my fav blogs atm 🎀

@goddessglo @s0fthunny @thevirgodoll @h0odspice @babyphat05 @prettyvixenavenue @trip2venus @sugarybisous @bunniemimi @geneva-diva @mahoganymamii @mulabby @douxxdoll @australianbeyonce @angeljpg @venus2000s @theperfectgrl @urfavobsession @milliondollaprincess

yun!! it’s vball anon hiiii

i just read your post abt your leaving, and i’m so sorry to hear the news, but also glad you’re prioritising your school life and balancing things out ^^

i’ll definitely miss checking your account every day for new smau updates (i rmbr coming across cupid’s corner when it was in its early stages and becoming obsessed like immediately)

that being said, ik exactly what u mean by ib bc the reason why i’ve been slightly very off tumblr was bc of stupid ass a levels as well. i’m just glad my school had the option to choose a levels instead of ib cause ill be honest with the way my friends are managing it idk if i could’ve made it thru these 2 years 😭😭

but coming back to topic, i’ll probs be off tumblr indefinitely cause of school as well, so we’re twinning ig!!!!

i’ll miss being vball anon aka jongseob so much

and i’ll also miss your account so much

will you be deleting this blog? ik some people delete/deactivate it when leaving but i hope you won’t! i love this account sm it brings me sm joy :( <3

— vball anon

VBALL ANON!! thank u for being here n bringing me so much joy w ur asks ^_^ and thank u for ur understanding too !! wishing u good luck on ur a levels and good luck to ur friends too <3 and even tho i might be inactive soon, u will always b vball anon aka jongseob! and no, i don't plan on deleting this blog bc i feel like i've got so many good memories from here and i don't wanna delete it bc i feel like i'll be leaving all those happy memories!! and i might pop in every now and then w a 20k word fic that i spontaneously decided to write just bc i missed it then disappear again...

omg :o sayu ? sayu ?? wait it's been such a long time that i don't even know if you remember me 😭😭😭 it's ele ur childhood best friend

i stopped being active for like a year because of uni and heaps of work but i've decided to procrastinate by spending my time periodically here on tumblr because it reminds me so much of :(( of you guys and haikyuu which i don't think is v popular now :((((

but procrastination is not a good idea 😓 i still love my hq boys tho sjsjsj

anyway i hope you're doing okay, and i'm so so glad you're alive and still on my hectic feed ily sm<3333 i missed u sm<333 it's sad that a lot of my other moots and favorite users have archived their accounts but it makes sense you know? i think tumblr is that one app where you get all excited and post every day for half a year or so until you realize you're super busy so u say bye :')

alright i'm prob not going to pop up in your inbox for another few weeks/months/year :cccc but pls know i rly love you</33 mwah

HI MY LOVE sorry i'm answering this so late! OFC I REMEMBER YOU !!! how could i forget :( i totally get you w being inactive bc of uni. i haven't been on here much either (or as much as i used to be hhdsjhfk)

I MISSED YOU TOO and i'm glad you're alive and well <3 i hope you've been taking care of yourself i love you i love you i love you

duckie 😭😭 the fact that you dedicated a comfort fic for me i’m gonna cry 😭 i promise i will reblog it soon (i’m superstitious and i’m manifesting good grades on my exams rn lol) but thank you?? i don’t deserve you at all, you helped me so much this past week and especially on tuesday :( i’ve been a little inactive bc i’ve been studying lately but imy!! how are you 🥺

ahhhh im glad u saw it !! i wanted to write something for u after that night esp cuz there's such a lack of moonbae fics here nowadays, then i had a moment the day after and i knew i had to write something comforting for sure :') and don't worry at all !! pls do get thru ur exams first, i'm like the exact same way w the superstition (´Д⊂ヽ

i miss you too and i hope ur still doing okay <3 i've been better ig :') got some exam scores back and im a little devastated and yesterday when i met my best friend irl and we caught up, i think i felt even worse hearing how well all of my former peers r doing compared to me </3 but we'll get thru (that was such a downer sorry skfnsknckd i'll prob be fine tho)

holy shit i LITERALLY just wrote a solid 8k log about my emotions and stuff and

then i accidentally deleted it all

motherfuckkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk asasfasagsdfasjhfafjkaksfhaklsdghdsghaskjlghlasdkjlghsdjkghsdjkghsdjg

anyways quick summary of that long essay: (it’s 3am)

1. sry ive been inactive things have been Too Much . i got ,,, Overwhelmed and couldn’t juggle between real life, bts and screaming over bts

2. emo rants about my inferiority complex upon joining this fandom; constantly on the bad end of seeing amazing content creators doing their Thing and feeling shitty about myself

3. all of which dissipates bc of these incredible which i will mention below i literally. LITERALLY . wrote a PERSONALIZED MINI ESSAY for each of you and i... i just.... i just had to ............. im so sorry for accidentally erasing it all... i put a lot of thought into it.... i got very cheesy too..... i hope you dont mind me briefly mentioning you here with quick keywords? ill get back to your cheesy mail i promise [[also me crying about how thankful i am for my 2 digit follower count, every single one of them]]

@taegike: my virgo child, honey toast, u make me laugh ily taegi hold hands be good in school

@bangtanroyalty: pls cl i squeal every time u mention me. yr encouraging words fuel me every day ty for being so kind all the time, ur wonderful 

@noodletae: i miss your amazing art and our little chats hope u r well treat urself to facemasks and wine

honorable mention to @cyphrs for being the first mutual whom i talked to, it was a long time ago u prob dont rmb. youre a very gentle soul and i love seeing ur answered on my dashboard; ty for making my first day comforting and nice. youre blue and white personified.

@softjiminstan im still swoon by you! idk why but i just am!

@absolutelythrilling ok srsly? all caps and only positivity? youre such a GOOD person pls i hope someone makes you smile at least 25 times a day bc you deserve it

and also @vanillalattaes pls god do u know that i clutched my face for seven hours straight when u included me in ur ff. sr for disappointing u by being Gone from tumblr i hope ur doing well

and all of the others who r patient enough to stick with me even though i post like. once a month. thank u . i apologize for the atrocious grammar and spelling, its ass oclock in the morning and i just want to let u know real quick that i appreciate you a lot. the original was better, i swear.

bub!!!💫🌹 🌻 🌼 🌸 🌺💐 I've been inactive for a while and I come back and you have cramps :((( pls dont do too much and be as lazy as you need to

HEIZE!!!!! 🍭🎉💘🌈🍭🎉💘🌈🍭🎉💘🌈🍭🎉💘🌈  OMG MY BABY i’ve missed you so so so so much!!! i noticed you were gone for awhile and when i saw you on my dash my heart skipped a beat hehe how are u doing my peach!! 🍭🎉💘🌈🍭🎉💘🌈🍭🎉💘🌈🍭🎉💘🌈  and i know fjdndjd i’ve been trying to just chill out 2nite but i feel like there’s a boxing ring in my body that’s just punching away lolol it’s torture :))))))))))) BUT I’LL BE FINE i think sleep should do it!!! 

and omg jdnfjf thank u!!!! i have a new years url planned already hehe so i’m probs gonna change that on the 26th!! I LOVE U OMG AND THANK U SO MCUH FOR THE FLOWERS!!!! 🍭🎉💘🌈🍭🎉💘🌈🍭🎉💘🌈🍭🎉💘🌈🍭🎉💘🌈🍭🎉💘🌈🍭🎉💘🌈🍭🎉💘🌈🍭🎉💘🌈🍭🎉💘🌈🍭🎉💘🌈🍭🎉💘🌈🍭🎉💘🌈🍭🎉💘🌈

so this girl i kinda like(she's an internet friend) is supposedly going to be inactive on social media for a month(according to her twitter) and i'm a little panicked cos idk if that includes tumblr(where we chat) bc we've been messaging for the past couple days and she tweeted that ab a week ago. but i'm worried if she does stay off tumblr for a month, she'll forget ab me or not care to message me anymore :/ i'm prob overreacting but oh well.

Dw! You are not over reacting! You remind me of me. Anyways, keep messaging her within that month, not too much! If she doesn’t reply that obvs means she’s gone inactive due to something. But when she comes back she’ll see all ur messages and it will Spark something in her memory section and she’ll remember you and seeing all the messages she’ll know you missed her and she’ll be like aww and then she’ll message you and you’ll live happily ever after!

Today’s topics are:-phan-dan and phil-friends -childhood stories -embarrassing stories -bests moments of ur life -facts about me -if you want hugs and kisses -dares -advice (I’ll try)-anything ur going through -the fact that we’re almost at 500!-my birthday is coming soon -literally anything this is just to give you some inspirations!

deathtwonormalcy replied to your post:

omg kat i know what you mean ,wehn i moved on from spn and decided to only blog misha and my other interest i tried to unfollow spn and destiel blogs but i couldn't unfolloiw 99% of them because they have been on my dash for so long that i cant imagine not having them around so just unfollowed inactive blogs.

RIGHT??? it just feels wrong and weird not to see them on ur dash, even if like 80% of what they’re reblogging is blacklisted or smth bc it’s not stuff you’re interested in. 

like i know i have friends who follow me who HATE spn, who never were in spn, but who follow me bc we’ve been friends for just. CENTURIES and it would be weird not to follow each other. it would be like a death in the family. and they’re probably not loving rn that im reblogging a graphic i made like 80 times a day and not tagging it spn (U DONT GET TO OPT OUT WHEN I MAKE BEEYOOTIFUL ARHTS SRY NOT SRY THAT IS WHAT FRANDSHIRT MEANS OK) but that’s just kind of how it goes i think. you get attached to people. 

i do wish there was a way to, like. somehow whitelist so it blocks everything else but then ONLY shows u certain tags instead of rn (at least for me) where whitelisting just overrides my blacklist. so like if i want to follow someone but only see, like, their answered asks and replies and personal posts and about me reblogs, i can whitelist all the tags they use for those posts, and then do some kind of setting to just hide the rest of the their blog from my dash. 

but then again, even tho i don’t follow anywhere near a ridiculous amount of people, even if i try to devote an hour of catching up on my dash a day (which honestly with working full time i feel like this should be a reasonable amount), i still miss, like. 99% of the content. like i probs haven’t see anything you’ve posted or reblogged come across my dash in, like. months. so like. how are you? how you’ve been? <3

EPISODE EIGHT: “THIS WEEK SUCKS I HATE TWISTS” - BRYCE RACE AGAINST TIME WEEK! EVICTED: BLAKE - 7 TO 4

RANDY AND KAT ARE BACK BITCHES https://media.giphy.com/media/Y9S9jOb7b1LQA/giphy.gif AND I lived to see a 3-part comp that I can actually do well in?? Oh it's over for these hoes and my dog days are behind me https://media.giphy.com/media/MeHQtCSZ46bRe/giphy.gif

I AM SO SAD ME AND BLAKE ARE GOING TO BE NOMMED BC WE SUCK AT CHALLENGES ARE ARENT RATS!! SO SAD IM CRYING BLAKE IS SUCH A KING AND IF WE HAVE TO BE FINAL NOMS TOGETHER IM GONNA KMS!!! SOOOO SAD IM CRYING AHHHHHHHHHHHH EVERYTHING THAT COULD GO WRONG WENT WRONG AND ITS UP TO MY DUMB BRAIN TO DO THE LOGIC PUZZLE BUT I CAN NOT SO UHHHH RIP US WILLL I STAY OVER HIM WHOMST KNOWS!!!

if i had a heart this week would break it

Hola did you miss me? So I didnt record or make a goodbye DR because I knew there was justice within this universe. I knew my eviction was unjust and thats why I''m back because I have a vendetta to settle and I'm not going to leave until I'm successful. Yes ladies you heard it here, its time to cut the throat of bitches who thought double crossing me was okay. And newsflash: it isn't a good idea to fuck me over. I hated the amount of bullshit I had to endure when I came back into this house. Everybody said "omg I miss u" but the only people who were genuine about it were Jose, Autumn, Ali, and Dennis the rest these bitches were just being diplomatic. And that just shows true character. So since I'm back im going to go through the current cast list as of right now. Ali: A british legend he has been genuine the whole time throughout this game and I'm going to work with him especially since not only is he easy to convince but he is amazing to talk to. Alivia: I can't trust her and I'm not going to. However I will play a little stupid and just make it look like I want to work with her. She is just such a strong personality that if she rubs me the wrong way I'll fucking lose my shit nonetheless. She is no different then any other floater just trying to ease her braindead gameplay by voting in the majority in every round. She has lacked a backbone throughout this whole game, and its not going to grow anytime soon Ashvika: Inactive and not interesting. In HOS she was overrated, and playing with her in this game just proves that she should've stayed out of this community. The worst floater within this cast, and I'm hoping she gets killed in the early jury. Autumn: Literally a queen within this game. She is so forgiving, and lovable. She understands me so well and I'm not going to turn my back on her. She kept me which wouldve fucked her over if I didnt come back. So now that I'm back im hoping our agendas will align and we can fuck over those people first. Blake: He evicted me, so i'm not going to trust him, and I'm not going to be his little bitch anymore. But I'm going to make it look like I need him more than ever. Because once im through with Zeezo and Bryce I'm going to have to go after Alivia/Lynn or Sammy/John. He is nominated this week against Bryce so i need him to actually be a good gameplayer and make sure he stays this week. Bryce: I cant trust him. Ever since Nicholas Julia I just have to think its either Bryce or Zeezo. So I'm hoping that with this week I can have an easy time evicting him and then its guns out on taking out Zeezo. Dennis: One of the reeasons I was nominated week 6 was because he was petty. But that shows that his emotion = his gameplay.  So since I'm back I can make a good connection with him. If I can keep up with him and if I know how he feels I'll know how he will play. I have no need to betray him, and I'm hoping in creating a trustworthy ally within him. He's active but I dont think he has cemented himself within any group in this game yet. John: I tried to make a f2 with him to secure his vote. Sister voted me out anyways so I'm not going to trust him ever again. Everytime I talk to him about game he just asks all these questions and shit. I see right through his bullshit because I know a snake when I see one. I put too much trust into him, and he backstabbed me. I'm not going to fuel our relationship, but I will be nice for the time being. I need him to evict Bryce this week so I'm just going to be a good guy with him, and then later into the game kill him for the little bitch he is. Jose: I dont talk to him as much as I want to but I still trust him a lot. He is a good ally, but I just hope he shows more of his potential as a player soon. I want to work with him so im going to continue to be honest and transparent with him. Lynn: I guess she's only social with a handful of people like...... gtfo sister is dry as hell still. She evicted me, and like thats cool. I'm not going to work with her and she is totally at the bottom of my totem pole. Randy: A king... who never goes Prejury Sammy: Out of all the people who talked to me when I came back I knew he was the most nervous when it came to talking to me. He loves appeasement, and makes people know that everything he does isnt with the intention of hurting. Its believable kissass, but for right now I'll buy it. Keep on selling it Sammy. Me and him had an interesting conversation because he thinks im going to target him alongside bryce and zeezo. And I told that I'm tunnel visioned onto Bryce and Zeezo and that now is a grace period ffor him to be on my good side. He's going to be a threat nonetheless near the end, but I need to be good with him since I don't see him leaving anytime soon. Zeezo: I think she's the person who framed me, and if she isnt then i guess I just wasted my time. I would love to take her out, and i would love to get my revenge. I will never trust her, and I will make sure she knows I won't stop until she is evicted. Eviction is tomorrow. I'm pushing for Bryce to leave. The votes Blake has to keep him are me, autumn, alivia, sammy, and probably john. I'm going to talk to Dennis, Ali, and Jose tomorrow and hint to them that I'm evicting Bryce and if they want to work with me that would be the best opportunity to do so. After that I will have to win HoH. I need this HoH because if I don't win it. Its probably going to be Zeezo who wins it. And if neither of us wins it then it  gives Zeezo a window of time to change the dynamics of the game to her favor. And whoever wins hoh will fucking waste it on a floater. And the floaters in this game are my lifeline,..... I'm a the Florax..... i speak for the floaters. Thats all you missed right now...... I hope to win hoh and if I dont then prejury here i come again xx  

i love everyone coming to me to inform me that autumn and ali are voting to keep bryce when i already knew that we were making that decision together :))) i also love hearing the "you and i are on the bottom" speech from everyone who realizes they're not that important in the majority alliance 

THIS WEEK SUCKS I HATE TWISTS Ali- so fake i thought we were a duo but apparently this decision really is hard for him and hes prob evicting me. i would never have voted him out so im just shocked and upset that he so seemingly easily votes me out. he also makes me feel bad that hes voting me? like what kind of move is that. edit: chose to save me in the end still fake tho. Alivia- I love her so much im so glad our connection is really pulling through and shes choosing me over LAB (unless she isnt in which case choke). my secret weapon <3 edit: i was writing this as eviction happened and while on call alivia tells me she voted me b/c she thinks im going home well i stayed 7-4 so think again you fake f2ing FREAK!! Ashvika- Always so honest with me and i love that and hoping shes still honest that shes with me. shes been not on for a while tho so im scared but im hoping that its nothing to worry about :s Autumn- we never work together and i tried to campaign to her but idk if it worked but either way i cant be mad b/c i never put in the work earlier and i tried to vote her out a bunch so itd be hypocritical LOL Blake- MY KING IM SO SAD WE ARE NOMMED TOGETHER if we hadnt messed up counting we wouldnt be going home. im so sad, someone who i never thought id want gone this early it sucks that these are the final noms :/ Dennis- he has been here with me through the whole eviction and has campaigned for me i literally love him so much like he is REAL and some of these houseguests could take a lesson from the KING himself!! Honestly im gonna listen to some linkin park if i survive just to honor him John- king!! i love him if he saves me, if he doesnt im hurt but hes still a king. like i feel like i  have the most fun convos with him and hes always so funny plus he tells zeezo things and she tells me things so it keeps me informed Jose- depending on the hour a king or a flop. he said he always was keeping me but then i hear he isnt but in the end he is? well at least an hour and half before eviction. he is so wishy washy hes ali but wasnt as close to me so im less  hurt. Lynn- i know shes saving blake so im not hurt shes still a queen <3 lynns world and we're living in it <3 Randy- Julia Nicole rigged for him to come back he wants me out and can choke but he can keep trying cuz I aint leaving Sammy- maybe the fakest person ever. its now like after eviction and HoH so I have some thoughts. he is vague with me the second im nommed talking about hes scared of randy. then he just plans to vote me and doesnt mention it to me??? and i know the whole time and i give him opportunities to talk to me and confess, but no he stays quiet. Then when he sees im safe he msg's zeezo like ahh everyone lied to me, and im like GOOD glad you know how it feels. now after i won hoh he is trying to spin it that he knew i was staying and just wanted to vote me to seem separated from me/zeezo/him trio thats been speculated. like??? he didnt know i was staying and he was just scared of randy!! like just be honest and dont lie to me now that im hoh and ur scared i know you lied already!! idk hes just :@ i was never gonna target him and he threw me under the bus to save himself so quick and easy. Zeezo- the loml. she did so much work to keep me safe. first she came to me with the plan to pretend to be on the fence with ppl so that it would look like we arent close. (something sammy just forgot to do???) and then once she found out sammy was backstabbing me she leaked it to jose and jose was able to convince ali who was able to convince autumn to save me!! she helped me throughout the whole game and i wanna go to the end with her even tho i dont think its mutual... but i love her so much!!

JURY VIDEO

CAST ASSESSMENT

CLICK HERE TO WATCH THE RAT WEEK CAST ASSESSMENT!

It is time for the Rites of Passage! 

Luis: Who??? 

Colleen: WHOO?? 

Jacob: Whooooo? 

Julia: Bye girl 

Madison: The first of many fallen queens, who you gotta be so busy the fuck? 

Dom: The second fallen queen. I love you so much, I hope all is well. You really were gonna be my ride or die this game. I was so sad when you had to walk, but I respect it 10000000% 

Shoib: You made my gay ass so uncomfortable. Down with the king. 

Andie: I wanted to work with you so bad but you were so inactive! Sad! 

Chrissa: The third fallen queen. I know you would fall on your sword for me any day of the week. I am thankful for your years of friendship <3

Matt: Another fallen legend. You played so hard and I respect that so much. You just got caught in the crosshairs because of it. I wish we could have worked together for longer. 

Frances: Girl your elimination had me shook and kind of lit a fire under my ass! You were one of the kindest people I've met in games and I really hope we can chat after all this! I knew you were all up aligned with people, but you were always so good to me. I was so sad to see you go! 

Owen: Whew, another game where you were a threat to win? I believe it. I've known you for so long and you never cease to amaze me with your gameplay. I think it came to the point in the game where it was me or you, so sadly it had to be you. 

Jake: You're probably so mad at me for not using my idol on you and etc. but at the same time, we didn't talk that much. If you had come to me earlier in the day I feel like the chances were better that I used it. I would have loved to work with you in this game, but it kinda seemed like you had your group and I had mine :/ 

Autumn: Girl.... do I have some tea.... I hope I make it to the FTC to tell you how robbed you were. Love you <3

LUIS: hi king i really wanted to try to work w u bc u seemed cool but u were just a round 1 victim since you didn’t know anyone in the game. Hope ur living ur best life!!

COLLEEN: idk u

JACOB: hi inactive king u probs wont read this but ty for going inactive and saving me butt

JULIA: LOL u probably are never gonna read this but i missed u in the game and our little scam to survive that one round was fun

MADISON: i lav u & ur a lil slut shaming snake!!

DOM: bye bye king im sad u quit and we didnt get 2 play 2gether again

SHOIB: ur a king i guess,,,

ANDIE: whew a king. We started off on the same page and tbh i think u just have too much of a life for orgs which honestly wig @ that. Hope ur living ur best life

CHRISSA: chrissa queen we literally messaged each other 0 times in this game so i guess we just weren’t meant to work together this time rip

MATT: LOL we deadass never talked but from what other people said you seemed pretty chill so im sure thats the case ~ idk i mean we never talked so there isn’t much to say rip a king

FRANCES: FRANCES!!!!!!! WHAT THE HECK I MISS U SO MUCH!!!! Idk like u were the one person i met in this game that i absolutely loved and i really liked working w u. Even though u said u wouldn’t use your idol on me ur still my fave person in this game & ur eviction vote off thing made me really really sad. Things probably would have gone v different if u were still here ;( u were super robbed but i hope that ur move to LA went well if it happened and that ur living ur best life

OWEN: > : ( ur a mean snake but u got done dirty and im sorry for that. You were playing a really good game but after seeing how quickly u turned on miss frances i was scared and what happened happened. Ur still a king tho and ik u think im a fat rat but i would be a fat dumb goat-rat if i just sat and let u continue to control the game

JAKE: UM http://i0.kym-cdn.com/entries/icons/facebook/000/022/686/download.jpg Idk i told u i had a trick up my sleeve and i definitely lied and did u dirty but it was honestly kind of fun NNNN ik u hate me in this game but u gotta admit its kinda funny LOL

AUTUMN: im sad that we never truly connected on a game level, but i was fortunate that we were able to have our moments where we saw eye to eye and had some real talks starting early on in the game. I think you’re a force to be reckoned with in every game that you play and i’m glad that i finally got the chance to play with you ~

Luis- I’m really sorry that we didn’t talk, it would have been nice to get to know you. 

Colleen- We never got to play together I don’t think but I’m sorry you left so soon!

Jacob- I’m sorry that you left so soon! :( 

Julia- You were ROBBED I know we never really work together in games but I absolutely adore you and I wish you would have been around longer <3

Madison- GIRL, I absolutely adore you I’m sorry that you left so soon.  You are such a nice person and an ICON and you shouldn’t have left so soon, I love watching you play because you always play so differently and I wish you would have stuck around in this game! 

Dom- I WAS SO SAD WHEN YOU LEFT.  You’re such a nice person and have such a good heart, I’ve known you longer than most people in this community and I absolutely love you and this was going to be our game that we didn’t turn on one another!!  We weren’t together for long but you were the one person I could tell anything game related to and outside of the game you are one of the few people I can vent about things to (HAHAHAH LSDJFLDJSF) without having to worry and I LOVE YOU SO MUCH, one day we will play together again and work together as closely as we did in this game! <3 

Shoib- king snake, i don’t know if I’m happy or sad that we were never on the same tribe HAHA.  You are awesome and I’m sorry you left so fast! 

Andie- I LOVED working with you this season!  You are such a nice person and you have such an amazing heart and I’m glad that we got to catch up with one another, I hope you are doing well Andie! <3  I wish you wouldn’t have gone so soon! 

Chrissa- You are such a sweetheart and you were so robbed this season!  I had a lot of fun playing with you and I wish we would have worked together while you were still in! 

Matt- We never talked much but you seemed nice!  It was nice playing with you!

Frances- SLDJFLDSJF I’m sorry that we didn’t talk until right before you left, you are an icon and I think that it is awesome that you are following your dreams and I hope that I hear how things go with the show you wrote!  <3 

Owen- This was the HARDEST vote by far but it was the smartest for my own personal game if I wanted to make it as far as I am now!  I’m sorry in advance for the one really mean confessional I made about you when I WAS LAST PICK WHEN THE TRIBES WERE PICKED when I thought you would pick me first sljflsdjf!!  I had so much fun playing with you and I felt like I could tell you anything without it going anywhere.  I’m SO sorry for turning on you, I do wonder still if it was the right decision but we all know that you would win if you made it this far!  I love you and I’m sorry and aren’t you proud of me for not breaking our snap streak? I’ve done pretty good for 30 ish days!!  It’s been a fun ride and I love you so much you have such a sweet soul <3 <3

Jake- I’m really sorry!  The alliance that you, Owen, Autumn and I were in meant a lot to me but it was better for my game to change it up and work with other people because the three of you were forces to be reckoned with!!  It was nice getting to know you! 

Autumn- GIRL, voting you out was so hard.  We haven’t been as connected in this game as we have been in others but I love you and you are so nice and so easy to talk to!  I can’t wait to hear about NYC when you get there! <3

Luis - rip we never got the chance to talk i don’t think so i don’t really know you

Colleen - I remember messaging you and I don’t think you ever replied so I’m not sure what was up but glad we got to play! 

Jacob - You were on the other tribe so we didn’t get to really talk:(

Julia - julia, again on another tribe but i remember you not even being invested in the game because you said it on a house call for another game lolllll

Madison - ily and I’m so sad we didn’t get to play together too much. I remember you were kinda out of the loop hehe 

Dom - Dom uggg rip I enjoyed playing this game with you a lot and I was so sad to see you go. I hope everything is going better now and hope to see you in other games:) 

Shoib - shoib lollll i remember like the first day you went idol searching and it got put in the tribe. You started off like all out but you were super inactive in the game i feel like. I was looking forward to working together in this game but in that aspect we both kinda flopped haha 

Andie - We also didn’t really play together at all rip i just remember you not being around too much. Idk if you were busy but hope to see you in other games! 

Chrissa - poor Chrissa robbed, ily and wish we had been able to work together more in this game. You are always fun to play with and have such a sweet soul!

Matt - Matt you were such a great player tbh and one of the most invested people in the game. You were strategic and even pretty good at the challenges. We clicked really well and I know I kinda lost your trust at one point in the game but I still am glad we met and worked together for a bit.

Frances - Frances okay woo so I had played a mini with you once before and saw how great of a player you were. You were very social with others in the game! I know the night you left it was very chaotic and honestly i didn’t even know what was happening...but i know you kinda had like some deals with different people? Idkk lolll but it was super nice playing another game with you and you were def one of the people i was closest with 

Owen - comp legend, lolll i know we didn’t really work together either but you were always so kind even if we were going after each other

Jake - rip so i did you dirty too I’m sorry but again super awesome to see you in a separate game because we always have a blast together. Same thing as I said to autumn: we talked as if we weren’t targeting each other, which was still fun lolll. Anyway I really hope to see you in a separate game and go crazy

Autumn- okay so we chose to kinda go out separate ways in this game lolll but I was super happy to see you on the cast reveal! We would be going after each other but we still talked as if none of that was happening hahahah. Love you so much sorry for doing you dirty

EPISODE 2: YOU HAVE TO LOOK FORWARD TO BE ABLE TO PROGRESS ~Alex

So, I get online at roughly 9 my time, and we’re all talking about social anxiety and depression. It’s a real thing. It is very much so a real thing that hinders people’s day to day lives. However Sara was very interesting with the way she went about it. Logan seemed shocked to find that I actually like my life? I love show choir, I love my girlfriend right now, my friends are fun. My family is supportive.

The way I get through my life is by almost putting myself down? It’s like Fat Amy from Pitch Perfect calling herself Fat Amy, so people can’t do it behind their back. I’m not the most attractive person, I let that be known to everyone. But it’s easier to be open about things in your life because it’s how you handle things. When I actually apply for the show it’s definitely something I am going to talk about. Growing up I didn’t /have/ a whole lot of confidence as a person to get through things. As I got into highschool I really was this awkward shy human being who wasn’t fond of social situations. I was always a quirky person; I felt like people didn’t like being around me a whole lot? That’s weird to say, but it’s hard to go through life feeling like an outcast. When I got into Show Choir my life really changed. My confidence shot through the roof. It was this wake up call for me that “hey, you’re good at stuff. Open up to that part of your life, and quit focusing on the negative.” And I definitely do that and it definitely gets me through the day.

I don’t get sad over a whole lot because it’s real easy for so many people to say “my life sucks, things aren’t going right.” but nine times out of ten there is something. And that’s what I focus on in my life. And that’s why I’m going to get through this game. I’ve learned to not focus on the negative parts of my life and the same goes for this game. You have to look forward to be able to progress. If you’re stuck in the past things won’t work out for you. So this is my way of saying my way of life. It’s weird to put it into a confessional, considering it’s hardly game-topic, but it seemed oddly appropriate.

Okay i take back what i said i actually really connect with logan her and I both share a passion for stories and characters and shes great and like lowkey love my tribe

Dang sh#t I know I’m not winning and now I may be going home just great <_<

The MATT vote off went very well. Although in hindsight it may have been better to vote off ELENA instead of him. She received a self vote which isn’t a great sign at her activity level going forward.

The next immunity challenge is an individual challenge. Three people win immunity and both tribes go to tribal. So I guess it’s not a big deal that ELENA wasn’t voted off last tribal. If we need to, we can just vote her out this one.

After this coming tribal, there will be 15 people left, which opens the opportunity for a tribe swap into 3 tribes of 5. I hope that’s not the case, I don’t really want to be separated from SAM, DARIAN and NED. The four of us have a good thing going, I’d hate to have it end right now. I don’t exactly have a good record with tribe swaps.

I still have my extra vote but in a tribe of a five it wouldn’t exactly be useful. Either we go in 3-2 with majority or minority. An extra vote would only cause a tie and then a loss on the revote.

fuck u n ur confessionals drew

well! i gotta get to work on staying

I smell

I hate feet and Drew’s face

LET’S GET WEIRD

Oh no no no, don’t phunk with my heart

I prefer tea

I like eggs

OK. Well, I got immunity this week in the double tribal and everyone wants to target Elena.. But She has that advantage and I don’t want her to go. this sucks. I don’t know if i should stick my neck out there for her or if i should just bite the bullet and cut my losses. i have no idea what I’m going to do.

I don’t know what these people are talking about!!

The government is whack

BOO! I’m a ghost!

Honestly I asked them for confessionals. I did this. This is my fault.

I’m here for the party

ANYWAY AFTER THAT MEANNESS. I guess we’re voting out Steven? Idk him enough to even try to find someone else goodbye

Super disappointed in how badly our tribe did. I know we’re going to tribal either way, but seeing just how much we got beat by has me worried for future challenges. Hopefully the challenges in the future will be a little different and give us an advantage.

In other news, me, Logan, Alex, John and Josh formed an alliance. We decided that this time the best person to vote out is Steven, because he’s missed way too many challenges and rarely contributes in the tribes conversations. So hopefully he’ll be gone tomorrow.

Bye!

Hi! after we lost the challenge a few official alliances formed. The Bubblegum Bitches with myself, Logan, Daisy, Alex and Josh. It was formed after I found out it was a four person alliance and Daisy added me to it when I asked her about it. Also, the alliance of myself, Alex, and Nehe. I like the two of them but Alex and I have discussed a final 2 already. Steven has not said a single word to me I forgot if I mentioned that but it still holds true!!!11 ok thats all bye

I scream and yell in my host chat and forget I need to put them in the confessional chat.

So I have an alliance with Keegan, Darian, and Ned and it’s super cute or whatever I guess. All three of them won immunity so I guess I’m just here like the loser of the alliance but whatever.

Besides this alliance, I don’t talk to anyone but that’s not for a lack of trying! I literally try to bug everyone all the time and no one answers me! I really like Elijah when he actually answers me but 90% of the time it’s like pulling teeth. Elena AND Brandon didn’t answer me when I said ‘hey’ so now I obviously feel to self-conscious to ever message them again because I don’t want to have to see the double 'hey.’ So I guess I’m just never talking to them again. But I don’t think that’ll matter because Elena is either about to be 1) med evaced or 2) voted out either way. So I just have to worry about Brandon but like I don’t care if we talk or not to be completely honest. I’m just biding my time until a swap because EVERYONE I talked to before we got put into tribes is on that tribe so like that sucks. Hopefully they take pity on me and decide that they want to work with me.

its been a fun game but my time has come

As of now I know I’m on the bottom of my tribe which kinda sucks. Daisy and Logan made an alliance with Alex, John, and Josh and not me. That left me shocked as I thought me and Logan were having good talks. No matter that, Alex and John made an alliance with me telling me about that one. I’m prob their side piece but as long as it keeps me safe I don’t mind. I made an alliance with Stevie as I really like the guy. I need to speak more with Sara so I can align with her but i’m sure daisy got some side thing with her.

I went into the forest night one and received a self vote which i thought still allowed me to vote just have a vote against me. This turns out not to be the case. I can’t vote at all so this scares me. I told Alex and John about it so that they know they can trust me and in the morning I will be telling Stevie so he isn’t blindsided that I didn’t tell him. The plan is to get rid of Steven, he’s the easiest guy to vote out. Right now though I need to move myself into a good spot and not where I stand right now. But yeah my hope is that Steven is the vote. Not me lets hope.

So I got roped into a great alliance including Sam, Darian, and Keegan, and three of us have individual immunity for the next tribal! Unfortunately, Elena hasn’t said a word since the game started, and I’m a little worried she’s not doing too great. However, we’re voting her out because she’s going to be medevaced soon anyway, and we don’t want to lose 3 tribemates before we even swap. At this point in games, I can usually tell about how far I’ll go, but I really don’t have a clue right now. I could be swap boot or I could win. Hopefully I win.

I won immunity, yay! This is my first time ever winning an individual immunity. The other two individual immunities were won by my alliance members NED and DARIAN. No one on the other tribe is safe which means any one of them could be voted off.

The vote tonight is going to be really easy. ELENA hasn’t been around for a while, hopefully she’s alright and just too busy with real life to play the game. As far as I’m aware, everyone is voting for her. It doesn’t really matter though, I’m safe so I’m not worried.

well no ones talking

but i think elenas goin bc shes inact?