he could spit it out, Dark’s hand was clamped around his mouth.
“Don’t spit it out just yet, you still need to eat it as punishment for lashing out at me. I realize that I lost my cool there, but I promise it won’t happen again. Now chew for me,” Dark said soothingly.
Chewing was the last thing Anti wanted to do, but he obeyed and started to chew. He immediately lurched forward as the eyeball burst in his mouth. Dark’s hand fell from his mouth as he vomited on himself, retching up everything in his stomach. Dark seemed pleased with himself as he saw Anti retching and coughing. Anti looked so beautiful like that, Dark thought. Blood caked on his face and hands, shivering in fear. He realized that he was getting too attached to this feisty demon, but maybe it could work out. Dark waited for him to stop vomiting, and approached him once more, grabbing Anti’s chin in his hand.
“Now that I’ve established my dominance, let’s say you tell me what your name is and maybe we can start to get along and work together,” Dark said calmly.
“Fine you fucking bastard,” Anti sneered as he recovered from the vomiting.
“It’s Anti. And you better not forget it you asshole.”
Dark smiled as he kissed Anti’s bloody face.
“Nice to finally meet you Anti. Now let’s get to know each other a little better, hmm?”
Anti knew this wasn’t going to end well in the long run, but he had to admit that Dark was somewhat charming. After all, he was stuck with him for the time being so he might as well make the most of it.
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gontagokuhara · 7 years
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me and @thisiswhatmylifeamountsto created a boyfriend for jared kleinman and here he is
lgbtrucy: idea: jared has the Biggest crush on one of his online gamer friends and while literally Everyone is aware hes gay (he told them all himself he wants them all to Know) he would rather die than admit he likes this online friendconnor finds out by accident. it turns wild
thisiswhatmylifeamountsto: Dude yes ((((((GAYmer friend)))))))) Nope you
*Nope you’re committed to this now - how does Connor find out? 
lgbtrucy: and i feel like jared has connor and evan over around his place and theyre playing something online and jared’s friend comes on and jared’s immediately like “evan give the controller to connor i cant look like my friends are bad at video games"and connor is like >:) whats this
and he isnt horrible at video games, he just doesnt rly care about them (and jared Knows This) so when connor starts playing the worst he’s ever played jared is pissed
lgbtrucy: “connor what the hell man, you’re making me look like shit, knock it off!!”
evan eventually catches on and he and connor just start. making the fuck out in the middle of the game and jared has to get his headset on and apologize to his friend
“dude im so sorry my co-op is making out with his boyfriend IN MY ROOM, WHICH IS REALLY FUCKING WEIRD CONNOR, anyways sorry but hes the only one here that can play w me”
lgbtrucy: and connor is a smug asshole so hes like “oh who you talking to jared??” and jared goes red as hell and is like “no one just a friend online—you Were playing against him until you started fucking evan on my bedroom floor”
and the tiniest, giggliest “hot” comes from the headset and In That Moment, evan and connor pledge themselves to hooking jared up w this mysterious gamer boy who is so obviously perfect for jared
thisiswhatmylifeamountsto: THIS IS SO GOOD IM CACKLING AND CRYING Please tell me more about the adventures of Jared and mysterious gamer boy
lgbtrucy: ok So jared and mystery boy
lgbtrucy: his name is elliot, he’s half-korean, and i love him
lgbtrucy: hes goofy and more conventionally funny as opposed to jared, who’s funny by being kind of mean and using crude humor
lgbtrucy: anyways later on, evan is over at connor’s house and they break out connor’s scarcely-used xbox and send a friend request to elliot
once theyre friends, they sort of keep up appearences for a little while, playing games with him and eventually moving into text chatting and talking on headsets (connor had to spend $50 on a new headset. he was not pleased)
lgbtrucy: and one day they not-so-casually let slip the fact that they were “the guys who were fucking on jared’s floor” (evan nearly choked when elliot said that) and elliot is like !! “no way!! you guys are friends with jared?”
lgbtrucy: and because evan is a #good friend hes talking jared up “oh yeah jared is like my best friend, he’s so funny and cool and really good at video games” and elliots just “yeah, i know right” all dreamily and connor + evan know their plan is gonna Work
lgbtrucy: and connor says “maybe you two should meet up or something, i heard theres a convention or whatever near here this weekend” and elliot is like “!!heck yeah i just gotta ask my mom”
lgbtrucy: fastforward to the con: connor and evan are being dragged around by jared while he shows off excitedly but he suddenly halts when connor calls out, “hey, elliot.”
lgbtrucy: and jared doesnt know what elliot looks like. he doesnt know that its him officially. the only reason connor and evan know is bc they traded numbers and selfies so they could find each other
and elliot yells back “hey connor! hey evan!” and jared Knows because he knows his voice and he is ready to Die and break evan’s other arm
lgbtrucy: because evan Knows hes gay and even if he would rather cut off his own foot than admit he actually Likes elliot, evan knew that he thought really highly of him and What The Fuck evan???
lgbtrucy: and elliot approaches and looks at jared all smiles and asks him “jared?” and jared just kind of dazedly nods and elliot Lights Up and hugs him (jared nearly collapses) and is like “oh my god man im so excited to meet you!!!! i was looking forward to this all week since evan and connor told me about this!!!” and jared gives them A Look but hes lowkey happy
thisiswhatmylifeamountsto: Honestly this was all I ever wanted wow
lgbtrucy: so the four of them walk around the con, connor and evan kinda trailing behind because elliot is talking to jared about the mechanics behind some game they both like and how calculating the math of it made him really good, and it helps him w his adhd, and theyre all happy and gay(jared gets elliots number later)(and the rest is history) in conclusion im very passionate about jared and his gamer bf
thisiswhatmylifeamountsto: That was beautiful I also applaud your dedication I am also v passionate about Jared and his gamer boyfriend tbh
lgbtrucy: #givejaredaboyfriend2k17
thisiswhatmylifeamountsto: Now that is a cause I can get behind I’m kinda laughing at imagining gamer bf finding out about jared’s obsession with bath bombs
lgbtrucy: jared whispers “love the cronch” and everyone else loses it but elliot is just ?? “what????”
lgbtrucy: its explained to him and more than anything hes confused about why he would waste a $10 bath bomb by eating it
thisiswhatmylifeamountsto: Honestly so am I Wtf Jared But just think about Connor embarrassing Jared as much as possible 
Because like He’s done the nice bit by getting them to meet And now he can be a little shit
lgbtrucy: “dear elliot cho we’ve been way too out of touch  life has been crazy and it sucks that we dont talk that much. but i should tell you that i think of you each night; i rub my nipples and start moaning in delight” “CONNOR WHAT THE F U C K NO”
thisiswhatmylifeamountsto: I’M CRYING NO I CAN’T THAT WORKS SO WELL
lgbtrucy: while jared is Suffering elliot is just delighted at how cute he is “dont be embarrassed man its cute!!”
thisiswhatmylifeamountsto: ((((((Dammit why am I so attached to this fictional fictional character))))) Also On the list of things I want for no particular reason Alana + Elliot brotp
lgbtrucy: YES they both talk a lot but theyre both very on par with each other intelligence wise so it balances out??
thisiswhatmylifeamountsto: Yes yes yes 
They do that thing where they both speak over each other a lot but they’re both happy because they’re enjoying what they’re talking about Plus Elliot is the one who gets her to call her friends her friends instead of her acquaintances
lgbtrucy: ye hes a good influence on everybody but everybody is Not a good influence on him
thisiswhatmylifeamountsto: Tell me more?
lgbtrucy: connor gets him high and he nearly drowns himself trying to race connor in a swimming contest
lgbtrucy: jared fucks his sense of humor for good. everytime someone mentions the word “dick” he laughs for ten minutes straigh
tzoe convinces him to dye his hair baby pink. she messes up the dying process and he ends up with electric pink hair
evan and alana are the only good influences 
tbhthisiswhatmylifeamountsto: So far he’s got bright pink hair, laughing at dicks and drowning Amazing ((((OK but Jared being a little shit all the time But when Elliot thinks he’s going to far He gives Jared a look Like a LOOK And Jared is sort of like Oh shit OK That was pretty fucked up Sorry))))
lgbtrucy: yes!! he uses that look a Lot when connor and jared are in the same room
thisiswhatmylifeamountsto: Oh yeah definitely But one time Jared, Connor, Elliot and Evan are together for a while And Elliot doesn’t have to use the look once And he’s really damn impressed
lgbtrucy: jared gets an extra round of smorches. jared decides he likes that better than fucking w connor
thisiswhatmylifeamountstoYes But Connor is really confused??? Because like Sure Jared’s better with Elliot But suddenly he’s a downright angel??? And it’s weird But one day when Connor is feeling like shit Jared genuinely helps him out And Connor doesn’t care what happened It happened And it’s good
lgbtrucy: they still fuck w each other but its more lighthearted 
nowthisiswhatmylifeamountsto: Like more “Hey I’m kinda being mean to you but it’s ok because we both know we love each other But in a heterosexual way Because we would never date Ever No Stop thinking about it" 
Honestly Elliot sometimes questioned whether he should wonder if Jared was cheating on him but he A) trusted Jared B) could see how in love Connor was with Evan
lgbtrucy: he realizes even tho theyre being nicer to each other they could never date. they get caught at evans house together when a bad storm hits and they have to stay overnight and by the time they leave theyre beginning to go at each others throats so. no chemistry there
thisiswhatmylifeamountsto: Accurate Wait crap what about the Evan + Elliot brotp
lgbtrucy: they get along rly well honestly theyre good influences
elliot has adhd so he Knows how it feels when things become too much nd they can bond over similar experiences
lgbtrucy: good friends 10/10 would brotp
thisiswhatmylifeamountsto: I feel like their friendship is really pure Like half the time their conversations are just a bunch of compliments thrown at each other? Honestly I’m convinced that Elliot is my fave and this is really bad
lgbtrucy: elliot is the unproblematic fave
he just likes video games and his friends and his bf
thisiswhatmylifeamountsto: ok but Elliot not having any close friends He’s that guy who chats to everyone but has noone to confide in etc And then he finds some online But it’s still not the same And suddenly he has five??? And like They all really like him Like obviously he knew Jared And he got to know Connor and Evan But Zoe and Alana love him too And I’m just such trash for this au wow
lgbtrucy: ELLIOT LOVES ALL OF HIS BEST FRIENDS
when someone asks who his bff is he cant choose"oh man i dont know!! i love all my friends the same theyre all really great” (crying boyfriend sounds in the distance)
thisiswhatmylifeamountsto: Honestly every time Elliot does something really sweet/pure/nice Jared cannot handle it At all Because !!!! MY !!!!!!!! BOYFRIEND !!!!! HE’S SO CUTE But going back to drunk Jared Imagine drunk Jared with sober Elliot
lgbtrucy: "HI DID YOU KNOW I LOVE MY BOYFRIEND ELLIOT HES REALLY NICE AND CUTE AND R ES LLY GOOD AT VIDEO GAMES”
lgbtrucy: “o….oh really?” elliot is dying blushing at this point
“YEA HES REALLY GOOD DID YOU KNOW HE USES MATH AND SHIT TO PLAY VIDEO GAMES? IT SOUNDS LAME BUT HES RESLLY GOOD. AND ALSO VERY CUTE DID I MENTION I LOVE MY BOYFRIEJD HIS NAME IS ELLIOT”
someone (probably connor or zoe) is recording at this point. evan is near tears lauging. elliot is In Love
thisiswhatmylifeamountsto: When Jared watches the video in the morning he gets really nervous because he hasn’t seen Elliot that morning But when he does “So I hear you have a boyfriend named Elliot and he’s really cute? Interestingly enough I have a boyfriend named Jared’s who’s really cute - look how much we have in common” And Jared dies
lgbtrucy: DHSHSHS YES THATS SO CUTE (connor posts the video. it goes semi-viral. jared dies for a different reason)
thisiswhatmylifeamountsto: (Jared moans that he’s lost all of his street cred Nobody has the heart to tell him he never had any in the first place) OK but how often do Jared and Elliot so they’re going on a date And then the next day everyone finds out the ‘date’ consisted of beating each other at every single video game either of them owned
lgbtrucy: elliot is always swooning over these “super romantic” dates and everyone is like ??? jared?? ROMANTIC??? and its a big thing trying to find out just what jared and elliot do
turns out these romantic dates are playing video games for 10 hours and then going to mcdonalds at 3 am and sharing a milkshake
thisiswhatmylifeamountsto: Like when they find out everybody sort of wonders why they expected anything else 
They met in person at a con through a shared love for video games after about three months of planning because neither of them wanted to make a move
lgbtrucy: elliot, unironically: jared is the most romantic person in the world everyone: that sounds fake but ok
thisiswhatmylifeamountsto: But I feel like Jared would be a really attentive bf Like he actually pays attention to what’s going on in Elliot’s life Like the day he has a big exam he has everything 100% prepared to congratulate him/cheer him up depending on how it went
lgbtrucy: hes a really good bf but only like…..secretly. he has to keep up his Insanely Cool Jared Kleinman appearance
physical affection is where he hesitates tho hes v awkward with holding hands/kissing/cuddling. elliot has to initiate all of it
thisiswhatmylifeamountsto: Elliot so called him that once to make fun of him but it’s stuck now and they can’t get Jared to stop coming into a room announcing himself as the INSANELY COOL JARED KLEINMAN 
Elliot felt awkward about it first because he wasn’t sure whether Jared was comfortable with it and he didn’t want to make Jared feel bad But then they have a long, way-overdue talk and work out how things are gonna work
lgbtrucy: its not from a lack of interest that jared doesnt initiate it he just. where do u put ur hands. is it weird to just kiss ur bf randomly. fuck evan was right hands DO get sweaty abd [panic alarm] but as soon as elliot touches him hes like “nice” and is totally into it
thisiswhatmylifeamountsto: OK honestly I’m so sad that Elliot doesn’t exist he’s literally Jared’s ideal boyfriend this is such a travesty
lgbtrucy: make elliot famous
THE ELLIOT PROJECT
except its me posting at 2 am about how much i love him
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kpopimagines222 · 7 years
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what type of wedding would Mingyu, Seungkwan, and Vernon have? also where would they take you on the honeymoon? and how would your first time be with them?
Omgomgomg I love this request; I felt inspired and just had to do it. I kind of want to start writing again, but answering questions this way~.
Seungkwan:-Proposes randomly, like its a joke.-Probably when he’s cleaning or cooking for you.-Says something like “I’m such an amazing boyfriend, you should marry me so I can show you how an amazing husband I can be.”-BUT he really means it and after you laugh, he tells you.-So you decide to marry.-Shows off every second that you will marry him.-Won’t help much with preparations just because he doesn’t know how.-He would answer every question you do to him tho.-He wants a reaaaally big party.-Your party is literally the best.-Started at 12 pm, finished at 7 am the next day.-You would rest some days to recover before travelling.-He would take you to Disneyland, probably, and some days to the beach after it.-It wouldn’t be a long trip.-No doubts it would be super fun.-About the first time, it would be the day after your wedding night. -After the party and all.-Super cutE.-He always seem so confident but he’s actually so insecure about if he’s doing right.-Will always ask you.-Wouldn’t touch you very much, but kiss you a lot.-He would go for the kids inmediatly.
Vernon:[Im screaming here.]-So you are in a normal night, cuddling in the bed after a long day.-And suddenly: “Would you marry me? I mean hipothetically, If I asked you, would you say yes?”-And you’re like YES.-“So… would you actually marry me?”-And takes out the ring from under your pillow.-Wouldn’t want something big for the party. -But he would let you choose everything since all he wants is you being happy.-So he’s okay with whatever you like.-I can see him marrying in November/Decemer.-Type to magically dissapear from the party to take an aereoplane.-Would take you to United States.-Probably spend New Years Eve in NY to kiss you for the first time as your husband in Squear Time. [so romantic Im dying]-Long trip, like a month long.-First time would be on the first night when you arrived to the hotel.-Super sweet and vainilla.-Loves to stroke you and kiss you.-A lot of eye contact and “I love you"s.-Would want to wait a bit to have kids but wouldn’t take care either.
Mingyu:-Romantic proposal.-He asks the Vocal line for help.-Wants them to sing "Marry Me”.-Dressing really good.-You come home after a tiring day and hear voices coming from the backyard.-and he’s there kneeling with the ring-When the song’s over he just says “will you”?-Average party-Wouldn’t be huge but there would be a good amount of people.-You will have a lot of fun.-He would dance a lot with you and won’t let you go for a second.-Honeymoon would be some weeks after.-Wants to take you to Europe, but lets you choose where.-You would be turist af almost forgetting you’re just married because you’re too excited with the trip.-But then he holds your hand in a museum and your soul falls to your feet because its true snd you’re not dreaming.-The mood for the first time would be set in a random night of the honeymoon.-You would arrive to the hotel and trow yourself to the bed.-And he would lay by your side and give you cute pecks-that turn into long kisses-and then to a make out session-and suddenly without almost realising you’re making love-So deep and pleasuring-Makes sure you’re alright but he’s not as soft as the other two-He prefers action-talks a lot about wanting to have a baby but wants to wait for him and not force him to come.
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Episode #7: “This Is What I Get For Putting My Trust In Cute Boys” - Colin
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Me: I'm gonna teach my student not to be like me! They're not gonna be first boot or the last boot before merge... 
Lauren: *Gets voted out one round before the merge* 
Me: K....
 In conclusion I flopped as a mentor! But this isn't entirely bad, hopefully I can find something at reflection island that can help and I'm also beating my ugly Sri Lanka placement by being there so :) As of right now I feel confident in where I am. I have the girl alliance of me, QuilLynn, Willow and Lily and then I feel pretty confident with Jackson and Ryan, and then I think I can make something work with Colin so we'll see! I'm just so happy to have made merge oh my gosh.
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Lauren's gone! The vote was 2 - 3. I have Jackson and Colin believing that I voted with them, when really I changed my vote last minute so that they'd think big tuna flipped. I want them to trust me more than her, so labelling her as untrustworthy oughtta do it. I didn't wanna break ties completely with the girls on the other side if they saw a unanimous vote against Lauren. Damage control time ladies!
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ok... so last tribal.... I got 2 votes.... when it should have been unanimous. I know it was either Chelsea or Danielle who voted me, and honestly??? Whoever did, props to them bc it created so much paranoia and distrust among the tribe and now at merge. They were prob thinking ahead and it makes sense looking back now. My gut is telling me Danielle wouldn't risk something like that but whomst knows. Also I just inherently don't trust Chelsea bc she seems shady. anYWAY. WE MADE MERGE WOOOO! IM LITERALLY... SO HAPPY. I honestly didn't think I'd be able to make merge in a main season,  I flop in high stakes games, but I'm doing that! I made it!!! It's wayyy more tense and strategic at this point in the game but it's exciting!! 
 SOME MERGE FUN FACTS FOR YALL: 
~There are 4 student/mentor pairs left in the game (Nicholas/Danielle, Ryan/Jackson, Willow/QuilLynn, and Chelsea/Gage) 
~I am the only person still in the game currently to have multiple votes cast against them over the course of the season 
~From the dissolved tribes (using this bc that's the tribe period that probably has the most tribe loyalty since we were on these tribes the longest), there are 7 OG NuKaldfjorden, and 6 OG NuErsfjorden 
~There are 8 students and 5 mentors remaining 
~And finally, the percentage of fake hoes remaining in this game is at 100%.
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Well. Losing Lauren wasn't the best....I never like my alliances splitting up. But I'm my really sure if I could have done anything to save her. I really do wish she was here tho and would have made merge. I think willow QuilLynn Christine and I can still be a good group. And honestly knowing that we want to be top 4 together is real helpful. Most people are saying jack but I think Danielle is the smart move. I've got gage Chelsea and Colin for sure. And QuilLynn is down so it's just on convincing willow that it's the best play. I know she is probably nervous because there aren't a lot of mentors. But Danielle must have a lot of advantages. We need to blindside her and she wouldn't see it coming I don't think. We will see what happens! 
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I heard the vote is gonna be between me and Danielle, so I'm probably out, but the choice is obvious.
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So.... I think I'm starting to get fucked in this game for really no reason that I can see. Andreas went home, which i wasn't crazy happy with but things happen. We lost yet again and Lauren was the easy vote there, seeming to be the case and her leaving wouldn't cause any drama. Well the vote turns out to be 3-2, 2 being for Colin and I'm sugar shocked. I couldn't believe that. Then, Chelsea has the audacity to pin it on me? Sister, you must not know who you are dealing with. She plays this game like she's a fucking god well guess what? You aren't. Her and Jackson are running this game and it's fucking aggravating to watch. Ryan doesn't want to do anything about it because Jackson is his student but like... being in this game with them running it is getting to be really annoying. Are we handing them the game here? Now Jack is going to be leaving and that's someone else that I could have worked with, my game is slowly starting to dwindle because I'm playing with Ryan. He can't make a move against them but I'm starting to not have any allies but him lolllllll. Oh well. 
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so the target is danielle now instead of jack. i'm happy with seeing her leave. I also want ryan and a few other mentors gone, I'm a lil worried they might be able to take control. also drewbert is my new fav host.
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Hi I'm Jackson and this is my fifth confessional. Things have gotten pretty crazy. They always say the merge tribal is a shitshow, but for some reason I thought it'd be easier. The general consensus seemed to be that people wanted Jack out - after all, JD is on exile, and she's the only person as suspicious (and as close) to him. Which just leaves him. But Lily is itching to make a big move, and so, apparently, is Gage. They're pushing for Danielle to be voted out, which surprises me coming from Gage - the mentors shouldn't be so quick to target each other considering their numbers disadvantage! But either way, I wouldn't hate to see Danielle go. She probably has at least one idol piece, and the fact that last tribal was a 3-2 vote for Lauren instead of a 4-1 makes me nervous that I shouldn't completely trust her. I think she's a desperate player who will say anything to anyone. While I'm here, let's talk about that 3-2 vote. Colin knows I didn't vote for him because I had told him and Chelsea that my voting confessional was going to be a hiss, and it was. Colin didn't self vote, so that leaves just Chelsea and Danielle. I can see motives for both of them to flip. Chelsea might've saw me getting close to Danielle and wanted to split us up by creating distrust, thus her vote for Colin. I think Colin believes this is the truth, and honestly, I can't really blame him. Chelsea did make sure to mention several times that Danielle's vote makes her less trustworthy. Still, one could make a strong case for the stray vote being Danielle's. She's just a shady player in general and she might've wanted me to distance myself from Chelsea too. I'm going to assume that this version is the truth, because it's not like I can avoid allying with Chelsea at this point anyway. I'm going to carry on like we're still close (because we are). So anyway, Chelsea's on board to go with Lily and Gage, so that makes three. They think they have Colin, Willow and Quillynn's votes in the bag, which makes six, and that's majority since two people are on exile. But I'm not totally sure Colin's on board. I guess they could go to Jack if he's having cold feet. I'm obviously in the know about this plan, but I'm apprehensive because of Ryan. He's said multiple times he wants to work with Danielle, and I'm not sure I want to go against my mentor yet. I don't want to rat the Chelsea/Lily gang out to Danielle either, so I think I'm just going to vote for Jack and keep my trap shut, crossing my fingers that Danielle gets the boot. Everyone seemed to be pretty understanding and I don't think it'll hurt my place in the game. Let's just hope Colin doesn't get too set on Jack getting voted out.
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tonights vote is going to be wild. It looks like its going to be between jack or danielle and honestly Jack's "minority het" ass annoys the absolute fuck out of me so I want him to go, but Tuna is a bigger threat and has closer ties. I'm hoping the Danielle blindside get pulled off and that Ryan wont hate me after, but we'll see. If it does then wow, maybe choose some better mentors next time? 
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okay what the fuck. The eclipse happens and everyone goes fucking insane. This is some voodoo pagan astrology shit. ahhhh i'm crying. Last night the vote seemed so easy. Jack is an easy target. No one is close to him. He's straight. Adios! But then Chelsea and Gage step the fuck up and wanna be messy! Gage is apparently hella anti-Danielle for whatever reason??? Chelsea is still trying to pin the blame of the hinky vote against me on her so I'm really suspicious. I trust Danielle a lot. I don't want anything to happen to her. Now apparently I'm a swing vote. Everything is coming down to me murdering Danielle. Lily and Gage concocted the plan and are gathering the numbers and they want it to be a blindside but bitch!! not on my watch!! Danielle ain't goin nowhere!! I will deadass idol her if I have to. Gage and I rarely talk and I ain't gonna be like Chelsea and Lily and play into his plans. The! Straight! Is! Leaving! Or Gage is leaving. Either would be great for my game. I don't know what Jackson is planning but he seems to still trust Chelsea but I..... do not. At all. I think blindsiding Gage when he thinks he's gonna be blindsided would be really fun. So I might do that. But also that would draw a lot of attention to me and I'd face a lot of backlash. Ughhh I just really really don't want Jack to go. But it seems like Chelsea and Lily are deadset on it. Quillynn and Willow seem on the fence but they're ultimately not gonna turn on the majority. ANYWAY! My plan. I'm gonna vote Danielle bc the majority expects me to. I'm giving my idol pieces to Ryan since I know he has one. If Danielle actually shows up before tribal and on time she's gonna get idoled and saved and Gage will be blindsided by Nicholas, Danielle, and Ryan. I will have an in with them, Jackson won't be bitter bc I did tell him of that plan, I just didn't tell him I'm actually doint it. If Danielle doesn't show up, she's leaving, and Ryan better give me my idol pieces back >: ( Anyway! if all goes well! Adios Gage!
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I'm seriously about to be targeted because I've won a game this is so fucking stupid seriously find a better reason to target me before your ass gets voted out.
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A lot has happened. Everyone wants to work with me but not with Danielle and now since I'm associated with the pop princess herself I could be in trouble. The day started with Jack going. But it felt too easy. I talked to Willow who is my 2nd closest ally next to Danielle. She didn't tell me. While I was on call with her Colin PM'd me cause I messaged him when I woke up. He told me of the plan about everyone voting Danielle. And I tell Willow this! Next thing I know he's like "yeah don't trust Willow and Quillyn" and I'm like... yikearoonies. Cause I literally had just told Willow. ANYWAY. Willow say's she won't say anything, she apologized for not telling me during our HOUR long call. She says that it's true. Colin then proceeds to give me two idol pieces to play on Danielle because I told him I have 1 idol piece (in reality I already have 3 and now technically have 5) And to play it on her. However, he's still gonna vote Danielle to save face. Now Danielle, Nicholas and I are the only 3 who have to vote for Gage. Gage because Colin wants him out. I'd rather vote out Chelsea but I want to save face with Colin if everyone is truly gonna try to murder us. My only FUCKING worry is that they split the votes between Dani and I. Because Nicholas has individual immunity. I'd be idoling myself out. I'm gonna try to get Willow to vote with us, incase the vote goes 4-4-4. I don't think they'd vote for me but I gotta be careful.
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Okay so first this round we get the flag challenge and have I ever mentioned how much I hate the fucking flag challenge?? Anyway I somehow managed to score even lower then I did on an unfinished flag I made in Solomon which is pretty sad. Also this vote is crazy??? its going in like every direction. I mean that typically happens first vote of merge but omg. Anyway so originally everyone was cool to vote out Jack bc he's utr or whatever. But then Lily suggested we actually vote out Danielle and I was okay whatever. But then apparently Danielle and Chelsea have beef from earlier with the Lauren vote bc they all said they would vote out Lauren but then they weren't sure who the other vote for Colin was, and apparently they don't like each other now or whatever. So anyway Ryan calls me bc hes worried about the Danielle and Chelsea rivalry and he says Danielle is getting worried and he's getting worried and stuff and then of course I'm a dumbass and lie straight to his face about how Danielle isn't getting any votes. And we were talking about how we would prefer it to not be Jack, and he throws around the idea of actually voting out Chelsea bc she's made a lot of deals with people, and I fake agree to it. And then he tells me something he's never told anyone in the game and that's that he got the Into the Box idol piece for the mentors, and so he actually has 2 idol pieces and not 1. So then I tell him about how I played a side with Colin and that hes really good at Into the Box but that I could be wrong about him having the student piece. And I haven't told anyone about the idol piece bc I like Ryan a lot and I want him  to trust me even though hes not going to after this vote :( So earlier on in the day Lily decided to tell Colin about how we were planning on blindsiding Danielle, and then Colin decides to be a rat and tell everyone, so then Ryan tells me, and of course my immediate reaction is to tell my whole entire alliance chat about what's happening. Ryan tells me they're planning on idoling Danielle and planning on blindsiding Gage bc apparently hes trying to make deals with everyone?? which he isnt really but whatever lol. So when I tell my alliance chat this they all start freaking out but then I decided we need to switch our votes to Colin since he ratted and since they're playing an idol on Danielle. But I tell Ryan that we're still all voting for Danielle. But then he comes to me paranoid and says I should vote Gage bc hes worried they're splitting. and I'm like okay I'm cool with that. But omg I feel so bad bc I really like Ryan and I want to continue to work with me but hes really not gonna trust me after this vote fuck. Like it'll be good for them to waste an idol and for it to be Colin going home since he's the rat but I just feel so bad for lying to Ryan especially when he's trusted me the whole time and told me stuff he hasn't told anyone else in the game. Anyways I think I forgot some stuff but so much has been happening and there's so much to talk about idk how to get it all out into one confessional. 
[9:28 PM] Ry[an] Matthew ⚅⚅⚅: <<< thank you so much. i would be fine if lily didn't throw that idea out to danielle but it's to hard to not be able to talk to anyone but you cause everyone else is lying to my faceRy[an] Matthew ⚅⚅⚅, Today 9:28 PM omg I feel so bad bc I'm doing that exact thing of lying to his face but I think it'll be better for my game to stick with the plan and have them waste an idol and blindside Colin. 
*Colin Is Voted Out*
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i fucked up that vote because of when colin was telling me of the plan i was calling and talking to willow and i told her everything before i knew she was a SNAKE. willow is a SNAKE!! SNAKE!! like she was literally my 2nd closest ally. someone i used to want out (nicholas) is now my 3rd best ally. christine #2. danielle #1. jackson admitted to knowing about the danielle vote but not the colin vote and said he was the jack vote. i wanna commit soup of side
chelsea is fucking crazy. she's telling me that i shouldn't associate myself with danielle. she's telling me nicholas is a snake. she's trying to say no one lied to us about the vote. she's saying that jackson didn't lie cause he voted for jack even though HE LITERALLY KNEW ABOUT THE DANIELLE VOTE AND ADMITETD IT TO ME. chelsea is fucking crazy
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Okay so we definitely have us 6 strong? hopefully? but then after voting out Colin he had already lost his mentor Brett so that leaves 12 of us in the game now, which is where it gets a little complicated. Bc I'm not sure where JD and Christine stand. Like Christine is in an alliance with us but they could both easily flip and then it would be tied? bc even though Christine has an alliance with us she is also very close with Ryan. 
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Me before tonight: Has been enjoying the past few days in bliss with JD and my brand new fancy shmancy vote steal Me after tonight: Is currently in absolute hell I mean. COLIN!?!?!?!?!?! WHAT THE HECK. Literally at the start of merge it was literally so simple just to get Jack out. Im literally calling this right now, Jack is going to the end because people are too focused on getting out big targets. Ryan let me know what happened and how Willow ratted him out which stinks cause I liked Willow. I also learned I was apparently target the week Brett went home. So that's nice to know :) I don't trust the alliance I'm in with Lily, QuilLynn and Willow at this point. Willow's apparently a snake, Lily is waaaaay too focused on making big moves and QuilLynn? She is literally controlling this game. Literally everyone that I wanted to work with at the beginning of this game is gone. My ideal group of Brett, Lauren and Colin died immediately and then Connor left me too. I'm just so bummed cause I don't get a genuine connection from really any of these people. Like I'll try to talk to someone like Chelsea and it just goes....absolutely nowhere. The only people I feel like I can work with are Ryan, Jackson and....well myself. I like Danielle cause she keeps things real but she's also causing too many fights for me to attach myself with. With that being said, I think I'm in an ok position but not a great one. I wanna keep the pattern of students leaving right now and I'm keeping my legacy advantage a secret but I told Ryan about my vote steal and in return he told me he had two idol pieces so essentially we have an idol. So yeah, as long as Ryan doesn't get blindsided anytime soon that's a thing. Also this challenge is gross and the fact I was apparently taken out because of Random.org is even more disgusting. 
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Last tribal was great. We had a perfect plan to get out Danielle, but then Colin ratted, so we had a last minute switch to take him out while simultaneously wasting his Idol. Now there are lines drawn in the sand and I feel like i'm in an okay position on this tribe. I still don't trust jack or JD at all especially after Jack infected me in the last immunity but we have to keep them for numbers now. I want the plan to be right now for people to think we will split the votes between danielle/nicholas when hopefully we can actually take out Ryan. I have a bad gut feeling about this round and it could be over for me, but we'll see how this plays out!
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The Danielle vote may have backfired, but the Colin blindside went as planned! Lily has won immunity which I'm happy about. Ryan and Danielle are annoying because they're trying to fight me on "not being personal" with them. I'm not fucking obligated to talk about my personal life with you! This is a survivor ORG, people are busy, sorry I'm not crying on your fucking shoulder about boy problems! I talk to the people I trust & who make an effort back. Get a better argument to fight me on because this just makes you look pathetic.
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I don't know what the hell happened at the last trib.... Which is a lie, I've been told by a could people what happened but like... It just sounded nuts. Literally everyone in the alliance I put together the first week is getting picked off one after another. 
Holy fuck! I'm gone for one night. short story everyone is crazy. long story is that some how Ryan and Q ended up on opposite sides of a thing and I like both of them. Fucking stress. I was finally able to have a good talk with Nicholas, who thought I hated him because I hate Nick... Just wrong names, but hella wrong people. So we got that all worked out and he is stressing. I don't blame him ether, I would have been pissed if Liam throw me under the bus like Dani did him. Q told me earlier that she wasn't sure were a few of them were really and I'm just like... Imma try to keep Ryan and Nicholas alive as long as I can but I'm not gonna fuck up my game for them. We'll see how things go I guess. 
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i've exposed willow and q and their shitty receipts to JD. i'm hoping jack plays his double vote on chelsea. i'm hoping danielle nicholas me christine and jd also vote with jack and his double vote against chelsea. this is the only play. im also gonna tell jackson a fake name i'm voting to see if he'll vote that way. but im leaving christines name out of every conversation i have (aside from with danielle) idk im not a pussy ass bitch and im not gonna get with the fucking majority everytime. that fukcing furby is gonna get it
oops jack told me i was the vote. my ass? more likely that you think
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Hello. So I won immunity? Niiiiice. Haha. I didn't see this one coming but glad I didn't have to do anything to win. That's cool. I'm very concerned about this vote. I've got a lot of people who want to work with me. I think me as well as the three others in my alliance along with Jackson JD jack Chelsea and Gage. That's a lot of people. But it honestly makes me feel good about my position. And the more we aplit up the pairs the better for me and my mentorless self. And no one knows about my extra vote either. I feel bad for not telling my alliance but it's not like Christine has told us at all about what she got on reflection. But I'm honestly worried about whatbmight come out of reflection island still. It looks like tonight's vote is gonna be on Danielle or ryan. Leaning towards Danielle. Danielle is pretty mad and I'm sure she would have one intense jury speech. Not sure if I can handle it. Wish me luck! 
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I'm nervous about the numbers on this vote. We have 5 that I think are solid and the other side has 3, but there are 4 wild cards that are Jack, JD, Christine and Jackson that could flip and change everything. I'm just hoping for the best! 
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Me danielle and ryan have developed big plays. We're playing a vote steal and an extra vote in order to get chelsea out here
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Hi I'm Jackson and this is my sixth confessional. Wow okay so the shit hit the fan last week. Remember when I said I hoped that Colin wouldn't get too set on Jack going home in place of Danielle? Well, it looks like he did literally just that. Without telling me (although he did say he was thinking about doing it, to be fair) he gave his idol pieces to Ryan to save Danielle and blindside Gage, but Ryan accidentally told Willow who got everyone to change their votes to Colin, so Colin went home. I wasn't told about the vote switch, nor that Colin was actually going to do it, so basically I was left with my thumb up my ass thinking everyone was a rat. This week things aren't looking amazing for me. Danielle is all but done with me, and Ryan says he still would like to work together, I think he's just trying to use me to save his own ass. Basically, I'm stuck with the majority group led by Chelsea/Gage/Willow/Quillynn, but I can't actually be an active participant in the gameplay until Ryan goes home. Because Chelsea is telling people I'm feeding information back to him and that they can't completely trust me yet. Sigh. Also, I'm now pretty sure that Chelsea fooled me and she actually did vote for Colin at the tribal where Lauren went home, so yeah, I'm not super excited about working with her anymore. At the same time, I'm not feeling like I have any other options. I'm probably voting Ryan tonight unless I hear something different, and to be honest, I really hope he goes home. If Chelsea's side loses majority now, I'll be stuck with them on a sinking ship, because I don't think Ryan will trust me at all once I vote for him. Hopefully a week spent at Reflection Island will do some good for my game and open up some opportunities for me to actually do something. Because if I had my way, Chelsea would go home for lying to me and just being generally too manipulative, Gage would go because he's suspicious af, and me and Lily would make a F2 deal. Oh, and also I want to win a challenge. And maybe finally get a damn idol piece. So yeah, basically that's it. Let's hope I haven't been lied to even more!!
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Wish this game had nice hosts. Hope danielle goes tonight and Ryan plays another idol!
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whew ok so im kinda in a sticky situation right now. im really on the outs in this game and im not sure what to do. i know quillynn and trixie have my back to a small extent but they are just keeping me around so that when they have to betray their alliance they have an extra vote or at least they assume that i will be a vote for them on jury which honestly is true. i have this lovely legacy advantage and if anyone does me dirty in this game you had best bet i will use it as pettily to my advantage as possible if i am on jury and someone screws me over. i dont vote bitter at the end of games, but i do play bitter sometimes if its necessary! either way im torn on this vote. i can either vote out ryan [which i dont want to do because i feel like without him and danielle im fucked], vote chelsea [ which i dont want to do bc i love chelsea as a person and i know she is keeping my name out of the other sides mouth] or just throw away my vote. i dont want to throw away my vote because thats such a cop out but every time i work the numbers it seems like no matter what i do ryan will leave.
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Okay I can't make a move yet but I think I can make my move next round, #hevotedouthisstudent
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Grr so of course on the random.org thing for the challenge I'm out first and have no shot at immunity lmao. I think in a sense the challenge was very telling for who's with who. I infected JD first bc I just don't know her at all. I think most of the infections went in a normal order except for when Jack infected QuilLynn like it was very weird but then later he explained to me that hes never talked to her before so maybe that's its? but hes a red flag of course So originally everyone was thinking Ryan bc hes being really mean to Chelsea and I was like okay whatever. But then I was thinking and I'm like Jackson is a number for us (potentially) and he would be sent to reflection island but Nicholas will never be a number for us so why not vote out Danielle so that he will be at reflection. Anway a bunch of rumors are going around right now and its about to be tribal and I think everyone is going kinda crazy. 
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I literally feel like I'm gonna be sick. Tonight I'm proving I'm a true #rebel and flipping. This is gonna be so crazy but Quillynn, Willow and Lily all came to me saying we should vote out Danielle rather than saying in the alliance chat which was sketchy. Then Gage acted like he didn't care which was sketchy. Then I talked to JD and she was experiencing the same so I think we're being used which is dumb cause I'm tired of Quillynn consistently lying to me. I gave Ryan my vote steal and in return he gave me his idol pieces so I'm hoping this works. I'm obviously just a number for the girls and they don't really care what I think so this way will hopefully be better. If Danielle does go home I'll look like a paranoid mess but this is the best option cause I know Ryan at least trusts me...anyway I can't wait to go home tonight woohoo.
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This will be long, so prepare yourself to aggressively scroll past this if you don’t wish to hear more about me lmao
Moon: I’ve been hoping to study perhaps Creative Writing or History, or perhaps even Astronomy? I’ve really wanted to pursue Astronomy, though I thought that would take me too long and I would turn too dumb halfway to even get my degree, so I’m probably going for Creative Writing, if it doesn’t end up providing too low pay. I’ve found estimated pay for each of my desired degrees, and Astronomy turns out best. I’m still uncertain though;Arcturus: Yes, immense happiness or excitement or proudness or anger, I’ve felt a lot through crying. Most recently I’ve cried because Phillip Michael Lester turned 30 and I’ve went on a bit of a marathon of his videos from oldest to newest, I’m still not done with it, but I ended up crying because he got this far and he probably didn’t know it would happen just a decade ago. Hahahaah… please don’t judge me;;
Betelgeuse: Something I can’t forget about? Oh dear, I don’t know. I guess, the time a guy almost broke my left clavicle in 4th grade right before an exam;;; Worst day.
Aldebaran: I desperately care about my friends, my future, how I look in front of others, what I do in front of others, about not failing at anything and making myself look like an idiot, and I could go on way more about this stuff. But mostly, I care about the dear babe who asked all these questions. uwu
Orion: I have so many favourite months! January because it’s the new year and typically I get new relationships in that month, February because it’s my birthday month, and June-August because it’s Summer Vacations.
Pegasus: My favourite place to be… Well, I guess typical places would be my home, wherever my friends are, and I also love visiting new places. I want to visit Rome and some other cities I haven’t yet visited! I also love being around places where I can feel that everyone around me is happy.
Phoenix: I love wearing sweaters and scarves, as well as denim skinny jeans. Denim and leather jackets are amazing too, and give me all of the ankle boots. That’s basically my outfit all the time I go outside with minor adjustments.
Hydra: I love listening to music, so rhythmical sounds like those really get me cheered up. Listen to eurovision songs like What’s the Pressure and Tonight Again, and those are some songs that make me feel happier. I also love hearing birds chirping, airplanes setting off, and sometimes I like listening to paper being ripped. And rain splattering against the window is amazing.
Milky Way: The oldest friend I remember having that I’m not in contact with anymore is a girl named Sophia who was my neighbour in Greece. My oldest friend that I mildly keep contact with is one of my current neighbours in Serbia who shares the same name as me. My oldest friend who I keep in contact with as we speak (or rather as I type and you read?) is the babe who asked the questions. uwu
Andromeda: I consider myself slightly social, slightly not. I’m an ambivert, and it just depends on my mood. If I’m in a good mood, I want to be surrounded by people all the time. Although if I’m salty as fuck, leave me alone and just hang with me at that moment if we talk on a daily basis and/or I trust you a lot.
Black Eye Galaxy: Well, it’s possible, under certain conditions. I don’t believe you could find out someone’s personality at the first sight, but you could fall in love with their looks at the first sight, that’s certainly possible if you’re one who goes for looks. But my opinion of love at first sight is when you hang around with a person and you feel a connection by the first time you hang out with them and know how they act and some of their opinions on things, and basic things about them.
Cigar Galaxy: Lmfao, my flirting skills? Sometimes I can bust a good pick-up line on the spot, so my flirting is quite alright, and I’m not the most awkward flirt online, so I can be quite confident. Although don’t challenge me in real life, I’ve never done it so I guarantee I will make a fool of myself.
Sombrero Galaxy: I am dating someone right now who goes by the name of Nalin! She is the babe that is @silent-luciidity . But I love her a lot, and I can’t help getting crushes even then. I’ve had this crush on a guy in my class since a year ago, and that’s longer than when I’ve gotten into a relationship with her recently, just two months ago. So I’m still trying to control myself around him, yikes. But that doesn’t mean I don’t love my babe dearly
Pinwheel Galaxy: The last person I talked to is a friend on Quotev, and I’ll be honest, I would not lmao. He is just not my type, although a good friend.
Asteroid: Yikes, that’s a tough question. My dream life would probably consist of living in an aesthetically pleasing looking mansion with all !! my !! friends !! living with me, and I could get whatever I crave at that moment immediately, and I would also want my friends to be super happy. I don’t like seeing people sad! Although I get carried away with things I want, I try to hold back;; But the thing I surely want is the happiness of everyone I know.
Meteor: Well, that’s not something I could easily say now, can I? Haha, well, I’ll go by something I wish I can say in real life, but I’d probably get thought of weirdly for saying it. I wish I could say that I don’t like people being my friend one moment and then being all dramatic the next, although I can’t say it straight to their face because they’d throw a bigger fuss. The people I hang out with are awful sometimes ugh
Nebula: I wish I could undo my weeby creepypasta phase tbh burn that shit in hell ew-
Shooting Star: I :) wish :) I :) could :) bring :) back :) people :) having :) common :) fucking :) sense :) but even tho that’s true I wish I could bring back my lost PSP D: I lost it by leaving it behind on the bench while I was waiting for the bus with my mom and sister and I only noticed it was gone when I asked for it in the bus (I was like 5 or 6 at the time mind you) and I started sobbing when I realized that we forgot it and it was already too late to go back. RIP old PSP.
Supernova: I really want to be at least a little bit known before I die, be it for my art or books or anything else. I want to be known a little bit. I wouldn’t mind if it wasn’t super popular or anything, I just want to be known by a good few thousand people that can possibly spread it to others. I’d be super happy if I ever become something big. uwu
Quasar: Fuck, this is such a hard question. Is it possible to morph all of my friends into one person that I can hang with until I die? ty? no?? Okay, well, this is fucking hard, I can’t choose just one D:
Wormhole: I honestly wish I could meet my idols Dan and Phil. I know it’s probably possible, but I dont think it’d be that easy for some reason. I really want to meet them though, seeing the angels in the flesh would probably bring me back down to Earth and make me remember //wow im lucky to breathe the same air from the same planet as them// whoops
Black Hole: Like, the last thing I see before I die? Like, is that what you mean??? If so, I wish to be surrounded by my friends worrying over me in my hospital bed as I pass away of old age. I want to live a normal life, so yes.
And that’s the end of this, yikes. That was very long. I hope you didn’t get bored halfway through!;;
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raenunculus · 7 years
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i honestly do not get how one fucking person can just make my emotions stir like crazy this is horrible honestly.
worst of all tho i literally cannot stop thinking of him and even when i fucking ignored him like a bitch i am hes still in my subconcious mind and now hes popping up everywhere and i really like him but honestly im ending up lusting after him but the thing is im so insecure about myself and i feel like that he should find someone better or at leaset i should fix my body. and i feel so guilty for eating pizza like i feel gross tbh. i really like him tho i just cant deny it like the reason why i wanted to distance myself from him in the first place is bc i didnt want to feel hut and i didnt want to stay in love but here i am now. and honestly i think its riduclous the way im acting rn 
im about to say something embarassing but whatev its just i literally cannot stop imagining him shirtless and idk im so fucking appalled he likes me cuz im just a fat piece of shit and im dumb too and idont really say anything interesting and hes the person thats cool and everybody likes and im a fucker, 
im feeling the absolute weirdest rn. and also i havent told anybody else about our relationship besides vaughn but vaughn doesnt know that we really really are dating but anyways i dont wanna be in an official relationship either but it just feels so much like one. I like him so much i cant stop thinking about him seriously and we also have a long distance relationship too so its weird and honestly im just excited AND scared to see him bc im thinking about what hes gonna react to when he sees me irl and that im a piece of shit and im not really pretty and in fact im deteriorated and hes just really good looknig and im just a fat asian girl who has messy hair and a lot of acne.
my parents are fighting too.. and this is why i dont want a relationship cuz its not practical its just i enjoy his company and i like the feeling of being in love with him its just ik its not practical and perhaps thers a day where we cant make it work anymore and its horrible to think of but still. 
my dad is probably going to yell about me about pizza and how that im stupid too ugh
i just love the motions of going through a relationship. i just love having someone there to hug or snuggle with or to just lovee or kiss or touch or whatever its just so fucking addicting. okay seeing him smile is just adorable too i love his grin and how nice his hair is and the fact that he’s trying to be there for me and hes feeling confident about himself too so that makes me glad lmao. I just wish i was doing good too. and like we fell asleep on vid chat lmao and just imagining him next to me or breathing next to me is just so comforting and i have no one else to tell this to so this sucks ass. he always can keep up a conversation too so its all good, id love to just kiss him but the thing is im gross. i just feel like im not pretty enough or that he doesnt like me or that it looks like he should choose someone better for himself and that im just there to fill up a void. 
im awkward too and i dont really give him the thrill or excitement of teenage life its just... dull and i dont know i feel like im so unappealing liek that cuz im overly cautious and i dont do crazy shit
i want to step out of my boundaries and speak up for myself, and wear what i want but im just scared that ill sound stupid or i wont look good. i want to have a better body first and i want to gain more knowledge first before i act. i hate how i keep stuff in and never tell anybody cuz its annoying but the moment i tell somebody i already got the answer to my problems.
and i feel like im that person who just loves to pleasure their partner lmao. id kiss him on the neck or someshit or whisper into his ear or just give him so much love id die of it. id hug him too and then let my breasts touch his arm or some shit and i wanna overload him with so much sensory that he’ll feel like bursting with so much love lmao. like i want to look into his eyes and look at his face and just kiss everything because thats how much i appreciate him and kiss his ears and hold his hand and caress his hair and kiss him gently bc that is how much fucking passion and love i have for him and its making me crazy quite honestly. idc if i dont get pleasure i just want him to be the center of attention and its gonna make him feel over confident but w/e i love that. 
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