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You’ve Always Been Mine

chapter 15

`jooheon

i sat in my room, looking at the ceiling. it was already about to be 3am- and i hadn’t slept. i reached down for my phone and tried calling nori again. this time, it rang.

i sat up, hopeful that she would answer. “come on, nori. pick up.” i said annoyed.

i tossed my phone on the nightstand as it went straight to voicemail. what could she be doing right now? why weren’t the guys back.

my mind raced with thoughts of nori and wonho. i groaned as my mind went back to the after party incident.

pacing my room, i brushed my fingers through my hair and bit down on my bottom lip.

i gotta see her.

i grabbed my hoodie, throwing it on over my head and snatched up my phone.

on my way out, kihyun came out of his room.

“jooheon? where are you going?” he whispered.

i rolled my eyes, ignoring his statement and left the dorm.

arriving at nori’s apartment, i jumped out of the car- racing straight to her door.

“nori!” i called out as i knocked.

i waited for a few minutes- no answer.

i knocked again.

“please- i just wanna talk. let me explain” i voiced desperately.

i sat there for a minute, before realizing that no one was home. where in the world could she be?

`nori

i gently cleared my throat as wonho approached me.

“i could go get something for you, if you like-”

his eyes never wandered. part of me wanted him to look, but the other half- didnt.

“t-that would be great. thank you.” i finally announced. wonho shook his head and snickered.

“i dont remember you ever being this nervous.” he said as he walked to the door. “any special request?”

i shook my head. “whatever you like, is fine with me.” i tugged the sleeves over my hands and gave a polite smile.

“oh wait-” i said holding up my finger. i quickly ran to my room, grabbing the extra room key from the dresser and handed it to wonho.

“just in case i end up falling asleep.” i chuckled.

wonho nodded, taking the key and slipping it in his back pocket- then left.

i relaxed my shoulders and exhaled with relief, running back into my room and shutting the door- before shownu woke up, looking for a late night snack too.

before i could get back in bed, i heard a phone ring. i furrowed my brows and tilted my head.

“oh.. that’s me.”

i hadn’t had a phone in so long, that it didn’t even register for a moment. searching the room for my purse, i yawned and tossed my dress off to the side- finding my purse hiding.

retrieving the phone, jooheon’s name popped up. i guess he saved his number before giving it to me.

i sighed and let it ring, as i stared at the screen.

i wanted to answer, i really did. but i just couldn’t- literally. my fingers weren’t moving.

i missed him badly. i wanted nothing more than to be with him, at this exact moment. but, he just pissed me off so much. i felt like he really didnt have my back with this whole seulgi thing.

and wonho was right. jooheon should be treating me better. this wasnt fair to me. and to be honest- im really pissed off that he didnt even tell me about the award show in the first place. AND for making me think that he invited me, then showed up with her.

i huffed then placed my phone back into the bag, tossing the entire thing on the floor- once again.

i should really just give him a taste of his own medicine. see how he’d like it.

i rolled my eyes, pulling off wonho’s sweater and the alcohol panties- jumping back into the robe. i felt this was a little more appropriate for when wonho got back.

`wonho

after picking up some food, i made my way back to the dorm for a few things. shownu and i needed something to change into once we left the girls, and i figured misun would appreciate something of shownu’s as well.

afted i packed the bags- i knocked softly on jooheon’s door. i figured the least i could do, was let him know that nori was safe. if he even cared.

the lights were off and it was extremely quiet, which was weird. he would normally be playing music or rapping to himself.

turning the knob, i opened the door to an empty room- a little disappointed. i honestly, didnt even want to be fighting with him. it wasnt like us. but, i knew nori was a sensitive topic and i guess he felt a lot for her. i couldnt blame him- she’s an amazing girl.

sitting down on the bed, i sighed- thinking of how this thing was going to be fixed.

“wonho?”

i snapped my head in the direction of the door and there stood kihyun, squinting his eyes.

“what are you doing in here? jooheon’s not here.” he said rubbing his eyes.

“where’d he go?” i questioned.

kihyun shrugged.

“i have no idea- he just left.” he ran his fingers through his hair as we were quiet for a moment.

“how are the girls?” he asked folding his arms. i laughed a bit.

“why do you care? you dont even like them.” i announced.

kihyun breathed out heavily.

“it’s not that i dont like them- i just seen all this drama happening before it even unfolded. and no one ever listens to me.” he shrugged.

i stood up from jooheon’s bed and hummed.

“so, that means you have to be disrespectful to two women who did absolutely nothing to you?” i said walking past him.

kihyun was quiet and didnt move an inch. he stood there for a minute or two, before following me out to the front door.

“you’re right.” he said softly.

i looked back at him- and for once, he looked like he was actually sorry for something. i knew that hell would have to freeze over, in order for him to actually say those words though.

we stood in silence for a moment before i flashed a small smile. i understood and so did he. words didnt even have to be exchanged at this point.

“they’re fine. i’ll tell them you said hello.”

we both nodded then i made my way back out to the car.

`nori

hearing a knock, i shot up from the bed and ran down the hall- opening the front door for wonho. he had two bags strapped on his shoulder and a few bags of food.

“i guess you didnt need the key after all.” i said chuckling. “that was fast.”

shutting the door behind him, i grabbed the food from his hands and placed it on the counter- before looking inside. “you know, sushi is my favorite.” i giggled.

“so i’ve heard.” wonho grinned as he placed the two bags on the couch. “oh, before i forget.” he said reaching in his back pocket.

he froze for a moment.

“shit.” he mumbled.

“what’s the matter?” i asked, tilting my head.

“i think the key fell out of my pocket.” he said looking down at the floor. i shook my head and laughed softly. “it’s okay- we have another one. dont worry about it.”

he hummed, turning his attention back to the bags. “i figured you’d be more comfortable in these.”

wonho held up a pair of sweatpants and a familiar looking shirt. tossing one of the sushi rolls in my mouth, i looked down at the counter.

“jooheon’s?” i mumbled.

“yes.” he said plainly. “felt this would be a little more respectful to you.”

i glanced up at him and his expression was soft. as i chewed, i thought about what i said to myself earlier. about jooheon, getting a taste of his own medicine. he needed to feel the type of hurt that i was feeling, and boy was i ready to give it to him.

“i think i would sleep better if i had something of yours.” i said quietly.

wonho’s brows lifted and he chuckled.

he nodded and didnt argue with my statement- as he walked back over to the bags, grabbing some clothes for me.

was i doing the right thing?

picking up another roll, i tossed it in my mouth before walking over to him. he smiled as he turned around, handing me his sweatpants and a oversized t-shit. i took them, thanking him- then ran off to the bathroom to change.

stepping into the sweatpants, i laughed as i pulled them up. they were obviously way too big. i rolled them at the waist then slipped into his t-shirt.

leaving the robe on the bathroom floor, i walked out- and wonho was shirtless.

“oh..uuh-” i said blushing. i quickly turned around and he laughed.

“stop being weird- you’ve seen me shirtless countless times on stage.” he said calmly. “its okay.”

meeting his eyes, he shook his head and walked over to the sushi, grabbing the boxes and bringing them over to the couch. “come sit with me.” he said angelically. i followed behind him like a lost puppy dog, and plopped down on the cushion. it was hard to keep my eyes off his body, if im going to be honest.

part of me thought, he only wanted to be shirtless to show off his abs. not because he was comfortable. i silently laughed to myself and he looked over at me.

“what?” he said handing me a pair of chopsticks. i shook my head. “nothing. just thinking.” i voiced.

“hm, what are you thinking about?” he said sitting back after popping a sushi roll in his mouth. he draped his arm across the back of the couch, making it impossible to keep my eyes off his chest. it was just there, and open. and so muscular.

“trust me, you dont wanna know what goes on in my mind-” i said jokingly.

“of course i do. i’d love to hear.”

we sat for a few hours, talking and laughing. the rain had calmed down a bit and the sun was starting to rise.

“oh my gosh, what time is it?” i said looking out the window. “the sun is already rising?”

wonho slightly yawned and looked down at his watch. “it’s already 5:15am” he chuckled.

i couldnt believe we sat here for that long and just talked.

i sighed and looked back over at him. “im sorry for keeping you up. i know you guys have a busy day today.” i said apologizing.

he shook his head. “i had a great time- you dont need to apologize.” wonho flashed a soft smile.

a few minutes later, shownu opened the bedroom door- walking out into the kitchen- of course, with his shirt off. wonho and i both greeted him with a soft, good morning.

“you guys havent slept, have you?” he said putting on his glasses. shownu ruffled his hair a bit and yawned.

“i’ll be okay. but nori, should really get some rest.” wonho rubbed my hand before taking mine in his and helping me to my feet.

“nice clothes.” shownu said sarcastically as he came to grab his bag from the couch. i slightly blushed, looking down at my feet.

“um, thanks for the food wonho. will we be seeing you guys later?” i asked, walking over to the hallway where my room was located.

shownu chuckled. “we’ll defiantly let you know after practice. wonho, you should shower first- i wanna spend a little time with misun before we leave.” he said quickly.

making his way back into the room, wonho approached me.

“will you be alright if we leave you two here?” he asked. i nodded and looked back down at the floor. “im sure we will. thanks for staying- it was really nice talking to you all night.”

wonho agreed then opened his arms, pulling me into a hug. his milky skin was soft and he squeezed me very lightly.

“go get some rest.” he pulled away from my body, grabbing my hips and pushing me to the bedroom. with that, i chuckled and made my way inside- shutting the door quietly.

`jooheon

walking back into the dorm- i looked down at my watch and groaned at the time.

“where have you been all night? you dont look like you slept at all.” kihyun said greeting me.

i shook my head and didnt speak.

“hey..” he said softly as he followed me to my room.

i shut my eyes, placing my hand on my door. “i just wanna sleep, kihyun. im not in the mood to talk.” i groaned.

“its about nori.”

i sighed and entered the room and he stood in the doorway- with his hands in his pockets.

“yeah, yeah. i know- you told me so. anything else you wanna gloat about?”

i belly flopped onto the mattress, covering my head with the pillow.

“well, since you mentioned it. this-” i heard a light chuckled in his voice.

i pushed the pillow off my head and looked up at him, widening my eyes a bit.

in between his fingers, sat a white and gold key card- reading “four seasons”.

“is that a room key?” i sat up quickly, taking it from his hand. “where did you get this?” i questioned as i furrowed my brows.

kihyun shook his head. “just go fix all of this, please. so we can get the group back together in one piece.”

he patted my shoulder and walked off.

`nori

i opened my eyes and groaned as i heard a few knocks at the door.

did anyone else not hear that?

“misun..are you awake?” i called out for her as i walked into the hallway, eyes halfway closed. squinting at the clock in the kitchen, i noticed it was 6am. i hadn’t even been asleep for an hour yet.

as i walked closer to the bathroom, i heard the shower turn off.

huffing slightly, i made my way to the front door- ripping it open. as i rubbed my eyes, they became wider. i inhaled sharply and froze entirely.

jooheon was standing right in front of me, with pink and white roses in his hands.

my mouth hung open as he looked down at me. he looked so tired, like he hadn’t slept in years. his hoodie was tossed over his head and his smile was weak.

“nori..” he breathed. “i tried to call..” he stated.

his words weren’t even processing correctly.

was this a dream?

i rubbed my eyes once again and jooheon was still standing there.

“w-what are you doing here?” i stuttered. my heart was beating so fast, it almost felt like it was going to burst.

before jooheon could open his mouth, the bathroom door swung open and wonho walked out with a towel wrapped around his waist.

“who’s that at the d-?”

wonho stopped as him and jooheon made eye contact.

i felt the sadness in his eyes as they went straight from wonho, to me. he examined my attire, finally making the connection.

i was in wonho’s clothes.

me, nori- the woman that was in love with jooheon, was in wonho’s clothing.

his shoulders dropped and his face became extremely pale. the flowers fell out of his hands and he slowly started to back up.

“jooheon..i swear, this isn’t what it looks like..” i whispered. the tears started to fall from my eyes, and i didnt even know it- until they hit my chin.

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journeysintowebcomics · 7 years

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Homestuck Liveblog #170

UPDATE 170: Dave Gets His Epiphany

Last time Hussie had decided it was time to pour even more dialogue onto the readers, since last time it hadn’t been enough, hah! Ten different dialogue options – presented linearly, in a subversion of how this usually goes. So let’s continue with what may or may not be the last chance these characters have of talking to each other before the fights.

So I heard that hovering over the options one already cleared would show images, and that was right! There are images. It seems Dave and Dirk continue just...lying around awkwardly, and Vriska and her ghost are arguing while Meenah fantasizes about varied stuff. There’s more than can be done, although the very next option is Roxy being alone. She’s still trying to create the matriorb. Calliope is sitting right in front of her, in silent support role. Roxy channels the universe and Alternia’s complicated state of matters, and...

Well! Mission accomplished! That was easier than I thought it’d be, even with Calliope’s silent help. I suppose there wasn’t more time for delaying this any longer. Kanaya is going to be immensely happy the troll race will be resurrected now. This was a short detour, completely devoid of words but with a significant development – at least to complete quite some part of Roxy and Kanaya’s arcs and goals in this story.

Unfortunately for everyone involved, Roxy and Calliope leave right when the bizarre combination that is Jasprosesprite arrives to hassle Jane for a while longer. I’m crossing my fingers this’ll be quick and painless.

JASPROSESPRITE^2: Miss me Rose? JASPROSESPRITE^2: Did you know I love you?? Weird thing for me to say and you to hear, probably! JASPROSESPRITE^2: I inherited the adoration our cat had for you, which now strangely is directed with the exact same intensity at myself, because I'm you! JASPROSESPRITE^2: Funnily enough this manifests itself in a particularly acute form of narcissism, which is something we were already sort of afflicted by, and so was our cat by the very nature of the sort of animal he was! JASPROSESPRITE^2: The bottom line is I'm pretty twisted up inside in all the most beautiful ways and it's wonderful. ROSE: It really isn't.

Haha, okay, that one was actually pretty funny. She’s not wrong, Rose, you do tend to have slight traces of narcissism in your personality. Guess that all the increased narcissism in this sprite is what makes it have absolutely no brain-mouth filter, what with having an inflated sense of the self and what one says. Being a cat can’t help that either.

Now that Jasperosesprite made the customary hassling towards Rose, she gets straight to business about the battle plan. She has to arrange with Jane how it’ll be done, after all. This is achieved by taking Jane away without even giving her a moment to prepare. There’s someone she needs to meet, somebody in Jane’s planet.

Ah, true, the denizen. The New Wonderkids’ session was rather lacking in information about the denizens, especially since this session was meant to do pretty much nothing. Given Hussie’s track record so far, I’m almost completely sure that Jane’s talk with the denizen will happen off-screen and the characters will talk about it once it’s done, so...no more option than waiting until this is done!

Damn it , I have been bamboozled! Well played, Hussie, you had me fooled, I admit it. This could be good, though, not everyday you meet a senior version of yourself that’s dressed as a clown and...is the mother of your father. This is time-travel-gone-wrong levels of weird.

Aw, come on, Hussie, I wanted to see this! But nope, just when Nannasprite got in front of Jane the section ended and went to the next. Oh well. I’m really hoping I’ll have the chance to see how this goes, but I’m not going to hold my breath over it. The scribbled images of what the rest of the options are doing show John and Terezi discussing how Rose could have a black romance status with, uh, a version of herself. Yeeeeeeah no, let’s not do that. Doesn’t seem healthy – just ask Karkat, it’d be a headache.

About Roxy and Calliope, they just arrived to what I think is Jade’s planet, and Calliope is told to stay with Jade. I had completely forgotten Jade is still asleep. It’s once again said that it’s nice to have Calliope around. And...that was it! I just summarized around six or so pages in this very short paragraph.

I think that goes way beyond the realm of kismesis behavior Rose...and out of the realm of sanity as well. Stay away from any copies of the Sassacre book, resist the temptation. Anyways, Dave and Dirk are still here. Going to try to talk again? They’re focusing more on the battle to come than on anything else. Hah! No progress on the heartfelt conversation front, apparently.

DAVE: hes got lord english powers tho

It could be a way to know how well a fight against Lord English would go, then. Sure, Union Jack is completely different, less bulky, has no time powers, and presumably has one single personality in that noggin of his instead of being a weird amalgamation, but it’d be a way to see if they are ready to fight against Lord English. Think of it as having training wheels on your bike.

Swords can’t help you solve problems with people, who’d have thought. Dirk and Jake are the closest example to how someone who has spent their formative years alone and without the presence of people around would behave: with no social skills at all. Jade got very lucky in that regard, she is very well-balanced for someone who grew on an island and only had a dog for company. Then again, her Dreamself must have been of help, the Prospitians must have helped her have some people skills.

DIRK: ... DAVE: ...

Nothing has changed here.

It takes a few pages more before Dirk takes the plunge headfirst down the emotional cliff, with all the grace of a novice. It does get the conversation going, mostly about how this isn’t how he pictured the meeting going.

DIRK: Maybe you'll think it's weird that I idolized some version of you that I never knew.

These two are much more similar than they each realize. Their upbringings aren’t that different, heck, I’d say that Lil’ Hal fulfilled the role Bro had, just with less sword attacks. Other than that it was pretty much the same, an isolated life with an aloof person/glasses in the vicinity. Come on, Dave, admit you idolized Bro. That’d be a great step towards turning the page in your life and bonding with Dirk, you can do it!

DAVE: ive got to say DAVE: meeting you DAVE: its not rockin my world here DAVE: or upending any paradigms or whatever DAVE: listening to you and looking at you DAVE: it really really just DAVE: reminds me of him

Close enough! I’m a bit downtrodden there was no exchange of words between Bro and Dave so I could have a reference on how similar this actual situation is to how they got along. I imagine Bro wasn’t that different from Dirk.

DIRK: Things, between you and me, from your perspective, um, DIRK: Are we like, not cool? DAVE: ..................

I’m not sure if it’s telling or not that there was no ‘yeah’ or similar quick response.

DAVE: i didnt fuckin like you that much ok?

...

...okay, that isn’t how I thought it’d go. I suppose there’s a difference between idolizing and actually liking a person. Good for you for saying it aloud, Dave. It must have been very difficult to say to anybody, even more to a version of your brother.

After a sequence of images meant to show how little time passed between Dave going “I don’t want to talk about it” to “okay heres what im saying” he finally starts...and boy is it tough.

DAVE: i dunno why my friends got to have adults around who cared about them DAVE: they complained bitterly about stuff so i guess i convinced myself they were all in the same boat as me DAVE: but thats not how it was

That’s pretty much how kids and teenagers are, they complain and don’t realize sometimes such complaints aren’t about things as bad as they could be. Leaving behind such behavior is part of growing up. Dave didn’t realize how badly he was being treated, though, he just saw no difference between his life and the lives of the rest of his friends – at first.

DAVE: so all thats left to do is look back and try to put the pieces together of my first 13 years DAVE: and all i can think is what the fuck WAS that?! DAVE: i dont come away with the impression i used to try convincing myself of, that he was like "mysterious" or "stern" or "aloof" DAVE: the only feeling left is this insane impression that i was raised by somebody who fuckin HATED me

...hated you? Hm...honestly? I don’t know. Bro’s way of raising Dave had a lot of things wrong, and I really don’t know how to interpret it. I’m interested on knowing how other people interpreted it. Would you mind telling me your thoughts, everyone? I really don’t know what to think about this.

Dirk actually sounds horrified about what he’s hearing. Perhaps he doesn’t like the thought of his equivalent doing this all?

DAVE: it took years to deconstruct it all and put it back together to understand how fuckin mad i should be DAVE: and in particular how stone cold deeply uncared for i was my whole life DAVE: like... being merely "monitored" by a violent robot

Haha...you know what this brought to mind? What went through my head right when I read this part?

TT: Don't worry, that's normal. TT: Upon activation he goes into Stalking Mode. GT: Stalking mode?? TT: Yes. He will stalk you in the jungle and strike when your guard is down.

It’s exactly that. Dave pretty much described the robot Dirk made and sent to Jake. It’s pretty much the same in terms of how Dave was raised! Wow, Hussie, did you do this on purpose? I think you did this on purpose! Dave may as well have been raised by the brobot thing, and just like Jake – who dreaded encountering it and once he had to fight it didn’t precisely have loads of fun – Dave now doesn’t want to fight. He wants to avoid this fighting thing, and hates that he has to be the one to grab the sword and slay the villain.

You seriously screwed up here, Bro.

Dave even brings up that maybe things would have been better if Lil’ Cal hadn’t been around. Maybe! The influence of Lord English can’t be an ingredient in a healthy household – even more since part of Lord English is once another version of Dirk. Hah! Life sucks for the Striders. It’s...it’s rather depressing, actually. I wonder if at the time they had to cram Caliborn into the puppet Dave realized what Lil’ Cal was. Even if he did, I doubt he’d have any kind of reaction when anyone was nearby, but at that moment I imagine many things clicked in Dave’s head.

Would Bro have been any different if that puppet of the damned hadn’t been around? Uh...I dunno. Maybe it really was a poisonous influence of some sort, influence Dirk was lucky not to have. It’s all up to interpretation, I’d say.

I think now that the epiphany is complete I can stop the update and continue next time. This, though, this is exactly what I was hoping the Striders would do, that at least one of them would unload this heavy emotional baggage, and it’s for the better! I’m glad it’s actually happening.

Next update: three updates

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