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i feel like a loading bar that's very slowly ticking up until i actually believe my therapist's belief that i have ocd
#shut up myth#i'm at. like. 30% at this point#i keep trying to talk myself out of it because it feels.......... almost appropriative and i've never seen people talk about the symptoms#that i've felt so it feels VERY fake#but the more i read and the more i talk it over with her the more i'm like......... okay well . maybe. i'll entertain the notion#two really big things that got me are the need to get reassurances from ppl and the need to rewrite things until they're Perfect#like holy shit those are two GIANT parts of why i habitually self isolate#like it feels so bad to consider bc i'm not like........in some ways these are debilitating but in other ways they are very much not#so it's like. i don't have it bad enough. it's like everything that's wrong w/ me#if people with ocd have it up to 100% i have it to 50% if people have depression at 100% i have it to 70%#if people with autism have it to 100% i have it to 60%#like???#i don't know. i get to work on time for the most part and i do what needs doing for the most part. i'm functional#i don't ENJOY being alive but that could so easily be explained by me being a piece of shit#idk! idk. i'm tired of not knowing for sure but also i am having such a hard time accepting that i'm diagnosable#and not just. as i say. a piece of shit#i can tell it's getting late bc all this self introspection is starting to get me down lmao#gonna light a candle and watch some gumball and go to bed#i oversteeped my oolong :<
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Compilation of EVERY single time they changed Hobie's filter in the digital version:
Left: Theatrical release Right: Digital release
You might have to click on some of them to get a better look at Hobie, sadly I don't have a video editor that allows me to make better edits than these :')
#This took so long to make lol#cause I had to edit every scene with Hobie from both versions so I could watch them right after one another to compare them#I did this with ALL the scenes he's in also the ones where he's on screen as spider-punk#but they only changed his filters in these scenes so it was a waste of time :')#sidenote: no it wasn't it's never a waste of time to look at hobie I just couldn't use it for my GIFset lol#I also made a bouns one but I'm not allowed to post more than 30 GIFs in one post apparently so I guess I just won't add it then...#but Hobie was basically filterless during all these scenes in the theatrical version#I like that they gave him more different filters in the digital version#the only change I don't like is in the first GIFs#cause like that one post pointed out it looks like they removed his lipstick for some reason#also really wish I had a better video editor so we could get a closer look at Hobie but I did my best with what I had#also slowed some of them down to get a better look at them#been having this idea for a while and now I finally finished it!#which means I can go back to working on my fics now#hopefully lol#also lemme know if there are some other scens you guys want me to make comparisons of#cause I have both versions#the theatrical release isn't the highest quality though so if you know where I can get my hands on a better version lemme know ;)#hobie brown#spider punk#miles morales#spider man#peter b parker#jess drew#miguel o'hara#spider man across the spider verse#across the spider verse#across the spiderverse#atsv#theatrical version
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a glimpse of what their early dynamic looks like
#i'm posting these in this blog first because i think its very silly#i could talk about them if you want me to#*ignores if you want to hear me or not and simply starts talking*#I think at some point during development i stopped thinking about them as 'mrs. afton and mr. afton'#it's funny knowing they were never supposed to meet at all#Ballora belongs to sister location. which takes place some time around 1983 or 1985 (Behind The Codes has its own canon timeline)#Fazbear's Fright happens in 2023. which is 30-40 years apart#but then we have Ultimate Custom Night. Everyone is trapped together in the same location seemingly with no chances of escaping.#if you think about it. they're just a part of this huge scrupulous plan#no one is predestined to anything. it's certainly not different for Springtrap and Ballora.#they are just... there. like everyone else#they are all linked in some way. all the clues tie back to the Missing Children Incident.#but... you're probably right. maybe there's more to it#maybe there is A Link rather than a link. you know what I mean?#Episode 3 will explore this and much more#for now. have these two idiots trying to figure out how to get out of trouble#behind the codes#fnaf#fnaf behind the codes#five nights at freddy's#ballora#springtrap#fnaf btc#my art#starbstalks
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You know what I need for a DCxDP crossover
Alternate timeline ghost/realms Batman who may or may not have become a god of family adopting the entirety of Amity Park. Like every single liminal or ghost, they're his kids now. Sure they have human parents in the living realm too, but they're all developing cores and need a realms parent too.
#dcxdp#dpxdc#prompts#imagine if the JL summon a powerful realms guardian spirit#and it's fuckin Batman- not *their* batman but still#It's a very big eldritch batman with like 30 kids/teens in his arms#actually they're pretty sure there's like a couple adults too#Bonus points if flashpoint batman is there too#murder grandpa of vengeance whose about to whoop pariah's ass for daring to threaten his kid & grand-ghostlings#“So apparently Batman is safe in the realms because there's a version of his dad whose now on the throne-”#because lets be honest#flashpoint Thomas would kill pariah for even looking at his family wrong#Ras is going to die if they ran into lil ghost robin Jason#Imagine ur a goon and u hear RH yell something like#“Fuck you B and fuck ur no kill rule I'm summoning gramps”#“He'll be down for murder and u can't do shit about it”
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Lal jumping Riker right after learning about dating is equivalent to booting up a game and immediately starting with the final boss
#sorry for the shitty quality. netflix won't let me screenshot#which is so fucking stupid btw??? like what is da point#do they think i'm going to pirate this 30 year old show frame by frame#christ#anyway#tng#star trek tng#lal soong#william riker#takes#ugh look at him bent over that table. never beating the babygirl allegations
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Woah. Sefikura nekomimi nonsensical au be upon you.
#stratatata#my art#ff7#sefikura#cloud strife#sephiroth#sketch page#ig#ignore that big ass blank space i couldn't think of anything else#anyway despite all my love for angeal and gen this seph hasnt met them yet#in fact he ran away to nibel pretty early on. in this au. and lives in the manor with vincent knocked out downstairs#he isn't aware theres a kid in the house either#i promiseb everyone meets at some point tho#BTW I'M AWARE SEPHIROTH IS LIKE 30 I KNOW BUT WERE PLAYING PRETEND
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like i said, truly fascinating people on this app!
#oh this takes me back this feels like some good old 2014 tumblr drama#first of all don't be publicly disrespectful if you don't wanna be called out for being publicly disrespectful! crazy concept!#second of all i made a point to mention that no one should look you up and be rude to you. if anyone did i don't agree with their actions-#but i don't control them. once again you shouldn't have been publicly rude if you didn't want people to see you being rude!#third of all......you're pulling the minority card.......buddy you think i'm a cishet white man cause i'm not.....anyway#actually you came onto my (a minority's) blog and was rude to me (a minority) and then sent 30 asks to me (a minority) 🥺🥺🥺 /s#me.txt#delete later
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#ok the idea was for day 19 but also works for like.... day 15 and also 30#and probably others#mine#amc iwtv#louis de pointe du lac#lestat de lioncourt#loustat#music#intertext#lyrics#web weaving#iwtvfanevents#a little night music#stephen sondheim#i'm vampire chronicling#the version of this where it's louis and daniel respectively about lestat and armand lmfao#Spotify
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Canon Characters vs OC vs x Reader
Disclaimer: This is just my two cents, and my perspective on things, and I'm not trying to lay down the law for everyone. I needed to just put this to words though, in order to sleep.
I was thinking about this because of a post I saw, and some, we'll say, kind of useless comments associated with the post. Mean-spirited stuff.
Normally, in one ear and out the other, but the vibes just kicked me off down a rabbit hole of sorts an I wanted to try to put some of my thoughts to words.
First, some style vibes:
Canon x Canon Canon/Canon stories are, to me, like reading an episode of that show. I'm sitting down in front of a TV or whatever, and I'm experiencing the story As A Viewer. I like this style because I don't really have to expend much energy and I just kind of roll with whatever's happening. Generally some sort of 3rd person perspective.
OC x canon OC/Canon stories are like being on a carnival ride. I'm sitting in a car on a roller-coaster, and maybe the OC is sitting next me. I'm experiencing the story more deeply than strictly canon stories, but my connection with the OC is no deeper than say, my connection with Katniss Everdeen when I read The Hunger Games. Sometimes 3rd person, sometimes first person.
Reader x canon Reader/Canon (or Reader x/ OC) is like putting on a VR helmet. I don't get much physical input about the "Reader OC" because I'm experiencing the story through their eyes. I don't expect the reader to be me, but there's a bigger feeling of immersion to be had. Some description might happen cause it's relevant to the story, and it's still a type of ride, I can't jump the rails on the roller coaster, after all. (Even with a VN you still follow the tracks). Sometimes first person, sometimes second person (I'm partial to 2nd person perspective, but that's just me).
I love Fan Fiction, I love it. All of it, and man even more than anything, what I love is that I'm going to dislike 80% of it. Because that 80% was written for someone who is not me. (Hell, that number's probably closer to 99% if we're looking at ALL fandoms, but I digress).
Second - The VENT:
What got me the most in the post that prompted this, was someone saying "Bring back the Mary Sue OCs!" and then they went on to describe something more detailed, and I just -
Look, respectfully, fuck you.
The point is, you're not going to be happy no matter what. Whether it's "mary sue" OCs, or x readers, or alternative universes, or a ship you don't like, you're going to find something to be unhappy about.
Cause people have been bitching about all styles of fan fiction since the first "You've Got Mail" chimed in 1991. And until 1998 and ff.net you really had to hunt for it, and until 2007 and Ao3 the idea of tagging a fic for any reason wasn't really a thing. Every click was a surprise! \o/
I just have seen the same song and dance a dozen times. It's exhausting. People become okay with OCs and decide x readers are the enemy, and before that OCs were *all* Mary Sues and cringe and people who made OCs were the enemy, and before OCs people who wrote even a little OOC were the enemy, and people who wrote AUs were the enemy, and you can write fan fic but it HAS to be Canon Compliant, and everyone MUST be in-character at all times - "They would not fucking say that" was the enemy.
Look, just please - please - in any capacity, stop it with the "All X style of story telling is crap" mindset. There's over a dozen different ways to do x readers alone. I know 20 x reader writers and I don't think any of us have the same style, preferences, or vibes.
I've had a lot of comments along the lines of "I thought I hated x readers, but I really loved this." on a few different fics I've written. Sometimes it's not the style of the fic, sometimes it's the style of the writer, and my Brother In Christ - you're going to have to read some awful shit to shuffle through the thousands of writers out there to find the vibes that resonate with you.
Ostracizing entire swathes of fan fic because you need something to be "The Enemy" so you can lift up something else, and then bitching you can't find anything new to read seems like a personal problem.
And I know y'all are scrolling by TONS of posts that don't interest you, every day, as a matter of course. So don't give me that "clogging up the tag" BS, because we deserve to be here same as anyone else in the fandom.
#quin grumbles#I'm so aggravated I don't even really know how to tag this#like almost 30 years of it I'm just so done#I just wonder what amazing stories we're not getting#cause of some fucker using Mary Sue to belittle someone#or someone beating someone else over the head with plot armor because their protag survived something terrible?#How many “Oh.” moments have been missed because someone criticized the very concept of reader insert?#I'm way past my usual bedtime so I'm just rambling at this point#and I am being meaner than I'd like#but JFC#I'm not going to let people's bullshit opinions stop me or anyone else from writing if I can avoid it.#Write what you want#gush about it#talk about it#TELL ME ABOUT IT#IDGAF if it's cringe or overpowered or broken or flawless or an OC or a reader with a name or WHATEVER#If it brings you joy#then do it#and if people are too mean to scroll by it when it's not their thing#and then complain like they're entitled to do so#block 'em.#and tell me who they are so I can block them too#then write more#cause I promise it'll bring someone else joy too
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The Pale Elf
3D print sculpted by Bulkamancer, printed in Siraya Tech grey UV Resin on my Elegoo Mars 2, and hand-painted by me! I cannot be more pleased with how he turned out 🥰
Detailed shots under the cut
Had to share all these gorgeous details, like the TEXTURES on this models are just gorgeous! All that filigree and bead detailing is raised which made painting it much easier, but still very tedious (so worth the results though). This was my first time painting a face bigger than tabletop mini scale, and boy was I intimidated. Had some friends point me to ball-jointed doll makers and learned about detailing faces with chalk pastels, so I used pastels to give his cheeks some colour, blush the tips of his ears, and make the shadows under his eyes. I could go back and add more colour/texture to his hair but I think its best if I leave it, lest I play with it too much and end up ruining things. I have to keep reminding myself that just cause I can see things in macro lens photos, doesn't mean I'm actually able to go correct those things 😅
Regardless, I'm so so happy with how he turned out, and its crazy that I can look at this and go "me!!! I PAINTED THAT!! ME!!!", and now I have a stunning model of everyones favourite lil rat bastard (affectionate) vampire mans💕
#Astarion#astarion bg3#bg3 astarion#astarion ancunin#bg3#bg3 art#baulders gate 3#baulders gate 3 astarion#miniature painting#3d modeling#scale model#mini painting#model painting#I saw someone on social media with a fully painted astarion model#and was like WANT but having one professionally painted was $$$#and I thought to myself “I have a printer...I can paint...I'll just make my own!”#those artists deserve every dang penny they charge cause this took me like 30 hours#and before anyone asks no I won't be selling him or taking commissions#this was art just for me <3#I've already got an artsy side hustle I'm not making yet another hobby of mine a job lols#also bonus points to anyone who notices the rip in the back of his doublet#I didnt wanna wait to print a new one (and was out of resin) so I just went with it bc you can't see it from the front anyways hahahah
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missed experiencing whimsy so i started anew. except this time i went and recruited astarion first. his initial opinion on shadowheart is hilarious.
#bg3#bg3 spoilers#astarion#thoughts about media#i will finish my original game later at some point#act 3 is just not as fun i want to enjoy act 1 & 2 again#see what new interactions i can get by doing certain things differently#i might do another file as another character next but i'm just playing corydalis again this time#well. korydalis for this run. so i do not confuse the files#anyways glad astarion said what we were all thinking.#that's like. a ~30 year old woman with a warrior cats name. it's ODD.
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Happy Shun Duel Links Day!!! (party popper emoji)
#yugioh arc v#yugioh arc-v#arc-v#shun#yuto#comic#duel links#sorry for the long format but OOH it looks so clean when its all in one line!!!#this almost didn't make it out of my wip jail cells because i spent 30 mins on one of the panels#using references and everything but it just looked super duper odd and it was a waste of time overall#and don't even get me started on the toning (clenches fist) nothing was looking right at one point#but enough about the process i want to talk about the comic itself#part of the motivation for drawing this was seeing all the fluffy shunyoot celebration pics during his roaming event#they ARE cute but also i really really wanted so badly to see shun's visceral reaction that didn't reduce him to mere comedic fodder#(something i'm also guilty of)#so anyway like we always say in ygos we make our own food#wow im rambling anyways the last line of dialogue i had most trouble with but also the most proud of#no shade to the writers of the show (ok maybe like a LITTLE shade) but with this comic i really wanted to reflect the feelings of both#fans of the show as well as fans that left after the ending because that was something i saw floating on jp twitter during the roaming even#and it really made me Think#also can we talk about how in the event yuya was just like hey shun i have a surprise for you!!! haha :]#he was THERE when shun said never appear in front of me ever again did he think shun would just be omg yuto :)#this is why youre my favourite (yuya)#anyways last but not least#the final yuto panel is a healthy mix of guilt + existential dread and doubt about his own existence i hope that was obvious enough
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What do you think as Hermione's career would be post battle of Hogwarts? To me her being minister for magic really doesn't make sense. She does not have patience or tact to wade through murky waters of politics 😭😭
So hard to say! The Trio are so, so young when we leave them, I find it almost impossible to project their futures farther than a few years out. The job that suited me at 17 would be radically unsuited to me now. That's why of all the Trio, Ron's ending strikes me as the most realistic — he jumps straight into the save-the-world business again, burns out, realizes he's actually Done The Fuck Enough, Thanks, and pivots into a low-stress career where he gets to see his family a lot. Feels accurate! The others are weirder to me because they do seem to just... pick a lane and stay there.
With Hermione, you could spin her a couple ways. You could say that she leans into her bookish side and does research or teaching, which is not my preference for a couple reasons (namely, I don't think Hermione would like academia as a profession; she finds her classwork interesting and enjoys intellectual validation, but she'd be stifled and wasted in a DPhil program, and she'd be infuriated by the administrative politicking of your average higher-ed faculty). You could say that she gets disaffected with politics and ends up as a barrister or a lobbyist of some kind, but if anything that requires more political finesse, because you don't actually have institutional power, you're just handling the people who make decisions and trying to persuade them of your goals. This is not Hermione's preferred method of influence. She's not even particularly good at persuasion, she just happens to be smart enough (and right often enough) that people take her ideas seriously.
Or you could say her brashness fades with the years into a softened flavor of tell-you-like-it-is honesty, which some politicians actually do successfully trade on; as we see in British politics today, you don't have to be all that charming or clever to get ahead, you just need to be really driven and well-connected (which Hermione completely is; she fought shoulder-to-shoulder with the first postwar Minister and her bestie, the Literal Messiah, runs the Auror Office.) But I don't know if Hermione especially wants to be Minister, after the war. She's just watched years of horrendous bureaucratic incompetence plunge the country into a violent civil conflict. She's had not one, but two Ministers of Magic try to bully or shame her friends into complicity with fascism. Her view of government is... likely extremely dark.
But Hermione also isn't the kind of person who sees her life as a quest for happiness. Babygirl has a savior complex that makes Harry look selfish. (She basically kills her parents — yeah, obliviating is a form of murder, #changemymind — "for their own good," and justifies every batshit, vindictive, mean-spirited move she ever pulls on the grounds that it "helps" one of her friends.) She is a mean, lean, dragon-slaying machine, and she needs a dragon. After Voldemort, the Ministry is the no. 1 threat to muggle-borns and non-wizarding Beings. As a war heroine with basically infinite political capital, I'd be surprised if she didn't try to do something there. That said, Hermione is so vivacious and dynamic that she could potentially grow in a hundred different directions; it's possible that all of this, while true of her at 18, becomes completely inaccurate by 22. That's why I'm not too fussed about any particular fanon interpretation.
#greenteacup asks#sidebar: I know Minister “of” Magic is an Americanism but mea culpa#Someday I might actually bite it and pay someone to britpick Lionheart but I can't do it now#because I have a ban on editing published fic unless it's finished. Otherwise I'll never get around to writing the actual ending#I have a Process#is it the best process? likely not! but it makes the words go. so here we are.#I also think the fact that JKR is Gen X makes a difference here. careers worked differently in the 80s and 90s than they do now#i.e. we have the gig economy and a lot more mobility and EXPECTATION of mobility in your early life#that means career changes & professional pivots through your 20s and 30s are increasingly normal#and in fact have always been normal — but the image of the 'true' or 'ideal' career has changed#so we look at those careers and go hm. really? none of them changed?#none of them even went to uni? do wizards... just not?#but again. I believe the epilogue was written almost completely without consideration as to what happened between the BOH and then#I really believe that JKR did not know what happened to Harry except a wedding and 3 kids. because that was the whole point#I don't think she even knew what his career was when she wrote that scene#It existed to marry everyone off and do a quick munchkin headcount#because of the understandable temptation as an author to keep your hand on the wheel. but it didn't even matter!#the epilogue changed NOTHING! it was the most useless chapter in the series! I just — GOD#you can absolutely accuse me of being sour grapes about my ships getting nixed. I AM sour grapes. I AM a hater.#AND I have plot/theme/craft reasons for disliking it.#I'm not objective. I just want credit for being a sophisticated hater. my grapes may be sour but they're still artisinal.
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when ur so tired you sleep on and off for 13 hours straight
#scrolling back thru discord is a hilarious exercise in self-delusion#'I'm awake!' (I was not).#at one point I confidently declared 'OK 11:30 is more like it! morning!'#using an explanation mark to show my COMMITMENT to being Awake!#and was asleep again before Rana could reply.#feel great now tho strongly recommend sleeping like shit for a week and then passing out for a whole day on the bank hols
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The Vocal Synth Alarms for Executive Dysfunction - Self Care Pack now has a Megurine Luka variant! 💗🩷💜
GET LUKA HERE • GET MIKU HERE
#vocaloid#hatsune miku#megurine luka#actually autistic#executive dysfunction#self care alarms#vocal synth#sorry i'm posting about these for the trillionth time it's just that ITS BEEN A YEAR AHH#luka's took me so long y'all like let me have this okay? had big executive dysfunction with getting hers done#it's SOOOO much work it was 30+ hours easily#also my face jumpscare lol sorry#sorry i'm talking weird i decided to unmask and mask at weird points
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chapters 51 and 58 of bloodmarked are absolutely CARRYING bree/nick/selwyn polyamory truthers
#selwyn is kind of a stupid name I realized as I was typing this. like I've gotten used to it over 2 books but it's so silly. selwyn#anyway. me disappearing for days and only showing up for like 30 minutes to reblog 3 things#and make a nigh incomprehensible post letting you guys know what book I'm reading now (read. I finished it yesterday actually.#now I'm rereading legendborn bc I'm apparently not ready to move on to a new book and also I forgot most of the shit from that book)#anyway I've been on the polyamory train for these 3 since I read legendborn in 2020 but I swear it's only gotten stronger#like what do you MEAN selwyn (magically oathed to protect nick) FEELS SAFER with nick around#THE SAME WAY BREE DOES. AND BOTH SELWYN AND NICK LIKE. AGREE ON HOW MUCH THEY LOVE BREE. AND THERE'S NO WEIRD JEALOUSY ABOUT IT#AND SELWYN CANONICALLY WAS AT ONE POINT IN LOVE WITH NICK????#AND NICK LITERALLY SAYS TO SEL “I CAN'T LOSE YOU AND I WON'T LOSE HER”????#LIKE?????#THERE IS NO WAY THIS IS YOUR STANDARD ASS LOVE TRIANGLE IT'S GOTTA BE AT LEAST A LITTLE POLYAMORUS#IF NOT A FULL TRIANGLE BREE SHOULD AT *LEAST* GET 2 BOYFRIENDS. SHE DESERVES IT#even if it does end up a standard love triangle though this is honestly a genuinely good one#like I genuinely like both love interests neither of them are weird or annoying or creepy about her#anyway. need book 3 out as soon as possible I swear to god I almost can't see how this ends in monogamy#I'm talking about the legendborn series by tracy deonn btw everyone#another arthurian inspired book series which if you saw my other post the other day I swear this isn't intentional#legendborn#bloodmarked#the legendborn cycle#tracy deonn#bree matthews#nick davis#selwyn kane
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